#he's my light my north star idk where i'd be without him ig sometimes i've just kept living to see him smile another day

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#excuse me while i rant a bit but i'm watching all these minho vids and JTJSFSJKFJSFLJ #i love him so so SO much like really SO MUCH i never loved any human as much as i love him #he just makes me so happy and warm and safe and /alive/ klsjflksj does that make sense #there's times where i feel so dead inside barely any emotions at all and m like okay that's it i'm never feeling anything ever again #but then i see him smiling or doing some cute shit or being funny laughing dancing talking whtghever just him /existing/ skljfks #and i'm like yeah fuck i love this man so much that it even make me tear up i suddenly got so much love in my heart #like for real i legit cry sometimes just bc i love him so much it happens like 80% of the time sjkhs #and it's nice knowing i can actually FEEL rgjhskfsh bc i'm not someone who have so many emotions towards humans #that may sound weird li'e that i can't really explain i just feel i should feel /more/ but maybe it's bc is a diff kind of feeling for him #it just makes me so happy knowing he's out there existing so preciously like this he's such an amazing person #even tho we don't really know him but without even being biased i feel that he's one of the most genuine one like you can #really see he's such a good person?? just looking at his eyes they radiates so much love and warmth and pureness idk tjkhskfs #and he's so inspiring to me which again isn't smth i feel about a lot of people i never really had 'role model' or whatever?? #but he makes me want to just be a better and more positive person and do things idk #and let's not talk about how talented he is he just can do anything and he's always improving and working so hard and i'm so proud of him #and i'm so grateful he entered my life i never knew he'd become so important i didn't even pay that much attention to him at first but wow #suddenly it hit me how precious he was and since then i've wanted nothing more but for him to be happy forever he deserves the world #he's my light my north star idk where i'd be without him ig sometimes i've just kept living to see him smile another day #and gosh i feel like i'm just repeating myself so jhskfhsjk but also i wish i could tell him how much he means to me and how #important he is to so many other people and his existence just bring so much light to people's life??? i hope he knows????? #but even if i get to just see him one day and simply say ily even if it's not much and doesn't even convey all i feel #i'd be happy sjkfhsjfh i really hope i see him in may even from afar #even that would make me so happy just breathing the same air as him and getting to just /see/ him doing what he loves #did i mention how i love seeing him on stage bc he looks the happiest???? skjfhsjfh i could go on forever #omg i didn't intended to write this much and to think i started in all caps at first lmao anyway this is embarrassing bye #i prob reached the limit r.i.p jkfhsjfh it's been so long since i didn't write (almost all) my love for minho and i'm not #doing it anytime soon bc these things embarrass me and i rarely find what to say sjhfs just felt like it now #this isn't even all of it there's so much to say about him but we'll see in 10 years when i write another rant bye