#he who perceives the world

[meredithbeckham]

when you grew up like we did, it… it impacts how you see the world. everything is filtered through a very specific lens. and ward got that.

i think it’s important to realize you can miss something, but not want it back, paulo coelho.

#daisyjohnsonedit #daisy johnson #aosedit #daisy x ward #anti skyeward #to be clear this isn't meant to romanticize them it's just exploring a facet of their dynamic i find interesting (and utterly terrifying #and sickening) #how much of daisy's connection to ward to begin with was in their shared abusive backgrounds #how he specifically could understand how she grew up and the impact it had on her and her worldview #it physically hurts me to think about how vulnerable she was with him and how much she trusted him with as her s.o #how much she would have felt for him in regard to his own abuse and wanted to help him and what a role that in of itself would have played #in their relationship and in her feelings #something i think aos does really well is allude to daisy's history - how clear it is that she is a survivor of abuse and how consistently #present that is in how she perceives and navigates the world #it's subtle but so very there #her face in that scene where ward goes off because of the staff. CHILLS #and it hurts me so very much to think of how connected she felt to ward in that regard while he himself was preying on and manipulating her #tucking away every vulnerable detail she shared for later use #how he convinces her to trust him and that he won't turn his back on her just to be yet another person who has abused her #how when he starts talking about how he isn't a good man it must be so easy to think he's just like her - thinking she's bad and worthless #and wrong and unlovable because that's what abuse does that's what it does to you #and daisy is so keenly aware of that so much more self-aware than she's given credit for #abuse / #daisy who is actually able to articulate what ward was to her and who maybe misses what she thought he was sometimes because how could #it not be nice to for a moment have someone who understood #but who is also so keenly aware of who he is and what he has done

[torturedpoetemotions]

Actually the implications of John also being bisexual are so fucking tasty to me because like. OG John has no support system and no protection against the world except his own perceived strength so he learns to ferret out anything that can possibly be seen as weakness to those around him and that includes any affection or attraction he might feel towards men because nothing screams "stay in your fucking closet" like spending all your time around a fringe subculture of serial killing doomsday preppers in the Midwest during the Reagan era.

By the time he notices Dean starting to look a little too long at boys his age, he's probably convinced himself that whatever he felt (still feels but ignores) was a temporary youthful indiscretion, and of course Dean can't afford those, doesn't get to have those, he's got to be a soldier. He's got to be a better soldier than John, even.

I dunno I've just had enough conversations with family members who are loudly but somehow also mildly homophobic and yet say or do things that make me *eyeballs emoji* not to think this is not only possible but arguably likely.

#supernatural #the winchesters #spn #spnwin #john winchester #shifting my headcanon of john to the type of person who doesn't think of himself as homophobic if he ever things about it at all #and would even probably try to stop a hate crime if he saw one happening right in front of him #(or likes to think he would) #but also views his own queer desire--and thus that of others--with suspicion and contempt #like something frivolous that he simply doesn't have the luxury to pursue as a Real Man in the Real World with Real Responsibilities #and when you live like that especially due to your own choices anything that seems like a luxury you view with a certain level of contempt #so he's like 'heh must be nice to have time for boyfriends' in the most condescending and degrading way imaginable #in the same way he probably treated sam's affinity for academia #in fact i'd argue a lot of what we see from dean with regards to the way he mocks sam for certain things is probably just echoes of john #and what's REALLY crazy-making is the way most of these things dean mocks sam for early on later prove to be things DEAN actually does enjo #dean likes to read and he loves chick flicks and he gets excited about tomatoes and enjoys dressing up nice #dean learned early on that certain things were not acceptable for a Real Man from john bullying him out of doing them #and he does the same to sam #and one of the things he consistently mocks sam for in the beginning is his perceived sexuality #and sure we could just chalk that up to stereotyping but EVEN THEN that jives with the idea that #john simply put his own queer desire in a box labeled 'weaknesses real men don't have' along with idk a love of reading and salads and bein #emotionally vulnerable and sincere with people you love #and then he told Dean 'this is the box of forbidden things' #and dean the ever-dutiful son learned his lesson well

[beebfreeb]

I just started following you and I think your OCs relationship with age (dot) as well as actually having older OCs is really neat!

Thank you so much! Weird relationships to age is one of my favorite things to do (autism metaphor) + I like to have variety in my characters as much as possible, though I do find myself having personal trends... Also, with older characters you can put fit more events in their life before it starts to sound silly.

#Ahh the ''always perceived as a child when it's more complicated than that'' #or my favorite the ''put into the world as an adult with the bare minimum and being expected to behave normally and function'' #which I do with a lot of robot characters but also the Salesman TBH. #He was born a preprogrammed adult with a business degree in his head instead of any life experience. #If there was more oversight he would've been really good at his job. Instead he is so so so weird and doesn't know what food poisoning is. #I got Sales on the mind... SAD! #Anyway there is a sort of beauty in a 30-40 year old character who has only gotten worse

[mikkeneko]

Shen Qingqiu at pretty much all times:

#world's most self-effacing narrator #like this isn't necessarily a low-self-esteem thing? I don't think? #he literally will just do anything to be Not Perceived #see my prev post about how reaching for a fan to hide his face is THEE very first thing he does when waking up in his new life #even BEFORE he realizes where and who he is #he haaaaates having attention on him #(which makes the fact that he's basically the center of Luo Binghe's universe a source of profound ongoing discomfort) #it's not that he thinks everyone hates him he just doesn't realize other people think of him at all #he has no sense of object permanence SPECIFICALLY regarding his own self in other people's minds #like this is the man who made 'I'll fake my death and that will surely not bother my loved ones at all!' his PLAN A

[carefulfears]

thinking about how expectant of her own death scully always was, but how completely struck by shock she was in mulder’s, despite how clear it had always been that he would one day die for the cause. tragedy in the x-files as something you should have been prepared for, but never could be, in scully standing at a funeral, as her mother had stood at her father’s, and barely being able to speak. she should be able to do this? bred to be a war widow, attached to an endless line. but no matter how many times she saw him put that gun to himself, or run off in front of another, she really did believe that he would always come back. she really did believe that there would never be a day where he didn’t just appear in the doorway again.

#‘oh my god you’re so naive / you’ll leave this world in a drunken heap / who’ll make the arrangements baby / them or me?’ #oh father john misty we’re really in it now #that song (‘please don’t die’) has been discussed RE: msr before but it’s that ‘who’ll make the arrangements?’ line that sticks with me #in the song it’s from his wife’s point of view in his addiction/suicidality. how he’s always running off with ‘reptilian strangers.’ #but it always makes me think of scully standing at that funeral and saying….he was the last one. #his sister is GONE. his mother is gone. his father is gone. #and that realization of…she had to plan that funeral. the flowers and the people and the priest and the grave. #she’s pregnant and she’s alone and he ran off after someone else or some answers as he always does. but who will make the arrangements? #in that moment at the funeral when skinner says….but he’s NOT the last one….. #she has to keep going because he’s left her this baby she’s carrying. and she is so ill-equipped and she carries so much perceived shame. #her mother did it. her mother WOULDVE done it- had ahab not come home one day. the women on the base she grew up on did it. #and anyone in the world could’ve told you that she would have to do it one day- no matter how many years she spends chasing after him #as he jumps onto moving trains or pulls the trigger on his own head or runs to the arctic #but she never actually thought she would. and now she’s realizing that she can’t. #and she’s planning a funeral and decorating a nursery at the same time and she is ‘just not capable’ #txf.txt

[goldensunset]

pla was like hey what if you got sent back in time to a world where a bunch of people hate you for existing and think you must be evil and force you to perform herculean tasks daily just to be tolerated except there’s this one guy who seems to genuinely like you and he thinks it’s really cool that you’re an outsider from another world and he’s there for you in your worst moment when no one else is brave enough to help and then later after it’s all been resolved you find out that this entire mess was his fault in the first place he’s the reason that you’re here he’s the reason that the world was ending and you got blamed for all of that and he turns on you suddenly and reveals he was just using you to achieve his own selfish goal and after you put a stop to him he curses you for being an outsider sent here just to stop him and now suddenly he genuinely hates you more than anyone else because it has dawned on him that you are the epitome of all that he wishes he could be

#see it’s not just about the ‘oh he pretended to be friendly and then betrayed you! oh no!’ #you can get a betrayal trope in any old media #it’s about specifically the setup here #like what if he went from being one of the few people to tolerate you in this world #and the only one who can really keep up with you and travel the world and help you as your friend #the only one who’s really genuinely happy that you’re in this world #to suddenly the person who wants you gone most of all #it hits harder than the friendly people in the galaxy team who never hate you but just kinda sit back most of the time #it hits harder than the people who openly express their distrust for you from the beginning and slowly warm up #nah this is the one guy who actually liked you at the start until he realized your reason for being in this world #and it is antithetical to his (perceived) purpose #like ok i gotta be honest i don’t think volo was planning on backstabbing you from the start #bc he didn’t know you were arceus’s champion yet right #you were just some random kid #like i think once you started gathering plates he was like hmmm maybe i can use them… #idk #thoughts for today #pokémon #legends arceus #volo

[idkaguyorsomething]

this is the anybodys/chino dynamic to me

(IMAGE ID: three images. The first one is two sketches of people standing side by side. The first person is glaring and has their arms folded while being labeled “actual sunshine” and the second person is smiling brightly enough that a halo is emanating from their head while being labeled “dangerous”. The second image is of Anybodys from West Side Story 2021. The third image is of Chino from West Side Story 2021)

#obviously this is a drastic oversimplification but i think it would be very funny #anybodys can and will beat the shit out of you but chino has a body count so #the contrast between how they’re perceived by their respective groups and society at large versus who they really are has vast potential #both comedic and dramatic #like to an outsider it would look like a “excuse me he asked for no pickles” situation #but to each other it’s a whole different story #it’s my crack ship and i get to decide the comfort they find in each other after being screwed over by the world #west side story #wss #wss 2021 #west side story 2021 #anybodys #chino #stephen sondheim #my dream is to make this one of those crack ships that somehow become super popular despite them sharing a frame like maybe once #which would probably be easier if this movie had a bigger fanbase or it was two white boys

[ottiliere]

i am absolutely obsessed with your alpha dave because you just hit that itch for me when it comes to the idea of guardians being the worst version of what their kid version could become. i've always wondered that, if the alpha guardians had the same concept the beta guardians did, how would they be-- especially dave, cause the striders relationships with their guardians are always so like. volatile? just the idea of dave growing up with no one to give him proper attention or care or love, (1/2)

and instead of bettering himself he just turns to the constant attention and eyes of the public when he becomes famous, because he NEEDS attention, he needs people to want him and crave him and look up to him and shit. and alpha dave just going down this spiral of doing more and more wack shit to get the public's attention, doing hard drugs with nasty circles he shouldn't be getting himself in, cause he's constantly chasing after the euphoria of people "loving" him. thats all thank you for listening to me go on and on like a maniac. tldr alpha dave being the worst version of who dave can be is an idea i am absolutely obsessed with partially due to your interpretations of him. ur art and ideas are stellar about the striders (2/2)

oh my god I love you. yes this very much how i envision alpha dave to be and it really falls into my stringent devotion to the concept of "universal karma" i.e. where beta dirk strider was so aloof and in his own head alpha dave strider must exist as an extreme direct inverse of that. needy, demanding, overbearing. this man, much like beta dirk, was not built to be a guardian. I think he kind of sucks super bad and it's so awesome. i could go on and on and on about this but I already have another ask in my drafts about him that’s hit 1k words with no end in sight and who knows when that’ll be ready. thank you for your kind observations. picture me smiling at you right now.

#alpha dave strider #ask #lucy art #I would have given him a coke nail here if I thought I could’ve make it look good #and also. like. tangentially. but very related. #the reason i view him as a cocaine addict isn't just because ohhhh hollywood superstar of course he does drugs #though that definitely enables his access #coke is a death trap for those with no spine and no self esteem because it makes you feel on top of the world. #if you're miserable and spiralling if you're insecure whether or not everyone in the room hates you you can snort a line #and abruptly perceive yourself to be the hottest shit ever #have read stories of many doing coke and thinking they're the life of the party only to be told afterwards that they were being a jackass #there are many such cases of diffident actors becoming cocaine addicts for these reasons #and that everyone hated them for being there #that's fundamentally dave to me #definitely a product of the environment. I think he has ALWAYS been quite insecure but in an environment like this the stakes are amplified #like it's a social game. everything is a social game there. and he is NOT a naturally confident man #the thing is with a lot of the high-profile coke addict actors the thing is like. they're alone. or they perceive themselves to be alone. #alone in hollywood afraid they're just not cutting it not fitting in with the scene not making ''friends'' #which is really more attributable to the social scene being so cutthroat and highschoolesque #a bunch of self-centered preps who would be nobodies if they hadn't grown up in wealthy families and shit like that #and I don't think dave would've come from an upbringing like this at all. alienated this guy craves attention and peer approval #doses and mimosas.flac #this is almost opposite of my view of dirk and i often use dave as a tuning fork for him #i had typed up a whole essayramble here and when i saved tumblr wiped out half the tags. did not realize there was a limit. #i suppose i will save to topic i discussed for its own post. thank you all for reading my tags as usual #sorry i edited your three asks into two asks so this post wouldn't get super long. hope you don't mind.

[mejomonster]

I wrote 6000 words today!

#rant #tbf #idk if its gonna bite me in the ass or not but like #oh well. my goal is a first draft done by end of year #even if it sucks or its good or whatever i just want a draft completed !!! #i have been hung up on 2nd guessing my own writing for a month ;- #so i switched stories to one with a pov character narrator whos a history nerd of the world (and blackmails/spies on others a lot) #so like. hes a guy who knows a lot of info and happily rants anyway about exposition stuff to other characters #(like. hes literally an ambassador and explains perceived social norms differences between faeverse countries and facilitates cooperating) #so like. i figure at least i wont beat myself up for mentioning exposition #cause i guarantee however much i write. this character would be dumping 10 more page than me per minute. if he could sjdjdj #so ill likely have enough content included in the draft when im done. and itll be easier to cut some stiff #rather than needing to add missing stuff later

[thatswhatsushesaid]

shitpost dispatches from guanyin temple & the sangyao dungeons - [10/?]

with the important caveat that no, jgy was absolutely not attempting to kill or harm nhs prior to this moment, but I would bet cash money on him exacting some pretty bloody retribution upon his beloved a-sang if he'd survived the events of guanyin temple (and also I think he would win)

#mdzs #mdzs shitposting #sangyao #not my favourite flavour of sangyao tbh #i prefer to read/write them without the revenge vision quest hovering as the dramatic irony elephant in the room #compels me tho #just to ramble abt this a bit more in my own tags #huaisang's one advantage throughout his entire revenge quest is that jin guangyao does not suspect him of anything #i have many additional thoughts here about how jgy's fatal flaw wrt nhs is overlooking and underestimating his capacity #for presenting one face to the world while keeping his real thoughts and feelings and ambitions hidden away #(and where do you think he learned that from a-yao? i'm gonna go out on a limb and say 'not er-ge or da-ge') #whereas nhs's fatal flaw (and it is not something that I perceive as fatal within the text #so much as supposition wrt his mental state post-canon) #is his inability to commit himself to any work he's not personally invested in #this is endearing and cute and a little exasperating when he's at lan summer camp #but wrt jgy it prevents him from looking past *what* jgy has done to nmj and asking himself *why* #I do think it is inevitable he will ask that question in his future just as lxc was desperately asking it at the end of the confrontation #the tragedy here is that nhs orchestrated the death of the only person who could ever give him that answer #and now he will never know #jin guangyao #nie huaisang #he did crimes??? good for him 😌 #let him have birds!! 🕊 #mdzs meta #in the tags anyway #moling queue

[randomnameless]

As someone who loves both Grima and Anankos I don't think Grima took Anankos's backstory at all, Grima's view if anything was stolen from Mewtwo. Lab creation, used in some matter, screw humanity. I would not be shocked if that ended up being the inspiration for the backstory FEH made up (because yeah they made it up but it's a canon property so it's canon backstory now) Mewtwo is one of the most popular Pokemon of all time and you can't deny making a god vs making the world's most powerful Pokemon doesn't have some parallels. And even so while I could see them inspired by Anankos betrayal compared to him nothing about Grima is tragic, he's just bitter. He's fully aware and lucid of everything (despite lacking ancient memories) he's pissed and wants everyone to suffer and it's also fun for him. Nothing much more to him despite how much my fellow Grima fans would like to argue; lab created angry betrayed murder dragon is all there is canonically. But as Grima was once meant to be a Loptous expy before he became FE Mewtwo there is now a lot in Awakening that doesn't make sense due to these retcons.

Anankos though! Oh Anankos is hella tragic following the theme of Fates really. A really good guy. Cared about his people did everything for them, loved them stayed longer than he should have and fell to degeneration. Basically got so old he got dragon dementia nothing like who he used to be due to this disease and since his functions are now failing he's full of rage all the time memories are warped he loses sight of who is around him and more, this rage causes him to go berserk and he's unable to understand why those he loved turned on him then he kills his best friend he keeps spiraling, going mad following and giving into his delusions about being betrayed, I wouldn't be shocked if he made up events that didn't happen in his messed up state of mind. Unlike Grima he is not lucid, it's true he also has a hatred of humanity because he was betrayed and his goal, like Grima is complete world annihilation but his betrayal wasn't a true betrayal either, and technically he betrayed humanity first but unknowingly because he is no longer the same person he was. Anankos is so far gone he's insane. Grima is perfectly sane and still wants complete world annihilation, either because he's angry or because he's just that bored (one of his lines also mentions wanting to start a war because he's bored) because of his betrayal he sees everyone as beneath him mere playthings. Anankos can't see anything he's gone *gone* all that matters is fulfilling his goal.

Sorry for rambling I just really love both of them and feel like calling one a rip off of the other isn't fully correct. Anankos is a crazy deep character (non corrupt Anankos when FEH it'd be a great mythic) and that's why I love him and I love Grima because of how little there is and it's fun to give him more with the little we have, I uh don't like the girl version because she's lets make her sexy and sell to horny men don't we have enough of those!! but the boy version is nifty

Hi!

FEH's canonicity is always going to be questionned, like, I'm the loser who will claim to the world Rhea bakes cookies because her FEH alt bakes them when her Fodlan iteration doesn't bake sweets - but it's all about the thin line, imo, between what in a fanfiction would be called IIC and OC.

Grima claiming that humans only worship him to later turn against him is... backed up by nothing, let it be in FE13 or FE15. Hell, in FE13, his human followers are, uh, sort of brainwashed to come to the dragon's tarble, and end up as his own snacks (he consumes their lifeforce à la Medeus?) - they didn't even had the occasion/chance to ask him something and then backstab him, no, they ended up in his stomach.

(something Loptry doesn't do at all, so what was the point of having this mentionned? "Remember Medeus? Here is the copy of what he did to those 4 ladies!")

In FE15 we got his backstory - where I agree with your mewtwo parallel (even if the franchise had no qualms stomping the "strongest pokemon ever" nonsense which had them release two megas for him - and even then, M-Ray, U-Necrozma and the later legendaries wreck him in half!) which is why they could have used this as a backstory : Grima was rejected by his creator who sought to end him because he "couldn't control him", he was rejected by the dragons (and maybe FEH could canonise the fact that Duma's visit of Thabes happening when Grima was conceived was just not a coincidence!) so in a traditional mindset, if the world hates him, he'll hate the world but with a special hatred for humans (GG Forneus) who "condemned him to live a life of hatred and despair"...

That's where the bitterness angle would come, but where I call this backstory the Anankos expy, it's because Grima's trusted and fellow humans never... turned their blades at him? Unless we're only talking about his Creator Forneus?

FE13's worldbuilding is wonky, but I thought Plegia was a nation where people worshipped him (which led Chrom's dad to war against them!) - so unless Grima suggests the First Exalt (Chrom's descendant) was one of his BFF who turned against them when he tried to do Grima-things which are, in FE13's canon, destroy the world and kill everyone, I really wonder where this "betrayed by humans" angle comes.

As you pointed it out, Anankos's story is more "tragic" because the man had been benevolent, but refused to "move to the astral plane" so he was degenerating, and humans being their human selves turned against him.

And doubly agree, maybe FEH's writers slapped this story on Grima to have someone, who still has some agency and isn't fully consumed by madness (not Anankos then) explain this backstory... FEH most likely didn't came up with Ascended!Heroes already - aka Heroes who are in the best versions of themselves (Idunn becoming a chicken again!) so they couldn't come up with an Anankos who, after being defeated by Corn and somehow surviving, explains his past and stresses the importance of bonds.

Instead, they had to craft something about Grima's backstory because between FE13!Grima wanting to destroy the world and its people in angry red capslocks and FE15!Grima being an eldritch abomination that was rejected by his creator at birth there was a gap they needed to fill and Doylist wise, since Anankos couldn't be released (what would be his lines if he's his insane self? - 2018!FEH couldn't have came up with kid!Soren as a unit lol) it was "okay" to copy part of his background and give to Grima - even if it doesn't make sense at all given FE13 - to explain the behaviour he has in FE13, since the mainline games didn't bother.

But doing so, as you said, retcons FE13.

Rhea baking cookies doesn't retcon FE16 or Nopes because the games (more Nopes than FE16 but that's player pandering for you!) showed/depicted her as someone who cares about people/plays with children when she can, but Grima blaming humans for shunning him when the humans who worship him got what they desired? What is he even talking about? He is the one who devoured his followers in FE13, as they were mindlessly marching to their doom, what/who is the talking about? Forneus? But Forneus never asked him anything, but he tried to get rid of him while he was still in his test tube.

At this point, I realise FEH!Grima is basically, especially as he is retcon to his canon games, a FEH OC lol.

Don't apologise for rambling lol, I always ramble!

I get the appeal of coming up with backstories and writing about characters who have no background, I spent years connecting dots between multiverse about Saias lol and Willy's basically became my OC since canon!Willy is just a name and a statue lol

But yeah, it's a damn shame FEH pretended to care enough about Grima to give them a new background/reasons/plot, but now only sees them as occasions to sell horny alts (Halloween!M!Grima had the same T&A pose than his female counterpart!) even if F!Grima has it the worst (my fwend @crushednugget made a beautiful edit of Rearmed Grima but with Valdar instead!).

But we know what FEH prioritises : horny > plot and relevance, remember Karla and her 3 alts?

#anon #replies #FE heroes #I guess what annoyed me the most with FEH!Grima is how he retcons his FE13/15 versions #him basically being a FEH OC solves everything #Too bad Anankos never received the same love from FEH #can you imagine Anankos aka Fate's big bad was only released in 2022 ? #Like we had 2 years of Fatewakening heroes but no Anankos #and now he's released as his crazed self? like wtf #maybe i a was bit harsh on birb's post #but given what grima was in FE13 aka a loptyr throwback but more hammy as he wanted to destroy the world #and FE15 Grima being a homonculi who could have hated his artificial existence because everyone rejected him #see FMA2003's Wrath #the fact that they went with part of Anankos's bg 'i helped humans and then they betrayed me' really pissed me #and yep @ everything you said about anankos #is he really raving about a betrayal or what in his degenerating mind he perceived as betrayal? #we will never know #unless FEH decides that Anankos' ass shots are profitable and releases more units of him

[deadbeatdadjokes]

Rouxls having to do certain shit in secret despite being the single most conspicuous creature to have ever gleaned the face of the planet is something I think about. A healthy amount

The amount of divided by zero energy in this man is unparalleled. He’s playing 3836-D Chess with himself and losing bc he cannot figure out he’s actually playing checkers

Caring is a performance until Lancer comes along and fucks it up so not caring is also a performance and he makes them fight for dominance on the regular

#the idea that a lot of the actual care he gives Lancer is like a secret they share #bc Spade will absolutely lose his shit if he perceives even the slightest amount of influence coming from anyone that isn’t him #so even basic stuff like feeding your kid is the gravest insult to him because his fucked up perspective on the world leaks heavily #into his style of parenting #it kills me continuously #this isn’t to say that telling said child to fuck off on the daily is the best look #but like. look at him #i think he’s 100% genuine when he yells at lancer to kick rocks but the fact that he still feeds him and takes care of him when he’s sick #is NOT the nothing he’s received from the ppl that were supposed to be looking out for him so there’s that #deltarune #rouxls kaard #lancer deltarune #dumpster divin #i just want lancer to be happy I just want the people who love him but have failed him to take accountability I just want him to post #stupid silly stunts and video game lets plays on the internet #Rouxls will tuck him into bed and then jump out a 5th story window to avoid being associated #he’ll make him a special meal with shit he found in the literal garbage #he’ll make sure his cold isn’t worsening by setting him on fire you know #is it healthy probably not. but boy do I ever have a soft soft for bitches who try knowing they’ll fail anyways

[beebfreeb]

😏 <- A fellow haver of opinions and headcanons

#When I see a character who acts like That I know them personally I know why they're like that. I promise. I know. In my heart. #Theatrical personality and clothes that obscure the majority of your features? 🤨 AND you want to take over the world? #Desperate for control over how people perceive you and control over your environment🤨? AND the manipulation and mind control? #Get a load of this guy! People who want control often spent most of their life feeling like they had none! Also obviously transgender. #funny talking tag #He acts like THAT... #Obviously he wants people to pay attention to him. #Obviously he wants power over others. #He wants his own little world that he is in charge of... #Ask me about how I think he feels about everyone else I promise I am normal about it. #You can reblog this now I changed my mind. Discuss with me.

[gummycube]

Two ideas for what Hollis' once-mentioned husband looks like... I'm calling him Rupert

#psychonauts #hollis forsythe #psychonauts oc #my art #he's a formerly well-known artist who's power of clairvoyance #was particularly sensitive and unmanaged #causing him to know how everyone around him percieved him; giving him an unbearable imposter syndrome #that caused him to destroy his last exhibition before it was unveiled #with psi-blast #as he also destroyed some art that was not his own he self isolated afterwards and the psychonauts took him in #before authorities could (in an anti-psychic society) #through years of therapy he has begun making art that is much more personal to him and that he feels happy making without a constant #feeling of being perceived (for the most part) and ran into #hollis at some point along the way; instantly falling for her and embarrassing himself trying to impress her #thankfully she found it cute n the rest is history. #that is the story rn anyway #idk which design to go with yet tbh before this there was a page of potential hollis failguys #his brain world nowadays has a lot of shattered mirror imagery #rupert forsythe

[labyrynth]

very salty salt re: someone’s hotter-than-the-sun take on jgy/meng shi, mu qing, and class

just saw someone insist that bc meng shi was a famed courtesan at some point, she therefore was actually quite well off financially, and was not at all lower or working class, as if she not only had a say in her profession, but as if this did not all come crashing down after 1) aging, and 2) having a literal child

they also described both meng yao and mu qing as “functionally middle class” because obviously not being jobless or homeless means you’re middle class.

and also claimed that mu qing was personally responsible for xie lian’s downward spiral, and that mu qing’s decision to leave abandon xie lian was selfish, cruel, and—get this—fueled by CLASSISM.

OP i am beating you over the head with a stick. how do you fuck up class awareness/analysis THIS bad.

the whore and her bastard son are middle class because she’s fuckable and he knows how to read. uh huh sure.

the working class servant is selfish and classist for prioritizing his own family over his employer, the royal fucking family. why not.

here look OP i can string together offensive sentences too: you are fucking stupid.

#salt is salt #mdzs talk #and the rarely used #tgcf talk #jgy tag #like in what fucking world do you live in where meng shi is viewed as ‘Wealthy Respected Courtesan’ instead of ‘washed up whore’ #i’m 90% sure i already had this person blocked for their shit jc takes #which really just solidifies my working concept #it was never about any perceived classism #bc they just proclaimed that the two most notable non-love interest/non-gentry characters…are classist. #source: they made decisions that prioritized their own interests rather than sacrificing themselves and their families for their wealthy— #cough i mean generous benefactors #the ungrateful whelps #like what’s next? are you gonna claim that he xuan was selfish and entitled and classist for pursuing the position he was owed? #or was shen jiu—literal child slave—classist for resenting binghe? #i got it—airplane was classist for wanting to be able to pay his bills. doesn’t he know people are homeless?! is he looking down on them?!! #how dare he charge for his product?! he’s discriminating against people who can’t afford to pay for shitty porn!! #like jfc op the bar here was so fucking low you would have to TRY just to trip over it #and you steamrolled yourself into a pancake just to fit underneath #because obviously every character flaw HAS to be some kind of -ism so i can condemn you for liking this blank-ist character #then again this shouldn’t surprise me #bc these folks accuse queer ppl all the fucking time of being homophobic #for not hating jc who is supposedly homophobic #projection much? #it really is the foundation of the anti mindset: #‘i don’t like this thing. i must dislike this thing bc it’s Problematic. it’s problematic therefore YOU shouldn’t like this thing.’ #‘and you’re just as Problematic if you DO.’ #some ppl really just Say Things #ok i’m done

[skyblep]

actually taking the time to read through what would be considered the antagonist's motives in eroica, only to find out theyre more sympathetic than the main characters (major specifically) will ever be. you mean this nato engineer became so moved by the pope he stole US secrets and ran away??? by all means let me shake the mans hands

#i love it as much as the next guy but fewl is deeply deeply conservative #it is way more on the side of the major than eroica's #that meaning natos side than the side of a gay man #like it goes beyond the kgb plots. anybody who disagrees with nato or the cia or even the sis in fewl is considered an antagonist #which is fine. but they are not given a sliver of sympathy from the writer #like its been a while but in emperor waltz theres the character of the cia officer who literally had a breakdown and leaked state secrets #and hes just treated as a crazy man. theres no explaining his motives other than that hes a nuisance to the major and nato #but overall what im tryna say is that eroica never was 'progressive' ESPECIALLY by our standards #an it feels wrong 2 me so sell it as anything more than 'oh theres a couple gay characters and a fun dynamic' #cus i feel it leads to overlooking things like these #which are quite interesting to me. like taking a glimpse into how the world beyond europe and the us perceived nato #considering most spy stories are from those places #and um yeah it sucks. even i feel bad reading it sometimes! #but its part of it; i like what i like #either way what bliss #led zeppelin shoujo yaoi manga tag