#having to deal with both was just SO MUCH with my brain being mush for going on six years now

[cottontoru]

Rough Ride

✧˖° summary﹕your boyfriend is quite the sore loser, and of course, you always have to deal with it.

content(s)﹕porn w no plot, praise and degradation, streetracer!toji, angry sex, creampie, semi-public sex (you fuck in his car), dacryphilia if you squint, spanking (one ass slap, clit smacks), squirting, cnc kinda (you beg him to stop but you want it), wc; 0.7k

pairing﹕toji fushiguro x fem!reader

a/n﹕my first time writing someone other than gojo... had this idea for months and finally wrote it, enjoy!!

Toji hated losing. He was supposed to be undefeated, an unbeatable champion when it came to street racing, so he could he have lost a race this big?

You could tell from halfway throughout the race that he'd lost his temper simply from how his driving style grew aggressive. Toji was known for being aggressive in matches but being beaten put him in a full blown rage. A rage that couldn't be contained, and what better a way to release his pent up anger than fucking his girlfriend rough in the backseat of his black and white 1993 Mazda RX-7?

Folded practically in half, you're whining and squirming from how rough he's being with you. He's pounding into you with unimaginable force, his tip nudging that gummy spot inside that makes your brain feel like mush.

"Hngh...! Tojii- it's too much..!" you're basically crying, tears rolling down your cheeks as he slams into you. Right about now you two would be out at some fancy restaurant, celebrating his victory, except that isn't what happened today.

Instead you're being spoiled in a completely different way, one that makes you feel weak in your limbs as you hold your thighs and push them into your chest.

Rather than reassuring words, he simply smacks your clit, grunting. "Shut up and fuckin' hold your legs." he smirks smugly, slapping at your face between your legs.

"Tellin' me it's too much but yer taking me so fuckin' good," he continues, rubbing comforting circles at your sensitive clit, contradicting his rough demeanor. "Dirty fuckin' slut..."

You can feel the car rock with every thrust he makes into you, the windows fogged from the combination of your hot breath with his. There's no doubt anyone who passes can tell exactly what's going on inside, especially with how loud your cries and moans are.

His thrusts pick up both in speed and in force, practically stabbing at your sweet spot.

"Hurttss.. T-Toji! Please!" you sob, hot tears welling up in your eyes when he continues his rough, nonhuman pace. With each thrust into your pussy, the edges of your vision blur from the overwhelming pressure of it all.

"G'na cum princess, shit..." he groans, pushing your legs into your chest, trying to get deeper into you.

You cry and whine his name, pleading for him to stop despite every part of you wanting more. He continues hammering into your sweet spot, grunting.

"Just be quiet, almost done pretty girl..." he says hoarsely, pace unwavering as he continues to pound you with endless stamina. Your body is sticking to his leather seats from your sweat, causing pain with each thrust that drags your skin across his seats. Though you're far too focused on him as he presses his tip right into use sweet spot, spilling his cum into your cunt.

He stills his pace, keeping himself buried in your hole as he finishes coming inside you. "That's a good fuckin' girl," he coos in your ear. All you can do at this point is pant, mouth hanging open from the pleasure and exhaustion filling your body as you drench his cock in your own fluids.

With all his anger completely spent, he pulls out of you slowly, his cock soaked in your mixed fluids.

"Such a good girl f'me hm?" he hums, slapping your ass. "Lettin' me take my anger out on her pretty cunt."

Both your fluids drip out your cunt, his hand cupping over it to stop the leaking.

"Gonna keep it all inside, right pretty?" he smiles wide at your nod when you turn your head back to face him.

"That's my girl."

Pulling your panties up effortlessly, he dresses you back up before setting you back in the front passenger. Luckily, his backseat wasn't as messy as your sex was, the only thing drenching the seats being both of your sweat and some of your own climax moving in with it.

He slides in the drivers seat, starting up his car. You know for a fact his manager and any people still lingering from after the race had heard your... ordeal.

"Fancy dinner for t'night, princess?" his scar curls with his lips into a smile as he pats your upper thigh.

All it takes is a nod from your and he's off, driving you to whichever fancy revenue you request. What a gentleman he is.

#ᐢ..ᐢ drabble #ᐢ..ᐢ nou writes #toji fushiguro #jjk #jjk smut #jujutsu kaisen #jujutsu kaisen smut #toji x reader #toji x you #jjk x reader #jjk drabbles #jujutsu kaisen x reader #toji smut #jjk toji

[lynnlovesthestars]

Could I request headcanons for Harleep, Astarion, Gale, Wyll, Halsin, Dammon, Rolan, and Zevlor with kind and patient gn s/o? This is quite self-indulgent of me because I have been told I'm too nice & so patient so I'm curious how they would react XD

first of all sorry for being so late, but my small brain has to process things multiple times to make sense, so i wrote this like... 5 times? So it takes me a while, but i hope that waiting was worth it.

Also i saw you sent a second ask to see if i recieved this one, so ill put dammon and rolan there cause this is starting to get a bit long:3<3 thank you so much for your patience!:3

Taglist: @sessils @spacebarbarianweird

Headcanon: BG3 men with kind and patient s/o. (pt. 1)

Zevlor:

Zevlor is emotionally a wreck already, he considers kindness a virtue and it definitely makes him swoon when he notices you put extra care in making sure he's treated with kindness. At the end of the day, he basically got bullied on all fronts when all he really wants is to prove himself worthy of the title he carried for so long.

Zevlor has a short temper too, and he appreciates so much your effort and patience in dealing with his outbursts, whether they are of rage- not towards you of course- or of sadness, you offer always a shoulder for him and he cherishes it so much.

He is lowkey jealous when he notices that your kindness is not mostly exclusive to him, he has learned that people can abuse one's patience and care, and 1. he doesn't want you to get hurt, 2. he wishes your kindness was maybe reserved to him. Call him selfish, but after being deprived of it for so long, he is hesitant to let go of it.

Astarion:

Initially he would be very wary, in his experience being nice always lead to him getting hurt, so why would he trust someone who's default reply is kindness? At the end of the day the last time someone was '''''kind''''' to him, he was turned in a vampire spawn, so he takes it extra slow, he has just regained control over himself, he won't blindly accept kindness. He's lowkey afraid you are just part of a bigger scheme that will bite him in the ass and leave him shackled and caged again.

Once he gets accustomed to your kindness and finally accepts it, he revels in the kindness you offer and your patience, especially the smallest gestures like opening a door for him. He will literally melt for it, he's already smitten, your kindness leaves him like mush in your hands.

Nevetheless every good side, comes with a negative one. He is dead afraid your kindness will bring you to get hurt. He often reminds you to be weary and keep all your kindness for people you trust (HIM), rather than going around and helping every lost soul that asks for help. He will fight you on this a few times- especially if you do get hurt or it is obvious you are about to- he will not bite his tongue and keep it for himself, and that's one of the moments when he's glad you are patient.

You understand where it comes from and you try your best to find a solution that would make both happy. Your patience of course doesn't stop there, he knows he's an handful: he carries an heavy trauma baggage and he has a feisty personality, yet you always show him you don't mind, that you are there for him and that he can take all the time of the universe to sort his problems out.

Wyll:

Wyll would find it so endearing, how you are ready to go to someone's aid, you stop on your tracks to support someone in need, and he would love seeing you being kind to everyone. It's probably one of the reasons why he falls in love with you. Unlike Astarion he encourages you to be kind to everyone, cause he considers it a virtue, he incourages you to be the best version of yourself, and he reminds you that if you do get hurt, he will be there to pick up the pieces.

As far as patience goes, he's grateful to the moon and back, he knows he is an handful, especially if he doesn't break his pact with Mizora and has to leave more times than ever. He makes sure once he's back though that he makes up for lost time, whether it is with gifts or by taking care of you.

Haarlep:

Harleep is so used to Raphael that honestly he's taken aback at first, living in the hells means that kindness is hard to come by and around Raphael? It's either a trick or a miracle, so he brushes it off, not repelled like Astarion would, but definitely not eager like Wyll either.. he would be probably the one that takes it as it is, just.. that. But when he gets used to it? He becomes unsufferable. So unsufferable that he goes around demanding Raphael to be treated with kindness and patience! He purrs whenever you are nice even the smallest, thanking you and praising you like a goddess. He even tries to be nice himself- to you only- and despite it has to be and effort, since he has never been exposed to much kindness, he does become a little more mindful, even asking before taking your form or just with small acts of services.

One time Rapahel makes sure to send a message to you through him. "Tav, Raphael asked you stop being nice to me, cause if i demand it from him as well, he's going to turn me into fertilizer", message delivered with a pout that begs exactly the opposite.

Harleep is another that is deeply afraid of your kindness. Let's be real, you can defend yourself as much as you want, but people tend to use people and your kindness is one of those characteristics evil people would pry on- he knows well since its literally part of what he does, and a facet of what Raphael does as well. He probably scolds you a lot for this reason, he does it in a sweet way- don't get me wrong- he sugarcoats the shit out of it, but he will let you know when you are about to get in peril or you are too careless with your kindness.

Gale:

Gale is touched by your kindness, already from the first days after meeting him.

You had helped him out of his blotched portal, you fed him artifacts, you didn't question his secrets or push him to reveal anything, and he doesn't give that for granted. Once he's closer to you, and he learns that you are unconditionally kind to everyone, he's scared.

He starts warning you to be a little less nice, to use your judgement before you blindly trust a stranger, but he doesn't push it past a warning. As much as he wants to protect you, he doesn't want to take away your chance to grow from your errors.

In matter of your patience he's so grateful, he spends days thanking you when he's still afflicted with the orb condition, he cooks as a form of apology or thanks depending what he did, he gets baths started for you, he's treating you as a queen/ king. He alread would do it, but with you? He's even more protective, he almost feels like he has to match your kindness and patience with as much attentions he can muster.

Halsin:

Halsin is a fair man you think he wishes everyone was kind, but he actually wants you to be fair, he wants you to be mindful of who you give kindness to, he wants you to be a reasonable judge rather than unconditionally nice cause it is the way of the nature as well. Nature is not only nurturing and lush, it's also the poisonous vipers and herbs.

Does he appreciate when you are kind? Absolutely, he thinks it's the best gift Silvanus has ever bestowed him, but it doesn't take away the fact that he wants you to be treated kindly as well, so the moment someone crosses the line and starts abusing your kindness or becomes rude, he's definitely stepping in to s h a m e the other person. "You are lucky you have met Tav, cause they are kind, but nature wouldn't be so understanding and patient" He says it with a rage you rarely see in his eyes.

He will do his best to remind you to surely practice kindness but also to be mindful who you help and who you are kind to, cause there's always rotten that can harm you, and lowkey if you get hurt he will invite you to take back what you gave.

Despite this Halsin considers kindness the bare minimum a person should be, and what stops him from encouraging you to be kinder, its just the knowledge that you might get hurt.

#baldurs gate 3 #bg3 #astarion x reader #astarion x tav #bg3 x reader #astarion #bg3 astarion #astarion ancunin #astarion bg3 #vault: lynn ☆ #ask: lynn ☆ #asklynn☆: request #halsin x reader #halsin bg3 #halsin x tav #tav x halsin #bg3 zevlor #zevlor x reader #zevlor x tav #bg3 haarlep #haarlep #haarlep x tav #haarlep x reader #gale x gn!reader #gale x reader #gale x tav #gale x oc #gale x durge #wyll x reader #wyll x tav

[4law]

𝐊𝐈𝐍𝐊𝐓𝐎𝐁𝐄𝐑 𝐃𝐀𝐘 𝟏. hybrid + dubcon

𝐍𝐄𝐏𝐓𝐔𝐍𝐄. u didn’t anticipate dabi getting a hold of your hero ID during your undercover mission to infiltrate the LoV.

tw dubcon, tw exhibitionism, tw dacryphilia, tw impact play (mention), tw fear play, phone call, f! bunny hybrid reader, rough sex + arcade sex, overstimulation, corruption + innocence, mild / subtle threat, 1300 wc

“i wonder what shigaraki would think if he saw our innocent rookie like this,” dabi grunts, eyes fixated on the the little tail bouncing up and down with each thrust. “bent over a claw machine crying over a dick that’s way too big for you..”

you choke out a sob, walls spasming hard around his cock. it’s big, length reaching so deep inside you that you’re forced to go further up on your toes to seek relief, cheek pressed uncomfortably against the glass.

“you p-promised!” you cry, hands reaching behind you to spread your ass further apart, a cute but futile attempt to ease the tight stretch. “you promised you wouldn’t tell if i let you do…this!”

“ahh, of course,” he coos condescendingly, aqua eyes darkening in amusement as he gently waves your hero ID in front of you, code name neptune clear across the top. “how could i forget?”

he slams into your cervix as soon as your mouth opens, knocking the wind out of your lungs before he picks up the pace, thickness pounding even harder into your dripping cunt. you’re pushed further up from the intensity, gasping when you’re brought completely off your toes, cute little ears swinging back and forth as you cry out. “y-you’re being too rough!”

if he hears you, he doesn’t care. “but bunny, you forgot something— something important.”

you’re too cock-drunk to realize the irony of the situation you’ve gotten yourself into. how did you trust a villain so easily in the first place anyway? expect him to keep quiet as promised, let you leave base with the buckets of information you’ve stolen as long as you agree to spread those pretty legs for him tonight. it’s ridiculous— but you couldn’t have known any better. after all, you’re a hero. a new one, at that. you’re way too innocent for your own good, and that’s just why he’s so hellbent on watching you break.

blue eyes take in the sight before him, content with the way your shaky hands dig into the flesh of your ass, desperately spreading them apart to make room for the cock splitting you in half. his gaze trails up to the little ball of fur decorating the top of your ass, mind imagining how much better it would look covered in cum— or better yet, watch the way it trembles wildly after he’s slapped your ass enough times to make you cry. paired with the teary eyes you seem so insistent on showing him…it really doesn’t get much better than that.

“villains don’t usually help heroes, doll.”

“h-huh?”

dabi roughly takes both your ears in one hand, yanking you back until your back bumps against his chest as you let out a squeal. “you heard me,” pulling your ears up to watch you wince, “i changed my mind.”

“d-dabi!” you cry— this wasn’t part of the deal. the angle lets him reach impossibly deeper than before, cock slamming into spots that turn your brain to mush, the plushies seated in front of you suddenly decorated with dizzying stars. “you can’t take back a …. !”

he reaches down, fingers roughly rubbing at your clit, grinning at the way your thighs trembly wildly under his touch. “ … a promise …!”

with one swift movement, your ears are tugged straight down, forcing your head onto his shoulder to look up at him. “shit, doll,” he muses— cock throbbing at the lewd face you’re making. from the way your eyes are brimming with fresh tears, tongue lolled out from how good the cock dragging along your walls feels, dabi might just have to thank his boss later for letting him take you a mission alone.

“y-you said…”

“shut up,” he retorts with a click of his tongue, grunting loudly when your cunt suddenly squelches around his length. “you don’t mind— don’t pretend to be righteous.”

he thinks that endearing innocence of yours is finally being replaced by something better, something only a villain like him could give you. dabi watches the way your eyes roll back, hips unconsciously moving back to match his thrusts as your high approaches quickly.

“that’s right … you should just relax and listen to that body of yours …” he releases your ears, three fingers shoving themselves deep inside your mouth to muffle you. “so do it. cum.”

your eyes widen, coil inside your stomach snapping hard as you scream into his fingers, walls fluttering wildly against his cock, gushing over the machine beneath you. you miss the ecstatic grin he gives you— one so wide that it tugs roughly at his staples. he hasn’t even filled you up yet, and you’re already squirting on him.

“n-no more…” you slur, leaning into his embrace. the cock buried inside you stills for a moment before you’re suddenly flipped over, back slamming painfully against the game as one of your calves is lifted onto his shoulder. “d-dabi!”

“i thought we were clear earlier, stupid bunny..” he mumbles, slamming into you once. your jaw drops, hips jolting at the overstimulation. he leans down— way too close to your face as you fall back, elbows propping you up on the claw machine as you tremble underneath him.

“villains don’t listen to rules either.”

he takes the leg rested on his shoulder into his hand, pulling you close to him until his dick prods at your cervix. “you didn’t let me fill you up yet,” his voice is a low whisper as he lowers himself further, charred face just an inch away from yours. “you really have no idea, do you doll?”

“how pent up i am.”

“t-that’s not .. my fault!”

he dips down lower, until the scarred flesh ghosts over the side of your lips, a silent chuckle escaping his lips when you freeze in fear. “it is. heroes have to help people— don’t they? do your best for me..”

your cheeks are harshly squeezed together by his fingers, cute lips puffing out as he grins. “i could go for hours. how about it, bunny?”

the grip on your cheeks tightens, your own hands coming up to pull the scarred hand off of you. “it’s fine. after all, what can you even do?”

“you can’t do anything against me,” dabi watches the way your eyes widen when you feel heat under his fingertips— “let alone shigaraki.”

“i wonder what would happen to that cute body of yours if he found out..”

he has to hold in his laughter when your lips tremble in fear, desperately begging him not to tell shigaraki. for someone so insistent on not telling boss, he thinks, you sure are trusting. it’s just adorable to him that you never even asked for proof. what about his phone, for example? if you weren’t so cock hungry, maybe— just maybe there would be a chance that you would have noticed the ongoing call with boss, now at 23 minutes and 18 seconds.

but nothing’s stopping dabi from playing hero with you for a little longer. you need him to do you a favor, don’t you? he can’t hide the chuckle that slips from his lips when you shyly thank him for keeping your secret, fingers eagerly spreading those swollen folds further apart for him with a “then you can keep going..”

an infamous pro hero, spreading their cunt out for a villain like him? it almost seems unreal, but who is he to turn down such a sweet request?

shigaraki will just have to wait a little longer for his turn, because dabi has just decided that he wants to savor these next few moments with his precious little rookie.

#dabi x reader #tw dubcon #mha x reader

[silversiren1101]

OC Tag Post

Tagged by @camelliagwerm - thank you so much! I'll be doing Mino for this because my brain is mush lately.

Tagging @turbulentpumpkin43 @dmagedgoods @transprincecaspian @baneschosen @spyridonya @amatres and however else!

NAME: Minovae Arranger

NICKNAME: Mino, Minnow, Little Linnorn, Hell Raptor, Hell's Raptor

GENDER: Cis Woman (She/Her) but also shapeshifter.

STAR SIGN: The Pack (Cosmic Caravan)

HEIGHT: 4'10 to 5'2 (Gradually shifts between both)

ORIENTATION: Pansexual demiromantic

NATIONALITY/ETHNICITY: Taldan (Chelaxian)

FAVOURITE FRUIT: Oranges, and citruses in general. I see Westcrown as very Venetian and Cheliax has some Italian influence in general, so I see Mino as being a big fan of oranges and lemons and very bright citrus flavors!

FAVOURITE SEASON: Summer. She doesn't deal well with the cold.

FAVOURITE FLOWER: Wildflowers and great natural meadows brimming with flowers. Something about the natural wildness of it all yet peaceful harmony brings her reassuring comfort and joy.

FAVOURITE SCENT: Coffee - reminds her of living in the barracks as just yet another soldier. Sea air - reminds her of the harbors of Westcrown and home.

COFFEE, TEA, OR HOT CHOCOLATE: Coffee! Usually taken black but she will put some cream and sugar as a little treat sometimes.

AVERAGE HOURS OF SLEEP: 6-8. She wakes up very early.

DOGS OR CATS: Cats. She loves them both equally but she does not have the time to take care of a dog.

DREAM TRIP: Korvosa for Crab Fest, ideally if it happens to land on her birthday.

NUMBER OF BLANKETS: If it's cold/winter, as many as she can get. Otherwise, just the one. She's used to living a sparse life with little comfort as a Hellknight.

RANDOM FACT: She originally stole her last name, taking it from an elderly woman that'd been kind to her as an orphan and let her help out around her store. Miss Arangier, pronounced "A-ran-ji-eh', in fantasy French, as she'd hailed from what would be the region of Galt (hadn't seceded yet). When asked to write a surname on her Hellknight records, she panicked and wrote down "Arangier" instead, knowing the woman wouldn't have been mad... unfortunately misspelling it. Her assigned instructor read it aloud as "A-ran-GIR' and she just didn't correct him, figuring it was a new name and a new life.

#oc: minovae arangeir #ask game #ask meme

[oodlyenough]

alright i finished aai1-4 (aka turnabout reminiscence... i think... all the turnabout ep titles blur into mush in my brain. case number supremacy). the existence of a case featuring baby franziska and bratworth was like a solid 60% of the reason i played this game to begin with, and it was indeed my fave case so far by a mile. the miles + franziska interactions and callisto yew were worth the price of admission.

i loved having franziska around as the weirdgirl and, like i said in a previous post, i thought being thirteen made her writing here a lot more believable and funny than in the earlier case where you're theoretically dealing with a post-trilogy adult. i thought the (relatively one-sided) hypercompetitive relationship between her and edgeworth was hilarious and this little kid running around being a total menace was like. yeah. that checks out. lmao.

yeah man why did you think she was here?

also, as a fic writer eternally fixated on what characters call each other, especially in a franchise where everyone has a custom nickname lol, i thought it was interesting that while both adult and baby franziska use 'miles' and 'miles edgeworth', baby franziska defaults to 'miles' most of the time while adult franziska uses his full name most of the time. i could get a whole fic out of that, your brain is fascinating franziska ilu

callisto rules. i knew from vague fandom context she would be the villain but I did not know she would extend beyond this one case, so i'm excited. aside from being funny as fuck i am genuinely interested in her motives as well, she is clearly aware of corruption on the prosecution side but it remains to be seen how much she actually ... cares about that... vs how much is personal vendetta (for her sister?) vs whatever agenda of her own. presumably she was lying about being the yatagarasu? anyway. interested to see that develop

queen shit, drag him

edgeworth's writing... i don't know. i can understand the rationale of not wanting to make the player sit through a case of him being a corrupt douchebag. but the result was that I found only nominal difference between how they wrote this 20 y/o jackass and how they write adult edgeworth in the other cases. which i think rather undermines his trilogy arc. I don't know that I really believe Bratworth turning things upside down to clear Gumshoe's name, instead of pushing for the easy conviction and moving on. am I supposed to believe that this happened and then he just... stopped doing that for the rest of his career up until aa1. like this is great and all but he's about to run a clusterfuck of a trial against terry fawles where he definitely did not Find The Truth lmao

cheer up man the next one is way worse

lastly on a more positive note i'm continually surprised and entertained how every case has different women of different demographics flirting with edgeworth and he is continually either baffled or horrified by it. i guess i figured without phoenix being around in these games they'd ease up on the gay subtext. they have not.

unfortunately this means it's time for the last case, and all i ever hear about it is that it's long and tedious. hooray! at the pace i'm going i'll be lucky to complete aai2 before the new trilogy in january, so i guess TGAA will be my palette cleanser after SOJ... which is maybe for the best anyway.

#ace attorney investigations #oodly plays AAI #miles edgeworth #franziska von karma #callisto yew

[subskz]

Rin.... Rin, I crave violence

I saw these and your girl got the most heinous thoughts bouncing around in the head.

SO

Cabin, Snow, There's Only One Bed, Accidental Confession, & Sex. Are you following?

I hope so.

~~~

Picture it: You, Channie, and Co. have decided to stay at a cabin in the woods for a couple of days in winter (see Channie's outfit up above) and as everyone else goes off to have fun in the snow, (I've grown to dislike the snow after having multiple snow days back to back bc I don't get snow often; Ms. Pink was nawt having it) you two decide to hang back

So you two kinda just shrug it off and try to stay preoccupied while by yourselves

And maybe that involves a game or two here and there, music stuff, cooking and things don't get heated until you two make a bet that you, just so happen to, win.

That bet? The other has to do whatever the other says until the others get back.

And you can't help but notice how eager he is to follow your directions and orders; or how he starts to act cuter around you and pouty when feeling a skosh playful.

So maybe you ask for a kiss to gauge his reaction; ofc Channie is malfunctioning so you're all like "jk jk im totally not-" then BOOM! A big ole smooch is what you get.

And then, he's like "omg oh god im so sorry" then you kiss him and he can't help but moan at it (perv Channie?... oh that's something i will be back abt, mark that down)

N e ways, let's talk abt sex now

Chan and his babyboy-isms seem to just increase tenfold; pouty, whiney, all flushed, wanting physical contact, oral fixation all on 10.

And, him being a service top, he is so hellbent on pleasing you. But he's also been dealing with this huge crush on you, so when he finally enters you, he swears he's entering the 5th dimension.

But also instantly blurts out that he has feelings for you... whoops. Can't help it, unfortunately; another victim of being brain mush as soon as he gets off :(

Give him a kiss on his lips and nose and tell him how you feel and help guide him; poor pup is just too into his subspace to even form coherent sentences anymore and probably too preoccupied with sucking on your fingers or chest 🤷‍♀️

Now, afterglow and post-orgasm clarity is such a real thing (it's happened once to me but i had the munchies like fucking crazy so it didn't last lmao) so Channie is embarrassed when he realized that he involuntarily confessed like that.

~~~

Sorry for the word vomit; currently half past 11pm and I've been sipping on black tea all-day so... :) 3rd eye is just working over time.

Also, I called a specific Hyunjin look back in 2021, so Pink is just Clairvoyant when it comes to Hyunjin specifically (it's bc we're both Pisces)

the fact that these pics led to this stroke of genius from you…put channie in a sweater n suspenders more often bc i’m actually gonna lose my mind over how much i love this 😵‍💫 him pining after you…simultaneously so shy but so eager…the desperate need to please you…the way he goes dumb the moment he’s inside you…blurting out his confession…it has all the elements of a perfect channie concept

HAHA yes let’s settle for the romantic atmosphere inside the cabin away from the snow…maybe even w a warm fire crackling to really set the mood ♡ channie being his sweet good-natured lil self and listening to everything you say without question…the thought of him getting playful at some point and pretending to disobey you w a cheeky dimpled grin…pure devastation. he’d look so adorably proud of himself it’s almost enough to let it slide, but you don’t even get the chance before he takes it back w a giggle and follows your order anyway 🥰

his heart-shaped lips look extra red and kissable bc of the cold who could resist <3 and god the way he’d just lean completely into that sweet, unbashedly needy side of himself once he sees how much you like it…the epitome of baby boy w the way he clings to you and nuzzles into your chest and starts to whine if he can’t feel your touch for even a moment. and nothing on earth makes me crazier than the idea of channie’s mind going blank the moment he feels you around him…suddenly he’s lost and clueless and needs you to direct him to do every little thing so he can satisfy you properly ❤️‍🔥 he may not be able to think for himself but he still carries out all your orders like a good boy! and ofc when his emotions are running so high and his head is so scrambled from the pleasure, he can’t help but babble on abt how much he loves you in a way that’ll have him absolutely mortified when that giddy haze finally wears off~

no need to apologize as u can see this resonated w me very much hehe ^_^ you and hyune really have some kind of piscean psychic link that no one else can comprehend i’ll look forward to what you predict next 😼

#‘anyways let’s talk abt sex now’ took me OUT 😭 #this couldnt have come at a better time too bc the sleepy voice msgs channie has been sending on bbl… #speaking so cutely and giggling and making lil noises and getting shy and talking in third person…he’s such a baby #esp how he said ‘if u have nothing else to do please put channie to sleep’ ㅠㅠ #ask #pink #long post #💌 channie

[dollsuguru]

Sometimes I think of a scenario where suguru and yuta were interested in the same person, for me they're both very similar but at the same time how they express and deal with their emotions is very different.

suguru and yuuta? hmmmmm i think if that was the case, yuuta would have a puppy love crush on someone around suguru’s age bc suguru would NOT be w someone around yuuta’s age 😭 and if the person is around suguru’s age, they would NOT be interested in yuuta in a romantic sense at all, they’d probably think he’s adorable like a baby brother/dorky younger cousin!

and i’d love to hear what similarities you feel like suguru & yuuta have! :3 i can’t really think of many besides being devoted to a cause to the point of death, they love their family/friends, & they both went through depression/suicidal ideation… but also it’s late rn and my brain is mush so i can’t think of much anyways 😭

and i agree on them having more differences! i think they both dealt w grief and loss very differently (yuuta wanted to kill just himself vs suguru who wanted to kill non-sorcerers) and also i think that at the end of the day, yuuta’s strength was born out of love & loss vs suguru’s who’s strength was born out of a twisted sense of justice/anger & loss! but idk that’s what i personally think! i’d love to hear more about your thoughts though — it can help me see another side to it! :’)

#asks #anon #i think if anyone has the most similarities to suguru it’d be yuji! they have TONS of parallels #i think yuuta is most like satoru & honestly a bit of toji too 😭 #i also think yuuta is such an adorable goober omg suguru WISHES he could be as cute & fun as yuuta 😪 #also. i believe in yuuta/inumaki supremacy omfg inuokko for the WIN #i think they spy on itafushi & nobamaki dates while wearing fake hats & mustaches (inumaki’s idea) #((yuuta wears the fake hat/suit & inumaki wears the fake mustache)) #i’m just going off topic abt how much i love inuokko but we move

[materassassino]

Yusuf 4, 5, 20, 25!

Heeeeeeeeee I'm so excited, my first TOG ask!

4. If you could put this character in any other media, be it a book, a movie, anything, what would you put them in?

My first instincts are Star Wars and Tolkien, but that's because I have mush for brains. I would scratch out Tolkien because outside of what fans have created, it's not a universe that's particularly... kind? sympathetic? not cruel but not very benign, either, to characters of colour. But also I generally see all TOG character as deeply and intrinsically human so it woud completely eliminate any chance of elf!Joe or dwarf!Joe, which is sad. Which would leave being a Man, which, given the history of Middle-Earth (fucking Númenor) would suck for him :/.

For Star Wars I think that makes more sense, but then again you can make literally ANYONE fit in Star Wars (I think I'd see him as a Senator for some nice planet, probably like Naboo, Joe would suit Naboo and then Nicky would be his forbidden Jedi). That said, I could see him fitting in on a planet that so highly values the arts.

5. What's the first song that comes to mind when you think about them?

There's a more comedy answer, and a more serious answer.

The comedy answer is Bello E Impossibile by Gianna Nannini (technically Nicky's pov, but it's definitely about Joe, and which despite being tongue-in-cheek nevertheless has some banger lines), and the more serious one is Don't You Dare (Make Me Fall In Love With You) by Kaden MacKay which for me is very early Yusuf-coded, just resenting the inevitability of falling in love with this... guy, and also definitely not believing it could ever be requited. I like the wordplay too, which is also very Yusuf.

(I feel a little bad that both of these do also involve Nicky in some manner, but for two characters who do see themselves as a package deal, I don't think that's the worst thing I could do? I don't think they'd mind it.)

20. Which other character is the ideal best friend for this character, the amount of screentime they share doesn't matter?

There's like five of them there isn't much choice njcnadvjkdn.

I love Joe&Nile as buddies, I have a Joe&Nile buddies agenda, but... it's Nicky. It's always going to be Nicky, in the end. He might be everyone's best friend, but Nicky is his best friend and he's fine with that.

25. What was your first impression of this character? How about now?

That he seemed like he was very nice 🥺 Just a very nice person who gives good hugs and that I wanted one 🥲. (also hnnnn pretty man). I think I do have that assessment still, it's not incorrect, but obviously there's more depth to it. My impression now is of a man who feels deeply, powerfully, and expresses it openly.

And still hnnnn pretty.

Character ask game!

#the old guard #yusuf al kaysani #pixie answers #thank you for being so nice and sending me an ask! #i loved answering these!

[fastcardotmp3]

hi! me again! composing this as i'm reading the post you linked (thank you!! and pls forgive any insane rambling as i've just finished writing all my midterm report cards and my brain is much l m f a o)

when i thought of them breaking up, i wouldn't have guessed it would be steve to initiate it! this bit specifically was so interesting:

"It's not just one thing, it's bigger than them just like the world, and it's Steve, ultimately, who decides he's scared enough of all the big upheavals that he can't be attached to Eddie like that right now, trapped in a tiny apartment together with nowhere for all the complexity to go.

Steve says he can't take care of himself while he's waiting for the other shoe to drop on Eddie's end of things, and so he walks away before Eddie can."

we are in eddie's head so thoroughly that i think it's easy to maybe brush aside how steve must be feeling throughout the entirety of this? poor steve always choosing the most difficult (but lovely) people to love, and always putting them first until he can't anymore!! that fear of being hurt or left behind is So Real and I actually could read 160k of meta from steve's POV solely so i can see his reaction to finding out eddie has run off. MOVING ON!

do they live apart during this time? i imagine if that were the case that it might have been difficult, having lived on top of one another for so long. also difficult for the ladies as well, considering they are all very much entangled.

"It's Eddie who says, I don't think I ever really grasped what it was like for you when I ran. I don't think I ever really apologized. I'm sorry.

It's Eddie who lays it all out on the table and makes it clear, I don't need you to fix me anymore, I just like holding your hand."

TO ME, this is so important!!!!! how lovely for steve to hear something like this, to maybe be validated and reassured in a way he probably hasn't been in a while.

the idea of it not being earth-shattering every time, of giving themselves breathing room...ugh. i just love it!! talk about dynamic.

tysm for tolerating me!! once my brain is no longer mush i will be crawling back to talk wasteland with you because i love an apocalyptic take so fucking muuuuuuuuuch and i need to know more.

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 🥹💚💚💚💚💚💚

first of all when i tell you i have thought about writing about the chapters when Eddie runs away from Steve's POV one trillion and one times only to not do it because it would be a ton of work and approximately 3 people would end up reading it fjkadslfj...... but trust that it lives in my brain that fic...... it lives......

SECOND of all!!! it's so important to me that it's steve who creates that boundary! as much as he loves Eddie, the guy put him through so much and he only really let himself feel it for a very short period of time! they are all about the give and take to me and finding the balance within each other for what that means! that's why in META i gave him that chance to say I need to be mad at you about this, because they both needed to realize that Steve had been going through it too GAH

which is why, in the unwritten parts of it that exist only in my head, they definitely do live separately while they're broken up. it takes months for them to find their footing and they genuinely aren't sure for a minute that they'll work it out, so yeah, they live apart in all the ways they can while still being intrinsically linked and you know what? i think it's good for them. hard! but good.

because like i said in that other post, it gives them a chance to realize that the things they've thought for a while were necessary about sticking together aren't something they need for survival anymore. the closeness isn't keeping them alive, it's just something they want. figuring out that distinction is a big deal and they deserve the chance to discover it!

i am not simply tolerating you dude i am thriving i am living i am grateful for your thoughtful thoughts! i wish you luck on your post midterms life and when you want to talk about wasteland i am here because....... that is also my baby omg

<3 < 3 <3

#ask #kindnesses #meta fic #i could cry about them daily and maybe i do! what about it!!!

[kanawrites]

Bite Me

Dark

He raised an eyebrow at your sudden confession but didn’t reply nor seem affected by it

You stood in front of him, a blushing mess wishing deep inside he’d do it right away

Dark passes by you, leaving you feeling ashamed

He didn’t do it but that’s on you for expecting he’d indulge your selfish wish

It was never discussed or brought up again until one night after you came home overworked.

You immediately go into Dark’s office to greet him before heading to bed when he motions you to come over

Groggily, you walked over to his side, assuming he needed help with legal documents again

Letting out a yawn, you try to balance yourself by putting both hands on the side of the table

“Come closer”

You’re now standing next to him, face a foot away from the document

Trying to read the contents of the document you squint your eyes, mind hazy from exhaustion

Then you feel a prickling sensation on the side of your neck which wakes you up from your stupor

You put a hand over the area and look back at him and Dark had a satisfied grin

“Did you–” your mind was still trying to catch up to the present but your body seems to have caught up if the rising temperature you feel in your face is anything to go by

“It’s a reward for dealing with the troublemakers earnestly”

He takes the your free hand and bites on the ring finger

“Do you want me to be rougher next time?”

Actor

He chuckles at your comment as tears gather at the end of your eyes because you could already tell he’d joke about it

“I’m dead serious” you’re already deeply frustrated at the amount of times he’d make a passing remark that turns your brain into mush.

The brushing of fingers, his hand resting on your hips, breath on your shoulder as he rests. There was so much tension between you two it’s so deeply frustrating

You didn’t want to ask for a kiss and like hell did you want to punch him in the face and the only option that came to mind that could fulfill both for you was to ask him to bite you

“Alright darling, come over here” He has his arms wide open and you mutter curses under your breath as you step into his embrace

“Do you have anywhere in mind for me”

You couldn’t voice it out so you point the area just beside your neck “Do it quickly, please”

He holds the hand you pointed with and caresses it gently. He hums as you drop your hand and look away from him

Actor took his sweet time holding you in his arms, fingers ghosting over the area, he blows air into your ear and you step on his foot impatiently

He seriously loves to create tension between you and it’s pissing you off

He finally bites down but you don’t feel a sharp and stinging pain but a wet and slimy texture followed by the sudden sting.

You let out a yelp and bite down on him harshly. He hisses and pulls you away

“What was that for”

“For being an absolute asshole about it”

He starts to pepper kisses all over your face as an apology

“Let me make it up to you. Where else do you want me to mark you?”

Don’t mind me actually screaming while blushing when I thought of this. As someone who’s always liked the idea of being bitten I couldn’t help but write it. That felt good to get out of my system. I’ve been fangirl squealing about a homebody Dark so I might write that. Who knows what I’ll finish next honestly.

#headcanon #markiplier #actor mark x reader #darkiplier x reader

[jack-kellys]

for the fic title thing !!!!

“there are worse ways to stay alive” ORRRR

“my engine works perfect on empty (i guess i’ll drive)”

- @we-are-inevitable ✨

so im doing both bc why the fuck not

send me a fic title and i'll think up a fic!

GENUINELY my first thought for the first one is a santa clarita diet au LMAO?? i've never seen it though so technically im still original. but like jack and crutchie are roommates. jack either eats something that gets him sick or something insane like an nyc rat bites his ankle bc this is a comedy. jack starts acting... weirder, and crutchie picks up on it pretty fast bc they are 🤝. it's almost like jack has this concussive brain fog and it takes him a while to form sentences, he's talking a lot less, eating less, much more irritable. kinda of like crutchie is dealing with a moody, hungry teenager. but the night after when c's smoking on the first escape (medicinal....not medicinal... c’est la vie) jack comes out to join him and like.

"you ever get these weird, like. cravings for stuff you can't eat?"

"god yeah, i used to want to eat lava and playdough and shit like that all the–"

"like yeah, that stuff too but like...when you bite your hand and you keep biting it, you know, 'cause it's kind of squishy and like. food?"

"did. you... you did hit the joint i left out, right?"

"nah, i was just thinking, i guess.. or i've been thinking."

"fuck."

so it's Charlie's Terrible Horrible No-Good Very Bad time of trying to hide the fact that his best friend is now half-zombie, and especially how not to tell david jacobs, jack's boyfriend and c's longtime friend. i usually make charlie into the enigma but i think jack should be it, for fun. also i think it'd be funny if it took crutchie kinda longer to realize that what's wrong with jack is zombification specifically because honestly... jack is just like that LMAO??? he hates waking up in the morning, he's tired a lot, he has weird eating habits, makes weird noises, not a lot of perception on if he's being loud or not, zones out a lot. jack's basically halfway there already tbh. but he'd stopped creating, which is what initially tips c off.

the shenanigans of hiding it and then needing to find a cure before it's too late is just fun asf. also jack gets to literally lose his mind. haha. ha. ha. :)

now the SECOND title. lmao

~davey is pushing himself to hard againnn yeahhhhh!!!~

college au, davey has an exam coming up that he's going crazy about. hours on hours of studying, isolation, stressing, not eating as much...jack is really worried. he asks his friends what to do- some say to leave him be to get through it, some say to talk to him, and then albert dasilva says "why don't you just..kidnap him."

"what?"

"yeah, so he doesn't have access to any of his textbooks or notes or laptop, you just toss him in the car and drive."

"what is wrong with you," charlie says, but jack is nodding.

"no wait. say more rn."

so during the late night before the day before the test, it's like 3am when davey finally falls asleep at his desk, and then like. the cueing text is sent in the group chat from jack and all the besties scurry into action.

jack lifts davey into his arms, and their dorm door is opened for them silently by albert. race right next to him surgically places a sleepmask onto daveys face so the hall light doesnt wake him. romeo's holding the elevator open. mush and blink are holding the downstairs doors open. specs and crutchie drove daveys car (having stolen the keys earlier in the day of course) over, open the passenger door for davey, lower the seat, set a blanket over him, carefully close the door, and wish jack luck.

davey wakes up two hours of driving later to signs saying they're in south jersey of all fucking places. it's now the day before his test. and davey is livid.

"you kidnapped me."

"technically it was albert's idea"

"i don't see albert driving my damn car. turn around, jack, it's really not the time to be fucking funny right now."

"i'm a little insulted at you not thinking i know you well enough to do this. if i really thought you'd hate me for this, if i really thought it would- destroy your grade, or your college career, do you really think i'd be doing it?"

"maybe."

"no, sweetheart, jeez. you've studied for the past fifteen days- if you just relax, you'll make the grade, and there's no way you would've let yourself do that back on campus. so, i kidnapped you."

they spend the day together fucking around at the atlantic city boardwalk and dipping their feet into the ocean and watching the sunset before driving back. david gets a 90% on his test and maybe he wanted a 92% but he wouldn't trade grades for the world if it meant not getting kidnapped by his boyfriend and their friends. :)

#family-like friend group my beloved #ALSO PLSS I ACTUALLY. i would go off on the santa clarita one #crutchie morris #jack kelly #davey jacobs #javid #albert dasilva #i miss u king... i miss writing u #newsies aus #fizz wants to write #if someone asked for like a 500 word scene for santa #clarita i could do that shit literally rn #fizz answers #mutuals #THANK YOU JAC <3

[slayanyhivegodslately]

Ok, so I have to get this out before it totally melts in my brain, but my melatonin is kicking in and I don't have to wait any longer to post this so my brain is mush right now. BUT I just have to add my voice to all of the others praising the Zavala backstory we're getting, so I'm going to talk about something that I haven't seen anyone talk about yet (at least on my dash).

During the Severance - Grief mission we learn a lot about Zavala's wife and child, but some of the dialogue that really struck me had to do with Safiyah constantly berating Zavala about not opening up, talking about his feelings. Now when Hakim first dies, and he spirals into depression, obviously he isn't going to be talking to anyone about what happened. He can't even manage it with his own wife. And then going back to the Iron Temple, there would have been no one who could have understood what he went through.

And so the years go by, he slowly rises through the ranks and now, he is a commander, a leader. Being at the top can be isolating. There are probably other guardians who have been through something similar, but he is their commander now, it is much harder to form relationships with people with that kind of power imbalance. And I wouldn't be surprised if Zavala started to try to not form many close bonds with people out of protection, to try to avoid that kind of pain again. And then after years go by, it's just how he operates. And it fits with how he has been portrayed over the years I think.

And when it comes to Ikora and Cayde, yes they were friends, but from what we saw during Forsaken, it is obvious that while he was friendly with both, they were obviously closer to each other. I also kind of think it puts his reaction to Cayde's death into a new light as well. Looking back at it, I think he very much just tried to ignore it as best he could, and just focus on what was going on in the reef. The most he allowed himself to do was to just kind of let us do our thing. Just kind of detached himself to ignore the pain as best he could. And while he might have been able to share the pain of loosing a child with Cayde had the subject come up, they lost their children in such different ways it would have been hard to relate I wonder (if Cayde had a child at all, even he is unsure on that part.)

Now to the final part, I really think one of the best things to come out of the alliance with the Cabal is the relationship forming between Zavala and Caiatl (whether just platonic or romantic, I'm up in the air on that subject myself). Because now here is someone else in a leadership role, one of birth granted, but has a lot of the same experiences that he has. Knows about the choices that have to be made, the feeling of losing good people because of those choices, and constantly having to put on the face of being the brave, fearless leader. I absolutely love how supportive she has been for him these past couple of seasons, even more so now with the nightmare of his wife tormenting him. It will be interesting if he returns the favor when she eventually has to deal with her nightmare of Ghaul.

I'm not entirely sure I got down exactly what I wanted, because I keep thinking of what Eris says the nightmares are made of, and so I just thought it was so interesting that his nightmare not only constantly brought up his dead son, but also all of these mentions of bottling up. How he obviously went out of his way to isolate himself from others to a degree, to try and spare himself that kind of pain again. All of the potential friendships and relationships (romantic or otherwise) that he might have missed out on. And so on and so forth. I'm going to call it a wrap now, PLEASE feel free to add on your thoughts, maybe you can make more sense of just what the heck I wrote and put it more elegantly.

#destiny 2 #destiny 2 spoilers #season of the haunted spoilers #zavala #my posts #gods this is so incoherent #it was coming together so well in my brain yesterday #or earlier today #but ugh #i got it out at least #maybe i should have waited #but its like #you see what i mean #i love zavala thanks for coming to my ted talk

[nevadas-explorer]

Hello i read some A Hat in Time fics for the Beingverse au and I immediately wrote an essay about void as a Being because my brain is mush and also it is like 3 am

Beingverse was created by @banyanas and I think it is very cool and also this essay will make WAY more sense if you read up about Beingverse

Also the essay contains references and spoilers for Rain World and Hollow Knight

tldr; the Void is an eldritch force of nature and Explorer is part of it

Void is a non-corporeal Being. Similarly to Death and Time, it is woven into the fabric of existence.

Void is known by several other names, including Nothingness and Darkness.

It is very rare for Void to exist in a corporeal form, but there are a few worlds where it is as common as water (most notably the worlds of Rain World and Hollow Knight).

Corporeal void is a liquid by default, although its exact properties vary depending on the world it originated from. RW and HK's void are distinct but still the same substance, just like how ice and water are chemically the same thing.

Void fluid is extremely toxic. It can dissolve anything, including reality itself. But this behavior isn't the same as Death consuming things - instead of destroying things, Void converts them. It just absorbs things into itself.

It takes billions of years for a celestial body to develop a core of void fluid like what RW and HK both have.

Also, creatures made of void exist! They come by many different names, but voidspawn is one of them. And voidspawn are weird. They technically aren't Void itself but are still a part of it. They work kind of like how the old Subcon Forest had sapient branches of itself.

It isn't unheard of for a new type of voidspawn to suddenly appear. HK's vessels/shades didn't start existing until relatively recently and Explorer is literally the first of her kind.

Explorer's species is uniquely suited to travelling through the Void itself. Void is, according to Explorer, "the nothingness between worlds," and she is pretty darn good at using it as a shortcut to travel between dimensions and planets. She is also able to sense and manipulate the fabric of reality. In fact, that is how she is able to enter the Void - she just parts reality's threads a little bit and hops through!

Another thing about void creatures is that no matter their species they can always sense the Void and other critters made of it. On top of that, void creatures are also able to sense other Beings, since they are technically part of a Being themselves.

To other Beings, Explorer would "smell like Void." There's not much they can do about her, though; this is both because she goes wherever she pleases and because Void itself is so massive that there is no way to completely keep it out of your territory. Corporeal Beings just kinda have to deal with sharing space with their non-corporeal kin, whether they like it or not.

Explorer literally does not know about Beings (although she is instinctually aware of Void) so she has to have the whole thing explained to her.

Important reminder: Explorer is not a Being herself, but is part of one. As such she doesn't behave like one (she is incredibly social and also allergic to a sedentary lifestyle).

#raintailed rambles #beingverse #my ocs #explorer (oc) #i am so brainrotted for hat in time right now #i also love crossover characters like explorer and figuring out how they work :] #tw unreality #not sure if that is applicable but i am pondering abt how the fabric of reality works in several fantasy worlds so #beingverse au

[thebreakfastgenie]

Sending this as an ask so it doesn't need to be a public conversation unless you want it to be. I noticed in the tags of your post about being uncertain you said you don't identify as disabled "but tumblr would consider you to bc of your adhd". And I guess I'm kind of curious about your reasoning if you want to share (no pressure tho). Mostly bc in my experience as someone who is both autistic & has adhd those things very much are disabling in a world where most people *aren't* like that. Just in a "the world was not built for this and I have to work to accommodate myself in a way others usually don't". And I'm also curious why you feel like adhd "would be considered a disability by tumblr specifically" bc, well, it very much *is* a disability under the ADA as well as most definitions of disability. I've also mostly encountered people who don't think of themselves as disabled when they have adhd (or are autistic or have some form of learning or social disability) bc they either a) are dealing with internalized abelism, b) were raised in a way that very much treated said disability as a normal variation of the human condition & were accommodated well & taught how to accommodate themselves, or c) their whole family or most of their family is like them so they never realized their way of interacting with the world was different (and occasionally d) all of the above).

So I guess I'm just curious your reasons for why you don't consider yourself disabled & also if it's more of a not considering yourself Disabled with a capital D (as in someone who is or wants to be part of a greater disability community) or disabled little d (as in someone with a condition that is disabling at times that they account for and accommodate in their life).

This was worded kind of oddly, sorry about that, my brain is slightly mush atm. Also please don't feel pressured to answer publicly or even at all, I'm mostly just curious bc people's reasons for identifying or not identifying with certain traits and/or communities tends to fascinate me, but I recognize I asked a personal question which you have zero obligation to answer.

I am going to answer this publicly because it's the only way to answer directly and get to keep the ask. In the future, if you want a private conversation, don't hesitate to DM me! I think it was worded quite clearly!

This isn't easy to explain but I'll do my best!

It's kind of all of the above and none of the above at the same time. I'm very aware that ADHD is a disability; it functions as one for my older sibling. The reason I specified tumblr is because I was posting on tumblr. I was basically saying my audience would include me under this umbrella, but I don't personally see myself that way.

I am also not exactly legally defined as disabled. My actual ADHD diagnosis is sort of a gray area. I only started referring to myself as having ADHD without a disclaimer a few months ago when I read the report that was written about me as a child. It said I fit the diagnostic criteria for ADHD, however, I never took the process any further than that. I've never had accommodations, and while there are situations where they might make things easier for me, I haven't felt that I've needed them. This isn't internalized ableism or some feeling that the "hard way" is somehow morally superior; it has to do with the ways I feel are best for managing my own brains and needs. I've also never taken medication and I don't know if I ever will.

We all have things that are easy for us and things that are hard for us. I think of the symptoms of my ADHD as "these things are more difficult for me" along the spectrum of human experience. That's not mutually exclusive with thinking of it as a disability, I just don't for myself personally. My older sibling has been on ADHD medication as long as I can remember and needs it to function. My dad also has ADHD. Many of my closest peers growing up had ADHD. So there is an extent to which it's both normalized and to which I'm "less" ADHD in comparison. I don't think either of those is the reason I feel this way, but since you brought it up I thought it was worth acknowledging.

It did take me a while, I think, to understand that certain specific things about the way I interact with the world aren't universal, but at the same time I was always aware that the way I interacted with the world overall wasn't typical. Also, I'm still trying to figure out exactly what is going on because my ADHD symptoms are all significantly affected by my menstrual cycle and were much less prominent when I was taking hormonal birth control.

Honestly when it comes to "identifying" as something, even if I technically "qualify," if I don't feel totally comfortable claiming the label I just don't. That's the reason. Why I don't feel totally comfortable claiming the label is another question that I don't necessarily have the answer to. Part of it is that I have disabled people in my life and my experiences feel different to theirs. Part of it, probably most of it, is that I don't really identify as anything.

I've mentioned this before, but I use gay and lesbian as descriptive terms rather than identities. I simply don't think about identity the way it's typically framed on tumblr. I only have one identity: me. When it comes to neurodivergence and mental health specifically, I honestly just think about it in terms of "this is how my brain works."

I'm not sure if this made any sense or if it really answered the question. I love and deeply respect the disabled community I try to be aware of disability rights as an issue (and btw you'd be amazed how many people don't think of the ADA as a civil rights law), but I feel that's motivated by caring about others, not by a personal connection.

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002 fandom meme for Crygorcest

omg yaaaaay!! ;w;

BE READY FOR LOTS OF GUSHING ASDFGHJKL

002 | send me a ship and I will tell you:

when of if I started shipping it:

when I played my very first ware game (back when get it together came out! I played it nonstop and then when crygor called penny I was like (OuO) then I decided to go on a quest to find all the other ware games in the series and with every new game I played, I just shipped it more and more those two are CANON I TELL YOU!!)

my thoughts:

they are absolutely made for each other- the fact that Penny "admires" him, the fact that she has a damn framed photo of him posing with a rose, the fact that Crygor wore her clothes at one point, the way they´re always on the phone with each other on the get it together crew screen- I just?? I could go on!!

they are adorable together and I love themmmm ;;w;;

What makes me happy about them:

their overall vibes?? like- the way they´re both just so immensely nuts and loving?? like, Crygor is so supportive of her and has such "look at my granddaughter!! isnt she incredible??" vibes! meanwhile Penny is, once again, IN ADMIRATION OF HIM and in ´move it´ the way she says "youre amazing" literally sounds so lovey dovey LIKE??? I can´t even man- they are so adorable and perfect for each other it HURTS!!

also, I see this ship as so: Crygor is constantly overthinking everything he does and also everything SHE does, trying to convince himself that "no, I´m not in love with her haha" but you cant trick your heart my man! and Penny is the same- but in a different way, like, instead of stressing out over it, she remains positive and although dealing with her intense feelings is hard, she manages it much better than crygor- like for example, she would just go up to him and give him a big hug, give him kisses on the cheek and tell him that he loves him, hiding behind the fact that Crygor just sees it as platonic- that way she doesn´t have to confess, but still feels some kind of physical, lovely closeness with him- meanwhile crygor is internally panicking over a little kiss on the cheek asdfghjkl

so yea, that´s ONE thing,

another, would be what would happen once they overcome that hurdle and actually confess!

which would entail SOOO much touching- because they´re both touch starved af and after they´ve repressed their true feelings for SO LONG, it just kinda explodes into a lot of snuggles and emotional needy-ness which is just HHHHHHHHH delicious~ UwU

also- the LONGING!!! THE YEARNING!!! AAAAAAAAH!!!

(I´m sorry if I´m being incoherent or anything my brain kinda just goes mushy mush mode when I think about this ship because ASDFRHJNJFGHJ OTP ;;w;;)

What makes me sad about them:

the thought of them being in an emotional checkmate, where they´re both in love with each other but neither of them dares to confess because of their big age gap and the fact they´re relatives!

like- they both undoubtedly have a very strong and close familial bond! and neither of them wants to risk destroying all that!

but at the same time they both feel the same way for each other so they wouldn´t destroy anything but THEY dont know that asdfghjkl

things done in fanfic that annoys me:

idk? that there aren´t any?? asdfghjkl

although I guess in terms of just fan content in general, I guess I have the same pet peeve I have with everything? being that when characters are portrayed way too out of character

but thats p much it? idk, there arent any fanfics of them and only a handful of fanarts (at least from what I´ve seen) ^^;

things I look for in fanfic:

for it to not be depicted unhealthily I guess? (idk, I´m personally not big on ships being depicted as unhealthy/abusive thats just me tho)

My kinks:

with this ship? idk- I don´t really have ship specific kinks- although the fact that Crygor has a "weak stomach" rly serves my emeto kink asdfghjkl

Who I’d be comfortable them ending up with, if not each other: 

uuuuh I mean- I guess Crygor used to have a wife? but given that he´s a cyborg (whos alledgedly over a hundred years old) I´m guessing she´s not around anymore? ^^;

as for Penny, I really can´t see her with anyone else

My happily ever after for them:

they both confess and live happily as the happy lil unhinged scientists that they are UwU

holding hands and causing explosions <3

who is the big spoon/little spoon:

most of the time, Crygor is the big spoon and Penny the little spoon, but switching it up is always goode UwO

what is their favorite non-sexual activity:

all kinds of science-y inventor stuff! (also dancing and singing together UwU)

#warioware #crygorcest

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a wild sofa appears

more projects in progress I've failed to document, but:

cat orb approves.

My family are chair people. I've had this dumb IKEA Pöang chair for decades now, and a rotating supporting cast of others that keep breaking. (Another story there.) So for the last year I've had just a single chair in the middle of the room (the only room), and the bed in the far corner acting as an ertsatz couch.

In retrospect it's a little ridiculous to think I've gone this long with a single armchair and a twin bed as my only furniture, but I think I've got two justifications. First is that I've still been moving around things and unpacking/repacking as I work on projects, and it was hard to visualize what the space deserves. Second is that I'm exceedingly picky, and once you drop a couple grand on a piece, pay to have it delivered, and cajole a family member into dragging it up a flight of stairs, you better damn like it. Not like returning an Amazon order.

Back in February I pilgrimaged to Palm Springs for Modernism Week, and poked around the monthly Vintage Market. One vendor was selling a beautiful Adrian Pearsall style platform sofa, along with a Poul Jensen-style Z-sofa.

And the price was unbeatable. Until I saw the shipping cost to up here, which came to an additional almost 50%.

And realistically, both are a bit small. A slightly generous loveseat, or a very cozy three-seater. Perfect for my old 500SF apartment (if I didn't have all those chairs). I don't like sitting close to people. I have plenty of room, but not for a sectional.

Locally and online I wasn't seeing anything I was jazzed about for how much things were. Lots of tufts and skirts, bollard arms, pale cream upholstery. Truthfully cleanability is a major priority in, well, all of my decisions. I wanted something on legs I could vacuum under, and cushions I can remove and clean. Not really a fan of leather, being vegetarian. And vinyl is just horrible.

Oh, and I don't like sinking in to a couch. It's all about back angle and height. I like things low and upright. Hence my affinity for the platform sofas.

A few weeks ago we stopped in Kasala, a store that has the distinction of being the only furniture store in Pike Place Market, and additionally the only one I know of with a real local warehouse in-city, partly to poke around, partly to rest after a long day at the market. It was perfect. The color, the wood accent, the steel legs! A little bulky for my taste—I don't care for armrests—but could easily work with a mid-mod or min-mod style.

As I promised the salesperson, I'd go home, have a glass of wine or three, and make a decision. And I accidentally bought three. It wasn't the wine, it was the website freezing up repeatedly, I swear.

The next day I somehow convinced my mother to help, as we frantically rented a van from Home Depot, ran over to the warehouse about a block away, dropped it off across town, and returned the vehicle in the 90-minute window before extra charges kicked in. $15 for DIY delivery was a heck of a deal compared to $200 to have to dumped in the driveway.

I bought that light years ago and never found a good place for it

As for the bed: I finally ditched my deflated twin I've had since college for a full-size memory foam, selected after literally 4 hours of flopping around the IKEA showroom models. By that point my brain had turned to mush, and rather than choosing my dream danish modern bed frame, I just grabbed a basic steel platform. At least its not going to collapse on me in the middle of the night again. Despite the extra room, the cat still sleeps draped across my neck.

#personal #the bunker #furniture