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The call has ended, but the final recording still has a bit further to go.  
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Sorry these past several updates have been such downers.  I promise the next one will have some fun banter.  Can’t wait to get back to the real world with less digital effects and data dump.  I don’t know how Donnie deals with all of it. 
Below the cut I’ve added a little talk about Donnie and the way he handled this heavy conversation, something I fear might come off a little harsh without the proper context clues.  Also, below is a fun little discovery I made about Omega! 
I’ve already had a few people express how Donnie seems mean to his family in this update, which I totally understand how it can come off like that.  A certain amount of nuance is lost in this sort of comic format with neither descriptors, actual voice acting, or even Donnie’s face to give context for the way he is saying certain lines.  It’s an artistic choice I made, but one I still wish to clarify.
I see the sudden hang up as less Donnie being a jerk and more him having to cut the conversation short because he has to keep focus and he’s scared of Leo talking him down from the ledge he’s standing on.  He’s sticking to his guns and it hurts him to see how much it’s hurting his family and so all he can do is distance himself before the strong emotions cause him to make a mistake in the middle of enemy territory (placing legitimate logical concerns over emotional ones).  At the same time he is attempting to remain calm if only to try and let some of that wash onto Leo and April, because he knows if Leo freaks out too much he could risk bleeding out faster, which is why he was pressing for April to care for him first and foremost.  Were he a better liar he might have done so just to keep Leo calm a little longer, but no such luck.   Donnie holds so much love for his family, and I don’t think an apocalypse has changed that, he just has difficulty at times knowing the hierarchy of emotions expected of such a rare and dire situation and instead chooses to focus on the logical issues because at least those are some things he has certain control over. He wants to keep his family safe at all costs and if he has to cut off the last conversation he initiated and desperately wanted with his family to do so then he will.  I hope that clears some things up.  I might make this paragraph into it’s own post tomorrow for those who might have missed this update. 
On another note, I discovered something fun while researching Donnie’s screen UI!  (Extra photos under the cut:) Omega is actually in the movie (kind of)!  Look at the lil’ guy!  All sorts of dead!
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Thanks as always for your support and comments, it means a ton!
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milquetoast27 · 5 months
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The Secret of Sherlock Holmes
GRANADA FANS. If you have not heard of this play, NOW IS THE TIME TO HEAR ABOUT IT. I'd been saving it for a rainy night and it was SOO good 😭😭Please allow me to elaborate.
[heads-up, there are no video recordings of it. I listened to the audio and followed along with the script. Not ideal, but still gave me a vivid image of what was happening on-stage.]
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The nuance between screen and stage allows the actors to achieve different effects that are not possible with an on-screen adaptation. Characters do not turn to the camera and just tell you their innermost thoughts, but they can in a stageplay- and it's here that we really get to hear Brett and Hardwicke's ideas about Holmes and Watson- not much of it was unfamiliar as I'd read most of Brett's views in interviews, but it was really cool to get that confirmed in an official production that he worked on. Honestly, Brett had that feeling of "I can fix him" that I think exists in all of us Holmes fans, and totally went for it. The canon (and the Granada series) is rife with subtleties and 'show, don't tell', but it is honestly refreshing for once, to have such powerful emotion depicted dramatically and audaciously on a stage. It is all too often throughout the stories that Holmes and Watson are awfully reticent about their feelings. This play is an explosion of their private thoughts that leads to finally, thankfully, a wonderful reconciliation. I love it so much as it clearly advocates for open communication being a vital factor for a good friendship. There's a good reason for why that never happened in the canon; I think it has a lot to do with the shyness and reticence of the English, and I would not be surprised most particularly with Victorian men. But Holmes and Watson do still have their moments in the canon (e.g. 3GAR & FINA), and it's what makes them stand out so shockingly much in their time.
I appreciate that this play gives us viginettes of Holmes and Watson's life together all the way up to The Final Problem. It not only sets us up for the climax later, but also shows us specifically Brett's Holmes and Hardwicke's Watson. There were changes made from the original stories, and yet felt so wonderfully in-character and flowed really well through the actors. The play exclusively stars Brett and Hardwicke, and the purpose of redoing scenes from the canon, such as STUD, NAVA, or CHAS was to highlight the status in their relationship, for example Holmes's displeasure at Watson's marriage and subsequent loneliness- important scenes that communicate Holmes's dependence on Watson. These small glimpses also give us the much-needed humour for any balanced Holmes production! It not only communicates the warm and light moments that they shared, but also helps us get more invested in this particular pair on the stage, which is still vital, even if we're already attached to the characters.
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The implications that arise from Brett's portrayal of Holmes is fascinating. He admits that he'd have been dead within two years without Watson, without the indispensible role he played in controlling his addiction and mental state. He admits of the lonely and awful childhood he shared with his brother. The fact that Holmes comes forward and tells us this himself suggests he is very psychologically aware of himself and how his mind works. He understands why he has addictions, the reasons for his barriers and difficulty with emotional vulnerability. Assuming Holmes is very interested in the criminal psyche, but also his own due to his eccentricities, it makes so much sense that he would psychoanalyse himself to this degree, but also be frustrated with how little he is able to move from his rigid mindset. This interpretation works so wonderfully for Brett's Holmes, and I am so glad for this portrayal he has given us. When it comes to canon Holmes, however, I feel that this is more likely to be unconscious. I can never shake how much of Brett is actually within his Holmes. While his comes close to the original, I still see them as separate people. Granada's adaptation tends to play up Holmes's melancholy/depression a little too far for me, like a far-away, mythical creature that can never be understood, because we never get much of an opportunity to see what he really feels (perhaps Eligible Bachelor or Master Blackmailer might come close). But I feel that almost defeats the character. To me, Holmes is flawed and troubled, but he is simply human. The Secret of Sherlock Holmes portrays this fact wonderfully, because all of those feelings are rising to the surface.
We move further into speculation, but I think Brett's Holmes has also a fairly healthy understanding of the difference between social constructs and necessities, which take more importance in a queer/neurodivergent reading of him. He understands that his upbringing was due to an "accepted convention", and we see time and again how Holmes disregards social conventions or constructs and does his own thing. It's why he gets frustrated at others for not understanding him, but also accepts that it will never come easily to people. That's why he's very lucky for Watson (and Mrs. Hudson and Lestrade!) :)
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Holmes's darker emotions, and Watson's fierce devotion are displayed most prominently throughout. When Watson comments on Holmes's childhood, Holmes lies about it, woeing internally over how much he conceals, to even someone as close to him as Watson. He privately shares his desire to be "found out", because sharing his feelings to Watson is too difficult. His friend takes his word for it, appreciative of the times Holmes is able to speak frankly about himself. Holmes wants to be open, and Watson wants to listen, but it's Holmes's barriers preventing it. This feeling and experience is so raw and human, and something I would imagine would resonate with many people.
The latter half of the play focuses primarily on Holmes's cocaine addiction. Pastiche writers really like that sore spot, huh. Watson's perceptiveness and powers of observation are on full force in this play. Watson can tell when Holmes is high (as a medical man, most likely), and even deduced that Holmes may still be living by Mycroft's body language. But when it came to Holmes's return from the Great Hiatus...
Something that canon Watson seems to completely forget is his anger towards Holmes. In the story, he is so star-struck and relieved that he barely considers any other feeling. Hardwicke does briefly touch on this in the Granada episode with "I thought I would be as trustworthy as your brother," but it really doesn't go further than that. In The Secret of Sherlock Holmes, Hardwicke goes FULL FORCE. This is what we needed!!! It was a powerful, hair-raising performance. When Holmes has clearly not understood the harm he has done, Watson leaves. Actually slams the door. And when he returns, he makes it very clear to Holmes why he is hurt. And yet, his devotion remains, for when Holmes starts explaining his creation of Moriarty, it takes a while before Watson is fully convinced. Watson is extremely compassionate and empathetic, yes, but he's also very grounded and level-headed, and he must draw the line somewhere. It doesn't take him long to forgive Holmes, but he knows his anger has a place in that room, and allows it to be. I appreciate that it's taken just as seriously as Holmes's troubles.
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The only reason either Holmes or Watson are able to communicate so finely with each other- even through shouting and crying- is because of their emotional awareness. It's what makes their relationship work, because they are both aware of how much they mean to each other. When they move past the difficulty of sharing such feelings, their bond grows stronger.
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supremechancellorrex · 4 months
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Avatar in my head and I was thinking about Maiko and Mai.
Now, Mai's character arc in Avatar, from my interpretation, is rediscovering herself and her wants and personhood that has been stripped from her as a noblewoman part of a family that submitted to the Fire Nation Imperialist structure and Ozai. We see in Book 2 set up for this. Mai in early Book 2 does not resist Azula's will aside from brief sparks of rebellion where she isn't present. "Of course not, Princess Azula" she notes formally and apathetically when Azula asks if she "minds", knowing she has no choice as Azula 'just' ponders if Mai's hostage brother is worth an Earth King like Bumi. Mai is always aware that Azula, as Princess in an authoritarian nation where the Fire Lord is God, can have her executed and her family punished. The unequal power dynamic is surprisingly consistent in the show.
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Mai can't even insult Azula back in Zuko Alone as a child. She just lets Azula put an apple on her head (as Ty Lee loyally sniggers along), set it on fire, and when Zuko pushes her into the fountain to put it out, Mai, drenched, glares and says "You two are such… ugh". We know Mai can have an acid tongue, yet her fear of Azula prevents her from using it. Her most rebellious act in Book 2 is when she says "She can shoot all the lightning she wants at me. I am not getting in that wall sludge juice". Mai actually has self-respect, but she can't express it in the presence of greater threats, meanwhile Ty Lee merely says "Come on! Azula said we have to follow them", because Ty Lee follows Azula's will even when she isn't there.
Even when Mai gets with Zuko, she falls into a subservient role. When Azula interrupts Maiko's smooching, lazily dismissing Mai with "Oh Mai, Ty Lee needs help untangling her braid" Mai responds quickly "Sounds pretty serious" with only a touch of dryness and leaves, only able to muster throwing Azula a dirty look a split second after passing her. However, this little ember of rebellion will grow.
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Mai has continued difficulty understanding Zuko's anger and reactiveness, or how to even function in a relationship. She initially tries to joke in a dismissive fashion, as if saying 'ugh, feelings are lame, right?', but that would only work with Azula logically. The Beach episode is a key Mai episode. She continues to be emotionally repressed, to the point Zuko, Ty Lee and Azula comment on it. However, Zuko's insecurity at her talking to Ruon-Jian to the point he physically removes him from her presence, and his accusative comments like "You like him, don't you?", also makes Mai feel a little boxed in, controlled, and that does irritated her given her history. However, at the Beach's emotional narrative climax, Mai is able to finally express herself at the rest of the group (Azula included) for the first time, telling them to "Leave her alone" and that she's "still mad". After Zuko explosively reveals the extent of his pain and confusion, we see a 'smoothing' effect on her attitude. She realises her and Zuko are dealing with pain in different ways and his way is understandable.
Mai says softly, "I know one thing I care about, I care about you". This is the one thing Mai can grasp in the confusion. This is where Mai betraying Azula becomes inevitable. We see Mai continue to be more supportive with Zuko, more actively trying to cheer him up in Nightmares and Daydreams with big smiles and jokes while Zuko remains shut down over the War meeting and is acting irritated and repressed due to his family trauma. When Zuko later leaves and joins the Avatar, Mai is hurt and angry, which shows in the Boiling Rock, saying "All I get is a letter? You could have at least looked me in the eye when you ripped out my heart". They have a tense conversation, but it's their most honest one. I actually think Mai already made up her mind in this scene to support Zuko over Azula, and she doesn't quite realise it. "Save it? You're betraying your country" she accuses, to which Zuko replies, resolute, "That's not how I see it", and in response Mai just folds her arms and turns her head away in an almost defeat.
I find it very telling she doesn't respond. It's because she realises Zuko is more passionate and resolute about his mission than she is hers. It's because she knows the Fire Nation under its current authority is not exactly great. Sometimes in life we fall into a box and we need someone to give us that little push so we can realise we can climb out of it, that the toxic space we're in isn't normal, and we don't have to tolerate it. I like to think Mai was thinking in that moment where Zuko locked her in the cell and he and she gazed into each others' eyes, what she was really thinking about was what life she actually wanted to live. She was thinking of Azula and being under her thumb, and she was thinking of all those moments with Zuko, like when they were lounging on the sofa together, smiling and joking in Nightmares & Daydreams, and she realised how ridiculous it was to be afraid of Azula killing her when the real fear should be being Azula's servant until her dying days, decades of repression and misery.
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After all, what does Mai have left to fight for? Fear of Azula? Hah, what a joke. She remembers "I know one thing I care about. I care about you" and when she sees Zuko about to die she has to intervene.
"I guess you just don't know people as well as you think you do. You miscalculated. I love Zuko more than I fear you" Mai says to an increasingly-enraged Azula's speak of 'consequences', because Mai did fear Azula, but now in her love for Zuko she has found a purpose she has been lacking, her feelings and wants over Azula's will. Zuko being true to himself is contagious. Iroh's love for Zuko puts him on the right path, and in turn the love Mai has for Zuko saves her. As a consequence Ty Lee chooses Mai and their friendship over Azula's toxic, fear-based one and even later bonds with former enemies like the Kyoshi Warriors. Like Zuko says to Ozai, "an era of peace and kindness" will replace an "era of fear". In the face of fear, love and empathy win.
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creepzkilla · 10 months
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Jahaiahaiahajajs I'm so glad your back!!!
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I have an idea for you >:)=
Can I request some of your darkest headcannons for the Proxies? Like what are their toxic traits, it can sfw or nsfw or anything but the request is basically how dark and evil can they be?
I hope this makes sense and you don't have to do it, it's only of you're comfortable!
↳˳⸙;; ❝ HOW DARK ARE THE PROXIES? HC'S! ᵕ̈ ೫˚∗:
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tw. warning— mentions of self harm, mentions of aggressive actions, mentions of verbal abuse, mentions of physical abuse, mentions of sexual ordeals
[A/N]— theme change?!??? pls let me know if u guys wanna be tagged in the next post! also i wanted to do the pastas as realistic as possible… should i make a post on how the proxies + others met their lover😴 or just my general hc’s?
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THE QUESTION ITSELF IS FUNNY—
the proxies are slashers— murderers. psychopathic, deranged men that are hardly short of completely and utterly insane. their sanity-if they have any- is practically none besides possibly a sliver of humanity. if anything, they aren’t even men— they were resurrected from the pits of hell itself and placed on this god forban world. the atrocities that these men have commited rightly earns them the title of not men— but demons. their sinful actions could never be erased, not even if they bathed in the waters of Babylon. the screams, cries, the sobs of their victims as they carry out their orders doing god knows what to them, will forever be ingraved into their very being. not even god can save them from their damnation— if anything god is laughing.
SANITY IS NOT SOMETHING OF LUXURY FOR THE PROXIES—
it’s something that fought for. everyday, it’s a constant battle for control—the continuous thirst to satisfy the need to kill. not to mention the the operators hold on their minds, making them carry out heinous missions consisting of nothing but death and blood. their minds are plagued with nightmares of what they have done, on repeat like a broken record, replying over and over. yet, behind the insanity, the malice, the control over their minds, they have regained just a sliver of sanity. it’s not like they want to kill—but they have to. for the operator… for this urge. little by little, they begin to feel like an actual human being. but it’s not like you know anything.
TOBY ERIN ROGERS—
is the most far gone. since the operator took over his mind at such a young age without much resistance , he has the pleasure of sculpting toby’s mind into the perfect cast. despite the most—insane, he’s the one that hangs onto his sanity the strongest. almost like he’s able to flip it on and off like a switch. yet, the line between sanity and insanity draws very thin, so he can’t help it when… it slips sometimes.
Self-Destructive Tendencies: Toby's self-destructive tendencies, which are often associated with his character, could negatively impact the relationship. This is either emotional or physically. He may engage in self-harm or reckless behaviors, disregarding the well-being of you and causing them emotional distress and constant worry.
Emotional Instability: Toby's own emotional instability could create an unpredictable and volatile environment within the relationship. His mood swings, anger outbursts, and tendency to lash out verbally or physically could cause you to constantly walk on eggshells.
Explosive Anger: Toby may have anger management issues that result in explosive outbursts. He might have difficulty controlling his temper, leading to verbal or even physical aggression toward his partner. This behavior creates an environment of fear and intimidation.
Jealousy and Insecurity: Toby might struggle with feelings of jealousy and insecurity, leading him to exhibit possessive behavior. This could manifest in him constantly questioning your actions or relationships with others, even if there is no real cause for concern.
Over-Dependency: Toby may have a tendency to become overly dependent on you, relying on you for emotional stability and validation. This can lead to an unhealthy dynamic where he becomes possessive or overly clingy, causing his partner to feel suffocated or trapped.
HOW FAR WOULD TOBY GO—
well, he certainly wouldn’t go far enough to hurt you, no, never. he is specifically always careful not to harm you, especially during sex. but that wouldn’t mean that he would hurt you emotionally or mentally. his favorite punishment is ignoring you. he’d shun you for days on end in your shared apartment, just to teach you a lesson which is very rare. physically, he treats you like a delicate glass doll that could break at any moment. during sex, it’s almost like he’s afraid to touch you. he doesn’t want to corrupt you like the way he is… he wants to preserve your innocence, and your being, and because of that, he would do anything to protect you. anyone who would ever do you wrong would soon come under his hatchet in the most painful way imaginable.
Dark and Evil level: 6/10, Moderate, just "protective"
TIMOTHY WRIGHT(MASKY)—
is in a constant fight for control, more so than the other proxies. In Marble Hornets, it is referenced that he may have Dissociative Identity Disorder (DID). because of this, he comes into the separate entity known as Masky during blackouts. the operator has stalked timothy ever since he was a child and anyone else he came in contact with. the operator is setting his sights on timothy so young he can influence him just enough to do his bidding. of course, timothy hates the operator and works against him, but after so long, after all the pain and blood, he’s just too tired to fight back anymore. Masky, hates this. he hates that timothy gives up too quickly. during missions, a blackout is typically triggered, giving Masky complete control. and so soon enough Masky became tired as well. and then killing became second nature.
Controlling Behavior: Tim, overwhelmed by his own insecurities and paranoia, becomes possessive and controlling in his relationship. He constantly questions and monitors your actions, isolates them from friends and family, and exhibits manipulative behavior to maintain control.
Emotional Withdrawal: Tim, due to his secretive and guarded nature, may struggle with opening up emotionally to his significant other, that being you. He might withdraw from sharing his thoughts and feelings, leaving you feeling neglected or shut out.
Jealousy and Possessiveness: Tim's loyalty and protectiveness towards his friends, particularly towards Jay, might manifest as excessive jealousy and possessiveness in a romantic relationship. He may feel threatened by your interactions with others and attempt to control or isolate you.
Neglecting Emotional Support: Tim's own emotional struggles consume him, leaving little room for providing adequate emotional support to his partner, you. He may dismiss your concerns, minimize your feelings, or fail to offer the empathy and understanding you need, leaving you feeling unheard and invalidated.
Anger Issues: Tim/Masky occasionally displays violent and unpredictable behavior, driven by his internal struggles and external pressures. In a relationship, this volatility could lead to outbursts of anger, creating an unstable and potentially harmful environment for you
TIMOTHY AND MASKY WOULD NEVER HURT YOU—
not without reason. mentally or emotionally, timothy understands human emotions, despite not having any himself. yet, when he’s around you, everything changes. suddenly, he can feel again, suddenly, he has the strength to fight back. you are everything to him. the only good in this hell-bent world. he needs you, and he can’t let you leave him. so you can’t blame him when he starts chewing nicotine gum, “claiming to quit cigs.” you can’t blame him when he stops taking his gum out when he kisses you, “he forgets to.” you can’t blame him when suddenly all you want to do is kiss him. but it's not enough, no, no, no. he needs to make sure that your, 're addicted to him, completely and utterly infatuated with him. so, you can't blame him when he starts wearing nicotine patches, "the gum just wasn't working." you can't blame him when he starts placing the patches on you when you're sleeping next to him. you cant blame him when you practically breakdown when he leaves you, only for a few hours. you cant blame him when you feel a pinch on you arm during sex, when he stuck the nicotine patch into your arm without you seeing, saying that "oh darling its nothing." you can't blame him when you've become addicted to his presence and cock. no you don't understand, you really just can't blame him, he wants to keep you safe, really, he promises.
Dark and Evil level: 8.5/10, Very high, obsessive and insane.
BRIAN THOMAS (HOODY)—
has the most grip on reality. like tim, he has blackouts to which he comes into the separate being known as “Hoody”. also like Tim, he hates the operator. at first, he resisted, refusing to carry out those abominations; its heinous fantasies of mass destruction. except he was more willing than his counterpart, timothy. brian is calculating, he's a smart guy, he understood what would happen to him if he disobeyed the operator. the most excruciating torture that anyone has ever gone through. proxy brainwashing is no joke. he's not stupid, so that's why he's played the long game. do the operator's bidding until he's able to conjure a plan, it'll only be for a few, just until he can figure out how to get out of this hell space. soon "a few" turned into months. soon "months" turned into years. then suddenly he stopped keeping track. and then, he started to enjoy it.
Isolation and Control: Brian might isolate you from your friends and family, attempting to control who you interact with and where you go. By limiting your support networks, Brian exerts more control over their life, making it challenging for you to maintain independence and make your own decisions.
Difficulty Opening Up: Brian/Hoody's burden of guilt and emotional turmoil might make it challenging for him to open up and share his vulnerabilities. This could create a one-sided dynamic in the relationship, with you having to provide emotional support without receiving reciprocation, potentially leading to resentment and emotional imbalance.
Manipulative: brian plays on the emotions and insecurities of those around him, manipulating their feelings to further his own agenda. he understands their weaknesses and uses psychological tactics to subtly influence their actions, pushing them towards his desired outcomes.
Apathetic: Brian's apathy also masks underlying insecurities and vulnerabilities. By presenting himself as emotionally detached, he avoids exposing his true feelings and weaknesses to others. .
Emotional Unavailability: Brian/Hoody's reserved and stoic nature could make it difficult for him to express his emotions or be emotionally available in a relationship. He might struggle to communicate his feelings or provide the necessary emotional support to you, leading to a sense of distance and detachment.
BRIAN AND HOODIE ARE NEVER GONNA LET YOU GO--
you are the one thing that is keeping him sane. so don't even think about leaving him. you wouldn't get the chance anyways. your everything that he's ever wanted, there is not a chance in hell that he's gonna have you slip through his fingers. he can be mean sometimes, but he doesn't mean it, it just slips out! typically when he gets back from "work", he's aggravated, its like he's a different person. he's cold, calculating, a robot practically; so you cant blame him when he needs something to release his sexual frustration. he just loves pleasing himself inside of you, he loves the way your body reacts to his corruption. now since your body is "bound" to him, he still needs to take extra precautions to keep you from leaving... specifically, brian will pit you aganist your friends and anyone close. pointing out how your friend's remark was passive-aggressive, pointing out details on how your friends "don't care about you, how they will never care about you, how he is the only person that will ever truly care about you. of course, he leaves you at least one friend, maybe two if he's feeling generous, he doesn't want you to go insane after all.
Dark and Evil level: 7/10, Getting up there, crazy ex bf vibes
Toxic traits that all proxies/creepypasta have in my opinion:
Stalking
Manipulative
Gaslighting
Apathetic
Mean :(
Sexually all pastas have a corruption kink-- some more than others
DEEP DOWN THE PROXIES ARE STILL HUMAN--
after everything they've been through, after everything they have seen, they're just scared kids. their lives were stripped away from them at such a young age, their lives were just beginning--now its like they don't even live at all. they never wanted to do this, they never wanted to kill, they never wanted to serve an eldritch demon of mass power, they just wanted to grow up. be a kid, go to college, and have a life. maybe in a different universe, a different timeline, maybe just maybe, everything is the way it should be. maybe they arent as fucked up as they should be.
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🏷️— @spookyravioli
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lokiiied · 11 months
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it’s time for my long awaited autistic coded jamie post. okay so…
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sensory issues? check. also his lil tongue thing.
not understanding social cues & having to be told/explicitly asking how to interact with people and then learning & adapting; asking for and actually taking every piece of advice he gets from people who are important to him. that’s like. literally the base struggle with autism.
mislabelling his own behaviour as thinking he’s “being a prick” at times when he’s genuinely just expressing his thoughts/gently explaining something to people because other people have always told him that’s what he was instead of differentiating for him that he’s actually really smart and has good ideas.
sometimes he is just a prick tho.
plus there’s his trauma to factor in where he’s also afraid to share his ideas & feelings cuz of his dad.
the way he just assumed he misinterpreted everything and was sent off to man city as punishment for not doing enough about his behaviour and then never asked ted about it after he came back (even though ted really should have had a conversation with him and cleared everything up.)
how he’s remembered all these little factoids about amsterdam that he learned ten years ago and he might’ve had a little amsterdam and/or movie hyperfixation after the holiday with his mum to cope and distract himself from the traumatic memories of the previous time w his dad.
fully accepting his title of being a lil dumb/himbo. even though he also has a lot of knowledge about random things, is one of the best footballers in the league, and works really hard/wants to learn to be better. feel like this can generally be applied to all autistics (replacing football w that one thing that you’re really good at). and idk i feel like autistics invented himbos. so yeah!
also before someone tries to apply all of this to = ptsd…you can have ptsd and be autistic. not everything is a trauma response, and statistically autistic people are more likely to have trauma, anxiety, depression, & comorbidity with other disorders. it’s all very interconnected! xx
while i’m at it, roy’s autistic too!
difficulty expressing emotions and verbalising his thoughts/feelings. growling when he’s angry/non-verbal literally the most autistic shit ever.
his voice. as an autistic who has a very monotone/hard to hear/control voice i. recognise ways of speaking and i register his voice as part of his autism.
not great at communication/assuming people just know what he’s thinking.
also incredibly blunt/direct doesn’t sugarcoat things or lie when it may be socially expected to do so.
literally. his resting face. “you frowned your whole career” “no, i never smiled, that’s different.”
two autistic people trying to hug each other:
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+ “well, you came at me too fast!”
anyways mostly they’re autistic cuz i’m autistic and my spidey sense says so.
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adventuringblind · 7 months
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Drive with you Forever
Chapter Ten: a monster or a hero?
Max Verstappen x Charles Leclerc x Lando Norris X reader
Chapter summary: things come to a climatic peak at Abu Dhabi
Warnings: GORE, depictions of abuse, minor character death, description of injuries and blood, panic attacks, annoying first responders, gun and knife violence
Notes: wow I enjoyed this chapter. It was so much fun to write. I think going from action to intimate with the transition actually worked better then I thought it would. Not something I can say about my other work 😒😂
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She’s aware of the drops of blood running down her fingers onto the tarmac of the track. The lighta of Abu Dhabi illuminates her skin as she stands with shaky knees. She can smell the rage falling of the man in waves. His movements were clumsier in his anger.
He’d made a mistake in thinking he could touch them.
He’d been wrong to assume she would give in so easily.
Now, with a grin on her face and crimson cover face, she proves he created the killer he always claimed her to be.
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Aside from Jos and his odd interactions with her, paddock like was peaceful.
She’d gone back to analyzing data and tinkering with the cars. Using the rest of the season to simply heal. She was here because she wanted to be. She was here supporting her loves. She was here because this is her passion.
Redbull had been on fire since she got back to working with data and strategy. She loves driving, but this felt more like her. She’d made peace that her body would never be the same. Christian respects her choice and appreciates her for everything she’s done. Hence why she will always have a place in the Redbull garage, according to him.
Nights with her boys have been calm (for the most part). They are on a high after their tedious streak of lows. They’d spoiled her relentlessly after they almost lost her.
Max has finally managed to learn how to get his feelings across. It took him almost losing all of his partners to figure it out. He has Seb to thank for that.
She walked in in the German gently explaining to Max that he needs to tell them how he feels because bottling it up isn’t healthy and despite one of his partners being superhuman, she isn’t a mind reader.
Boy did he sob. They all did really. They pulled together as a unit after that. Not just being there for each other, but a team that works together to overcome the challenges and difficulties that life throws at them.
They are together. They are a family. They are bonded together by something deeper then love.
~
She’d found a way to help her confidence in being independent. How you ask? Getting one step closer to being a superhero.
Her martial arts had been coming along amazingly. Her trainer was impressed with how quick she progressed. It’s definitely helps that her visions had gotten better and she could see the possible outcome of a fight before it even happened. Sometimes while she was sparring, she’d be able to control her visions enough to just get a glimpse of her opponents next move.
She’d practiced with a few firearms and knew how to pull them apart and put them together with the wave of a finger. She could help guide bullets to their intended destinations with hardly any aim.
It’s safe to say she feels like she could take on the world. She just hopes she doesn’t have to.
It’s a funny thing to her, that even though she could kick someone’s ass into next year, her three partners still baby her.
Lando has found that his favorite place is having her in his arms. He claims if he lets go she might disappear.
Charles is always talking to her. Her tells her every reason why he loves her daily because he almost didn’t get a chance to tell her at all.
Max is vulnerable with her. The work of racing paints him to be cold-hearted and a villain, his father not helping much in that regard. Now he shows her every emotion he kept hidden away. He cries and laughs and lets the three of you see a side of him the cameras don't.
Everything was falling into place. The peace and happiness she wanted so bad was finally within reach.
But is seems nothing ever goes to plan.
~
The energy she worked so hard to keep in control was taking over for her. The locked box she didn't want to open had now exploded. A urge of something she'd never experienced before flying out.
It didn't help he was holding Lando by the throat. The Brit had been through enough already. His eyes are pleading with anyone. If he could just free himself from whatever was holding him there then maybe he could help her.
But she didn't need help.
Two sets of hands on his shoulders became one. The man on his left projecting something at his lover.
The glint of metal from the knife left his hands and landed itself in her shoulder. He could hear her skin ripping open. The blood starting to pool around the new wound.
She'd already killed three of them. The ones who had initially grabbed the three boys.
Their throats had all been sliced open on the track.
These men had been shouting the names they know her by. Killer. Betrayer. Monster.
Don't they know they made her this way?
The knife that had found its way into her skin is pulled out with a vile squelch. She looks down and smiles. The pain only encouraging her to keep going.
The laugh that falls from her mouth is terrifying.
She throws the knife back at its original owner. Her hand still outstretched and guiding the thin weapon. It sticks in a place he won't recover from. His body crumbles to the ground. Blood leaking from the gaping hold in his chest.
Originally, Lando thought he might die here. These stupid people holding him captive on the empty track had talked about ways they wanted to end him.
He was scared and shaking for fifteen minutes before she came to his rescue. He was still shaking as the other man pinning him in his place took off running.
She just watched him go. If he wasn't going to fight her and run away like a coward instead, then it's a waste of her energy to go after him.
She was on her knees in front of Lando in an instant. Her eyes rake over his body to look for any signs of injury. Satisfied, she unties all the ropes that had made his escape impossible.
His turn now to assess her. Lando's hand flying up to put pressure on the slit on her shoulder.
"What the hell is going on?" The waiver in his voice is not even trying to hide itself.
"My father has decided to use a different means to get to me.”
He's shocked at how steady her voice is. He can see the murky fear in her eyes, but also something he can't pinpoint.
"Are you alright?"
"Shaken up, obviously, but alive."
Her tears of relief are mixed with the blood on her cheeks.
Neither knew how this was going to end, but they couldn't spend much more time thinking about it.
"Do you know where he's keeping Charles and Max?"
He nods slowly, impressed at her composire. Then he's taking her hand and leading her onwards.
~
Jos was dejected at the sight of the four of them celebrating together. He hated that his son didn't listen to him or want anything to do with him, for that matter.
He knew what he was doing was wrong. But he'd made a deal.
He gets his son back, and the maniacal genius gets his daughter back. It's a win-win aside from the British boy and Anoying Monegasque having to lose out on life. But it was a risk he was willing to take.
The man he’d been working with found him. Knew him even. It was creepy, but he was willing to work with it. The mad man wanted his daughter back for something he couldn’t explain and Jos wanted his son back.
If only Jos had known Max would fight tooth and nail for her- for them.
~
Charles had a flight and fight response. First, he tried flight. He tried to run to the safety of Max but was foiled instantly. He wanted to check on Lando, but they had dragged the Brit away so long ago.
Now he's alone and struggling. They've been trying to pin him down, but he's been masterfully landing kicks on any place he could to their bodies.
He wasn't going down without a fight.
It was when they started talking about her that his body went lax. The things they said just morally sounded terrible.
"I hope this is worth it."
"Pretty sure is she can bring back the dead.”
"To bad she can’t have her own kids. This would be easier for all of us if she could.” Charles had no clue what they were talking about. None of it was making sense. He did understand that the intent was to bring her back to wherever the devil is living.
Oh, how he wanted to scream. How he wanted to yell at her to stay away, that they would be fine. But it was too late.
He could see her silhouette walking towards him. She looked calm. Her presence helping his mind to think rationally.
Though it was no longer rational as every person around him started clawing at their throats. Coughing, rasping, and pleading for whatever had them to stop.
Charles knew it wouldn't.
She stood there barely moving her hands. He could see the lights reflecting of her sweat. Then Lando was behind him, pulling out of the restraints. Reassuring him that everything was going to be okay now.
He couldn't help but relax into the brits hold.
He didn't know if they died as they fell. And frankly, he didn't care in this moment.
She crouched down to his level, cupping his face with her hands. He’s glad to see them both okay but the word takes hold as he notices the holes littering her body.
“Are you okay Did they hurt you?” They both ask him. Though one is more frantic than the other. He nods his head, really flooding his body at the sight of the two.
~
 Abu Dhabi was an interesting race this year. Max had already won the world drivers championship. Regardless, the race was still good and fun and he put himself being able to relax even while he was driving.
The group had gone out to celebrate. He had won. Redbull had won. Obviously, there was going to be a party.
The quartet, however, did not plan on staying long. It had been a long year for all of them, filled with many highs and lows. They all wanted to celebrate with each other in peace.
They had escaped a moment and decided to walk along the track just the four of them. The stars were out and the moon is bright. The lights from the track are still turned on. It felt peaceful, like nothing could take this moment away from them.
Then it was gone.
In the blink of an eye, Max was being dragged away from his lovers. Unknown hands and foreign voice is coming in every direction. He screamed, and he thrashed in an attempt to escape. But the hold on him was too much those. The people holding him there came prepared. So much for being a high performance athlete.
It felt like hours, even though it was probably just minutes. He hadn’t necessarily given up on fighting, but it felt pointless, and he was running out of energy. He needed to conserve what he had left to come up with a plan.
Then his father came out of the haze. He lectured him about why he was doing this for his own good.
Oh, how Max was seething.  His father had once again managed to get in the middle of his personal life. Claiming of what he was doing was for his benefit.
Max yelled in anger. He didn’t know all what he was saying just thought it felt good to get it out of his system.
Then a new voice. One he’d never heard before.
“Relax, you can have him to yourself soon enough.” The voice said.
His father was mumbling in Dutch as he walked away obediently. It was shocking for Max to see. Jos didn’t normally walk away from a fight.
They kept him on his knees but they had barely touched him. If he had to guess, Max would say his father struck a deal. The thought makes him want to throw up.
Everything in him wants to fight. He wants to scream out to see if his partners respond.
But he didn’t need to.
It’s blurry. He didn’t realize he was crying. The flash of his lovers comforting eyes the only thing pulling him back from his increasing panic.
Two of them. Where’s the third?
He can hear the sound of crushing bones and shrill screams.
The three of the, are huddled together. Lando has his buried in Max’s chest and Charles’ arms are wrapped tightly around his midsection.
Then the sickening calm of silence.
He can hear her heavy pants. He can smell the carnage around him.
Slowly he gets up and approaches the female like a wild animal.
She looks psychotic in a way. Her skin is slick with sweat. Her body is stitching itself together but her wounds have drenched her clothes in a dark red.
Blood seems to cover most of her.
She looks exhausted. Her visible skin has lost its color. She looks like she’s on edge, scanning her surroundings for more threats.
Max doesn’t touch her when he gets close. He can see the tears pulling in her eyes, taking in what she’s done.
She sinks to her knees. The weight of it all pulls her to the ground. “Are you hurt?”
Max looks at her with love. She’d always made sure everyone else came first. She’s bleeding out before his eyes and yet she’s asking if he’s okay.
He sets himself in front of her.
“Why aren’t you scared? I’m everything he said I am.” Her voice breaks. She’d killed them but Max knew it wasn’t out of any good feelings. She wasn’t satisfied with herself. She had done it to protect them.
Lando and Charles are next to him now. Charles is the first to reach for her hand. She flinched away at first but then relaxes at the touch, letting the warmth of his skin remind her that everyone is alive.
“We could never be scared of you, mon amour. You were protecting us.”
“But I killed them.” She sobs. Her mouth falling open in a silent scream. Her arms close around herself as she pushes herself as close to the ground as possible.
Max knows they need to get out of there. People are going to be here soon and they’ll ask to many questions.
But they aren’t at fault, so why is he scared?
Screw it, he’s calling Seb.
The four of them pile into each other. The female wails have not slowed and their doing her best to get her to breath. Her blood pools onto the tarmac even though her wounds are closing slowly before their eyes.
Max manages to get his cell to work. The screen shattered and he can barely see what’s on it because of the static, but it works.
He fails Sebs number. He feels guilt about spoiling his retirement party but he doesn’t know what else to do.
“Hello? Max?”
“Help.”
~
She wasn’t sure what was happening. There are sirens and police surrounding the area now. People are asking her questions that she can’t respond too. Her skin is on fire and she can’t feel her limbs. She just wants to go home.
Seb hasn’t left her. She’s clutching his hand like a child. The fear of being left alone with strangers and her thought to much to handle right now.
The other three are answering questions. Mostly about how she looks like she went to hell and back and they have some scraped knees and bruises.
“Y/N is trained in martial arts and self-defence.” Explains the Dutch for the thousandth time. “They came after us. Majority of them ran away. And do you blame her for fighting? Shes been kidnapped before for fucks sake!”
Max stomps away from the first responders and back to her. He sits down next to her in the ambulance and huffs. “They aren’t listening.”
“Patience. They are trying to get all the information.” Seb continues wiping blood off her exposed body. Her clothes are decimated and her hair is a crusty tangled mess.
“I know. It’s just frustrating. I want the to catch the people who organized this.”
“Your dad one of them?”
Max turns his head away in shame. “I highly doubt he’ll come back to any races after he exposed himself like this.”
“One can hope.” Seb sighs and Max nods his head in agreement. Seb runs to rag over the wound in her shoulder, the sting causing her to let out a hiss of pain through her teeth. “Sorry, Love.”
The adrenaline that had once been fueling her had dwindled away into nothing now. Everything hurts and she’s tired, but Seb said she needs to stay awake for now.
Lando peeks his head into the vehicle. “They want to ask you questions, love. If you aren’t up to it I’ll let them know.” Lando patiently awaits her response. Wordless, she stumbles out of the bed and into Lando’s arms. He helps her out of the ambulance, and they take slow steps back onto the tarmac. Her breathing gets more uneven with each step.
Lando keeps his arm around her waist to help her to her destination. "You don't have to do this yes, we can wait until you're stronger." She smiles at him with appreciation, but she knows it's better to do it now.
The officer meets her halfway, and Charles jogs to catch up with them.
"Did you recognize any of the attackers?"
"No."
"Did you kill the seven that were on the track when we arrived."
"Yes."
"Why is that?"
"They wanted to kill us."
"How do you know?"
"They said so. They held knives to throats and huns to heads."
Charles had never heard her sound so robotic. Like every answer had been preprogrammed into her.
"We're they the ones who hurt you?"
"Yes."
"What happened with Max, Charles, and Lando?"
Her breath hitches, and the tears start again. Lando increases the pressure of his hold as her knees go to buckle.
"They almost died. They got them by surprise and tried to kill them to get to me." She can't stop the cries that sake her body again.
Charles is at her other side. The two are trying to keep her upright. Her dry heaving not helping them.
They decided they heard enough. So they dragged the group down to the police station to test them for every possible mind altering substance on the planet.
She cried every time they touched her. The medical equipment is not helping her state if mind.
The four males sit and wait for her. They weren't allowed to go with. She fought, tooth and nail, because she didn't want to leave them. They begged to let at least one of them go with her, but we're ultimately denied.
The look of panic on her face when she was being hauled away broke all of them.
An hour later, an officer came to give them an update. "We're holding her overnight."
"Absolutely not." States sebastian in protest. "The girl is traumatized. Her family almost died tonight, and she's been dealing with strangers keeping her away from them. You might want to rethink."
The man in front of them gives seb an exasperated look. "She killed seven people. We have no witnesses that can give an outsiders perspective. And we're waiting on security footage. Her blood work is anything but normal, and you seem dead set on leaving." The man explains. "I will have someone call you with an update tomorrow."
The boys left. Sullen. Tired. Broken.
They slept on sebastians' floor that night. Hanna watched as they passed out as soon as they got in the door. Seb just hugged her. His distress clear to her.
She deserves better. She was a child who had her innocence stolen.
~
The holding cell is cold and metallic. The air smells musty. The colors contrast her own appearance.
They didn't even give her new clothes or a hairbrush.
After hours of waiting, someone came in with a laptop. The image of her on the track is already on the screen.
The play button is pressed.
It's what happened but from an outsiders perspective.
She panics. Her whole body trying to not relive these moments.
They come over the gate with knives and guns drawn. Three of them immediately going for her.
You can't see it, but she’s using her powers. It looks like a mere glitch on the screen.
She disarms the first and takes a knife to the hip from the second. A knife she promptly pulls out of her and slams into his throat.
The first bullets came from the one behind. The one in front keeping her sandwiched innetween them.
They talked at this point, but the video doesn't have sound.
The first throws her to the ground, her head snapping from impact on the tarmac.
She reachches for the knife in the second man's throat. The now slick metal makes a gorey sound as it slides out of his next. She launches at the third before he can get another shot of. His finger never makes it to the trigger.
The third is a lot stronger than her. She coaxed her visions into guiding her, showing her how to get him on the ground. Her leg hooks into the back of his knee to pull him to the earth.
She waits now. Holding up her hands in surrender. Pleading with him to stop.
He dosents. His knife is now aimed at her. Me manages to lodge it into her stomach. Again, she pulls it out and slits the last man's throat.
Then she's sprinting.
She had heard the shots of protest from the boys. They were going to use them as leverage. She had to run. She had to heal. So she did both, managing to weave some things back together before she found Lando. Using her visions to guide her.
She was going to overdue it but she didn't care.
Lando had been forced to his knees. He had a gun passed to his head. Tears had glistened his cheeks as he mumbled words of forgiveness.
Then another stupid knife found its way into her shoulder. She returned the favor after that.
The man with the gun took off back over the fence. She didn't care, though. Lando was her priority at that moment.
Then she's untying him, making sure he's okay and running off to hopefully find the other two.
The camera angle switch’s again.
Charles is trying to kick away his captives, landing him a punch to his ribs and an elbow to his knees. They put all their weight on him to hold him steady.
Then their clawing at their throats. Her and Lando just standing and watching.
The video pauses. She didn't even realize she had been crying and shaking til she's brought back to the present.
"They have no fingerprints on them. No signs they poisoned themselves. You admitted to killing seven. How did you do it?"
She shrugs. How is she supposed to respond to this? "I guess I assumed I killed them. Me and Lando didn't know what was happening. We just stood there trying to assess the situation."
She feels like she might believe her own lie. There is no way to explain that. Her and Lando both just stare at what's happening.
Then the video turns back on.
Her and Lando are running to Charles, untying him, checking for injuries, then running off to find Max.
The last stint is something she wants to forget.
The group around Max and Jos had been massive. But they saw her walking towards them and fled the scene. All except one.
They'd fought for a ridiculous amount of time. She'd felt his bones snap underneath her. He'd pummeled her to a pulp. He pulled her hair. Her visions were no help as she was exhausted. They had each other in a headlock. She couldn't breathe. It didn't help he was stronger.
But her powers helped in that are as she used them to snap his neck. The sound of cracking the only think filling her ears for thirty seconds.
Then it shows them all together. It shows her on the ground screaming, crying, throwing up.
Then it's done.
She can't move. She can't breathe. Every moment now fresh in her brain once again.
"Technically speaking, this was all self-defense. They hit you first in every scenario."
She glared at whoever this man was that made her relive this.
But she didn't say anything because his next words were 'free to go.'
It's late and dark. She's still covered in blood. But her phone is broken.
So she walks.
She walks, and she cries.
She wants it all to end. The little girl wanted to be with her family. With sebastian and Hanna and her siblings. She needs to know her boys are okay.
She spaces out, lost in her own head as she arrives at the hotel. At Sebs door. Praying he's awake or at least will wake up.
She knocks. Fully expecting that she will be spending the night outside the door. To her shock, it opens.
Seb pulls her inside where she's tackled in hugs and kisses.
"They let you go?!"
"They had no reason to keep me."
She's aware of how awful she looks. She needs new clothes which she doesn't have here but their hotel room is farther than sebs.
And at 6 in the morning, they are in their own room. Seb, having driven back himself.
The boys are getting things together to help her clean up.
She stares at the wall. Blank and empty. Just how she feels.
Max and Lando are out at the store. They have nothing they need to help take care of her. They were expecting to leave this morning, but the benefit of flying private is that Max can change when they leave.
Charles is running a bath for her. She's a mess of litteral blood, sweat, and tears.
He croutches down next to her and pulls one of her hands into his own. "What do you say we get cleaned up, hm?"
She lets him help her to her feel. The warmth of the steam from the bath hitting her skin makes her feel something close to alive again.
Charles helps her out of her trashed clothing and then holds her hand while she gets in. "Do you want a moment to yourself, Chéri?"
She almost panics for a second. "Don't leave me- please."
"Do you want me on their with you or next to you?"
She likes when he asks with easy words. "With."
Then Charles is stripping of his own clothes and climbing in behind her.
He takes his time rinsing her skin. Careful not to mess with her new stitches that the paramedics gave her.
He spent time untangling her hair with nimble fingers and washing out every last bit of grime.
She relaxed into his hold. The safety of his arms reminding that he's alive, so is Max and Lando.
They're still in the bath when the other two come back. Lando and Max take the opportunity to get the food ready and set out their clothes for her to wear when she comes back.
“I know where both enjoying this, but I think if we stay in any longer we may become one with the water.” Charles laughs.
He gets out first and wraps a towel around his waist. He lays a spare on the floor so they don’t slide around anthem helps her to the ledge. He takes a towel and dries her off with it, taking extra care of her wounds and double checking that her stitches look okay still. He wraps her towel around her and slips his clothes back on. He wasn’t going to put her trashed clothing back on her.
Charles guides her out of the bathroom into the dimly lit suite. Max and Lando help her into their clothes; Max’s shirt and Lando’s sweats. Then they crawl into bed together.
Her cries shatter their hearts. The broken sobs of overwhelming feelings finally getting to her. “I don’t deserve this after what I did.”
“What you did was save us geliefde. We could ask for anything more then that.”
“But I killed people. He was right. I’m a fucking killer. A monster.”
“You killed them because you had too. It sucks and I can’t say I understand how your feeling, but if you didn’t do it then we would be dead. So no matter where your thoughts go, the three of us are grateful for what you did out there.”
“We love you Chére. Our superhero.”
~
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jlepixie · 8 months
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╰ ୨ Draco in a relationship ୧ ╯
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☆ your first ever friend at Hogwarts was Pansy, when she suggested that you should meet her friend group you got a little nervous because you knew about Draco and his mean personality. At first, as expected, he was brutally mean to you, almost knocking you down every time he passed by, or just verbally bullying you. That was until you got the guts to confront him, it was late at night in the library where he would spend most of his time. When he heard everything you had to say, and seeing the tears struggling not to come out of your eyes, he had a shocked looked on his face. Leaving him alone made Draco to rethink his actions and try to be more open minded with you.
☆ After the thought of him liking you popped in his mind, he tried to deny it and convince himself that this couldn't be true. But after some time passed he finally accepted his feelings. He wouldn't confess immediately because more or less he is scared of you rejecting him, but he would definitely scare all the guys who even try to look at you, that act mostly annoyed you. At some point he brought you to the astronomy tower, apologised for his behaviour, and told you he really just has a major crush on you.
☆ The first few weeks he would try his best to keep your relationship a secret, because mostly he wouldn't want his parents to find out about you, scared that they might do or say something to you. But eventually you couldn't hold it any longer and confronted him about the situation. That act led to not hide it anymore, and surprisingly when his parents found at, Narcissa was actually really happy for his son, seeing how nice you were treating him.
☆ Draco is way too much protective than you thought. He would give death glares to does who even try to talk with you. Let's just say that he wants you all to himself. If was someone who tried to talk bad about you behind your back, or just insults you straight to your face he would literally fight them. He is also the jealous type, he would probably get really angry and give the silent treatment. Draco threatens everyone he thinks are trying to steal you or hurt you.
☆ He sometimes had difficulty showing his true emotions to others but especially to you. This can get really frustrating for both of you, especially at the beginning of the relationship however, the longer you two are together, the easier it gets for him. Felling comfortable around others was always a problem to him but he found out that he can relax when you are around him, and that always puts a smile on him. Draco is at the point where he feels that he is capable to show his real self around you, which is even better than you could've imagined. You are also the only one that is allowed to see him braking down and he is really comfortable with it because he finds your affection towards him comforting.
☆ Him not being used with having a partner, makes it a little harder to treat you the way you deserve, even if he knows it's wrong but can't control it yet. You have to be there for him, to be patient and to show him what you do and don't like to do, or to be done to you.
☆ Draco loves taking you on dates, especially if its somewhere privet, not because he is ashamed of you or doesn't want to show you of, he defiantly wants that. But how he wants you all to himself, he enjoys time with you alone where you two can grow together as a couple, to learn and do things you like.
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kzpearce · 9 months
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attitudes - kamisato ayato x f!reader
note. hai hai everyone i'm finally back! sorry this is not THAT much because all of my stories are for my original characters lmao. so this will do for now.
quick note. disclaimer that this is for female readers or afab! still second point of view, and mentioned (y/n) once only. slight tw/ mentions monthly period several times. if there r she/her pronouns typo, forgive me! but i proofread it so checked i needed to correct! thank you so muchhh <3
“Go away,” you say softly behind the locked bedroom door. “I don’t like you.”
“You’re giving me an attitude again, (y/n).” Ayato sighs as he grab the hot compress from the cabinet. He has a younger sister and he’s aware how the monthly period works, but you give him a different outcome. Ayato nearly lost his sanity. 
He also needs to deal with your premenstrual syndrome — where you are mostly easily irritated and extra sensitive before your actual period. In fact, your mood swings occur most of the time before your monthly. 
During your period, it’s lessened, but it’s still not the best. However, you love to cling. You love to hug Ayato at random times, and you somewhat act like a toddler. Despite this, Ayato loves you even more. He loves how you depend and cling to him.
When you and he were new to your relationship, Ayato had difficulties dealing with you. You were sensitive with your emotions yet somewhat insensitive with your words. If you’re having an attitude now, the old you was worse.
You fought with him, and you were not emotionally okay for several days. Ayato confronted you when the two of you calmed down and said that he was struggling to understand you. After you explained and apologized, you tried to adjust. Your mood swing attitude remains, but you’re doing better at controlling it than before. 
Ayato appreciates his family’s genes of patience because if he didn't have one, he doesn't think you and he would still be together. 
The thought of losing you makes Ayato’s stomach clench. 
With the hot compress with Ayato and the food you’re craving for, he finally knocks on the door. “Love, can you open the door for me?” The tone of his voice easily becomes soft when he calls you with your endearment. 
You don't respond. 
“Please?” Ayato adds, pleading. 
You open the door and peek. The way you look at him tells him that you’re not feeling okay. Ayato smiles softly, showing you the hot compress and your craving cheesecakes. 
“I know you’re craving ice cream more, but let’s save it for tomorrow, okay? Let’s avoid cold food to help your cramps. Is that okay, baby?” 
You push your lower lip forward and your gaze softens, attempting to hold back your tears. You open the door wide open, allowing him to step inside the room.
Ayato notices you’re wearing an oversized white shirt, only to find out that you stole one of his shirts again. He chuckles.
“Love,” Ayato sustains his o as he places the food and your hot compress on the nearest table. He wraps his arms around your figure and presses his chin on the top of your head. “Baby, you stole my shirt again.”
You hug me back and hum. “I lied when I said I don’t like you.”
Ayato kisses her head. “I know, love.” 
You rest your chin on his chest and look up to him. You curve your lip into a charming and adorable smile. “Stay with me tonight.”
“I will. I finished extra work today so I can stay until tomorrow morning.” 
Your smile fades. “Did you even sleep, Commissioner?”
Ayato presses his lips together. Woops, he thought. “Lesser hours than my normal sleep.”
“Ayato, you've barely slept six hours already.” Your eyebrows furrow, “How less?”
Ayato hums, “Three?”
“That’s it. You are really going to stay here tonight.”
A smirk tugs his lips, “You should’ve directly told me you missed me.”
“I do! But I can’t enjoy you when you’re restless,” your voice eventually becomes a whisper at the end of your sentence. Ayato can’t help but let out a hearty laugh.
“I have energy.” His smirk maintains.
“Sleep.” You glare.
“Okay, okay.” Ayato chuckles and kisses your cheek.
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CAN U DO EITHER EARTH REALM GUYS OR LIN KUEI GUYS RAISING LIKE A VAMPIRE KID?! Like as a baby they were just dropped off in front of their doorstep
Ok so I kinda like this paragraph format so here’s what we’re gonna do from now on. You can choose between the usual headcanons or this paragraph style. Now obviously there’s like, one shots and drabbles but you know what I mean. This is a quick thing. You still get the same information and thoughts. It’s just formatted differently. Idk how accurate this is but I attempted it.
Bi-Han is a mix of confused and annoyed. He knows he has to have a child because the Lin Kuei needs a new Grandmaster but he’s been putting it off. When a random baby is dropped on his doorstep, he’s beyond confused. You don’t just find the Lin Kuei by accident. You have to actively look for them, so that means he was specifically targeted. Targeted or not, he initially does not want to keep this baby at all and wants Liu Kang to find out where this baby came from and to find them a new guardian because he’s certainly not doing it. A baby is one thing, but that little terms and conditions note that says “btw they’re a vampire”? Absolutely not.
Bi-Han does the bare minimum at first. Keeps them out the sun, gives them blood (don’t ask where he’s getting it), keeps them away from any other harmful objects, stuff like that. Bi-Han somehow manages to get attached though, so when Liu Kang finds a guardian he’s like “they’re attached to me already. It’s probably safer here”. He isn’t sure how or when he became so attached but it happened and he has to accept that.
Bi-Han is the most strict parent and his kid would have the best control over their thirst. He’d have a strict schedule with them aswell. Hunting is from this time to this time, no you can’t eat anyone apart of the Lin Kuei, only night school, etc. He would focus heavily on discipline because if his kid has an emotional outburst, bodies are dropping. He probably ends up raising the most stereotypical brooding vampire ever. This kid is definitely being raised as an assassin too because Lin Kuei shit and also their powers give them a boost above others.
Bi-Han would have his vampire child on a tight leash. He might literally get a leash if they keep acting out. I’m not saying he’s a helicopter parent but if he looks away for one second, ten people could die. He’s raising a vampire but he’d still manage to be intimidating to them. Honestly I think his kid would be very isolated for both their safety and everyone else’s. Bi-Han is very aware of the troubles this kid could cause and I think his need to make sure they know how to handle themselves and his need to keep them safe would cause him to teach them how to do all this training when it comes to their thirst and powers but would also keep them isolated so it’s kinda like “what did I learn all this for?”.
They have a mixed relationship. It’s not all peaches and cream but there is a sense of caring there.
Kuai Liang is equally as confused. Anyone would be. A baby was given to him specifically and he has no idea why this is happening and who did it. While Bi-Han is more irritated at first, I think Kuai Liang is frustrated for a different reason. It’s a mystery and who just drops a baby off? What if he didn’t see them in time and they died in the sun? Whoever the parent was didn’t care and that bothers him and he is not afraid to voice how frustrated he is by this.
Kuai Liang also asks Liu Kang to figure out who did this. He assumes Liu Kang has eyes everywhere so he’s confused when Liu Kang has no idea who it was and is having difficulty finding them. Well… he has a baby now… guess he gotta take care of it. He does his best but who in their right mind would actually know what to do? He takes the same precautions you would expect when it comes to things that would harm the baby and he is very watchful. Although this is a responsibility that he doesn’t necessarily want, he understands that this baby can’t really go anywhere. Anyone else could purposefully harm them and I don’t see him being ok with that so they locked in now.
Kuai Liang is not a perfect dad by any means but he’s trying to make sure they survive. He tries to draw as little attention as possible so they’re not targeted. I can see him buying brown contacts and slathering them in sunscreen hoping it does something. I think the main conflict him and this kid would have is Kuai Liang subconsciously trying to ignore the very big elephant in the room. He knows they’re a vampire but since it adds so many problems for both of them, he accidentally acts like it’s something that can be cured. And I can see people thinking this is a more Bi-Han thing but I don’t think so. Kuai Liang’s compassion can be smothering and can be damaging sometimes. In my head he is the mediator whenever there is a conflict and this mediating skill goes overboard and fucks things over.
Kuai Liang would continue to keep a watchful eye on them, even as they got older. Idk why but I feel like he would try to encourage them to stick to an animal only diet but he wouldn’t be upset if they slipped from time to time. He tries to teach them about their abilities as best as he can but tries to be extremely careful since fire can kill a vampire. He’d try to do demonstrations and hope that their powers can match each other if they’re the type of vampire that has telekinesis or something like that. Like I said, he’d try to raise this kid like it’s a regular baby which would only work for a certain amount of time.
Also a mixed bag of a relationship. His subconscious denial and trying to fix what’s not broken would fuck him over.
Tomas was orphaned later in life but he’d still be upset by this situation. He’s not happy at all about someone abandoning their baby and giving it to someone who honestly isn’t in the best situation to raise a baby. That’s where his irritation would mainly stem from. This scooby doo ass mystery would also annoy him. He’s not mad at this kid though because he knows that this baby is a victim. They didn’t ask for this and he can’t just give them away because who is gonna take care of a vampire baby? No one but him.
Tomas isn’t ready for a kid at all. The brothers aren’t either but as the oldest and the head of their own clan at some point, they know a kid has to happen. Tomas hasn’t really thought about kids at all. They’re there and maybe it’ll happen but he’s never had this “imma have to have kids for my clan” mentality. A kid is already difficult but a vampire? He’s completely lost and needs assistance. Certain quirks vampires have, like vampire children aging very slowly is draining this man. If you think it’d be the opposite and the kid would age rapidly, that’s confusing him too. Anything that’s not the normal when it comes to aging is making his head hurt. Plus the other complications.
Tomas becomes a helicopter parent. Bi-Han is maybe getting a leash but Tomas definitely is. All this helicopter shit comes from a place of concern but this kid can’t take a single step without Tomas on their heels worried about them. He ends up doing a lot of stuff for them and holding their hand through everything which isn’t good for any child but especially not good for a future murderer. All of this would cause a rebellious phase and this kicks his ass so bad. Normal kids become emo and role play on Amino. Vampires rebel by eating everything they see and now Tomas is chasing them through an alleyway trying to calm them down. This is probably one of the few times he regrets taking them in.
Tomas would have to learn to let them do them. They gotta figure out this vampire shit by themselves and get some assistance from him. Stepping away from this serious stuff, I can honestly see him dressing them in the most cliche shit ever because Johnny showed him a bunch of movies and now he assumes this is how it’s supposed to go. I mean it is the 21st century and he has this child in Victorian clothing. Other people have to tell him “Tomas… get that baby a t shirt and jeans”. Where is my proof? I don’t know. I just feel like after MK1 he’ll hang around the Earthrealm champions more and that’s not good.
Is that a helicopter? No that’s Tomas. He means well but movies and over worrying is this man’s downfall.
None of the brothers are perfect fathers and they’re definitely making mistakes if a vampire is involved. They have different feelings about this whole situation but they learn to accept this situation and do genuinely care for this kid.
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weeb-polls-with-pip · 2 months
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Autistic Anime Boys Side B Round 1 Match 5
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Kanata -
"He has many autistic characteristics such as unusual body language, a flat effect, difficulty communicating, a special interest in marine biology, a samefood (soy sauce), and being the former godhead of a fish cult. Also, his wiggles."
Sig -
"He's the descendant and reincarnation of half a demon-soul, the other half is currently sealed in a cursed book Sig's classmate Klug uses as a glorified magic-booster. Said other half badly wants to assimilate Sig to restore itself. Sig is quiet, often falls asleep with his eyes open, has flat emotional affect (but is actually very emotional on the inside, as his best friend Amitie points out a lot), has very powerful hidden magic abilities and has a red left demon arm that mutated to look that way shortly after he transferred to his current magic school and he'd really rather have it return to normal, but thinking about it too much distresses him, so he usually just ignores it. One time, when he lost control of his powers, instead of asking for help, he got worried about bothering others and ran away instead, thinking that way he wouldn't cause trouble for his friends. Thankfully Amitie followed and saved him before his personality was erased by his past life memories (yes, that almost happened). He also has a hyperfixation on insects, talking about them is the only time he uses longer sentences and proper grammar. He has encyclopedic knowledge of insects and he loves his collection so much that even just the thought of anybody hurting insects makes me him really angry. <3"
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sadlybeans · 1 year
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ok but now i need to write down these! (disclaimer: this is a compilation of things i’ve seen + a couple of mine, so you probably know a lot of them already)
✨Batdad headcanons✨
So we all know the classical ‘wouldn’t notice if some other random kid started living in his house’ thing, right? I personally think it’s true to some point. Like, he would notice there’s a new kid he definitely did not bring into the house, BUT he immediately (and mostly correctly) assumes said kid is here because their life sucks otherwise so he pretends not to see. (Bc like, come on, the Wayne family is anything but functional so if this is an improvement, what was their life like before they came?)
He doesn’t really care what the kids do with his money??? If they come up to him and ask “Hey B! Can I have a million bucks?” he would pull out his phone and wire them 2 million without question. The only one who has absolutely zero trust and must say explicitly what he wants is Damian, for obvious reasons.
He says he doesn’t have favourites but everyone knows he does. Cass, of course, and Jason (Do you seriously think he could carry guns with little issue if he didn’t have favourite son privileges?).
In reality, he’s absolute shit at handing out punishment/scolding the kids. He does try, to his credit, but they know how to manipulate their way out of it or bend the rules to their favour.
He tried his best not to swear in front of them as they grew up (still doesn’t swear at all in their presence), but at some point he just gave up on scolding them for it. So while on patrol, he’ll just sigh every time Jason screams “motherfucker!” into the comms, but back in the mansion may god help them if Alfred hears them.
Ever since Dick was a kid he started carrying snacks with him on patrol. Nowadays he needs to be prepared and carry all the specific varieties they like. (He forgot Dick’s mini cereal bags once and he still can’t hear the end of it).
I personally think he would let the public think all the kids are his bio kids. Gotham thinks he’s just really an idiot when it comes to birth control, because surely all those black haired, blue eyed children are his. (The only ones whose parentage is truly questioned are Duke and Damian, but as he grows up Damian looks more and more like Bruce so the speculation dies down).
As a follow up, at first people tried to claim they were pregnant with his kid, but actually it was the Wayne children who shut it down by unsubtly implying all of them were planned and wanted, not accidents. (Which is technically true…)
He may be give Tired Dad energy 90% of the time, but there’s a reason all his kids are insane, reckless, diabolical little terrors. They learnt to be THAT overdramatic from him.
Like, come on. Bruce “I dress as a bat to beat up clowns” Wayne, a responsible and sensible adult?
HA.
He’s always excited to receive AND give gifts to his family. Half the time he just receives drawings of bats, exactly one sock with a silly pattern, or a cheap scented candle from the dollar store but you can bet your ass he treasures every last one of them.
Because of how much he spoils his own kids, he cannot be left unsupervised with anyone else’s children. (Too many times has this warning been ignored— Wally’s still salty that Barry dragged him back home. Jon has his own bedroom in the mansion)
He may have difficulties with accepting he has emotions but he loves all his kids just the same and he never regrets becoming a dad, even if do drive him mad sometimes.
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completeoveranalysis · 4 months
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Following directly on from the last page of the previous chapter we’re talking about Evil Wolverine’s wish and I LOVE what they do with it here. They frame it as so natural and understandable - a goal that, actually, our entire cast not only sympathises with but already spent part of their own lives already chasing. 
And it’s framed visually here with Fai and Kurogane on the outside and their lost loved ones between them. We have Kurogane’s parents up top, smiling happily in his memory - and the climax of Kurogane’s backstory was him REFUSING to let them go. He went completely feral and attacked anyone who went near him. He had to be shot with a laser beam before he could be coaxed into realising he had to let them go. It’s very easy to see how he would understand the raw emotion behind wanting to bring someone back, especially if you never really let go of that all-consuming grief. Like Evil Wolverine, Kurogane did not hold back from hurting others in that grief, for a while.
And below that we have Fai’s brother, by contrast looking ABSOLUTELY MISERABLE in Fai’s memory - reflecting the suffering they went through but also the part of Fai that spent so long fixated on changing what had happened. Fai spent his whole life from that moment working towards a very similar wish to Evil Wolverine’s - to bring his brother back, but in a much more self destructive way. He hated the fact that he survived, tricked into thinking he had killed his brother, and so wanted to switch places. He was also tasked with killing Kurogane to make it happen. And this was the core of his personality for hundreds of years. So of course he gets it - he got it from minute one. When Evil Wolverine showed up in the pit Fai had already guessed his motivation on the spot. 
Between them both you can get a rough approximation of what Evil Wolverine is willing to do for this same wish - so caught up in it that he’s willing to do anything, to hurt anyone it takes, to spend hundreds of years working on it, never letting up from that core of grief. But the difference is that Fai and Kurogane both changed. They found love elsewhere, and eventually grew to accept that love. They realised what they were doing and, slowly and with difficulty, knew they had to move on. As much as they missed their loved ones they discovered they had worth elsewhere and could do more good for the living than the dead. 
Not Evil Wolverine though! He specifically chose the “fuck the living!” option and has spent his life destroying and manipulating other people into his very same grief on purpose to get what he wants. 
I think you could get a lot out of Evil Wolverine specifically using grief to control people. He kills their loved ones in front of them in order to force them to do what he wants - because it’s the only feeling he understands. He lives his life consumed by that grief, so the only way he knows to get people on his side is to make then the same as him. It’s his only tactic. 
It just wasn’t strong enough to work on Fai and Kurogane. It was BRUTAL and wrecked their entire lives but they still found the strength to let go of the stage of grief that Evil Wolverine refuses to let go of.
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Just some idea for quirk drawbacks
-Denki Kaminari's actual drawbacks are painful aftershocks that can leave scars on his bodies, so he sets his limit way lower to protect himself and not worry his friends, and when he accidentally goes over that set limit, he pretends to go dumb mode
-When Shinsou uses his quirk too much, he can't think straight, and has difficulty doing basic tasks
-Kiri's skin is overly sensitive after overuse
-Bakugou has a slight tremor in his hands, and he's slowly going deaf
-Mirio has a hard time staying solid
-Tamaki can't eat anthing if he overuses his quirk. He just throws it all up
-Overuse for Tokoyami causes Dark Shadow to influence his emotions, making even the smallest things infuriating 
-Mina does get burned sometimes by her acid, but when overused, she has difficulties controlling her ability to emit it, or how acidic it is
-Todoroki has issues with making himself comfortable. His body can't stay one consistent temperature, and never the same temp in more than one place
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princessjojo-x · 5 months
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VirgoVenus ★ ★ ★ ☆ ☆
💝 he is picky, critical & judgmental. he has tendency to analyse his partner, noticing every detail abt her & critiquing as a means of helping. he sees right through people since he’s very analytical. but his tendency to focus on his partners flaws hinders his ability to form meaningful connections & may drive potential partners away. since he’s hard to impress & often very particular in what he likes, he doesn’t jump into rxships easily & he doesn’t like to be rushed into love. his carefulness protects him from blind passion & he’s often disappointed in romance. he senses when a rxship has no future & his partner isn’t putting enough effort. he will not feel bad to replace her in the click of a finger with someone who is more willing to give him what he wants bc he is very calculated.
💝 his fault-finding nature is a projection of how he feels abt himself; he can be very insecure & harsh on himself. initially, he can be shy or awkward around his love interest so it’s unlikely he’ll make the first move. this reserved energy may even be perceived as him being stuck up & unapproachable.
💝 he’s upfront & doesn’t play games.
💝 he’s not overly emotional or romantic but he believes it's the little things that count (eg leaving you sticky notes).
💝 he’s quite cold & inverted with strangers. he doesn’t readily show his helpful & considerate nature unless it’s to people he trusts. if he likes you he’ll actually start to be concerned abt you: “did you eat breakfast?” “aren’t you cold?” he’ll try to be as useful & helpful as possible. he may take on the role of trying to “fix” his partner out love. you’ll know he doesn’t like you if you tell him abt an issue you have & he isn’t helpful at all. he wants to feel appreciated, useful, needed & stable when with his partner.
💝 he can be bossy at times but he means well. he like things to be done his way & the right way (their way = the right way) so he may have tendency to micro-manage you. however, he hates anyone trying to control him!
Turn On’s:
💝 he’s turned on by someone who is helpful, generous & makes his lives easier (ask him to help you with something or offer to help him with something). someone sentimental, organised, inspired & thoughtful. someone self-sufficient & self-improving, who takes care of themselves.
💝 since he’s cold-hearted & has difficulty showing emotion/affection, he surprisingly is drawn to someone more emotional & passionate than he is.
💝 give signals you live a healthy life such as saying you don’t smoke.
💝 he values devotion.
💝 ensure to know your worth, what you deserve & be honest.
💝 he values intelligence (teach him things)
💝 his ideal partner has an earth sign sun, moon or asc.
💝 to impress him, look clean, sleek, simple, casual & put together. minimal jewellery & patterns, stick to one colour (neutral tones, browns) iron your clothes & smell nice bc he like someone prim & proper. he also prefers when you keep things natural.
💝 he likes shy, reserved, insecure, passive & modest women who will be completely devoted & appreciate him, never betray him & always listen to him.
Turn Off’s:
💝 he’ll cringe at emotional scenes.
💝 he’s turned off by someone flaky, loud, exaggerated, ostentatious, ignorant. someone unmotivated & unscheduled.
💝 he dislikes if you try to play games w him rather than growing up & committing (same for all earth venus).
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kstbj · 11 days
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Different universe where Gigantomachia and Ujiko escape from heroes with an AFO who stopped rewinding at about 4 years old. All his memories are intact, he has difficulty controlling his emotions due to his age and he's weakened from the fighting and the toll rewind did on his body. Gigantomachia and Ujiko hide with him while laying low, struggling to get along as they both take care of him.
That would be the real disaster! Child afo is very cute and low-key creepy as a little supernatural omen he is, but since he still has his old personality and habits it only worsens by his learned in adulthood ability to be charming on purpose on the one hand, and complete lack of self-control on the other
Grandpa Ujiko who starts his practice as a country doctor tries to act the same towards afo as he did back in the day, but at some point he drops all his respectfulness, scolding little afo whenever he throws a tantrum. Every time Ujiko swears to finally commit unethical experiments on him, he’s actually not very dishonest about that, and little afo knows it better than anyone else. So it would work, if only every time afo didn’t pout super adorably and ignore Ujiko for days, trying to spend all his playtime with unusually moody Machia instead, forcing old man to apologise himself by giving afo a tasty treat to compensate his earlier harsh words (sometimes he even receives heart melting hugs in return)
Uncle machia has rather complicated feelings - Ujiko’s existence aside, now he can live peacefully at the countryside with his baby lord who has been given a second chance, they can play and have fun all day long, day after day, while ghosts of the pasts are slowly vanishing being replaced by this new simple life (the more time passes the more little afo forgets about his past), but betrayal still stings hard, but also Machia can’t leave, he knows that his lord needs him like he’s never needed before - but little brat refuses to acknowledge it! Instead of apologising for hurting him and asking Machia for help, little afo tries to manipulate him (how can Machia believe his lord now? Is he genuine when he asks to be held? And does afo want to finish what he has started when he wakes Machia up sneaking silently at night to his side?), then curses when it doesn’t work, pushes and even bites whenever Machia tries to calm him down - it is Machia’s duty since he’s the only one who can deal with random quirks afo uses uncontrollably, and stay alive after that
All leads to the moment when little Afo finally breaks down, sobbing and wailing for the first time as a regular very hurt 4 years old which is the most confusing moment for everyone involved
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flightfoot · 2 months
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Sorry for not being clear about "dragging Adrien to the bottom of the pit", it's actually come from one of Adrien salter in twt who years ago said "Adrien isn't fit to be Marinette' boyfriend because he has a lot of mental health issue and will be dragging her down" as in make her stressed more than she already is to the point of depression.
But the fact that Adrien still somewhat stable despite battling with depression longer than Marinette make me think that she'll be the one who dragged Adrien down even further than his current mental health.
Although it just me projecting what happened to my friend who was in a relationship similar state to Adrienette. Her bf was a control freak and she was a people pleaser and the more her bf get stressed the worsen his control freakiness and it make her felt like she was not worth his love because "my love isn't enough to help him" which result on her doing self harm because she's unworthy, and I hate that.
Ugh, I remember that take. It was mostly to argue that Luka should be Marinette's boyfriend instead, since he had no issues and could just happily receive all of Marinette's emotional trauma without her having to deal with any from him, which I mean... by that logic, either Marinette shouldn't be able to date Luka either because of her own emotional baggage, or Luka should date Adrien and take care of his emotional baggage instead, since he has more of it.
And yeah Marinette tends to have more trouble coping from an outward perspective than Adrien. Adrien's actually remarkably well-adjusted, given what he's been through, and when he breaks down, he tends to be more self-destructive than actually causing problems for others. Marinette, meanwhile, tends to be far more obvious when she's having difficulties, which means she gets help a lot more quickly and easily and a lot more tailored to her issues than Adrien, who just bottles things up.
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