#he gets fucked every single time. I cannot.

[vaguely-concerned]

I am so mad about how desperately into pan I am. he was specifically made to fuck me up. they dangled him in front of me like 'hey would you like to see a sad clown trickster with emotional intimacy issues and a heart of, if not gold, then some mysterious alloy with qualities not at all unlike those of gold at the end of the day?' and I went 'boy would I!' and now I'm lost. I'm on my knees he's like if reyes vidal was actually redeemable instead of just a 'release my man he did do all of that but I don't care' situation

#the way he seems so genuinely *delighted* by grace finding her voice and wants her to be able to make her music again #even when she's not the muse anymore............ what the fuck that is the sweetest thing I've ever heard in my LIFE dude #low-key grace's biggest fan musically at least fhsajkd #stray gods #stray gods pan #(this is not a slam on reyes btw the fact that he's unconscionable is part of the appeal in that specific case lol) #I went into the game mostly blind and from what I had seen I fully intended to romance freddie #and then... this bitch shows up for literally one song and I have to restart the whole thing before I even get to challenging a queen #because I now desire the goat guy carnally and I want to duet with him for the rest of forever thank u #also I don't think I can ever not romance him now seeing the contrast between what he gets up to in the endings #what do you MEAN if you don't romance him he just goes off and no one knows where he is. he's still just so alone??? no not on my watch #(if freddie is dead ( :( ) and you romance him there's an *adorable* part in the epilogue where he tells you hekate has him running around #getting lost relics back in a series of distinctly indiana jones-esque misadventures and it sounds like he's having the time of his life #if this is what it takes for him to actually talk to his family without anyone being complete dicks about it I must solemnly accept #the terrible burden of kissing him on every single run through of this game. it cannot be helped it's out of my hands now)

[suolainensilakka]

Had a stressful day and then spent the rest of the evening making a compilation of Terra eye closeups to cope. Did not even remotely help with making me feel more normal but at least now I have much more extensive and obvious comparisons of his ffucking enormous prettyboy disney princess lashes oh my god what is his ISSUE

#saltfish speaks #kingdom hearts #kh #kh terra #kh bbs #twirls hair. babygirl we'll get you some brown contacts dont worry #95% of these are from bbs bc i think almost every character's model looks significantly better in the classic style but also #i couldnt not include an image from that one scene in kh3 his expression there fucking destroys me every single time #the tangible grief and gratitude and relief. aaaaaahhhh (dats me yelling) #also if youre wondering why the quality on many of these is so ass its bc i zoomed in on a bunch of screnshots #and scrubbed through youtube cutscenes to grab some more later. so the jpeg artifacts ate a lot of them. tragic #*SCREENSHOTS im not retyping all of that god bless #also im not tagging The Nort bc hes not the focus here even though i could honestly make a whole new post analyzing his catchlights alone #maybe later. heart emoji #scopophobia #CANNOT believe i forgot to tag that initially i am so sorry

[lorephobic]

“Lovely. Smells good. It smells like Jacob. Weirdly. Nah, it smells good.” Barry on the red carpet last night. My love/hate relationship with the interviewers who keep asking him these type of questions is so complex like we get it and you need to stop right this second bur also PLEASE KEEP GOING 😩🙏

was literally talking with my work bestie today about how much i love hearing barry talk about jacob but if it’s a red carpet interview and u get the chance to ask him any one question in the world and u decide to make that moment about jacob??? sorry but u deserve to be shot.

ask jacob about jacob. this is barrys moment and barrys night. if ur not going to ask him an interesting question about HIM then go bother literally any other celebrity.

also if ur going to ask him about jacob at least be serious. this bathwater candle shit “describe jacob in three words” “what was it like when u first met him”, its all SO TIRED!!!!! NOBODY IS INVESTED IN THEIR LOVE STORY MORE THAN ME!!!!! but i would not be caught DEAD asking barry keoghan what the jacob bath water candles, that he DID NOT BUY BECAUSE HE IS NORMAL, SMELL LIKE!!!! WHEN WILL U PEOPLE LEARN WHAT A BIT IS.

#asks #u might as well ask barry what he thinks about timothee almost getting casted as oliver #because clearly u ppl do not understand jokes and cannot be normal and original #i love jacob SO MUCH!!!! i love that barry mentions him #and i love that he comes up with new wonderful things to say about him every single time he comes up #and i KNOW that theyr just doing it so they can get their tiktok clip #but it is so fucking. bleak. that this is what film journalism is becoming ykwim. #ur movie isnt even ur movie anymore #ur movie is actually about whoever the biggest star in ur movie is #and all of the press for YOUR movie is going to revolve around that person and ur relationship with that person #and its so easy to talk on and on about them when u love them but holy fuck! when do u get YOUR moment??? #is it at the awards show that ur costar didnt even bother showing up for? apparently not!!! #and if u ignore him it’s wrong and there’s drama but if u mention him ur feeding into it and it’s worse! #there is literally no winning!!! #congratulations barry #in every journalists eyes u are seemingly the most beautiful doormat that jacob has ever walked over #what was it like? what is it still like? can u describe him again? #committed to what? #to this? to this limbo that you both exist in? #congrats on the movie btw #LOVED it

[kruxton]

there r rarely any astro originals w actual good writing and gamers mangkuk is a prime example

(the tags got.... Long. feel free to not read)

#HORRIBLE SHOW #if any msians see this just DONT #its about this group of friends tryna become pro gamers #but the script is making me want to throw up #the plot is so stupid #and these characters r so fucking annoying #need astro to stop with their slap stick comedy right NOW!!!!!!! #projek high council happened and they though they could just put amir ahnaf in anhthinf and its gonna be a success #FUCK OFF #his acting here cannot beat him in projek high council coz here he just looks dumb #and dont get me fucking started on the ONE female character in the show #GGGGGGAAAAAHHHH #why is it that every single fucking malay show theyjust HAVE to have the female character relive her trauma again #and every single fucking time its r@pe #EVEN WHEN THERES???? ABSOLUTELY NO POINT TO HAVE JT IN THE STORY?????? #EVERY SINGLE FUCKING TIME #ok in their defense a lot of them are actual sad dramas or romance shows so i can see how the backstory ties in #but this doesnt make any FUCKING sense #theyre trying to be professional gamers #wheres the relation #u want each of the members to have a struggle theyre facing for drama sure #the guys have relatively normal issues #one has to get money bc him and his mum got evicted #another's got social anxiety so its hard for him to compete #another one has a (queer for comedic effect 🙄) older brother thats raising him alone bc their parents died #and despite his brother trying to persuade him to go to uni and get a good life so he doesnt end up like him #hes too fuckimg stubborn and wants to be. a professional gamer. fucking idiot #but like sure!!! those r valid ig #BUT WHAT DOES THW GIRL GEY????? #JFJDJDHJSJDK ITS NOT FUCKING FAIR

[violetvulpini]

oh hey wow there are more than 10 Bishop fans out there. More 4 u

bonus:

#agent bishop #tmnt 2003 #teenage mutant ninja turtles #president bishop #help girl I can't stop drawing him #the bottom one is a design based on an unreleased FF Bishop action figure #(I found out there's a 2006 Bishop figure out there and I cannot afford to get it but I NEED IT) #In the same episode we meet him General Blank just starts monologuing at him unprompted and it cracks me up every time #Bishop is just standing there like. I didn't ask. stop talking. #headcanon that the general does this every single time they discuss their deal. Half the conversation is him making an evil speech #and Bishop is drawing on every ounce of experience dealing with wealthy politicians he doesn't like #to get through this fucking meeting #he already knows everything Blank is telling him PLEASE shut up

[lesbiansanemi]

Me: maybe 8 days off will fix me, maybe going back to work won’t be so bad. It’s fine. It’s fine. It’s alright

Also me: *is at work for less than two hours and already Wants to Die* Ah. Great.

#this morning already frustrated me #because so much shit was done wrong or wasn’t done at all while I was gone #because I basically manage the department even though that’s NOT MY JOB #so ofc I come back and everything is on fire and everyone is one omg you HAVE to fix this we just couldn’t do it/figure it out 🥺 #when it’s something that’s so simple they just didn’t wanna do it well or right #but also #the stupid fucking gm was like ‘hey I need to talk to you. it’s about your disability accommodation’ #and I. a fool. got really excited like omg!! are they finally going to approve it!!! #no. no. he basically told me to get fucked and it wasn’t going to happen #he said I could WEAR A FAN????? AROUND MY NECK???? and use that for white noise but that was it???? #what???? the FUCK????? #number one I cannot express how much worse a fucking FAN going in my ears all day long would just make my sensory overload 10 times worse #but also how is that not MORE of a distraction and ‘unprofessional’ than just letting me wear my fucking headphones #I feel like crying. I just want to not leave work with a developing migraine every day because of sensory reasons #and a part of me is like suck it up you’ve been dealing with this for a year it’s not actually a big deal #at least you CAN work and it’s not so bad that you can’t that’s a privilege #and like… yeah…. but I literally feel so drained and miserable every single day #and this stupid job makes me want to kms #but I can’t quit cuz the pay is too good #and it’s just so frustrating because they’re like ‘we’re such a good and diverse company we treat our employees so well’ #and the general public thinks it’s a GREAT company #so I just constantly here about how great and awesome and inclusive they are #but they won’t even let me have the accommodation of wearing fucking headphones #something every other job has let me do…. #and it makes me so mad on behalf of every other person who probably got told no over disability accommodations for even more important and I #intensive things #and I just. yeah. I kinda wanna cry #but as always I cannot cry because I’m so emotionally stunted that all I can ACTUALLY feel are pissed off and frustrated #anyways. I need to break something #kaz rambles

[infizero]

currently having a hamilton moment .

#relistened to the full soundtrack. rewatched the proshot (not on D+ dw). im ill #yes its problematic dw I KNOW I KNOW. but it is my problematic fav and i will not lie to you and say i dont love this shit to my core #this shit makes me fucking batshit insane it is srsly a fucking masterpiece #dont get me started or i will talk about it for 5 trillion years. the fucking DETAILS MAN. IN EVERYTHING #THE MOTIFS IN THE MUSIC. THE VISUALS AND CHOREOGRAPHY AND BLOCKING. THE STORYTELLING #i cannot name a single other piece of media that is SO fucking cohesive in how everything relates to everything and everything #always comes back but changes in little ways and its all so circular and. GAHHHHHHHHHH im seriously goingto lose it #i feel like i notice something new every time its crazy. how did i never realize the emphasis on ''time'' when the full cast sings it in #the very beginning lined up directly parallels how they put emphasis on ''time'' in who lives who dies who tells your story #and dont get me fucking started on burr. oh my god. i could talk for YEARSSSSSS about his character and how well written he is and how #he and hamilton parallel each other and how their duel looms over the entire musical like its an unescapable prophecy. #''we keep meeting'' EVERYONE DIE RIGHT NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #anyways. sorry. i need to be put down. bye #serena.txt #also i can still remember the exact time phillip's heart stops in stay alive reprise despite it having been like 2 years #<- what does this say about society.

[butchdykekondraki]

honestly wild i managed to even have someone as nice as my partner love me in the first place . wild

#[jay] #[duckie posting] #not because im like. unlovable. #but in the sense that like. i AM hard to love. #thats not something i can really deny. #i have npd and bpd. im not someone whos easy to love or care for. #and somehow by some fucking chance i have managed to fall head over fucking heel for someone who loves me like its breathing #and its?? so natural?? and so sweet?? #and shes so kind??? #i mean seriously i have been through the fucking ringer and she has seen it. #they're well fucking aware of how i am. dice *knows* how i can get. he's seen me in the fucking trenches of life #and every single time she's just. right there waiting. every single time. #there have literally been times where i was just. on the fucking brink of life. just so so fucking close to the edge. #and every time my first thought has been ''but i would miss duckie'' #and somehow by some fucking miracle that has worked every time. #and yeah. i DO miss duckie. #every waking fucking second of my life that i cannot be with him i miss him #but its not like. a BAD feeling of missing her. its a good feeling. its a feeling of being loved whole yknow?? #anyway. thanks for coming to my ted talk i love my boyfriend

[orchideius]

genuinely, when will it end??? I am so tired of being here and I am not sure how much longer I can push myself to keep going. i’m exhausted.

#it’s 4am and I am feeling the Deep Darkies #I literally passed out at 9pm from mental exhaustion & also bc I wanted to start to get up early to start a morning routine #so I actually got a ton of sleep but the second I woke up I felt like I wanted to cry and now I feel so depressed out of no where #like girl WHYYYY #genuinely I am so debilitatingly depressed I have suicidal thoughts every single day #and I feel like ive tried everything to help myself like ive been to therapy ive been on and off meds for over a decade at this point #im starting to eat better and sleep more #like what the duck else do I do? #I genuinely feel like my brain is broken #I just want to cry and lay in bed every single day #like I cannot articulate the profound sadness into words but it’s. so bad #and it takes literally all my brain power to do one assignment a day for class like none of this is sustainable #and I just feel so much shame over it bc whenever I tell my mom she gets mad like it effects her or something and the few times ive made th #mistake of trying to confide in my dad he gave me the whole pull yourself up by the bootstraps talk so never again lol #my entire family has made me feel so much shame over it and none of my friends here even bother to ask how I feel and don’t make me feel #comfortable enough to talk to bc i’m always the fucking therapist friend helping everyone else #hence why I always vent on here lol I have no one to talk to #I just really don’t know what to do at this point like I feel like I need inpatient therapy at this point but that’s expensive and I don’t #want to tell my job why i’d need extended time off bc that would be so embarrassing and plus now i’m in school #so like what do I do #im tired of feeling like this I know this isn’t how life is supposed to be but it’s also all ive ever known #and what’s the point of living if i’m going to feel like this everyday? I don’t know how much longer I can take it #personal

[jlf23tumble]

Hi Jen, I'm phoning in on the hot take hotline and nosily asking what your crack and your real theories are. Hope you have a great day. One of these days I hope to get a vintage toilet ad as a response to message b/c I love your #bathroomcontent but I don't want to send a garbage ask just to get one so here is my dilemma!

#i'll give you a bathroom any damned time! #and since you asked nicely #share some hot takes! #so my crack theory is that louis is as tired of his fucked up fanbase as i am #and he said u know what? #let's just mention freddie in every single interview i do here #even if he isn't brought up i'll mention his fave food #his bedtime #people have said all this shit about me being a shit dad #HERE YOU GO #and if it makes blogs like [redacted] and [redacted] and [redacted] pick up sticks and leave (bigger than me shout out!) #because it makes them so 'tired' #and 'exhausted'....they're just 'done'....THEN GOOD #you're welcome to the rest of fans who for some christ knows why can't quit or unfollow them #they'll go away for a while and said fans will know some peace #thank u for your service king! #(related: i still cannot for the LIFE OF ME get why people get so worked up about babygate when a) this kid is 6 #and b) it makes not one single BIT OF DIFFERENCE it doesn't hurt louis at all in fact it helps him so why the weirdos about it??) #anyway #my non-crack theory is just what i said #if you're in the closet and need to protect said closet...being a dad is useful #and if he's with harry or not those closets are tied together #danger to harry's closet in various forms (post-venice pre-mp) means amp it up on louis's #(i haven't heard the album in full but i'm predicting that plays a role too) #but even if not even if at the end of the day louis is a dad and is wearing his dad hat i love that he's just yeah whatever about it #sure wish his fanbase could be too #come chat with me directly for even MORE stupid hot takes on this stupid topic lmao i could go on and on #but also not really because it's the dumbest thing in the WORLD to be upset about as a fan #i truly wish someone could come and explain it to me so i could exercise some more bathroom shots

[robyn-goodfellowe]

#fun fact! this song is in the playlist of quite literally anything ive ever written including like 4 different twtt playlists #despite this i cannot associate it with ANYTHING ive ever made its the only low roar song i cant do it with #after The Incident (iykyk) there was a brief time where i was like completely isolated from everyone and i spent all of my time reading bc #i literally could not handle anything else without losing my mind and bursting into hysterics #and i was reading one step too far by lisa gardener #and it was at the part where the guy just snapped and started chasing frankie and everyone that was still alive #and i just had this song on loop bc it fit the mood so well #god #i cant stop thinking of when he fucking gets shot and he starts talking about his husband like it still makes me tear up i really thought h #he would make it #i really didnt think they would kill off EVERY SINGLE FUCKING CHARACTER I LIKED IN THE ENTIRE FUCKASS BOOK #and after reading that shit i still go hiking by myself in places where nobody could find me if i died. clearly i do not pay attention to #cautionary tales. #anyways yeah really good book you should read it. you will be hysterically sobbing btw #listen to my music boy #Spotify

[samwisefamgee]

finally got a second heater and it doesn’t work 🙃

#it’s fine it’s just below 50 degrees inside #not like that wasn’t most of last winter anyway but #man I was hoping to not have to deal with this #and this is like the fourth time in two weeks I thought it was done. FULLY taken care of #just to have circumstance or SOMEONE I KNOW fuck me over. fuck ME over!!!! I’M ALREADY FUCKED OVER!!!! 24 fucking 7!!!! fuck someone else! #I’m ace anyway 😡 #I’m just so exhausted it’s like Murphys’ law has seeped into every single aspect of my life from personal private or social to familial #like it’s just all been so bad lately #but despite all the many ways my life has been pretty literally crumbling away or apart #right now the worst thing was expecting #again #to be able to get out of bed not shivering or walk in from outside and be comfortable #and having it wrenched away at the last second. again. rough stuff bro #‘Sam get a job’ my companion in christ I live in a rotting box and every time I try to make it better something else get so much worse #I cannot get a job if I’m just barely surviving but thanks #and MAYBE if I didn’t have to move out so I wouldn’t kms I may have a job 🤷 so maaaybe don’t tell me to get once since I’m here cause of YOU #it’s fine I’m fine with it #I’m not vagueing it’s not personal I’m fine #😒😞 #all I’m saying is if 13 year old Sam could see what 23 year old Sam looks like and lives like he def woulda just killer himself #like it was bad then and I thought I’d be good now but MAN #MAN COULD THAT NOT HAVE BEEN MORE WRONG BUD. pretty much been a straight downward slope since #holdin out wasn’t worth it so far man. maybe we’ll get lucky with a few more years of agony and suffering tho 🤷 #killer himself ffs good thing this is a shitty cringe vent post

[klonoadoortophantomile]

words cannot describe how fucking. AHGHGSJ i hate sharing a computer i hate sharing a computer

#my brothr. has so many fuckjng tabs open all the time #and thats just on one winodw? i know he has others. i had to go through and manauslly close everything out one time #becuz it got to the poinnt. where i just couldnt do anything #. but so right now its so bad i cabt open new tabs i cannot clikc on things #i cant even open my files #without it lagging to hell and back #and every single fucking day #i tell him. he needs to close his tabs #use bookmakrs or some shit to save them instead #becuz i LITERALLY cannt get anything done anymore #and every single fucking day he doesnt do shit about it #ALSO MY ENTIRE USER JUST CRASHED #ENTIRELY UNPROMPTED #i neeed to get myself a laptop this shit is unbearable #i could judt go and shut down his user again but i dont wanna thru all his windows n shit again that sucked #inquisitivewaltz.txt #also everytime my user resets firefox takes forever to load so thats gonna be fun /sarcasm

[furryfantasies]

debating if i should wake up or just go back to sleep

#miniz rambles #kinda moody #vent #i was trying to draw yesterday and never got any alone time #i highly doubt today will be any different #every single time i sleep and wake up with the intent to have alone time for hours #my family start to wake up and at that point i can kiss any semblance of peace and quiet gone #i dont feel comfortable drawing around most people and yes ive tried to work up the courage i cant do it #all i do is play video games and getting not else done #id probably feel less depressed if i could change it up a bit every once and a while #but i cant cuz of social anxiety i fucking hate it #anyway i feel like going back to bed so that i can finally be left alone for once #but sleeping all day isnt healthy and would probably make me feel even worse #but also i cannot stand being around my family sometimes im so sick of being reminded of my triggers and dont have the heart to tell them #every single day its a battle to fight off thoughts about my ex #and i thought i healed already its been a year #he'd probably tell me to grow up and get over it like he did when he broke up with me #anyway ill shut up now ill probably wake up anyway out of autopilot or whatever or my siblings bug me

[fabulouslygaybean]

well! my school banned the use of any browser except microsoft edge and installed a new surveillance program onto every school laptop to make sure that we can't use them at all :))))

#also they can now view everything we search and download and every website we visit and every program we open or work on #they can see when we're working/not working and also it put new restrictions on websites we can/cannot view #im still digging to see if they can look thru our cameras tho. i question the legality of that but i wouldn't be surprised if they could. #by They i mean admins and teachers. literally any of them can watch what we're doing at any given time. including at home :))) #i wonder if i can somehow start a movement to get rid of it. i know both students and some teachers would prolly join in #i may talk it over with my english teacher to see if he can offer advice for how to contact the admins for that #just. i NEED other browsers for class. like legitimately a lot of the sites and stuff we need are blocked or dont work in edge #idk how my history class is gonna work now bc we need to use chrome to view a lot of our blocked videos bc the system blocks any - #- supposedly controversial topics. aka racism homophobia xenophobia antisemitism etc etc. which are major topics in my history class 😐 #also english class too #and science sometimes #just. i hate it. there's too much surveillance in my opinion. the system restrictions were already enough. we don't need teachers to have - #- the ability to watch everything we do on our laptops. #this is coming right after our governor considered making schools legally required to put live feed cameras in every single room inside - #- school buildings except for bathrooms. any teachers could tune in to watch any classroom at any time. thats a fucking awful idea #like. okay it might discourage a couple fights. but you'll also be giving creeps access to watch your kids at any given time #it would be shockingly easy for someone to steal a teacher's login to watch a kid and figure out their schedule #its a safety hazard. i could not see any way this could go well #also just.. think of the mental health implications ffs. it cant be good for kids psychological well-being to know that you're being -- #- monitored 8 hours a day 5 days a week 10 months a year for 13 years of your life. like that's gonna absolutely fuck ppl up #its different in a business setting of course. cameras are obviously fine there for security purposes. but schools??? #outdoor cameras are fine and cameras near the entrances or major hallways could be okay but inside every single room?? thats too much #also like.. so many kids will inevitably get in trouble for shit they didn't do bc cameras can only pick up so much #you KNOW ppl are gonna get in trouble bc of a bad camera angle making it seem like they were doing smth they weren't #also just. more ppl are gonna get in trouble for harmless shit. #joking w a friend? trouble. doodling instead of writing? trouble. going on coolmathgames in class? trouble. #OH. also i forgot to mention but parents could watch the cam feeds too. which is awful #itll be a fucking nightmare for closeted queer ppl or ppl with abusive family or ppl who wanna talk to a counselor without parents knowing #also. creepy parents will absolutely take advantage of it. it's just bad all around. #sorry this devolved into a huge rant about surveillance in schools. i just have a lot of opinions.

[stannussy]

i will not stand green team in my house. i swear to god.

#its really funny to me bc ive seen mfers be like wow rhaenyra used her position and power to r*pe crispy cola cola man which no??? #he could've said NO and yknow what he wouldve been backed up because he is 1. a man 2. a part of the king's guard bc he serves to THE king #NOT NYRA #but he got with her bc he HAD the chance and then got pissy because he wanted to marry her #and not only bc of honor as he says but because he feels emasculated that he cannot have power of nyra as a husband #also think abt what hes implying there for one moment: take her out of the world she already knows to a world HE knows very well #like he doesnt love her he only wished to possess her #something something how the 'alpha' male types act when they find a bad bitch but then want her to stay at home mother same vibes here #he wanted to make her dependent of him despite already having a BIG thing over her head #also then to have the nerve to NOT call him what he is a MISOGYNIST bc alicent apparently backs him up??? #when like alicent uses the patriarchal system to HURT rhaenyra at EVERY single turn #alicent ruined rhaenyra's life out of spite and envy and jealousy #worst part is that rhaenyra TRIED to amend their relationship #MORE than alicent ever did with her #she gets harwin killed her monster kids get her childrens killed #and ALL the pass deeds that were trying to put her down #also how cole and her both of them killed the lovers of laenor and nyra which mind you #people they loved #and both laenor and rhaenyra knew this and they were okey with it but apparently you gotta ask permition to alicent and cole first #like fuck off #also laenor said im the father which PER IRL MEDIEVAL LAW THAT MAKES THEM LEGITIMATE #and also vyseris saw them as legitimate #and thats it #they ARE legitimate and like Vyseris is slow but not blind (yet akjsdbflak) he knew that Rhaenyra's kids were Harwin's but he literally #did NOT care and it was PRETTY clear that he still made them legitimate #the only time i've seen rhaenyra pull rank its when laenor is like noooo haha i wanna go to war pweaseeee let me go to war #like she literally was just vibing and alicent and cole we're mad and seething