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butchfalin · 5 months
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the funniest meltdown ive ever had was in college when i got so overstimulated that i could Not speak, including over text. one of my friends was trying to talk me through it but i was solely using emojis because they were easier than trying to come up with words so he started using primarily emojis as well just to make things feel balanced. this was not the Most effective strategy... until. he tried to ask me "you okay?" but the way he chose to do that was by sending "👉🏼👌🏼❓" and i was so shocked by suddenly being asked if i was dtf that i was like WHAT???? WHAT DID YOU JUST SAY TO ME?????????? and thus was verbal again
#yeehaw#1k#5k#10k#posts that got cursed. blasted. im making these tag updates after... 19 hours?#also i have been told it should say speech loss bc nonverbal specifically refers to the permanent state. did not know that!#unfortunately i fear it is so far past containment that even if i edited it now it would do very little. but noted for future reference#edit 2: nvm enough ppl have come to rb it from me directly that i changed the wording a bit. hopefully this makes sense#also. in case anyone is curious. though i doubt anyone who is commenting these things will check the original tags#1) my friend did not do this on purpose in any way. it was not intended to distract me or to hit on me. im a lesbian hes a gay man. cmon now#he felt very bad about it afterwards. i thought it was hilarious but it was very embarrassed and apologetic#2) “why didn't he use 🫵🏼?” didn't exist yet. “why didn't he use 🆗?” dunno! we'd been using a lot of hand emojis. 👌🏼 is an ok sign#like it makes sense. it was just a silly mixup. also No i did not invent 👉🏼👌🏼 as a gesture meaning sex. do you live under a rock#3) nonspeaking episodes are a recurring thing in my life and have been since i was born. this is not a quirky one-time thing#it is a pervasive issue that is very frustrating to both myself and the people i am trying to communicate with. in which trying to speak is#extremely distressing and causes very genuine anguish. this post is not me making light of it it's just a funny thing that happened once#it's no different than if i post about a funny thing that happened in conjunction w a physical disability. it's just me talking abt my life#i don't mind character tags tho. those can be entertaining. i don't know what any of you are talking about#Except the ppl who have said this is pego/ryu or wang/xian. those people i understand and respect#if you use it as a writing prompt that's fine but send it to me. i want to see it#aaaand i think that's it. everyday im tempted to turn off rbs on it. it hasn't even been a week
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inkskinned · 8 months
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he says i hate everyone except you and that is addictive and that is kind of romantic and beautiful because you're young and you're kind of a sarcastic asshole too and you don't like bad boys, per say, but you don't really like good ones either. and you like that you were the exception, it felt like winning.
except life is not a romance book, and he was kind of being honest. he doesn't learn to be nice to your friends. he only tolerates your family. you have to beg him to come with you to birthday parties, he complains the whole time. you want to go on a date but - people are often there, wherever you're going. he's just so angry. about everything, is the thing. in the romance book, doesn't he eventually soften? can't you teach him, through your own sense of whimsy and comfort?
at first - you know introverts often need smaller friend groups, and honestly, you're fine staying at home too. you like the small, tidy life you occupy. you're not going to punish him for his personality type.
except: he really does hate everyone but you. which means he doesn't get along with his therapist. which means he has no one to talk to except for you. which means you take care of him constantly, since he otherwise has no one. which means you sometimes have to apologize for him. which means he keeps you home from seeing your friends because he hates them. you're the single exception.
about a decade from this experience, you'll type into google: how to know if a relationship is codependent.
he wraps an arm around you. i hate everyone except you. these days, you're learning what he's actually confessing is i have very little practice being kind.
#i used to think it was romantic too and then i was like. now i see it as a HUGE red flag#writeblr#it is also almost EXCLUSIVELY said by immature ppl who think this is normal#fyi even if u think it's funny and ur like 'im an introvert it's just TRUE' like. you need therapy (ily tho)#healed introversion is just ''i would prefer to be by myself'' not ''i hate every person'' ... hate is not normal. that is not healthy#im sorry. i know it feels accurate. but if you're walking around with that kind of rage....#1. you're making a LOT of assumptions about every single person u have ever met. which is often unfair and unkind#and also usually involves judging people based on their worst moments or little mistakes#2. you are being unfair to the person who is ur ''exception''#3. there is a VAST difference between ''ur my favorite person'' and ''the ONLY person i like.''#idk i think this is just a personal bias thing tbh#im sure there are people who have this experience normally#but i have YET to find a man who thinks like this and ISNT absolute DOGSHIT. although tbh.... like. im sure he exists#when u hit like 30 some of the things that were once kind of hot now just sound fucking exhausting. like ''im in a band''#edit in the tags: i used to kind of be like this too. but the thing is that like. my life became so much more peaceful#once i started believing that people are generally good. like yes i am mad at the world at large#but it's just.... a very hard way to live. you're not a bad person or wrong for the ways other people hurt you and taught you to be angry.#but that anger will continue to hurt YOU. it will punish YOU. it will prevent YOU from making new deep connections. it will protect you yes#but it will also cause MASSIVE blowback. bc if you lose the One Person... your life will fall apart. i know this personally.#i really recommend just trying to be... cautiously optimistic instead. like. yes#people can be horrible and cruel and there are some communities (incels for example) that aren't worth that optimism#but i think like... most people will hold a door for you . most people want to help you find your wallet .#i hope one day you are able to find peace. i hope that rage eventually smooths over. i know how hard it is PERSONALLY#and i know what must have happened to you. and im deeply deeply sorry we share the same wound.#but i promise - sometimes we all need someone else to help us carry the weight. eventually the rage has to die so that we can let help in#i had to spend years biting at outstretched hands. i still often do. im still very wary . and my heart breaks that you flinch too.#here's the thing: i don't blame you. but we were both acting out of fear and pain. .... not out of healthy behavior. and ... change#was needed. i needed change too. rage was useful for a while. then it just left me isolated and bitter. i had to (with effort)#choose to let that rage go. and let people in . VERY SLOWLY THO LOL
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satsuha · 9 months
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futureman · 1 month
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i miss the little gamer guy 😔
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l3visthighs · 3 months
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Another day of swooning over shots of season 3 Levi :’)
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weeee fantasy au scribbles look at these Guys
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prince-peachie · 7 months
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The way it’s just fandom culture to fixate and ship two characters who show up for two seconds in a book
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lycorim · 8 months
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I was recently reminded of the first time I read ADwD, with it being the only book in the series that I listened to via audio book, and I chose to do so during my shifts working food-service. Anyway, don't do that, friends!
(The artist, c. 2021, retraumatizing herself every three chapters over shortbread cookies:)
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agentc0rn · 8 days
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"Get the key back. It should not be used. Everything will vanish again. Do you want to know unending pain…like I have?"
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lacquerheadd · 1 year
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Know what? You're starting to remind me of me, fifty years back. Minus the charisma... and impressive cock.
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tmcsartstuff · 3 months
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I’ve said it before, and I’ll say it again.
Alastor really took everything from this man, especially his floofy hair 😭
Or maybe he’s just balding
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merakiui · 5 months
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i momentarily forgot that the indebted students were stuck in servitude for failing to uphold their end of azul’s contract. orz it’s really too good…… i understand the path was not good for the rest of the students, but maybe we didn’t have to put an end to his villainous ways. >_< he can have a few indebted servants (read: he can have me) as a treat… he’s earned it…….
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ind1c0lite · 1 year
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Assorted 7yg Nicks for today <3
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doll-elvis · 10 months
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the way that if I were Elvis’ costar I would purposely mess up every take of this makeout sequence so we could do it over and over and over again 😩
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yangjeongin · 2 years
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HYUNJIN | CIRCUS MV
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saionjeans · 3 months
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every member of the student council hurts anthy and dehumanizes and objectifies her (except for ruka i guess, because he’s too busy doing that to juri and shiori) so it’s not even like i can single out saionji (he isn’t even the only one to slap her), but he’s so unsubtle about it that it’s like. what the fuck is your problem man. obviously a lot of things. and i do think anthy encourages her own mistreatment in many ways (to manipulate them into dueling, to incentivize utena to fight for her, because she genuinely feels that she deserves to be punished) so it’s not even like you can fully blame the duelists for objectifying someone who participates in her own objectification. especially considering that saionji doesn’t treat all women that way. he is perfectly nice (in fact he is extremely nice) to wakaba (like, he wasn’t even the one to put up her letter on the bulletin board; anthy was), so it’s not even that he’s the worlds most vile misogynist, he just thinks of anthy as a symbol instead of a human being. which is AWFUL, but even utena is guilty of this to an extent. it’s a byproduct of the world they live in, as dictated by akio’s signs and schemes. that doesn’t stop me from wanting to kill anyone who has ever been remotely unkind to her, though (except for nanami, who is the exception to every rule). just because everyone blames anthy as a scapegoat for her own abuse doesn’t mean it’s okay, of course, but i guess my point is that saionji isn’t uniquely implicated here, he’s just uniquely uncouth about it. free my mans he did all that but so did the rest of y’all
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