#have u ever been 15 .

[ryoceann]

people who are like "heartstopper is so cringe" my brother in christ that is literally the point

#have u ever been 15 . #teenagers are not like how they're shown in shows that oversexualise everything lile a 17 year old isnt perfect in everything and so mature #neither are they hooking up at every turn like heartstopper is how teenagers are !! theyre awk and confused and like !! its so wholesome #heartstopper show of all time ok #heartstopper #1k #<33

[wulfhalls]

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#over a month now since my baby boy left me. #genuinely feel sick with how much i miss him all the time everywhere #it feels like its been 15 years and also only half an hour since then #finally got the locket to put some of his fur in so he'll always be with me. which. #made me feel better for approximately 4.2 minutes and then we were back to bottomless endless grief #I miss him and miss him and miss him and miss him and miss him all day every day every second of every minute #his absence is so loud #and i feel so fucking guilty so incredibly fucking at fault its killing me because i should have noticed soon i should have paid more #fucking attention #hes gone and its my fault. my fault my sweet darling angel who only ever loved me is gone #my baby boy deserved so much better #and all i can do is cry about it it doesnt change anything it doesnt make anything better it doesnt bring him back #anyway. i wish I was dead haha #u know the apiel ignore me i just needed to type this out ect and so on #bb baby #txt.me

[vixenicks]

sorry for reblogging fugly trends from 2012 it's for my enrichment

#have i ever told u guys about my early 2010s fashion and pop culture fixation #i got a gen you ine aeropostle skirt recently ive never been happier #also gonna try and get my hands on some freshtops tanks #eventually #also their shorts though ive only found one secondhand listing in my size #i need the naked1 pallet or i'll die #its funny to me because like #yes within fashionblogging and lifestyle teen youtube girls from that era #consummerism was a massive thing (it still is but its so obvious when you look at blog archives and videos from that era) #youtubers with non disclosed sponsorships #bethany mota and amanda steele vaguely saying “this brand sent me this product to give to you guys!” #it was really just watching the birth of what we know as influencers today and its really interesting to me #theres a lack of cuts theres a lack of scripting theres long tangents #people were only just then realizing you can make money via haul videos and makeup tutorials #bethany mota had a fashion line at aeropostle purely because of her status as a youtuber #there was a big rise at the time of people being against flaunting overpriced designer during that time because of the recession #but there was still a hugggeee hold with consumerism and classism #hauls with brandy and f21 and ae like i cant afford that im sure you cant afford $600 at american eagle on a weekly basis #i have lots of thoughts idk #anyways backtracked #i think its funny because here i am talking about how horribly i need b&bw and vs pink #but like its all secondhand shit for $15 online now #nobody wants this stuff!!!!!! cycles!!! capitalism!!!! i dont know you get what i mean!!!!!!!!!!! #skyler posting

[girlsonic]

thinking about sth ages and trying to put together a reasonable timeline where they actually maybe like . Age is really funny because what the fuck

alternatively liek . LORD

#not even considering the idea that he absolutely definitely had his birthday in generations but remains 15 like . okay #if they just wanted me to settle on the idea that they are the same age forever they shouldn't have SHOWN HIS BIRTHDAY #also definitely added stuff up wrong in the first chart I am overheating #this is a canon timeline i got from this random site ages ago if u see titles missing and all that's why . was too lazy to make my own #anyways this is all just for good fun I've been kicking this around from day one #i treat sonic as 15 in every piece of media anyways . except for the classic style games . i always see him as 11-14 before adventure era #and then 15-16 forever after . the most fucked up year or two ever with no breaks i guess !!!!

[gideonisms]

I think I tend to read htn as muir playing with tropes commonly used in tragedies to examine what we think is a tragedy/what tragedy even looks like when death isn't the end. That's the most shakespearian thing about her writing imo. I know I am constantly on about how htn is basically a shakespeare play but it IS and that's because she is doing a similar thing with her stories within the story. She is throwing out potential endings left and right and then subverting all of them. That's why I don't think everyone's encouragement to harrow to give up on keeping gideon safe really can be taken at face value. It's like. To use one example (but you literally could insert 5 different plays here) it's like when Isabella thinks her brother is dead. It's forcing the audience to think about the consequences for that but the terrible part is more that there was someone in power who could easily order a death or stop it on a whim. The point is not that harrow needs to learn to let gideon go for moral or self-actualization reasons imo. The point is that the death is a site of potential for harrow to either be manipulated into upholding john's goals or for her to reject the whole premise behind them by deciding gideon's life is more important

#when i finally write my harrow measure for measure henry viii manifesto. then you will see!! #i think where i disagree with many htn readings is that #i don't think it's a story about learning to let go of people/let things die #or at least 'stopping' as cytherea put it is not equivalent to accepting other people's deaths that's not the same thing #letting go of power over someone is not the same thing as letting them die. that's a very simplistic way to put it and it's not exactly the #main point i am getting at here. but it approaches that point #the aus are doing something too. it's like. story within a story within a story #is this how it happens? but for gideon's death #the people in harrow's life are trying to get her to accept her loss but i don't think that's what the narrative itself is doing #because the narrative is very interested in examining the conditions surrounding gideon's death #and whether it would have been possible to do things differently #with cristabel alfred & loveday it's like. this is how the story usually goes #but i don't think that's the only way it ever goes bc she is poking around at different ways to subvert that tragedy #tlt isn't a tragedy at least not a classic one. that's just not the structure #that is the structure of its 15 fakeout endings but they're there for flavor. once again thank u shakespeare

[squiddlysq]

Sun & Moon Throughout the Pizzaplex

I recently got ahold of Security Breach & played through it for the first time last night & was kind of obsessed with alot of the environmental details I was finding, specifically in relation to Sun & Moon.

I feel like in fic it’s always implied that the daycare is super closed off & there’s like no mention of the attendants anywhere else in the plex & that their merch is confined exclusively to their gift shop cause they’re sort of cringe or unpopular with older kids. HOWEVER their stupid little faces were basically everywhere I looked & I wanted to show both that and a couple of really cute unique props I found. I know there’s like basically no crossover between the sun & moon fandom and People Who Have Any Intention of Playing Security Breach so I wanted to just compile a bunch of the stuff they have around the Pizzaplex here for easy access by anyone who (understandably) doesn’t want to play the game. I’m putting under a readmore so I don’t clog the tag with a giant ass photo post but I think these things are cute as hell & some of them I’d literally never seen, in the tumblr fanbase OR in any of the playthrough’s I’ve watched through so take a peep if you wanna see Sun & Moon appreciation throughout the Pizzaplex.

First I just wanted to show that they’ve got multiple stands to themselves for merch in the main lobby gift shops ! Like as SOON as you enter the game proper you’re basically immediately hit with these guys;

And these cute little Sun shirts that are scattered throughout the plex giftshops;

These I think people are more likely to have seen but I still think the bathroom decals are so cute & I personally had only ever seen the Sun one in game footage so ! Here’s both;

Onto the more exciting stuff look at this ARCADE MACHINE !!! It’s looks like a regular clawgrab machine except it doesn’t have any prizes loaded into it, the design is so cute though;

Again I’m sure most people have seen this but I love Sun’s shit ‘BANNED >:(’ poster so much & it is ALL OVER kid’s cove;

This one is my absolute favourite I’ll be real, snooping around the backrooms of Roxy Raceway I found Sun & Moon themed go-karts and absolutely lost my mind;

At first I just found two tucked in a dirty corner and I was like ‘Welp guess homophobia strikes again’ BUT there were several of them scattered around with the other karts & several (^^^ in the pic) laid out ready to go on the track.

& just a couple other miscellaneous things, like this cute little logo I found in the backroom of the theatre that I don’t think I saw literally anywhere else;

& this tiny shit 3 pixel art of the boys on their section of the pizzaplex map lmao. I think they’re literally just in their poses from the daycare statue but it’s still a cute doodle;

There’s also these Moon faces up on the Faztheatre sign which I’d never seen before ! (Ignore me visibly wandering around taking screenshots of the environment when I’m supposed to be running for my life)

& lastly I just wanted to show these like, dedicated merch counters they seem to have in the prize counter room cause they’re cute as hell & Moon even has a collectible figurine on sale which. Canon confirmation of an adult nerd fanbase for the daycare animatronics in universe I guess;

It’s repeat textures so I won’t bother with pics but they’ve got posters and plushies and pictures literally ALL over the Pizzaplex it really sweet. Like they are not neglected in the plex marketing literally at all. I even found a Moon screen inside one of the arcade karaoke rooms for some reason. Bonus this note you can find made me heehee. Moon scaring the shit out of children like it’s his job;

#fnaf security breach #fnaf sb #fnaf sun #fnaf moon #fnaf daycare attendant #fnaf superstar daycare #fnaf #well I don't think theres much else I can tag this as #sorry if you followed for art I should be posting stuff soon but it may unfortunately be fnaf art so prepare yourselves #I got the game for christmas & i sat down to play last night w my fiance on call #and I was . like i did NOT feel like id been playing long #but hal just sent me a screencap of my discord activity like 'u good ?' bcos id been playing for 10 straight hours #it was 15 hours by the time i got off for the night #ushering in the new year CORRECTLY. by running screaming from endos #anyway sorry if this stuff is actually common knowledge or something but several of these things id never ever seen and i have watched peopl #COMB this game. cause i watch speedrunners & glitchhunters #but i guess theyre not looking at textures and props & design. whereas thats ALL im looking at #i loved finding the karts <333 #my fiance also laughing at me whenever i found a sun/moon collectible bcos i in game jumped for fuckin joy every time #squiddles #fic just made it seem like theyre the shame of the whole plex but they're EVERYWHERE it's so sweet

[stabbingandorbeingstabbed]

i need to run away from home i need to move to a city and meet people who get it and i need to get my tits cut off for realsies this time like i've had enough actually. for the love of god

#my parents are being kind enough to pay for sessions with a life coach bc im very stuck and not at all sure what to do #and the bad news is that it's a woman from my old church #but the good news is that i've always liked her and she's the most normal person there re: non-christians #like we have a relationship that goes back 15 years and i've never once felt judged by her like i love her #and had NO IDEA she did the whole life coach thing #so im hoping that once we start this it'll be the active hand holding i need to like. pull me out of the rut i've been stuck in for like #almost a decade now #gonna have to wait on even thinking abt top surg tho bc i cannot see my family being super supportive of THAT and like #idk how to go about looking into how to do that like my insurance covered my breast reduction #bc i was still on my moms really good insurance and it was deemed medically necessary for my quality of life or whatever #and im SO GLAD i did it but u know what would be even better ?? never feeling the need to put on a bra ever again in my life #anyways. right now at this moment nothing has like materially changed but i think i can feel Something shifting #but that might just be me having a little bit of hope for the first time in a while lmaoo. bleak !!

[zo1nkss]

I wamt so badly to learn how to make gifs but I've tried googling my entire fucking life away looking for information on HOW THE FUCK YOU DO THAT and I have come out with 0 answers :)

#I've been trying to learn this skill since I was fucking 15 #it's been TWELVE YEARS #you would think in that amount of time I would have found a single tutorial on how it all works #just ONE FUCKING EXPLANATION VIDO #are ppl sharing this info privately??? #I can't find any ppl who actually talk about what they do or what programs they use or hell maybe even lile tricks they might utilize #I only ever see “this is hard so don't steal gifsc #and like yes I agree #BUT HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO LEARN TO MAKE MY OWN WHEN I HAVE SPENT 12 YEARS SEARCHING AND THWRE IS N O T H I N G #I wamna rip my hair out #u ever desperately crave the understanding of a skill and spend your entire youth searchjng for amswers and come up empty handed every time #yet somehow everyone around you online has figured it out and is finding tutorials from their favorite gifmakers and like #u just apparently have been cosmically gatekept from participating?? #I hate it here

[dashiellqvverty]

i keep thinking about how like if i were 10ish years younger and figuring out my gender shit in this current climate i genuinely might not have allowed myself to come to the same conclusions i did as a teenager. like so much of my transness is about choosing to be this way because it feels right and makes me happy, and i had a community both online and to some degree in person that affirmed that, and its not that that community isnt still around but i just dont know if it wouldve felt worth it. like i want to be an obviously and visibly queer gnc transfag i LOVE that about myself but its a journey i started when i was 15 and if i had to start that journey NOW i think it would be a lot fucking scarier. and of course thats the whole point, to scare people away from every coming out or even fully considering the possibility of being trans

#like i didnt Figure Out I Was A Man at 15 i have been on a journey of figuring out gender shit for years #but its always been based around imagining the version of myself that feels Good and Right #like i dont think i ever would have considered transness for myself had i not been introduced to it in the way i was #(safe and affirming and cool thing on tumblr) #like thats not the way my dysphoria is idk. i just like being a guy and i DO feel a deep wrongness that i didnt grow up as a boy #but idk i couldve never clocked that if i'd never thought 'do i want to be a boy' #and fuck man to ask myself that question for the first time NOW??? #to consider the options of telling or hiding from my conservative parents NOW?? #i told them a couple years ago now but i never kept it a Full Secret lmao like they Knew it was coming #and obv i knew i would be safe etc but like if it wasnt for me being out already (as multiple things) #what would they be on board with now?? #they've never been qanon marjorie taylor green type conservatives they are more libertarian types #they suck very much to be clear its just like #i dont KNOW and i things are unfathomably scarier than they were 7 years ago #every time i hear something new i feel so sick and then i just sit here bc i dont know what to do #and the idea of not even getting the chance to know im trans bc the climate is so hostile and terrifying is HEARTBREAKING #oh 2015 oh advocating visibility and representation well this is what fucking happens when ppl know trans ppl exist huh #(obviously these things are still good but u know what i mean. like ppl were talking about hypervisibility AT THAT TIME) #r.xt

[lesbianlenas]

love how ive been trying to find my inner peace via painting and all i have gotten is um. worse. lmfao……

#michelle speaks #have been plagued by dreams of my ex best friend once again for absolutely no reason #past 2 nights i have literally only dreamed abt her. multiple dreams both nights. #on top of that i am just like. so tired of the way that no one cares abt me as an individual yk….. #like genuinely i don’t think anyone sees me as a person fr 😭 maybe it’s smth abt my personality #or maybe ppl are just like. idk self focused. but no joke fr no one ever asks me how i am #but like it’s not even just that but like even if they did they don’t want me to really answer ykwim #i am the person that literally all my friends go to to complain abt stuff but i don’t talk to any of them abt like anything #bc in one way or another they’ve made it clear they don’t care and i’m soooo tired of saying things to ppl who don’t care #well not all of them but it’s to the point where ive tried to talk w enough ppl that u get discouraged from doing it at all eventually #if i was 15 i would be drafting my s*icide note every night over this lmfaooooo #i’m 23 tho so i just whine on tumblr & go to bed. coping mechanisms have def improved 🤩 #however if i have more dreams abt her tonight. reverting & kmsing myself just to send her a letter & be petty…….. #anyway i’m just sick of caring abt ppl more than they care abt me. my eternal struggle 🤪

[jo1ynesgf]

FINAL PAPER OF THE SEMESTER HAS BEEN SUBMITTED‼️‼️🫡🫡🥹🙀😽

#GOOD RIDDANCE REFLECTION THAT SHOULDNT HAVE BEEN ASSIGNED!!!! #u will not be missed #i love that prof as a person #but idk if i’d ever take a class she taught again 😭😭 #bc this was an INTRO level class too onfg #guess how many papers i’ve had to write this semester <: #15<3 papers <3

[barnaclehead]

SO PROUD OF MY SMART OBSERVANT BOI

#listen #they made him figure out a mystery of a pokemon existing because of a grudge for being abandoned #that means so much to me u have no idea #esp as one of his last episodes #do u ever have a fave character thats just so dear to your heart #and has been for 15+ years #yea. fuck im gonna miss him so much

[perfectlullabies]

the way one of the only remaining things in my grandparents’ flat is the calendar on the wall which is on may 16th is so telling. i am too stuck on that day still. i haven’t touched my thesis since then, i haven’t driven a car since then, haven’t done so many things since then. i can’t believe it’s gonna be another may soon, rly. 1st anniversary? and then what? another ones? i wish ppl understood i’m so stuck. it’s sooo unbelievably hard to go on. i’m so tired, i’ve changed so much. why can’t nobody see this omfg it’s like i’m screaming for attention here and yet even ppl who know me irl and read these posts or if i tell them face to face, they just don’t care??? i don’t expect much, i don’t expect anything rly? just like. a question once in a while. or idk...they should know 

#it's like i'm getting to the point where U WAKE UP AND U DON'T FEEL LIKE PLAYING ANYMORE #to quote play it as it lays #and i DO HOPE i won't get there completely #i'm clowning my way thru everything #like i'm such a great actress #i pretend so much #i pretend all the time omg !! #being fake/pretending/two-faced is such an issue for me #i've got work to do today i'll be fine but. it's just v difficult #loved how at first like idk a day after people were like WE WILL HELP U WITH ANYTHING IF U NEED ANYTHING WE WILL BE THERE #biggest lie ever. people won't help #with anything. even with the tiniest shit. u have to beg on your knees and explain yourself #i've got so much bitterness in me bc i've been thru lots of abuse this year so before u accuse me of being selfish or something like that. #frankly think twice #bc what ppl know is like 15% of what happened. if even that

[caswlw]

ppl always talk abt how shit thanksgiving is bc of spending time w extended family and we’ve only had thanksgivings like that a few times for me so this thanksgiving/fall break where i get to spend time w my two favorite aunts ?? seeing my grandpa for the first time in like . maybe 5-6 years ???? getting to hang out for a few days w my cousin? idk seems pretty cool to me

#i also get a week off school THEN only like 10 more days of school before i’m home for winter break lmao #idk why they schedule it that way but wtv #i only have one real test final bc my math tests have all been over 100 and i do all my hw so i’m not taking the final 💪 it’s fantastic #we have this system of dropping ur worst test so if u fuck up one of the first 4 then you take the final and it can only help u #but seeing as i will not have that issue i’m just going to take my last ever math test on november 15 and then i’m done forever #isnt that insane college is wild #anyway!! november hype #notes from the prime minister

[lunarsapphism]

local girl got called hot by her partner yesterday and reporters say she's still thinking about it 24 hours later (she is)

#bro ive never been called hot before and i swear to god if i was standing when i read that text i would have fell to my knees bro holy SHIT #licherally killed me for a solid 15 minutes it was just ingrained into my brain #if it ever happens again i think ill just die on the spot or somethin idk #ok to rb #< idk but just in case #aiilov-personal #sam if u see this no u dont <3 mwah ily

[iloveyouitisruiningmylife]

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#i am so tired can someone take the reins of my life from me for some time #just a little while #so tired of using my brain just want to turn it off and sleep for 15 days #adulting is so everyday and tiring and constantly making sure u are fine u are functional u are productive and so so lonely #not even in the im so lonely i want someone to cuddle and kiss #but in the way that i have to sit alone with my books for 12+ hours and learn everything on my own and give my exams all alone just for a #chance of future that is economically stable and so so far away #do u ever feel like you're on the verge of crying but you're not upset enough to actually cry but then every little thing makes u tear up #but when u actually decide to sit and be like accha theek hai rona hai na toh ro le but your body won't listen #this js how ive been feeling for the past 3 months #it better be fucking worth it ugh #mes