#he looks so FUCKING GOOD i'm going INSANEEE

[jade-of-mourning]

ACTIVELY PASSING AWAY!!!

the post you linked is actually the exact one I remembered?? yeah. I don’t have extensive thoughts on it either but I’m so happy you helped me find it again!! :)

I’m just gonna plop the little coherence I have of bending-related strangeness (not quite body horror) here:

firebenders, given their emotions often fuel their bending, cry fire/embers on occasion, trigger the ozone-feel of lightning when intensely afraid, etc. this makes more sense in my head but the idea of bending sources being more. physically linked to the bender is. sooo. and earthbenders thrive from their connection to the earth so I propose: earthbenders are always a little bit filthy, there’s always a little dirt somewhere, because the lack of it is psychologically agonizing. earthbenders from the 100 yr war with scars filled in with tightly packed earth. save me earthbenders with scars filled in with tightly packed earth.* earthbenders learning to bend each other from scar-fillings like a funky little earthbender-specific modified bloodbending,,, waterbenders having literal water filling their lungs because they move with the tide, the tide moves with them, within them, a cohesive, cohabiting unit. airbenders who compact air with each breath to be lighter, more connected to every sound and smell and sight carried on the breeze but separated from it all the same.

*I also have mako+bolin thoughts about that. so remember how I was yapping abt how mako (and bolin, by extension, would be physically realllyy fucked up? mako’s not technically an earthbender, but,,, ek genes,, and the brothers having matching creepy ass scars that freak the krew out a little bit but none of them really talk abt it,,,

yeah so that’s my thoughts on that!!

however I’m not done with you yet. I have au thoughts (again, to whose surprise?) so I’m kind off mentally ill about parallels in atla/tlok, sooo,, azula and mako.

I SOUND INSANE BUT HEAR ME OUT‼️‼️

so azula is known for her insaneee poker face despite years of repressed trauma and childhood emotional abuse, right. well. guess who else doesn’t express emotions visibly and is cosplaying a normal person over years of fighting for his life. ding-ding-ding, you guessed it, mako!

so, so hear me out here. mako directly paralleling something azula said/did (“you can laugh. it’s funny,” for example) a couple times. but then. but then.

this is where the au part comes in. something happens. maybe kill bolin, idk. (JUST READ THAT BACK WHAT AM I ON 😭🙏🏼) but mako gets the breakdown experience,,,

maybe shove zuko’s oldass in there as a bonus. bring in katara. have a blast, do whatever. but like he has to be sedated cause he’s just. losing it man. like sobbing and screaming and everything cause he spent so long doing everything to make sure bolin was okay (she spent so long doing everything to make sure she didn’t become like zuko) but here it is, all crumbling before him (he shouldn’t have been able to run that fast, it all crumbled before her) and he is absolutely powerless (what lightning can she summon chained up to a gutter? there is only so far her roars will reach, and they know to get out of range.)

I’m in my teen angst era rn and mako will in fact be enjoying the brunt of it. thanks for listening to my little rants and rambles :))

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oh no way! i'm glad i could help you :P continuing beneath cut —

pressing the internal save button in my head on your thoughts on bending body horror. it's good. would eat hmm…

okay but when you translate it over to characters who make my brain turn,,, how did you know that it would intensify my opinions on the subject by 100x fdhkjghbdfjkshbjgdf personally i like mako & bolin to be not only internally fucked up, but also externally fucked up too!

ALSO I LOVE AZULA & MAKO PARALLELS. they are the two lightningbenders who looked at the concept of "lightning requires absence of emotion and peace of mind" and went yup, i'm going to dissociate the fuck out of life's collective traumas and use that to zap some shit up. there's this one edit somewhere out there on mako & azula doing the same feats in their respective shows which, if i were the type to engage in discourse, i would whip out to showcase that mako is not an incompetent firebender lol. but really — they're both firebender prodigies who were exploited and used by their respective mentors/figures of greater power. they both put on masks of feigned indifference because it's the sort of shit that enabled them to survive all these years in their vastly different but similarly dangerous environments. they're the pragmatists in comparison to their brothers and they do what it takes to reach where they must, with a learned apathy for those who get knocked down in the process.

so yeah! azula/mako parallels actually give me life, as do mako/katara parallels. (adding to the reasons as to why mako would've made a better girl, but i digress.)

ALSO mako paralleling shit azula said is actually so funny what i might have to casually incorporate that into the avatar!mako au sob dfjshkghjfdshjhhh

also jfc mako's breakdown would be brutal. that is not pretty shit. that would not be pretty. in fact it's so un-pretty that i think i'm going to write it (granted, maybe to a less explicit degree and without the whole dead bolin thing because it's canon compliant, but you bet your ass that rose beds & gasoline veins is going to delve into that deconstruction of everything mako's spent his entire life perceiving to be the point of his existence). anyway i love this au conceptually and you are so big brain for thinking it up. love your casual writing style too :)

until next time, snailon!

#lychee acquires and answers asks #one day i'll have to write about the mako & azula parallels too.

[alistairlowes]

post where i liveread a book i already read not even two months ago instead of posting updates on goodreads like any sane person would part 1

"The Lowe family had always been the undisputed villains of their town’s ancient, bloodstained story, and no one understood that better than the Lowe brothers."

girl shut the fuck up it hits differently now 😭

why is hendry lowe just noah czerny of these books

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"Hendry looked like he was fantasizing about meeting a cute girl, judging from how he kept fiddling with his curls and smoothing the wrinkles in his sleeves.

Alistair was thinking about death. More specifically, about causing it."

he is just so dramatic for no fucking reason

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“I hate that fucking book,” Alistair growled.

me about this but like affectionate

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"But most of all, he hated to imagine his brother grieving him. They had never been without each other."

I'M LITERALLY SICK THIS IS SICK FORSHADOWING INSANEEE

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my fav part about these books is how there are 7 champion families but book very clearly says you should give a fuck only about 4

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"Nobody loved Gavin enough to protect him from the impending slaughter."

i know someone who will tho but first he will try to kill you for like 700 pages

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"But Hendry never liked to be woken before noon."

he is just like me

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"Alistair Lowe was extremely good-looking. Not that it mattered.

“I’m going to kill you,” Gavin said aloud, jabbing a finger into the center of the photo."

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"Want implied a choice he’d never been given."

You deserve better Gav bby

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oh it's the chapter where alistair is looking for hendry... ahah..hh..h

"Hendry had always been the favorite: more charming, more handsome, more loved."

you have no idea actually ☠️

"Hendry would understand what this conversation meant to Alistair. Just his presence, just a smile from him would be enough to fix this very wrong moment."

christ alive

“Where is my brother?”

worst thing i ever read -1000/10 do not recommend

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“No one wants the Lowes to win,” said Elionor bluntly, responding anyway. “And the Grieve champion doesn’t have a chance. If we work together, we can eliminate them easily.”

the way this lead to certain events lmao

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isobel i get you even if no one else does <3

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"Gavin realized Alistair was swaying back and forth, ever so slightly. He wondered what possible reason the favorite to win this tournament had for getting dead drunk right before it started."

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"This boy had everything, and he had nothing."

LEAVE HIM ALONEE HE IS SAADDD

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“For that,” he said, each word enunciated with a careful sort of rage, “I will kill you slowly.”

crazy how that is crazy how that will be

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"Alistair sat at his family’s banquet table, surrounded by those who had murdered his brother."

i hate theeeeem

"Without Hendry, Alistair was lost."

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“It’s funny.” Alistair glared down at his mother. “For years you told me stories about monsters. But all along the monster was you.”

yes

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"She felt an unexpected pang of sadness for him."

#me

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briony is so insane for what she did 😭

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"Gavin had glared at Alistair Lowe and his brother from the back of the pub and wondered what it would be like to have someone in his life like that. Someone who knew him. Someone who saw him.

Someone who would celebrate when, not if, he came home."

I AM SO SAAAAAAD

fuck

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"Everything was terrible, and he was tired."

god he gets me sm

that's enough for part 1

#this is full of spoilers bdw #turning tumblr into kafka diaries except it's just me crying over lowe brothers #val reads #all of us villains #this is mostly for me ignore it <3 #aouv

[chailame]

Ben Barnes and his blinding good looks on IG story 20.08.2021

#ben barnes #benbarnesedit #sabcastedit #darklinadaily #flawlessgentlemen #mancandykings #userkristen #usermelanie #usermaryy #he looks so FUCKING GOOD i'm going INSANEEE #chailame gifs

[greenorangevioletgrass]

The Snoopy sweatshirt Harrison was wearing today that I thought was something cute and slightly vintage, maybe very lightly worn from a thrift shop, actually cost $690. (Although, I'm not sure it's something he bought himself or gets to keep -- he was there for a Saint Laurent event, and it's a Saint Laurent shirt.)

I love all these RichKid!Harrison vibes going on. Definitely an underrated AU, and you write it so well.

I love reading it, but I can't imagine actually living that sort of lifestyle. Like I feel awful about recently spending around $200 on 15 items of clearance clothing, including two jackets, from a plus size retailer. And I actually needed something that currently fits me other than 9 year old fandom shirts that have seen better days. (Weight loss at a healthy rate is unfortunately a slow process, and I deserve to look nice and feel good about myself in the meantime.)

I seriously couldn't even fathom spending like $700 on a single sweatshirt. I guess there must be people who buy clothing at that price, or they'd go out of business, but holy fucking shit.

I totally agree with you! Designer clothes is one thing-- I understand the intricacies and the craft they need to put in for, like, couture pieces, but I can't justify $700 on a sweatshirt. It's insaneee!

but heeeey im so glad to hear you treating yourself and doing what makes you feel and look good babes, you deserve it 💞💞💞

#ask ava