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clannfearrunt · 20 days
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i wish i could draw and also i wish i could draw specifically stupid suit jacket that I made part of Rill's school uniform so that I can draw more of his life at school. So that we can see the side of him that most of the people in his life know rather than unfiltered teenage shithead mode. Most people who know him think he's a pleasant and mild mannered young man
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sysig · 3 months
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A bit more Defeated, and thinking about this post (Patreon)
#Doodles#SCII#Helix#Max Vyer#Dexter Favin#But actually starting with chibi Maxes because cutes!! He's the cutest!!#I was looking through some old doodles of my own and my chibi style from 2019 was so flippin' cute ugh#That Zedaph in cold weather clothing? Honestly still a fave of mine Zed is So soft in all my doodles of him lol#Figured it'd be nice to float some cute loves Max's way :) And I was right! Though I am out of practice lol#Was still fun to do tho haha#And then since I'd reread Defeated poor ZEX got a chibi as well! I'm sure he appreciates it poor lad haha ouq#Didn't even use my white ink to put a shine in his eye for that one haha :'D#And then a bit more with Dex </3 I had these ideas on the first reading (or so - in the same time period anyhow) but only got to them later#Dex speaks so.....patronizingly about ''Max's'' attachment to Caleb :) It's interesting to me :)#For a lot of it he's very understanding and gentle with him but it really seems like Caleb is something of a sore spot for him huh#Still ♪ I wonder if he'd consciously acknowledge it - and what his reaction would be at himself if he did hmm#He's no help to Max if he's caught in his own feelings! That doesn't make them not meaningful or important tho#And then to a bit of silliness ♪ No subtlety with the guard dog comparisons pffft#I will not apologize - if ZEX gets to play with a collar and leash with the Captain then let Max have just a little! As a treat!#Besides we all know the Real Dynamics here lol#Max and Dex do stupid couple's costumes for Halloween - who doesn't love a callback lol - and Dex is Not Amused lol#Hey I mean if the shoe fits!#And then the last one is just silly lol I may be misinterpreting the intended message but I couldn't not give it to them lol#And also Max in a ponytail for funsies :D Cute lad ♥
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arklay · 1 year
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RESIDENT EVIL → DR. DIANA WESKER
"This is how a girl becomes holy: first she becomes empty." — Brynne Rebele-Henry, Prelude
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kakusu-shipping · 1 month
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I finally got the Splatoon DLC sense wave 2 is coming out soon and man. The nostalgia for being back in Inkopolis is way worse than I'd thought it'd be. I really missed this place, and these characters.
Anyway, New Jellysona lore; Jelonzo's his older brother who practically raised him after they moved to Inkopolis. This also makes hims Jelfonzo's uncle, which is a fact about Jelfonzo I forget about constantly. My precious accident baby nephew.
Also sense I'm spending so much time in Inkopolis catching up with my brother I can only image La Fluer is getting increasingly insufferable by the day. Best of luck shoppers. (little cameo by @delightfuldevin because they're the only inkling reference I have on hand kfdsjgkdf)
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portokali · 10 months
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dream diary in the tags
#it was v nostalgic and ahhhhhhh the kind of dream that left me in a haze after waking up#i was me but fused w jo march littlewomen and my family all still lived in our old house#and there was a rich lauriecoded tall blonde neighbor i was besties w#and he was whipped w me but in the dream i knew i didnt reciprocate eventhough im not sure if i knew i was a lesbian or not#but i found it very flattering that he was v eligible but noo he was all for me and in the dream i was fused SPECIFICALLY w the wynona#rider version of jo so you understand. how beautiful i was of course. and i was creative and not really worrying abt the worries of capita#lism and still together w my family all in good relationships vibing enjoying life. woke up and my first thought was#that would be me without any mental illness LMAO#there were 2 scenes i remember distinctly fisrt one scene me and laurie we were in our neighborhood but then we moved to another place#that was kinda like the woods?? and apparently it was a#lumber cutting site or sth?? and there was a lot of logs stacked up and it was v green and wild#kind of a northerner nature than you find in greece so idk where tf in the world that would be#ik 'laurie' was supposed to be from northern europe maybe sweden idk#then we went back to the hosue#and there was a third person cut of 'me' as wynona/jo picking up the mail from the outdoors mailbox#in the snow at night. very cinematic#and there was the fact that the laurie boy was in love w me and me knowing it and feeling sad i couldt reciprocate#and when i woke up i had a followup thought that i wanted us to be like brothers but cant have shit in this econmy#huh what else. thahts all!#dream diary
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rejectshumanity · 11 months
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some headcanons about dio's mom under the cut 💖
her name was maria leigh brando (leigh being her maiden name). she was a working class englishwoman of british and italian descent, raised by her single father following her mother's death at a very young age. she was their only child, and her father never remarried.
dio's good looks come from his mother. her hair, which she wears in a braid, is the same brilliant shade of gold as his. they share the same dimpled, mischievous smile, and thick, dark eyebrows that contrast strikingly against their more delicate features. they both possess a fearsome glare when angered; although dio did not inherit his mother's blue-gray eyes, but dario's amber hues.
her father cherished maria as the only remnant of his late wife. the two were very close, and he worked long hours to support them, pushing himself to provide for her the best he could. he spent what little free time he had playing with her, then teaching her how to read and write, and even teaching her chess. when she grew older, he sent her to live with her aunts to learn "womanly virtues" - but she would return every weekend to play chess with her father and help him tidy up the house.
when she was in her late teens, maria got a job as a barmaid. there, she met dario brando, a sleazy alcoholic over a decade her senior.
she married him hastily after a drunken tryst led to dio's conception. even then, he was verbally abusive, and she had many reservations. but she was terrified of the social stigma of becoming an unwed mother - and so despite the escalating abuse, she went ahead with the marriage. shortly before the wedding, her beloved father fell ill. he never got to walk her down the aisle, and died shortly after of cholera.
maria adored her son, and clung to him as the only good thing to come from her marriage. in her grief, she coped by showering him with love. she told dio often how brilliant he is and how proud she is of him, taught him chess and encouraged his interests in reading. she always spared whatever remained of her meager earnings to buy him books and sweets.
shortly after dio's birth, dario became physically abusive - and despite his much greater strength, maria always fought back. most of dio's formative memories involve chaos and violence: broken wine bottles shattering around him, drunken threats hurled between both of his parents, furniture crashing and the sickening thud of his mother's body hitting the floor.
maria suffered through the worst of the abuse in silence, too proud to cry in front of her son. she tried her best to protect him from his father, often shielding him from would-be beatings with her own body. she would encourage him to spend as much time as possible outside of the brando residence, sending him away whenever dario would return home in his drunken stupors. little dio would seek out other street kids to fight - in part to take out his anger, but with the eventual goal in mind of growing stronger, so he can defend his mom.
as dario's drinking worsened, he drove their family into debt, forcing maria to take additional jobs to survive. dario's beatings grew worse, and more frequent. as exhaustion took over, so too did depression and lethargy, and she soon succumbed to a drinking habit of her own. although she took great pains to hide it from her son, the change in his mother was painfully obvious to him.
she fell ill of a "wasting disease" shortly after dio's eleventh birthday, and died soon thereafter. without maria, dario drove the two further into debt, quickly wasting what little remained of their savings on alcohol, and selling nearly all of their possessions to pay rent at the boarding house they were forced to move into. dio spent as much time away from their room as possible, living on the streets for days at a time. he survived by stealing food, picking pockets, betting on and getting into fights, and playing chess in pubs for money.
dio vehemently believed that his father's boozing and philandering hastened her untimely death, but it wasn't until dario pressured him to sell maria's favorite sunday dress for drinking money that he resolved to kill him.
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(of dio's many, many, many crimes, i'll forgive him this one....dario was a piece of shit with zero redeeming qualities and deserved so much worse than poison.)
even to this day, dio thinks often of his mother, and remembers her with a mixture of fondness and deep sadness. she was one of the only people in his life who he genuinely loved. he struggles to say the phrase "i love you" to anyone else since her death - his subconscious won't let him.
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braskide · 7 months
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i wanted to make a cute "oh yuna as your cute gf 😊” but then i started thinking about x-2.5 and will and what they showed us of her relationship with ti ( i will never accept that as canon but it has interesting points ), and how it shows / my main verse has every point showing how a relationship with her is actually super hard to maintain when you think about it, how many hardships to overcome to actually be together. how much the ~leftover of her trauma shows in the relationships with other people, how changed she is as a woman, how she keeps herself busy with everything / her new 'high summoner' routine, all to not.. . think.. .? all to not face what growing up in the way she did has damaged for her. being with someone that holds her shoulders and makes her face reality. realizing that she cannot outrun her buried demons. understanding that cherishing someone is okay again. that it does not need to be so ephemeral anymore. that life can be worth living again. that the guilt she feels for turning her life around instead of processing her traumas can also be overcome. she's a lot of work, actually.
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orcelito · 1 year
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also. what they dont tell you about being a sorcerer (5) bard (1) is that
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you get a F U C K ton of spells
#speculation nation#fang#d&d#and ALL!!!! of them are prepared#im used to playing a wizard with many many spells but u can only have a handful prepared at a time#fang can use Any of these at Any time (spell slots permitting)#and he got detect magic (unlimited) from his eldritch invocation (feat). and darkness from a shadow sorcerer feature#fang really is just all *finger wiggles* about his magic. he doesnt understand it. but BOY can he do a lot of it#he described today his fireball as 'if i think Really Hard and Point... i can make Big Things happen'#AGHHHHHH i love him so much tho. he's still so squishy but i love him sooo much#AND!!!!!!!!!! i have healing spells now too. thank god#5 sorcery points on top of all this. AND two bardic inspiration#fang really is just like. absolutely overflowing with magic. but super fucking casual about it#he does not!!! understand what he's doing!!!! he's just like playing the flute and feeling smth different with his magic#& he's just like 'Huh." decides to play around with that. and suddenly he knows 6 more spells#and he can HEAL!!!!!!!!! im so stoked about that lmfao#i did NOT take vicious mockery bc i already have Mind Sliver as a psychic damage cantrip AND chill touch. two damage cantrips#vicious mockery is kinda the iconic bard thing but just. idk minor illusion seemed more useful to me.#probably gonna keep it at 1 bard level at least until i get my shadow wolf. so im taking shadow sorcerer level next level (whever that is)#I WANT MY BIG PUPPYYYYYYYYYYYYY big boy loves to bite. i need him#i would have him if i didnt take bard level... but it's ok.... the versatility is worth it#fang is the most hilariously influential person that exists and everyone just has to deal with it#he walks around changing people's lives & he's just like 'eh dont worry about it' b4 leaving to continue on his way#tunnel vision. very task-focused. unless he gets distracted in which case it is tunnel vision on the distraction#he regularly went on swims in the fuckin ocean alongside the boat bc he's got a fancy cloak that lets him breathe underwater & he loves it#i literally love him so much guys i Cannot describe how much i love him#i wish his charisma was higher lol BUT it's ok. we just need to get to level 9 so i can increase smth (with sorcerer 8)#tho hmmm levels 2 and 3 bard look so good too... hmmmmm#difficult choices lol. ah well
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multifandom-lesbian09 · 9 months
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Christians: god made you the way you are! He loves you
Christians when they find out you’re gay: no that’s not what I meant
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gender-euphowrya · 7 months
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i'm getting a good grade in transgender
#sib the local lgbtq charity that has monthly meet-ups for trans people & any of their open-minded loved ones#just asked Me if i could help with hosting these ???#I GOT A PROMOTION BY JUST BEING THERE GKFJFKF#poggers. huge.#i said FUCK YEAH because ohhh this is exactly what i wanted#i WANT to give back to this community i WANT to help my fellow people#i don't want to just reap the benefits of the ongoing fights other people had for my sake i want to fight with them !#and if my means of fighting are caring for and welcoming people in need of company or information or just fun#then that's what i'm gonna do !!!!#taking care of each other is our number one priority in the face of everything society throws at us#if i can help even just a little bit with that. fuck. i'll have all i need.#if one other trans person can feel safe thanks to something i did i will have it all. fuck the lottery. this is my big win#the founder of the charity was so nice too he was understanding that i may not be able to help consistently#because i don't have a car and it's like a 15-min drive away not really reachable by bus so. need mom to drive me there gkfkf but#he said that was completely okay and he said my ''expertise'' was all that was needed ???#BRO i'm. yes it is i the big tramsgengar expert uh-huh professor t-shot in the house#like SURE i know. quite a lot about all this what with all the internet exposure to the subject and. Me living that#but expertise ??? gkfjf i. i guess. i mean. woargh.#anyway i'm super flattered and excited and i hope i don't let them down
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skrunksthatwunk · 1 year
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somebody's probably already talked about this but i cant get that fucking mountain goats post outta my head and ive been talking to myself about love as a central theme of frankly most art but especially the art i love the most and i got to undertale and i need to talk about it
god it's all about love. wanting love, not wanting to lose it, grief, hope, determination, it's all fucking love in like 8 different hats. it's the monsters' love they show you (the mercy they show you) that allows frisk to help them get their freedom, it's the player's love for them that brings mercy in the first place, it's all fucking love.
flowey only got his power to reset from dying with his sibling after an act of love for them and you know what he did? he spent years of his life interacting with the people and world as much as he could, in as many ways as possible. he loved being with them and wanted to experience everything because everything was worthwhile to him because of love. and that greed for love led to oversaturation, led to boredom, led to him hurting people to feel anything in that absence of love. he never stopped loving chara, y'know? he was always looking for someone else to play with, someone who could make him feel like nothing had happened. so much so that he follows frisk throughout the underground, insists on keeping them and you there as much as possible, both bitter and needy. and he has to admit that frisk isn't chara to move on. you're not them. they're gone. asriel's gone, too, or will be after this. it's love for chara that leads him to break the barrier, as it was for asgore to try and stop you, and for toriel to take you in at the beginning and the end. it was the desire for love that kept him from letting go, and that caused him to harm so many, as it was for alphys, undyne, asgore, toriel, etc. him, arguably more than anyone else, hurt people out of desire for love and grief over it. and it's him acknowledging that desire and letting it go when it hurts people that sets everyone free.
it is love that makes you go back through the underground, calling papyrus and undyne and toriel in every room just to see their different responses. it is love that leads you to check everywhere before finally ending the game. it is love that leads you back to where your friends are standing, talking about how they've been changed by you, about how the love between you has led to this. it's love that makes you end it to see them happy, and curiosity (which in this case is often just greed for love) to some extent.
and it is love and greed for it that brings you to the reset screen. and flowey, whose desire for love almost consumed everything, that kept the people he loved from their happy endings, from their futures, that asks you to reconsider. having seen all you have, having seen his mistakes, and how happy your friends are now, are you willing to put your desire for love above their happiness? above their freedom? will you make the same choice as him after seeing what harm it caused, after finally getting what you wanted? because whatever reason for resetting you have, it'd probably boil down to love in some way. love for the characters, for the game (experience or lore), etc.
flowey's downfall, to some extent, was in the apathy that came from overconsumption. instead of cherishing the life he had, he had to know the rest. he couldn't let it lie, couldn't find peace about it and move on. he had one life, as do you, as do (in theory) these characters, one you would at that point snatch from them by resetting. flowey's asking you to think twice about whether or not you want to control them, to play with their lives for your own happiness. even if it is out of love.
because it always is.
#god idk does this make sense. fuck#i really like this game guys#idk i havent thought that hard about it in a while or maybe ever but it's soo so good god holy shit#xoxo sincerely someome who hasnt and maybe cannot play anything but true pacifist#yeah being in the ut fandom at like 12 was A Lot at least partially bc of how fucking HARD ppl go with resetting narratives#anyway i think it's cool#games and interactive media in general have so much power to engage the audience with and undertale rocks it with the best of em#literally so beautiful gggahrhuhaghg#the villain asking you if youve learned from his mistakes and pleading with you to not repeat them after all that is just#hhhhhh#i just think it does it really really fucking well#god#undertale#utdr#sheesh#sorry not gonna edit this its like 3am. youre getting the mush#im honestly rusty/never was that deep in ut lore so if i fucked up thats why#asriel's story fucked me up so bad as a kid and STILL fucks me up and now i kinda understand why a bit better#he just wanted to love people he just missed his sibling he just loved the way things used to be so much he did everything he could to#bring it back and it came back all fucked up. maybe theres a reason you only see the true lab in this route huh#and like with the amalgamates you can and should still love what's left. you cant make it what it used to be#but it is always worth loving anyway.#always fucked me up that you have to leave asriel though#flowey still deserves love. is it punishment by the narrative? is it tragedy? idk..#he's stuck in the underground he forced everyone to keep reliving#but idk. wish he got out. i hope he's well now#and yes im aware these are fictionl characters but the game wants you to treat them like theyr real and you should consider their happiness#and i feel like if you missed that then you didn't get undertale yk#and i think most people can compartmentalize their love for these guys and doing the other routes and that's fine#i just choose not to specifically for this game bc it confronts you about it. it's not completely passive (or acts like it)
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baycitystygian · 1 year
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y’all I am going absolutely feral. I’ve been glued to this one show lately and it’s a 90’s sitcom called Caroline In The City and it’s driving me crazy. I love it. I love the characters (except Charlie but he doesn’t get a super huge amount of screen time so like. whatever) and the main ship is just so fucking GOOD and the writers are dragging this out so bad. literally giving me ship blueballs and I hate thisssssssss just let them be happy already 😭
#I THINK THEY WERE TRYING TO BE FRASIER#CAUSE LIKE. THEY DEFINITELY HAD A LOT OF RELATIONSHIP PLOT POINTS IN COMMON WITH DAPHNE AND NILES. SPOILERS AHEAD IF YOU CARE.#IM ONLY ON SEASON THREE SO DONT SPOIL ANYTHING FURTHER#BUT LIKE. IT STARTED OFF WITH THE GUY PINING FOR THE GIRL. CHECK. THEN THE GIRL GETS FEELINGS FOR THE GUY BUT OOPS THE GUY IMPULSIVELY-#GOT MARRIED TO SOMEONE HORRIBLE. ALSO BACKING IT UP A LITTLE THE GIRL WAS ENGAGED TO SOMEONE ELSE BUT IT DIDNT WORK OUT#ALSO I HAVE TO SCREAM ABOUT RICHARD OR I WILL IMPLODE#RICHARD IS *THE* POOR LITTLE MEOW MEOW TO END ALL POOR LITTLE MEOW MEOWS#HES HANDSOME AND DORKY AND BROODY WITH REALLY PRETTY BIG EYES AND HE HAS NEVER COMMITTED A WAR CRIME BUT IF HE DID HE WOULD HAVE EARNED IT#THE MAN PUT UP WITH SO MUCH. POOR LITTLE MEOW MEOW BASICALLY GETS TORTURED EVERY EPISODE. HES EARNED A LITTLE HOMICIDE. AS A TREAT.#also sorry for all caps but I’m REALLY REALLY INTO THIS SHOW AND IM EXCITED TO TALK ABOUT IT#this is gonna be wingsposting all over again huh. me talking about my 90’s sitcom du jour and nobody else getting it or caring.#anyways Richard Korinsky can get it and I’ll volunteer. but also him and Caroline are just so 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺#ALSO DAVID HYDE PIERCE WAS IN AN EPISODE AND MY GOD HE PUT HIS WHOLE PUSSY INTO IT HES SO ICONIC#THERES SO MANY AMAZING GUEST STARS. I RECOGNIZED GEORGE SEGAL BEFORE HE EVEN SHOWED HIS FACE ON CAMERA.#I LITERALLY SAW THE BACK OF HIS HEAD AND WAS LIKE NO FUCKING WAYYYYY#i LOVE just shoot me so I’m used to seeing him in the late 90’s/early 2000’s. I am not clairvoyant I’m just a dorrrrrrrrrrrrk
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brinnanza · 2 years
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liam: actually you can’t move on past your trauma because it’s part of you you can’t just put it down and get over it
also liam: extended scene of caleb coming to terms with the fact that frumpkin isn’t his frumpkin, the cat he had as a kid that he was trying to cling to, and one way or another, once they’re finished with aeor, he will release the familiar, thereby both symbolically and physically releasing the hold the past has on him
I love that liam does these little character bits because a lot of the players only play off each other which like that’s fine and great but liam’s little solo bits give such a.... a richness and depth to his characters. like. I don’t know what fjord’s thinking!! I don’t know how he’s coping because travis doesn’t like....invite the audience/the other players into fjord’s head. and that’s not a bad thing at all because yknow his character is entirely made of observable action. the other characters don’t know what’s going on fjord’s head so the players and the audience don’t get to know either. 
anyway idk I just think it’s so interesting how on talks liam will be like “oh yeah he loves his friends but if the right temptation comes along who knows” but when it comes down to the decisions he makes in-game, it’s nearly always on the side of healing. like part of that is narrative expediency and some of that is knowing that it’s a game and a show and there’s no way they’re beating an archmage with three of them on little to no spells, but also....he left. he countered trent’s counter instead of staying to kill trent (which he obviously couldn’t have done but yknow trauma or whatever). I thought that was gonna be It yknow, one or the other, but he let it go.
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still-with-koo · 1 year
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i must say that your tags are always a quiet extension of you that i appreciate reading, always little footnotes of thought that still have your sparkle and character in the words. it's like that moment when you're having an understanding with a friend and then you nudge them to give them That Look — that 'hey, you're gonna be alright, okay?' look — with a small silent nod. you're sweet in that way, as you always have been. love you, lilo dear.
(are you well? rested? nourished? happy weekend — if it's cold where you are as it has been for me, bundle up! don't get sick now~)
— your eternal sunshine ♡
🥺🥺
The way my heart jumped when I got a few lines in. Like, wait a second? Is it…? OMG it is!! I’ve missed you so damn much 😭😭❤️
Ah, leave it to you to make me feel all warm and cozy with your message. I didn’t realize anyone paid much attention to my tags, but I love that you did. And I love you too ❤️
I’m alright, been eating well lately and getting enough sleep. It’s a bit chilly today but tomorrow is supposed to be warmer. Maybe a bit of sunshine too ☀️ More importantly, how have you been?? I hope you’re eating well and resting enough? Drinking water and keeping warm? Having a good amount of chicken nuggets and hot chocolate?
Sending so many hugs and kisses and warmth your way. Don’t forget to bundle up too and stay healthy always ❤️
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rainbow-demon503 · 2 years
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talking about polyamory with my boyfriend is hard. Probably not because of any obvious reasons.
No, it's hard because my entire life I had to fight for relationships. I had to fight against people ticking me off as weird due to my autism. I had to fight against my anxiety making paralyzing me in new situations and missing the first few times my new classmates would socialize during breaks. I had to fight my disphoria, making me acutely aware that other people's perception of me is very different from how I see myself. I had to fighty depression, because my day has less hours, and everything takes more hours and I've stopped being a high energy kid at age 3, knowing nothing but lagging behind my whole life.
And these issues all compound! My Autism makes it hard for me to figure out when it's appropriate to ask other people to meet them! My Anxiety makes me a lot less likely to risk embarrassment, so I wait until first contacted or seeing clear signs! My depression makes it even less likely for me to meet people, since I can't manage having to fold the clothes or shop groceries if I'm meeting someone later that afternoon!
And my entire life, this has isolated me. People aren't best friends with someone that needs half an hour just to send a message. people aren't best friends with someone that needs a whole day or two as a break between days where only one activity is happening. they are less likely to invite you if they forget you're there and they're more likely to forget you're there if you have trouble speaking in group settings. The only reason me and my boyfriend could date so much was because I literally just went to his place. Even once I left home and lived on my own, we could see eachother only on the weekends, and that's because I basically just came over to have dinner, sleepover, and watch stuff most of the time.
The everyday tasks of life wear me thin. And even now that we life together, it certainly doesn't help that he just doesn't do some everyday tasks. He isn't used to a tidy living space, he has ADHD and all the executive dysfunction problems himself. But then when he still wants to do something exciting in the afternoon, but I'm still recharging from task 1, so that I can go to task 2, all while trying to figure out if task 3 can be done today.
And you know? I do think I could polyamory and have a great time. but I'm also so aware of all the hurdles I face in every relationship. People want to do stuff. And the more time you have for stuff, the more you become a part of their life. And my boyfriend and I are already nesting partners, but just living doesn't build the relationship. But I just don't want him to spend less quality time with me just because I can't do as much. I don't want to become the boring partner, the one he just lives with, the partner that he has to babysit when doing something new, the partner doesn't associate with fun
It's just, I can't even fall back on my family, the person closest to a best friend is too busy and social and anxious herself to have much time leftover for me. He is literally the only person in my corner, but if I can't keep up with his other people that's it. Even if I get other partners myself, unless I have incredible luck, I won't find a deep connection like this one so soon again. I have spent the first 20 years of my life living alone in a house full people, I don't think I could go through that again and come out alive
Because then the thing to look forward to was what comes after. Making my own life with someone I love. But now? there's a working Life in a bunch of months. but other than that? this is as far up as it'll go for whoever knows long
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noxtivagus · 1 year
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oh man i still love ffxv so much 🫶🏼
#🌙.rambles#[ ffxv. ]#i am thinking again of . noctis#GODDAMN I USED TO BE SO#noctis used to be my fav chara back then. he's still one of my favs rn#i love ffxv music sm man thank you yoko shimomura for composing elegant osts#i love kingdom hearts sm too.... final fantasy n kh my childhood fr#help i like so many games that are connected to sqex in a way 😭#nier published by sqex . n huh#even one of my fav animanga ( fullmetal alchemist ) is connected to sqex in a way#funny how all these interests were influenced by my father's side of the family. my dad n an aunt in particular#i actually nearly finished the manga for fma ! but not the last few volumes bcs my aunt has them w her in japan i think. 🥹#wait i'm listening to ffx rn n i am emotional. my first exposure to ff#but i played ffxiii first. i still remember the start of the second chapter i think...? then rip ps3 broke#🥹 i'm. i love my childhood#thinking abt it n i've really been exposed to a lot of video games#gow & tlou & loz & ac & the other ac & ff & nier & fe & kh & mario stuff ofc & help sm more#oh man i really have always been passionate about video games. it means so much to me esp w the ones w good stories bcs u play through them#ffxiv as an mmorpg. really fit so well with what i wanted. im really so happy#god i played a lot of board games as well when i was young n those smart wtvr stuff#n a lot of fps in gr 6 especially. n so much gacha games wtf n rhythm games n mobile mmos too#when i get interested in smth i really seek to learning as much of it as i can#i also watched sm anime back then 🫣 n i got into a lot of kpop grps back then too#in ffxiv i do most content. not quite rp yet tho. but i have rped in other places in the past LMFAOOO#thinking abt how i'm so weak for romantic stuff tho. suteki da ne... sob. i blame final fantasy for me being like this#the way i write is so filled with confusion. but also a gentle n strong love for life as a whole. n poems n stories n. longing#please pay me no mind rn i am Emotional n cringe but free#i am emotional rn n distracted n confused n a mess but at least i got that. thing out of my mind. i'll stress about it later
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