#he is so hard to draw i cant even

[lotus-pear]

akai art for beloved tumblr mutual @itotypes <33 (it's a bsd x atla au btw if anyone wants to check it out.. although i wouldn't recommend it for the weak hearted)

fic name: akai || author: @/itotypes on ao3

#literally did this from character descriptions in the fic i couldn't find a reference itoooo im so sry 😭😭 #rly hope i remembered the bottom scene correctly?? i think chuuya was wearing dazais clothes bc he didnt want earth nation attire💀 #anyway that scene was so hot i was biting back screams the entire time #ALSO I FOUND OUT I CANT DRAW FRECKLES.. WHY IS IT SO HARD #speaking of which dazai looks so cute w freckles and a tan and black hair im investing hes so so cute in this au😭 #i don't even read fics so i was very mentally unprepared for the ending.. ito could've shot me it would've hurt less #anyway forcing all my mutuals to go read akai rn. it's required #bungou stray dogs #bungo stray dogs #dazai osamu #osamu dazai #chuuya nakahara #nakahara chuuya #soukoku #skk #lotus draws

[kana7o]

Thinking thoughts

#obikin #i just used the same thought bubble so it like #theyre seeing the same thoughts #whose thoughts is it? your choice : ) #force dyad obikin my beloved #alo i had to redraw anakin 3 times pls dont look at me if he looks wonky #ITS NOT EVEN A HARD ANGLE IDK WHY I CANT DRAW HIM LIKE THIISSS #sw

[twisting-in-wonderland]

Huh-? Why's my sax's mouthpiece all messed up?

...

... Ah.

(wip progress + 'lineart' under read-more--)

portfest outfits are so cool looking,,,

#twst #twisted wonderland #twisted wonderland port fest #floyd leech #art #ram's art #alright-! so i like port fest a lot- #mainly the aesthetics tbhhhhh #i'm biased i love water and aquatic themes and fish etc so its kinda obvious to me- #also!!! they play instruments!!!!!!!! look at them go! #unrelated never make me draw a saxophone again - #(i didn't even try and make this one 'realistic' because i . i cant draw a saxophone are u kidding me- #twst official artists show me your wayssss #also forgive the messy sketch extra underneath lol i am tireddddd #i just looked it up - high-end saxophone mouthpieces are made of something called ebonite- #apparently it's very durable - (though not. like SUPER tough like certain materials--) #I still think floyd could chew through anything if he tried hard enough so it's fineeee bitey boy 10/10 #resin is used for less top tier saxophones - but he could definitely bite that easily too- win-win! #also also sorry rook i couldnt fit you in the sketch :[[[

[roger-paladino]

My favourite thing about Tim body type arguments is that really he's not even that fat. He literally just has a bigger frame than everyone else, more of a dad bod. It's not like we're asking you to learn to draw fat rolls and double chins, just give him some actual body mass

#and yes you should learn to draw fat people of all ranges #but like complaining you cant draw tim fat so you'll draw him as a twink. when he... isn't even that much bigger #its so... confusing... like hes the perfect excuse to start learning #not saying i dont need to learn more #because i absolutely do need to study more body types #but the people that refuse to even try.. my brother in Christ its not that hard #marble hornets #.txt

[puppyeared]

Jitterbug

#whenever my meds kick in it feels like im gonna piss myself. not literally but its really really feels like it #and now whenever that happens my mind goes back to pancho (grandmas dog) at a xmas party years ago #bc he peed when we arrived bc he was so excited to see ppl and my cousin had to clean it up :o) #well for better or for worse i know that feeling now when im pumped on 20mg of adderall #im still getting used to this whole diagnosis thing cause ive gone untreated and undiagnosed for the longest time. so theres probably a lot #i still dont know and have to learn to get myself to be.. functional on my own? self managing???? #i even set up reminders on my phone for work periods meals and stuff. but the problem is actually getting myself to stick to that to a T #because the minute i slack off or something gets in the way it throws it all off until i can be bothered to get back on track. it sucks #at least ive built up other habits like writing notes and setting alarms ahead of time.. but i feel like i could do better #its always hard to change something if youve been doing it wrong for the longest time. especially behaviour and thinking patterns. sigh #in other news my glasses bailed on me so i have to get a new pair sometime. i just realized i never draw my sona with glasses but thats #mostly bc i forget. id love to get some browline glasses like my old pair but im picky and its hard to find one id like for the next 5 year #i also finally managed to collect all the fish in my animal crossing file!!! pulled out a char last week and boom now i have a poster :o) #THAT was a moment where i almost peed myself for real. id love to get all the bugs but i cant stay up late on the switch :o( #yapping #my art #myart #doodles #personal #diary

[dhmis-autism]

SORRY I JUST. WAS IN THE MIDDLE OF A DRAWING AND I JUST. YOU KNOW WHWN UR DRAWING UR FAVE CHARACTER AND ITS JUST SO FUN AND UR HAVING A GREAT TIME

IM LOSIN IT THIS IS GREAT LOOK AT MY SWEET BOY

#what did someone call dhmis a fuckin. category 7 autism event??? thats SO true. #ITS NOT EVEN DONE BUT I JUST. MY BOY #THATS MY BOOOY THATS MY SONN #im trying SO hard to shorthand the fluffiness of his whole being with careful hatchmarks but when i finish i might end up just #fully rendering his soft fluffy baby head #someone said recently he looks so soft like u could just ruffle his head and i CANT stop thinking abt that #what a true statement #anyways literally had to stop drawing because i jsust love my boy so much i just. look at him. hes so terrible awful perfect baby patitoooo #my dhmis postings #WIP

[todayisafridaynight]

everyday i constantly think of masato's wheelchair and if that's his only one/main one no wonder he's so pissed at everyone

#snap chats #someone pointed this out to me like last year so im stealing it sorry cause I Think Of It Constantly #the handling of masato's disability will forever annoy me esp with how vague it is but esp his chair #one day ill draw masato with an appropriate wheelchair. maybe then he'll be happy for once #in a way i guess it could tie into how restricted or trapped he felt since the type of chair he's shown is more like. a hospital one #and not one youd really use as a regular user- like in that vein it is a bit of storytelling in that he can ONLY go out with help #since hospital chairs are SO much different from home chairs ESPECIALLY in regards to mobility and independence the user has #AND NOT TO MENTION HOW UNCOMFORTABLE THOSE CHAIRS ARE get his ass a proper cushion P L E A S E #like it portrays the idea that its unfathomable for him to go anywhere on his own and so in that vein . Interesting Storytelling #theres a lot of implications going on here if im so honest and again it makes for Really Interesting Story Telling #however i refuse to give rgg credit like that when it comes to disabilities. ... they havent earned that from me yet #see this is why the vagueness of his condition annoys me because he's shown to be independent enough to roll himself to his elevator #and presumably get himself dressed but he cant have a proper chair ? #because ik there are people who have expressed they have conditions where even writing is tiring #so if his condition was in-line with that and it was hard for him to push himself in his chair then i could buy it #obviously the issue lies with his lungs but i just want to know the full extent yk... #to wrap this up tho ive been thinking of character design in rgg and how we dont give credit to it enough #sooooo if i make a second post ten minutes from now thats why cause i keep forgetting to spam my thoughts on here LMAO #ok bye

[dimonds456]

thinking about freehoun so bad tonight oughhhhhhhhhhhh

#i wanna draw it so bad but i need to eat and then go to bed #like- just the idea of the rescas. barney sees gordon being dragged away and is forced to leave him #and even though he knows gordon lived- he defeated the nihlanth after all- he's still never going to see him again #the vorts say he's alive- they INSIST he's alive- but he'd still be on xen with no way to get back #and then barney just exists selflessly trying to help the resistance for 20 years #every so often he hears about gordon coming back one day and fuck he wants to believe that but he just *cant* #until he sees him at the train station #holy shit. it's him. and he hasn't aged a damn day. #barney can't even properly reunite because they would get caught and killed #so he calls issac and sends gordon on his way trying so so so hard to pokerface for the rest of his shift #when he gets back he only finds out gordon is on the run and in danger #and he cant do shit to help him #and when gordon gets to black mesa east barney isn't even there #all that- all of half life 2- and they can't properly reunite #and then the citadel explodes #man. he would ABSOLUTELY think gordon was just fucking killed then. #and when he STILL survives... just. imagine this with me. #im ill. i am so very very ill #freehoun #half life #dimond speaks

[rendiggitydog]

Hey! It’s my main guy!

#hermitcraft #rae art #rendog #hermitaday #as much as Ren is absolutely my guy #I’m so wishy-washy abt a design #every Ren that I see is great but different #so it’s hard to settle on one for myself #went short hair today since I don’t normally #n no suspenders for a bit of the old school look #again another hermit I should really draw more #cant even say the last time I drew him and he’s my namesake!

[b4kuch1n]

been scribblin with the dip pens to prepare for inking the next comic (yuuto⏫’s “origin story” kind of basically) and wow turns out I can do anything I want forever

yuuto’s new friends names of amy and linh >:]c

#UTAU #sawayama yuuto #bakuspecial #[comic tag pending] #I'll be drawing about just the beginning of this whole plot this time round. but boy oh boy if I were paid to serialize this!! #well even if I wont. I will hopefully get to chip away at it a bit at a time. over the next uhhhhh ten years #in another news. I think somethings up with the dip pens. about anything comes out looking good with them #its scary!! I kept looking at my sketches like no way these are gonna work out. but I'll do it for the practice hour #and then I do it and it always turns out pretty good. what the hells!!! thats weird!! thats kinda scary I like it!!! #and like I'm absolutely not even that good with a dip pen yet!! 1/Ive just had these for uhh. two days. and 2/my hands are NOT steady #its why u see me undo and redo a line 298473987 times twice a half hour. it was caught on stream multiple times #but!! the dip pen's making me commit to a line. and also I'm slowly internalizing that anything'd come out okay with them #as long as I have a sketch. boy oh boy is freehanding with these hard #its so. idk its so nice!! its so fun. somehow a lot less pressure than the usual stuff I do lol #I cant wait to really get into drawing this comic... I cant wait to force all of u to look at yuuto&co #you WILL see and hear my baby boy #dskjfhsjk Im so glad the senpai lets me do this. I mean even if he doesnt I will do it anyway. its just gonna suck #but Im so happy I get to do this with him actually #hehehe >:]c

[frecklystars]

i know nobody is online rn to read this but ;-; i gotta get it off my chest i love ken so much he means everything to me he's making me so happy and i've needed him so so so bad. he's brought me comfort when my ptsd has been so fucking unbearable and every time i'm having a crying fit over losing my tf f/os or every time i'm having a flashback i ALWAYS immediately IMMEDIATELY think about him rushing to my side, holding me and saying "hey hey it's okay, i'm here, i'm right here" and it's such a relief because i haven't been able to genuinely wholeheartedly believe any character would be willing to do that for me the entire time i've been struggling this year.

i've never gone so long without comfort from f/os, much less being triggered by the ones who used to comfort me the most. so to have barbie and ken right now is like the biggest wave of relief every single day when i wake up and the hyperfixation is still there. sometimes i will literally close my eyes and sigh in relief when i hear a song and my first thought is sebastian or ken or six or... whomever. i love being in love again. i NEED this. i love waking up and my first thought isn't my trauma most of the time now, it's ken. or it's six. or it's barbie. or it's harley. or it's officer k. or it's... yeah you get it. i needed these characters so fucking badly. every time i see a gifset and get excited over it, i feel a rush of gratitude bc self shipping has always been the glue holding me together. it doesn't feel as intense or strong as the SB musical or TF used to make me feel but i am not picky. not at all. i will take anything and i'm praying this lasts for at LEAST another few weeks please

i may not be at a sense of peace right now and i dont know when i ever will be, it could be years, but im so. so. so. so so so thankful to have these characters right now when i've needed someone so badly for so long. i hope ken knows how much i love him ;-; i hope barbie knows how much she has helped me, has saved me from one of my major triggers and has helped me to love and feel safe around the color pink again. i wish they could see me when i'm not so broken but i'm glad they're here even when i'm at my worst, i'm glad they still love me even when they deserve to see me in a much better light

#it feels so fucking terrible not celebrating my bday with my starlight. i used to buy myself cakes and put his figurine next to them #i mean i still have... a little bit over one week... i cant... let it pass by without him being involved somehow #so i might make a quick vent doodle and queue it for the actual day of my bday #i refuse to not draw myself with him at least once for my special day #its not like we 'broke up' or anything but fuck it feels so bad #he's a literal fucking ptsd trigger. how fucking insane is that #im still in shock. im still in shock over what happened to me like i cant fucking believe it #wearing his necklace makes me cry so i just leave it on my dresser #that shouldnt be normal!!!! #but im hoping that shipping with barbie/ken is going to help me feel like i can reclaim control over my ships #bc my abuser made me feel like... i had no control over my TF ships whatsoever for a solid year #so now that i'm finally free of that toxicity i'm still shakily trying to learn how to ship again #i'll have moments where i'll worry ken will try to hurt me on purpose bc im so used to my abuser telling me how abusive any f/o would be #but then i tell myself 'hey what the fuck. this is MY story. NOBODY would abuse me i dont care WHO they are' #but it's so hard to unlearn several months of abuse 😔 #and even harder to look at a character who i invested so much time and energy and money into #my voice clips. my cameos. all of my steve blum autographs. my art for steve. all of it feels sad and numbing #not just stsc but everyone in any TF universe feels like... a threat and i get panic attacks when i see very specific characters sometimes #its awful. it hurts so bad. i love ken so much. but nothing compares to what i had with my TF comfort characters #but it's okay bc... ken is holding my hand and he might not understand ptsd at all but he can still squeeze me tight #and six HAS c-ptsd he GETS it. and he's there to hold me when my nightmares make me fall apart. he's my rock #vent #ptsd #sorry it's 5am i had a bad nightmare and now i refuse to sleep again #i fucking hate ptsd i fucking hate living like this i rly wish i knew how to cure myself #im exercising im eating and drinking often im sleeping as much as i can #theres only so much i can do #when does it get better?? when the fuck does it get better? im serious. not rhetorical. when does this finally heal #i dont even know if im healing or if im just distracted... but fuck ill take anything

[kasumikoujou]

Could I ask about the re:zero knight (assumed) oc, I wish to know more about them :3

he's not an oc !!! he's a canon character 😭😭 im just like. the only person ever to draw him. i guess. he's pivot arnancy from the ex volume 2 novel ; that novel series also getting a manga adaptation in which he appears chapters 1 to 8. you can read briefly about him here , though i absolutely 100% recommend you'd read the novel or the manga. the novel also has some side illustrations, and we see him in 4 drawings from those, and he appears a total of 34 times in the manga . below is a lovely collage i made of all of them from the manga (bar the ones where. he dies)

#i am very normal about him op #because of his insane lack of fanworks. im also drawing him daily until i get to 100. i love him a lot :) #the sumi rambles #also i wanna say when i saw this ask i literally msntally screamed so hard #WE GOT TO A POINT. WHERE PEOPLE JUST ASSUME HES MY OC NOW. I CANT EVEN BLAME YOU #i genuinely cannot. but its so funny #he is my oc now im the one and only sole pivot poster #/j

[yoruxi]

my allergy meds got me like omg im gonna doodle!!! ZZZZZZZ

#sonic #sth #sonic the hedgehog #Tails the Fox #Miles Tails Prower #surge the tenrec #kit the fennec #Rouge the Bat #shadow the hedgehog #plus my lil ocs n stuffs #sonic gets a dedicated doodle page bc hes hard to draw n i do lil practice #i think he should be easier stop that mr hedghehog #also tails is so fun to draw cant stop drawing him hes so silly #even if shadow my fave fr #cho art

[alukaforyou]

do we like the backlight or

#i finally finished this sort of : | #i only had to paint the clothes but idk y it was so hard lol also i used ref for it but #it looks kinda weird the folds : | ok.. maybe i shouldve winged it like i always do LOL #and the way i harvested the bg from an older pic i made for a zine rip lol cuz i dont have time to draw a bg rn 😵‍💫 #honestly im fine w white bgs but i put Something there so thats a win #i looked at this too long it looks weird to me :( idk how to fix the face :( sad #noah fence but i cant even tag this as.. u kno 🤣 #cuz i feel like i draw him sooo far removed from canon 😬 so im like low key embarassed 😳 #idk hes a prince to ME ✊😔 im gonna try to finish up the #halloween mads from. so long ago. theres not much left to be done there #and the bgs gonna be white sorry LOL #alulu art

[despairforme]

      He made pancakes and two of them didn’t burn.

#[ he eats the burnt ones at well he just drowns them in syrup ] #[ HELLO GUYS ] #[ i'm feeling super creative and inspiredddd today! ] #[ woke up and thought: what if i made a chibi sticker sheet with nnoitra ] #[ I CANT EVEN DRAW CHIBI STYLE BUT I CAN LEARN ] #[ i would loooove to have some nnoitra stickers ;-; ] #[ i also gotta draw some doflamingo fanart ] #[ for my portfolio ] #[ for when the applications to a doflamingo zine opens ] #[ one of my art goals for 2023 is to participate in a zine! gotta work hard!! ] #[ and also HELLO i want to write today!! ] #[ write for my spoon!! <5 ] #[ my best boi whom i love so muchhh ] #[ blessed by him every day of my life like how did i get this lucky ] #[ hope you're all doing good guys!! ] #despair for me. ╱ in character. #burn the city. ╱ main verse.

[todayisafridaynight]

one of my fave things bout minedai is that daigo could do Literally Anything- even the most benign, innocuous thing yet it could unintentionally cause mine to short circuit for the next five hours

#snap chats #ive been having minedai brainrot all day but i dont have the energy or ideas to execute any ideas #so i will simply just ramble bout it until something comes to me #prob wont draw anythin for a bit tho- ive drawn a lot lately and im busy with stuff. Of Which Include Drawing LMAO #listen thats comm stuff its different but anyways let me continue my ramble #i think of a lot of silly lil comics and drawings but the punchline is inevitably Mine Has A Heart Attack Over Daigo Existing #i wouldnt mind drawing that all day but man i cant imagine it'd be fun to see over and over- i guess it depends on execution #but no fr i just keep thinkin of simple shit like. like idk maybe they're walkin in the street together #and just the way they have to shuffle around other people daigo has to press against him for a hot minute #And It Is A Hot Minute mine's screaming internally because daigo's so close and even if theyre in the middle of the city #he's all he can focus on somehow- the way his suit feels and the subtle ways the muscles /under/ his suit shift and move #meanwhile daigo's just I'm So Sorry Mine :( I Didn't Think It'd Be This Crowded Today :( #brb gotta reread some of my fave fics cause they capture this aspect i love so well #god i gotta start writing my own shit though i just love talking about and explorin this idea If Not Just Them In General #but im Not Good at writing <:) or at least it's hard for me to think of an idea idk #once i have an idea then i can pump something out but alas nothing's come to mind #ok i'ma wrap up this ramble because i went all over the place by accident oops </3 #i'll be back in one way or another