he says i hate everyone except you and that is addictive and that is kind of romantic and beautiful because you're young and you're kind of a sarcastic asshole too and you don't like bad boys, per say, but you don't really like good ones either. and you like that you were the exception, it felt like winning.
except life is not a romance book, and he was kind of being honest. he doesn't learn to be nice to your friends. he only tolerates your family. you have to beg him to come with you to birthday parties, he complains the whole time. you want to go on a date but - people are often there, wherever you're going. he's just so angry. about everything, is the thing. in the romance book, doesn't he eventually soften? can't you teach him, through your own sense of whimsy and comfort?
at first - you know introverts often need smaller friend groups, and honestly, you're fine staying at home too. you like the small, tidy life you occupy. you're not going to punish him for his personality type.
except: he really does hate everyone but you. which means he doesn't get along with his therapist. which means he has no one to talk to except for you. which means you take care of him constantly, since he otherwise has no one. which means you sometimes have to apologize for him. which means he keeps you home from seeing your friends because he hates them. you're the single exception.
about a decade from this experience, you'll type into google: how to know if a relationship is codependent.
he wraps an arm around you. i hate everyone except you. these days, you're learning what he's actually confessing is i have very little practice being kind.
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I was recently reminded of the first time I read ADwD, with it being the only book in the series that I listened to via audio book, and I chose to do so during my shifts working food-service. Anyway, don't do that, friends!
(The artist, c. 2021, retraumatizing herself every three chapters over shortbread cookies:)
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Know what? You're starting to remind me of me, fifty years back. Minus the charisma... and impressive cock.
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i momentarily forgot that the indebted students were stuck in servitude for failing to uphold their end of azul’s contract. orz it’s really too good…… i understand the path was not good for the rest of the students, but maybe we didn’t have to put an end to his villainous ways. >_< he can have a few indebted servants (read: he can have me) as a treat… he’s earned it…….
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every member of the student council hurts anthy and dehumanizes and objectifies her (except for ruka i guess, because he’s too busy doing that to juri and shiori) so it’s not even like i can single out saionji (he isn’t even the only one to slap her), but he’s so unsubtle about it that it’s like. what the fuck is your problem man. obviously a lot of things. and i do think anthy encourages her own mistreatment in many ways (to manipulate them into dueling, to incentivize utena to fight for her, because she genuinely feels that she deserves to be punished) so it’s not even like you can fully blame the duelists for objectifying someone who participates in her own objectification. especially considering that saionji doesn’t treat all women that way. he is perfectly nice (in fact he is extremely nice) to wakaba (like, he wasn’t even the one to put up her letter on the bulletin board; anthy was), so it’s not even that he’s the worlds most vile misogynist, he just thinks of anthy as a symbol instead of a human being. which is AWFUL, but even utena is guilty of this to an extent. it’s a byproduct of the world they live in, as dictated by akio’s signs and schemes. that doesn’t stop me from wanting to kill anyone who has ever been remotely unkind to her, though (except for nanami, who is the exception to every rule). just because everyone blames anthy as a scapegoat for her own abuse doesn’t mean it’s okay, of course, but i guess my point is that saionji isn’t uniquely implicated here, he’s just uniquely uncouth about it. free my mans he did all that but so did the rest of y’all
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