#haven't accomplished anything

[mymarifae]

i'm the birthday millie today

i'm super old now.

#^_^ I THINK TODAY IS GOINF TO BE A NICE BIRTHDAY #i'm not like. doing anything special. but! i was thinking about it last night and i've come a long way... #all things considered i'm doinf a pretty good job at like. living life! #i've accomplished quite a bit! i've grown! i know lots more about myself! i'm figuring it out!!!! #i'm going to go to lunch with my mom and then later this evening i'm going tooooo get Not Sober and just have fun 💖 #thanks for sticking around with me for another year of my life !!!!!! #i know i haven't been posting here a ton lately. lots of reasons for that. but i think about you all my tumblr only friends lots... #i hope you've all been well! love you lots. if any mutuals want my priv twitter feel free to ask :3 #if you read all of these here's a present for you: 🐦 #doodles #felix

[akkawi]

I need to move ASAP I feel like I accomplished nothing living here I feel myself stagnating it's horrible I'm fucking 23 I feel like I'm dead already

#haven't accomplished anything haven't gotten better at art haven't learned a language etc

[wilimia]

I'd be down for un lu-ing the dnd boys cause I got lu blocked ad hate how it affects most links meet aus, so yeah. If you do that I'd reach non lu audience. Most loz fandom doesn't follow lu blogs

The more I think about it the more I lean towards it :P I'm thinking of just not tagging it as Lu anymore and kinda adding more of my own design ideas. Also just incorporate more of DnD. Like it'll basically just be literally Links in the world of DnD

#it would be fun to come up w backstories for them all that match their classes #because i imagine they all haven't accomplished anything really? like none of them have killed Ganon or anything like that #to sorta match the vibe of the beginning of a campaign #again i still really like Lu but i dont see a connection to it as necessary for the dnd links ¯⁠\⁠_⁠(⁠ツ⁠)⁠_⁠/⁠¯ #(also i feel like ive kind of outgrown the fandom but thats on me) #wili talks

[catcatb0y]

YES I need to buy a new car and YES I still need to replace my laptop and YES!! My job search has been failing me!! And YES!!! I still need to keep buying groceries!!!

But all I really want is Hatsune Miku figure qnd silly Halloween art of my skrunkly little characters,,, why must life hurt me like this,,,

#I wanna buy commissions!!!! I wanna buy commissions!!!!!! I want to buy art!!!!!! #Why can I not make money!!!! #It's Halloween I want to see my o/cs in silly little costumes!!! #but I cannot!!!! #I've been eyeing the Date Night Miku Nenderoid for months because I really want to pose her #but she's almost ninety dollars #I HAD a job lined up and a solution for my laptop but BOTH of them fell through because my car hunting failed #I was going to buy her when I got the job but then that plan fell through #and now I have that disappointment on top of others on top of the fact that it's halfway through my ''favorite'' month and I haven't done #anything other than putting on a pair of orange pajama pants with black cats on them that I probably got from WalMart years ago #both June and October have blinked away and I haven't accomplished anything in years #other than crashing my car and breaking my laptop

[icewindandboringhorror]

Some recent pressed leaves and stuff to add to the collection :0

#LOV giant nasturtium leaves #and they press weirdly thin like when they dry out it's almost like a super super fragile sheet of tracing paper or something #I also just really enjoy collecting textures and patterns and stuff. like it's not really about them looking pretty but more just #something notable. like the cool dotted pattern or the stripey veiny looking one #I have so much I want to get done by the end of the year but have been so unproductive still lol ToT #I've had new costumes and like Actual Stuff To Post for probably 2 months now but they just sit in a folder and I forget about #them and like walk in circles talking to myself all day instead or something hhh #I think it's the classic cycle of like 'I am too stressed to be productive > the fact that i'm not being productive stresses me out > i am #even more stressed and no more productive > being unproductive stresses me out > so on and so forth forever' lol #or the 'I have so many goals in life and so much motivation and so many things I love and want to do > there are too many things to do #at once and it's overwhelming > do none of them instead' cycle lol #I think my main focuses in the new year though are to finally finish the worldbuilding slideshow. Do more costumes. And do more sculptures #since I haven't done a lot of those in a while. And still work on my games and short stories and stuff that takes place in my worldbuilding #world but those are more difficult longterm tasks so I think they should be like. not the MAIN main focus or else I'll never feel like I do #anything. I think that was the problem for the past while is that the things I had delegated as my Main Focuses That Go Above All Else #are so long and difficult and tedious that you never feel like you're making progress so it's like you're ignoring all the other stuff you #could be doing in favor of a thing that feels like you're not doing anything thus you get a chronic feeling of never finishing anything ever #Whereas like. I can do a sculpture in a day or two. and I can do costumes in a day or less. Having a steadier flow of Small Things i can fee #l like I'm actually accomplishing will maybe help it not just be like 'okay I spent a whole day doing somehting and have nothing tangible to #show for it because it's just text in a word document that probably nothing will ever even come of because it will take me years to finish' #The biggest insurmountable task at the moment is the worldbuilding slideshow but I am chugging through.. slowly lol.. It takes me about #2 hours to read 25 slides (they're not bullet points it's like little paragraphs on each slide). and I have about 800 to go. so thats.. #naur.. i shant even calculate it... plus editing one hour of vidoe usually takes about 2 hours so you double it. if I have that much recordi #ng of me reading slides to edit. then turning them all into a final video should take.... i cannot say. i shall not think of it #And I've just had a very stressful few weeks HOWEVER I just always like tp start the new year with stuff cleared like.. all of my messages I #haven't answered in 3+ weeks responded to. all of my emails to my doctors checked. house cleaned and organized. photos cleared and organized #off of the computer. everyting backed up in some sort of physical storage. clear out drafts. rewrite all of my main todo lists. decide prio #rities and yearly/monthly/weekly goals. consider the trajectory of my life and what I need to do. etc. etc. So I feel like I don't have any #time to waste and can't rest. yet.. alas.. It doesn't help that I feel sick out of nowehre like 50% of the time #I know some poeple can work/focus on tasks with body aches and etc. but my brain is just always like 'No. :)' .. grrrbb

[beelzzzebub]

guys i'm starting to think i'm a little fucked up

#boink #so many things to go over in therapy so little appointment space #i've spent the majority of therapy i've been in talking about anxiety and doing ocd stuff #that i haven't even brought up the other random shit that i need to cover #like #the guilt journal #the lifelong crippling guilt that is randomly triggered so badly that i can't bring myself to do anything except for sleep to escape it #or the fact that i have to be the smartest / most talented / most accomplished in a room #or else i will literally-in-the-.literal.-definition-of-the-word feel completely worthless #there is no in between #pls i just would like some help ok #we all would i think #right #i think so

[spinaroos-47]

Praying that hunters new hair is just a choice of the artist for the poster and that's all (yes I'm in denial)

Tbh with the more Ive been looking the less im sure about it being a style choice.

The least i can hope is that it will look different on the show or that it wont last for the whole three specials

#btw never meant anything ill towards the artist who did the poster. amazing work done theee #there* #i just dont like the design choices there #and its not his fault since it was not his decision there #and tbh its not just hunter that i haven't been happy with the designs #i dont know what it is about these outfits but besides vee camila luz and amity's outfit i havent liked them much #willow and gus are okay. just eh. not bad but they dont scratch the good design itch toh usually accomplishes #amity's hair length just doesnt look right. its not a good amity hair length #toh #ask

[robbybirdy]

You can now access ALL of my Recipes and read the original posts

Apples to zucchini here

baking chapters here

now you can look at the past baking series, and find the recipes.

#this took so much time #but it feels so good #having all of my recipes in one place #And I have made all of these recipes #i showed my parents the 27 pages of recipes that i have made #and they are so encouraging #They looked at that and were like “Robyn Don't ever say that YOu haven't done anything since you graduated!” #“Look at how much you have changed in both your writing and your recipes.” #“Be proud of what you have accomplished.” #It wasn't just my mom or my dad that said these things #so I was just like 😭😭😭 #I couldn't ask for better parents #i was not expecting that

[mariedemedicis]

cannot believe it's already my birthday in a week...this year has flown by arghhh

#personal #objectively i'm not old but i feel like 'ahhhh i'm old and i haven't accomplished anything yet'

[quietblissxx]

#lmao i always feel like wishing for the day to pass fast is a monkey paw situation #is the day passing quickly? yes but it's bc the phone is ringing so much i haven't been able to do anything #and then i find myself wishing there was more time in the day so i could accomplish more and Ugh #me

[nyxbastet]

First day of preschool today, and son boy was so excited when he realized he was gonna ride the school bus again. And then they texted us some pictures of him from school where he was playing with toys and the other kids. He is so precious and perfect ;-;

#I'm so proud of him #and for how much I worry and feel guilty it still seems at least I haven't done anything horribly wrong #considering how confident and curious and outgoing he is #despite having some communication delays and whatnot #he does not let that get in his way #if I accomplish nothing else I want to at least make him always feel loved and safe

[running-in-the-dark]

how the hell am I already 31 😭 I just got used to 30.

#and more importantly... I still don't know shit and I still haven't accomplished anything #but at least I have cats now so none of that matters and I just won't think about it #personal

[actuallylorelaigilmore]

i feel like life right now is me trying to juggle approximately 127 different things, and none of them are life-or-death but they’re all equally important to me, so those 127 things are like simultaneous balls in the air that i am holding up while the adderall shortage makes it harder to remember what they are let alone keep from dropping them, and at this point even my to-do lists have lists which got so out of control that i stopped even keeping lists but also i’m so tired every day that i’m lucky if i get a single thing done and if i don’t set alarms then i depression-sleep for fourteen hours because oh yeah my adderall was also the only thing that helped my bipolar meds work all the way so i’m crying and thinking about everything that makes me sad 24/7 while i try to keep juggling

#...so if i owe you a reply that would be why #also i need to review the enola holmes sequel and write a huge disenchanted rant (watched that one last night) #but i don't know when i'll have the energy #today at least i did get some things done--returned stuff to a store and got my flu shot and covid booster #...i was actually out to return things and get my adderall but at least those vaccinations were also on my general to-do list #it's just a lot less stuff than i NEED to be doing #and so much of it comes down to the fact that i sleep a lot i wake up i feel so tired it's like i didn't sleep #and then i just spend the whole day waiting to go back to bed #and under those conditions it's really hard to accomplish anything else #but i genuinely can't tell how much of my exhaustion is depression-based #and how much is physical because i've felt under the weather and had weird symptoms in one way or another since the summer #and at this point it's like...my doctor brushed me off when i tried to get help in the summer so i waited like she advised #for things to improve on their own #and they haven't but i'm so tired physically and emotionally and psychologically that i can't say i have any more self-advocacy fight in me #like it's obviously bad that the alternative is me continuing to feel like i'm maybe slowly wasting away and just letting it happen #but depression makes it pretty hard to care #randomness #mental health #depression #bipolar disorder #adhd #life stuff #health #/tag abuse

[devondespresso]

GUYS IT WAS A REALLY GOOD DAY TODAY I WOKE UP NOT FEELING LIKE SHIT AND WE WENT TO MY FAVORITE FUCKING THAI PLACE AND I ATE VEGETABLES AND CHICKEN I AM ALIVE I AM SUSTAINED I AM FLOURISHING

#personal #not stranger things #for context i have an ✨ eating disorder✨ and its really hard for me to get myself to want food or to finish even small meals #so i haven't been able to eat super healthy or anything for like a year so far because 3 meals a day is an accomplishment rn #but today was great i ate chicken and red/green peppers and onion and whatever tf is in spring rolls and really enjoyed them #so yea so fucking happy about this

[sosoane1]

Felt better, decided to go to school, as soon as i got on the bus i thought this is a bad idea i should have stayed in bed, got to school, went through an hour of class, had an emotional breakdown, went back home, slep for an hour, ate soup, lied in bed with my eyes closed daydreaming for 5h because thats the only thing that makes the pain go away, forced myself to eat super with my family, its now 7 and im clocking out.

How was your day?

#yesterday i went to bed at 8 now at 7 #hopefully its better tomorrow #if not ill definitely go to the pharmacy because this is getting ridiculous #i hate skipping school so much #and haven't accomplished anything my migrain didn't even leave!! #i hate this ive never had it this bad #i want to trow up i want to rip my eye out #i understand why people thought lobotomy could be a good idea #how do people live like this #sorry for complaining #moon's midnight post

[simonghostrileys]

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#liliana talks #the thoughts to simply off myself are really strong tonight #nothing in my life comes out the way i'd like to #not even my dog's behaviour #i can't even take him on walks bc after five mins he gets overwhelmed and really anxious and nervous and it's driving me crazy #i can't get him to focus on my and he just pulls and pulls and wants to run off #i can't enjoy walks and i can't take him anywhere #today's walk got super frustrating and everyone kept asking me if they could pet him and told everyone no #i even snapped at this little girl bc i just reached my limit and had too much #i know it was wrong of me and i wish i could apologize to this little girl bc i just feel so bad rn #on top of that i'm gonna turn 28 soon and i haven't accomplished anything in my life #i'm a fucking failure. i can never accomplish shit and whenever i rarely get anything i dreamed of it comes out fucked up like my dog #i hate everything and i hate my life and myself and i have no luck at anything whatsoever #like what was the fucking point on bringing me to this world?? so i could have a miserable life?? to never accomplish anything?? #to lack on all aspects of myself and my life?? see everyone around me get things and never have difficulties on anything??? #not even on their dogs' behaviour?? see how they can take them everywhere and not get overwhelmed?? while mine is a fucking mess?? #i don't even have money to buy him a fucking toy!!! how fucking miserable is that??? #my sister had to give me money to buy him a harness bc i have shit for money #i've been trying for how long god knows to get a job in this place and plot twist... i haven't got any #i just want to die it would be way easier but i'm a fucking coward to even do that. i'm so fucking pathetic jfc #suicide mention tw