#he can't ldr he said it's too hard

[serenity-lattes]

GUESS WHO? it's me. :)) haven't requested something from you in AWHILE, so here it is.

me bringing my future excitement into this so - male reader × emily (of course) are in an ldr and they're gonna meet for the first time. 😃

iykyk.

First, let me start off by saying, asdfkjhalskdjfh! I'm so, so excited for the two of you, and you deserve to finally close the distance. Love you both and I can't wait to hear about your adventures.

You said male reader here, but after talking to you, I'm going to change it to gender neutral for your writing challenge.

Love,

Serenity

All of the Stars

Pairing: Emily Prentiss x gn!Reader

Summary: While Emily was living in England (set somewhere between 8x01-9x14), reader became her replacement on the Quantico team. After they had needed her expertise on a case, things blossomed into a long-distance relationship.

Warnings: some brief angst- allusions to depressive and anxious thoughts. one swear word.

Word Count: 1623

A/N: Writing this for The End of CJ’s Chapter challenge. Hard to believe he is leaving Tumblr on Friday, but we are going to make the best of this bittersweet moment. Song fic inspired by “All of the Stars” by Ed Sheeran. Thank you @writer-in-theory and @lcvingprentjss for betaing this for me and giving me all the words of encouragement.

“You’re on the other side as the skyline splits in two, miles away from seeing you.”

Dark hair that cascaded over a plush pillow was a sight for sore eyes, especially when said hair belonged to one Emily Prentiss. She had drifted off to sleep during their nightly video call and Y/N didn’t have the heart to wake her just yet.

Your sun had just begun to set, the sky turned into a swirl of mauve and carnation. Meanwhile, her moon was shining bright in a mix of navy and deep cornflower. Over the video call, crickets from her end could be heard, meanwhile the birds were only beginning to settle on yours.

The time difference had been a different thing to navigate, but you two had managed to make it work. Most of the time, Emily would fall asleep first, you quietly grinning as her breathing changed into the softest of snores. She didn’t sleep enough, so you didn’t want to disturb her, but you wanted her to be comfortable.

“Emily, love?” you called out softly, so as to not startle her awake. Her eyelashes fluttered before her sleepy gaze settled upon yours. You had to swallow the lump in your throat. How could one person be so gorgeous, even when dead tired? “You should change out of your work clothes and take your makeup off.”

A laugh bubbled from her chest as she ran a hand over her face, “Yeah, you’re probably right. Don’t hang up, I’ll be right back,” she murmured, sitting up before she disappeared out of the frame.

“Wouldn’t dream of it,” you chuckled, turning your head to your computer so you could get some work files done. As gorgeous as Emily looked in a button up and a subtle smokey eye, there was no denying she was equally as stunning in a little nightgown with no makeup. After ten minutes or so, she returned, slipping under the covers, you grinned brightly, “See? I bet that feels so much better.”

Emily adjusted her phone, propping it up against her lamp, a smirk tugging at her lips “Maybe, but I can’t let you be right too often, or you’ll let it go to your head.”

“I’ll allow it for tonight, but you,” you looked at her seriously, “you need to go to sleep because you have to be up in four hours.”

Was it that late, already? One glance at her alarm clock confirmed it. Blinding red numbers looked back at her- 1:00. She couldn’t argue that. And showing up to work poorly rested was less than ideal.

With a sigh, Emily settled into bed, pulling the covers over her just the way she liked. “I love you, Y/N.”

“Love you always, my star,” you murmured fondly, muting yourself so your typing wouldn’t wake her. You worked for the next few hours, glancing over to your phone to make sure Emily was sleeping peacefully. Occasionally Emily would snore, making you laugh. Thankfully, you were muted, otherwise you certainly would have woken her.

Though that smile melted into something more morose. Emily was across the ocean, untouchable through a phone screen. How you couldn’t wait until the day you could reach over and touch her face while she slept, feel the warmth of her skin under your fingertips.

Soon.

You had to hold on to that for now.

Soon.

“But I can see the stars from America. I wonder, do you see them too?”

“It’s just another night, and I’m staring at the moon. I saw a shooting star and thought of you.”

“Penelope, I’m going to lose my goddamn mind,” You called out, startling the woman when you entered her self-proclaimed lair.

“What, what? What happened this time? You just got off the phone with Emily, didn’t you?” She asked, putting her fuzzy pen into its cup. You often confided in Penelope if Emily was asleep or unable to talk, so she was ready to tackle the current situation. 

You plopped yourself down in the stray computer chair, gladly taking the stress ball Penelope was holding out to you. 

“I did. A case went sour and she was upset,” you paused, shaking your head, “So upset, Penelope, and I couldn’t do much to help. There’s only so much I can do from a different continent.”

Penelope considered what you were saying, quick to start typing on her computer. You had thought she had just grown bored of you, but you could see airlines pulled up on the screen.

“Wha-What are you doing?” you asked, getting up to take a proper look at what Penelope was going.

She smirked, adjusting her glasses, “Well, when I’m not talking to you and listening to you complain about the distance, I’m talking to Emily and listening to her complain about the distance,” she glanced up at her dear friend, “So, let’s do something about that distance.”

You were scared to even try. You hadn’t even talked to Emily about planning something like this. What if you showed up and she slammed the door in your face? Would you need to get a hotel room? What if she flies out on a case the moment you land? There were so many factors and-

Penelope touched you hand, “In case you forgot, I’m a genius in my own right. I’m going to call her friend and find out her schedule for the next couple weeks. Okay? We’ll make this work.”

You couldn’t do anything other than nod. 

You were going to see her soon.

“You’re the song my heart is beating to.”

“So, open your eyes and see the way our horizons meet.”

After opening the door to her flat, Emily tossed her things down, ready for the day to be over. That is, until red catches her eye. She looks up, eyebrows furrowed, perplexed.

The petals of red roses scattered over walnut floorboards. White starflowers and red dahlias were perfectly arranged in several vases along every surface she could see.

“What on earth…” she muttered, a breathy laugh slipping past her lips. It had to be a result of you conspiring with Louise, as she was the only other person with a key. Even separated by an ocean, you would shower her with gifts, solidifying the fact that she had found the one.

Pulling out the cellphone out of her pocket, Emily dialed your number, needing to know for sure. She lifted the device to her ear, buzzing with excitement. You hadn’t planned to talk for another hour, but she couldn’t wait. Not for this. Though that excitement shifted into pure nerves. Not only was she hearing the monotonous ringing from her phone, but a ringtone from further into her flat could be heard clear as day.

She drew in a breath, dropping her phone as if it had suddenly burned her. There was no way. But she wanted it to be, because if not, she was about to be another one of those naïve women who gets snatched up. With an exhale, Emily followed the sound to her bedroom. Please be Y/N.

She raised a trembling hand and pushed the door open, and lo and behold, there you were, sat at the foot of her bed with the widest grin she’s ever seen.

“Y/N,” she gasped out, tears already making their way down her cheeks before she could process it. You chuckled. Oh, what a beautiful sound it was. You were here in the flesh, not blurry on a small screen, voice not distorted or out of sync. You were here and Emily was suddenly overwhelmed with complete and irrevocable happiness. 

You had made an attempt to stand and embrace her, but Emily was already ahead of you, running to close the distance you’d been yearning to for the last year. She buried her face in the crook of your neck as you circled your arms around her waist.

“You’re here,” she sobbed, chills dispersing over skin in the wake of your touch. 

You, too, let out a watery laugh, “Yeah, I’m here. I couldn’t wait anymore, Em, I had to see you. Penelope and your friend, Louise, helped me pull it off, so I might be owing them lattes for the next month.” 

Emily pulled away, just enough to see your face. You were beautiful to look at just from her phone screen… this, though. Seeing you from this close, the smile lines beginning to form, and god, your eyes. Little did she realize; You were doing just the same as the back of your knuckles traced her jawline.

Her hands cradled your face, thumbs brushing over your cheekbones, as if there was a chance you still weren’t there, holding her. When her eyes fell upon your lips, you smirked, leaning in to capture her lips against yours in a kiss. She hummed into it, quickly melting into your touch. Her lips were soft and gentle as they moved against yours, a bit hesitant because you both wanted it to be perfect.

Her hands instinctively slid up onto your shoulders, gripping them tightly as she could feel herself getting lost in you, consumed by the heat of your embrace. You pulled her closer, then, one hand pressed firmly against the small of her back while you used the other to tangle in her dark hair, deepening the kiss even further. 

Before things got too heated, Emily put a hand over your chest, breaking the kiss as she rests her forehead against yours, “I love you so much.”

“And I love you, Emily Prentiss,” you murmured, pressing a kiss to her nose, “Always and forever.” 

“Both of our hearts believe; all of these stars will guide us home.”

CM Taglist/ no pressure Mutuals:

@writer-in-theory - @reidsbookclub - @samuel-de-champagne-problems - @sweetprentiss - @sadgirlml - @ofwilliamandwalter2 - @writingquillsandpainpills - @reidselle -@spencebunny - @nomajdetective - @fightingdragonswithreid - @deadravenclaw - @left-myself-in-the-alleyway

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[remcycl333]

You and your old SP were living in different countries? I read in a previous ask that you manifested him transferring and that's impressive. My SP and I are currently studying in different countries, we met online during quarantine. I manifested meeting him because my clown ass wanted a boyfriend and I thought well, everyone is quarantined right now, so I might as well get to meet people from other countries online. He's everything I ever wanted in a partner, I wouldn't change a thing about him, but I have held myself back from manifesting him as my boyfriend??? I can handle distance, actually I think distance can be a good thing because I don't really like to be with people 24/7. I seriously don't see myself dating someone and seeing them every single day or every week. I really like my alone space, so seeing someone only once a year (or none at all lol) doesn't sound like a problem to me. I consider myself very good at communication and I know how to create and keep a bond with people without seeing them often. But I feel egotistical for wanting to drag him into my narrative because from what I've read, people in LDRs suffer a lot and most don't end in good terms. He seems to be interested and it makes me wonder why, if he could easily get a local girl. He's super hot and sweet, talented, smart, anyone would be lucky and he seems to have a very active social life so there are no excuses, and my boy is wasting his time texting me saying he's the lucky one for finding me ? wtf boy ??? Go be lucky with someone in person idk. And although I don't really believe in astrology, I do think it's fun and I was curious about his birth chart and something very interesting that I found is that people with his venus sign tend to seek relationships with people that they can't see on a regular basis, usually in different countries than theirs and I mean, what a lovely coincidence. I could conveniently decide that astrology is totally right on this one HA! So, everything seems to be in my favor but I'm still hesitant about it. This was messy and I'm sorry I came to vent, but today I woke up thinking it's better to drop him and just stay friends and the thought really hurt me.

my old sp and i both lived in the US but he lived in a different state that was across the country from mine, about 1,600 miles away! and i manifested he’d stop going to college in that state and instead go to college about 20 mins from me🤍

after reading your ask, i feel like the two of you can definitely give it a shot!! if he it still acting that way towards you (saying he’s lucky to find you, etc) then he obviously knows you’ll have to do a LDR and he seems okay with the fact!! also the thing you said about his venus sign blew my mind!

you can always manifest you two have a happy, healthy, fulfilling relationship despite the distance. and if you eventually decide you want to close the distance, you can manifest that as well! or if you want to break up bc it’s too hard, you can manifest he takes it perfectly well and the breakup is mutual!!

but this relationship sounds like it’s going well so far to me, and if the thought of just being friends really saddens you then i’d definitely say enter a relationship with him!! it doesn’t have to be forever, it could just be something fun you try!!

keep me updated on what you choose and how things progress!! 🤍🤍

[g1rlcore]

why did your bf dump you, if you don’t mind saying? from ur posts you guys seemed very in love

hi, ty for asking

some reasons:

we were in an LDR, which proved too much for him

i've got an anxious attachment style and require a lot of attentiveness and care. he said he was struggling to meet my needs, and that how often i got upset was quite confronting for him.

he has some childhood trauma and developed a people pleaser personality and often is stuck in the fawn trauma response as a way to cope. he was bad with asserting his boundaries with me and got resentful when i (unknowingly) pushed them

he said he didn't have the bandwidth to develop his own sense of self while in a relationship (valid but sad)

it was as amicable as it could be. i really love him and thought he was the love of my life. i'm heartbroken but i have no hard feelings towards him. the pain i'm feeling is because he was incredibly kind and thoughtful and suddenly he's out of my life.

its been! 25 days (he broke up with my on jan 1st LMAO) so i'm definitely out of the worst of it. i still miss him immensely and i still love him, but i can't force someone to have the bandwidth to give me the empathy and care i require/deserve, so as sad as it is, it was probably for the best. i hope one day we find our ways back to each other (ONCE HE GOES TO THERAPY GODDAMN!!!!)

#p #ask #this was therapeutic... thank u

[mylonlysunshine]

Little life dump with me and my sweets. I've been pretty busy between work (lab job I don't think I ever updated tumblr about), walking my cat, trying to manage my narcolepsy with adderal because my sleep dr appt isn't until september, kayaking, and helping my honey with his house.

I can't say I've been this happy in a very very long time. I don't think I thought id ever find the type of companionship scott and I share but I'm enjoying every second of it. It's been years since I've laughed with someone the way I laugh with him. The cuddles feel like home. I knew when the comfort of his cuddles reminded me of K I knew was doomed. When my mom said you know when you know; it really is true. Every mistake in my life has lead me to you. I have no regrets

I've learned so many things over the year. K taught me spitefulness gets me nowhere if only I know about it. J taught me I didn't want to date a fucking self loving alcoholic. A1 taught me that being myself is my most lovable state of being. A2 taught me physical attraction isn't enough and I hate LDR's. B taught me how important compatibility is. Good. Sex. Isn't. Enough. D taught me that I'm looking for a bestie not just a bf. Z reminded me I didn't want to date an alcoholic....again... 🤣. R taught me being baseline kind is NOT a reason to stay with someone when you don't like them. It might be petty but also dating my physical type is important. S is who I pick. I hope he picks me too

I wrote the above part a few weeks ago self reflecting. The pace scott and I have been moving feels so natural. I've had a lot of questions and worries but in the same breath I know they're fake and all in my head. We were watching a cooking YouTube video (I have my own hang ups about these I'm trying to not be picky about lmao) and a tinder app notification came through. From the app not a human. He asked me if I ever get those type of notifications and I said no, I deleted mine. He said he'll probably delete his too. A week or two went by and his distance stopped changing other than one time. And then his profile disappeared altogether. I only kept mine to fact check him but now I don't know if he unmatched me or deleted his profile altogether. Dear god my anxiety is the worst LOL. I manage to come back around the merry go round of reason but after so many lies, it's really hard to trust. I'm doing it with some background processing skepticism but I'm learning the things that are my responsibility to deal with and manage on my own because of how irrational it really is.

Ttyl. Too busy falling in love💜

-K

#words #Taurus x virgo

[from-my-bed-at-midnight]

my one dear friend of 9 years, and my lover for 4 months left me at the end of last year. just before i graduated from college.

just like that he left me behind as if nothing happened. nothing for the past 9 years, even more, ever happened in our life. i lost both a dear friend and a lover. well, ex-lover now.

i absolutely lost for words when he told me he wanted to leave everything behind because he found someone better for him.

the cat definitely had taken my tongue.

the way i would describe our relationship was we decided to try something we've always wanted to have with each other: a romantic relationship. or in fact, we tried to finish something that weren't finished yet. we knew we always had something for each other. unfortunately, for us, we happened to be the right person for each other but we decided to give it a go at the worst time possible.

i was struggling with my education, meaning i was barely graduated from college alive. i know, that's what she said. and he got transported into different island in my home country. we were in a pretty rough situation, we hardly ever met during those 4 months. the only communication option we got was through messenger apps.

i know what people probably would be thinking. LDR is indeed hard but as long as you willing to give it a try, it might work. it can work, but not for us. i didn't know how do what people told me. i just couldn't be there for the sake of the relationship. i was just beyond tired. i was barely there for myself even. i didn't know where to put my heart. eventually i could feel myself fading away, from him.

i tried to say things to make him understand. altho i couldn't, i didn't know what happen to me. i thought of breaking it off with him two months in the relationship but he just in short, didn't like it. so i decide to stay and kept some more faith in myself. bad news was i kept feeling myself fading away since then. until one day, i tried to talk it out with him. now, it was just too late.

"hey, how are u, i hope u're doing well. sorry i've been so on and off lately. i hope u have a good day."

"thanks. can i talk with u for a sec?"

"sure. what is it?"

"i'm sorry, i think i can't do this anymore. i've done things that makes me not worth of ur loyalty anymore."

i just knew something happened with him, his life. something was wrong. something had shifted. and i was absolutely, right. of course, i've seen this before. how could i be so foolish. i've known him for so long.

"oh, what did u do?"

"i think i like someone else." i knew it.

"okay, there's nothing i can do then." of course, i didn't know what to do. honestly, i didn't even want him to stay anymore. there's no use of begging people whose hearts have changed, to stay in your life. i believe so.

and just like that, i lost everything. i lost two people at the same time. i wasn't even sad. i was just angry, and disappointed. the thing is, i knew something like this gonna happen again. i've been there so many times.

i've been in a situation where he would be so close and then the next time i realized, he was gone. one day we would have each other, and the next he was there for someone else. he left me floating for years, and i never went anywhere. when i thought i was somewhere else, everytime he came around, i would always be around him. again. and again. every goddamn time.

i thought i was special. we had something different. his heart was only for me. i always thought if he didn't work out with anybody else, it was because his heart was meant only for me. of course, i was wrong. always been wrong all this time.

he doesn't know where to put himself out there. doesn't know what to do with himsef, with his heart. doesn't know what to do with his life. always craving for something more. doesn't know how to feel enough with himself. with his life. his greed and pride knows no end. his monster doesn't know how to stop its hunger.

because i'm not the only who has witnessed that monster. i've always known about that monster exist within him. yet i keep my mouth shut. i don't know when he's gonna stop. i just hope he's gonna feel enough soon. i hope he's gonna find someone who makes him feel enough. who's gonna stop that monster inside. put that hunger to a halt.

in my deepest honesty, i feel terribly sorry for the girl. i really wish i can put a curse on him. to show the world that a monster exists inside him. to put the warning sign for whoever gonna be within his reach next. no good girl worth knowing such monster.

but knowing there's not much i can do, therefore i pray for if he gonna do the same thing again, please God make her realize soon what hell he's bringing to her life.

[lefthandsolarpunk]

This is kind of a space where no one I know follows me, so I feel like it's ok if I anonymously express some of my thoughts and feelings here. No one will be hurt by them, or have it traced back to them, and that includes me.

I was in a polyamorous relationship with a guy who I loved, but it's over now. I am still with my original partner. But all the pain of a broken heart is a lot to bear some days, even with someone wonderful at my side.

There's so many things I want to say to the guy I was with, but I am not sure I will ever get to. I was the one who broke up with him, because there was not much for me in that relationship by the end. I feel that my trust was broken. I had planned to come and visit (it was a LDR), booked flights and organised child care and time off work. He seemed distant and unhappy in the lead up to my visit, and I checked in with him that he still wanted me to visit, more than once. He said he did. Until 3 nights before I was due to get on the plane - then he asked me not to come.

I can't tell you how hurt and rejected I felt. I asked for space, and wasn't able to talk to him for nearly a week, as I didn't want to lose my shit and make things worse. I wanted us both to walk away from this with our dignity intact, at the very least. After that, I told him I would step back and let him initiate all contact so he wouldn't feel like I was trying to demand his time. He did still feel like this, and I could tell. Finally, the day before I broke up with him, he told me he would be out that night going to the airport - but didn't message me once all day.

I realised that I couldn't go on like this anymore, it was too painful. He didn't have time for me due to life circumstances, and it seemed like he didn't want to be with me. When I broke up with him, he said he was worried I was getting possessive of his time. I never intended that to happen, and I tried really hard not to. I definitely had been intense, and there were so many times when I felt so small and second best to his current life. I think my only way of gaining any comfort that he wanted me was to see if he still wanted to spend time with me. You can't get less possessive than saying "I won't talk to you unless you talk to me". But it wasn't enough.

The invalidation I felt in this space was another reason I left. He would often talk about his partner and tell stories about her to me, and share his feelings about how sad he was about different things that were happening. They were sad, but I couldn't be there the way I wanted for him, because I felt no security. He said to me once that he might need to break up with me for her and his responsibilities. I kind of wish he'd figured that out before he told me he loved me, slept with me, etc etc. I feel a little bit used.

I'm not writing this out as a pity party. I need to remember this because he's moving to my town this month. And I'm so scared that if I see him again I will want to forget all of this and hope for the best, because I do have faith that everyone is doing the best they can in the circumstances. But, that doesn't mean it's ok or that it's not hurtful.

My trust is severely shaken. The invalidation I experienced in that relationship was strong, even if it was unintentional. And I felt a bit used. He wanted me until he could finally have me, and then he wasn't so sure he wanted me anymore.

The chemistry, the flirting, the fun, the spark was next level, and I miss that so much, and I miss his gentle side, and his creative side. But he chose to shut those off from me in the end, and now I have to accept it. I'm not over him entirely - I still keep hoping we might have a conversation, or that we work through all this. I am so sad for the future that I dreamed of - I wanted to be ride or die for him and for my current partner, and be there to support him in all he did. I wanted to be there for him when he made this move, and cheer him on as he got a new job. I even wanted to learn to support him on his hard days at home when he was helping to manage medical conditions of family. I wanted to be there when he was setting boundaries with family and quietly cheering him on. I wanted to experience joy and collaborate on creative projects with him, and our love would have been a creative project all on its own.

That's all gone now, it will never come to be. I am currently bawling like a baby. Sometimes it hurts so bad and I don't know when it will stop. But it comes in waves, so I just ride them.

I still have a wonderful life, with a great partner and kids, and I have many fulfilling things to do. I am mostly ok. I just have these moments when the pain is really strong, or thoughts replay in my mind, and I want to get them out. So if you read this far, thanks for reading. Much love to you all.

[thecuriousbitch]

That Thing Called Heartbreak

Today, as you sit in a coffee shop, reflecting on the exquisite pain of your recent heartbreak after two years of dating a man you thought was "the one," you can't help but wonder, what went wrong? "Is it me? or him at fault?

When you entered this relationship, you were hopeful for the future. The LDR for 18 months was fun, exciting, and interesting. He checks all the boxes, and you were fine being single for the previous two years before meeting him. In fact, you felt that having a man was just a bonus. You met him, and your perception about marrying decisions shifted to "the potential and possibility," which, by the way, for many years was something you never entertained. You see the potential of the relationship: that it could lead to something more serious like "partners for life." He always reassures you that things will be OK.

For many years, I never saw myself marrying—the thought of it scared the shit out of me. But he was different—or so you thought.

Fast forward to January 2023, and the positive emotions turn into anger, sadness, loneliness, and confusion a few weeks later. It is hard to accept the sad reality that after all the sacrifices you both made, it just went to the empty trash section. It sucked. It is painful.

I had moments when I questioned my decision to let him go. Questions like; 

If I became more understanding, would it make a difference?

If I tried to adjust, would it work?

If I accept him for who he is (the good, the bad, and the ugly), would he be more invested in meeting my expectations?

But whenever I think back to when the sadness struck out of nowhere and I was tempted to reach out, I remind myself of why it ended and why I had to end it -- because deep down, I KNOW WHAT I DESERVE .louder, please. 

"I KNOW WHAT I DESERVE!

My definition of love has changed over the years, and as I turned 40, I knew exactly what I wanted in a lifetime partner. the love I fuckin’ deserve because I knew what I was capable of giving.

The future is blurry; it's somehow scary to start all over again since this is very unnerving for me. Funny that I do not know how to handle heartbreak anymore. I feel so lost. There were times when I realized I was being too hard on myself, blaming myself, questioning my worth, and even asking God why I had to go through it. 

The melody of sad songs makes me emotional. Hello, heartbreak! 

The thought of him made me bipolar.

The thought of a fantasy relationship that turns sour is a difficult pill to swallow.

My EGO was touched to the core. I am not accepting of it.

The possibility of hopeful-land that just maybe he will change after realizing his mistakes

This relationship BROKE me. I will never forget the intense pain I am feeling.

Some of my dearest allies and friends told me to move on. easier said than done. Nobody will ever understand the rollercoaster of feelings I had to endure - days where I am feeling okay, then the waves of sadness and guilt kicked in. There were days, it is almost unbearable I couldn’t figure out why. 

I hope one day, when I look back a few months from now or a few years from now, I will find clarity as to why it never worked out. I trust the universe to grant my wish to find the man who is the "perfect fit" for my craziness tendencies (LOL) and will accept me for who I am.

Until then, settling is not an option.

For now,  I wanna work double time to keep loving myself to find the genuine happiness I deserve. The love that is easy. To allow myself to find the true love, if there is such a thing. 

As Carrie Bradshaw once put it, "Maybe some women can’t be tamed." Maybe they need to run free until they find someone just as wild to run with them.

Xoxo

K

#heartbreak #reflection #self love #moving on #positivity

[mochacinogirl]

I Shouldn't Post It, but I Post It Anyway

After I broke up with my ex, there are a lot of inconvenient questions that my friends asked to me. And I always confused how to answer those questions because I never really prepare for it.

"Why you broke up with him?"

I shrug, "Because it was time to."

It's true, right? Even I know that is not the whole answer. At least I didn't lie. I just didn't tell them specifically. Not because I have trust issues with some people (or maybe yes), but if I try harder to tell them what did happen between me and him, I would cry. I CAN'T EXPLAIN WHAT I'M FEELING TO PEOPLE BECAUSE I WILL BE TOO EMOTIONAL AND ENDED UP CRYING IN FRONT OF THEM. YES, I HATE ME.

But, now you might be wondering the whole answer.

I broke up with him because LDR is so hard. I know some people can work with LDR. But, unfortunately, we (me and him) are not those some people. He was busy with all the college stuff. He was busy with his new friends. He built a new world, a strange world where I'm not involved. A world without me. Long story short: he was busy. Too busy until he didn't have a time just to texted me. Too busy until he just texted me in early morning and late night. Yes, just twice a day. It was so monotonous. It was just "I'm gonna go with my friends." and " I just arrived at home." It always those two. I felt like I texted with bot instead of with my lover.

Yes, that's it. I know he bored with me because I'm such a boring person. I can understand when he had fun with his new friends and forgot me. I know I wasn't important to him anymore.

Question number two. Question that I can't answer. "Between those guys who love you at that time, why you choose him?"

Oh my God. The question was getting worse. If you wondering what is the answer, no, I still don't have the answer of this shitty question. But, let me make it straight to the point: why I choose him is a proof of my stupidity.

"He never post you, does he?"

"Yes," I said briefly.

The whole answer is he never post me because he hide me from his new crush.

Today, when I write this, I don't feel hurt anymore. I'm way better now. All he did to me in the past doesn't affect me now. He used to make me feel like I'm not good enough, feel like I'm not worthy. But, now I realize that he is the one who not worthy to have me because I'm too good to be with him. Yet, I'm glad to see him posted his new girl and proud to have her now (Because he never do that when we were together). Here's my last word to one and only my beloved ex; fuck you.

[kiyomai]

hello! im new and i really lovE how u make angst it hurts so much in the right way aaaa!! if its not too much of a bother can i request ldr rltshp with iwaizumi angst to fluff since we know how unstable a ldr might be :((( thank u!! -💛💜

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a/n: this was requested in may :0 welcome anon! thank you so much for requesting! i'm sorry for this being so late! this is the first post after a whole month so hopefully you all enjoy!

The time on your phone reads 6:48 pm. Iwaizumi's late, 18 minutes late.

You pick your head up and stare at your ceiling, nothing was interesting up there, but it was certainly better than watching the minutes tick by, each minute making you all the more miserable.

Understanding the time difference didn't help either. Back then, you could excuse Iwaizumi's lateness by not knowing if you would be awake or not, likewise with you. So, despite not wanting to, you sneak a glance at the time again—6:50 pm. Only two stupid minutes have gone by, and you're close to ripping your hair out.

You let out a frustrated sigh. You want to be mad, you deserve to be angry, but it's not Iwaizumi's fault. You're at war with yourself. Two sides are fighting with one another; one side says, "Be angry. Get upset. Call him an asshole for putting you through this," but the other side tries to reason with you. You're stuck hearing, "You can't be upset with him. What if he's busy? What if he realizes he's late, counting the minutes that have passed like you're doing now?" You want to listen to the former; it's easier to blame him. The latter makes guilt pool in your stomach; you don't like that.

You reach out to grab your phone but abruptly stop, leaving your hand to hover over. Iwaizumi's told you time and time again that you could always call first, but easier said than done. Iwaizumi has a point. It's easy to pick up your phone and call. But what he doesn't understand is the way your heart spikes upon trying to call, the way your hands tremble when you overthink things; is he busy? is he sleeping? What if he's hanging out with friends? What if he gets upset? What if, what if, what if.

It's hard being the one that stays. Iwaizumi already knows what you're up to and what you do, but you don't know anything about him. "California Iwaizumi" is a new person, someone you're still trying to get to know, but it's near impossible doing so through the phone.

"California Iwaizumi" is 21 minutes late.

It's not fair. You two have talked about how different a long-distance relationship would be, but experiencing it now is a lot harder than what you both thought initially. But if you didn't call him now, you'd be stuck suffering, waiting for him to call. So you dropped your hand on your phone, willing yourself to bring it closer and call. But, instead, you quickly turned it on and began searching for his contact name. If you took your time, you'd talk yourself out of it.

Your thumb hovered over the video chat option. You didn't want to think about how many rings it would take for Iwaizumi to answer or if Iwaizumi even would answer. Imagining the sound of the call ending before it even started plagued your mind; that'll hurt twice as much. But if you don't try, you won't ever know, so you force your thumb onto the button and listen to the first rings.

Usually, when Iwaizumi calls you, you immediately begin smiling. However, looking at your camera now doesn't show a smiling person. Instead, it shows someone paranoid and lost. So naturally, you don't want that to be the first thing Iwaizumi notices (if he even picks up, that is). So you force a small smile, hoping he won't see how strained it is.

The rings have been going on for a while. You're hoping that Iwaizumi'll pull through on that last ring, that he'll answer, and a genuine smile would grace your face. But that fake, strained smile drops when you read that he's not available. You throw your phone across your bed and let yourself fall back.

You don't know who you're upset with anymore. Is it Iwaizumi? Are you upset that he's not answering, or are you upset with yourself? Are you upset that you're getting upset over him not answering? Who knows. Maybe you're just mad for the sake of being angry. Perhaps it's easier to be angry when you feel like you're left behind.

Again, you're at war with yourself. And as much as you want to blame it all on Iwaizumi, you can't. Moving away wasn't selfish of him. He confided his plans, his goals with you. He gave you an out, promised he would understand if things became too much for you. Again, blaming him would make you selfish. You can't be selfish with Iwaizumi.

You jump a little when you hear your phone ringing. Your phone is face down, and you're not sure if you want to flip it. Flipping it means finding out who's calling you. Flipping it means that it could be Iwaizumi. Flipping it means utter disappointment when it turns out to be someone other than Iwaizumi.

You can't be selfish, and you can't take not knowing, so with all your might, you turn your phone over.

His contact name is prominent on the screen. It's yelling at you, "Answer me! Answer me!" and before the last ring could end, you accept the call and wait for it to connect.

Right there on your screen is your beautiful boyfriend. He connects with a smile on his face with his eyes closed. There's no trace of a strained smile on your face. You're smiling, yes, but it's a sad smile. And when Iwaizumi opens his eyes, his smile drops a bit.

"Hi," he says softly.

"Hi."

Iwaizumi's quiet. He may not know what's going on, but that doesn't stop him from thinking. He stares at you back and considers possible reasons as to why you look so upset.

"I was busy when you called," he broke the silence. "I'm sorry for being late." He notices the way you cast your eyes downwards while you hum. Camera or not, Iwaizumi knows you. You're probably feeling guilty. But rather than stating the obvious (and possibly hurting your feelings), he picks up on this rather one-sided conversation.

"I'll make up for my tardiness when I get back," he promises. "We'll do whatever you want, no holding back." He pauses. "As long as it's legal and doesn't kill us." He enjoys seeing you laugh a little. "Tell me all about your day. I want to hear everything."

Should you tell him everything?

"It was okay. Same old same old." He raises his eyebrows, waiting for you to add on.

"Uh, I'd like to hear more about your 'same old same old day.''" He air-quotes. "I don't know what that means to you, love."

Just answer his question. Answer it before he figures you out. "I did what I always do." You're straining your smile. "Went to school, worked, texted some friends, watched videos... and that's it." The look on Iwaizumi's face already tells you that he's not giving up. He knows something's wrong, and he won't let it go until you fess up.

"That's great." Did he buy it? "Now, tell me what's wrong." No, he did not.

"You were late." His eyebrows scrunch together. "You've been late more often, and I don't like it." Oh great, now you sound like a spoiled brat, but there's no going back; you already started, and Iwaizumi won't let you stop until you're finished.

"I'm not necessarily mad about you being late. Time zones are different, and our schedules don't match that well. It's just that the more times you're late, the more I feel like you're leaving me behind. And I don't like the feeling. I don't want to be selfish."

"You're not selfish, dummy," he says. "And before you interrupt, just hear me out." He waits for you to agree before continuing. "I understand what you mean. I'm the one that left, and I'm the one in another freaking continent. So you're allowed to feel worried. But, on the other hand, you can also be upset with me; just make sure you talk it out with me. I don't want you holding it in and then eventually snapping at me."

"Why are you so smart?"

He chuckles. "Someone has to be for this relationship to work." And for the first time since 6:30 pm, you finally let out a genuine smile. "Tell me something. Are you happy for me?"

"Of course I am. I'm so proud of you, Hajime."

"Then you're not selfish. You just miss me and my good looks. Don't hold that stuff in Y/N; you're gonna drive yourself crazy. You have no idea how grateful I am for you for wanting to stay even though I'm 16 hours behind you."

"I don't wanna be upset with you." You let out a groan, opting to stare at the ceiling. "You're not doing anything wrong, but you're doing something wrong at the same time." If you weren't looking up, you'd see the look of confusion on Iwaizumi's face. "Being late isn't an excuse to be mad at you when you can't control it, but who else am I supposed to blame? It's either you or me, and it sucks to be the one at fault."

"Y/N..."

"I'm so proud of you. You're doing what most people are too afraid to do. I just wish you weren't so far. I want to see you and be with you, and it makes me feel so selfish wanting to do it all with you."

"You're doing so much for me, and you don't even realize it," he chuckles. "I want you here with me too. Believe it or not, I've been trying to find a way to get you to move over here. But, you need to understand that I have those same 'selfish' thoughts. I want what you want just as much as you do."

You look back at him and sigh. But, of course, you're not the only one that feels this way. You forgot that Iwaizumi's going through the same long-distance relationship. "I guess selfish and selfish cancels out," you joke.

"It does. So quit moping around and admit that you're not selfish. And tell me how much you love me and tell me about your day. With details!"

You roll your eyes and admit you're not selfish. Ignoring his other two requests in favor of saying, "I love you."

a/n: after a whole freaking month i'm back!! i didn't want to post something until i was a thousand percent confident in it and this fic right here took me out of the dumps. likes, comments, and reblogs are welcome and appreciated <33

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I also feel all super busy couples, especially true for people in the entertainment industry where time apart is inevitable, must learn to carve out time for their partners if they want any relationship to thrive. I look at Z swinging by NY and Tom flying to Paris as just two mature adults in a relationship who are choosing to make each other a top priority. A super healthy thing to do when you are as busy and as in demand as they are to just remind themselves and each other that their relationship is important and is also a high priority in their lives. That's why I can't with the anons that suggest Z is annoyed to have T on set with her. What woman, or man, would be annoyed by their partner making them a priority in their lives? Only ones who are with the wrong partner I'd guess. And then I seen an anon crying about Tom's carbon footprint. It's like honey, those two commercial flights he took were going in the air with or without Tom on them. If he was private jet-setting across the world for a couple days.....yeah maybe you could cry about his carbon footprint, but I also guarantee if most of us had the financial and job freedom to travel with our partners when they had to be away from us....we'd do it in a heartbeat. I just think what we are seeing in Tomdaya 2.0 is two much more mature and settled adults who's priorities are shifting because they are exactly that....older and more mature than they were the first time around. They've both learned that you can have a fulfilling career and a stable loving relationship if you're willing to put the work in to it and it seems they are. So no matter what the future holds, they seem happy and on the same page and the moment and hopefully they stay that way and avoid a future heartbreak. Geez people....wish them long-term happiness....it's really not that hard.

Excellent Post! 👏👏

I look at Z swinging by NY and Tom flying to Paris as just two mature adults in a relationship who are choosing to make each other a top priority. A super healthy thing to do when you are as busy and as in demand as they are to just remind themselves and each other that their relationship is important and is also a high priority in their lives.

All of this. This is perfectly healthy in a rlshp...especially a LDR. When you're in a relationship, couples do stuff like this all the time, especially if you have to be apart for certain times out of the year. Shoot, I surprised my family by flying in town last year lol. My mom was OVERJOYED lol. 😅🤣

That's why I can't with the anons that suggest Z is annoyed to have T on set with her. What woman, or man, would be annoyed by their partner making them a priority in their lives? Only ones who are with the wrong partner I'd guess.

Exactly! Noooobody is upset when a loved one comes to surprise them for a visit. Not when you really love the person lol. 😅

For all we know, Z could have told Tom over the phone: "I really miss you...", and he decided to fly out last minute to surprise her lol. We don't know! 🤣

Z loves that man to pieces... She was ecstatic. Did you all see her gleeful face as she ran into her hotel after her dinner w/him?? LOL 🤣

And then I seen an anon crying about Tom's carbon footprint. It's like honey, those two commercial flights he took were going in the air with or without Tom on them. If he was private jet-setting across the world for a couple days.....yeah maybe you could cry about his carbon footprint, but I also guarantee if most of us had the financial and job freedom to travel with our partners when they had to be away from us....we'd do it in a heartbeat.

Thank you!! 😅🤣 Anyone crying about the "pollution" from the plane Tom took to visit Z is really doing too much lol. 🤣 Like you said, that commercial flight would have taken off with people regardless.

I just think what we are seeing in Tomdaya 2.0 is two much more mature and settled adults who's priorities are shifting because they are exactly that....older and more mature than they were the first time around. They've both learned that you can have a fulfilling career and a stable loving relationship if you're willing to put the work in to it and it seems they are.

Yes! Exactly! I agree. They have definitely matured so much over the years in their relationship, and you can certainly see it. 😊

Geez people....wish them long-term happiness....it's really not that hard.

AMEN!!! 🙏

[sylvies-casey]

i’ve had so many thoughts since last weeks episode and i’ve just been writing them and keeping them in my drafts lol. but since 10x06 is tonight i’ll just post them lol. be warned, this doesn’t even flow and it’s just a bunch of thoughts piled together from the last week but here are thoughts no one asked for:

- i really don’t think they would’ve done the long distance relationship storyline without talking to kara. derek did say in the interviews that that he was telling her about how he wouldn’t see his kids for a while and i really don’t think they would possibly do it if she wasn’t okay with it i guess? (like especially since all of this was so sudden. idk do the actors/actresses even have a say in these things lol). i’m at least glad they got to talk to kara about it because this affects her just as much and i hope they considered her and how she feels about this storyline. i’m really putting so much faith into derek and the writers with this long distance relationship storyline and i really really hope they don’t mess it up. i know people are skeptical about it but i’m just praying it all plays out fine (i really really don’t want them to end it like idk what id do. they’re just meant for each other okay and ik i keep saying this but, i just cant see them with anyone else). i feel like they wouldn’t have done ldr if they didn’t have some sort of plan?? i’m curious to see how they handle it and i hope and pray they handle it well and not write it lazy. clearly derek and jesse wants them to stay together 💀 so i’m curious to see how this plays out.

- i understand everyone’s frustrations and emotions from this week. trust me, it’s been so hard. but i do think a lot of people need to cut derek some slack🤷🏽‍♀️ (and that’s a lot coming from me because i have a love/hate relationship with him lol). i really don’t think he even expected jesse to leave. i know whenever something happens to brettsey, we’re always like fck derek but i do think this is literally the one time no one can blame him. they did say jesse only came to a decision within the hiatus so i’m pretty sure if they knew beforehand, they for sure wouldn’t have made brettsey canon (cries). i just think people need to cut him some slack and ik it’s upsetting but it’s really not his fault or anyones fault (especially jesse’s. i saw tweets and i just…no thoughts), it’s just life. i’m going to try to be optimistic about this whole long distance storyline and if it doesn’t falls through then….lmao. i just think that a lot has to be done to make this storyline work and i hope the writers and derek know what they’re doing.

- ive been seeing the discourse about jesse coming back on every social media platform. i know people really want jesse to come back. trust me, i do too so badly, but i feel like he won’t come back as a series regular (i could be wrong, i pray i’m wrong lol). i only see him coming back for maybe 1-2 episodes (one of them has to be for severide’s wedding). maybe he could come back and have less screen time like boden. we really don’t know. its all up to jesse and when and if he is ready. he deserves the break. he’s been doing this for 18 years. as viewers, we don’t see how much this could affect this actors/actresses. there could be a possibility of him actually coming back but i think as of right now, coming back for an episode or two seems like the option right now. im just choosing to stay hopeful for now and hope we get to at least see him at the end of the season for stellaride’s wedding (we’ll, assuming it’s going to be this season. it has to. i don’t want them to push it). i also get a lot of people are mad, upset and hurt but i really can't stress this enough - it's not jesse's fault, it's really not anyone's fault. things happen in our lives. i remembered during an interview kara and jesse did in around february, jesse said "why would i want to leave?". things in life changed and sometimes we don’t like it but we gotta deal with it. watching the next episode (or even the rest of the season) is going to be hard and weird without seeing matt/jesse and it’s going to take some time to get used to. what we’re also not going to do is harass him and such. as much as i don’t want to talk about it (cause frankly, it’s absolutely none of us business), there could be family stuff going on and we all need to respect that. at the end of the day, family matters the most and if we were in his shoes, we would do the same if im being honest. for whatever the reason is, respect him and his decision.

- i started watching fire for brettsey and it really does hurt like hell knowing one of them left. if this was another show, i honestly would’ve stopped watching but i love sylvie sm. i did decide to watch until the season ends because i want to see how the ldr plays out lol.

- if anyone can work out long distance, it’s brettsey.

- you know what…at least they didn’t kill him off

#yeah idk what this is i just copied and pasted #here are thoughts no one asked for #chf discourse #text #brettsey

[littleoddwriter]

Patience | Roman Sionis x Male!Reader - Lemon

"male!reader and Roman sionis: long distance relationship + 'I need you, don't leave me please'Reader is on a call with Roman but roman has a business meeting to attend to, which makes reader very sad because he doesn't want to end the call yet and so he gets all whiny and asks roman to stay on the phone with him (you can also make it nsfw lol) and roman eventually relents and is like fine ill blow off this meeting and let someone else handle it (and this is where you could make it nsfw lol)" @iscariot-rising​ A/N: We fleshed this out together via chats, and uh, yee. It mutated into smut only, lmfao.

summary; You and Roman are having a LDR and you miss him, but he has a business meeting. Due to your impatience, you end up facetiming him in the middle of the meeting. Smut ensues. 

notes; KINKS: Daddy!Kink; Degradation + Dirty Talk (reader is being called a ‘whore’ and a ‘slut’, so if that is not your jam, don’t read it); Dildos; Dom/Sub; Masturbation; Orgasm Delay. SUBMISSIVE Male!Reader; Phone Sex via FaceTime; LDR; PWP; Lemon; Smut. 

"Baby, I really have to hang up, now. The meeting is about to start, 'kay?" Roman said, looking at the round table across the room, where more and more people found their seats.

"But Daddy, I need you. Please, don't leave me! Please, Daddy!" He heard you whine over the phone.

He rolled his eyes fondly and sighed.

"Listen, sweet boy, this shouldn't take too long. When I'm done here, we can go back to talking. How does that sound, hm?"

"Not enough. I need you, now. Please?"

Roman shook his head and looked at his watch. He had two minutes left to get to the table before the others would start conversing without him already.

"Y/N, no. And this is the last time I'm going to say it, baby. Either you accept it now and we continue talking after the meeting, or I will hang up right away and not call you until much later. 'Kay?"

He could hear the sharp intake of breath from you and then a defeated sigh.

"Fine."

You were pouting. Fuck, he wanted to fly over to you and just fucking ravish you. He hated the distance between the two of you, but you had to leave Gotham - and America for that matter - for a while, due to work. He tried to talk you out of it, told you that you didn't necessarily need to work anyway, but you refused. It almost escalated into a nasty fight, but he had caught himself before he could have ruined everything and possibly have lost you for good.

"Good boy," he purred. "Now, Daddy has to leave, 'kay? I'll talk to you later, my little prince."

He heard you chuckle sweetly. It made him smile.

"Okay, Daddy. Good luck!"

In the back of his throat he made an appreciative noise and then hung up on you, before he got lost talking to you entirely.

Then Roman put the phone into his inner breast pocket and walked over to the table, where almost everyone had arrived already. Pleasantries, fake smiles and handshakes were exchanged. It made him feel sick. All of them were so fucking fake, shallow, without true ambitions. That's why he liked you so much, just like Zsasz. You weren't fake.

Sometime into the meeting, his phone started vibrating against his chest.

Sighing quietly, he pulled it out to look who was calling, only to immediately tilt it towards himself, and press it against his chest, so that no one could see the screen.

For fuck's sake, y/n! He thought.

"Excuse me, gentlemen. I have an emergency to attend to. I'm not sure how long it'll take, so just keep on talking, 'kay?" He said, fake smile and all, and got up as he received affirmative nods and hums from around the table.

With intent, he hurried over to the bathroom in quick strides. Fortunately it was a private toilet, so he locked it behind himself and didn't have to fear someone coming in for a while.

Then he looked at his phone again, still vibrating in his hand.

You were trying to facetime him, and naturally, facetime showed the other person and what they were doing before you even accepted it. This was dangerous and if you weren't hundreds and thousands of miles away from him, he would come home to you and punish you thoroughly for such reckless behaviour.

Because as it was, you had a dildo shoved into you and weren't afraid of showing him your entire body from an enticing angle; even though you knew he was having this meeting. Fuck, he really needed to teach you some manners, when you came back.

Although he would much rather ignore you and teach you a lesson, he accepted your request.

A throaty moan that somewhat resembled the word 'Daddy' greeted him.

Quickly, he turned the volume down a little, as the moan sounded way too fucking loud and he was paranoid that perhaps someone outside could here it after all.

"Baby boy, what exactly do you think you're doing?" He asked, a dangerous edge to his voice.

"Mmmhhh, I told you I needed you, Daddy," you replied breathless, whining and humming sensually.

"Yeah, I can see that. Fuck! You couldn't wait till after the fucking meeting, could you, you little slut?" He rasped, trying to pierce you with a fierce glare over the small screen.

His words and gaze only seemed to make you moan louder.

"N-no, Daddy. I need you, now. Please, please, please!"

He leaned his head back, swallowed thickly and let out a breathy groan.

"Fuck, 'kay, fuck. Oh, baby. This is dangerous, you know? You're putting Daddy in danger here. Just because your greedy little hole misses me so much, hm? Isn't it so, my boy?" His voice was husky with arousal that started coursing through his body, his cock stirring in the confines of his suit pants.

"I know, Dad- ah, Daddy. I'm sorry-y," you moaned.

"You don't sound very sorry to me, baby," Roman rasped. "Couldn't even wait another hour to fill up that sloppy hole, huh? Couldn't wait for Daddy to instruct you and make you earn it. Couldn't - fuck - stop yourself from taking that big fat fake cock and shove it up your slutty little hole, hm?"

As he spoke, he gripped his own rapidly hardening cock through the fabric of his pants and underwear, relieving some of the pressure that started to build up.

He could see you shake your head frantically.

"No, no, no, couldn't wait. Needed to be f-filled so badly. Ah, Daddy! Please!"

Roman growled, which had you let out another loud moan, as the dildo looked to have hit your sweet spot simultaneously.

"It's not as good as the real thing, is it? Say it, you little whore. Fucking say it! It's not as good. Couldn't ever be, hm? Never had as good of a cock as mine."

"It's n-not, ah, as good as - fuck - the real th-thing, Daddy! Fuck! Please, Daddy, please. Ma-ah-y I c-come?"

By that point, he had unbuttoned and unzipped his pants and pulled out his hard cock, stroking it in a hard, fast pace, just how he liked it. The precome that was beading at the tip slicked his way a little, but not enough. He didn't mind.

"Not just yet, baby. You've been so bad, you can wait a few more minutes, can't you?"

"No, pl-please!"

He groaned. Fuck, he could never get enough of your desperate begging.

"Wait, baby. If you come without my permission, then that will be the last phone call until tomorrow at best. Y'hear me?"

He smeared more of his precome over his cock, thumbing his slit, and groaned hoarsely. Roman tried to keep quiet, but, fuck, it was difficult.

You couldn't answer him anymore, it seemed. Only moans and whines were audible to him, such as the slick, sloppy noises of the dildo thrusting in and out of your hole.

Roman was close, he could feel the telltale heat and pull of it in his abdomen and thighs.

"Fuck, shit, baby!" He rasped. "Come for me. Come for Daddy, you fuck- ah!"

He came. His come splattered onto the tiles on the floor. Some of it landed on his hand, as it slowed down to small pulses.

Faintly, he could hear you moan loudly, desperately, little uh, uh, uhs coming from you. When he looked at his phone, he saw you lying limp and twitching on your bed, the dildo still stuck between your legs and your chest rising and falling rapidly as you panted.

As the two of you had caught your breath, he looked at his come-stained hand and wrinkled his nose.

"Ew," he said, holding it away from himself.

"Thank you, Daddy," he heard you whisper hoarsely, your voice completely fucked.

"Mhm, you better," he muttered under his breath. "I have to go, now, baby boy. And even though you've been such a nasty little boy just now, I'll talk to you later, 'kay?"

You chuckled, "Okay, Daddy. I love you."

His stomach did a little flip at that, his heart clenched because of your words.

"Yeah, I know," he replied and hung up immediately.

Roman sighed and put his phone away. Then he went over to the sink, washed his hands and then tucked himself back into his underwear and pants, closing them. After that he cleaned up the remnants of the spontaneous facetime-sex off of the floor.

Looking at himself in the mirror, to see if he looked presentable, he sighed again. He really fucking missed you. 

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[lavendersage]

So up until recently I've been very much happy and in love with my current boyfriend of almost two years. However a while ago we started arguing more due to being forced into a ldr for am unknown amount of time because of covid and also because of stress on both ends. I've been feeling upset pretty much all of the time and I felt very lonely and left alone by him. That's when I realised I might have feelings for a friend of mine. We've been friends for over a year now and never did we interact as more than friends. He's a very genuine and loyal friend, really respectful too. And in the past he helped me a lot with some problems I've had. However I still love my current boyfriend, I don't want to act on that crush but I also don't want to cut off my friend, it's so hard to find genuine friends nowadays and especially for a person with severe depression and anxiety like me. But I just can't help but feel like I'm a horrible person for even having those feelings for my friend. Do you have any advice on how to handle this?

i’d like to preface this by saying that i’m happy you felt comfortable coming to me with this, but please take everything i say with a grain of salt!! i am not an advice blog and i can only give you my thoughts from an outside perspective.

first of all, ouch. i know from experience that LDRs are so, so hard, and i’m so sorry that your relationship has felt strained because of it. i remember so clearly how sharp the pain of missing that person can be.

you say you’re feeling left alone by your partner. have you communicated this to him? i’m sorry if this sounds redundant, but you really shouldn’t let something like that stew. avoiding the conflict and not talking about your feelings will only build resentment, and the foundation of a healthy relationship is built on good communication and trust. if you feel like you can’t communicate with your partner, there may be some deeper issues there that need to be addressed.

as for developing a crush on your friend...i have a few thoughts on this. i think feelings are something that are, at times, out of our control, particularly when it comes to affection for others—you are in a LDR with someone who has, as you said, made you feel alone, so i don’t think it’s entirely surprising that you started having these feelings for this other person, however minute those feelings may be. that being said, i think you need to ask yourself if the root of this crush is purely situational. would you have developed these feelings if your partner wasn’t living away from you? would you have developed these feelings if your relationship wasn’t being challenged?

(i really don’t mean to invalidate anything you’re feeling by saying this, but sometimes you really need to ask yourself if you truly like someone, or if you’re just feeling lonely and they happened to be there.)

i don’t think you’re a horrible person, anon. not at all. what i do think is that you need to examine this situation macroscopically and engage in a healthy dialogue with your partner about how you’re feeling. i think you’ll feel better once you do.

best of luck, my dearest. i hope you’re able to talk things through and work through your feelings in a healthy way 💚

#asks

[verse50]

hey about the aftercare: thank you so much for responding! you cleared a lot of things for me. yes, we started as D/s and developed into an engagement. something important is that we're in a LDR relationship bc he is working and can't be with me for now. He apologized and said he was exhausted that other night. He does take some pills for ADHD but what caught my attention on what you said is frustration. he have been frustrated bc I wasn't being really submissive these days...

Here is the original ask. I was preparing to answer your first ask here when you sent the follow up one so I’m going to answer consecutively.

Since you are engaged, I’m assuming the LDR is a new development in a relationship of perhaps years. Circumstances sound tough with his work schedule, ADHD, and struggle to maintain the D/s connection. 

Not feeling submissive. This needs to be discussed at the first inkling. I’m sensing that circumstances have gotten between the two of you and fizzled your dynamic. This happens with lots of couples, D/s or not. Things happen and you go along, letting them happen, while the house falls down around you. It’s a natural occurrence but must be planned for. When you “aren’t feeling it” that is the time to step up as a submissive. Request the tug on the leash. Discuss how your protocol could function with the LDR. “How may I serve you today?” It is both your responsibility to maintain the foundation. 

If the work situation is concrete, the stressors must be anticipated. Transitions of any kind are extremely tough. My work department is handling construction and split personnel over several areas and I prepped for stressors months before the actual construction took place. You have a choice to let the circumstances run your life or make a flow so you retain the connection around them. This happens through kind, calm, respectful communication and focused effort to make the best possible decision for all parties.

Now, it may be that the circumstances are insurmountable and the stress of maintaining the connection over LDR is too much for you. That’s ok. People need touch, skin on skin, daily interaction to make a relationship go to certain levels. I personally know of a couple who began foray into D/s and then put it aside because the distance and their work schedules made it basically impossible. They are still together years later, non D/s but have a strong, loving relationship. I would caution you not throw the baby out with the bath water. It can be tough to go from D/s to non. Some people can’t do it. You may need structure that only it can give you. But...really look at this overall and not just from the D/s success standpoint. I sense that you care about each other. You really need to talk about this as people in a relationship. The D/s is a part of your relationship but it isn’t everything. Value it all, look at it closely, discuss goals and desires.

If breaking up seems to be the only option, be kind to one another. DO NOT be mean, vindictive, or turn into horrible people lashing out in pain. Be mature! Just because the dynamic didn’t work out under these circumstances doesn’t mean you are enemies! Communicate amicably. If there is a move-out, respect the space and his personal belongings. Don’t make life miserable for either of you. Don’t pressure to stay friends, that can be very hard for former D/s partners. Just be mature, kind, and honest about the breakup needs. Don’t cling! Let yourself and him be free to live a good life, even if it isn’t shared with each other. 

Read this together and have an honest talk before you do anything permanent. Seeing each other in person might be a good idea, as well. 

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[punkscowardschampions]

Janis & Jimmy

Janis: [so like evening like probably not expecting this] Janis: what you up to tonight Jimmy: What are you about to ask me to do? Janis: Sadly, nothing that exciting Janis: but I need out of this house so if you've got something going on, we can make some #content Jimmy: Find a party and I'll meet you there Janis: Okay Janis: it's been dry so far but not everyone can have decided to be boring all at once Jimmy: have you moved to a new town without telling me? Jimmy: bit rude to make me fake ldr Janis: God, I wish Janis: I need to be several towns over with the noise that being made in this gaff rn Jimmy: They're there and you didn't invite me? That's more than a bit rude, mate 💔 Janis: Oh yeah Janis: sleepover fetish is so real 🤤😍 Jimmy: You know how I feel about you in PJs Jimmy: how dare you Janis: I know you're just gutted you didn't get a chance to see 💀👑 in hers Janis: 💔💔 hurts Jimmy: [brings back the # he started about her only wearing pjs cos I skim re-read that convo post school trip yesterday] Janis: Fine, come over Janis: if you love a throwback that hard Janis: we won't be sharing a room with them though Jimmy: I'd 💕 some enthusiasm Janis: You can have all the snacks they won't eat Jimmy: Has my true love cleared that? Janis: You have to save her from herself Janis: they do it on purpose, it's a binge waiting to happen Jimmy: hot Janis: If you've got a saviour complex Janis: put on your cape, crown of thorns, whatever suits Jimmy: If you've got a short enough memory to forget me saving you from a life threatening injury and nursing you back from the brink Jimmy: suited you then Janis: I remember, if less dramatically and in your favour Janis: but I never said it didn't suit Jimmy: know my audience and how they remember it Jimmy: Give me your address then, Juliet Janis: Hmm, Grace would say you owe her damages, probably Janis: [does, lol soz] Jimmy: she knows where I am if she wants to claim Jimmy: I'll have 'em off you though for taking the piss Janis: Only my parents doing that Janis: I'll pay for an uber if you can cope with the flex Janis: desperate times, like Jimmy: shut up Janis: bit rude Jimmy: bit rude is sending me into the middle of nowt to get 💀🔪🔪 Janis: You can trust me Jimmy: Piss off Janis: 🙂🙂🙂🙂 Jimmy: Stop messing about, rich girl Janis: I ain't, look on street view or some shit, it's a big hippie farmhouse Jimmy: [does so a pause] Jimmy: 🤯🤯🤯🤯🤯 Janis: I'll get you an uber now, yeah? Janis: before they 💀🔪🔪 me in some sleepover satanic ritual Jimmy: I can't have them fucking with our pact Janis: my hero 💘 Jimmy: there's your first caption sorted Janis: I'll think of something as mushy for you in the meantime Jimmy: do you need owt other than a ✞? I'm at the shop Janis: 🤔 Janis: get a like meal for two I can pretend I cooked Jimmy: 👍 Janis: I assume you've got 🚬s Jimmy: I'll grab drinks though Janis: can do Janis: we have some shit here too though Jimmy: What's #goals when you're not drinking a flat white? Janis: if it's pink and alcoholic Jimmy: [sends her pics of different drinks like rose wine or pink gin or whatever else like ?] Janis: Better go gin Janis: it is an emergency Jimmy: [when that's got mum energy so you're lowkey triggered and don't reply] Janis: [when you think it's 'cos it was too pricey or something so you're like oh no faux pas] Janis: the rose would be fine too, I'm not fussy, as you know by now Jimmy: [thinking about Harry too now but sends a selfie from the uber with the gin secured like everything's fine] Janis: 😍 Janis: should I socials that? Jimmy: Why not? Janis: idk how vain you're feeling Janis: maybe you wanna fix your hair Jimmy: 🥇 or nowt baby Jimmy: if I weren't I wouldn't be coming to mess up yours Janis: 😏 Janis: [does post it, with all that enthusiasm about him coming that is so fake uhuh] Jimmy: [a cute little back and forth in the comments while he's on route] Janis: [one of them clearly has liked it so now they know they know] Janis: There we go, committed now Jimmy: [love that though cos it gives them an excuse to go harder with it which he would and is] Jimmy: Is that a record or what? Janis: wait 'til you see their creepy faces fogging up the glass Jimmy: 😱😱😱 Jimmy: no horror films needed Janis: got the setting Janis: even if I 🤞 I'm here, like Jimmy: Promise you'll protect me Janis: 💪 babe Janis: you're safe with me Jimmy: Say it then Janis: What? Jimmy: 🤞 Janis: Oh Janis: I promise I'll protect you from 💀👑 and her underlings Janis: salt circles all ready, like Jimmy: 💪🏆🥇 you Janis: you're feeling generous Janis: have you opened that pink gin without me Jimmy: you ain't feeling any trust towards me Jimmy: 💔🎻🎻💔 Janis: I'm trusting you with my life rn Janis: you've got to fend off the pillows in the night Jimmy: hot Janis: glad you think so Jimmy: oi, be glad you know it Jimmy: that's a #kinkunlocked Janis: Add it to my collection Janis: 🎟🎟🎟🎟 what do I win when I get enough? Jimmy: What do you want? Janis: fuck a 🧸 obvs Jimmy: If that's what you're getting me to this sleepover for, steady on Jimmy: he can buy me a drink first instead of making me bring my own Janis: 😂😂😂 Janis: stop Janis: his plans are set and he is gutted Janis: 🚫 sneaking out Jimmy: me an' all, put in loads of groundwork on that trip Jimmy: treating him mean and all that bollocks Janis: 💔🎻🎻💔 Janis: when it was all a cunning ruse to see Mr. Bear again Jimmy: It's my turn to cheat, Joanne Janis: you'll have to take your free pass to the bathroom 'cos we can't not share a room Janis: and I don't need to witness that tah Jimmy: It's alright, I won't kiss him on the mouth Janis: she probably practices on him Janis: it'll be sticky Jimmy: 🤢🤢🤢 Jimmy: I said I never opened the gin not that I ain't drank nowt Janis: such a lightweight Jimmy: Leave it out, pisshead Jimmy: I didn't know you were gonna 🍑📞 Janis: Do you feel cheap? Janis: 'cos that ride ain't, so don't worry boo 😘 Jimmy: I ain't been in an uber before, how could I not feel 🤑🤑 Janis: 🤞 you get here unmurdered and unmolested Janis: driver gonna ruin my night, like Jimmy: Oi Jimmy: that might make my night 💕👴 Janis: obviously, I am here to ruin your night Janis: 🍑📞 shoulda let you know Janis: were you out? Jimmy: With who, my other fake girlfriend? Janis: I can be that jealous Janis: they'd pretend they didn't love that but they so would Jimmy: I'd drink to it Janis: [a picture of 🧸 in the washing machine like 'bout to drown a bitch for you] Jimmy: 😍😍😍 Jimmy: sod nudes, get you a girl who sends 💀💀💀 threats she's about to follow through on Janis: you're so welcome Janis: he'll be date ready and so will you 🍆💦💦 Jimmy: Depends if they've set a trap on the front door Janis: There's no way they'll be ready for gentlemen callers that soon Janis: you could be travelling from the fucking moon and they'd still be hiding Jimmy: Asia's always ready for me, babe Jimmy: The tall one an' all Janis: you're disgusting Jimmy: soz that you thought you were my only starcrossed lover Janis: Of course not Janis: just the idea of those two doing anything beyond 😭 makes me wanna 💀💀💀 obvs Jimmy: I might 🤢🤢🤢 which is 💀👑 ultimate kink so please shut up Janis: Errm they're your lovers, not mine Jimmy: sound more gutted, mate Janis: what is it this time Janis: 😍 for you or them Jimmy: Me obvs Jimmy: keep up, girl Janis: thanks for saying I'm doing a 🥇🏆 job Jimmy: You're not gay, Judith Jimmy: And even if you were, you ain't 🥇 enough to fake 😍 for them Janis: that was very affirming and then rude Janis: but I'll take it Jimmy: There you go then Jimmy: I'd offer you a gold star but that's a bit Janis: insulting at this point Jimmy: I never thought you were Janis: ? Jimmy: Why did you reckon I thought you were gay? Janis: 'cos you said I was obsessed with them Jimmy: Nah Jimmy: I said the bollocks they say and do is more important to you than it is to me Janis: You might wanna work on your phrasing then Janis: but idc Jimmy: Alright Janis: but for the record, I only think you're gay for Dan Jimmy: @iantaylor8 Janis: v offensive that I've not affirmed your heterosexuality in his 👀 Jimmy: I'll live Janis: I won't Janis: deeply wounded Jimmy: Tah for the warning so I don't go arse over in the blood Janis: not a very heroic way to die Janis: even Romeo did better Jimmy: He had Bill, I'm holding my own 🖋 Janis: hot Jimmy: 😏 Janis: [tweets that gem] Jimmy: [having another flirt via socials] Janis: [love that for you] Jimmy: Have you got a balcony? Janis: Sadly not Janis: been let down big time there Jimmy: And I couldn't fit the 🎻 in my overnight bag Janis: Just when we needed it most Jimmy: it's a piss poor shout, I'm sorry baby Janis: It's alright, in terms of convincing them we're fucking all night, probably need a less 💔 soundtrack Jimmy: 👍 or 👎 to Romeo + Juliet soundtrack? Janis: yes Janis: of course Jimmy: 💕 Jimmy: For an all nighter we've got our Easter Rising one an' all, Tah Dan Janis: He'll be thrilled he's having a hand in our fictional fuckfest, I'm sure Janis: a hand in was the best choice of words there Jimmy: He'll be getting me through it 🍆💦💦 Janis: 🤤 hard same Janis: you were such a cockblock Jimmy: Invite him over, I'll go home Janis: He probably has a curfew Janis: God bless Jimmy: Bringing him into it an' all again Janis: He does reside here Janis: apparently Janis: I've never seen him and he doesn't do any chores but Jimmy: holy 👻 and unholy 👻 boy in your gaff Jimmy: might be a scrap Janis: you'll be buzzin' then Janis: making your night over and over, babe Jimmy: can't stop being #goals you Janis: not an amateur Jimmy: loads of time to prove it in a bit Janis: challenge accepted Jimmy: 👍 Janis: You do sleepovers with your mates before? Jimmy: Why? Janis: 🤷 Janis: curious Janis: not as talked about Janis: what do boys do Jimmy: What do you reckon? Jimmy: I'd be gutted to 💔 you Janis: Obviously I'm 💔 that you don't talk about girls and 'practice' kissing Janis: but if you confirm you just play videogames and drink cheap beers on the low, I think I'll survive Jimmy: We do talk about girls but there's no need to practice kissing when you're this 😎🏆 Janis: 😏 okay Janis: not sharing your expertise is selfish of you Jimmy: My ex shared it round plenty, don't worry Jimmy: Half the north knows my tips and tricks Janis: Bummer Janis: No thinking I'm special then, I hear you Jimmy: I can't stop you thinking owt Janis: It's alright, I'm specials in every other way Jimmy: Bighead strikes again Janis: yeah, try and deny it, dickhead Jimmy: That you think you're special? Janis: You know what I meant Janis: you 🙊 me 🙉 Jimmy: Oi I'm 🦍 Jimmy: Ask my man Janis: You're SO hench, babe Jimmy: 💪🏆🥇 Janis: I'm SO lucky Janis: 🙄 Jimmy: You picked a film for us to not watch yet? Janis: I'm debating what the worst romcom of all time is Jimmy: [sends her a little list because he's had a nightmare girlfriend] Jimmy: off the top of my head Janis: kink unlocked Janis: that's worse than any of the others so far, God Janis: deviant Jimmy: Piss off Janis: No wonder they all love you Jimmy: They ain't unlocked any of my kinks, real or fake Janis: Are you sure? Janis: they're accomplished stalkers if fuck all else, like Jimmy: I don't have a tinder with 'em listed Jimmy: What are they gonna stalk? Janis: Yo 🧠 Janis: vampire style Jimmy: You're the only 🧛 I've met Janis: 😏 Janis: and I'd do it again Janis: were I not bound to protect you Jimmy: Crack on Jimmy: If we're meant to be pulling a 💕 all nighter you'll have to do something Janis: If we're convincing enough, they'll spread it 'fore us Janis: spare your precious skin Jimmy: Challenge accepted Jimmy: [is extra on socials again for the final time like see how convincing I am] Janis: I know it didn't hurt that bad, baby Jimmy: Do you? Janis: Did it? Jimmy: 🤐 Janis: That's not fair Janis: if I Mike Tyson'd you you have to say Jimmy: I'll tell you in my oscar speech Janis: You'll be thanking me then Janis: ha, knew you loved it Jimmy: for the adversity Jimmy: tah Janis: pisstake Jimmy: you Janis: ☝ boy Jimmy: Why are you trying to truth or dare me before I'm in the door? Calm it down, Joan Janis: Party don't start 'til you walk in? Janis: Psh Jimmy: I need an audience and a stage, Bill can relate Janis: Duh Janis: what it's all about Jimmy: #whenshegetsyou Janis: we're a step away from a contract Jimmy: 🩸🖋💌 Janis: trying to tempt me with some bloodletting Janis: 😳 is it hot in here Jimmy: I wanna get my 🎟🎟🎟🎟🎟 too Janis: you already knew that one Janis: #eargate Jimmy: Yeah but now you're in the mood Jimmy: might let loads slip Janis: You'll have to work harder than this Jimmy: [🔥 sext because why not] Janis: did your driver co-write that or Jimmy: You can ask him when you pay him, that won't be weird Janis: just wondering where the audience is Jimmy: Post it if you wanna find them, not gonna be far away Janis: [does not] Janis: I'm not going to make you meet my parents, by the way Jimmy: 👍 Jimmy: Should be a rule that Jimmy: I'd bleed to keep you away from mine Janis: Now you're just trying to be hot Jimmy: 😎🚬 Jimmy: #effortless Janis: you better not be in that car Janis: not paying your cleaning bill too Jimmy: It's behind the ear you didn't take off Jimmy: We're alright Janis: Can't say I'm not fair 😏 Jimmy: Not when anyone's about Janis: I know the audience too Jimmy: Be a long night if you don't Janis: shut up Janis: they'll crash before we do anyway Janis: then you can actually do what you want Jimmy: I know you wanna talk about girls and play videogames like a northern lad Jimmy: 🥧🥔🍺 weren't the meal deal though 💔 Janis: 🖕 Janis: oh no, however will I cope Jimmy: I dunno, mate Jimmy: I'll have to double up on the heroics, me Janis: you're allowed to sleep, you know Janis: overtime ain't an all-nighter too Jimmy: might do but I only chucked the one bottle in my basket Janis: we've got some great sleeping pills Janis: dessert 💕 Jimmy: You're alright Janis: 🤷 Janis: not on commission Jimmy: You must know the audience if you're trying to knock me out this hard Janis: How long can we be in each other's company before you try to seriously injure me Janis: nothing but self-preservation here Jimmy: Oi Jimmy: I know my own ���🏆 Janis: Doing it on purpose don't make it no better Janis: 'less I asked for it, obvs Jimmy: Are you? Jimmy: 'Cause if that's a #kinkunlocked I'll have my 🎟 Janis: 🙊 Janis: depends Jimmy: ? Janis: 💀👑 is definitely a freak Janis: probably just encourage her to keep 👀 Jimmy: 🍿 or 📹? Janis: cotton balls soaked in 0cal 'butter' spray Jimmy: 😋😋😋 Janis: though if she were to 📹 wouldn't be the first time Janis: still getting tagged 🙄 Jimmy: #same Janis: hmm, at least your tits aren't low-key out Jimmy: I'll get 'em out tonight Jimmy: Only fair Janis: 😂 Janis: clearly dying to anyway Jimmy: They're 🥇 I gotta keep it #goals Janis: this town ain't big enough for both our heads Jimmy: It's alright, I ain't gonna be here long Janis: Nah? Jimmy: 💔🎻💔 Janis: Yeah, well convincing that one Jimmy: Not on the clock yet Janis: 🍀 you Jimmy: 💀👑 got you plaiting or 💅? Either way you're gonna need some glue Janis: not touching her without gloves Janis: one of your girlfriends is asking about you Jimmy: Duh we'd get caught for the 🔪🔪💀 before we had chance to piss off anywhere Jimmy: Which one? Janis: you're pissing off anyway, I'll have to live, murder and die here Janis: now you're interested Jimmy: Oh come on, baby, where I go, you go 💕 Janis: you can drop me off the first place that isn't here Jimmy: 👌 Janis: kink unlocked Janis: have a 🎟 Jimmy: Common sense ain't one Janis: don't tell me what my kinks are and aren't, boy Janis: you're not in control like that Jimmy: I'm 👮🚔 remember Jimmy: might be a kink division Janis: you are ridiculous Janis: and garda ain't telling me nothing Jimmy: I ain't a paddy, law's different up North, that'll be why it's grim Janis: I've seen the procedurals, mate Janis: you aren't old and grizzled enough to be the maverick Jimmy: Stop flirting with me Jimmy: You'll make the driver 😳 Janis: 🤞 you crash, of course Jimmy: Not unless it's right outside yours and you can throw yourself in front as we do Jimmy: 💀💀💀 pact not 👻 me and widow you Janis: but you love black Janis: but fine, I'll throw myself on the wreckage Jimmy: on me, give a shit what you wear, hun Janis: fine, I'll go play dress up with them Janis: good luck faking 😍 then Jimmy: Oi Jimmy: 1. PJs or I ain't coming in Jimmy: 2. maybe I wanna be pretty an' all, bit rude not to wait for the love of your life Jimmy: 3. 🥇 or nowt Janis: 1. admit you care more Janis: 2. you're pretty enough, sweetheart Janis: 3. 💪 Jimmy: More than what? Janis: just more than you protesting Jimmy: About what? Janis: that you don't give a shit what I wear Janis: you started a # Jimmy: Mr Lucas gives a shit what you wear, I just fake it Janis: real mvp Janis: he'd be way more buzzing my parents were out Jimmy: probably a bit late to invite him Jimmy: I reckon I'm here near enough Janis: know how you feel about threesomes Janis: I'll come find you Jimmy: first off, it were you who 🚫 my proposition for us and that dickhead of yours to have one Jimmy: second, you better had, you did 🤞 Janis: Was not Janis: and he's not MY dickhead, just a dickhead, don't put that on me Janis: [meeting him dramatically 'cos they watching, turning her eyes up to the window so he can see] Jimmy: [we know he's gonna go with it and we know why so] Janis: [we all know you're both grateful for an excuse to kiss each other on sight] Jimmy: [pick her up boy even though you'll have to put down what you're carrying #priorities] Janis: [when y'all would NEVER let a man lmao] Jimmy: [we all know y'all are lowkey like DON'T TOUCH ME] Janis: [tbf a boy was like i can pick you up when i was like 13 and i was like you can't and then he tried and was like oh you're heavy rude you're just weak] Jimmy: [I'm so 😡] Janis: [don't need that potential trigger in your life ladies] Jimmy: [I'm dying though like get inside you two, there's never any need to go as hard or long as you do] Janis: [so method lol] Jimmy: [Gotta like throw the food at her as soon as you're inside because a second has passed without being rude and god forbid] Janis: [just judging his choices like hmm 'cos same] Jimmy: [😒 like oi as if he's not just been rude but opening the gin even before there's glasses #calm down] Janis: [raising a brow but not saying anything 'cos you're like yeah, fair, pointing him over to wherever the glasses are so you can fake cook this meal real quick] Jimmy: [raising his own like oh you fancy as if he was just gonna swig it from the bottle forever but pours some into her mouth first because so needed and shamelessly flirty all the time before going to sort glasses like nothing even happened okay] Janis: ['have some decorum, boy' 😏 until he does that then you're like 😳 'tryna get me drunk too' tutting dramatically] Jimmy: [just shakes his head also 😏 at the words and the tuts 'Don't worry, I know, wouldn't be very goals, that'] Janis: [shrugs 'depends'] Jimmy: [gives her a look like I know it would be for you but we don't set the goals] Janis: [looking back 'til the microwave pings and brings you back 'round 'you've seen 'em at parties, right pissheads'] Jimmy: [Shrugs 'You're a lightweight, and we've got content to create' realises that rhymes and does a little flourish in the air like he's writing with a pen cos poet and nerd] Janis: [when you can't help but lol, even though you're trying to 🙄 is creating #content already and making this meal look #aesthetic and #goals for the 'gram before pushing a plate at him like there you go] Jimmy: [control your 😍 over her cute laugh by acting like that food is so interesting and important] Janis: [but don't control it too hard 'cos cringe couples always take pics of each other eating so get ready for your closeup boy] Jimmy: [that's tea and you know they are seeing/interacting with all this nonsense so you gotta go for it] Janis: [hence you know to stay out the kitchen but you won't, like what you need ladies] Jimmy: [thank god they'd hear them coming so he can be like come sit on my lap for a sec as if that's where she's been the whole time, just not practical, I'd throw food all over you by accident boo] Janis: [again, doing things y'all would never do, and we know you two love this so] Jimmy: [like I'mma just feed you something girl let's see how hard we can trigger Mia] Janis: [how you don't lol, just permanent 😏 like living your best life] Jimmy: [we've only just begun to live] Janis: [classic 'oh you've got something here-' and shamelessly caressing his face] Jimmy: [shameless makeout sesh ensues because if you stay now gals you're the ones making it weird] Janis: [clearly overstaying your welcome for slightly too long before making a comment and running off giggling like you're 12] Jimmy: [let you go 🚬 once they're gone boy cos longest uber ride ever] Janis: [truly, the struggle is so real, wait 'til we make you go on the bus that goes all 'round the houses lol] Jimmy: [hasn't invited her cos we back to being rude obvs] Janis: [so charming lol, on the sofa like 😒] Jimmy: [when you're ages and we know it's because you always need all the moments after kissing her] Janis: you want me to pay for 🚬 or what Jimmy: Save the flex for one that's more #relatable to the fans Janis: I asked if you'd got 'em, could've warned me if I weren't getting none, like Jimmy: Come here Janis: You can save it for me Janis: take breaks in shifts Janis: professional Jimmy: Alright Janis: 👌 Janis: soz, btw Jimmy: For what? Janis: not brushing my teeth Janis: know its a big pet peeve Jimmy: used to how minging you are by now, Josephine Janis: if you gave some warning Janis: face hugger Jimmy: soz I can't always hear 💀👑's bones creaking, bit deaf, me Jimmy: might be the one ear Jimmy: and anyway it depends Janis: It's romantic, you wanna be a great artiste, don't you Janis: and what does it depend on then Jimmy: Why would I wanna be owt of the sort? Jimmy: It depends what lads you've had round before me, what else? Janis: get bitches get money Janis: obvs Janis: I was talking about being mid-dinner, don't act like you didn't know Jimmy: 👌 Janis: will ask about getting that revolving door installed though Janis: tah for the reminder Jimmy: Gracie'll be 👍 when you do Janis: yeah Janis: whole house full of slags, like Jimmy: you do live in the middle of nowt, gotta have something to do Janis: decent excuse Jimmy: only so much horse riding even a rich girl can do Janis: one in the same if you're that kind of rich girl Jimmy: 😂 Jimmy: obvs Janis: have to have one to pay for the other Janis: basic maths Jimmy: Alright 🤓 Janis: giving you 💰 tips for nothing here Jimmy: can't take it with me Janis: why not Jimmy: What do you mean? Jimmy: I reckon hell's got a free bar in the very least Janis: Optimistic Janis: I've at least heard that passage, like Janis: you'd be so lucky Jimmy: if you want the pessimistic angle, it'll rot in the ground Jimmy: got that covered Janis: 🙄 Jimmy: [comes back in cos can't be out there forever] Janis: [puts hand out like gimme 'cos obvs you need to leave immediately] Jimmy: [does but also gives her look like bit rude] Janis: [a look like you started it but still saying thanks, not a heathen] Jimmy: [chucks her his jacket/hoodie or whatever even though it's april] Janis: ['good thinking' as she walks out the door] Jimmy: [drink your gin boy] Janis: [clearly taking a cute selfie in that, minus cigarette] Jimmy: [be extra fake to hide how good you think she actually looks please] Janis: [ah the fakery of it all this is fine lollol] Jimmy: [I'm gonna give her a bit then have him come out like he DESPERATELY needs something from his pocket suddenly 1. what even would that be boy 2. no you don't 3. you also don't need to be so hot about it like reaching over her and all that jazz] Janis: [just a LOOK] Jimmy: [when your plan was to just walk away but of course you have to give her a look back] Janis: [offering out the 🚬 like he didn't just have his own, but then doing the sexy blowback moment when he's like okay] Jimmy: [he's just dying now, aren't we all, like didn't expect that did you bitch] Janis: [definition of 😏] Jimmy: [walk away Jimothy you're in too deep] Jimmy: [but I like to imagine he walks into one of the flat whites when he's all flustered, feed that narrative even by accident lads] Janis: [joy of joys, poor boy lol] Janis: you can pick a film Janis: one you might actually wanna watch then one to switch back to Jimmy: Challenge accepted Janis: 👍 Janis: Brb, I'll go pretend to do what girls do Janis: [comes in but goes upstairs] Jimmy: [we all know he's watching her go, boy be careful] Janis: [we all throwing all the glances like this ain't a dangerous game] Jimmy: [take the time she's upstairs to calm down please and thank you sir] Janis: [we out here brushing out teeth obvs] Jimmy: [so soz Janis but at least being in there can give you the idea for bathgate] Janis: [🔥💡] Jimmy: [what could possibly go wrong like] Janis: [hohahaha] Jimmy: [sending her some of his fave comments from what they've posted so far cos shady bitch] Janis: [likewise 'cos likewise] Janis: wish Dan would comment though Janis: what's he up to Jimmy: 💔💔 Hang on Jimmy: [has a stalk and likewise sends her his fave things he finds] Janis: awh Janis: what a man Jimmy: that his missus? Jimmy: 🔪🔪 Janis: so jealous Janis: learn to be fake happy Jimmy: in a bit, gotta go arrange a 🥇 threesome Jimmy: be really happy after Janis: wait 'til you're off the clock Janis: do whatever you want then Jimmy: UGH Janis: it's mutual Jimmy: 🤞 that's what Dan's girlfriend'll say Janis: she's dating Dan Janis: her lack of sense and taste is obvious and in your favour, congrats Jimmy: I KNOW HE'S SOOOOOOOO 🥇👑😍🏆💪 Jimmy: tah for the #hype babes Jimmy: I reckon now I can 🎯 Janis: [comes down like let's get this over with] Jimmy: [puts on whatever he can bear to watch cos even the flat whites ain't gonna appear that quick] Janis: [and sitting as far apart as you can without it being impossible to be all over each other in 5 secs when needed] Jimmy: [does top up her drink for her though cos isn't as rude as he pretends to be] Janis: [cheers and drinks that too fast] Jimmy: [he's gone the other way and barely touched his because he's like I'm clearly too drunk rn after what happened with the blowbacks] Janis: [ah the confusion and awkwardness] Jimmy: [just on his phone even though he should wanna watch this since he picked it lol] Janis: [getting herself more drink that isn't gin] Jimmy: [wise move babe] Janis: [although mixing perhaps isn't, but rude like that and it isn't as if you've hung with anyone in time now nevermind the clusterfuck of what is this] Jimmy: [Christ knows what he had to drink before he got here so likewise a dickhead and likewise antisocial we know] Janis: [can't leave this forever though have some of 'em run through like we need drinks or whatever they're coming up with, so you gotta low-key launch yourself at him and get into some kind of snuggle position like oh hey but also not hey, only 😍 for him soz] Jimmy: [he changed it to a rom-com cos good reflexes though] Janis: [offering them the gin like I'm such a nice person and I'm so good here 'cos that'll piss Mia off] Jimmy: [when you have to snuggle her extra hard cos you're trying not to lol] Janis: [tickling him 'cos PDA comes in so many forms why are you just watching this lmao] Jimmy: [when he'd be so mad about it but all he can do rn is playfight cos gotta be 😍] Janis: [when you know it so now you're loling too with secret 😏 that only he gonna pick up on] Jimmy: [gotta exploit wherever she's most ticklish like 😏] Janis: [regrets, you have none, even though you're dying] Jimmy: [just having fun working out all the bae's ticklish places like this is so casual] Janis: [all 'oh my god, stop' in that fake ass don't stop way] Jimmy: ['make me' cos we all know what that means haha] Janis: [mmmmmakeout time, take your cue to leave] Jimmy: [when you're so into it you don't notice that they've left for a bit] Janis: [always think that like how you breaking this up just like, anyway] Jimmy: [honestly forever going 0-1000 and back again like this is fine] Janis: [no wonder you going cray] Jimmy: [literally, unrelated but did Mia take that gin or nah? lol] Janis: [I feel like Asia took it like yay and Mia will tell her off lmao] Jimmy: [that's real af so I second it and Grace is gonna drink it cos they are doing her head in] Janis: [when you need to get drunk to enjoy your friend's company, happy days] Jimmy: [when your friends are so obsessed with your sister and her man though] Janis: [soz it's a moment babe] Jimmy: [just you wait til bathgate gals] Janis: [oh lordy] Janis: what else do girls like them like then Janis: 'cos you got to admit, it's a laugh getting to 'em and winding them up Jimmy: [a really cute concentration face while he's thinking] Jimmy: Facemasks? Janis: [hiding your 😍 by pulling a pisstakey face] Janis: alright, but I ain't putting any of the weird shit on they do Janis: especially if I end up looking as rough as them Jimmy: Hang on, I'll go ask Gracie if she's got any of those bollocks sheet ones everyone 📷 themselves in Jimmy: What animal do you wanna be? Janis: 🤔 are you serious Jimmy: 🙀 it is then? Alright, I'll ask Jimmy: [Gets up and heads towards the stairs] Janis: you don't even know what room is hers Jimmy: I'll follow the 😱😱😱 Jimmy: [and is] Janis: your ⚰ Jimmy: 🤞 Janis: I'll chill here and ponder my inevitable grief-fuelled suicide Jimmy: hot Janis: soz you won't be around to 👀 Jimmy: 👻 Janis: a 👻 with a threesome to plan Jimmy: I won't be able to touch nowt so I might as well 👀 you 🔪⚰ Janis: love being 2nd choice Janis: 😏 Jimmy: Dan's missus is 🥈 you're 🥉 my dear Janis: fuck off and hurry up Jimmy: [Comes back with the masks like 😏 and of course puts hers on her even though she easily could herself but gotta have that whole MOMENT of him getting her hair out of the way first cos shamelessly loves touching it] Janis: [when this is somehow more intimate than anything you've done so far so you're like where do I put my eyes] Jimmy: [they're really sticky though and he isn't expecting it so he's like wtf and grossed out but then amused at himself and it's so cute bye] Janis: [yeah they're gross she's probably horrified so that'll break the tension just like what the fuck but lol too] Jimmy: [he's genuinely smiling and loling for the first time since god knows when] Janis: [when he's so cute you have to slap this ridiculous on his face fast] Jimmy: [what animals should they be? I think he should be a 🐼 cos lol] Janis: [that's a popular one, we can say there was a 🐱 'cos why not] Jimmy: [yass take your nerdy selfies lads] Janis: [when they'd still look cute too, arseholes] Jimmy: [I'm as fuming about that as Grace would be that he came to her room when she's been hiding all night] Janis: [things are only gonna get worse soz gurl] Janis: this is a great poker face Janis: [says something #shocking and ridiculous with the dead face it gives you to prove the point] Jimmy: [when you lol and yours slips cos they do and they are crap but you take it off and throw it at her anyway cos it's wet and gross and you hate it] Jimmy: decent weapon an' all Janis: [throwing it right back like excuse me] Janis: you're a child Jimmy: @iantaylor8 Janis: if you wanna go home, phones over there, baby Janis: [throws the masks in the direction of like an animal] Jimmy: [moves like he's gonna get up and go but nudges her playfully instead like what's next] Janis: [ponders seriously] Janis: I need to get this gunk off me Janis: [pulls him up like follow me, does not need to be hand-holding but are going upstairs so you know, just in case] Jimmy: [love it and so does he] Janis: [I say get in that bathroom] Jimmy: [gets in the bath like he did at the party just watching her sort her face out] Janis: [looking at him via the mirror like what are you doing but amused not annoyed] Jimmy: [hits her with a 'What?' like he's not shamelessly looking at her] Janis: [nods like 'you want me to run that or?'] Jimmy: [just reclining in there like a nerd and shrugs] Janis: [shakes her head and comes over, acts like she's leaning over to turn the shower on, but doesn't and instead gets in the other end like, see why you like it so much] Jimmy: [does a hand movement like he's splashing her with imaginary water cos oi] Janis: ['nerd' 😏 but reclining and putting her feet in her lap like don't mind me] Janis: his* Jimmy: [just being soft instead doing the this little pig went to market thing to her toes quietly like it's meant to be under his breath but it's not his own funny version probably cos he is a nerd] Janis: [just letting this be even though being soft freaks you the fuck out on the low 'you're so weird, new kid' under her own but nudging him just in case he's forgotten that that's a ref and not a massive drag] Jimmy: [shakes his head like ah good times cos he obvs remembers 'feels like ages ago that'] Janis: ['yeah' and pausing 'cos truly, so much going down in such a short space of time 'didn't think you'd still be here- not in my bath, like'] Jimmy: [nods cos same] Janis: [when you feel the mood shift so you're like away from that topic 'we'll always have the playlist'] Jimmy: [he obvs puts it on cos that bitch but quietly so Mia and Co don't hear it over their music or film or whatever and judge] Janis: [just like what kinda mood music lol, just grooving lowkey 'well worth the A'] Jimmy: [😍 cos I can't stop him if she's gonna be that much of a babe] Janis: [hitting him back with a 'what?' but in a challenging kinda way] Jimmy: [getting out of the tub like he's just remembered he's still got that mask residue on his face which true but like you don't have to literally deal with it this second] Janis: [just stretching out and back, closing her eyes] Jimmy: [taking his t-shirt off cos he said he'd get his tits out and also it means he can throw it at her playfully before washing his face] Janis: [shook and then 😠 'it stinks' and throwing it back like okay it so clearly doesn't babe] Jimmy: [😏 to hide the fact you're lowkey worried that you do smell like oh no and because you're awks and you don't want her to know, pulling her up to sit on the edge of the bath so you can take a selfie kissing her whilst topless for the fans because that's as far as your contribution to bathgate has got so far] Jimmy: [but then you stop to make sure the bath looks aesthetic and generally faff like she did with the food earlier so excuse to go again for the re-do] Janis: [taking it and reposting it on your story with 😍 over his nips] Jimmy: [🙄 even though you're actually amused cos can't let that show] Janis: ['you wanna be x-rated?' at the 🙄] Jimmy: [Gives her a look like well that depends what you mean even though he knows she ain't suggesting they get x-rated 'cause cheeky like that] Janis: [winks but then gets off of the edge of the bath, going through wherever all the bath lotions and potions are kept 'run it hot, lover boy'] Jimmy: [raises an eyebrow but obviously does and draws the infamous love heart with JJ inside in the steam on the mirror] Janis: [bringing over an armful of shit and picking a bottle and pouring a stupid amount in, looking at him like, fill your boots] Jimmy: [when you have fun putting loads of shit in like when you're a kid and you make potions] Janis: [Grace gon' be fuming again, so soz but not really, when there's an aesthetic amount of bubbles and colour going on, taking a deep breath and hoping you did that quiet enough as you take your clothes off like in we get] Jimmy: [puts loud music on so you can pretend you're busy with that not 👀 at her] Janis: [at least there's sooo many bubbles to artfully place lol this is fine this is normal] Jimmy: [when you wanna be like are you sure because you're a soft good boy but you also don't wanna ask because it's gotta be all so fake and you don't care so you're just lowkey taking an age outside that tub pretending it's because you're getting the lighting and angles right and bollocks like that] Janis: [just letting him 'cos not trying to be a pushy bitch but also like, well I've done it now boy so 'you can leave your pants on' but in a tone of, again, I haven't so] Jimmy: [well we know he won't and doesn't cos there's a challenge there and they are always accepted] Janis: [when you don't wanna 👀 but also don't wanna make a massive point of turning away 'cos that's not chill and idgaf attitude so you focus on looking at his face and then instantly regret that 'cos eye contact like oh, we doing this] Jimmy: [such intense eye contact being maintained like okay we just eye fucking rn this is fine] Janis: [when anything and everything you could possibly say rn sounds like double entendre, like is it hot enough for you etc, so you just settle for 'okay?'] Jimmy: [can only nod because likewise can't trust himself to speak atm] Janis: [taking a picture of the bath setup to be like #boydonegood about it but you know you're just buying time before the actual show of it all] Jimmy: [letting that happen because not gonna be a dick about it] Janis: ['you're the photographer, how do we get the best shot?'] Jimmy: [you move boy because we don't need to force her to and have a bubble nip slip when we've only just begun but like obvs position her however you do need to because we're obvs taking this very seriously here and the cute concentration face is back] Janis: [just shamelessly watching him work, but definitely moving closer than he positioned you like is this okay, testing those limits honey] Jimmy: [just says 'Alright' like are you asking her as a question or are you saying you are or are you like we're ready, what's the truth Jimothy] Janis: ['is it?'] Jimmy: ['isn't it?' Boy you're so annoying] Janis: [splashes him, using the water to mess up his hair appropriately 'just take the photo then'] Jimmy: [when you're gonna be like 😒 oi but that's actually a good idea when it clicks what she's doing and you take the shameless excuse to be like 'hang on' and run your wet hands through her hair too and we all see you taking your time with that] Janis: [just not breathing 'til he's done 'how do we look?' and a LOOK 'cos you can see how he looks] Jimmy: ['you look-' only breaking that LOOK to stare at her lips honey 'goals, obvs' eventually gets said because focus boy but it's so not what he was gonna say goodbye] Janis: [when you're so frustrated the 'come on then' comes out so easily] Jimmy: [taking so many pics from so many different angles and kissing her in so many different ways like do you need to be this extra, the answer is no but also yes] Janis: [when you're going in, like you're ever uploading more than one of these each like yes, we need all these options] Jimmy: [like we all know at certain points the camera ain't even taking pics but they haven't noticed/ do not care] Janis: [we all know with the amount of shit you put in its gonna be slippery as hell so gonna allow you to legit slip further onto him without it being a shameless oopsies moment] Jimmy: [add to that how good it would feel to not just be stopping and starting like you've had to all night #dangerous] Janis: [when the pretense of making noise for them is so thin at this point like okay] Jimmy: [regretting putting that loud music on now aren't you boy because yeah good luck not making all the sounds ever rn that only she can hear] Janis: [we know no one is stopping to turn it down rn] Jimmy: [they wouldn't stop if the bath fell through the ceiling rn lol] Janis: [true that, just gently pulling him down so he's laying on her like are you even in frame] Jimmy: [we know he's not and nobody's bothered god bless] Janis: [how far are we letting this go/how do we stop 'em lol] Jimmy: [that's what I'm thinking cos like someone could knock on the bathroom door like excuse you but that might just encourage them more depending on who they think it is] Jimmy: [maybe one of them actually could slip because actually perilous?] Janis: [orrr what if they didn't actually lock the door 'cos when you're faking it'd be bants if they walked in but now it ain't so you'll both be mad] Jimmy: [AMAZING we simply must] Janis: [💀#2 enter] Jimmy: [when you literally can't get out of that bath regardless of what happens because too turned on and even if you grab a towel that's not really gonna hide anything so you're just like ...........] Janis: [at least you can take the lead like get the fuck out bitch Jimmy: [he'd be actually shook though cos like this early on there's a part of him that still doesn't realise how far the flat whites are willing to take shit but then oh hey girl] Janis: [they're just so immature truly, like when Liv was like WE'RE NOT IN YEAR 11 ANYMORE' to Mini lmao like y'all are but still, we're mature laydeez now] Jimmy: [honestly, Grace and Janis would have a reason to be stuck cos their sister died when they were 12, what's y'alls] Janis: [#eatingdisordersquad Jimmy: [And Mia's weird daddy's girl energy ew] Janis: [this is why y'all are only friends with each other, lordy] Jimmy: [I'm intrigued to know what Ava thinks because she didn't exist before and like] Janis: [she'd think they were really tragic and cringe but it's not like she has to hang with them longer than the odd event like Grace's bdays so she wouldn't be like umm your friends] Jimmy: [poor Grace in a toxic relationship with someone for a decade that she doesn't even get to bang] Janis: [come get your toxic friend 'fore she get drowned lmao] Jimmy: [you know Mia would cos can't resist] Janis: [well that's that ruined, just getting out towels and taking one so he can get dried in some semblance of privacy, like] Jimmy: [the levels of fuming] Janis: [some time] Janis: my room is upstairs again Jimmy: 👌 Janis: but if you wanna go Janis: get that Jimmy: And let 💀👑 win? Piss off Jimmy: You're the 🙀 Janis: How am I Jimmy: You scare easily, we worked that out ages ago Janis: Bollocks, you take the piss and have done for ages Jimmy: How do I? Janis: not scared of anything Janis: least of all 💀s Jimmy: Easy to 🗨 Janis: Not as easy to live Janis: but I manage Jimmy: Can you manage to think of owt that'll pay her back or what? Jimmy: You said they'll crash before us Janis: I'm thinking Janis: sure could make her piss herself or shave off her eyebrows but not 12 and it needs to be something better Jimmy: Duh Janis: Clearly not that duh Janis: can't blame 'em for lacking the mental capacities I guess but still will Jimmy: Can't think of nowt when you're starving to 💀💀💀 Jimmy: #relatable Janis: you're thinking of your stomach rn Jimmy: Yeah? Janis: so fat Jimmy: 😱😱😱 Janis: convention down the hall, go learn some tips Jimmy: in a bit then Janis: 👌 Jimmy: 💕 Janis: Hope you're dressed this time Jimmy: They don't so I obvs am Janis: Exactly Janis: probably time for more desperate measures Janis: restraining orders all 'round Jimmy: When should I date yours for, Jules? Jimmy: About a week from now or? Janis: Suits me Janis: works both ways Jimmy: 👍 Janis: where are you actually Janis: it's sinister creepin' about like a 👻 Jimmy: ? Janis: I like to know where everyone is Janis: know where to avoid Janis: don't need repeats Jimmy: I'm outside Jimmy: Avoid the 🚬☁ Janis: Will do Janis: add it to the score I'm keeping though Jimmy: Or just keep up Janis: I'm avoiding your secondhand smoke Janis: put it behind your ear, I'll find it Jimmy: Like I said 🙀 you Jimmy: And you're meant to inhale not bite down Jimmy: so I probably won't put it there Janis: Now who's the pussy Janis: and you told me to Janis: not standing the opposite end of the garden like an overgrown gnome Jimmy: still you then Jimmy: dark's nowt to be scared of, babe Janis: stop saying I'm scared, dickhead Janis: I'm just not a smoker Jimmy: since when, dickhead? Janis: since forever Jimmy: Bollocks Janis: I'm a convincing fake, I know Janis: nothing real about me, remember? Jimmy: 🙄👏🏆 Janis: not that impressive a quote, honestly Janis: you've said better Jimmy: You've done better Janis: 💔 Janis: so sorry Jimmy: I'll be here with the orchestra lads Jimmy: [sends her a little vid of him doing a 🎻 mime] Janis: 🙄😏 Janis: keep that one between us Janis: dunno what that'd imply about the last post but nothing good Jimmy: ❌ my 💘 Janis: deflate your ego more like Janis: can't have you walking 'round like pinhead Jimmy: What ego? Janis: 🙊 Jimmy: Fake dating you, aren't I? Janis: Yeah Janis: you're so lucky Jimmy: Desperate more like Janis: That's obvious Jimmy: Gotta keep it #goals baby Jimmy: 😍😍🤤🤤 Jimmy: can't get enough ever, me Janis: Already said you're fat Janis: preferences in common with them is no surprise to me Jimmy: actually 💔 Jimmy: will have to go home for a 😭😭 Janis: Enjoy Janis: 👋 Jimmy: Enjoy your 🚬 oh wait nah Jimmy: Enjoy the IOU Jimmy: 🏃 Janis: Like you're the only boy with bad habits and a lighter Jimmy: Cavemen invented 🔥 so you'll be grand 🍀 girl Jimmy: if you 🍑📞 party boy now I can kick his uber soon as he gets out, job done Janis: I wanna be disappointed twice in one day like you wanna hang 'round this place Jimmy: so crack on Janis: Funny Jimmy: the joke is I'm still waiting for you to think up a proper idea to piss off them lot Jimmy: sort it out Janis: night's still young Janis: and where's your idea Jimmy: I get it, I look half decent for 45, stop flirting with me and concentrate Janis: What ego? Jimmy: 😏 Janis: I don't know Janis: the problem is everything pisses them off Janis: Grace cries at the drop of a hat, for fuck's sake Janis: it's too easy Jimmy: Alright, what if we give 'em something they really want instead Janis: Self-esteem and good hair? Jimmy: Something they reckon they want but they don't want from us Jimmy: Your gin trick but amplified Jimmy: 💀💀💀 with 💕 Janis: I see what you're saying Janis: bit too soon to hand out invites to the fake wedding Janis: but if you can stomach it, we can give them the attention they're after Jimmy: 🥇 me Jimmy: Nowt I can't handle Jimmy: Or stomach 'cause I'm obvs such a fat git Janis: if the XXL fits Janis: right, let's go invite ourselves to the sleepover, then 🤢 Jimmy: But it looks better on you, girl 💕 Jimmy: fuck's sake Janis: you just wanna get your tits out again Jimmy: for you 😘 Janis: I'm sure I won't be able to keep my hands off you, covered titties and company be damned Jimmy: Hang on Jimmy: What if this backfires? Jimmy: might reckon I'm bored of you and wanna swap you for my truest love Jimmy: bit too real that Janis: You'll have to resist flirting with them, obviously Janis: but you aren't any good at it so I doubt that'll be an issue Janis: just try not to embarrass yourself Jimmy: Piss off Jimmy: I'm just saying if we're so 💕😍😘 why are we getting involved in their bollocks? Janis: Because, I'm such a nice person, and we're so sorry and so embarrassed about earlier? Jimmy: make it at least make fake sense, Jasmine Jimmy: But alright Janis: I don't wanna fuck any of them Janis: sorry 'bout it Janis: I don't know how else you reckon we can 💀💀💀 with 💕 Janis: soz you think you saw us fucking gift baskets Jimmy: Alright, shut up, I might be overthinking it Jimmy: Soz I'm proper 🧠 Janis: What was that about fake sense? Jimmy: What was that about you doing shit 'cause I told you to? Jimmy: 🤐 mate Janis: That's only when I wanted to do the thing anyway Janis: great at giving me excuses, you Jimmy: You wanna have a lovely chat with 'em all then, do you? Jimmy: Sound Janis: suit you if I did Janis: any excuse to ruin their night Jimmy: Suit me if we didn't have to do any talking Jimmy: I'm that romantic, obvs Janis: Done that part Janis: and you were given an out so you've got no room to complain Jimmy: Where and when was I? Janis: I've literally told you to piss off three times Jimmy: And I've told you I ain't letting 💀👑 reckon she scared me off Jimmy: Or reckon I just leave after we're done like every lad she hasn't 🐍 Janis: Alright, your choice Janis: why do you wanna look like an 😇 Jimmy: Why do you want me to look like a twat? Janis: It doesn't make you seem like a twat Jimmy: It makes it seem like a 🍑📞 that ain't what this is Janis: Obviously not Janis: we are love's young dream 🙄 Janis: my parents are only on a date night themselves though so we're gonna have to get in my room and hide you sooner rather than later Jimmy: If you want me to go, say that Janis: I don't care what you do Janis: I'm stuck regardless Janis: just saying, it's a rule, you said that Jimmy: What it is is a 🥇 excuse not to make the 💀💀💀 with 💕 a well slow death Janis: Come on then Janis: mercy kill it is Jimmy: [Appears like the 👻 he is] Janis: [avoiding eye contact like it's your job, just a nod like alright and making your way to Grace's room] Jimmy: [pulling her back like hold my hand bitch] Janis: [Clove has entered the chat, also Winnie] Jimmy: [don't think about how he'd look in whatever he packed to wear to sleep] Janis: [don't you think about it ladies, low-key giving 'em evils even though you gotta be nice Jimmy: [I'm loling because Mia would want to tell them to fuck off cos fuming he's still here but what Grace says goes because it's her house bitch and we know she loves Janis more than you so] Janis: [when you're tipsy and just happy they're here to save your night 'cos your friends have just been talking about 'em and boring you lol] Jimmy: [honestly] Jimmy: [they should be painting their nails because ofc and Grace be like offering to do Janis' cos ILY and Jimmy's like I'll do it cos that's the kind of pinterest bullshit but like he'd obvs do a good job cos artsy hoe and pick a colour she actually fucks with] Janis: [just prolonging hand-holding, we all see you boy] Jimmy: [return of the adorable concentration face] Janis: [we love to see it, when we're sneaking peeps] Jimmy: [Grace putting it on her story to do the work for you lads, Mia be raging] Janis: [hohaha, also blatantly gotta paint his 🖤] Jimmy: [Asia offering him the dregs of the gin back but he's like 'I'm alright' and 😍 at Janis cos so #nice and #lovedup bye] Janis: [smuggest happy face] Jimmy: [a little kiss that you so don't need to give her] Janis: [all pouting like you didn't gatecrash their night] Jimmy: [soz Grace you've done nothing wrong tonight but your friends suck] Janis: [we all know she's having more fun now like soz we're just doing this to piss 'em off] Jimmy: [nothing could ever piss Mia off more than how obvs it is that Grace would rather hang out with JJ so thanks babe] Janis: [doing us a solid] Jimmy: [what other cringe activities can we make coupley af?] Janis: [we could play some kind of game, as they are that childish, idk what] Jimmy: [Mia could suggest like never have I ever or something to that effect cos they're all hoes and they think Janis is such a virgin so she wants to show her up] Janis: [that's a good idea, and they could keep saying really mushy romantic things like #awh 'cos that'll really piss her off] Jimmy: [turn it around on her cos you've never had a bf have you babe so] Janis: [awkwar silence descends lmao] Jimmy: [soz again Grace] Janis: [Asia got her man god bless] Jimmy: [Grace would so end up going off to the bathroom or wherever upset so Mia would be buzzing] Janis: 😬 Janis: she doesn't have feelings to hurt Jimmy: You should go after her before 💀👑 does Jimmy: proper 😇 Janis: Ugh Janis: pains me that you're right Janis: on so many levels Janis: [goes] Jimmy: oughta be used to it by now, mate Janis: 1. ha Janis: 2. it's more about how badly I don't want to console her than it is about admitting you've ever had a good idea Janis: 3. massive headed twat Jimmy: Duh Jimmy: And I miss you already too Janis: you can run down a single flight of stairs and not get winded, yeah Janis: should you need to 🔪🔪🔪🔪 Jimmy: Is the 🔪 in my back or nah? Janis: I dunno where they'll wanna stick it first, babe Jimmy: hot Janis: if you say so Jimmy: I've still got a 💀💀💀 wish, baby, where's yours gone? Janis: you clearly don't get how much it kills me being nice to my sister Jimmy: I never said owt about being nice Jimmy: 💀👑 wouldn't be if she'd taken the job off you Janis: I'm not gonna give her a pep talk about how more dick the better either, tah Jimmy: Get your boyfriend on the line, he'll be up for having a go Janis: You're very helpful Jimmy: 🥇 or nowt Jimmy: Be why Asia's asking me how to make her lad more #goals Janis: She's shameless Janis: sadly don't have his # either or I'd dob her in Jimmy: @ [whatever his actual socials are idk because of course he knows that the shady bitch] Janis: 😂 okay gossip girl Jimmy: xoxo Janis: 😏 Janis: I'll anon it at him Janis: as I've got a rep as such a nice person Jimmy: 👍 Janis: oh Janis: he's unfortunate looking Jimmy: Did you think he'd be more 🤴 than 🐸? Jimmy: Come on Janis: 🐸 is generous Janis: tadpole, like Janis: I thought he'd at least have to be fit Janis: if she was airing you Jimmy: Piss off Janis: SHE 👏 HAS 👏 A 👏 BOYFRIEND 👏 Jimmy: I hate you Janis: Yeah yeah Jimmy: come back Janis: they're being that bad huh Jimmy: whatever you wanna call trying to dance with me, that'll do Janis: how horrific Janis: pick up your phone Janis: [calling him so they can hear being like 'we need your help to carry this' 'cos gone to make hot chocolates to cheer her] Jimmy: [a coupley af phone moment because those couples who stay on the phone til he's literally a step away from her] Janis: [nerds] Jimmy: [gives Mia the biggest mug like fuck you] Janis: [definitely put loads of baileys in and cream the whole works like drink up bitch] Jimmy: [chin chin gals] Janis: [sipping like 😏 getting cream moustaches then smooching 'em off, disgusting] Jimmy: [also they should dance cos he refused to dance with y'all] Janis: [obvs] Jimmy: [her like nah so he can be like oh please I really wanna, just to really annoy them] Janis: ['cos real also what a mental image like are you all gonna watch or are you gonna dance with each other like what's going on gals] Jimmy: [gaaaaaaaay] Janis: [just bopping sadly alone with your hot chocolate, amusement] Jimmy: [we all know Jimothy just wants to pick her up again so] Janis: [please 'fall' down onto the bed like whoops what are we like] Jimmy: [100%] Janis: [Mia's eyes boutta pop out] Jimmy: [Also Asia should 100% get a call from her man rn] Jimmy: [Jimmy trying not to cackle] Janis: [just biting your tongue so hard] Janis: 🙈 Jimmy: we need to go Janis: you don't wanna witness the downfall of your nemesis? Janis: I can always tickle you again Jimmy: You can try 💪 Janis: [does 'cos being that annoying like soz you're on the phone we're just so 😍] Jimmy: [lets it happen because he needs to lol and NO other reason NOPE] Janis: [try not to cackle lads] Jimmy: [HAS TO kiss her so he doesn't again no other reason so] Janis: [definitely not actually enjoying that, definitely doesn't have to stop it kinda abruptly 'cos will get carried away, no] Jimmy: [when you're like ? but you can't say or do anything because that audience but then 💡 you quickly trace an o and a k on her with a question mark sneakily like because I love when he does that] Janis: [just squeezing his hand like a yeah but drawing a 😒 face] Jimmy: [a genuine smile even though he should also be 😒] Janis: [I think Asia should run out to talk with her mans then come in crying so they can leave lol] Jimmy: [#mood] Janis: [ended that relationship whoops, run and lol run and lol] Jimmy: [don't be too happy tho boy you don't want her to think you actually wanna get with Asia] Janis: [she's gonna be on you harder than ever boy, oh my, like new boy guess what, god bless] Jimmy: [oh lord imagine] Janis: [at least she's not 💀👑 levels of snek, just dumb and tragic] Jimmy: [lowkey reminds him of his ex not in a 😍 way lol] Janis: [oh dear, getting to where the stairs are like 'lounge or my room?'] Jimmy: [shrug because can't answer a question] Janis: [nudges him like make a decision, boy] Jimmy: [nudges her back like no you] Janis: [looks at her non-existent watch and then pulls him up the stairs to her room] Jimmy: [off you go lads] Janis: [like cali could be home at any moment but not really #shameless] Jimmy: [you two and your flimsy excuses, love it] Janis: [is this the first time in her room?] Jimmy: [yeah because the other first time we did is when they actually hook up if memory serves so way after this] Janis: [enjoy that, boy] Jimmy: [we know his is no better and he can't judge] Janis: [at least there's shit still there from when you cared, shrugs and gestures 'round just like put some music on, do what you want] Jimmy: [👀 around like he's a nosy bitch but actually just doesn't know what to do with himself] Janis: ['you found plenty to fake do down there' 😏 but masking that you are awks too] Jimmy: [gets a pen and paper and starts doodling giving her a look like you happy now? all 😏 cos so awks] Janis: [sticks her tongue out at him, laying down and scrolling her phone 'cos we know it's popping off from #bathgate] Jimmy: [throws a paper airplane at her] Janis: ['excuse me?' sitting up, resting on her elbows like so #shook 'I'm checking we're still relevant, can I help you?'] Jimmy: [gives her a look cos they both know there's no need to check and it's all happening rn like my boo said] Janis: [mimes his head blowing up bigger and bigger then exploding, we all know she was just looking at the pictures again shh] Jimmy: [mimes a gun to his head then a dramatic fake death] Janis: [crawls over to where he is like she's gonna lick up the blood] Jimmy: [does a 🕆 with his fingers cos she such a vampire] Janis: [mimes a hiss like how dare you] Jimmy: [sets up a game of hangman on the paper and pushes it over to her] Janis: [😏 and writes down 'I?'] Jimmy: [---- -I-- - -I-- I -I-] Janis: ['E'] Jimmy: [---- -I-- - -I-- I -IE] Janis: ['D' 'cos got your number boy] Jimmy: [---- -I-- - -I-- I DIE] Janis: [lols 'L'] Jimmy: [what bit do you draw first when there isn't I've forgotten] Janis: [the pole that goes up] Janis: [pouts 'S'] Jimmy: [---S -I-- - -ISS I DIE] Janis: ['K' 'cos also got your number and a LOOK] Jimmy: [---S -I-- - KISS I DIE and blowing her a kiss IRL like we gotta keep this sassy and light] Janis: [buzzing 'cos you gonna win lol 'A'] Jimmy: [---S -I-- A KISS I DIE] Janis: ['T'] Jimmy: [T--S -IT- A KISS I DIE] Janis: [fills in the rest because now obvious 'THUS WITH A KISS I DIE' 😏 and also hanging the stickman still and making him look like him with shades and floppy hair and a leather jacket] Jimmy: [draws a stick person her crying but also a vicar and they've both got rings on and there's confetti and she's wearing a wedding veil etc cos throwback to the easter rising when she married that dude] Janis: [draws a union jack flag in the vicar's hand, then a knife in his 💘 and then draws a vial under her tears with ☠ and 'POISON' on the label] Jimmy: [😏] Janis: [adds vampire fangs to herself and two little holes on his hanged neck like excuse me thank you] Jimmy: [little lol] Janis: [lays back down 'what else do you wanna play?'] Jimmy: [lies down too LOOKING at her 'What do you wanna play?'] Janis: [stops breathing for a sec, bye but turns it into serious thinking face] Jimmy: [just staring at her, waiting but like why you gotta be so hot doing that boy] Janis: ['don't have any new games' casting her eyes over to whatever the last console she got was before she stopped giving a shit about everything 'you can talk about girls for-' invisible watch again '-five minutes, if you wanna, northern boy'] Jimmy: [talks about how much he hates Mia for a 5 minute rant lol, lying down staring up at the ceiling] Janis: [when you're so 😍 unironically thank god he's not looking] Jimmy: [nudges her when he's done like it's your go] Janis: [quick snap into a 😏 'you stole my bitch' and nudging him back then turning her eyes to the ceiling and talking about Grace instead] Jimmy: [takes his turn to talk about 💀#2 because still fuming about bathgate not that he's gonna rant about that, be careful please] Janis: [just nodding like mhmm preach then takes her turn to talk about Asia but like, try not to mention you're potentially jealous of her 'cos he might like her] Jimmy: [throws something at her like he's so offended she's slagging off his bae] Janis: ['so chivalrous!' 'cos he hit her with whatever she's now gonna hit him back with, let us assume a pillow fight for the cliche] Jimmy: [yas we need that shameless flirty MOMENT] Janis: [doing it, pinning him and tickling him like 'admit you love Asia'] Jimmy: [when you just flip reverse it 💪 so you're doing the same to her 'admit you're jealous of our true love'] Janis: [getting out a 'never!' between your lols] Jimmy: [opening and closing his mouth cos was blatantly gonna say something but then aborted mission] Janis: [reaching up and opening and closing his mouth yourself a few times like a 🐟 'catching flies, Taylor?'] Jimmy: [just sniffing her dramatically like 🤔 and giving her a look like you're not that bad] Janis: [punches his arm but vaguely affectionately lol 'how could either of us stink after that bath full of shit'] Jimmy: ['answered your own question there'] Janis: ['We smell like unicorn farts and rainbow dreams, obviously, did you not read the labels?] Jimmy: ['Too Northern'] Janis: ['Too distracted' under your breath like who said that] Jimmy: ['What?' Even though he 100% heard] Janis: ['See' and poking him in the chest like, you just proved my point there, not paying attention] Jimmy: [moves her finger down to his stomach shaking his head like he's so hungry and deprived of promised snacks that he can't possibly survive nevermind concentrate] Janis: [🙄 and poking his stomach harder, bit rude, 'come on then fatty' and wriggling out from under him, where she still is btw, gesturing like come on] Jimmy: [when you don't wanna leave this room and risk seeing either flat whites or her parents so you've got such a lil pout on 'shit host, you'] Janis: [a look like really 'lazy and all, chat shit about my rich girl work ethic ever again...' 😏 and goes to forage] Jimmy: [throws the pillow at her as she goes cos so mature] Janis: I'm taking all the good snacks now Jimmy: I'll have 'em off your 💀💀💀 body when you get 🔪🔪 Jimmy: bit of blood ain't gonna hurt nowt Janis: I've turned you Janis: not gay Janis: just vampire Janis: should've had your ear off and ended you there and then Jimmy: brb gotta send that tweet Jimmy: #notgayjustvampire Jimmy: what a read Janis: you would wanna be that couple Janis: not rawring at people with you Jimmy: I've got the fucking 💅 for it Janis: deny that you love it Jimmy: You really want me to throw my 💕 about tonight, eh? Janis: Not calling you a slag Janis: or am I Jimmy: can do Jimmy: be a misread but what ain't with you Janis: Doesn't feel like a #kinkunlocked to me Janis: and you're the one who claims he can't Jimmy: Claim I can't do loads of things but here we are Janis: Total opposite, bighead Janis: so rare you aren't bigging yourself up like the complex is so real Jimmy: you wish Jimmy: I get that it would be easier to fake this if I was more your type but 💔 Janis: You can't say I haven't faked it perfectly Janis: everyone believes it Jimmy: That weren't what I were saying Janis: What were you saying then, elaborate Jimmy: for a start that the locked door ain't the only appeal of a bathroom for your boyfriend Jimmy: 🎻 that every surface weren't mirrored Janis: 🙄 Why do you keep bringing him up Jimmy: Why don't you want me to? Janis: because I don't like thinking about him, never mind talking about him Janis: he's at a lot of parties, I'm sure you'll get a chance to see him again, like calm down Jimmy: It weren't me who wanted to 👀 that dickhead Janis: Me either, obviously Janis: well busy looking at myself, does that suit you? Jimmy: 🙄 Janis: What? Jimmy: What? Janis: What would you like me to say? That I love him? Or even fancy him? 'Cos I don't so I'm not going to just 'cos you need me to, for some reason Jimmy: Why would I need that? Janis: You tell me Jimmy: It's bollocks Janis: Then you can stop bringing him up Jimmy: I can do what I like, tah Janis: Alright, be obsessed with him Janis: I don't have to listen Jimmy: keep being a dickhead Jimmy: you obvs can't help it Janis: 🙄 Janis: good one Janis: I never said I weren't and I've done fuck all wrong Jimmy: 👍 Janis: fuck's sake Jimmy: I'm just gonna go Jimmy: They don't need to know I have Janis: Fine Jimmy: 👌 Janis: I'll get you a ride Jimmy: It's alright Janis: don't be stupid Jimmy: I said it's alright Janis: I got you out here, I can get you back too Jimmy: I can get myself back, I'm in no rush Janis: The buses have stopped coming out this way and you are miles from yours Janis: take the ride Jimmy: Leave it out Janis: Why are you being a dickhead for Jimmy: Me? Jimmy: Yeah, alright Janis: Yeah, you Janis: if you don't want the ride, then use my bed and wait 'til the AM Janis: you'll be left alone Jimmy: I don't want your bed either Janis: then take another one, this house is filled with fucking empty ones Jimmy: that's not creepy Janis: I have siblings that've fucked off Janis: that's all Janis: guest rooms are the reward for having lots of kids Jimmy: bit late for my dad to crack on there but I'll @ him any road Janis: never too late for blokes Jimmy: Northern 40s is rest of the world's 90s Janis: Still Jimmy: Still, he can't keep a bird for any length Jimmy: it's all stacking up Janis: you're gutted, clearly Janis: who doesn't want nine brothers and sisters Jimmy: Love raising his kids for him, me Jimmy: Why not do it a load more times? Got nowt else on Janis: After the 5th you can delegate Janis: your sister is definitely old enough Jimmy: Tah for the insider trading tips Janis: what are friends for Jimmy: Do you want a real or fake answer? Janis: why would you need to fake it Janis: not being wire-tapped here Jimmy: I might be wearing one 👮🚔 Janis: Her word is only law if you've not got the upper body strength or brain function to fight her off Janis: so go ahead Jimmy: You admitting I have? Janis: I'm admitting I'd know if you were working for or with Mia Janis: she's not as smart as she thinks and I'm not a fucking idiot Jimmy: And I ain't got enough upper body strength or brain function for that many jobs Jimmy: fucking hell Janis: You're exhausted just thinking about it Janis: relatable Jimmy: I'm sorry for bringing him up, alright? Janis: Alright Janis: I just don't get it Janis: like yeah it was a dick move but you don't reckon I was punished thoroughly enough or what? Jimmy: it's nowt like that Jimmy: I just Janis: Well it's alright, forget about it Jimmy: maybe I don't get it an' all Janis: Yeah Janis: I get that Jimmy: Do you? Janis: 'course Janis: much as it pains me to admit I don't know everything, like Jimmy: I won't send that tweet Janis: Cheers Jimmy: come back Janis: Okay Janis: [back with the snacks] Jimmy: [going through 'em so you don't have to look at her rn] Janis: ['Jimmy'] Jimmy: [raising his head like ?] Janis: ['I-' and stopping 'just-' and again, before settling on 'don't go and get lost, alright, I'd almost feel bad'] Jimmy: ['alright' and shoving her a controller for whatever console she has so they can play retro games and be competitive about it for a bit] Janis: [a mood] Jimmy: [as is throwing snacks into each other's mouths so simply must] Janis: [all the competitiveness] Jimmy: [speaking of I'm gonna do another hangman cos she guessed that one too fast for his liking, hold onto your hat bitch] Janis: [it was fun honey] Jimmy: [-- --- -- ---- ---- -- ---- - -------- --- -- ---] Janis: ['A'] Jimmy: [-- --- -- ---- ---- -- ---- a -------- -a- -- ---] Janis: ['Y'] Jimmy: [-- --- -y y--- ---- -- ---- a --a----y -ay -- ---] Janis: ['T'] Jimmy: [t- --- -y y--- ---- -- ---- a --a----y -ay t- ---] Janis: ['S'] Jimmy: [t- --- -y y--- s--- -s s--- a --a----y -ay t- ---] Janis: ['D'] Jimmy: [t- d-- -y y--- s-d- -s s--- a --a----y -ay t- d--] Janis: ['IE' 'cos we can sense a theme lol] Jimmy: [pout like how you gonna guess two letters bitch but we doing it] Jimmy: [t- die -y y--- -ide is s--- a -ea-e--- -ay t- die] Jimmy: [*side I can't type bye] Janis: [sings it at him] Jimmy: [when we know she's a good singer but he don't cos karaoke ain't happened yet so control your 😍 by drawing the hanged person but as 💔 Asia this time dropping a phone with a speech bubble of whatever bollocks they heard her boyfriend say] Janis: [draws him as a tadpole having a party in a pond with lady frogs and fishes] Jimmy: [lols] Janis: ['do you reckon I should feel bad about breaking them up?' shoving more snacks in her face, like] Jimmy: [when you give her such a wtf no look 'do they feel bad about wishing we would?' doesn't give her chance to answer cos obvs a rhetorical question 'there's your answer, like'] Janis: [shrugs like yeah, true 'but their love is so real' but rolls her eyes 'cos I doubt they were ever #goals] Jimmy: [shrugs back does a 💔 with his hands 'nowt I can't fix' and winks] Janis: [🙄] Jimmy: [goes to her window and opens it really wide to 🚬 leaning out dangerously far so he doesn't get any smoke in her room cos still doesn't wanna leave and see anyone] Janis: [comes to the window and looks out 'their car ain't back' like does that mean get out or] Jimmy: [gives her a look like oh no cali are coming for their 👑 by being so goals] Janis: [makes a face like don't] Jimmy: [goes to pass her the 🚬 like a peace offering but then is like oh you obvs don't want it my bad kinda takeback gesture cos what she said before about only faking it] Janis: [walks away 'cos stubborn] Jimmy: [just 🚬 and watching the 🐈s outside casually] Janis: [just back playing a solo game, pretending you ain't pouting] Jimmy: [sending her highlights of bathgate even though she's already seen them all cos shamelessly like pay attention to me] Janis: good thing we ain't in school Janis: last time they got this excited over a #scandal they put Jesy Halls in isolation for weeks Jimmy: You don't wanna be in isolation? Jimmy: fakest bollocks you've ever chatted Janis: You know they'd put you in and leave me out to get torn apart Janis: ⭐ Jimmy: what you get for being such an athlete Jimmy: and hey, might learn your name while I'm in there so it ain't all bad Janis: What you get for being so soft Janis: think of my mystique, would ya Jimmy: keep that to yourself, tah, it'll make us both look properly un-goals Janis: 🤢 Jimmy: Go on, might get to eat some snacks myself if you're struggling Janis: Fuck off Janis: I'm not encouraging you to talk about your dick so you can 🐽 Jimmy: you started it Janis: Nah Janis: why would I ever bring that up Jimmy: Why did you just? You tell me, girl Janis: 😒 Janis: you're so annoying Jimmy: You're easy to annoy Janis: I think you'll find most sane people don't wanna discuss your genitals Janis: just them downstairs Jimmy: 💔 Janis: you're buzzing Janis: be sneaking down in a few Jimmy: busted me Janis: mhmm Janis: wouldn't be a good real cheat, you Jimmy: my dad's got that covered Jimmy: I don't want 🥈 Janis: fair enough Janis: Freud's all over that statement Jimmy: he can be next for a 👻🥊 Janis: this is what comes of violent games Janis: [throws a bag of snack at him] Jimmy: [catches it like 😏] Janis: [pouts] Jimmy: 💪🏆 Janis: are you nearly done Janis: freezing here Janis: [in your short shorts] Jimmy: [wasn't done but gets done immediately cos #whipped] Janis: [gets under the covers] Jimmy: [comes over and tucks her in like a nerd] Janis: [allows this to happen like you're gonna go sleep 😊] Jimmy: [just sitting on the edge of the bed like when you tell a kid a story] Janis: ['you do this a lot, like'] Jimmy: [looks at her like what?] Janis: [looks down like tucking in] Jimmy: [shrugs like it's so casual cos she knows he's got a little brother from the pool awks] Janis: ['never stop, eh'] Jimmy: [looks at his phone cos still blowing up and back at her like so many jobs so little time] Janis: [tugs on his sleeve gently like lay down 'they'll be consoling her for hours still yet'] Jimmy: [does of course] Janis: ['you want me to go?' quiet and soft like he's asleep already 'I do have 2 cigarettes to smoke now so'] Jimmy: ['do you wanna go?' because can't answer a q but also obvs does not want that but thinks she does] Janis: [shrugs 'cos like no but do you want me to lol, so helpful] Jimmy: ['it's your bed' and what boy you're not helpful either] Janis: ['you want a tour of all the free ones?'] Jimmy: ['Which one's most worth haunting?'] Janis: [a look like that's easy but then a 🤔 face 'but you're pretty chicken so' and rolling over like night then] Jimmy: [shoves her like oi] Janis: [loling 'don't push me out of bed, how ungoals, you twat'] Jimmy: [literally rolls her back over to face him #excuse you 'answer me, dickhead'] Janis: [when that was hot so you're like literally give me a moment here so you wriggle down under the covers so he can't see you 'alright, I'll show you but I can't promise the ghost will come out' muffled by the duvet like hello] Jimmy: [lifts the covers up and peeping at her like ? and has cupped his ear like what? because one ear jokes 5ever] Janis: [coming out the bottom of the bed like can't catch me 'come on scaredy cat' and we all know what room we going to] Jimmy: [can't catch her ever but can chuck a hoodie at her because she's so cold and it might slow her down a bit] Janis: [puts it on and pretend swoons 'trying to cash in some hero points now, I see'] Jimmy: ['just don't want you to freeze to death before we get there, Jennifer, can't be arsed with throwing myself down the stairs right this second'] Janis: [pouts and grabs his face like n'awh 'but we could frame them, where's your sense of fun, honestly'] Jimmy: [pushes her off but then is like 😏 looking at her like good idea and picks her up as if he's gonna chuck her down the stairs] Janis: [playfighting like get off me boy 'as if I'd let you go 2nd'] Jimmy: [we love a playfight moment 'as if you reckon you call the shots'] Janis: [the most dramatic 'pfft!' and just rolling further towards the stairs like actually be careful please 'but you love coming first usually'] Jimmy: [does a mime locking his lips like don't tell anyone that, very ungoals, boy stop making it sexual again thank you 'depends, time and a place, you know, Jules'] Janis: [rolls her eyes but is 😳 'How can I trust you'll go through with it, besides, Romeo dies first, I fake it, you do it for real, then I do, stick to the script'] Jimmy: ['fake something for me that convincingly and I might do'] Janis: [just looking at him 'rude'] Jimmy: [a LOOK back at her] Janis: ['you can't tell me those pictures weren't convincing' 'cos we know it's still popping off] Jimmy: ['I sorted them' okay boy we gonna act like just cos you did all the camera shit she didn't do anything? Really now] Janis: ['it was my idea, and you wouldn't have any pictures on your own so'] Jimmy: [a shrug but we all know he's still looking at her, like oh jimothy what kind of challenge do you think you can lay down right here right now that'll top bathgate you simply can't] Janis: ['so, it's your turn to think of something, actually' but getting up and going to Edie's room, which is thankfully not a creepy shrine moment] Jimmy: [Follows her obvs] Janis: [it's probably less of a guest room more of a quiet chill room for if they wanted to go think about her, that seems like some hippie shit, so obviously no one goes in here though 'cos no thanks lol, gestures like 'this is the ghost room, can you feel it?' so sarky] Jimmy: [just making himself comfy in there because he don't know] Janis: [when this was a bad idea but you have to front it out and sit down like] Jimmy: [when you're so busy trying to think of something to top bathgate that you're oblivious] Janis: [at least you can lean in to pressuring him just making tick tock noises with your tongue like] Jimmy: [he'd do such a fake OMG STOP like when she was being tickled in front of the fans] Janis: [just gets closer to the ear she didn't bite so it's louder] Jimmy: [when you wanna lol but you don't wanna give her the satisfaction so you gotta bite your lip like it's okay I'm just thinking here, total accident that he looks really hot doing it soz Janis] Janis: [just shamelessly looking 'not meant to eat yourself, such a rookie' 😏] Jimmy: ['if anyone can recognise owt like that, it'd be you'] Janis: ['duh, I turned you, I'm like your mistress' raises brows 'or daddy, if you prefer'] Jimmy: ['Don't be telling my missus I've got one of them, tah, right rookie mistake that'd be, she already reckons me and her are well fake' does a what can you do, women eh, kinda gesture]] Janis: ['I don't reckon she knows you've got a name' shakes head like imagine that 'enjoy being on the other side of that one, babe'] Jimmy: [😏 'Sounds alright to me, that'] Janis: [🙄 but not that mad ever] Jimmy: [zips up the hoodie for her like how you possibly be annoyed at such a 😇] Janis: [pulls is back down justto be that bitch but then you look like you wanna be undressed in front of him so you pull it up and down a few times like a bit] Jimmy: ['you break it, you've bought it, rich girl' but clearly amused] Janis: [shrugs 'meant to let me keep it anyway'] Jimmy: ['You want me to freeze to death, that's the big plan, eh?' cos she'd have the school trip one already] Janis: [nods but is lol 'how else will everyone know you love me?'] Jimmy: [100% has to give her a new lovebite because I can't not if you're gonna say stuff like that Janis] Janis: [just like 'of course' but with feeling 'cos always covered low-key and we know it 'what about you, what do you want?'] Jimmy: [when you give her another one because that's what you want and we all know it but then you have to look at her like ? as if you weren't listening] Janis: [just gripping the sofa you're on so tightly so you can otherwise pretend this is so casual, tracing your finger 'round and 'round his ear lobe like 'yours healed ages ago...'] Jimmy: ['Have another go then' yeah this is so casual bye] Janis: [does, with vigour lol] Jimmy: [his turn to abuse the sofa] Janis: [admiring your handiwork 'bruises don't lie' and giving him back the hoodie like there you go] Jimmy: ['No need for you to lie either' cos she was cold and putting it back on her because I love a hair lift moment especially because he won't jump back 6 ft like when he did that exact thing on school trip #progress] Janis: [the state of the hair after all this we can only assume, going to put it up or something like ugh 'I don't lie, ever' fully aware of the irony ;cos of their fake dating deal like 😇] Jimmy: [irl 👌 so sarky] Janis: [lols] Jimmy: [when she's so cute and you can see so much of her neck now she's moved her hair and you're just like don't 😳] Janis: [motioning for him to pass her a cigarette and getting up 'ghost ain't coming, soz mate' 'cos definitely needs it now] Jimmy: [puts one behind her ear cos can't be tamed about touching her needlessly ever] Janis: ['you want my second one? as I don't smoke' as she's going to go downstairs] Jimmy: [takes one for himself as an unspoken yes] Janis: [kinda wanna make cali come back to be evil[ Jimmy: [do it gal] Janis: [they'll just say hi but she'll be fuming lol] Jimmy: [and he'll be wanting to run away] Janis: [at least its dark so you can sit here bright red, angrily smoking in silence] Jimmy: I'll fuck off home, say the word Janis: You can Janis: they won't wake you up for breakfast and awkward small talk though Jimmy: That where you get being a shit host from? Janis: Funny Jimmy: Could at least fake 😂 for me then, babe Janis: [😑 at him] Janis: convincing, yeah? Jimmy: 🥇 Janis: don't give me pity medals Jimmy: Alright Jimmy: have another go Janis: [a look that's half a LOOK and half don't] Janis: lost track of time, didn't reckon they'd be back 🤷 Janis: they couldn't see you so it don't count as meeting, right Jimmy: no 👻 about tonight Janis: yeah Janis: go if you have to Jimmy: I'll go if you want me to Janis: [say Cali's room also faces the front, nodding to the windows] Janis: go in once their light is on Jimmy: 👍 Janis: hope one of 'em has been sick or something Janis: doubt it'll be as pretty and pink coming back up Jimmy: [when we know that'll make him feel sick but not gonna see the greenish tint in the dark so stay 💪 boy and throw a stone at Grace's window to see if there's any life in there] Janis: 🙄 oh great Janis: give 'em ideas, lover boy Jimmy: I can't help missing her, alright? Jimmy: [dramatically fake pining] Janis: Disgusting Janis: [but a small half-smile Jimmy: [nudges her gently like hey that's at least a small 🏆] Janis: [nudes him like piss off but it's as gently] Jimmy: [just staying leaned into her a lil bit like be comforted] Janis: Proper soft, you Janis: could make yourself useful and find some fuel so I can set the place on fire whilst all my worst enemies are inside Jimmy: can't stop lying, you Jimmy: I'm well hard, me Jimmy: [plucks at the hoodie she's wearing like this is so cheap it'll burn right up] Janis: [looks down like hmm 🤔] Janis: you give to take away, only just got this hoodie back Jimmy: [nods at a passing cat like there you go instead then] Janis: [snorts] Jimmy: I were thinking Jimmy: it's not about arson but Janis: disappointing Janis: but go on Jimmy: could've waited til you'd heard it to 💔 me Janis: tell me Jimmy: I dunno, just Jimmy: might not be the massive-stly shit idea to try and be mates Jimmy: for as long as I'm here and this Janis: Wait, are you friendzoning me, Taylor? 😂 Janis: [actually 😂] Jimmy: [is pouting actually] Janis: [pats his shoulder like my bad] Janis: Sorry, that's just not what I expected you to say Jimmy: I've changed my mind now, dickhead Janis: Probably for the best Janis: if you can't handle that, like Janis: insert that quote here Jimmy: weren't likely to handle nowt for long but you're alright Janis: I don't need mates and you don't want me as one Jimmy: 👌 Janis: Let's go in then Jimmy: [does] Janis: [stops off in the kitchen to get more drink first] Jimmy: [does not follow her for the first time ever] Janis: don't you want a nightcap? Jimmy: Is it a) pretty or b) pink? Janis: That's long gone, boy Jimmy: So what's the point, like? Janis: You know I've seen you drink drinks that aren't flat white approved before, yeah? Jimmy: Don't sound like me or very #goals to me Janis: I'll leave the bottle here then 👌 Jimmy: 👍 Janis: Don't be in a mood Jimmy: Or what? You'll be in a bigger one? Janis: I'm not in a mood Jimmy: nowt to worry about then, is there? Janis: Why are you in one? Jimmy: What are you on about? Jimmy: Stick to the script, Jodie, we've got no rules but that Janis: Suit yourself Jimmy: tah for stating the obvious Jimmy: it were like Asia was here for a bit Janis: How lovely for you Jimmy: 💕 Janis: Fuck sake Janis: you can't give me any time to react, no Jimmy: you can have loads, we're off the clock Janis: Bullshit Jimmy: nah Janis: Yeah Janis: I said I didn't know you were gonna say that Jimmy: like you said an' all, bad idea Jimmy: we can leave it out Janis: right, cheers Jimmy: you're right, take the 🏆 Janis: Leave it out, like you said Jimmy: lasses first Janis: Whatever Janis: this is ridiculous Jimmy: nowt about any of this has ever been owt else Janis: No need to tell me Jimmy: you're trying to tell me Janis: I'm trying to tell you fuck all Janis: what's the point Jimmy: 🙀 Janis: I'm not the one that's scared Janis: or taking back what I said Jimmy: Piss off Jimmy: I'm taking it back 'cause you're a knobhead Janis: You knew that before you said it Jimmy: you weren't for a second so I said it Janis: What second? Jimmy: What does that matter? Janis: Maybe I would like to try again, or maybe I wanna know what to avoid Janis: take your pick Jimmy: Maybe you're right again and I'm soft Jimmy: take your 🏆 Janis: Bollocks, that's giving yourself one for nothing Janis: like you've been so nice to me even though I don't deserve it, fuck off Jimmy: you fuck off Jimmy: I'm tired Janis: go sleep then Jimmy: Alright Janis: Night Jimmy: 👍 Janis: [just downstairs, getting drunk] Jimmy: [I'm so evil because I'm like ooh the potential for her to come up here when she is] Janis: ['forget' he's in your room like bonjour] Jimmy: [exactly though] Janis: [why not baby] Jimmy: [him just half asleep like mother is that you returning from the great unknown, oh no wait I'm not at home remotely] Janis: [ah the confusion, poor boy] Jimmy: [when you're relieved that it's her for the hottest of secs because where you been girl but also not because awkward] Janis: [when he's on the side of the bed you sleep on so you're trying to get in like 'budge up'] Jimmy: [so offended before he realises how drunk she is but then also like shhh when he does realise as if anyone's gonna hear this jimothy calm down] Janis: [just pushing him but much less efficiently than normal 'least you've warmed it for me'] Jimmy: [just so 😒 like stop pushing me but not saying anything] Janis: ['are you still cross?'] Jimmy: ['I've got nowt to be mardy about' sighing at himself like ffs boy as he's scooting over #foreverwhipped] Janis: [chuckling to herself, quietly, thank god, as she settles in 'well I'm not happy with you'] Jimmy: ['And I've done nowt for you to be mardy at me about' okay Jimothy if you say so] Janis: ['Neither of those is true, you know' fluffing up the pillow] Jimmy: ['start a # if you feel so strongly' cos v mature] Janis: ['you're stupid, stupid as I am' poking him] Jimmy: [gives her a look like don't, which he means on many levels rn] Janis: [pulls a face 'cos so mature too right now 'we could be friends, I'm just saying'] Jimmy: ['You reckon?' because clearly they can't] Janis: ['duh'] Jimmy: [shakes his head] Janis: [nods, way too hard, 'now you made me dizzy as well'] Jimmy: [goes to sarcastically pat her on the head like there there but strokes her hair instead because so soft always] Janis: [pouts but genuinely] Jimmy: ['what?' but in the softest way] Janis: ['I want you to be my friend but I weren't lying when I said you wouldn't want me to be your friend but I still wish you would'] Jimmy: [needlessly moves her hair out of her face like look at me 'it ain't up to you what I want, I said I wanted to try 'cause I did- I do'] Janis: [Hides under the covers again like sorry can't look at you 'okay' really quietly] Jimmy: [reaches under the covers so he can trace a o and k with his fingertip on her hand/arm whichever is reachable] Janis: [comes back up 'go sleep now' and closes his eyes with her fingers] Jimmy: [such an amused little noise because he was asleep before she came in, excuse you] Janis: ['shh shh'] Jimmy: [puts a finger on her lips like you shh] Janis: [frowny face 'stop it'] Jimmy: [holds his hands up dramatically like alright, calm down and gets comfy like look I'mma sleep] Janis: [smug face like that's right and does the same 'least it's not a single this time'] Jimmy: ['gutted, me' said really sarcastically but we know you are boy] Janis: [gets all up in his grill like there you go then] Jimmy: ['funny'] Janis: ['that's what you get for being rude'] Jimmy: ['you woke me, pisshead' but affectionately not actually annoyed at all] Janis: [waves hand like psh 'you were rude before then'] Jimmy: ['Alright, shut up' like you really care about going back to sleep rn okay Jimothy] Janis: [gestures like see 'gotta be nice to me' but rolling over like okay, you can sleep] Jimmy: [OTT dramatic sigh so she's knows it's fake] Janis: ['bet you can't say one nice thing about me'] Jimmy: ['you're not as shit at kissing as you were on the trip' because I re-read that and he kept acting like she was so bad like OKAY liar] Janis: [pushes him 'what kind of compliment is that?!'] Jimmy: [shrugs like you don't know exactly what you're doing boy] Janis: ['alright then the only thing I have to say about you is you're slightly less shit at being nice but potentially worse at lying so' blows raspberry] Jimmy: ['bollocks, you've got loads to say tonight, lightweight' but he's loling] Janis: ['yes well I've been very bored'] Jimmy: [does like the awh cheek squish she does to him always 'poor baby'] Janis: ['you know I'll bite you' squirming out of reach 'why didn't you come down?'] Jimmy: [does the thing where you check an animals teeth like he wants to see her vampire fangs, stop touching her mouth please! 'Why didn't you come up?'] Janis: [wipes her mouth like a child like gross 'I was getting drunk' shrugs like hello] Jimmy: [shrugs back 'I were sleeping' but like not for ages boy we know it] Janis: ['marding' in a him impersonation Jimmy: [pushes her cos oi what a read] Janis: [mhmm noise 'me too, but I had company'] Jimmy: ['like I said, shit host'] Janis: ['what do you mean?' resting on her elbow 'you keep saying that'] Jimmy: [just giving her a look like pretty self explanatory] Janis: [a look like obvs not? 'I've fed you, entertained you, what more do you want, fanfare?'] Jimmy: ['that lot did the did the bulk of the entertaining, girl, weren't you' more lies and more slander] Janis: ['not my fault you've got shit taste then' is pouting] Jimmy: ['@whateverAsia'ssocials are, might start her off bawling again, what could be more goals?'] Jimmy: [but obvs he's said them I just cba to think of one lol] Janis: ['kink unlocked you horrible boy' but lols] Jimmy: [I've known for ages that were one of yours'] Janis: ['making girls cry?' fake ponders 'hmm, don't tell anyone'] Jimmy: ['not just lasses' does the broken heart hand thing again] Janis: ['you aren't that soft' nudges him 'unfortunately'] Jimmy: [nudges her back 'bit of editing and you can tweet that'] Janis: [passes her phone 'you'll have to do it for me, I'm not that drunk and sad'] Jimmy: [tweets something hilarious instead cos that bitch and makes a big show of not giving her the phone back cos drunk] Janis: ['what did you do, tweet my nudes?' tryna grab her phone like 'scuse me] Jimmy: ['Mr Lucas wishes' having a playfight over this phone so casually] Janis: ['who do you think I'm taking them for' then an ew face 'cos truly] Jimmy: ['Save something for the wedding night' cos in the school trip convo that was also a running theme of her marrying him lol] Janis: ['tweet that and we lose all credibility'] Jimmy: [shakes his head 'I could make owt sound goals, even that bollocks'] Janis: ['yeah but bit off message' gestures at the lovebites 'stick to the script, no improv'] Jimmy: [touches the newest ones he gave her, boy stop 'Alright'] Janis: [shakes her head 'don't' and pulls up the covers between them] Jimmy: [when you're actually 💔 now, so just getting back in a sleeping position] Janis: ['it's just 'cos I wanna and it's not fair and' let this be vaguely incoherent so you don't fully out yourself immediately] Jimmy: [just pretending he's actually gone deaf like we don't need to do this] Janis: [sad sound but turning over like you actually believe he's asleep] Jimmy: [just moving about like you're trying to get more comfy but getting closer to her so it's like the in bed version of when he was leaning on her earlier] Janis: [just really quiet and still for a long time, sighs 'night, Jimmy'] Jimmy: [we know he ain't gonna answer even though he all also know you aren't asleep sir] Janis: [AM skip or?] Jimmy: [I think we should say he leaves like super early cos got so real there] Janis: [okay gurl]

[cockyroaches]

My ex has already put up some weird stuff and like good for him in some spots but. Some of these are specific about me, I feel? Or our last conversation? And it's making me go nuts?

Please skip this if you want. It's me disproving a lot of stuff he's put out "about me" and saying I did stuff I absolutely fucking didn't.

Keep in mind this is from a sideblog of his which I was still following and ended up seeing the post in my dash, I didn't purposefully click his blog to see anything about me or our breakup. This is something else

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3 is something.

4 is also really wack because it was something that may have arose from what we talked about but sjsksmsksm I never tried to fix him. All I wanted to do was help him out of situations that kept him in pain and I might've been too desperate to push an ideal into him, it's hard for me to see when I've broken limits unless I'm told so

5 and 6 are really out of the fucking ordinary like wow I didn't know that's how he felt about this at all lmao

7 is. Well

I was in a very nasty relationship in july/August 2017. When I mentioned this person from my life last night while we were breaking up, I meant that it reminded me of a bad patch in my life that I hadn't mentioned before.

I don't remember mentioning any other ex I've had or comparing him to them? Like even the most recent ones, the ones I'm closes to, which really makes me feel like this is what he's talking about?

Now 8. 8 really. Really reminds me of said fucking ex and I'm so fucking scared.

Because I told him I'm very talkative and very energetic a bunch of fucking times and he never saw it as a problem

I talk. I talk a lot because I have lots and lots to say! I have a bunch of feelings I need to get written down and I never do so to make people shut up. That's literally a) what my dad does to me (a silencing tactic) and b) what my ex said I did.

My ex? My ex from 2017? He complained about me talking while he was typing and that I was annoying and too talkative. Too much.

I'm either too much or too little and I felt safe sharing stuff with this last person and then he just fuckinfnskdn

Like, okay? I take a sentence and I make a load of stuff in my head. Sometimes I hit the nail on the head and sometimes I'm wrong. That's part of life! But it's genuinely not my fault if I mistake anyone's feelings for something I couldn't read.

I'm autistic and I'm trying to read plain words in a screen without any inflexion? It's very hard to see how people feel in a ldr unless I'm told. I said this to him over and over again. And then he just went off with "talking over him". He even wrote his second to last message to me like this

9 and 10 are fucking bizarre!

In no way, shape or form have I not taken his feelings into account. I literally asked him to tell me about his feelings so many damn times in a row I lost count. I just can't take something into account when I don't fucking know about them.

Also I asked a friend of his who contacted me if this post was abt me, and they said probably because this is what he said about the relationship

I can explain why he thinks I shit talked his friends but I. Literally didn't do that. But I'm so tired of this SHIT and don't need to be explaining my existence over and over to people who seem to need to want to put flaws in me to account me as guilty and evil for a break up. I just needed to assert myself about this.

Because if someone's gonna vaguepost about me and imply I'm something I'm not, this personally and this randomly, Im not letting it happen. If you guys are just gonna say I should be nice and kind, I'm not. I'm standing my ground and I'm not gonna be soft about it

If someone needs like, explanations. Ask me on the DMs, but I can't be certain about how long it'll take me to answer. It's a lot in my mind.

#vent #personal #ask 2 tag