#he succeeds sometimes

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Gaslight, Gatekeep, Girl found dead in a hidden room.

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#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #lan xichen #jin guangyao #jiang cheng #wei wuxian #qin su #EDIT: Tumblr published an earlier draft with only half the notes I wrote so: late entry on my JGY thoughts. #Unlike the mystic powers of the stockmarket (what the OG meme is referring to) I think this situation calls for more active investigation. #qin su is such a deeply tragic character to me and I really wish we got a bit more from her. #Love everyone who sent me messages about her after the last time she appeared. #I think she needs a spin off of her being a transmigrator SO badly. #MDZS has so many interesting characters - but it sometimes fails to give them the proper room to really develop past a role in the plot. #That's just the consequence of writing a story like MDZS. Not every character in a book *needs* to have a rich inner life and backstory! #To do so would bog down the story and obliterate any notion of pacing. It's just not possible. #Jin Guangyao (nee Meng Yao) is unfortunately not free from this leeway rule. He is the culprit of this murder mystery plot #and thus NEEDS to encapsulate the themes of the book. And personally he's a 7 out of 10 at best on this front (in the AD). #MDZS is about rumours twisting reality and working towards truth. And about how people & situations are rarely ever black & white #JGY has his motivations. He's well written in regards to his actions making sense for his character. #What started as good traits (drive to succeed & improve his image) became twisted over time (do anything to maintain his image) #and it's a good parallel to WWX! He has the same arc (with different traits)! Bonus points for IGY in that regard. #but man....by the time we confront this guy for murder there's not a lot of grey morality. He's just...deep in the hole *he* dug. #There's a beautiful tragedy to it! More on JGY in later comics - this is getting pretty long already!

[turtleblogatlast]

Leo getting hit with a truth curse but instead of forcing him to admit to super sad or worrying things it’s things like “it was me who broke the remote” “I saw Mikey prank Donnie and helped hide it because it’s way funnier if he didn’t know who it was” “I rip my clothes to look more like Raph’s because he’s really cool” “my stripes aren’t even red they’re pink!”

#rottmnt #rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #rottmnt leo #rise leo #plot twist he COULD be admitting angsty stuff but he’s pushing the less oof truths forward instead on purpose #raph: hey leo what do you want for dinner #leo: *about to bare his soul on all his internal torment but pivots* I’m afraid of snakes #(no but fr Leo’s stripes being technically more pink instead of red is cute ngl) #(a very reddish pink to the point that in certain lighting it looks red but at the base they’re p pink) #(i also am very fond of the idea that Leo doesn’t just have questionable taste in fashion he also just loves Raph a lot and looks up to him) #but yeah I think that something like this would be 99% Leo admitting to unimportant things or admitting to how much he values everyone #like they all KNOW Leo loves them and he’s talked them up enough for them to know but it’s different when he’s like #‘I just wanna read my comics with you guys around - it’s my favorite place to be’ #or again just random bs that doesn’t REALLY have a lot of weight like #‘I like using my portals to prank random people around the world’ #‘I’m worried about being a bad influence on hueso jr’ #‘sometimes I kinda wanna see hypno’s plans succeed’ #‘it’s been way too long since I found this out and honestly it’s embarrassing but I actually don’t have a di-‘ #SORRY COULDNT HELP MYSELF #(<-but did u know that that pink rather than red observation actually ties into this headcanon as well if u know about red eared sliders)

[anyoldfandom]

I am actually. I am so emotional over the Salazar parents and I need to share this to tumblr too.

A lot of stories where the MC is adopted I feel. Either dismiss the biological parents and the impact they have on the kid's life, or makes them evil and abusive, framing the loss of the bio parents as a good thing, or at least something we shouldn't think about just look at this new family.

But Genrex doesn't do that. From the start, Rex wanted to find out more about his parents - it's one of his primary character motivations, next to helping people. He loves them, even though he doesn't know them.

And the more he finds out about them, the more he realizes they loved him. Rylander is consumed by guilt but as Rex's first connection to his pre-Event life, the first thing he does is hug him. And when he tells Rex about his parents, the two things Rex knows is that 1) they were scientists, and 2) that when he was in danger, they were desperate enough to use their secret, experimental technology to save him. Technology built from their desire to help the world, to save countless lives and end countless suffering.

And then. When he finds out that they were dead, he doesn't stop caring. It'd be so easy, too, to tie it up there - his parents were good people, he got his answer about them, the end. But they don't. He doesn't. Because the show is saying once again that they are his parents. He still calls them mom and dad, even as the show makes it clear Holiday and Six adopted Rex as their son. Even as the show even parallels Six and One with Rex and Six (and I will talk about that more later if I don't forget, trust me), to really drive home how much they're family. Rex even says he considers the two of them family, and later that he considers Noah, Claire and Annie family.

He has new family, the show tells us, but his old family still matters to him. He's upset that he never has the chance to meet his parents, that everything he hears about them, about his time with them, is secondhand knowledge. It tells us clearly that not only does Rex still love them, but that he still wants to know them. And everything we find out about them reinforces the love that they had for each other.

We see Abuela and the family in Mexico, who connect him to his birth family and tell him that he was so loved back then, and still is now. We see their office in Abysus through Rex's eyes. The picture of him and his dad on his desk. The drawing Rex drew, proudly pinned to the wall.

We see it in the familiarity of the drawing. That that robot, that build, was what Rex created when he was lost and scared and alone - that it was made to keep him safe. That it first appeared in his mind in a place he felt safe.

The show says, tenderly and softly, that the love is still there. That the fact these people died was nothing but a tragedy, that their love is a big part of what made Rex who he is today - that every molecule in his body is filled with their final gift to him. That every time he cures someone, every time he uses a build, every time he makes a machine - we see the love that they had for him.

And the way he quietly absorbs his father's face. The way he freezes and whispers "Mamá?" when he finds out Zag-Rs has their mother's voice. The fact that she even has her voice as a testament to Caesar's love, too - that it was meant to bring comfort and safety. The way Rex yells at Caesar when he finds out they have a family property, a connection to their past, the way he fights to protect it.

And, none of this takes away still from Six and Holiday being Rex's family too. None of this removes the work either set of parents did for him, the love either set has - the show says that it was unfair that the Salazar parents were lost. That Six and Holiday are not replacements, that they still love him as parents but play different roles in his life. They can not, and have no desire to, replace the Salazars. But Rex needs parents, he needs protectors, and so they will do what they can for him - at first out of necessity, to keep this kid they barely know safe, but then out of love. They aren't replacing what was lost, but are doing their best to do what Rex's bio parents would do. And they do mess up in it - they mess up in ways Rex's bio parents might not have. Six is clearly bad with showing affection, affection we saw the Salazars give Rex so easily, and Holiday is overworked and stressed constantly, sometimes breaking under the pressure and snapping at Rex and Six, things we never saw the Salazars do.

It's just. It's about how sometimes things will not be the same. They will be different. That doesn't mean the people you lost aren't still with you.

#This is also. Why I dislike the 'Rex was secretly made for the nanite experiments the accident was a lie' theory so much #Bc it assigns malice where the show says over and over again there was only love. #That this was only ever a tragedy of good people whose good intentions were manipulated and twisted. #And I think giving them something shitty to have done in the past especially goes against the message of the show's perspective on adoption #The family we choose is not always stronger than the family we are born to. Sometimes they are equal in different ways. #Rex's bio parents are gone but not replaced. They have also shaped who he is #Six and Holiday are just picking up where they left off. Because they have to. #Also I don't like the theory that Rex's parents are EVOs somewhere bc I think it diminishes the impact of the tragedy too. #I get. Wanting them to have a happy ending. But I think it's important to realize that this is the closest they can have to a happy ending. #Some things cannot be replaced. Or fixed. Sometimes life takes what we love and what loves us. And that is okay. #It is okay to be upset at that and it is okay to never fully move on. #'What about Caesar?' I have. Another post's worth of thoughts about him. #But I think he's also a character who is defined more by Rex by their relation and defined by the story by his guilt #I think he is the closest thing Rex has to a shitty bio family member and he is shitty in plenty of ways #But he's also a parallel to Rex in a lot of ways. He fails where Rex succeeds bc of it. #generator rex #genrex #Anyways. Sorry for the big post.

[inchidentally]

https://x.com/MERCL4REN/status/1743286121973555513?s=20

find the difference level impossible :D but seriously, this tweet gave me a stomachache from laughing so hard.

THERE'S MY TWO CREEPY TOO SIMILAR VESTAL VIRGINS THAT MAKE ALL THE MEN ON THE GRID (except lewis) GO HUUUHHHHH???

#the tweet text salgfljasgfhljashfslja truth #but I love how they sometimes turn just wayyy too similar and at a distance the grid is like wait which is.... #and when they drove triumphantly back to the pits those two times fist bumping across the air as they were side by side #the other drivers were like ohhhhh boy I don't like this #if they can weather a bad car the same #and then succeed in a good car almost the same #what will become of us mere men?? #we do not like The Arts we do not like Silent Communication we do not know what they are saying when it is Just The Eyes #we are but men who get angry and dejected alone or celebrate and shout at the top alone or maybe we thump our brothers backs and laugh loud #what are these delicate creatures with hairless cheeks and babysoft heads of hair and adolescent skins #only Lewis stands apart and watches the pair with knowing and gladness that the future will be theirs #the natural rightful heirs to his disruption and inveigling of the most homogeneous sport known to man #Carlos: the Piastri Boy does not like me but he is soft like a woman should I love bomb him or fist bump him what do I do #Charles: I feel as if I should be one of them but The Men want me over here oh but I wish I could Join Them in Silent Beautiful Eeriness #what the FUCK am I saying #inchreplies #vestal virgins au

[phoenixyfriend]

I want to read more fics where people have arranged age-gap marriages that are like. Pleasant.

Not mega horny. Not unhappy. Not strained. Just… okay. We Can Work With This. Yes this is a younger person who married a rich older individual without falling in love, but both parties went into it knowingly and willingly, who didn't really want a charmed romance or an escape from anything, they just. Saw an option for whatever they actually needed (a beard, an heir, a cushy lifestyle, protection from unwanted suitors, whatever), and decided to sign a contract and make it work..

There's a "married a friend of my dad's for the money" thing in a show I'm watching and I just. That one ended poorly, but it got me thinking about how I want more variety in arranged marriage plots.

Where is that "Yeah, he needed an heir, I didn't mind a pregnancy, and I wanted a cushy lifestyle that he could provide if I just had the kid and did my part in managing the estate" landed gentry energy when you need it.

I just want "we had a convenient contract signed and cohabitated without any real issue afterwards"

#Someone suggested Cod*Wan #and I feel like that one is a bit too prone to 'this goes full romance' #just doesn't stick to that 'we are convenient' energy. #I have my Regency ObiMaul AU but that's not convenient or age difference #that's just 'yeah sometimes Maul tries to kill his spouse and everyone's fine with that since he never succeeds.' #tropes #shipping #phoenix talks #I'm trying to think of a good option #Brain is saying Dooku/Grievous #did it for the health insurance

[viivdle]

he not only knows card tricks, he can pickpocket now

#sometimes he even succeeds #cardan greenbriar #the ghost #the court of shadows #the cruel prince #the wicked king #the queen of nothing #the folk of the air #tfota memes

[sanduchengjiu]

one thing that always bothered me and confused me about mdzs is why Wei Wuxian and Jiang cheng were pitted against each other so strongly. Bc even if you take into account that people would assume wwx was a bastard of jfm, in the narrative its something that is common? Or at least in terms of the Jin, there were bastards flying all over the place but I don’t remember there ever being competition about who would be the sect leader, it was always Jzx until he died. So idk if I missed something or I’m misremembering but it honestly feels like most of the pressure came from the fragile relationship between the Jiang parents and less about what society thought. Also favoring Wei Wuxian is one thing but jfm never gave any implication that he was being favored as the next in line, as shitty as his favoritism was. It just makes me feel sad that both boys were under so much pressure for absolutely futile reasons at the end of the day. Like was jc’s cultivation that bad?? I don’t think so?? And even then if he was less talented than wwx it wouldn’t matter bc he’s still the heir. It would be insane if jfm just decided to break convention over talent bc of some sect motto. And I don’t remember there ever being a requirement to be an outstanding amazing cultivator to be sect leader. If that was the case then there would be no hereditary structure to succession, and jfm wouldn’t even be on the roster? Neither would jgs. There was never any importance on their ‘talents’ so wtf was the problem.

Also what was the timeline on Wei Wuxians conception bc he and Jiang cheng were born like a week apart at least at most one year and it seems like wwxs parents were not even at lotus pier since they left to wander together. I feel like that would clear a lot of things up tbh. bc I don’t think jfm capable of finding csr on the road and conceiving wwx and then coming home to yzy and conceiving jc, and csr wasn’t even a yunmeng jiang cultivator it was wcz?? So what was the overlap. Like did jfm get wcz pregnant or what?? Were they regular visitors to lotus pier? To me it read like jfm was a great friend and leader to wcz and admired csr but I read it a while ago so idk. It’s not helped by the fact that jfm doesn’t seem to favor yzy more than is necessary at least outright, and we all know she ain’t the most attentive either. So basically jc and wwx were brought into the world into a weird and fucked up long distance foursome situation and spent their entire youth suffering under the second hand feelings of their parents.

#rip chengxian they were doomed from the start #I still don’t understand why jc’s cultivation talent was that important #was there ever a mentioning of cultivation power being necessary #all I remember is people complimenting wwx for being cool and sometimes lwj #and that whole list of eligible bachelors thing #but like they never even gave jc an chance dawg 😭 #and nhs was not even a fighter but he was still sect leader #the pressure on jc to succeed just felt so fabricated #I think it was just there to create the rift between him and wwx #but it also sticks out like a sore thumb #since no one else was under similar pressure #also are we really gonna sit there and believe that in a patriarchal society it mattered that there was a bastard #that’s exactly why legitimate marriages were so important #yzy being a bitch about wwx would not even matter either #and why did she believe that wwx was a bastard in the first place? maybe there was a possibility but honestly feels super illogical on her #a dna test would’ve saved them #mdzs #jiang cheng #wei wuxian

[dnangelic]

sometimes i think abt towa and argentine in the very last manga chapter n cry

#*･ﾟ⊰ 𝐎𝐔𝐓 𝐎𝐅 𝐂𝐀𝐑𝐃𝐒. ⊱ ✦ › OUT. #waaaa waaaa my lucifer my boy-king and the respect and power he doesn't even want but deserves sm #dark wouldnt want towa n argentine's help if he could go without it!! all his theft has been bc he cared #n its the fact he n dai care tht they genuinely deserve the sort of trust respect n acknowledgement from the niwa fam #that the rest of the world who doesnt properly or intimately know the likes of dark n dai doesnt afford them #i justttt wooooughhhh towa argentine gratefully graciously bowing themselves with fealty #to dark who's always been bearing all this insane burden and self-expectation alone #all by himself #afraid even of that solitude but nevertheless doing everything he could for the sake of #what he felt was right saving the artworks saving precious things even if he had to steal them away and disparage himself #more and more (the more he succeeds the more he disgraces himself as a villain and a criminal) #aaaa waaaa INNER NIWA FAM CHARAS r just so special.... THEY GET TO SEE IT ALL... #how heavy the pressure is on dark n dai both actually despite the superficial layers like elmroot says #the 'outer self' that enjoys being a phantom thief and then the inner that 'hunts his own kind' #how tired dark is sometimes... #well. w/e. point is niwa fam chara writers who ever take this into account ill kiss u forever #dark can be annoying or behave in spoiled/lazy/belligerent ways sometimes but it rlly makes him and dai more like the #rebel angel leader / boy king example i try to write them as. they still care ofc they doooo #it's just they're the equivalent of the highest seat holding together their little country #their miniature empire that dark n the niwa have built up over yrs n yrs n yrs!! #dark never claims himself a king or a prince he doesn't throw his weight or titles around like that #but between paradise lost and POTO's occasional angel of darkness/PRINCE of darkness #the vibes are there in between the lines. they r right there. this dude has so much hes taking responsibility for #even though he doesn't even Have To. but in doing so- he is. and SHOULD rightly be supported #in the manner of someone in service demonstrating loyalty to him #ok. ramble over

[transingthoseformers]

Hghhhhhgh thinking about Fiasco and, while his carrier Megatron might've sided with the autobots and humans, Fiasco's just like:

He'll be won over... Eventually.

#maccadam #transformers #tfe megatron #fiasco #oc #tf oc #the fiasco plotline #he's never known a life before the Decepticons and before the War. so_ naturally_ he's skeptical of the autobots #in some versions of the plotline i silently push Fiasco into the (now empty) Leader Of The Decepticons spot #which would have interesting results #in some i have him immediately captured by GHOST and the fun of him participating in the jailbreak attempts (does he succeed? sometimes) #in some he ends up joining ghost... eventually... and it's such a thing #in most the Coalition evades capture by GHOST and cause carefully applied chaos throughout the season(s) #I TAKE THIS FUCKER IN SO MANY DIRECTIONS #and remember this is the earthspark branch of the plotline— there's still a tfp flavored branch

[kwehgal]

e.sther flirting with cloud in r.ebirth 𝙞𝙨𝙣’𝙩 𝙨𝙥𝙚𝙘𝙞𝙖𝙡 .  she doesn’t have a crush on him .  what she does have is 𝙜𝙤𝙤𝙙 𝙩𝙖𝙨𝙩𝙚 and she will compliment a person if she considers that person as physically attractive , but 𝚜𝚑𝚎 𝚙𝚛𝚘𝚋𝚊𝚋𝚕𝚢 𝚊𝚕𝚜𝚘 𝚋𝚞𝚝𝚝𝚎𝚛𝚜 𝚞𝚙 𝚊𝚗𝚢 𝚙𝚘𝚝𝚎𝚗𝚝𝚒𝚊𝚕 𝚛𝚒𝚍𝚎𝚛 / 𝚌𝚞𝚜𝚝𝚘𝚖𝚎𝚛 .  it’s nothing personal and how she is when she’s on the job isn’t necessarily a lie or an act , she’s rather truthful all things considered , but e.sther definitely prefers to keep her professional life and her personal life 𝙨𝙚𝙥𝙖𝙧𝙖𝙩𝙚 , rather than complicate things .

#hc ୨୧ ⊹ . ݁ ˖ ˚ #yes she says he's pretty #she calls him a cutie pie and definitely shows interest in him #but #she didn't flirt with him in og #she was nice to him #and wanted to help him out #that's pretty much it #she was just nice #now if she actually spent more time with the guy could her interest become romantic ???? sure #I GUESS #buuut #she thinks he has potential #and she really wants to see him succeed #¯\_(ツ)_/¯ #it be like that sometimes #rebirth spoilers

[catboyrome]

anyway

#christian yu #dpr ian #yu barom #rome #dpr #sometimes i forget he just looks like that #bc im just trying to process everything hes saying bc the jump from maple brown sugar oatmeal #to what u have to do to succeed in a modern creative market to bob the pimple to healthy coping mechanisms and habits #so!! #also dabin start doing lives again pls!!!!!! #fr dabin come on now #anyway its ian loving hrs 25/7 on my blog get over it #im so excited to see dpr on tourrrr

[thousand-sunnies]

Killing Ace off after the whole Marineford arc is such a fascinating choice narratively. Like, it’s not a bad one per se, but man, I wish I could’ve been there when the manga was first coming out to see the readers’ reactions. Because after how important saving him has been built up to be – all the people dying in his name, not to mention Luffy’s whole thing – the fact that he dies anyway is just so interesting.

#i don’t have any deep analysis on it or anything i just can’t get it out of my head #like man. what an exercise in futility. AND YET WHAT A DECLARATION OF LOVE. ITS ALL ABOUT LOVE MAN. #sometimes you don’t succeed but it’s better to fail than to never try etc etc #its really interesting to watch marineford with the knowledge of what’s coming because it’s like watching a train wreck #but it must have been SUCH a shock to not know what’s coming and THEN see it happen…. #HOW LONG DID IT TAKE FOR PEOPLE TO BELIEVE THAT HES REALLY DEAD HUH? #IN A MANGA THAT BARELY KILLS PEOPLE. TO KILL A GUY YOU DEDICATED A WHOLE ARC TO SAVING. #I SURE WOULDNT BELIEVE IT #anyway i’m rambling but mannnnn i just have thoughts #one piece #portgas d ace

[anghraine]

Another form of Depression Discourse that I'm extremely wary of is "here are some things that can help with depression, so it's totally curable! You just have to do The Things, even if they're hard."

The issue is that—yes, there are things you may be able to do that can help with depression, for some people. There are habits that are likely to be helpful, like dragging yourself to things you normally like or getting exercise where possible.

Does this mean that those things intrinsically cure depression if you just pull yourself up by your bootstraps try hard enough? No. They can cure some people's depression completely. They can help other people's. It depends on the person.

But for me, the incessant do this, do that, you've got to take responsibility and get over it, has always been far more discouraging than learning about things like the relatively high rate of recurrence. I used to think that the reason I couldn't get past it was wholly on me. It kept coming back because I was lazy or undisciplined or self-indulgent or simply not doing the right things for whatever reason. Not trying hard enough. I told myself that if I could just summon up enough will to push myself past it, I would cure myself by sheer personal strength.

But I never could.

It tended to come back worse when I was under a lot of pressure, but no matter how good things were, it always returned. I'd spend a week or two feeling really good and motivated and energetic, then irritable and anxiously go-go-go yet very distractable—and then there'd be this awful crash into another episode of depression, over and over and over. I lived in my favorite city, I took walks, I went to readings, I volunteered, I kept myself and my apartment clean, and yet I couldn't overcome it.

The only thing that really put a significant dent in it was getting diagnosed as bipolar and put on mood stabilizers and eventually antipsychotics. And it still comes back! The crash is less extreme, most of the time—but I have grad student insurance for my medication, I have a psychiatrist and access to counseling when I need it, legal accommodations, and necessarily keep a fairly strict schedule. Going to my university in person rather than online helps, doing things I ordinarily like helps, sleeping regular hours helps. None of them help very much without medication. And for me, nothing helps enough to cure it.

The point is not that improvement is impossible, or that it never goes away for good. It does for some people! It does for many people. But, without denying the effort those people have put in, there is an element of good fortune to that. I think it's important for the people who aren't cured, who can never pull the bootstraps hard enough, to know that that's not a moral failing. It's not because we're weak or undisciplined, it's not because we aren't trying, it's not because we have any less value or merit than the people who get better or people who never have depression at all.

So, personally, I think a more important, generally accurate, and compassionate message than "depression will get better if you just try hard enough" is this one:

Whether you're cured or not, whether the usual recommendations help much or not, whether medications help or not: this isn't your fault.

#it is most similar to asthma for me—i can make lifestyle decisions that often minimize or prevent my symptoms #but man if the temperature drops or someone smokes near me or the air is polluted or i'm exposed to allergens—back it comes #sometimes just lying down gives me the Asthma Cough and keeps me awake #and it's not my fault! i just have a disease #it's not my fault that i'm bipolar either #honestly this is part of the reason that lotr speaks so strongly to me—apart from my gondor stanning and all #frodo tries so hard and he doesn't succeed and he doesn't get better and he is still worthy of the greatest praise #and his choices still contributed heavily to victory in the end even if he couldn't do it on his own #this is more powerful for me than all the recovery narratives in the world honestly #anghraine rants #anghraine babbles #rare breed of attack unicorn #depression #bipolar disorder #long post

[acrazybayernfan]

October 29th 2014 : DFB Pokal second round, Bayern-Hamburger SV (3-1) (part 1)

The first assist from Thomas Müller to Robert Lewandowski

#this goal is a presage because we will have to wait quite sometime before seeing another one but he exists to announce what will come later #this goal is a display of robert's intelligence who lets the ball go because he is offside #of thomas' determination and willingness who runs for the ball even if the situation looks desperate #and it's his efforts which gives hopes to lewy who decides to follow the action and encourages philipp to go for the pressing #and thomas' pressing makes the defender do a mistake #but it's such an intelligent pressing because he doesn't go for the ball or the player #he positions himself between the defender and the keeper to be on pass' trajectory #and then instead of trying to score himself he gives the ball to robert #who is perfectly positioned alone between the two defenders #he tries a first time and fail #but he stays focused and determined which helps him to react quickly and to succeed the second time #and then them pointing at each other ridiculously simultaneously #thomas müller #robert lewandowski #müllendowski #müllendowski anthology #fc bayern #bayern-hamburger sv #dfb pokal #2014/2015 #remember me but forget my fate #19/? #edit because this isn't long enough 🙃 #if you look closely thomas never looks up or looks around #he seems to only be focused on the ball #and he knows where lewy is and the pass is perfect

[uncanny-tranny]

hello there!! I know I'm being a bit bold with this ask even if I'm hiding to an extent on anon but- I was wondering if you might be interested in watching/sharing this video essay I recently finished on a trans reading of Jesse Pinkman

https://youtu.be/sVh0of5kAQ4

feel free to ignore me and either way I hope you have a good day!

I'm a few minutes into this video (it's close to the forty-minute mark), but so far, I appreciate her insight! Obligatory warning for spoilers about Breaking Bad and a little for Better Call Saul.

I think so many people are attracted to the idea of trans Jesse because Breaking Bad cannot be separated from the analysis of masculinity and toxic masculinity specifically. In these discussions, I think trans people often have unique insights into their experiences with toxic masculinity, and though that isn't always true, I myself certainly know that I and many trans people have a complex relationship with masculinity (and femininity, but I digress).

I think I most related to the idea of a trans reading of Jesse in the scene where Jane observes that not only did Jesse draw himself as superheros, but his kangaroo superhero had a pouch. It was relatable, and almost this sort of realization that Jesse presents himself a certain way, yet other people interpret him differently than he does.

I highly doubt Vince Gilligan intended Jesse to be trans. I highly doubt that Aaron Paul played Jesse in a way that was meant to be read as trans. However, I do still appreciate the trans reading of Jesse, and I think that if it were canon, it would fit neatly into the overall themes of the show (that being masculinity, gender, gender roles, and how people contend with these elements)

#ask #anon #trans #transgender #lgbt #lgbtq #ftm #mtf #nonbinary #and i like the disclaimer about transness that she put too #(context: using she/her because that is what she seems to use and clarifies that she primarily uses 👍) #i see some people that assume that a trans reading of jesse came out of nowhere but i don't think that's accurate... #...i think a lot of people picked up on the cues of masculinity as a theme of brba and how jesse '~fails~' #and it's relatable for some trans people to feel you failed masculinity (even if you never WANTED to succeed at it) #because there are sometimes consequences to failing masculinity either by chance or choice #as a trans man i related to jesse and the ways he 'failed' at masculinity because that's been my own experiences

[selarina]

i think gojo tries to bake a cake for your birthday, messes up bad and transports the two of you to a small town bakery in Germany to get you a freshly baked infamous cake instead

#it’s about the little and the big things with him sometimes #he succeeds at the big things #it’s all he’s known his whole life #but ever since you made him that birthday cake for his 28th birthday #he couldn’t stop thinking about the taste #objectively it was decent nothing special but something about the fact that you spent your energy and time making it for him #made it special #and he wants to give that to you so bad #but he can’t help but fail #he fears he’ll never be good at the little things but he tries anyway #gojo satoru