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#he’s very fatherly and i’m very motherly so we work off of each other well
femme-malewife · 1 year
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I think, personally, I prefer Roy Mustang to be a father figure over someone like Maes Hughes or Sig or anyone else is because Mustang was the first person (ie; male figure) to genuinely hold Ed (and Al, by extent) for their actions.
He saw the human transmutation circle. Instead of being gentle with Ed, he immediately scolds him, before calming down and offering him a way to fix his mistake.
He works hard to keep Ed and Al’s secret safe, even stammering a bit when Shou Tucker asks about them. He’s there for them, and he’s the one who pushed them forward, exactly like a father would. This post explains the dynamic better than I could, to be honest.
Sure, Mustang and Ed argue a lot, and it’s 100% valid to see them more as brothers! I thought so too for a while, until I rewatched the 03 anime. There’s a lot of moments where it just screams “wow, Mustang’s a dad”. I personally think this post explains one episode really well.
At the end of the day, everyone has their own opinions, and that’s fine. But to the people bashing on the concept of Mustang being fatherly...don’t.
A direct part from “The Abducted Alchemist” here shows that it’s not impossible for Ed to consider Mustang a father figure:
“Well,” the man was saying with a smile, “maybe you can tell your father to get his act together for us!”
“Yeah, we’re on your side, kiddo.”
“And if he ever comes this way, you tell him to drop in for a drink on the house.”
It looked like this inn, at least, welcomed the military’s business. Edward smiled. All this talk of his father being in the military reminded him of when they ran into Roy on the train, back before they’d heard about the terrorists. For those few moments, when he ran up to Roy, Edward did have a father in the military, and he was surprised to find he wasn’t exactly sure how he felt about that.
So...no more bashing, saying that it’s “impossible” for them to view each other in a familial light. Or, a father/son light.
As for the whole situation with Hughes...he is a good father. Completely the opposite of Hohenheim. However, he isn’t the one to push the boys to do their best, and he isn’t the one who helped put them on the right path. He’s there for the Elric Brothers, and they enjoy his company, but he mostly pops in and out whenever he pleases. Me personally, I feel like he’s more like that one obnoxious (very affectionate) uncle who jokes about taking the father’s place.
But that’s just me.
For Izumi and Sig, they no doubt helped fill holes in the Elrics hearts, and when Izumi is being gentle and kind, she is very motherly. There’s no doubt that, with the knowledge she lost her baby and they lost their mother, they can identify with her. But, like Mustang, she isn’t biologically related to them.
The best they can be is parental figures.
I’m not 100% sure how Sig feels about the boys, but we do know he clearly cares for them.
I like the idea that Ed and Al have two sets of parental figures- his military family, and his non-military family.
That being said, I personally still prefer Roy Mustang being his main parental figure, as he’s the one who sees them off the most. (Also, as many people have pointed out, Ed is a minor, so there will be things he needs a legal guardian for, and that duty would fall on Mustang, since he’s his commanding officer...but, again, that’s just a bonus)
Anyway I’m done ranting I just needed to get this off my chest
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yslkook · 3 years
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#all hands on deck (8)
#corporate masterlist summary: in which the tokyo team comes to seoul for a workshop. feelings are felt and dinner is had. and jungkook gets sick. word count: 8.1k warnings: cursing, a fight, discussion of mental health, some suggestive themes a/n: ENJOYYYY and thank you to @cutechim​ for your endless support <33
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The new year brings the strengthening of your friendship with Jungkook. You’ve had exactly two late nights at work in preparation for the Tokyo team arriving in Seoul this time, and Jungkook had paid for dinner each time. He’d refused for you to pay despite your insistence. 
Either way, it’s on the company card, so at the end of the day it didn’t really matter. But still, it’s the thought that counts.
Late nights at work meant that eventually, you’d stop talking about work and start talking about each other, about life. After all, you could only spend so long staring at the same powerpoint slide deck.
And you’d rather stare at him. You’d rather stare at the tattoos that line his corded forearms, at the way his sweater sits deliciously on his torso and outlines his narrow waist, or the way his pants always seem to sit just right on his thighs. And his eyes, his bright, brown eyes filled with mischief and magic when he looks at you.
You sigh audibly, your hand curled under your chin. 
Jungkook immediately turns his head towards you with a quirk of an eyebrow and a lazy smirk.
“See somethin’ you like?” He drawls, not bothering to hide how he gazes at you. It reminds you of something slow, something that lights a fire in your belly.
“You know it,” You reply easily. As if your heart isn’t fluttering with the heat of his eyes.
Jungkook is silent for a moment, his lips pursed and eyes trained on you. He doesn’t hide the way he lets himself indulge in you, his gaze lingering on your lips, your eyes, your shoulder (where he knows your tattoos bloom and flourish). 
And god, he just wants you to tell him about all of your tattoos. He wants you to let him trace over the inky trails, he wants to hear if there are any stories behind them. He wants to hear any and all of your stories. Your voice is one of his favorite things.
“I see somethin’ I like,'' Jungkook murmurs. He’s looking straight at you, nothing but sincerity dripping from his eyes. It should be sinful- the smolder of his eyes, the slight upturn of his lips. Suddenly, the man before you oozes confidence but you think he’s always oozed this natural confidence. 
It makes something else flutter, too.
You’re suddenly very flustered, your cheeks blazing and you stammer and nearly trip on your feet to grab your laptop charger from your backpack. Only to fumble with your charger and drop it on the floor in a tangled mess. You bend over immediately to retrieve it, and hide your face from him for a second.
Jungkook groans internally. You’re standing in front of him, with your back to him and your ass is on display for him. Right in front of him.
“Uh,” You mutter, “S-sorry. What were we doing?”
“It’s just me,” Jungkook says softly, pushing the image of your ass to the back of his mind, “No need to be nervous around me.”
Jungkook always keeps you on your toes.
And that’s how many of your late nights at work go- even if Sana and Namjoon are present, you both find a way to quietly flirt with each other. You find a way to admire him with heart eyes. And you catch his gaze on you more than once as well.
There’s also been several times when you were both supposed to be working together on something for the submissions project, but instead ended up spending the entire afternoon together in a conference room once you finished your work. It’s so easy to talk to him, about anything and everything. You laugh loudly and unabashedly with him and you feel like no time between you both has passed at all.
It feels like you’ve known him for years. And maybe that’s the truth.
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When February comes, it brings the Tokyo team to Seoul. It also brings your boss acting like an asshole and nearly throwing you and Sana under the bus at an update meeting in front of the entire Tokyo team and your team.
But Namjoon vehemently sticks up for you both, as he always does. You ignore the burn of anger and tears at the back of your eyes and tell yourself that someday, you’ll get out from under his wing.
And with February comes Mark.
Mark, who has been texting you way more than usual ever since he and the team had landed in Seoul. You make the incorrect assumption that he’s been texting Namjoon just as much as he’s been texting you. What other reason would he have to be texting you, if not for work related purposes?
And you feel obligated to respond- after all, he’s your superior.
To you, it’s small talk mostly. Nothing quite significant. But even Grandma notices your phone lighting up far more than usual at dinnertime.
“Who’s texting you? Do you have a secret lover or something?” Grandma asks, peering over her plate to look at your phone.
“Yes, I’ve been sneaking out every night after you fall asleep to meet up with them,” You roll your eyes, “It’s just this guy from work. He works in Tokyo. Remember, I told you about him? The guy who got the job I wanted a few years ago. Like, two years ago at this point?”
“Ah,” Grandma says understandingly, “If he’s in Tokyo, why is he texting you?”
“Our teams are working together on something big,” You sigh, “Mark is the team lead for Tokyo and Namjoon’s the lead for us. Their team is in Seoul this week.”
“Even Jin doesn’t text you like that,” Grandma observes, “You need more girlfriends, sweetheart. All of this testosterone can’t be good for you.”
You snort, “Trust me, Grandma. I know. Yuna and I are closer now, though. Her friends are really nice. Remember, I told you I met them at New Years?”
Grandma hums in acknowledgement. “What about that boy? Jung...Jung something?”
“What boy?” You feign aloofness, stuffing your face with rice to avoid her sly gaze.
“The one that when he texts you, you look like a lost puppy-”
“Lost puppy! I do not look like a lost puppy- I’m a big, bad wolf, if anything,” You grumble, crossing your arms, “Lost puppy… Can’t believe you.”
“Okay, big, bad wolf,” Grandma rolls her eyes, “This one makes you look like a lost puppy.”
“Jeon Jungkook,” You mumble, “His name is Jungkook.”
Grandma looks at you long and hard, dark eyes narrowed and lips pursed. You’re transparent in her gaze- you’ve never been able to hide anything from her. Not since you were a child. And this time is no different. She somehow has been your fatherly figure, your motherly figure and your grandma all at the same time. 
You don’t know how she does it. You don’t know how she did it. 
The lines around her eyes relax- the same eyes that you have. She carefully chooses her next words:
“Don’t break your own heart trying to protect it.”
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When Mark asks you about dinner during the lunch break at one of your workshop days.  He sounds hopeful asking you to dinner at that one seafood restaurant that you had told him about months ago- it was so long ago that you had nearly forgotten about it. You make the mistake of assuming that this was solely a work thing.
He’d made dinner reservations for both of you when you had agreed. A formidable pit begins to form in your stomach once you had agreed to it. And you’re unable to return the dazzling smile he gives you- only managing a feeble upturn of your lips.
But he was your superior- you had to say yes, right? 
So you go to dinner with him. You meet him at the restaurant after going home and enduring a series of questions from Grandma. You tell her that what she thinks isn’t the reality- that it’s just dinner with one of your many bosses-
“Then be careful. Corporate Seoul is… intimidating.”
You wonder if you’re crossing a line that you shouldn’t cross. You wonder if Mark even understands the implications of him asking you to dinner, whether platonic or not. 
The back and forth in your mind sets you on edge. Should you cancel? You could always feign sick. But even that doesn’t sound right. Maybe you should go to dinner to see what his intentions even are. Maybe you’re just...overthinking it. As usual.
You decide to wear business casual to dinner, wanting to set unspoken boundaries with Mark. Your heart is thundering in your chest, but even these jitters are nothing compared to when you had met Yuna’s friends, had kissed Jungkook’s cheek, had asked Jungkook to have ice cream with you.
Jungkook. Butterflies flutter in your belly at the thought of him. He surprises you, or rather it surprises you how quickly and openly you had welcomed him into your life. How you trust him with your open, bleeding heart. The thought of his big, doe eyes and the wet, pink pout of his lips sends your belly into a frenzy. 
You push him to the back of your mind for now, to focus on Mark.
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You meet Mark outside of the restaurant- he looks sharp as ever and he looks like he knows it. The scent of his cologne wafts into your nose- it’s not unpleasant. His hand lands on the small of your back respectfully as he asks about your day-
“You were with me for most of it, Mark,” You roll your eyes and he laughs. 
“You look nice,” Mark says, lazily turning his head to look at you.
“Thanks, you sound surprised,” You tease.
You don’t return the compliment. He does look nice and handsome tonight, wearing a dark blue sweater that fits nicely on him. 
This is not a date. You haven’t been on one of those in a long, long while. So you won’t return the compliment.
The restaurant is dimly lit for dinnertime, the lights bouncing off of Mark’s bright eyes. It’s bustling, but the noise around you isn’t overwhelming.
You don’t particularly like seafood, but you’ll do anything to keep the anxiety at bay. Including eating crab, when it’s the last thing you want to do.
“How’s your food?” You ask a little desperately, trying to break the awkward silence that you had certainly fabricated.
“Great, you wanna try? I knew you had good taste, but you just keep impressing me,” Mark says easily, his eyes washing over you.
You look beautiful in the dim light of the restaurant, the soft glow of the lamps illuminating the planes of your face. 
“Good taste?” You scoff, “And how could you possibly know that I have good taste? I mean, it’s true, don’t get me wrong. But-”
“Well,” Mark says smoothly, “You’re smart, you’re funny, you’re pretty. Obviously, you have good taste.”
“You don’t need to butter me up, Mark,” You roll your eyes but still smile at him.
“‘M not. Just being honest,” Mark shrugs and throws you a charming grin.
“Whatever you say,” You reply, taking another bite of your food. He points to the corner of your mouth and you wipe away some stray sauce.
“Not gonna return the compliment?” Mark teases lightly.
“Now why would I need to do that?” You reply, “That’s hardly appropriate, considering you’re one of my bosses now.”
“You don’t need to be so formal with me-”
“Oh? Why’s that?” You ask testily, coolly raising an eyebrow.
“We’re not at work,” Mark says, “You can be yourself around me, you know.”
“I am being myself around you,” You say pointedly, “What you see is what you get, Mark.”
Your reply confuses him. You pay it no mind. The rest of dinner goes as smoothly as that- you ask him about work, about living in Tokyo. You keep the conversation on him, hardly allowing him to ask anything about you.
Just how you had wanted it. You ask the right questions, laugh at the right times and pay just the right amount of attention to him.
Enough to fool him into thinking you were having a great time and enough for there to be no awkward lull in the conversation. Not that you were having a particularly terrible time to begin with… you just genuinely didn’t want to be here.
After all, you’d rather be at home with Grandma. Your thoughts flutter to Jin for a moment. Then Yuna. Then to Jungkook.
Mark is nice enough. He asks if you’d like to get ice cream with him after dinner. To which you say no- getting ice cream with him feels too intimate for two people who are just colleagues.
And maybe spontaneous ice cream reminds you of Jungkook. You say no to him, under the guise that you need to get home to Grandma. Which technically isn’t a lie.
Disappointment flashes across his eyes quickly but it’s gone as quick as it comes. He waits with you until your Uber to go back home arrives. You hate taking Ubers from the city back home by yourself- normally, you’d park at Seokjin’s apartment building and drive from there. But you hadn’t told Jin that you were going to dinner with Mark.
Maybe you should have.
You catch Mark glance at your lips for half a millisecond too long and take about five steps back from you. Your heart thunders in your chest again, and you feel lightheaded. 
Had you misjudged this dinner? Was this not just dinner between two colleagues? 
You swallow nervously and hug your arms around your waist. You and Mark keep up with the small talk for the most part, but you’re already spacing out.
“Hey,” Mark says softly, once the Uber arrives,  “Get home safe, alright?” 
You decide that maybe you should at least give him a hug, and even he seems surprised when you open your arms to him.
“You too, Mark,” You murmur, “Good night. I’ll see you tomorrow.”
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You lay in the dark, staring at the ceiling hopelessly. Your comforter is pulled up to your chin and you want to sleep, you want the comforting lull of sleep to overtake you. But it doesn’t.
So you stare at the ceiling. You pull your phone off of the nightstand and see that you have an unread text from Seokjin:
jin: how was dinner with mark 
How did he know? You sigh, palming your forehead. Nothing ever gets by him. He always seems to know everything, even when he doesn’t.
you: fine 😐  how’d you know i went to dinner with mark... jin: not bc you told me, that’s for sure
Irritation flares up inside you. You love him, but damn he can be petty when he wants to be.
you: if you have something to say just say it lol jin: he told namjoon. namjoon told me you: oh nice, glad to know that u guys at the top like to talk about me going to dinner with my boss jin: he’s not your boss
You huff and roll over, ignoring the text. His pettiness can wait until tomorrow. 
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Jin ambushes you in the parking lot. It’s earlier than your usual 7:47 arrival- you had wanted to arrive earlier so that you wouldn’t run into Jin.
But you must be predictable because Jin knows you so well- he knows that you’d try to avoid him. He meets you at your car, in the same exact spot that you always park, with two cups of coffee.
“What,” You roll your eyes, slamming the front door of your car a little too forcefully.
“Good morning to you, too,” Jin says just as snarkily, “We need to talk.”
“About what,” You snap, “Talk to me when you’re done being petty.”
“I’m being petty?” Jin asks incredulously. You narrow your eyes at him, your temper beginning to flare under your skin. You take a deep breath, forcing yourself to relax. This is your best friend. You’re in the middle of the parking lot at work. There’s no reason to snap at him.
“What is it, Jin,” You ask, “What did I do to warrant an ambush at 7:30 AM before either of us have had coffee-”
“Mark,” Jin says bluntly, “Your date with Mark.”
“My what?” You screech at him, “It wasn’t- it wasn’t a date!”
“That’s not what he thinks,” Jin says swiftly, “He thinks it was a date. He told Namjoon. Who told me-”
“You boys all gossip like we’re in fuckin’ high school,” You hiss, “It wasn’t a date. It was just dinner. He’s my boss-”
“He’s not your boss,” Jin says harshly, “Why do you keep saying that?”
“He’s higher up than me! I consider him my boss!” 
“He doesn’t see you as a subordinate! He sees you as an equal, and what the fuck- he wants to date you! How can you not tell-”
“So now it’s my fault? That I didn’t assume that an invite to dinner with my superior wasn’t a date? That I just considered it dinner? It’s my fault now?”
“He asked you to dinner at a restaurant that you had recommended to him,” Jin counters, eyes just as fiery as yours, “Seriously? That’s not a date to you? If you told me, I would’ve warned you-”
The heat in your eyes immediately melts away once realization hits you like a train. But still, you won’t let Jin have the last word-
“Since the three of you are besties now, you can tell him that I’m not fuckin’ interested,” You spit venomously at him, yank the cup of coffee from his hands and speed walk into the office building. You ignore his calls of your name in favor of feeling embarrassed heat flooding your face.
You feel like a fool. 
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Your sour mood lasts the entire morning. Not even the prospect of lunch entices you. Jin pings you around 11, asking if you wanted to have lunch with him. His words from earlier this morning ring in your head on replay.
You ignore him for now. Truthfully, you don’t have much of an appetite. You stay in your area of the floor, not wanting to run into anyone or speak with anyone longer than you had to.
You’re grateful that you don’t have to participate in the workshop with the Tokyo team today- Sana and Jungkook were taking the lead on that. You’re only meeting with Lisa and Minhyuk later in the day to go over a few documents with them. You sit in your cubicle and walk around whenever you feel like it, keeping yourself busy and your mind off of Mark.
Mark, who’s currently in the conference room on the other side of the building with Jungkook.
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Jungkook cannot wait for this day to be over. He’d most definitely woken up on the wrong side of the bed, irritation brewing in his belly from the minute his alarm had gone off. There was nothing in particular that had gone wrong. It’s just one of those days.
He hopes this workshop and this day goes by relatively quickly. He’s itching to go to the gym today and spend at least two hours there. He needs it. He’s felt on edge for the last few days.
Especially, since he overheard your name, Mark’s name and dinner in the same sentence.
Even thinking about it puts a sad, sour taste in his mouth. But he pushes it to the side, only allowing a brief glare in Mark’s direction. 
Not that he has any right to be irritated. Not really, anyway. You can do whatever you want. As you’ve always done.
Mark looks a little distressed and Namjoon is perfectly poised as they speak. Jungkook tunes the conversation out, and even Sana and Irene look mildly interested when your name comes out of Mark’s mouth.
Well, now he has to listen a little harder. Jungkook pretends to busy himself on his laptop, typing away to some of his work friends via chat.
“...Can’t tell if she had a good time or not. Should I text her? Go to her cubicle?” Comes Mark’s unsure voice. Normally, he’s so put together, confidence and charm oozing off of him. It’s interesting to hear him like this- insecure, because of you apparently.
Jungkook doesn’t blame you. He remembers feeling that way around you, but now that he knows you a little more… You make him feel good. You make him feel better.
Which is why his heart sinks a fraction. He doesn’t see Namjoon’s eyes glaze over to him. Namjoon sees the unbridled tension in Jungkook’s shoulders. 
“This isn’t appropriate, Mark,” Namjoon says curtly. Jungkook’s ears perk up, his heart not feeling so heavy.
Mark looks at him in resignation and Namjoon claps his shoulder without another word. And so the meeting begins, Jungkook starts taking meeting minutes with you in the back corner of his mind.
The longer he thinks about it, as the pads of his fingers clack away on his keyboard, the more irritated he becomes. So you had gone to dinner with Mark. Had he misread you?
But Jungkook thinks about how you text him ‘good morning’ and ‘good night’ sometimes. He wonders if you text Mark that, too. Do you call Mark spontaneously when you’re driving, too? Does Mark send you music recommendations? Have you shared extra treats with him, too?
Jungkook puts himself in a sour mood, casting glares over in Mark’s direction. His tongue pokes his cheek, and all he can think about is you telling him to lighten up. But even the thought of you, the thought of you and Mark...something mean curls in his belly and festers.
And as the afternoon wears on, he becomes more and more upset. If you want to date Mark, that’s none of his business. Who is he to stop you?
Mark, who looks at you as if you’re something to be won. At least, that’s what Jungkook sees in Mark’s gaze. Whatever- Mark wasn’t the one who had seen you in that green dress at the holiday party. The memory of you in that green dress is seared in his mind, and it’s a memory that Mark will never have.
But still, he can’t help but feel irrationally irritated. He likes you so much- maybe he had put you on a pedestal for a long time before he truly knew you. But if anything, getting to know you has him descending even deeper into his feelings for you. 
And you have no idea. How could you not know- can’t you tell that his hands get clammy around you, that he has difficulty maintaining meeting your eyes sometimes? That the mere sight of you, the sound of your voice is an instant serotonin boost for him?
But how would you know? He’s given no inclination of his affections for you. You don’t know that when your name lights up his phone, his heart races. You don’t know that when he gets a whiff of your musky perfume when he’s in the same room as you, he thinks he could drown in it. You don’t know that he’d take your gentle teasing with a smile, just so he could hear your voice.
Can’t you read in between the lines? 
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The end of the day can’t come fast enough. Jungkook is speeding out of the conference room, away from Mark, before Namjoon even properly dismisses them. Namjoon only sighs at Jungkook’s rushed departure.
He wears his heart on his sleeve.
Over the last few months, Namjoon has come to know Jungkook as more than just his direct report. They’ve established a quick rapport beyond the confines of work- Namjoon would say that they’re friends. Good friends, even. And Jungkook would say the same. 
Which is why Namjoon can tell that Jungkook is upset, and why he’s upset. Maybe it’s crossing professional lines, but Namjoon likes to think of Jungkook as a close friend. Namjoon has had an inkling of Jungkook’s feelings since around the time of the first time the team went to Tokyo. He had mentioned it to Seokjin in passing, and Jin had done some investigating on his own.
And since Jin is your best friend, Namjoon doesn’t feel as guilty about being somewhat nosy. But really, he’s rooting for both of you. He’s just pushing you both along as best he knows how. He won’t meddle, he’ll only be in both of your corner’s until you both get your head out of your respective asses.
Even at the holiday party, Namjoon could tell. And Jin, too. Even if it was over two months ago at this point, the stolen looks and soft laughs have only increased between you and Jungkook. And Jin was no fool- he had seen you and Jungkook on New Year’s Eve. Even if you had hardly uttered more than five words to Jin about kissing Jungkook’s cheek, something he’s never seen you do with anyone publicly. He knows something is up with you.
He wonders if even you know what’s going on with you and Jungkook. Or even what you’re feeling. 
Jin has caught you peering at Jungkook dreamily more than once inside and outside of work. It’s not typical of you, to look so openly lovestruck at the object of your unassuming affections. But Jin doesn’t think you even realize your feelings. He’s seen you smiling to yourself when your phone lights up. Jin has seen Jungkook’s name pop up on your phone more and more over the last few months. 
And Jin is proud of you. He can recognize your little crush even faster than you can. He only wants to see you happy and for you to allow yourself to be happy.
You’ve come so far in such a short amount of time. He doesn’t think he’s seen you smile this much in the last five or six years. He hasn’t seen the glow that comes with happiness light up your face in so long, and it looks so good on you.
Jin only wants you to hold onto anything that makes you glow like that.
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Jungkook has been in the office gym for nearly two hours and he hadn’t even realized it. Music blares in his ears through his headphones, he’s drenched and dripping in sweat and his muscles are nearly screeching with exhaustion.
But he pays it no mind. He just keeps going- anything to keep the thought of you, dolled up for Mark- on a date with Mark- holding Mark’s hand- kissing Mark, out of his mind.
It works for a moment. But then the image of you smiling at Mark with hearts in your eyes, pressing your lips to his… It’s too much for him to handle.
Maybe he was a fool to think that you might be remotely interested in him. Maybe he was a fool to think that a new year’s eve kiss on the cheek meant anything to you, or that your odd flirtations were for him only, or that the lingering gazes that you both held were special. Jungkook wishes he had taken the plunge then itself- maybe if he had been a little selfish and just kissed you and confessed to you his feelings… 
It stings. It stings more than it should. Jungkook has only just crossed into friendship with you- who was he to think that you were attracted to him? But he can’t help it. Jungkook wants you, plain and simple. He wants you so bad, he wants you to be his so bad, that it aches.
He’d treat you so well. 
Usually, a good gym session is all he needs to get rid of this type of pent up energy. But today, the image of you with Mark is seared in his mind and he can’t get rid of it despite his best efforts.
So he leaves the gym after racking up the weights and goes home, where he’s certain you’ll still remain lingering in his mind.
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Seokjin has been trying to reach out to you for the last few days. His texts and phone calls to you go unanswered for the most part, but you do at least indicate that you’re alive. You tell him that you just need time.
Because really, you can’t believe that you hadn’t realized that Mark was asking you on a date. You can’t believe you didn’t recognize the signs and you can’t believe you thought it was just dinner with a colleague.
Mark and the team are still in Seoul, much to the addition of your anxiety. You keep him at arm’s length, not allowing him to take an inch from you. You limit your smiles, the eye contact… Anything that apparently could have fooled him into thinking that you were interested in him.
Your head hurts. You feel incredibly stupid. Stupid, stupid, stupid. But how could you know? It’s not like anyone routinely shows you interest in that way. Or maybe you just never realized, or thought about it. You shouldn’t blame yourself for genuinely not knowing, you know that. But you can’t help but feel guilty about potentially hurting Mark. And the people around you.
Namely, Jungkook. Jungkook who won’t look at you the way he usually does, with warmth and stars in his doe eyes. His eyes are cold when he meets your gaze and you feel like shrinking into the floor. You’re nervous to text him, feeling odd and out of place. You hate to wonder your place in someone’s life, and you hate that you’re spiraling like this. So you just don’t, because that’s your default and it hurts less.
You miss him. You find yourself remembering how his cheeks felt against your lips, how warm he felt when you had fallen asleep on him on the airplane, even when he had held onto you and pressed his forehead to yours at the bar. It feels like so long ago at this point. But you can’t recall a time you’d ever felt so intrinsically warm with someone in that way. 
It’s different with Jin- the warmth you feel around Jin is very different to how you feel around Jungkook. It confuses you.
The only thing you’re sure of is that you’re tired and you miss him. It seems like the only thing you’re good at is hurting people and pushing them away. Your confusion feels so silly. Like you’re making things complicated when they shouldn’t be.
It all feels incredibly silly to you. You scoff at yourself.
So you decide on the last day that the Tokyo team is meant to be in Seoul, that you’d be working from home. You told Namjoon that you weren’t feeling great (which is true) and had come down with a fever and chills (not true, but Namjoon doesn’t need to know that). You also let your boss know that you’d be working from home, and he sends you an email of acknowledgement. To which you roll your eyes to.
Needless to say, you’re thankful that you have an appointment with your therapist scheduled for that afternoon.
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After your appointment, you’re feeling much more settled and a little better. Your head doesn’t feel like it’s garbled, and your thoughts begin to make sense. It’s what you love about Dr. Lee- she’s your compass and helps you melt things down so that they make sense to you.
You make yourself a cup of tea for you and Grandma before logging back into work. Stretching your muscles and your neck, you stand outside in your small backyard with your phone in your hands.
You let out a sigh, your thumb instantly scrolling to your text message thread with Jin:
you: hi 
And of course, he replies in seconds. Because you know he’s waiting for you to come to him.
jin: hey there  you: want to come over? For dinner? I’ll get wine for us jin: be there at 6 you: okay, see you then
And after a moment of thought-
you: 💗💗 jin: <33
Another sigh escapes your lips, and you head back inside to have your tea and finish up a few things at work.
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Jin is seated at your dining table at 6:10 PM, and Grandma gets the sense that you both have things to discuss. You and Jin have dinner with her and you’re watching him quietly. You watch him fill in the gaps of conversation, the gaps that you’re feeling a little nervous to fill.
Grandma excuses herself about an hour later to watch television in her bedroom and you’re left alone with Jin.
It’s just Jin. He’s your best friend, and your nerves begin to fizzle out.
“Want to sit on the couch with me?” You ask, gesturing behind you. He nods and helps you clear the table and takes both of your glasses of wine to place on the coffee table.
You sit on the couch facing him with your legs tucked under you and he does the same. 
“I’m sorry I freaked out and yelled at you in the parking lot. And avoided you ever since,” You murmur, meeting his eyes despite the heat that floods your cheeks.
Jin sighs and takes your hand in his and squeezes. “And I’m sorry I ambushed you. And didn’t give you any context.”
“I just…” You trail off, huffing to gather your thoughts, “Hate the idea that you guys all just… knew. Because Mark said something about it. A-and I didn’t even realize his intentions, like, what does that even make me? What does that mean about me that I can’t even realize when a guy is asking me out on a date?”
This time you do avert your eyes, embarrassment rushing through you.
“It’s not your fault,” Jin sighs again, “You don’t know what you don’t know. He should’ve been clear with his intentions from the beginning. He should know better than to ask you out at work, of all places.”
“He texts me sometimes, but I never thought anything of it. I mean, even when we were in Tokyo! Looking back, I guess… Maybe the signs were there. But I didn’t…”
“I know,” Jin says, “It’s okay.”
“Maybe I’ve been out of the dating pool too long,” You joke, trying to lighten the mood, “Got dusty cobwebs and all that, I’m basically undateable at this point-”
“That’s not true at all,” Jin says seriously, thoughts flitting to Jungkook for a minute, “I think you just...need someone a little more straightforward. Are you into Mark?”
“I told you I wasn’t. I mean sure, he’s cute, I guess. But no, I don’t really want to get to know him like that.”
“Then that’s the end of it,” Jin shrugs, “It’s literally that simple. Don’t overthink it.”
“Okay.”
Another beat of silence. You wring your hands together in your lap, biting your lip. Jin waits for you to speak. He’s very accustomed to your habits when you’re gathering your thoughts.
“Is it bad? That I don’t want to know him like that?” You ask unsurely, “I mean, I know it’s not bad- but, like, what if-”
“If you’re not feeling it, you’re not feeling it,” Jin says simply, “Like I said, don’t overthink it.”
“How did you know you were feeling it? With Yuna?” You ask curiously, “Like, I mean, what if I’m just being stubborn for the sake of being stubborn?”
Jin says your name softly. “Everyone’s different. It’s been a long time since I’ve seen you interested in anyone… But with Yuna, it didn’t take that long. I was thinking about her at the randomest times.
“Like… what’s her coffee order? What’s she eating for lunch? Would she like what I’m having for lunch? Is she okay? Is she happy? And then the more I got to know her… It was like, someday she’s gonna be the woman I’m gonna go to bed with and wake up with. I just know it.”
“Oh, Jinnie,” You sniff, and pull him towards you for a hug, “I’m happy. I’m so happy that you’re happy.”
Jin holds you for a few moments, rubbing your back and waiting for your breaths to even out.
“I’m gonna ask you something, and you might not like it,” Jin says bluntly, but softly.
“Whenever you say things like that, it makes my stomach ache.”
“Jungkook. You like him?”
“Like as a person? Of course I do. He’s nice, he’s sweet, smart, funny, sensitive… We’re friends, did you know that?” You nudge his shoulder with your elbow playfully, “He’s pretty great. You know, I was really mean to him in the beginning when he first joined. And for what? He’s so...he’s so wonderfully him and it’s genuinely nice to be around him. I feel good, I feel great when I’m with him. Like… I want to be better when- what? Why are you looking at me like that?”
Jin’s eyes are warm, his lips pulled into a knowing smile. You raise a confused eyebrow at him.
“I knew it,” Jin says, “I fuckin’ knew it. I see the way you look at him, and the way he looks at you. You both think you’re so slick-”
“Wait. Knew… what?” You ask, trailing off. Because the pieces are suddenly coming together as if they had always been there. They just needed a little push in the right direction. All of a sudden, your heart feels like it’s about to slam straight out of your chest. It hits you like a freight train with a bolt of lightning surging down your spine. You gasp, your lips parted and stare at Seokjin for a long few seconds. Jin sees an epiphany bloom in your eyes, and he already knows what it is.
You like Jungkook.
“Say it,” Jin says in a hushed whisper, “Say it, I know you want to.”
“Oh my god, you’re so dramatic. Edward Cullen wannabe,” You mutter, but your face is heated. “Don’t make me say it,” You whine.
He only looks at you with a smug grin on his stupid face. Because you have a giant crush on Jeon Jungkook, and the realization hits you faster and harder than possibly anything else in your near 30 years of life has ever hit you before.
“Jin, what the hell,” You complain but you’re smiling,  “I like him. I think I really like him.”
“Finally,” Jin exhales, “You’ve been so happy since you’ve gotten closer to him. I’m happy that you’re happy. And that he makes you happy. Might have to rough him up a little bit if he didn’t.”
You snort, roll your eyes, and mumble for him to shut up.
“I can’t remember the last time… I ever liked someone,” You say in a hushed voice.
“Do you like like him,” Jin teases and you swat his shoulder.
“I’m serious, Jin,” You say, “I think I’ve liked him for a while. And it took… till now to understand it. Isn’t that something?”
“It is something,” Jin nods, “You think he’s hot? He’s sexy? You must be so wound up- working so closely with him but not-”
You throw a pillow at him and laugh loudly. “Oh my god, shut up. He’s so fuckin’ hot, sometimes I don’t know what to do with myself.”
Jin only smiles at you, teasing you some more. You feel light once the realization and confession is out in the open, as if you’re floating on air. 
It feels good.
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Jungkook isn’t in the office today, and he wasn’t in the office the day before either. He has an out of office automated message set up, and he’s been offline for forty-two hours.
Weird. The last time he was out of the office, he had let you know beforehand. Maybe he’s sick?
But your text to him had gone unanswered. His read receipts are typically on, but your text to him just says ‘delivered’. You give him a few hours, pushing him out of your mind for a few hours to finish up some work.
You could ask Namjoon. Or even Jin. But you want to reach out to Jungkook on your own. Once you get into your car after work, your thumb hovers over his contact name. With a rush of tender courage, you call him.
Your stomach flips. The line rings and rings… until you hear a groggy voice on the other end.
“Hello?” Jungkook says hoarsely. He sounds tired and stuffy, like his face is pressed into a pillow. His eyes are barely open, barely registering that it’s you calling him. 
It’s only when you softly call his voice that things become a little clearer to him. He slowly sits up in bed, wincing at the movement. He’s a sweaty, sticky mess but it looks like his fever has passed as he slept.
And now he’s hungry.
“Hey, Jungkook,” You murmur, scratching your chin a little nervously, “You’ve been gone so I was just… making sure you were okay.”
You were making sure he was okay? Is he hearing that correctly? His heart lurches and sings. He can barely catch a breath.
“Just sick,” Jungkook groans raspily, pushing his sweaty hair out of his eyes, “Been miserable the last few days.”
“Yeah, I can tell,” You say, pulling a soft laugh from him, “Glad you’re okay for the most part, JK. Feel better soon.”
“You miss me or somethin’,” Jungkook says without thinking twice. His voice is congested but even you can hear the sweet note of his flirting in its undercurrent.
“‘Course I do. This place isn’t the same without my Bambi,” You say easily. Jungkook hears the smile in your voice.
That’s new. Your Bambi. Jungkook won’t deny that in his post-fever addled brain, it’s the sweetest thing he’s heard. Even if he almost always playfully chastises you for calling him Bambi, he won’t this time.
Before you can abandon your courage, you force yourself to ask- “Since you’re sick… Grandma makes a great galbitang and I can make you some baesuk. I mean- if- I don’t want to- God, I don’t want to overstep. I just thought-”
“Hey,” Jungkook cuts across you, his voice calm and steady as ever despite the phlegm in his chest, “It’s just me. Take your time.”
You squeeze your eyes shut and force yourself to take a breath, despite the hammering in your chest. “I want to bring galbitang and make baesuk for you because you’re sick and I miss you. Is that okay or is that too much?”
Straightforward. You like straightforward. You’ve never been to his apartment building (though he’s told you where he lives) and you feel like you’ve jumped about five steps. But it feels right. It’s him, so it feels right.
“You don’t have to go out of your way for me,” Jungkook protests weakly before coughing for about fifteen seconds.
“Kook, you sound like shit. I want to,” You murmur, “And seeing you is an extra bonus.”
“You’re obsessed with me.”
It appears that Jungkook is brave when he’s sick.
“No, I just like you,” You shrug. He can do what he wants with that information. You miss the sharp exhale of his breath. “I can come over… around six-thirty or seven?” Is that okay?”
“Yeah,” Jungkook mumbles, “Drive safe. See you soon, sweetheart.”
The pet name slips out without him even realizing it and sends your heart into an immediate frenzy. “Uh, b-bye, Jungkook. See you soon.” You stammer and hang up, unable to stop yourself from screeching alone in your car.
You immediately call Jin to shout and screech (maybe cry a little, because you’re overwhelmed) to him about this recent development.
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Jungkook can barely believe that you are in his apartment, much less, pouring soup into a bowl for him. He feels almost meek- do you like his living space? He can’t bring himself to expend energy on wondering what your thoughts are.
But he hopes you like where he lives. And he hopes this isn’t the only time you’re here.
“I’ll give you some baesuk after you eat,” You murmur, sitting next to him. Your thighs touch his, and he wants to tell you to sit away from him so that you don’t get sick. But he won’t deny himself of the soft heat of your legs next to his.
“Thank you,” Jungkook rasps, “You really didn’t have to…”
“I know. I wanted to,” You murmur with a shrug and a small smile. You both sit in silence, the noise from his television in the center of his living room blending in as background noise. You finally take a look around, looking at the pictures on the wall and the accents in the living room that are so very Jungkook. You don’t know Taehyung very well, but you see accents of him, too- in the small pieces of art placed tastefully in specific areas of what you can see in the apartment.
“I like your place. It’s very you,” You say off-handedly, meeting his eyes. His cheeks are filled with soup and he’s mid chew, dark eyes wide.
“Oh. Thanks,” Jungkook says after chewing fully. 
He tries to tell you about where both him and Taehyung got inspiration for the different things that they decided to put in their apartment, but he’s overcome by a bout of coughing. He coughs into his elbow (something you immediately notice) and you don’t hesitate to move closer to him and rub his back soothingly. 
Even if he’s wearing a thick, grey hoodie, he can feel the heat of your touch through the layers. You don’t move your hand once his coughing subsides, and for that he’s grateful.
“Take it easy, Jungkook,” You murmur. Part of you, a very small but loud part of you, wants to wrap yourself around him and press your body heat into his. He shivers a little, and that’s all the persuasion you need to wrap your arm around his and press yourself into his side. Jungkook lets out another shaky exhale before relaxing with your touch, all while you rub his upper arm.
“You’re freezing,” You say softly, “Are you feeling better?”
“‘M feeling better with you, sweetheart,” Jungkook murmurs, casting his eyes to yours. His browns are tired, fatigue swirling in them. But still, he looks at you in wonder. As he always does.
Your face feels warm, but still you leave your arm looped with his. 
“You’re gonna get sick,” Jungkook groans, leaning back with his eyes closed.
“‘M not,” You shrug, “Besides, I have Grandma’s secret galbitang even if I do.”
Jungkook only hums, unable to manage anything more than that. 
“Did you eat today?” 
Jungkook gives you a noncommittal grunt and you shake your head at him. “Wanted to sleep. Fever broke when you called me.”
And if an image of Jungkook’s sweaty torso flashes in your head, then that’s nobody’s business but your own. You nudge his shoulder with your hand, whispering for him to drink the baesuk you made for him.
“That’s good,” You say absently.
“Tell me about your day,” Jungkook says, a soft demand. He presses his lips to the glass of baesuk and drinks generously.
You rattle off the events of the day- it was rather uneventful for the most part. Just meetings, and doing some work in between. You tell him you missed him at lunch with Namjoon, Sana and Jin. And how the gym felt empty without him.
Once Jungkook finishes the drink, he promptly drops his head in your lap. A gasp of surprise escapes your lips, but you can’t help the smile of fondness from spreading. His hair looks so fluffy, a little messy… Part of you wants to rub his scalp for him and soothe him. Would he like it? People like that right? You always like when Grandma did that for you.
So you listen to that part of you and tentatively press your fingertips into his hair, combing his hair lightly with your fingers. And then rubbing his scalp gently. He groans into your thigh in contentment, nearly purring.
Your heart is thundering away in your chest at the new feeling of his head in your lap- the intimacy of such an action sets you on edge. But you embrace it. You can’t think of another time when someone has trusted you so implicitly like this. 
You like him like this. You like him like anything.
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dreamyaqua · 3 years
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Helloooo~!! I'm the same person who talked about Hyunjae and Haknyeon's rising signs! When I first wrote it, I wasn't deep into astrology yet. I've researched and tried to learn more about the Greek gods, the mythology, planets and associations to better my understanding. So, this time, I present all 23 members of NCT. To form an opinion on this, I watched their personal variety on their YT channel, took note of their physical habits and appearance, and read first impression stories. (1)
Also, don't worry about answering this right away! I just got very excited and wanted to share this :DD we currently have 5 members with confirmed risings; Johnny, Taeyong, Kun, Doyoung and Jaehyun. That's 18 members left, still! Also, I relied much more on their first impressions of each other as well as their appearance, habits and their neutral face because idols put up an act, which is enforced by their company. I'm running out of words so– (2)
(I decided to put the rest under a cut as the ask has gotten really long and I also put your asks together in regards to each member, I hope that’s okay!^^)
First up, Taeil! My first guesses for him were Scorpio (ruled out immediately lol), Capricorn and Taurus. I went with Capricorn at the end. Taeil just has a home-y, fatherly aura which Earth signs have. According to the members, he has that strong vibe that makes you want to learn from him. And we know that Capricorn is ruled by law and structure loving planet, Saturn. Saturn is associated with Cronus and Hestia. (3) Hestia is peace and home while Cronus was briefly the ruler of all. So, in short, a parent. Taeil as NCT's grandpa is accepted by many czennies. Which fits well. A typical Capricorn rising could have a petite stature as well as a wide-ish body type. Earth risings do tend to be stocky. Lips are usually either thin and wide or round but when they smile it's bright and feels familiar. It all starts from home~ Next up, Yuta! (4)
Yuta? Scorpio rising. I did try to see if he fits anywhere else but landed right back to Scorpio. One main reason, when he smiles, it's real. His healing and genuine smile is definitely a Scorpio rising trait. He's also pretty quiet in general but can get wild *insert clip of Yuta and Taeyong's chair race* and maybe even stir things up. Scorpio is associated with, Hades. Hades is generally a warm soul unlike his gruesome depictions. He's just a peaceful yet lonely guy. When he loves he LOVES (5) Traits seen in our double Scorpio royalty, Yuta. Winwin, Mark, Shotaro and Jungwoo is his Kore and Cerberus (you decide who's who). 
Easy tackle, now we've got Ten! Your local cat mom. As I say that, I guess Leo. Leo risings have feline features and traits, which Ten definitely has. When you watch his relay cam, his day's pretty chill and made more fun by his cats. They're just positive morning people and Ten really has that effect. Leo is associated with Apollo and Heracles (and more). (6) Apollo's a talented man (if you read Lore Olympus, I just hope you don't associate those characters with the actual deities) and so is Heracles. What do they have in common with Ten? Well, both Apollo and Ten are artistic, gifted with languages, and talented in music. With Heracles? Well, we know he's a hero, an ace. Leo is also the sun. The core of our system. We can definitely agree on Ten being NCT's talented ace, which all supports my guess of him as a Leo rising. Next, Winwin.
My first guesses for Winwin were either an Aries or Leo rising. Though, at the end, I settled for Aries. The entirety of NCT is in love (obviously, exaggerated) with Winwin, and fire signs naturally have that magnetism. Aries rules the head area, and one frequent habit of Winwin's is scratching his head. He also tends to put his head forward (called a nerd neck, due to book reading) which is typical of an Aries rising. He also appeals with his eyes when he wants something, also very Aries. Winwin as an Aries rising just feels true and self-explanatory. 
Next on our list is Jungwoo. A total Slytherin. Be a fool and fall for them, I dare you–oh never mind, you already have. Safe to say that Jungwoo is a Libra rising. Libra is Aphrodite afterthewholebeingbornoutofcastratedtesticlesthenformedfromseafoamshenanigans. We all know that Librans are pretty people. So pretty it's sickening, I'm getting too personal now. BACK ON TOPIC. I also had the thought of him being a Leo– I mean, if you've seen NCT World, Jungwoo definitely shone. Leos and Libras are similar in my opinion so it could be why I'm so unsure about it. Not many know but Aphrodite is a war goddess. Her role is very watered down, maybe because war was just not sexy to the Ancient Greeks. Still, Aphrodite conquered hearts, and Jungwoo has that main stage. Life is like a runway, especially with the way he walks. He also loves connections and making people laugh, both an Aphrodite and Apollo trait. Reason why I settled for Libra is that the first impressions of Jungwoo is that he looks serious, radiated sophistication but also wild. Aphrodite, being a magnetic and adventurous (iykwim) mad lad, has a definite influence on Jungwoo.
The next member is Lucas (12 more to go!). Lucas tries his best to make people happy. He loves seeing people be happy. And seeing how he says sorry when things don't seem to be exciting or done his usual way, I'm convinced he's a Libra rising.
I've written notes down but I have school so I'll complete this after LMAO
Back (new classes today so I'm hnghh). Okay, Mark! I believe he's where I left off. Mark is an Aries rising opinion. Also, while trying to hunt for their birth times, I stumbled upon someone saying Mark's birth time is 10:34pm. I tried it and it was Aries rising! Some habits that Mark does that's total Aries; touchy, laughs a lot, swears more than most, loud personality. He also has the Aries t-zone. His lovely gullbrows~
Next, Xiaojun. I was honestly stuck on him until I watched a fancam of him walking to the airport. His steps seem very grounded. Possibly, Taurus. I also thought he was a Scorpio and Leo but with the way Xiaojun gets defensive doesn't feel very water or fire (Aries is an exception). Xiaojun also enjoys food and cooking. He finds comfort in work, likes the easy way better, he's also quite practical. He's also hardworking. Probably either finishes homework the day it gets handed or when he's stressed. No in between. (I erased everything, I wrote by accident...) 
Hendery has the Air sign look and also the Earth sign vibe but in the end, I settled for Sagittarius. Why? Well, Sagittarius is ruled by Jupiter (Zeus) and we all know that Zeus can get impulsive. Hendery seems to be so. Sag is also associated Dionysus, the stereotypical wild "people love people" drunk. Which Hendery also seems to be so. That's all for him. Next up Renjun.
Renjun has a habit of scratching or just touching his ear and head, his fight instinct is on 24/7, gets frustrated when something doesn't go right, very attentive when people tell stories, uses his whole body when laughs (stomping, throwing his neck back like it don't break). I guess he's either a Gemini, Pisces or Aries. The easily bored so they make chaos but also is helpful when needed trio, Hermes, Poseidon and Ares. Renjun just has a distinct style I can't pinpoint. No solid guess.
Dream's papa, Jeno. I believe he's a Capricorn rising. He just has that long faced, big nosed and intense eyes that Capricorn risings, from what I've observed, tend to have. I've also took up Libra and Taurus as other options but I went with Cap. Even if his go-to noises is confusion. I probably don't make 100% sense but I hope it's good enough. Anyway, Jeno has a potential to become a leader and Caps are great leaders. Not perfect but great. He also has some competitiveness in him.
7 more left! Haechan's turn! Haechan really does twist and turn people's heads. He could be a Gemini rising, mostly because he uses his hands whenever he talks, laughs, sing. He's also a trickster. Maybe Scorpio since he has that rbf and the presence that makes you quiver when you meet him in person. Another possibility is Aries, he's wild, impatient and banter skills are top notch. His silhouette either looks Arian or Scorpian. Face, Geminian or Arian. What do you think? 
Next, Na Jaemin. Virgo rising. Jaemin knows how to smile, like he knows how to attract people with it, and we all know his smile is beautiful. He also has that motherly attitude towards his friends. A total introvert as well and is just calm (but can get naggy and fastidious). CEO at eye rolling, even if habitual and unintentional. GenZ Artemis. 
Next, Yangyang. I'm dead sure on him being a Cancer. The way he walks is so baby? and my Cancer rising friends tend to do little skips and sometimes waddle. Whenever an opportunity arises, he takes it. He also enjoys comfort. These may be Taurus rising traits as well (they're similar in many ways) but when I watched ETC, Yangyang seems to have a protective side. A clingy side. So, I went with Cancer. 
Shotaro is next! Always smiling, gentle voice, admires people and loves fun. Libra. A possibility is Aries. This is based on appearance. Arians tend to have weak chins (chins that don't stick out). He also has the "always look forward to tomorrow" vibe.
I-I don't remember who's next...
I suddenly forgot what I wrote before this. I should've planned this. SUNGCHAN. My Virgo buddy. When I first saw him his vibe screamed Virgo, he just had that short face Virgos tend to have. It's a mutable sign so it tends to get overpowered but every virgo I know has a short face despite being different ascendants. I was struggling figuring him out but I decided on Pisces. I'll be taking a stretch here. So descendant is how a person views the world. His being Virgo. Sungchan seems to look at the world as structured so he could feel the want to rebel. He seems to enjoy chaos but probably helps mediate the situation for the sake of doing so. My thoughts are slowly getting tangled.
CHENLE. Chenle's a virgo rising and mostly because his rbf is piercing. He always looks like he's observing and silently judging people. It makes more sense for him to be a Scorpio as well. Yes, he's bright and fun but Scorpios do have that side. Just more serious and a lot of roasting.
FINALLY THE MAKNAE. Jisung Park. Libra rising. He just likes peace but when he's chaotic, he'd want you to match his vibe. A balance, in a way. He also seems to get frustrated/stressed easily, gullible, awkward hands, and he's always quite pretty. Calming to look at. That's all. What do you think their signs are? I want hear your opinion :DD Also, I hope your exams went well!! You probably put in your 100% best so of course it did!!
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First of all, thank you so much for your support! My exams actually went well and I’m so relieved I got it all over with for this semester.^^ And now, as you’ve already noticed in an ask I’ve answered earlier, I don’t cover NCT on this blog and therefore, I haven’t really given their rising signs much thought so far, so I’m not going to really have an opinion myself but I wanted to thank you so much for your hard work with all of this and for sharing it with us!! It was super interesting to read and I can only say that I think all of guesses make sense to me.
As a Leo rising myself, I felt super flattered while reading Ten’s paragraph - I’d feel super honoured to share my rising sign with him and I also feel like his energy is familiar to me, so I could totally believe that to be true!^^ And also, omg, I’d love for Yangyang to be a Cancer rising! I seem to attract Cancer risings left and right and he’s recently become one of my ults, so that would be great :’) (I’ll definitely start to analyze him more in the near future haha)
Oh, oh!! Btw, my close friend @jacksvnshine made a very in-depth analysis of Mark’s possible rising sign and she guessed him to be an Aries rising like you did! She’s so amazing at what she does and if it wasn’t for her, I wouldn’t know a thing about astrology. So I can highly recommend checking out her blog and I also really want to link her analysis for you here as you might find it interesting to read, and it’s exceptionally well made!^-^
I’m sorry that I can’t really give you my opinion on their rising signs, I haven’t studied them enough in that sense :( and I personally struggle with rising sign guesses because I always feel like I don’t know enough to make an “accurate” guess but oh well- a guess is a guess, we can never know for sure but my mind doesn’t really want to accept that. :’)
I truly enjoyed reading through your messages and guesses, thank you again for sharing this with us!! I’m sure there’ll be others who’ll find it interesting to read as well!^-^
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soulnottainted · 3 years
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Familial/Platonic Event Day 1: Dynamics (with Parental Couples)
Dynamic!  What are you like when you’re together? Serious? Silly?
Morticia & Gomez: When I’m with the OG spooky parents, the atmosphere is mostly silly and laid back. The Addams are a very caring couple, and even when they are serious, there is a tinge of mischievousness to it that I always love. I’m not really a silly person unless I’m in my element, but with Gomez and Morticia, I am very relaxed around them that I can be a bit wacky sometimes.
Adam & Barbara: These two are definitely the stereotypical new parents. But also, it’s like when you go over a friend’s house and you think their parents are cool, and you keep thinking ‘man I wish I could have those parents for a while’. Adam and Barbara probably have read more books on parenting than anyone else but still are oblivious on how to parent their own way. It’s also different because they are ghosts and can’t do everything. They can posses things, but can’t exactly cook anything or interact like they used to. Being with them is a joy and it is such a cozy and warm environment. Adam and Barbara are just happy people to be around anyway!
George & Carrie: Proper but not so proper that it takes away from their sweet relationship with me. My Victorian writer parents work hard, but they always make time for me. I even help George with his writing if he asks. There are days that when George has to go to London to drop off his latest article, and when he comes back, all of us go on a picnic or a walk, where we just have a great time laughing and enjoying each other’s company. They are always so warm and inviting, and I always feel welcome whenever I spend time with them.
Aziraphale & Crowley: Mostly around these two, it is like a stereotypical couple. What I mean is, one thinks their parenting is better than the other, and it often leads to bickering in the Bentley. It often makes me laugh though. But, in the end, Azi and Crowley find common ground and work it out within several minutes. It’s never a dull moment with those two. Azi is more of the serious parent, but becomes the parent that always spoils their kid out of good intention. Crowley on the other hand is of course the troublemaker, but doesn’t do overly-bad things that would make me uncomfortable. He mostly does things to get a good laugh out of me, and that is all he ever needs for reward.
Cirrus & Cumulus: These ladies are like ‘If you hurt our child we will shred you in half’. Around me, they are protective and supportive, SO motherly that if I need ANYTHING they are there. They are like demon cat soccer moms, that’s all I can think of. And it’s gREAT
The Monster & The Bride: This one is a bit harder. The Bride is so protective of me, and she always worries about me. She has gone out of her way to learn how to care for a human being, in order to care for me, since I was the one who started teaching her and Frankenstein how to speak and do things properly. Even though she can’t do the motherly things she desperately wants to do, as well as Frankenstein’s fatherly actions, I appreciate both their efforts. They care for me deeply and I see that every time I go to visit them. 
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vulgarcute · 4 years
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First Contact || Jinx x Ohma || “Gods of Love”
Summary: After a long day Kazuo takes Ohma to an affordable restaurant serving high quality meats. What he doesn’t realize is that there will be a lack of customers, workers, or much of anything at all as the owner works to provide her customers with premium service. Service that Ohma can truly appreciate.
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The night air was crisp with the dropping temperature enough to make anyone feel a select kind of shiver run through their body from head to toe. Every light in the bustling city streets acted to make things a bit warmer in the same vein that the body heat of those just passing by unknowingly did. Not that any of it was  important when the warmth brought on by glee was factored in. “Oi,” a voice called out to his smaller (and much older) companion with only a shred of concern, “aren’t you moving a little fast?” The man stood tall, everything about him swollen to match. Every muscle he had worked to it’s limit pushing against the tighter fabric of his jacket in an ever lovely manner that still managed to seem pitiful in comparison to the mess or black tresses sprouting from his head without much care or consideration. And yet there he was, a man with charm, a man with outward appearance  above the rest without even realizing so. 
That wasn’t to say his older friend didn’t have merit. He may have been older, his hair an organized mess and glasses stylishly outdated, but he too held a charm. His whole being encompassed the idea of a fatherly businessman taking out his son (or in this case figurative son) for a nice meal to celebrate whatever grand achievement caused him to beam with such unbridled boastfulness. Though he barely had one his chest was swollen with pride and steps full of fragile confidence.
Confidence that the meal he had promised the taller gentleman would be as delicious as victory, “Oh come on! You know they used to call me fast Kazzy back in my day!”
In the wind he had seen an advertisement fly by for a shockingly cheap restaurant by the name of “Lace Jelly”, and while the ad did seem a bit girly the promise of good food for a better price was enough to put away the idea that this might be some pop up cafe for women. If it was he would just… have to find somewhere else to eat. 
He found no comfort when, after going through a few alleys and into an isolated area, the sign above the shop was as decorated in lace and pearls as one could imagine. But this was no deterrent for the younger man, apparently Ohma, who pushed open the door without hearing the silent protests of the older man before he looked over his shoulder with a raised brow, “Yamashitakazuo, aren’t you coming in?” Again with the calling of his full name! Kazuo would never understand this young man. Alas, while he entered the sound of the calmly crackling radio entered his ears and filled the old man with a sense of nostalgia made only more potent by the smell of freshly baked bread; one basket on every table from what he could see.
The walls were a subtle pink that held the sunlight leaking through the windows in a manner one would think impossible given how the building was tucked away. The tables were rounded with an ornate wooden base lovingly painted a pale rose and white marble table top. There were already four white cushioned chairs around each of these five tables, paired with four pastel heart shaped dinner plates (each a different color), mugs to match, and silverware laid over rather plush looking napkins. It was all rather feminine yet still felt like a home in a way no other little cafe he had entered did in a very long time. 
Stepping forward Ohma took a menu off of the stool at the front and moved to one of the empty seats, not a single customer in sight despite the sound of things being put together in the kitchen, “We’ll be seating ourselves! A table of two!”
His voice carried apprehension as well as it dripped confusion as he sunk into the alarmingly cozy chair.
He opened his mouth to try and make small talk with Ohma but he was already drooling over the images of thick steaks on the menu. Closing his eyes he relaxed into his spot only for the sound of someone speaking to frighten him to the point of stiffening up, “what can I get for you two gentleman today?”
A bit high, but still holding as much youthful vigor as a voice could. It held motherly backing and at the same time was cute enough to reveal her as someone young. Not that her appearance didn’t give that much away. Her blonde hair was divided in three distinct parts; one large pigtail on either side of her head and the rest flowing behind her. The top was decorated with a cartoonishly large bow. The rest of her was just as unfortunately fitting. Her little baker’s uniform was off white with a cranberry apron buttoned on with a heart shaped pocket resting on another larger pocket nestled against the left side, a white band around her waist, bunny stockings, a bow bracelet, and black shows with a pure white heel. But despite it all evoking his need to adopt this unknown grown woman; it wasn’t truly what caught his attention. It wasn’t her blue eyes that sparkled with excitement even through her glasses, it wasn’t how she effortlessly filled both glasses on the table with ice water despite the size of the jug she held that looked much to heavy, no, it was the fact he didn’t sense at all that she was coming that struck a chord with him. And from the look on Ohma’s face, he was dealing with the same experience.
How was it that she managed to sneak up so effortlessly? He must have been staring, because the poor girl began to look a little uncomfortable. He should say something before-
“I’m sorry gentleman, I didn’t mean to sneak up on y’all. I just got excited about having customers and all that. How about I give you your first serving free, as amends?” She gestured to the empty tables with a twinge of sadness, “as you can see, it wouldn’t hurt anyone else’s orders.” “Steak.” Was all Ohma said, pointing to an elaborate looking dish on the menu with a bit of the free bread still tucked into the corner of his mouth like a chipmunk guarding it’s harvest. “Yes sir! And what about for you, mister?” she didn’t even seem worried about if Kazuo had accepted her offer, which made sense seeing how quickly his dear fighter had taken her up on it. Clearing his throat the man looked for something simple before deciding on what looked to be just that.
“I’ll have the, uh, how about your burger,” just a simple burger patty, didn’t seem all that complex right? Nothing to worry about. With a nod of her head she just seemed to fade into the background as she headed for the kitchen. Looking up at Ohma, Kazuo prepared to speak once more but instead found himself curiously watching the man across from him who stared at the door into the kitchen with an expression he had yet to have seen. In all the times he had taken ohma to eat, this was the first time he had seen the man focus on anything but the meal in front of him.
In a moment’s time the girl ame back to the front with two armfuls of food. One hand held an american style burger with all of the fixings and the other several rather hefty looking steaks, “now I don’t want to see either of you leaving a speck on these plates! I portioned it out so you wouldn’t fill up too much before your next helping!” With the trained hand of someone who had worked in the industry for far too long she handed both men their meals and stood there a moment to gauge their reactions. She was a business owner in a business that was frankly going under. If there was anything in the faces these men made to tell her anything it was her job to see it! Kazuo was a bit bewildered, but began to eat as not to be rude. But Ohma hadn’t waited even a second before chowing into his food without even a second thought about etiquette. He wasn’t even using the silverware she so lovingly set out for customers! After he finished the second of three steaks she spoke up again, “easy big guy, can't have a handsome gentleman like you dying in my shop! The paperwork is one thing but watching art die is another.”
For the first time since they had begun to eat together Kazuo saw Ohma pause.
“How could I eat free every day?” He sounded so curious but the way his plate had been cleaned revealed his enjoyment more than verbal communication could possibly have done so. But this was worrying, Ohma had an unknown background and didn’t seem to know enough about the world to live in it without the help of someone guiding him. He had common sense and basic intelligence in everyday life, expert intelligence when fighting, but in social situations he was as lacking in skill as it could have been. Enough that most jokes-
“I’d only every do that for my husband,” an innocent comment followed by a jest, “unless you’re volunteering.” Flew over his head. It was in that moment Ohma made a foolish decision that would have an outstandingly positive outcome, “I am.”
With a laugh the waitress stuck out her hand, “well husband, I think we should introduce ourselves before you do that. I’m Jinx, owner of the Lace Deer. I’m twenty four years old and my hobbies are running my restaurant and decorating.”
“Tokita Ohma,” He didn’t know really how old he was, just that he was in his late twenties if he counted years he could remember, “I like to eat, and I’m the strongest man you’ve ever met.”
And just like that, as he took her hand and agreed to something beyond what either realized, the fated pair had made their first contact.
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Daybreak Academy: Chapter 20
Queen of Peace
Summary: In which, at April’s angered behest, Ava contacts the superintendent. Word Count: 1,534 First | Previous | Next ☆ ⚬ ☆ ⚬ ☆ ⚬ ☆ ⚬ ☆ ⚬ ☆ ⚬ ☆ ⚬ ☆ ⚬ ☆
“He did what?”
If Ava's jaw could have dropped any lower, it would have. Daybreak Academy's musical director, April Tremaine, gave a bemused smirk.
“You're acting like he decided to go skinny dipping in a kiddie pool.” she even teased. “Is it really that weird for a grown man to join in on open mic night?”
Ava didn't answer at first- instead knitting her fingers together from under her desk. Even if she couldn't see it, April could sense Ava's hesitation.
“Or, it's not open mic night you're worried about?” April then guessed. At Ava's persistent silence, April decided to switch tactics. And it meant putting on her mom hat and glaring Ava down. “What is going on between you five?” she all but demanded in a voice she really hated using. “The other staff is starting to question what's up too.”
“I...” Ava finally started to say. “It's complicated. I've been meaning to contact the superintendent.”
“So why haven't you?”
Again, the only answer Ava could give was silence. April's eyes narrowed. With or without her permission, April's mom mode had been activated big time. It was pretty impressive considering her own child barely saw this side of her.
“Ava,” April demanded. “Listen to me, and listen to me good- none of us wanted five headmasters. Us senior staff knew it was going to divide the kids even further. And while many of us still have respect for you five, it grows incredibly thin on days when we're not informed of what is going on. Let the superintendent know that when you contact him. Got it?”
Ava flinched. April wasn't giving a request, it was an order.
“I… I will.” Ava promised. “Thank you for your opinion, April.”
April gave nothing more than an annoyed huff as she spun on her heel to leave. The mild slam of the door was her last stand in the matter, and it made Ava flinch again.
As a still, almost chilling, air started to fill Ava's office, the young headmaster looked down at her desk in shame. She glanced over at her phone and then quickly looked away again. There was a reason why she hadn't contacted the superintendent, and it was close to the same reason why the other headmasters hadn't done the same; they didn't want Aced to get in trouble. Was he in trouble? Sure, possibly, he assaulted an independent school operator and fellow headmaster in the same afternoon. But did it warrant enough for him to potentially lose his job if it were reported? Depending on how it was worded? It was a large possibility.
And, of course, the rest of the staff was beginning to notice, as April had pointed out. If the staff knew, then the kids were starting to catch on as well. Payroll staff were one of the biggest gossips on campus; Ava was just lucky that many of them -like April- would bring their complaints directly to her. But then that lead into a different problem; how did she get stuck being everyone's queen of peace? Invi was the one who kept the most tabs on the school's activities, along with crowd control when the time called for it. Not that it had worked out very well last time…
With that final thought, Ava reached for the phone and started to dial the superintendent's business number. She immediately regretted it the moment after as she listened to the phone try to connect. Being unable to knit her hands together (what with one hand holding the phone), Ava instead opted to drum her fingers on the desk as the phone continued to ring. It was at the tenth ring that the superintendent decided to pick up.
“Oh, Ava!” he greeted in a bright tone. Something in Ava relaxed- it's been awhile since she'd heard that voice. “It's been awhile since I've heard from you and my other well chosen headmasters! How have you been?”
The smile that had been on Ava's face was wiped away with a shake of her head. Focus, Ava, you're here for business and not idle chit-chat.
“Sir, I wanted to discuss...”
“Hey,” he then casually said, cutting her off, “How about we talk in the flesh? I'm in town for awhile and I've been meaning to make a trip up to the academy; but if you come to me, then we can talk things out one on one. What do you say?”
For a moment, Ava was at a loss for words. She even wondered if someone had told him about Aced's outburst. But that was impossible, no one knew but the headmasters and Ephemer. That Moogle, maybe, but it wouldn't have said anything to the superintendent. Would it?
“Yeah, that would be nice.” Ava found herself agreeing.
“Great! There's a swell little coffee shop in Cable Town, I think it's called Club 13- I hear it's a pretty hipster. Meet me there tomorrow around, oh say, noon-ish. Alright?”
“S-sure.”
“It's been great hearing from you Ava, see you tomorrow!” and with that, the line went dead. Ava stared at the receiver for a moment before placing the phone down. What just happened?
. . .
Back when she was a student, Ava had known the superintendent as the sole headmaster of Daybreak. Aced and Ira had already graduated and were taking an apprenticeship as future administrators. Invi was six years older than Ava, but was also on the fast track to doing the same as the boys. Gula had been the youngest, attending Daybreak Academy a year after Ava started. And it was Gula who started to call the then headmaster MoM.
There was some joke behind it, but Ava couldn't remember it for the life of her now. It was... an acronym, of something. Master of Monotony? No… Mischiever on Meth? Nah, not that she would put it past Gula to have made that joke once. But it was always the name Ava associated with the headmaster, even now when he was their current superintendent: MoM. The worst irony about the nickname was that the man was anything but motherly (or fatherly, for that matter) in the way he taught them. He was stubborn, a practical joker, cryptic, and -on rare, rather scary occasions- dead serious.
But when she saw that 60 or 70 something man drinking from a glass cola bottle with a big red and white straw, it felt as if no time has passed between them.
“Ava!” he happily greeted as she took a seat across from him. “Aren't you a sight for sore eyes!”
“It's great to see you too.” Ava agreed.
“Now,” MoM cheerfully declared, “Let's order some cake and you can tell me all about your troubles. Assume most of them are school related, and not general catching up stuff?”
“Unfortunately.” Ava agreed with a nod.
As she then went on to explain the situation, MoM only seemed to be half listening. On numerous occasions he called for the waitress to bring them another drink, or ordered another slice of cake for himself. When Ava was finished, he let out a pensive silence pass between them.
“Seems like quite the pickle.” he eventually said to her. “But Aced's a stubborn guy, he'll get himself together eventually.”
For some reason, this wasn't the answer she had been expecting, so Ava let out a small, “Right...”
“But,” the superintendent then mused, “In the mean time, I do have an idea on how you could increase student morale.”
“How?” Ava asked, almost a bit too quickly.
“Create an entirely separate organization- something like a student council, but more… politically present, so to speak. Allow them to learn the ropes of what it takes to be a great headmaster, and then when the times comes, they will be. Simple, no?”
“Would that really work?”
“It worked for you five, didn't it?”
Ava thought about it, and April's threat from earlier came back quickly. 'None of us wanted five headmasters. We knew it would divide the kids further.'
“Sir, I don't think...”
“Well that was a great talk! Thanks for meeting with me, Ava, but now I've gotta jet. I'm expecting a video conference with Luxu in the next half hour or so, and you know how he is with being late.”
Ava gave a half hearted nod. She only had faint memories of Luxu, who had acted as a headmaster before she and Gula signed on. Other than that, Ava knew next to nothing about the man.
The superintendent didn't seem to notice her response. Once he had gotten up, he went over to give Ava a kindly pat on the head.
“Don't be such a stranger next time, Ava. I like talking to you five- we're like a family, you know? Just make sure that your new student council can work well with each other, or it'll all fall flat.”
“Of course.” Ava agreed without looking at him. And with that, the superintendent paid for their bill and disappeared into the street. It was only now that Ava realized she had knit her fingers together in anxiety.
“A student council…?” she mumbled to herself. “Would it even work...?”
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e-luxion · 5 years
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Johnil Synastry Astrology Analysis
for the lols
To all my Johnil shippers, in the light of recent events:
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I decided to make this, now I am not a shipper of no pairings in NCT (romantically cos I think it is strange, but if you ship them romantically, you do you boo. I am writing this post to cater to the platonic shippers, the romantic shippers and the sexual shippers) but I thought it’d be interesting to look at the synastry of Johnil since John John keeps saying Taeil is his soulmate (but then again he said so was Jaehyun so Johnny u whore) and I honestly love their friendship.
This is going to be just a basic synastry reading, for fun. Please do not take things too seriously, astrology is meant to be taken lightly and this was made with good intentions, again, for fun. 
Let’s begin then:
Sun trine sun (Gemini & Aquarius)
This is BFF culture and you can’t tell me otherwise. Sun trining another person’s sun is just so positive, these two are very similar in terms of ego, basic personality or maybe not necessarily “similar” as in completely alike but rather as in “in harmony”. They share a similar perspective, and probably identify with each other in some ways, or if you want to use millennial terminology: “they vibe with each really hard”. Taeil and Johnny’s basic personalities compliment each other very well, Geminis x Aquarius reminds me of this sentence: “your weird matches my weird so that’s why we are friends”.
Sun trine Moon (Taeil’s sun trining Johnny’s Moon)
This kind of aspect is often said to be one of the strongest (Conjunction would be stronger than a trine, but a trine is mre harmonious) synastry aspects two people can have in synastry, it is just works you know. There is understanding, there is a true care between the two and there is attraction. What more do you need? The sun person (Taeil) depends on the support from the Moon person (Johnny) and and Johnny (moon) generally comes to rely on Taeil for wisdom and probably really trusts him. It is a very naturally flowing aspect with a lot of emotional understanding. It reminds me of when Johnny said he now knew what it was like to have a big brother thanks to Taeil.
Moon sextile Moon (Taeil’s Leo Moon x Johnny’s Gemini Moon)
Personally, I love sextiles, they have the same easy-flowing energy as a trine except it is different, as in the there is more differences between the two signs but it works. It is the best of both worlds. Leo Moons are children at heart, they are playful, and fun-loving and Gemini Moons bring the fun, they are witty and funny. Of course, there are differences between the two but that’s what makes it more interesting. Another BFF aspect. I dont know why but air and fire signs always remind me of friendship, even in romantic settings, these people are friends first lovers second. It is your typical friends to lovers AU. 
Johnny’s Sagittarius Jupiter trining Taeil’s moon
This is too cute, it is such a positive aspect to have in synastry: Jupiter is essentially the Moon’s happy pill, their anti-depressant. The Jupiter person (in this case Johnny) always tries to make the moon (Taeil) person happy, Taeil often might be resist but probably quickly warmed up tp him and harmonised with his ideal and positivity. Whether Taeil is aware of this or not, I can see Johnny being a very important influence for him, a comforting ball of light in a way, when he is having a hard time and is feeling a bit emotional, he might turn to Johnny and Johnny probably gets him to open up more than other people would.
Mercuries quincunx/inconjunct (Cancer VS Aquarius) BUT then Taeil’s mercury opposites Johnny’s Capricorn Venus BUT then Taeil’s Gemini ass trines Johnny’s Aquarius Mercury
First of all, I want to fight the person that made the word “quincunx”. It’s ugly. This aspect is also call inconjunct but ya know. 
The reason why I am writing these aspects together is because they sort of cancel each other out (at least in my head). So mercury quincunx/inconjunct mercury is literally what it says, if conjunct means “joined together, combined” then you can guess what INconjunct means right? With this aspect, the two epople (in this case Johnil) don’t share the same intellectual or educational background, nor the same way of thinking or communicating. It is a case of, these two mercury signs are literally like an apple and a giraffe, there is nothing that connects the two. Communication is difficult because of this, their sense of humour is nothing alike, their ideas don’t match, it is a mess. One person could tell a joke and the other is like ?????? what 
But here is why, synastry, my friends, is complicated as shit, more often than not there will be other aspects that will either make aspects worse or better, or soften it or make it more chaotic. So here is the tea:
(Taeil) Mercury opposite Venus (Johnny): this turns the exchange of ideas exciting, these two tend to open up with each other a lot more, communication ofte has a flirty subtext (probably from Johnny’s part ngl) no matter if it’s a romantic or platonic relationship, and these two are also more likely to talk to each other basically. So it kind of cancels that awkwardness of the inconjunct. But because opposites are a double edged sword ready to fucking attack, even tho the exchange between mercury and venus is fun and exciting, it is also likey it will source some conflict, but isn’t that every human interaction ever? With this aspect there might be TOO much excitement, you might accidentally cut each other off and there might be a slight competition, there might be small misunderstandings. These are all things that can be subconscious. 
(Taeil) Sun trines Mercury (Johnny): THIS gives the relationship easy understanding, talking to each other is as easy as breathing, they love talking to each other and the communication flows freely, they are often eager to listen to each other and work together. It is such a positive aspect to have, Taeil (as the sun person) probably really admires Johnny’s intellect and how he communicates. I think they really get each other and work very well together, probably finish each other’s sentences. This is a complete platonic aspect btw (on its own), it is great for friendships because there is a real sense of understanding. And this just shows me that those two are probably really good friends outside “NCT”/work. You can tell even in front of the cameras that they are very comfortable around each other. I haven’t checked the degrees to see which ones of these mercury aspects is the tightest (meaning: the strongest) but judging by the way they act, I am going to say it is this one as it cancels the awkwardness of the inconjunct and the lowkey tension of the opposite. 
So you see why this shit is complicated?
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Venus Opposite Venus (Cancer vs Capricorn)
Johnil and their soulmate aspects, ffs. Venus opposite Venus is chaotic soulmate aspects, that’s what I’m going to call it. As the name suggests, the two Venuses are the exact opposite, except this kind of opposite is the kind where you complement each other. You might be completely different, yet you are so alike. In astrology, Cancer and Capricorn are dubbed the “mother & father” of the chart, Capricorn is ruled by Saturn which represents your father figure whilst Cancer is ruled by Moon, the planet which represents your mother figure. Cancer’s stereotypical character archetype is very ‘Motherly’, they are sensitive, caring, loving, nurturing and honestly just want to care for you and love you while Capricorn’s archetype is more of a stereotypical masculine fatherly type of character: they are work/goal oriented, reserved, hardworking and guarded with their emotons which is a complete 180 turn from what Cancer is (in the sense that their emotions are way much more on the surface than Capricorn). Both signs are very traditional in a sense, and value relationships. I honestly think this is the cutest thing, Venus in Cancer wants to provide an emotional blanket for you and nurture you and Venus in Capricorn wants to provide for you in a more physically tangible way (like money for example, but they also want you to work hard for yourself), they work very well together despite the differences. 
On a more platonic note, I can see Johnny and Taeil possibly discussing relationship or their ideals and agreeing on a lot of things. Their ideal types are probably the complete opposite and their approaches to love are also different but there might be a lot of similarities, they are both old souls when it comes to romance, both want to protect and provide for their partners, and both being a cardinal signs makes them great initiators. The main difference is that Capricorn (Johnny)’s approach is more practical, logic and calculated whilst Cancer (Taeil)’s approach is more emotion oriented. 
This is funny cos Johnny (Venus in Capricorn) is usually seen as the father figure of NCT while Taeil (Cancer Venus) is seen as a mother figure. 
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Mars Square Mars (Taurus x Leo)
shut up I LOVE THIS, as someone with a Taurus Mars who has almost exclusively dated Leo Mars men (because I’m actually cursed and am fucking doomed to end up with a leo mars’ trash ass) let me tell you. This shit is M E S S Y, but hot. Also I love that Taeil has a Taurus Mars, like yes representation! We good uns
Hard aspects like a square more times than not cause tension, but it highly depends on the individuals. If the two mars in question were to be less developed (as in the mars signs being less developed versions) these two would barely be able to stand in the same room without actually wanting to punch each other cos the other person somehow manages to rub you in every wrong way possible. You can be the calmest person (which usually Taurus Mars are) and just this person BREATHING will irritate you. 
But if the two mars signs in question are developed versions, like two mature individuals, you can actually benefit from being in relationships (of any kind) with someone whose mars squares yours. With a square, your drives, your passions and the way you deal with anger, are completely incompatible, these two couldn’t be any more different in their basic impulses and instincts. But this allows for personal growth, this person will challenge you, even provoke you and push you, this all could be negative or positive it depends on you. It is easy to get overwhelmed, become irritated and impatient with this synastry aspect, but it can also be rewarding as the other person usually helps you discovers sides of your Mars self you probably did not know you had. In the case of Taurus and Leo, Taurus tend to hold onto their anger, on the outside they seem to be calm and collected but in reality they are just holding in their anger and holding back, that is why they seem “calm”, Taurus has an immense amount of patience because they are so used to biting their tongue instead of lashing out. Leo’s chaotic loud energy ticks off Taurus in the way no other sign manages to do, at first this relationship could be extremely chaotic, full of fights and arguments until they start to understand each other. And when that happens, they can actually balance each other out: Taurus could learn to stop holding being so reserved and “fake calm” and Leo could learn how to control their temperament and calm tf down.
This is the kind of relationship where there is just constant teasing, things like "I love you but you are literally so irritating” might be said, actually a very loving relationship if the individuals get their shit together. Making each other laugh over stupid shit. Mars square Mars also tend to cause a lot of sexual tension, like INTENSE “Idk whether to f*ck you or k*ll you” kind of tension. Arguments that somehow lead to sex are not uncommon. 10/10 recommend but you’ll need a xanax. Sex is great, arguments are spicy, it keeps you on your toes. 
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y’all going to hate me for putting this here, but this was hilarious lmao
Johnny’s Leo Mars conjunct Taeil’s Moon
I don’t mean to keep fueling you weirdos but all I’m going to say this is known as both an indicator of strong attraction (both physically and emotionaly) but also a baby maker aspect so you do whatever you want with this information... 
When mars and the moon come together, it tends to create fascination and attraction but also mars can sometimes unintionally hurt the moon’s feelings by being a little too aggressive, it is definitely an emotonal aspect, with its ups and downs. Often the moon person needs to be nurtured and cared and the Mars person can be a little too insensitive and oblivious, but at the same time this aspect can indicate the mars person is quite protective of the moon person like “this is my baby, hurt it and I’ll fight”.
not @/ johnny calling Taeil his baby in the birthday video thing lol
Taeil’s Taurus Mars trining Johnny’s Capricorn venus 
Another aspect to feed you all. 
When Mars trines Venus, the romantic and sexual feelings are strong, if a couple with this placement gets together, it is very unlikely the feelings will ever fade completely, there will always be something there. They are important and special to each other no matter what. Being a trine, it is more harmonious than other aspects, so this as a more soft and fluffy energy to it. The Mars person is probably very turned on by Venus’ loving persona/nature, here sexual feelings and romantic feelings blend very naturally and not aggressively, overall it is very positive and it can be th indicator of a fulfilling relationship. 
Johnny’s sneaky ass Lilith in Gemini conjuncting Taeil’s sun.
SpiCY. Another aspect for my sexual shippers, like promised. I keep my promises.
Lilith represents a few things in our chart, it shows you the darkest parts of your psyche and self (this is the kind of person you are at your worst), but also can show you your deepest darkest desires. Traditionally, in astrology, in a man’s chart Lilith can be the kind of woman he desires yet fears. We can also interpret this as just the kind of person you desire but fear, you are inivitably attracted to them but the idea of being attracted to that person can make you uncomfortable, nervous even but you are still aroused somehow. 
Not to go into TOO much detail, but this is a strong indicator of sexual attraction, the Lilith person usually is too scared to persue the Sun person, but the chemistry is there. In a relationship, this would be definitely intense and challenging, the Lilith person usually does not react to the Sun person very well (I think this aspect would be felt if the relationship was of a romantic/sexual nature, if it is just a friendship I don’t think it would be as prominent and it would possibly manifest in other ways). 
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:o end. What should I do next? 
Someone please request one of the following so I have an excuse:
JohnDo or JohnTen 
Taeil-Yuta-WinWin triangle cos I find it funny 
RENJUN AND JENO plz also I am willing to look at HRVY and Renjun since apparently this is a thing now.
Also I just want to roast Haechan, so someone give me an excuse. 
Ask me about why Taeyong and Ten are actual the superior couple in NCT 
p.s. I didn’t proof read this so sorry for any typos or dumb shit. Also, I know I have been inactive for a millenium and a half but I am back, I have a few posts that I am writing. This was like an impulse write, completely unplanned and it took me two hours to write so please don’t let it flop 
love, Lulu
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Tales of the Stage - Those Who Inherit The Power of Lorelei - EMOTIONAL ACT (August 23, 2018)
What a long day it was!
In a nutshell, today's stage play was a lot more serious as promised (in contrast to how crazy the Yokohama stage play was). It definitely felt more like Asch's story this time around, and anyone who adores him is very much in for a treat. There were also a lot more scenes with the Six God-Generals and Noir, with the Abyss party members taking more of a backseat this time around. I think this might be the closest we'll ever get to an Asch side for Tales of the Abyss. Aschtalia shippers will also love it a lot.
After the stage play, there was a talk show with Chihiro Suzuki (Luke's voice actor), Kazuki Yao (Dist's voice actor), Yuya Arai (Asch's stage actor), Orito Kasahara (Dist's stage actor), and Shunichi Takahashi (Jade's stage actor). Which, you can probably guess, is the reason why I picked this day to go, besides my already planned Saturday and Sunday viewings.
Anyway, without further ado, here's my personal experience for today, as well as a plot and talk show summary I've drawn up to the best of my abilities and memory!
Before the Stage Play
After hearing that Jade sold out pretty quickly yesterday, I took no chances for the merch line and arrived two hours early before they started selling stuff. It was a long wait under the sun as they had us line up outside the venue before letting us in 30 minutes before 4pm (the start of sales).
As I was the second in line, I managed to get everything I wanted! I lined up again a little later because I was curious about the items that sold out. The Dist bromide (Yokohama Arena version) and acrylic was the first to run out in about 20 minutes. Legretta's bromide (Yokohama Arena version) also sold out at around the same time. Not too long after, Jade's acrylic keychain also sold out. I'm so glad I came in early to get them, but man, they didn't really seem to stock too much of everything except Boy Asch, Luke, and Asch.
The wait for the theater opening itself (6pm) was made bearable by the fact that I managed to make a friend (aka the person who was as early as I was in lining up). Both of us are Jade and Dist fans (with matching Jade dolls too and what not), and it seems we both took the bait regarding the varied talk shows per day (today was Jade and Dist's turn).
Once the theater gates opened, we got the postcard (today was Jade and Dist) that changes for each showing. There were also a good bit of flowers. Jade, Dist, Tear, and Asch have the most.
Stage Play Summary
Note: Apparently some of these scenes were different from Day 1's show. As I have not gone to the said show, I do not know which is different or the same, so I'll be updating this on Saturday again to report on which scenes were unique to Day 2.
Before the stage play, Noir and her lackey Dino (if I'm getting the name right) fooled around a bit onstage. Noir's bromide sold out and Dino was talking excitedly about it. He also opened a blind box can badge in front of Noir, hoping he'd get Noir. He got Ion instead, which Noir pinned to her uhh... chest wrap, or whatever it is you call her clothes. Dino started taking a lot of pictures of her and kind of got skeevy a little later and got bonked by Noir as a result.
Kazuki Yao (as Dist) narrated the story introduction, complete with Dist's trademark laugh. He made it a point to emphasize that Jade was his rival.
The story opens with boy Asch escaping, and Dist running after him. Dist got a clunked on the head for his trouble, Van reassured him that it's not a problem that Asch escaped. Asch got stopped at the gates and was laughed at, and everything more or less proceeds as the Abyss plot did.
The boy Asch actor didn't join in the Karma dance, but he did appear in several of Asch's dream/nightmare sequences/flashbacks. It was sprinkled throughout the play and was a nice touch, and definitely added to the overall Asch-feel of the stage play.
As with the Yokohama stageplay, the Karma dance was montage-y at some parts for the God-Generals. Also since I pay extra attention to Jade, he somersaults into the stage, sights Dist, then walks away when the latter tries to chase him.
They had some pre-game scenes here that were never in the game or anime, aka an opportunity to showcase how stuff in Daath went. Like, Anise being busy with Ion. Dist presenting Tokunaga to her was also included here, as well as a bit of showcasing of how their awkward friendship works. I love it so much. There was also Arietta having some trouble with paperwork and trying to get Sync to help her. Legretta eventually ends up aiding her instead, and she kinda felt motherly here. Van also had a fatherly moment when the God-Generals met up with him and Arietta presented her paperwork to him proudly, but it did come off as a little creepy given what we know of Van.
But yeah, during that meeting, Van also poked fun at Asch's dislike of octopus as a joke. Basically it all felt like they were the dysfunctional family that the anime or game semi-implied but did not quite emphasize.
Luke and Tear end up in what I suspect to be Cheagle Woods, but the area wasn't named. The main party also had their entrances at around this point (including Guy and Natalia, who aren't slated to join until way later, game-wise). Guy's introduction ("Enter the amazing Guy") kept on getting interrupted by Natalia, which was hilarious.
Later on, we get to see a similar scene as the Yokohama Arena showing, where Asch visits Nam Cobanda Isle to make a deal with Noir. Noir's backstory also comes out here. A random kid gives Asch his most treasured possession, which is a doll.
I think this was around this time that Asch had another one of his dreams about the past again. As I've mentioned earlier, this is a recurring thing throughout the stage play. They also got the Natalia actor (I think) to dress up as child Natalia for these flashbacks.
There was a huge skip to what I assume to be Deo Pass (prior to Akzeriuth), where the party battles it out with the Six God-Generals. Natalia sees Asch's face and they end up having a long moment staring at each other, and she seems to realize something, but does not have much time to dwell on it. Guy and Sync get some curse slot action going here as well.
Akzeriuth more or less proceeds as it does, including the Abyss classic "ore wa warukunee". However, at Ortion Cavern, there was an added scene where Jade talks about his past with Dist, and there's an enacted flashback for it. For this adaptation, younger Jade and Dist (in lab coats) were in Hod when it was collapsing, and that's how Jade came to know about Van's real name. Note that in the game, Jade had never actually stepped a foot inside Hod. Even if this wasn't canon compliant, it was still interesting to see because, yay, more Jade and Dist scenes. Action scenes, that is. Though Dist (Saphir then), wasn't really any good with them battles and just kept on trying to dodge things.
It was around this time (or a little earlier), that Mohs was talking to Largo about something interesting that he heard (aka the circumstances of Natalia's birth), and was heavily hinting that he knew something about Largo too. Largo just brushes it off.
Speaking of Largo, earlier he also had a moment with Asch, something like acknowledging that they have the same feelings regarding a certain issue. I think it was Natalia-related, but my memory is a little fuzzy at this point in time.
There was a part where Asch was more apparently in pain, and Dist, like in the Yokohama Arena showing, ends up mocking-slash-word-vomiting at Asch regarding his state (the Big Bang). While Dist was going on his spiel, Noir and Dino were nearby, poorly hiding as they overheard everything. Once Asch chases off Dist, Noir voices some concern over his well-being, but also ends up reporting that Natalia is in trouble (Mohs was going up with his reveal regarding Meryl and Natalia being a "fake" princess). Asch ignores his extreme pain and runs off.
As with the Yokohama Arena show, we got to do the Natalia chant with the penlights along with Noir and the Dark Wings.
Asch and Van also have their battle here, which Asch has the upper hand in until he gets a seizure, which Van takes advantage of by stabbing his arm and literally twisting a knife (err, sword) into it. Same as the Yokohama Arena show, and just as "oww" to watch.
Absorption Gate was also another opportunity to showcase some of the party's talents. I was only expecting somersaults and stunts from Jade (who delivered!), but Tear also had her own cartwheels and it was pretty impressive. Van still had his dance numbers but they were very much shortened. Also Jade featured quite prominently in the Absorption Gate battles, I feel. And there even was a part where he seemed to be dancing it off with Van.
Sync was in the Absorption Gate battle and once his mask broke and he got on this diatribe, he committed suicide with a sword. Later on, he gets revived along with Van.
Luke and Asch receive their parts of the Key of Lorelei. Asch has a scene with Noir at around this time too, where he asks Noir to return the doll he received from the child earlier on in the stage play. But something happened to the doll's face, I think? Dino said something but I wasn't able to catch all of it.
Then there's a huge skip to Eldrant, where the party have their final showdown with the Six God-Generals. Natalia and Asch have a moment too over here. So we have the following:
 Anise vs Arietta: Poor Arietta, she had that scene where she hallucinates her mother and Ion before she dies.
Jade vs Dist: Jade makes quick work of Dist's robots after going "Sayonara, Saphir". Which did not feel as heartfelt as the game or anime, but I'm glad they included that. The battle ends when Jade steals Dist's flowery wheels and Dist chases after him.
Tear vs Legretta: Legretta has more or less the same death scene lines, with Tear being equally devastated.
Natalia vs Largo: Quite similar to the game as well, with Largo being proud of his daughter before dying, and Natalia calling him father
Guy (and later on Anise) vs Sync: Similar to the anime, and Sync has a moment where he impersonates Ion in the heat of battle, which throws off Anise
Luke vs Asch: Similar to how it goes in the game, with a few twists. Luke sees Asch getting turned into a pincushion and was definitely very hesitant to leave him like that.
All of the God-Generals except Dist dies. There is a scene after Asch dies where the Natalia in his dream finally finds him (prior to that, it was always him just chasing after Dream!Natalia), and gets the flower crown, plus a realization of the place he belongs in. We also get to see (briefly) the God-Generals that have died in the said sequence. A good number of people were in tears at this point.
In the final battle against Van, Asch from the beyond gives Luke a pep talk. After which, Luke uses Lost Fon Drive to defeat Van. And I guess it's time for a small random note--everyone in the party (plus Asch) got to use their Mystic Artes throughout the stage play, except for Jade. But that aside, the post-Eldrant scene was cut a little short, with only Tear saying her piece about wanting Luke to come back. But Luke and Jade do share a nod before it cuts to Luke fulfilling his promise to Lorelei.
They tried to recreate the whole Luke-falling-to-the-core scene as faithfully as they can. I think that they could not have the Luke stage actor carry Asch the whole time, so they substituted for a projection. Still was nice.
"The Look of that Day" starts playing, and we get the epilogue scene, which proceeds more or less as it did in the game and the previous stage plays (with the Luke stage actor in the Mr. Ending costume), BUT. Besides using a more Lorelei-ish voice for him (it's the Mr. Ending voice, overlapped with some other voice), we get a silhouette of Asch too (in a similar costume, iirc) after Mr. Ending exits the stage.
When I looked around and the lights went on, it seemed that more people were in tears by the time the after talk show was to start.
After Talk Show Summary
Kazuki Yao was dressed up in a flowery print Hawaiian shirt and shorts combo, with a t-shirt that had a glittery skull on it. It was a highly unexpected turn of events and earned many laughs.
Chi-chan made sure to emphasize we're getting Double Dist today. And kept calling Jade's corkscrew a dragon screw.
Some of the questions and answers I can remember (paraphrased):
(1) What thing did you have to be careful about when portraying your character? Yao: Apparently he thought Dist was an "okama" (roughly "drag queen"), but in the middle of recording, he was told that Dist is not an okama and it was difficult to adjust. Kasahara: He did a lot of research, and tried his best to imitate Yao's voice for Dist. (he's playing through Abyss and I think got Shiro no Ashita and Tsuioku no Jade manga) Takahashi: Jade's spectacularly long hair. (which I imagine got in the way in a lot of stunts... he needed to keep flipping it away lol)
I can't remember what Arai said for Asch, unfortunately.
(2) Since we have Double Dist today, name something good about Dist. Suzuki: Very forward-looking and positive. Arai: He has a beautiful color. (said after facing Dist and looking at him for a long time) Takahashi: Let me just describe what happened when it was the Jade stage actor's turn. > Dist and Jade face each other and are sitting way close. > Jade: (after a long stare) Nothing. > Dist: (looking affronted) Ehh??! There must be something!!
If I recall correctly, Jade reaffirms the no, but definitely, shortly after this, Dist starts playfully grabbing Jade's knees and goes all "JEIDOOOO". Kasahara-san and Takahashi-san were so cute together...
Anyway, the winners for the picture-taking lottery were announced at the end of the talk show. Didn't win, but I did have a lot of nice memories to take home, which I feel was very much precious in itself.
Personal Thoughts
As with the previous stage plays, I feel it's best to watch this while being well aware of TOA's story. They skip around a lot and omit a lot of things, and I feel it's easier to appreciate the additions with that said background in hand.
I really loved the stage play as an Asch side type of deal. It's a refreshing way of looking at the story, and as I've mentioned, they really made good in making this feel like it's Asch's story. The party members taking the sidelines (including Luke) was a consequence of this, but it all felt natural. I liked seeing more of the Six God-Generals too.
Accounting for my Jade bias, I'm satisfied with regard to his level of presence in an Asch-centric story. I think he had even more stunts here than the last one he was in, but that could be my wishful imagination at work. I also feel his character was a lot more interesting with Dist around, rather than a standalone.
Asch was definitely the star of the show, but I still love Kasahara's Dist. He's such a great Dist and I'm glad they got him on board. His research certainly looks like it paid off--he looks the part and acts the part. I think a lot of people are charmed by his performance too, which also may factor in to Dist running out today (besides today being Jade and Dist talk show day), and during the last TalesFes. I also noticed that people in the trade search on Twitter have been searching for his karaoke trading card too (Jade, of course, is still the crowning king of rare).
I still feel that Reo Kawamura's Guy is a bit lacking, but he had a lot more to do this stage play, so it wasn't as bad as the previous stage play in Yokohama Arena. As far as successors to Kou Hosokawa's Guy was, I think he's fine--it's just that Hosokawa's performance feels difficult to top, in my opinion.
I cannot tell which among the stage play scenes were different or added for the day, so I guess I'll discover on Saturday what may have changed. I definitely look forward to that and the talk show, in any case. Will post again on Saturday and Sunday with the said differences, but until then, I hope you enjoyed this report! If you have any questions that I have not addressed, please feel free to drop by my ask box!
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We know what Anita's relationship is with Sanji, or how she feels towards him at least. What's her relationship with the rest of the crew or how does she feel about them?
🐻; anonymous
Sorry in advance if this gets a little long, but there are quite a few Straw Hats. I’m including Jinbe and Carrot into this as well, whether or not Carrot actually becomes a Straw Hat too. Meaning these will all be her feelings as of the current arc even though I haven’t quite gotten to the rest of those rambling posts yet.
LUFFY ;
She, like most of the crew, respects and adores her captain. 
When they landed on her island and most of them were captures, I can guarantee you that Luffy shrugged it off at first in his usual ‘they’re stronger than they look, so they’ll be fine’ way. But when she sees the anger in his eyes knowing they might not be okay, she quickly comes to admire how protective of his friends he really is. The fact that he got them back and relented when Anita argued with him about who got to take down the Vice Admiral gave her more respect. I realize Luffy might not like that she begged at his feet for her to join, but it was only because she wanted to get stronger with them and save her friends and family that she did.
Anita is a big goof, so Luffy is one of the ones that she gets along with the best, along with Chopper and Usopp. Especially when I consider all the silly headcanons @xstrawhat and I have come up with. They argue over food and who the real alpha bear is, but I feel like Anita is totally and completely loyal to him. He’s her captain, and no one else can take that position. She owes him everything for giving her the chance to be better than she is.
They’re basically brother and sister.
ZORO ;
Zoro is her favorite drinking and work-out buddy. He’s the one that shows her tough love when she needs it. You know the kind; she’ll be moping about something or feeling sorry for herself like she does on occasion, and he’ll sass her out of her. Tell her to pick her sorry ass up and do something about it rather than being a baby. At least he does when he knows it’s appropriate. There are some moments when he knows it isn’t going to help because he isn’t totally heartless. He does care for his crew, and that includes her. So when she’s having those really bad days and being verbally slapped doesn’t work, he’ll sit there with her and share a drink.
He’s also the one that helps her bulk up the most. The strength she gains in her human form does translate to her bear form, so he’s the one she goes to when she wants an intense workout and wants to get beefy like him.
Okay, maybe not exactly like him ‘caus the boy is ripped, but she’s pretty muscular.
Zoro is also a good nap partner, especially when she’s in her bear form. The two nap together often.
NAMI ;
Anita was intimidated by her at first, honestly. She was sexy, smart and damn good with that Clima-tact— still is! But she’s gotten over that and come to highly respect Nami’s intuition and ability to sense the weather. As a bear, she can sense some things and she does have a good sense of direction on her own, but Nami’s skills are far beyond that and totally worth admiring.
Plus, she’s the reason why Anita’s wardrobe is so different in her Straw Hat verse. I know that doesn’t seem like a significant thing, but it is. In her Main Verse, she’s all dark and earthy colors and baggy clothes. Nami likely wouldn’t allow that and help her find things that still fit her style but aren’t so dirty looking. Grunge is still her style more than anything else, but a little blue and white and other nicer colors start to slip in. Anita starts to feel a little more confident in her looks because another pretty woman is showing and telling her that she’s actually kind of pretty and not a dirtball.
She’s also nice to snuggle. Can’t tell me for one second the girls don’t just get into a sleepy cuddle puddle sometimes and end up drooling on each other.
USOPP ;
Because Usopp is the most chill in her opinion, Usopp is probably the closest thing she has to a best friend. She loves the rest of the crew with all of her heart, she really does, but there’s just something about Usopp that makes her want to go to him first if she has a problem.  .  . especially if that problem happens to be Sanji.
He can be quiet and understanding one minute, then playful and goofy the next. He has such a vast personality that she feels like she can count on him for just about anything. And she kind of hopes she’s been giving him the impression that he can count on her because she’s not so selfish that she doesn’t want to be there for her friends. Especially since the two of them likely have the lowest self-esteem on the ship, next to their cook ( but that’s just my personal headcanon since I write him too. )
I’ve said this a billion times too, but SHE LOVES TO LISTEN TO HIS STORIES! Doesn’t matter if it’s a new or old one, she still sit from start to finish and ask for another one every single time. Doesn’t matter if they’re made up, either. Each story is different in its own way and she adores that he’s so creative. It’s the same with his art too. She isn’t the least bit artistic, so she can easily praise everything he does because he has a talent she doesn’t and loves it.
SANJI ;
…..MMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM.
CHOPPER ;
Chopper is the baby of the family, so Anita is very quick to defend and protect him. When she knows there isn’t any way for her to distract or tank the way she’s meant to, her job is then to protect Nami, Chopper and Usopp. She doesn’t think they’re weak in any way because even at the circus on her home island, the smallest part ( whether it be in an act or something technical ) was important, but she knows that they aren’t as strong as the Monster Trio.
But she’s one of the one that frustrates Chopper the most when it comes to people sitting still during recovery. Sitting still makes her antsy, so she ends up getting up anyway. She won’t work out or remove her bandages like Zoro does, but she does walk around or attempt to sneak food from the kitchen.
I can see them training together, though, animal versus animal. Nothing that will get either of them too hurt, of course. But there’s something drastically different about how two animals fight that helps them with their different zoan forms.
Also threatens to eat him from time to time because she’s a shit. Sorry, Chopper.
ROBIN ;
I feel like Robin would be the one Anita interacts with the least because even after all this time, she’s still intimidating. Robin just exudes this alpha female aura in Anita’s opinion, and she’s way too smart. Because she is a ‘all brawn and no brain’ cliche, Anita feels like she can’t talk to their archaeologist casually without it turning into a lecture or a history lessons that she won’t remember. That, and she can’t read. She’ll have tried to avoid them knowing as long as she possibly could, but it’ll be obvious once she’s been around them for a while.
She didn’t feel much when Robin said she was going to leave, but she does relate to her a little knowing Marines destroyed her home. Parts of her want to get closer to Robin because she is amazing and powerful, but Anita assumes too dumb for that.
I would kill for some Robin and Anita interactions because I want to see if any of this would change with interaction. ‘Cause I’m not the least bit good at understanding Robin ;;
FRANKY ;
RO-BRO!!
Okay, listen. She is 100% into the super pose and does it every given chance, and it brings Franky to tears. She sees him as the dad of the crew and has more love for fatherly figures than she does motherly because hers was awful. Might be another reason why she’s not sure about Robin.  .  . Huh.
Anyway! She appreciates all of his hard work and is is genuinely impressed and amazed at the things he creates. I realize there’s the running gag that females aren’t impressed with his creations and have that flat look on their face, but?? Honestly, she would get sparkling eyes and wheeze over it. Might not freak out the same way they do, but she adores his creativity and talent in working with machines and building Sunny.
Sometimes, if she’s bored and has literally nothing else to do, she’ll ask if she can watch him work for a bit. The sounds his work are sort of comforting. Reminds her if Gus and his tinkering back home.
BROOK ;
Brook is her source of jokes, bad puns and nostalgia. Because he can play several instruments and is skilled at different kinds of music, I feel like he would know how to play songs that have a carnival or circus tone to them. Her home-sickness can get pretty bad sometimes, as well as her doubt over whether or not she’ll be able to beat the Marine that took over. Brook will be there with a song and soft, calming words and she’ll be fairly alright.
She wasn’t sure how to feel about him at first, but she’s watched him go from a creepy, talking skeleton from an afro to a still creepy, talking skeleton with an afro that can use a swords pretty damn well and do cool things with his soul.
Probably the biggest fan of Soul King’s music on the crew. None of them really seemed to notice he had a whole career during the two years ;; I mean, they noticed, but do none of them like the music he made during that time? Or is it just an ‘off-screen’ thing. Anita will listen to his music religiously because it’s right up her alley.
JINBE ;
Doesn’t know much about him aside from what she’s told and having met him at Fishman Island. She has no bias against Fishman so she doesn’t dislike him, but she’ll have to get used to how serious he is. Will make every attempt to make him crack a smile and likely fail every time. She’ll be a little surprised when she finds out he’s their helmsman because she thought he already had a crew. Slightest bit conflicted about him leaving his crew to join them, but doesn’t ask questions because Luffy agrees with it.
CARROT ;
Anita’s not a Mink, but I feel like her and Carrot would get along so well. Ahha, actually.  .  . Now that I’m thinking about it, she’ll probably dislike her a little at first because she hardly knew Sanji and snuck in to save him anyway and did more than she could, while she was being upset and petty over him leaving. Yeah, there might be a little tension there until Anita realizes that they lost someone during that whole mess.
Carrot is cute, and seeing her even slightly upset when they mention Pedro died will kill her inside. They can kind of share the ‘I lost my mentor / a man I admired a lot’ feelings. Plus, I can see them hard-core training together and going all out.
OVERALL ;
She loves them. They’re her nakama. She would do damn near anything for them. She’s as greedy as Luffy, determined to be strong like Zoro, appreciates food like Sanji, likes to have fun like Usopp, Chopper and Franky, can be calm and collected like Robin and Brook. I didn’t really think she’d have a place with them until Rachel said Luffy would want her aboard, so I really owe this verse to her and a few other people that encouraged me.
Thanks for asking!! And sorry it’s so long ahhhaa
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genre: school life, fluff, some angst summary: what it was like being high school sweethearts with your first love! jaehyun au. (2,332 words) a/n: i’m not even a big nct stan but WOW jaehyun gave me feels esp after that mbc performance also one of my first angsty pieces! masterlist can be found here!
so in a performing arts high school filled with many talented and beautiful people, you happened to catch the eye of jung jaehyun due to your ballet skills
he also had a good reputation around the school, admired for his honey vocals and pretty boy looks
there weren’t that many ballet students at sm academy, so you were well known for ballet
and it was something you were really passionate about and would stay until late practicing your routine for the upcoming showcases that happen every season
one night, when jaehyun was also staying late to practice with his group he noticed you in one of the practice rooms
this wasn’t the very time he noticed you practicing until late, but this was the first time he decided to watch you for a bit
he admired your dedication to ballet, and was just AMAZED by your gracefulness
but he was pushed out of his daze when you made eye contact with him in the mirror
you were gonna say something but he got so shy for getting caught watching you AND DASHED
you ended up laughing a little to yourself because you found him pretty cute
you also noticed him before at previous showcases, where he would perform “without you” with his unit, nct u THIS IS THE BEST NCT SONG FIGHT ME
his vocals caught you attention the most and from then on, you had a little crush admiration for his musicality
little did you know, he also admired you as much as you admired him
and his friends were SO OBVIOUS about it
“hey dude did you ask out y/n yet?”
“WHAT WHY WOULD I”
“because you are basically in love with her and her ballet?”
“…. you aren’t completely wrong about that”
but you guys rarely spoke to each other and sat very far from each other in the classes you guys shared
and as if the gods were in your guys favor, the teacher did a randomized seat change and you guys ended up being seat mates cue the fangirling of your guys shippers
you both did have some people that wanted you two together, the smooth ballerina and honey vocalist, a CONCEPT
but when you guys sat next to each other, you both were so SHY
in your mind you were fangirling about his voice and in his mind he was fangirling about your elegance
but as time went by, you guys slowly opened up to each other and had many inside jokes
but, you guys rarely spoke outside of class unless it was for school
and both of your friends were pushing one of you to MAKE A MOVE
but you two are still very shy beans
“nah he doesn’t like me that way, we’re just seatmates” LISTEN HERE GIRL
“dude, why would she like me when i’m sure there are other guys better suited for her” oh how wrong you are Sir
so you guys just remained as “seatmates” for the longest time, but had the biggest crush on each other
and is if cupid was playing with your fates, there was a BIG project assigned and the partners were based on seatmates, meaning ;-) you and jaehyun
THIS IS THE CLICHE MOMENT WE HAVE ALL BEEN WAITING FOR
so you guys end up meeting in a cafe in the neighborhood on the weekend near your house
and when you arrived, jaehyun was already there
sitting at a table with his school supplies set out on the table, and two cups of tea sitting on the table
and to be honest, you found the scene straight out of a kdrama and felt your heart flutter a bit
your heart fluttered a bit more when jaehyun finally noticed you at the entrance and waved you over with a smile, showing off that CUTE dimple of his
so you took the seat in front of him shyly, as he watching you with that gentle smile still on his face
“i didn’t know what you liked, so i got you a classic honey green tea” he said a bit nervously, afraid you would actually HATE IT
but it was actually one of your go-to drinks
“you didn’t have to!! but thanks, its actually one of my favorites” you smiled back as you took a sip
and it was at this moment, that jaehyun realized how much he liked you
from your bright smile, to the elegance of your aura, to your energetic personality, he liked you A LOT
so this is where his pursuit for your heart started, in a cozy cafe on a saturday as you guys worked on your project
you both were pretty good students, so the project ended up being a piece of cake
in the end, you guys were basically done with the project so you guys just started messing around
jaehyun started his pursuit by moving to the seat next to you, saying he had to show you something on his laptop
so you guys just started watching random videos on his laptop while laughing
for all the people passing by, they thought you guys were the cutest couple ever and were envious of your yOuNg LoVe
you couldn’t help but notice and blush a bit when jaehyun would move a bit closer to you to type in something on the laptop he placed in between you guys on the table because seeing his face up close was just FLAWLESS
and then soon enough, after who knows how many videos later, it was already late and time for you to head back
“jaehyun, i had a good time today and i’m glad we were able to finish this project so fast!!”
“yeah, me too. i wouldn’t mind doing this again” he smiled with THAT DARN DIMPLE AGAIN
“sure! next time there’s a project let’s partner up and do this again!” you said, oblivious to his feelings
“i mean, even when there isn’t a project. i’d like to meet up and do this again” he responded, causing you to blush madly because ???? like a date ???? you were SHOOK  
“oh yeah, um sure! you have my number right?? feel free to text me too!” you said back, deciding that you too would pursuit his heart
that you already won
so when you guys were FINALLY leaving, he walked you home and along the way you guys spoke about a bunch of other random things that taught you two more about each other
so when he bid you goodnight, you could only flash him a smile that made his heart flutter
“i think this was the most fun i had doing a project, thank you for that jaehyun! i’ll see you on monday” you spoke before disappearing into your house, trying to calm down your racing heart
jaehyun, on the other side, could feel his cheeks BURNING
so the next day, you two ended up texting throughout the WHOLE day about random stuff, and even sent each other funny videos
so when monday came along, you both were more than excited to see each other and spoke whenever you guys had the chance
AND EVERYBODY NOTICED THE CHANGE
instead of being in your guys respective friend circles before school, you both were at your seats sharing earphones and watching funny videos and laughing to yourselves
CUE ALL THE RAISED EYEBROWS AND MOTHERLY/FATHERLY SMILES
then when class started, you both were sending notes to each other and having to suppress your laughter from the lame jokes you guys were having
even at lunch, you two were glued to each other
“bro, i can’t believe he ditched us” whined doyoung
you both remained in the classroom, watching videos once again
it soon became a routine for the both of you to watch videos in your free time during school
and then a very special day came
vAlEnTiNeS dAy
and with the pressure of jaehyuns friends, he decided to confess to you that day
he was also getting tired of only being a “friend” for the past three months, even though you guys seemed more like a couple
so he elaborated a whole scheme with the help of his friends and yours to romantically confess to you
basically, he would make one of your friends take you out of the class for a bit and you would come back to a flower petal path that led to jaehyun holding a bouquet of roses
so, when the time came, you were sus as to why most of the people that would normally be sitting inside were standing outside??
but you went in anyways and noticed a rose petal path on the ground
and you weren’t sure if it was for you so you were about to turn around and go right back when your friend slammed the door in your face
“um i guess i’m just going back to my seat???” you thought to yourself
but behold, the path was right in the direction of your seat and you finally noticed another person in the room with you but they had their back turned to you
so when you where just standing behind him, because he was blocking your seat you cleared your throat
but also you were trying to figure out WHOSE BACK IS THIS poor oblivious you
and then,,, they turned around, revealing JAEHYUN’S BEAUTIFUL SMILING FACE
you were shocked, and a bit confused because you still weren’t sure if this was even for you LOL
“so, y/n….i have something i’ve been wanting to say for the longest time. your smile, your personality, your grace, everything about you, i love it. ever since that day we first spent at a cafe together, i made a promise to myself to one day confess to you. you had my heart for quite a while now, and i think it is safe to say i really really REALLY like you. so, will you be my girlfriend?” jaehyun said with his blushing cheeks and pounding heart, while holding out the roses i can’t write confessions i am sorry
and you were just SHOOK
like did the boy i had the fattest crush on really just confess to liking me??? is this a dream??
“oh my god jaehyun” you cried out with some tears in your eyes because you were so touched and couldn’t hold it in
“yes- oh my god why are you crying i’m sorry??? it’ll be okay??” jaehyun spoke, a bit confused but when to pat your shoulder comfortingly when you just wrapped your arms around him instead
cue SHOOK jaehyun with even redder cheeks
“i like you too!!!! i fell for you at last years fall’s showcase, but i didn’t think you even knew who i was.. but i’m so glad that we ended up being partners. and to answer your question, yes i will be your girlfriend” you spoke with a few tears in his embrace, taking in how warm you felt
jaehyun could feel a big smile grow on his face, as he caressed your hair gently to calm you down
you then pulled away to look at his face, smiling at him with teary eyes
he laughed at your streaming tears but gently wiped them away
but feeling shy once again, you buried your face back into his shoulder because YOU COULDN’T BELIEVE THAT THE JUNG JAEHYUN IS NOW YOUR BOYFRIEND…..
you two finally pulled away when loud cheers from jaehyun’s and your friends came in after they realized that the confession was a SUCCESS
and all the students who were waiting outside finally came back in while also cheering for you guys
you two were just standing there with burning cheeks, shyly sitting back down
and the news of the new couple spread quickly around the school, giving you guys the “sweetest and purest couple” title
it was true, jaehyun was the SWEETEST boyfriend
he would occasionally pick you up in the morning to go to school together, or would meet you at the front gates with some bread and coffee
jaehyun also wrote cute love letters a lot, and you would always find them in your locker or in your room
on weekends you guys would always end up cuddling while watching videos because it was a tradition to watch funny videos together
you both also found yourself having a lot of cafe dates, where you would either work on your assignments or end up watching videos again
at the showcases you both would be each others BIGGEST fan, making everybody jealous
jaehyun would also sing to you a lot, whether it would be a lullaby when you can’t sleep or just a random pop song that pops into his head, but either way you just LOVE it when he sings because it relaxes you
and he would also watch you practice now, even though you got so focused that you would forget he was there but it’s ok he was entranced by your gracefulness
so you two had a pretty cute and strong relationship throughout high school, and soon enough you both graduated
you went to a college for performing arts, while he ended up getting scouted by an entertainment company
angst alert
and over time, with the both of you becoming more and more busy it soon led to less phone calls and texts, less dates, and less love in general :(
you guys had a mutual breakup
mainly because of the strictness of jaehyun’s company that permitted him from dating or going out often put a strain on your relationship
and also, you were getting really busy with school and practice
you both really didn’t have the time for a relationship :/
but either way, the relationship you both had was something that neither of you could forget
you both learned a lot from each other, and made memories you two would cherish forever
because while he was not your current love, he will always be your first love.
sldkfjalsdkfj what did i just write..this ended up being longer than i thought it would be this was an au i wanted to write for the longest time and im like 70% satisfied with it??? we will see
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charleecat-bat · 6 years
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Fandom Meme
A - Ships that you currently like a lot. (They don’t have to be OTPs because not everyone has OTPs.) Friendships, pairings, threesomes, etc. are allowed.
Uuuh, well, lemme think, for fantoms that aren’t sonic stuff, I enjoy Retsuko and Haida because adorable. Angus and Gregg from NITW is too adorable for it’s own good. 
Sonic wise, well, I’m not strong on my ships but they’re are some I do think about or do think are matching, I think Shade and Knuckles are a good match, I enjoy Espio and Tikal, especially in my canon. 
I do love Locke and Luger a lot though, since I can see them working in my canon, but other then that, I’m not huge on ships so eh. 
B - A pairing–platonic, romantic or sexual–that you initially didn’t consider, but someone changed your mind.
Locke and Luger, mainly because they were related but then with some fanart and talking with friends of mine, especially @terraqua111, I started to like it and my friends had a point that they were too distantly related for it to matter anymore. She also showed me Lien-Da and Xenin which I liked. 
I also didn’t consider Locke to be paired with anyone else before Luger, then I saw @lockewat‘s ship, Chuck and Locke... and I thought it was quite suiting as well. 
Two other ones are Vanilla and Big because that was so adorable and that would be such a peaceful relationship good god it’s what they’d both need, so many picnics for dates. and @motobugg did some work on Rouge and Wave which I have never considered and I immediately thought... damn that would actually work a lot. XD Also Shadamy at some points due to a friends artwork and Shadow would be balanced from Amy’s personality that he would need.
C - A ship you have never liked and probably never will. I’ve never been big on Julie-Su and Knuckles, in the comics it felt kind of forced to me, same with Sonic and Sally, that I don’t see them suiting each other at all. 
D - A pairing you wish you liked but just can’t.
Ummm, I don’t know, I can’t think of one. 
E - Have you added anything cracky/hilarious to your fandom? If so, what?
Uuuuuuuuhhhhhhhh, I don’t know. 
F - What’s the longest you’ve ever been in a fandom?
Sonic fandom. XDD Been in that for around 8-9 years. Since I was 9 or 10 years old. 
G - Have you ever had an OTP? If so, do you remember your first one? Who was in it?
I think it would’ve just been Shade and Knuckles. lol Again ships aren’t my life. 
H - What is your favorite source text for fandom stuff (e.g., TV shows, movies, books, anime, Western animation, etc.)?
Mainly ongoing stuff, I know it started with games, so I guess games? But I enjoy shows/series as well. 
I - Has Tumblr caused you to stop liking any fandoms, if so, which and why?
Ummmm... not that I know of. 
J - Name a fandom you didn’t think about until you saw it all over Tumblr. (You don’t have to care about it or follow it; it just has to be something that Tumblr made you aware of.)
Animal Crossing? I didn’t start playing the phone game until I saw people talking and reblogging stuff about it, then I tried it. 
K - What character has your favorite development arc/the best development arc?
Well, in Steven Universe, a lot of the character have great arcs, that who their true opinions and colours, like how Amethyst had self-hating habits, Pearl didn’t think she was worth much, and seeing Peridot’s growing into a whole different gem, it’s really cool.
L - Say something genuinely nice about a character who isn’t one of your faves. (Characters you’re neutral about are fair game, as are characters you merely dislike. Characters that you absolutely loathe with the fire of ten thousand suns are exempt, as there is no point in giving yourself an aneurysm over a character that you hate.)
I’ll go with um... Lars from Steven Universe, I didn’t like him much as a character at first, but I could understand his insecurity and being unsure on how to act and how to show himself, and being scared to show his true colours... but now he’s showing his own worth and letting himself be who he is with the Off-colours, which I can genuinely appreciate about him, he’s much better as a character now. 
M - Name a character that you’d like to have for a friend.
Can I say the entire brotherhood? XD I would love that like you wouldn’t believe. 
N - Name three things you wish you saw more of in your main fandom (or a fandom of choice).
Just more Brotherhood content in general, uuuummm more monster-related AU’s? I don’t know, maybe more merchandise too? I don’t know I’m not all that demanding about content. o-o I’m terrible at this. 
O - Choose a song at random. Which ship or character does it remind you of?
All the Way (Jacksepticeye fan song) is the one that came up on shuffle, and it reminded me of Hawking, at least my version. I could imagine he would listen to this to motivate himself or something like that. 
P - Invent a random AU for any fandom (we always need more ideas).
...Trying not to say Monster AU for any sort of fandom CRAP TOO LATE-
But what about a Shape of Water-esque AU? 
Q - A fandom you’ve abandoned and why.
I haven’t really abandoned any fandom? o-O R - Which friendship/platonic relationship is your favorite in fandom?
When they’re not a couple and they’re just best friends, Locke and Luger I guess, they act like big dorks. I don't know, I don’t think about relationships much besides family ones. 
S - Show us an example of your personal headcanon (prompts optional but encouraged)
Hmm, well, I feel while Locke doesn’t know what his main sexuality is right now, he’d feel he’d be in writing (sexuality)/Asexual, as he never really had sexual feelings, he only had sex in order to have his son, and he honestly never liked it all that much. 
I also have a head canon that Steppenwolf is afraid of humiliation, or just making a fool of himself in social situations (he’s got a very well hidden social anxiety), so if he saw a bunch of people staring at him and whispering to each other, he’d instantly become worried about what he did. 
Another head canon is that I love to imagine Sabre can swordfight very well, and the person who taught him is surprisingly Tobor. As he was very good with a sword and shield combo back in the day (before his injuries). 
T - Do you have any hard and fast headcanons that you will die defending? 
That Steppenwolf is a werewolf okay not really, I’m not really about strong head canons that I would ‘die defending’. I just like the thought of him being one because it’d be ironic for his name... and it’s just with me for so long man. 
U - Three favorite characters from three different fandoms, and why they’re your favorites.
Steppenwolf (Sonic Fandom I guess)- I still don't fully understand why I liked him, I simply did but nowadays I just find the character I made him an extremely interesting character and every time I’ve wrote something or drawn something to try and cheer myself up, it made me feel he’d be a very strong, protective and oddly supportive in his own way. I’m not sure. I’m weird. 
Lapis Lazuli (Steven Universe Fandom)- I just want her to be happy, I find her really interesting, her powers are really cool and I just want to know how things turn out for her, it just sucks that she tends to disappear for long periods of time. 
Angus (Night in the Woods)-He’s a bit underrated but he’s just so cute to me, especially with how others draw him, I love his character and I feel bad for him when he takes about his abusive childhood and issues growing up that made him who he is today, made me want to give him a big hug. 
V - Which character do you relate to most?
Well, I feel I can relate to Angus at a few points, always feeling like I have to be the responsible one, being usually quiet and wanting to hide in corners in parties (and your friend that you stick to is your corner in those situations), 
I also feel I can relate to Retsuko from Aggretsuko, always trying to keep calm and from losing my temper, also Mister Ton kind of reminds me of my dad at some points... and he can piss me off just as much as he does with Retsuko so yeah. 
Part of me also feels like I relate to my version of Rembrandt, he’s an artist, he deals with a lot of emotional issues, he’s insecure about his body size/weight, very motherly/fatherly and protective. 
I dunno. 
W - A trope which you are virtually certain to hate in any fandom.
Annoying characters that think they’re full of themselves and practically perfect while thinking everyone else is below them and everyone is unworthy of their ‘greatness’... or mary-sues. 
Or just a needlessly dramatic moments or moments of anger and arguments that don’t need to happen. 
X - A trope which you are almost certain to love in any fandom.
Kind of the big strong protective one with a heart of gold and is very loving whether they show it or not, or big ass ones who are strong as hell but are really just gentle giants.
And probably monsters stuff like werewolves or stuff but sometimes that can backfire and become annoying. 
Y - What are your secondhand fandoms (i.e., fandoms you aren’t in personally but are tangentially familiar with because your friends/people on your dash are in them)?
Team Fortress 2 is one, have a few friends who like that game while I don’t like it much anymore for personal reasons, some horror fandoms like Five Nights at Freddy’s, Little Nightmares all of that. Idk
Z - Just ramble about something fan-related, go go go! (Prompts optional but encouraged.)
Umm... I always strive to make my Guardians unique in different situations, hell, I imagined they were in certain AU’s or in certain video game situations, like a fighting game, I’d like imagining like ‘finishing moves’ they’d have or the type of weapons they’d have, or even simple stuff like hobbies or favourite foods. Just stuff like that... and I will try everything in my power to be unique, like in my Gem AU, wanted all the gems to be different and at the least unique, and the same with the Monster AU, only Thunder and Steppe’s are the same but they have a difference. 
Okay that’s enough. ^^; This was really difficult surprisingly. 
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acorn-evan · 7 years
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Dear Evan Hansen, Jul. 13th 2017 (Act 1)
Dear Evan Hansen,
Today’s going to be a good day and here’s why:
Because Michael Lee Brown was on as Evan Hansen, and you get to review him! (and cry a lot more than you already have.)
This is Part 1 of my summary and review! A second part will come soon!
I’m dedicating this whole thing to @neglectedrainbow because they seem to love Michael Lee Brown as much as I do. (I also love their writing and their account)
Alright everyone, buckle up and make sure you’re sitting down because I have a lot to dump on you. And when I say a lot, I mean a lot. Michael Lee Brown was better than I ever could have imagined. I saw DEH originally with the full cast on March 7th. Now that was a little while back, but I’ll still be comparing it to this performance.  I’ll also be referencing the bootleg a little since it was filmed before March 7th. Please note that during this performance the only person out was Ben. All other actors were the same as they were on March 7th. Alright, time to get on with it.
I’m going to put this simply, Michael Lee Brown destroyed me. I don’t even really know how to describe this performance, so I’m sitting here just staring at my computer thinking, ‘wow. I just spent four hours sobbing because of some guy that I had never seen until today.’ Now, Michael’s performance was a lot different than Ben’s which is something I’ll be going over, and a lot different than Colton Ryan in the audio boot. Along with things I noticed now but not the first time I saw the performance!
So we start off with "Anybody Have A Map” Michael Lee Brown as Evan looks great, I thought Evan having longer hair would be weird, but it wasn’t. His hair is slicked back and goes down to about mid neck. So Evan starts his monologue and I knew right off the bat that he would be different than Ben by a long shot. He showed up biting his nails, just chewing on them until he has to talk. He talks quickly, very quickly almost faster than Ben. He repeats his words and second guesses himself and you can already tell his performance will be with feeling. He also uses his hands, a lot. Like, a ton to express things. "Anybody Have A Map” was pretty much the same because Evan’s not a major part in it, but when he walks he hunches over in on himself trying to act smaller and visibly gets nervous when people go near him. Also, the mystery of the milk has been solved! Connor drank a glass of milk, not milk used for the cereal. Also during this Connor put a knife up to his head while he was arguing with his family at the table which I found interesting. They also don’t have his bag on the chair anymore, which means it wont fall over!
Evan’s interaction with Alana was interesting. Evan seemed more nervous and Alana seemed, off. Not in a bad way! She seemed to be trying hard to make conversation with Evan but it’s not really working out and Evan keeps stumbling over his words so it’s awkward for both of them.
Jared shows up, and wow do I have things to say about Michael Lee Brown’s Evan and Jared. You’ll see what I mean just by reading all of this. This Evan and Jared are so different than Ben’s Evan and Jared, by a long shot. Evan keeps further away from Jared and makes more major arm motions. He still picks at his cast and pulls on his shirt, if the shirt isn’t near where his hand is he’ll grab for anything in the area (i.e Connor’s bed frame, sheets, air, etc.) Evan seemed more visibly upset when Jared declined signing his cast. Also, when Jared and Evan are talking over the computer we get to see Evan and Jared’s snapchats. Jared is the only person that Evan has added on snapchat and Jared’s snapchat score is an underwhelming 12. (Jared I have a higher snapchat score than you)
Then there’s Connor, he shows up, rummaging through his bag - seemingly desperate to find something - I’m still not sure what it is he’s looking for though. Jared says his “joke” and Connor looks up. He doesn’t look mad, but then Jared says “it was just a joke” and Connor tightens his grip on the bag and says his “oh I'm laughing” thing. Here’s the thing though, Connor leaned forwards during the “Am I not laughing hard enough for you?” getting close to Jared and said it seemingly jokingly. Jared froze up and backed up a little before running away, he didn’t say it before he ran but on his way out he mumbled “freak.” When he ran he looked like a scared puppy. This is different than when I saw it March 7th and in the boot. So Evan makes a nervous noise and Connor turns on him, he gets really close to Evan in this scene and shoves him - hard. I also confirmed that Connor does indeed wear silver rings on both hands.
"Waving Through a Window" was an experience. When I saw DEH the first time it took me until Good For You to shed a tear, this is nothing against Ben Platt (I love him with all my heart and he’s wonderful) but, the feeling that Michael Lee Brown puts into Evan? He made me cry starting at this song. Right off the bat. He put so much emotion into the song. When he had his conversation with Zoe, Evan wouldn’t look her in the eyes (well he didn’t with any of the characters) he used over exaggerated arm movements and stuttered a lot. He wiped his hands on his pants a lot, you could see he was visibly stressed by the interaction. During this everyone’s walking normally except Connor, he storms everywhere quickly and angrily.
When Heidi and Evan have their call Evan looks upset that Heidi can’t come pick him up and mumbles, “I’ll- I’ll just… take the bus then.” He types out his note, which was also heart breaking because you can hear the feeling in his words. So Evan prints his note and In comes Connor Murphy. He’s quiet for a moment before they talk. Evan’s avoiding eye contact and playing with his shirt. Connor actually seemed very nice and open until he read part of the note, he sounded so worried for Zoe. He storms off taking the letter with him, and Evan cries out reaching after Connor pleading for him to give the letter back.
Evan seems more upset when Jared makes fun of him. Alana’s waving through a window piece felt more heart felt and she looked over to where the couch was coming in and then looked away. Alana feels a lot more, lost and invisible in this. Like, no one sees her, and when they do it’s only because of school things.
Evan about the letter situation was interesting as well. He sat in the chair facing as far away from Larry and Cynthia as possible, not wanting to look at them. He wouldn’t make eye contact at all and sat there picking at his shirt. When Cynthia pulls out the letter and he reads it he immediately goes, “I- he didn’t write this” And he stutters a lot, saying it about 4 times before getting it right. The interaction with Jared, Alana and Evan after this was the same as with Ben.  
(At this point I had to take a break from writing this because I started crying again, I’m surprised I had tears left from last night.)
When he had dinner with the Murphy’s he looked nervous, growing more and more freaked out at each question Cynthia asked. His nodding was exaggerated and when he spoke he spoke in quick stuttery bursts. When he messed up and the Murphy’s questioned him he used his arms trying to explain, he waves his arms a lot throughout the show. Cynthia’s interaction with this Evan felt more loving and motherly, and Larry’s felt more fatherly as well. Zoe felt more cold and closed off until later in the show however. Also while at the table Zoe’s leg shakes when Evan starts talking. When they’re at the table and Cynthia’s talking to Evan, Zoe’s watching this whole thing and Larry’s looking down like he’s in denial. When he said “telling jokes no one understands” Cynthia got this look on her face that made me immediately think of “A little bit of light” and young Connor telling jokes. During “on my face” he hold out his note, which was higher than when Ben did it, and then stops and waits before saying “and suddenly I feel the branch give way” he looks like he’s remembering when It happened. Cynthia comes over at the end of the song and embraces Evan in a hug, he flinches back at first but slowly brings his arms up to hug her.
When Heidi was talking about a taco Tuesday Evan wouldn’t ever really make eye contact with her, even when he did look at her. When she put her hand on his shoulder he flinched away, something Ben didn’t do. He was also more defensive about the cast saying Connor, “No- no- t-this is- is a d-different Co-Connor.”
I’m glad "Sincerely, Me” was pretty much the same. This is when I confirmed Connor wore rings. Also in this scene you can tell the difference between this Evan and Ben’s Evan’s interaction with Jared and Connor. When Jared asks him if he’s hyperventilating he responded in more of a mumble and not as aggressive as Ben. This scene right here is what cued me into knowing the difference between the Evan who was on his meds at the beginning of the show, and the Evan who stops taking his meds later in the show. This Evan is more anxious, less aggressive and confrontational, keeps himself hunched over to seem smaller, and shakes when he’s scared or nervous. He also does the thing where he tucks his hair behind his ear.
Something I didn’t notice the first time around, which was just me being to caught up in the story: Larry drinks quite a bit in the first act. Do with that information what you will.
Now “Requiem” oh god requiem. Requiem was when I lost whatever I was holding onto to keep the tears back. They sounded so hurt. Larry’s holding the emails tightly, Zoe’s holding them the same as Cynthia until she crumples them up. The exact moment I lost it was when Cynthia sits down on Connor’s bed and runs he hands over the blankets. She stares at it and you can see her choke back a sob before she picks up Connor’s pillow. She holds it like Heidi does Evan at the end and sobs into it, hugging it tightly. That’s what broke me and I started sobbing and didn’t stop until the end of the show. I’m not joking here. I don’t usually cry and the first time I saw the show I didn’t even shed a tear until good for you and didn’t actually cry until so big/so small. But this… this. Just was so much.
Little things I noticed about Connor’s room: The broken window, the x-box controller, the grey water bottle, the large speaker, the headphones, the no smoking sign, and the numerous books. It’s also mainly blue and grey while Evan’s is red and orange.
Evan and Heidi use dell laptops while everyone else uses macs.
"If I Could Tell Her” was a little more than awkward. You might have thought the awkwardness with Ben was bad, but ho boy. He was so loving with Zoe, he sounded like he was in love. The song was great, they put feeling into it. At the end when he goes to kiss Zoe… you know second hand embarrassment yeah? With Ben I got a little, but with Michael multiply it times 10x. He leaned forwards so quickly and kissed her before shooting back like he had been burned. Zoe gets up and looks confused and angry so Evan just shrink backs and gets up quickly and starts apologizing as much as he can.
Maybe you thought the crying was over by now? Nope. “Disappear" comes along and ripped my poor heart out. You’d think it would maybe be because of Connor, but nope. In the scene where they’re talking to the Murphy’s about the Connor Project, Evan starts talking but Jared tries to pipe up and say more. Evan shoves him back, hard, to get him to shut up. Now, Ben didn’t stop Jared like this when I saw the show, he just put his arm out. He didn’t push him. So, Jared falls silent and hangs his head, he looks upset that Evan made him stop talking when he was trying to help. He pipes up again later when Evan mentions the Jazz band helping out. “GREAT IDEA EVAN” Ben’s Evan just says “Thank you Jared” a little exasperated. But Michael’s Evan basically whisper yells “Thank you Jared!” He seems a little angry that Jared talks again. Like, Jared clearly doesn't have other friends and he's clinging onto Evan as this… lifeline. And he talks a lot so when Evan shoved him and cut him off he looked so hurt. Then when he spoke up to help Evan yelled at him, and he just shut up and hung his head, and didn't say anything else after that.
“You Will Be Found” was amazing. He goes up front and center on the stage, holding his note cards tightly. He starts his speech the same as Ben did but he drops a single note card. Evan drops his note card and he reaches down to grab it and he falls back and looks up, he scrambles backwards in fear. The audience goes deadly silent as Evan looks down, at the notecards and the tie he’s wearing. You can just see the emotions in his face as he runs his fingers over the tie. He looks nervous, anxious and scared as he scrambles to get back up. He takes a breath, puts the cards away, and starts the song. Everyone’s looking at the screens except for Larry he’s facing away. Cynthia acts like a motherly figure towards Evan in this, something he wanted Heidi to be but she’s busy with her job and school. So then they move away to the sides of the stage and it leaves Larry standing there with dozens of photos of Connor’s face on the screen behind him. He turns, to face the screen and his shoulders slump. You can see the exact moment that he breaks. He chokes out a sob and falls down to his knees sobbing. Cynthia sees him and comes over to help him up and comfort him. But he was so devastated, this seemed like the moment that he finally accepted that Connor, his son, was gone. He was like everyone else, for that brief moment, he seemed more open as he cried into Cynthia’s shoulder as he embraced her in a tight hug. The lights dim, the spotlight still on the Murphy parents and Heidi comes onto the stage. She looks around at the screens, taking in everything, and you can see the confusion and the little bit of anger in her features. She runs off to the back of the stage and the others come back on. Zoe’s sitting on Connor’s bed, Evan sits down on the very very edge as far away as possible. She thanks him and then goes to kiss him. Evan jerked back so quickly that he almost fell off the bed. He looks back, still not looking her in the eyes, and goes to kiss her. They kiss (very aggressively) and then it cuts to black.
The lights come back up and I look around, everyone is crying. I don’t know if a single person didn’t cry in act one. So that was Act One. I’ll be writing a second part to this about act two, something that I haven’t stopped thinking about because Michael Lee Brown ruined me. Anyway, stay tuned for that! Thanks for reading if you made it here :)
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Chapter 8
I walk into Shiro's house at about 7, freshly showered and newly clothed. By that time the house was completely packed with sweaty teenagers and the music was at a ridiculously high volume. I walk up his drive way, avoiding all the smokers and red solo cups. The inside of the house was even worse and Rihanna's 'Love on the brain' was blasting. Everywhere I look, there was random people grinding on each other. I spot Lance dancing on top of the kitchen island with people cheering and throwing cash at him as if we were at a strip club. It didnt help that he is shirtless and I gulp. He has abs. Very nice abs. I wouldve admired them all night if not for someone yelling at Lance to twerk. I tear my eyes away as he starts to and I look around. There are cups littered all around him and anyone with eyes can see that he is drunk. He was wearing a tight blue t shirt but it is thrown on the floor and baggy grey sweat pants. He spots me and starts getting down (getting down is a very generous term, it was more like falling down). "Alrightttt Alrightttt, I'mmmm soooorrryyy buttt theee L-Lanceee showww issss doneee nowww!" He slurs as people run their hands over his 6 pack and for some reason I stifle the need to punch someone in the face. He reaches me and I hand him his shirt that I picked up for him. He slings his muscular arm over my shoulders and I fight the urge to blush. "Hey pretty boy-" I trail off as he starts stroking my hair. "What are you doing?" "Your hair is silky like a baby chicken!" He mutters and I shoot him a worried glance. "Umm okay then, lets go find Shiro?!" I reply, practically carrying Lance up the stairs. He continues to stroke my hair, occasionaly muttering 'baby chickens' or 'princess mullet is soft' (which offended me, I dont have a mullet!) and giggled every two seconds. "Shh Lance" I say and press a finger to my lips. He grabs my finger and presses it to his lips, making me shiver involuntarily. "Shhhhhhhh Keithhhh!" he giggles and I sigh. He was acting evem more like a child than usual. How do I even-? You know never mind. We (well I) find Shiro and Allura making out on on Shiro's bed while Hunk and Pidge play Call of Duty. I could tell Pidge was winning because of common sense and the fact that the usually innocemt Hunk was swearing like Lance when he gets slapped by girls that shot him down. Pidge was the 'nerd' (do people still call people that?) of our friend group. Continuing with the stereotypes, I was the 'emo' so I always got the 'cry because mcr' jokes, Lance was the player, Hunk was the angel, Shiro was the motherly/fatherly figure and Allura was the prep. Ugh even thinking about those stereotypes make me cringe. Lance slips off of me and jumps on top of the PDA couple. "Friend Sandwich!" he yells and Shiro groans, trying to push him off. "Bad Lance!" Shiro scolds and Lance bursts into tears. "I-I'm sowwy dad! I won't do it again!" he slobbers, tears running down his face. Shiro looks at me confused and I sigh, flopping onto his couch. "He's drunk." His mouth shapws a silent O and he lies back down onto his bed, wrappimg an arm around a flustered Allura. Lance walks over to me and slings his lean body over me. He gazes intently at me for a minute, finally poking me in the nose. "Your eyes are pretty! They are as purple as the bruises I get playing against the Space Bandits" he says cheerfully, wrapping his arms around me. "Umm thanks?" I frown and everyone laughs. Pidge even pauses her game to watch. Lance snuggles into me and goes quiet. All of a sudden, we hear soft snoring from his form. I look down and admire the was his jaw line was a v, the way his beautiful lips curl up into a sleepy smile as if having a good time, and how peaceful and innocent he looks when he is asleep. He didn't look anything like the Lance I knew and I didn't like it. He mutters something and we all lean in to hear him. "Keith" he mutters and I probably turn as red as my jacket. Hunk chuckles "And you say Klance isnt real!" "It isnt!" I protest "We are just friends!" "Oh so now you guys are friends!" Replies Pidge as she pushes her glasses up "Last time I checked you guys hated each other!" "Well we get along now!" I yell and Lance starts to stir "Shoot everyone quiet!" I pick him up bridal style, ignoring Pidge's jokes and set him down on Shiro's second couch. I place a blanket on him and smooth it over his body, blushing. I look around and when I am sure that no one is watching, I lean down and kiss his forehead. "Rest well my prince." I whisper and I swear I hear a click. --------- After the party After everyone clears out, around 3 am, we start to clean up. There was cups, clothing, and vomit everywhere.  A suspicious substance was dripping from the ceiling and I had no clue what it was. After about two hours, we finish the first floor and we hear Lance finally come down the stairs. "Took you long enough!" Growls Pidge, who had a massive hang over. He rubs his eyes and groans, stretching. I see a sliver of skin and I blush as I scrub the floor with even more vigour. He nods at me "Whats with Cinderella over there?" I shoot him the finger "Oh screw off!" Everyone laughs and we continue working. After two more hours, we finally finish and Hunk drops to his knees. "Finally!!" I check my watch "Ugh 7 am" All of us are barely standing and we collapse. "Let's NEVER do that again!" Says Allura and we all nod in agreement. "You guys are welcome to stay here if you want." Offers Shiro but everyone except Allura shake their heads. "I should really get home, my mom is provably worried sick!" Replies Lance and he turns to me "Do you need a ride neighbour?!" "As a matter of fact I do! Thanks dude!" I reply and I ignore Pidge's suggestive wink. "See ya monday!" We call as we leave and everyone waves as we pull out of the driveway. "Sooo.." I start, nervously rubbing my arm as I put on my seat belt. Safety first! "Sooooooooo..." He replies grinning "Soooooooooooo......" I grin back and we continue to do this the entire drive. He pulls into his driveway and gets out. He opens my door "After you my lady!" He bows and I laugh. "See ya monday!" I say echoing what we said earlier. "Yep see ya! By the way, why did you call me a prince?" He smirks and I groan, running into my house. Damn him! A/N Oooooooooo So ya! Longer chapter. Not gonna talk long cause my phones gonna die but remember to leave a comment or like! Thanks! Brooke
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sillyfudgemonkeys · 7 years
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if there was a p3p manga adaption of the femc route whould you like the femc from the game or her have an independently personality like shoji from the p4 manga?
Sorry for late response, had to think about it (and the post gets long cause I have to work through my thought process sorry ;w; but if you don’t want to bother with that go to the very end with the tldr; 8U). Hmmmm tbh I thought that Minato, Makoto, and Souji (still salty they spelt it differently in the US release >.>), and I guess Anime!Yu (both original and golden, to an extent), and even their Drama CD/Stage play counterparts (note I only know a little about these) reflected the game MCs in ways that reflect certain choices you can make (so like they’re personalities can all be sourced from the game but the media chooses to only focus on select personality traits). Like:
(under the cut cause length my bad)
P3 Male MC:
Minato: reflects the laid back choices, doesn’t really talk unless spoken to
Makoto: Originally reflects the asshole options before getting character development that gives him more humble personality (he was originally going to be more of an asshole but they felt no one would like him and I say it could’ve worked tbh). 
DramaCD: Weird mixture of the above, He’s aloof and will be a little sarcastic, but he’s also laid back.
Sakuya Shiomi (stage plays): tbh I can’t really say considering they aren’t subbed, but he comes off as similar to the Drama CD (his facial expressions remind me of Movie1!Makoto tho)
P4MC (I will paraphrase Souji/Original Anime!Yu as someone already did this more in depth, but there’s the link I recommend reading it):
Souji: (his personality reflects a lot of how I play the game haha) He mature but has insecurities, he’s serious, professional, cool and independent, but can also joke around. He’s also a manly man (how some people view him) who is also very motherly (and fatherly). So he reflects those choices in game (ngl Souji and FeMC had a lot more vast personality choices than P3Male)
Original Anime!Yu: Socially awkward, very prone to his loneliness, he’s more the joking choices (but his are treated more of “Oh he’s being weird again” than with Souji it’s like “haha look at this cool dude crackin’ jokes! XD”) 
Golden!Yu: More confident person of OA!Yu, I think has some aspects of Souji in him (but that could be more because he’s more confident cause it’s an NG+ for him). (I won’t lie I didn’t finish this anime so hard to judge). I dunno how to explain it, I guess it’s if OA!Yu tried to act like Souji?
Arena/Ultimax/PQ!Yu/MC: Despite the name he’s actually more like Souji’s personality. 
Drama CD: From what I sped read for this, he’s more like Souji again.
Stage plays: Same as Souji from what I could tell (again don’t really know his personality that well).
So if I’m being honest, I’m a fan of Souji’s (and also means game!Yu) adaptation of the P4MC, and with P3…..I…kinda like Makoto more (I like Minato’s name more tho)….it might be because I hold a soft spot for asshole!P3MCs (which I’ll get to in a bit) like with Movie1!Makoto. 
Now for FeMC. Well P4MC had a lot more personality choices than P3MC (I mean their only options were “decent/nice comment” “…./silence” was “asshole response” 8U), and the same can be said for FeMC. She has a very broad personality setting ranging from hyper, to happy, to sad, to silence, to angry, to sarcastic and/or asshole, to serious, to overwhelmingly positive (aka Maya-like), to “I will cut a binch.” That’s….much broader than P3MC’s 3 options tbh (ok to be fair he kinda has a 4th one and it’s “just tell the person what they want to hear” which can sometimes-usually fall under the original 3 tho 8U). There is one general consensus with her is that she has been known for being a stepford smiler to some (which if she ever gets an adaptation, would really be a great thing to explore. It feels like it sets her positivity apart from Maya). But from media we have gotten from her….
FeMC:
Anthology comics: (I know I didn’t include this for P3/4MCs, fight me) Depending on the story/artist they’ll heavily cover each of said personality options listed above. Tho interpretations that stand out a lot is “too pure for this world” and “cracks (bad) jokes” (and sometimes “is very perverted,” which tbh I’m always down for perverted FemC 8U)
Drama CD: Is upbeat and nice and will do anything for her friends, but at times will cut a binch (and I think they have to hold her back when she goes into that mode). (oddly enough this is how I usually play her too 8U)
Kotone Shiomi (stage play): From what I can tell……she’s similar to the drama cd counterpart? 
So yeah…..going off of this….I’d say I’d be fine with a DramaCD type manga adaptation (as long as they explore that stepford smile trope really I’ll just be a happy little monkey). But, if I had to be REALLY honest…. I’d want an Asshole!FeMC. 8U I mean it wouldn’t be out of character, she has those options, and it’d be different (and maybe appeal to moe gap people, I think). I think it comes from two fanfics I read, the first one was waaaaaaay back when P3P came out, Persona 3 Portable: Minako’s Story and was the only novelization recap I’d read of either P3/4 (never read a Fairly English Story cause…I dunno, and I never read P4: Split Personalities cause it contained my NoTPs). And while it’s been awhile since I read P3P:MS (can barely remember  any of it tbh), I really liked how the FeMC was an asshole (even if it was mostly in her mind). It was just unique to me, it never crossed my mind….similar to how the FeMC and MaleMC maybe not being fraternal twins never crossed my mind and now to segue into…. The Fools’ Tournament. Ohhhhh my gawd. Just 3 years later I would find this fic (and this one is a full retelling of P3 to boot, and the only full retelling fic of Persona I’ve ever read/finished that’s been completed), and it’s consumed my soul since 2013. O_O This….this fic, it’s what really made me love the idea of asshole P3MCs (whom, btw aren’t related hence my segue). But no, no, Minato and Hamuko in this fic are freaking horrible to each other (and then they are super sweet and then super horrible and on goes this roller coaster), but it’s not like they’re karma houdinies. If they screw up they have to pay for it (as the author describes them, “they are very bad people trying to do good but keep screwing up”). I’m sorry I just….love this fic. ;w; Anyways, basically this fanfic is the reason why I think if they wanted to make Movie1!Makoto more of an asshole, it still would’ve worked if they worked it the right way. 
Tldr; So yeah. I’m down for a well rounded FeMC (similar to Souji from P4 manga and game!Yu). But I’d be on cloud 9 if we get an Asshole!FeMC adaptation. (and I’m always down for her being a bit of a pervert. 8U
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Nosy thing... All but 21 and 22 since you answered them please.
Alright, here we go~!1: Virgin? Yep! I'm asexual, so I've never been interested in losing my virginity. Plus it's kind of hard to lose your virginity when even a skimpy bathing suit is close enough to nudity that it makes you nauseous.2: Shoe size10.5 and I usually go for the wide fit shoes when they're available.3: Do you smoke?Nope. Even if I wanted to, I'm an asthmatic. My lungs wouldn't be able to endure it. I can't even safely be friends with smokers, which stinks because I've met people who would have been my best buddies if I could breathe around them.4: Do you drink?I did when I was younger, but stopped because I nearly killed someone. In two days I can legally pick it back up, though.5: Do you take drugs?I've eaten a little pot, but nothing other than that. And yes, I ate it. Smoking it hurts.6: Age you get mistaken forAnywhere from 15 to 30. I guess I just have one of those faces...?7: Have tattoos?Not yet.8: Want any tattoos?I want a LOT of tattoos. The most important one is a dragon that I want to have wrapping around my torso. I have him completely planned out, I just have to get other things done first so that I won't have to worry about a surgery lopping off part of his paw or something.9: Got any piercings?Just my ears so far.10: Want any piercings?There are quite a few piercings that I want, all on the head. I want a few more piercings in each ear, a bolt through my left eyebrow or maybe two, then a few in my lips, and one in my tongue. 11: Best friend?A lovely lady named Lynda. She's incredibly patient with all of my issues and neediness. She's also the only person to never tell me to cheer up or think positive. She's genuinely interested in how I'm feeling and making things better instead of dismissing me or making me lie to her.12: Relationship statusWaiting for my Craig to come. (Forever alone, no one has the patience to date me.)13: Biggest turn onsBeing read to, cosplaying characters that my partner likes (especially if it's a character that I have things in common with), pet names, having my hair played with, and affectionate role-play bullying (Ex: Master/slave, teacher/student, DDlb, that kind of stuff). 14: Biggest turn offsManipulation (pretending is fine, actually doing it is not), any comments at all about my appearance, and a lack of jealousy. I want a partner who cares if someone else is trying to make a move on me and will get in their way. Leaving it alone and letting the person creep on me just because there's no risk of me liking them or, even worse, dwelling on it and sulking instead of saying/doing something about it is a very quick way to get me out of your life. 15: Favorite movieI have a lot, so it's really hard to pick, but I'm still very fond of BH6. 16: I’ll love you ifYou make me feel worthy of your time instead of letting me feel like a burden, which is exactly how I feel if I'm not given constant reassurance. Although I already love everyone, so this would only be if you wanted a romantic kind of love.17: Someone you missA friend I had to block. I love her more than air and I hated the way that things went, but she's much better off without me. As much as it hurts, I love her too much to let myself be a negative part of her life. 18: Most traumatic experienceI've had plenty of moments that people would consider way more traumatic than this, but the first time that I was called annoying is what stands out to me. I was probably in first grade and was already starting to realize that something was wrong with me, so I tried to tell a lady at daycare that I really trusted. She was the first person to tell me that I'm annoying when I complain and that the bad feelings would go away if I ignored them long enough. It's a pretty normal response, especially when it's a tiny child telling you that they're struggling to feel happy, but it never stopped hurting. 19: A fact about your personalityI'm extremely protective of the people around me.20: What I hate most about myselfEverything? I always wish that I could wake up as a different person, someone attractive and confident and mentally sound. I know it's impossible, but the only thing I like about myself is the stories that I write about other people. 23: My relationship with my sibling(s)My only sibling is dead, but we got along pretty well near the end of her life.24: My relationship with my parent(s)We have our good moments, but it's fairly strained most of the time, so I usually rely on friends for motherly and fatherly affection.25: My idea of a perfect dateCuddling on the couch together while we watch our favorite shows/movies and eat cheap takeout food.26: My biggest pet peevesPassive aggressive behavior. Nothing will make me resent you faster than acting like you care while tearing me down. I don't care what I did to upset you, either be honest and open or leave me alone.27: A description of the girl/boy I likeHe's tall, black hair, blue eyes, always wears a blue and yellow hat, has a blonde boyfriend. His name is Craig Tucker. If I had to pick a real person... it would be someone that I know I'll never have a chance with, which is why I avoid getting into situations like that.28: A description of the person I dislike the mostAbout 6'2", purple hair, always wears black, super obsessed with Creek, and goes by the name William. 29: A reason I’ve lied to a friendThe only lie that I tell is when I say that I'm okay and I'm not. I've honestly told that lie so many times to avoid making friends worry that I sometimes forget it's a lie.30: What I hate the most about work/schoolMy boss. He's a complete asshat and I can't wait to be free of the job I'm at.31: What your last text message says"Not eating. Not hungry."32: What words upset me the most?It's not a certain set of words or anything like that, but whenever someone comments on the way that I look, it makes me want to vomit. Even if it's a compliment, especially when it's a compliment, it makes me hate myself. I feel like a liar, like the lowest creature to ever exist, because I can't imagine it being true that anything is good about me. I hope I'll grow out of it someday, but for now, that's what upsets me most. It bothers me even more than being told to cheer up. 33: What words make me feel the best about myselfWhen people compliment the stories or role-play starters that I write. It happens very rarely, but it makes my entire day brighter.34: What I find attractive in womenMaternal instincts if they're aimed at me. Being cared for and loved is a big deal to me and it's always nice to meet someone who understands that those feelings don't have to be romantic.35: What I find attractive in menThe same care and love that I like in women, basically. I also prefer more dominant personalities. I'm pretty easy to crush, so having a more alpha person around makes me feel safer. 36: Where I would like to liveSomewhere cold and rainy. Preferably a small house, just big enough for me and one other person (plus some cats) with enough of a back yard for me to set up a hammock and take naps in it when it rains.37: One of my insecuritiesMy teeth. They all have calcification marks from when I had braces because I didn't understand how to clean them and one of my front teeth is a disgusting blue-grey color because it's dead and held in place by a metal post. I hate smiling around people, I always feel like they're looking at my teeth. 38: My childhood career choiceIt changed a lot. Mostly I wanted to be Ping (Mulan when she was in disguise) and spend my life saving entire countries. That changed a lot throughout the years and now I just hope I can live long enough to figure out what career I truly want. 39: My favorite ice cream flavorCookies and Cream.40: Who wish I could beThe perfect version of me that I made up when I was a kid. I used to really think that I could be him, but it never worked out. I'll never look that good and I could never have that confidence. I can barely muster the confidence to speak to my closest friends most of the time. 41: Where I want to be right nowCuddled close to someone who loves me.42: The last thing I ateUuuuuh... I had a french fry for lunch at work. 43: Sexiest person that comes to my mind immediatelyAdam Driver. 44: A random fact about anythingThe term "rule of thumb" comes from carpentry despite the fact that most people think it comes from an old rule (that never existed) that a man could beat his wife with a stick as long as it was no bigger than his thumb. The question said "anything," so there you go.This is really long, haha. Hopefully it posts correctly so that you can see it all, Anon. Have a nice day!
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