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codename-adler · 3 years

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...dance 'til you find someone to die for...

What if instead of Seth, Riko tried to get rid of Aaron?

Chapter 13 ♟️ [table of contents]

(CW: mentioned/referenced/implied past abuse, minor talk of injuries, disability awareness + inaccuracies, swearing, alcoholism, mental health issues, medical inaccuracies)

The week leading up to the Ravens game right here at PSU had Aaron’s guts twist on themselves every time he thinks about these bastards walking into their territory, as if his insides hadn’t been through enough.

He hated it.

Once he was out of medical danger and his organs didn’t threaten to burst open, Aaron agreed to move out of the hospital and seek refuge at Abby’s place.

He hated it.

At the start of the summer, Aaron had seen the way Neil moved around Wymack, and had immediately understood why. However, Wymack had organized himself around Neil’s 'special needs’, while Abby here didn’t seem to catch on that while Aaron was, very deep down, grateful for her interventions since the beginning of this whole horror story, he still couldn’t consider her someone safe to be around.

He still had his mother’s picture that Kevin gave him buried under his pillow, and her ghost seemed to reopen wounds too young to have healed and to steal the face of any woman nearing her age. Abby had a healthy body, a healthy and focused face, short brown hair, and she was no more than 3 inches taller than Aaron. She was nothing like Tilda Minyard, who was a skeleton at best, foggy eyed and haunted face, dirty blonde hair down to her waist, and towering 6 or 7 inches over Aaron. Even so. Aaron would have preferred to steal Coach’s couch and mess up his stitches rather than spend one more week in the nurse’s lovely home.

He understood why going back to his dorm wasn’t a safe option and why it was technically impossible, what with its non wheelchair-friendly amenities. Yeah. Like Aaron wasn’t short enough as it is, he now had to move around in a stupid wheelchair that made him look even smaller. Walking on his own 2 feet was too soon and put his recovering organs and bones at too great a risk, even with the constricting and painful rib brace he had to wear all the time.

In the house, he could walk while sitting down in the chair, in a pace that made him look utterly stupid, but still, he could manage on his own. If Aaron wanted to go out, though, he had to be accompanied by someone to push him around, because using his arms or his legs would mess up his guts too much.

Needless to say, Aaron never went out.

Nicky came by every free period he had and tried to rope him into going to the park (after all, a wheelchair isn’t so different from a skateboard, Aaron, imagine the tricks you could do, but Aaron had almost stood up to slap him when he’d said that, so Nicky abandoned that tactic), yet Aaron always refused. Sometimes Andrew dropped by to bring him extra notes from the classes he pretended to attend in Aaron’s place, which confused his teachers more than it helped Aaron, but he didn’t say a word about that, secretly glad his brother hadn’t forgotten about his existence. Aaron didn’t do much except hide in Abby’s guest room, and study. Most of all, he thought about Exy.

About how he’d started playing to escape, and how he was now stuck away from it, because it had put a target on his back. About how he’d started to escape and find something for himself, and how his family now played on while he was left behind. About how he’d have to watch from the sidelines as the Ravens tore into the Foxes, into Kevin.

And he thought about Kevin so much, too. Because you couldn’t think about Exy without thinking about its son.

With Aaron out of service, Kevin had no more incentive not to drink; only Andrew and fucking Josten could save him now. To add even more to that stress, Aaron guilted over the fact that he didn’t know which of one his thoughts was worse: wondering if, wishing that his absence on the court would cost the Foxes their victory against the Ravens, or believing, fearing that his absence on the court would benefit the Foxes and help them win against the Ravens. He wanted to ask Nicky, he wanted to ask Kevin if the jerk could show his face, but he didn’t really want to know the answer. He kind of knew it already. Only the game on Friday would confirm or deny it.

That is what Aaron thought about the most. Not his injuries, not his brother, not Riko or Kevin, or school; this, his place on the team.

Aaron had never thought about going pro, he’d never wished to be praised by the world of Exy, he’d never hoped to make a difference, to change the course of history, to be remembered. He hated Exy, and that was that

But wasn’t there a part of passion in hatred?

Hadn’t Exy made itself the center of his world, somehow?

Hadn’t Aaron himself made Exy the center of his world?

He pushed the nagging questions away as a knock on the door startled him.

“Aaron, Kevin is here to see you. Will you come out?” Abby asked him through the door, her voice muffled.

Fucking shit.

Kevin had not seen him since he got out of the hospital. He had not seen him in the wheelchair. He had not seen him this vulnerable, in this toneless, weak and broken body, withering away as the days went by. It was different than in the hospital, where the sheets and tubes hid most of the damage. It was different than when he was at the peak of danger, when his body fought every second, when it was apparent than the beating had just occurred.

Now…

Now he was supposed to be getting better. He was supposed to gain back what he’d lost. And Aaron felt like he was still losing.

The bedroom door opened without Aaron answering Abby’s question, and Kevin entered. Aaron felt shame coloring his cheeks. There was the big and great Kevin Day, and here he was, small and pathetic in his chair. Aaron clenched his jaw and stubbornly fixed his eyes on the carpet.

Kevin wanted to shake him out of it.

“Abby called me. Said you were being…” a little bitch, Kevin almost said. “…Difficult.”

Aaron refused to look up still.

“And you just… came?” Aaron mumbled, mentally wincing at the innuendo he’d made.

Kevin didn’t pick up on it.

“Yes. Let’s get out of here,” Kevin stated without hesitation.

Aaron froze.

“Kevin… No.”

That made Kevin turn around.

“...Why?” he asked.

“I… can’t. Not in… this.”

“I don’t see what’s the problem with you being in a wheelchair,” Kevin replied.

“No? You don’t see the problem? You don’t? LOOK AT ME. I can’t go anywhere on my own! I’m losing all the strength that I have, and I can’t do shit about it! I need someone to push me around if I want to do a goddamn thing! Tell me again how you don’t see what the problem is!” Aaron suddenly yelled as he looked up.

Kevin stared at him for a few seconds.

“So, what… You don’t think I can do it?” Kevin asked.

“You- What?” Aaron stammered

“You think I can’t drive you around? You’re scared I’ll make you crash or something?”

“No? I just-” Aaron tried to explain

“Well then shut the fuck up.”

That was the end of it for Kevin, for he walked around Aaron and started wheeling him out of the room. Aaron was too stunned and fuming to ask where Kevin was taking him. It wasn’t until Kevin had been walking for a while and Aaron could see a familiar green hill that he realized where they were heading.

“Seriously, Kevin? You fucking asshole. Did Nicky put you up to this? It’s not fucking funny!” Aaron yelled at him once again.

“What? Nicky said you liked it here!” Kevin yelled back this time.

“Yeah, when I have my skateboard! And since when do you listen to anything Nicky says?”

“Wait, your skate- You actually skate here?”

“Yes! What do you think I was doing with a board in our dorm? And where do you think I went every time I wasn’t there?” Aaron prompted, pissed.

“Well… I thought it was just a souvenir you carried around… And usually you’re studying all the time, so…” Kevin answered, embarrassed.

“Oh my fucking- I’m not a that much of a fucking nerd! I do plenty of things you have no idea of… Just because it’s not Exy doesn’t mean it’s meaningless. And I do have to study a lot more that you, dipshit! Doesn’t mean I have no life or ambition…” Aaron said, subtly voicing many of his insecurities without meaning to.

“Stop moving around so much, you’re gonna break something, another rib, most likely. Also, I never said anything about your studies or skating, so fuck you for that,” Kevin replied.

“But you believe those things. Same difference,” Aaron muttered.

Kevin didn’t answer this time, because Aaron was too stubborn to believe anything else, so he just continued wheeling Aaron up the hill so they could watch the skate park. When Kevin made a move to let go of Aaron’s chair at the top of the hill, he earned himself another earful.

“KEVIN! You need to put the breaks on, Jesus fuck! You moron! Have you finally joined in on Seth’s plan to get rid of me or what?” Aaron spat.

“I’m SORRY! I forgot! Will you stop fucking yelling for two seconds? I’m trying to be nice here,” Kevin spat back.

“…Why?”

That took Kevin aback. Several minutes passed before he answered.

“Because… Our deal. You’re not at our dorm anymore. You’re not there anymore. And we’ll be facing the Ravens in like, four days. I don’t think I’ve spent a day without drinking. I can’t help it. I can’t stand it, I can’t stand myself, I can’t stand the world. If you’re not there… I have nothing to stop me. I’ve been wanting a drink all afternoon. So I’m here. I can’t drink, here.”

“Yes you can.”

“No, I can’t. I promised,” Kevin shot back without missing a beat.

“Kevin. I can’t walk. I can’t even stand up. I’m useless. I told you, our deal is worthless now,” Aaron carried on.

“It’s not. Not to me.”

Aaron looked up at Kevin, who had walked around to stand in front of him.

“I want to stop drinking, Aaron. I want to keep our deal. It doesn’t matter to me that we’re having a temporary setback. I need your help, I need our deal, because I want to be better. So now it’s my turn to give you something, to keep this. What do you want?” Kevin asked.

What do you want?

What do you want, Aaron?

“A friend.”

Kevin looked surprised, if not horrified.

“I’m…” Kevin started.

I’m not the right person for this.

I’m an asshole.

I’m a drunk.

I’m gonna fuck it up.

I’m not used to that.

I don’t know how.

You won’t like me if you know me.

You shouldn’t ask me that.

You should pick someone else.

Someone better.

Someone worthy.

“Okay,” Kevin decided.

“Now, if 'the friend’ could help me out of this fucking chair, that’d be great,” Aaron said to diffuse the tension.

His words only created more very tensed actions. Aaron couldn’t put weight on his upper body, couldn’t push it, so he had to rely on all of Kevin’s strength to get up. Kevin went to Aaron’s right side and took the man’s arm to place it around his waist, holding it there with his right hand. Kevin placed his other arm under Aaron’s, careful to grip the rib brace and not under it, where Aaron’s guts were still healing. He counted back from 3 and on 1, he used all his strength to lift Aaron up into a standing position. Holding Aaron with everything that he had, Kevin slowly moved away from the chair. The grass underneath their feet was lush and soft, enough to be a cushion for Aaron’s body.

“Ready to sit down?” Kevin asked instead of asking the real question bothering him, the ever unhelpful Are you okay?

“Fucking get on with it already,” Aaron muttered between clenched teeth.

As Kevin lowered them to the ground, he felt Aaron’s body tense and looked at his face in time to see his features scrunching up in a wince.

“Sorry! I’m sorry, we’re almost there, sorry, so-”

“I’m okay. Just put me down.”

Kevin did, then carefully placed his hand on Aaron’s back to make him rest in the grass, his other hand still holding on to Aaron’s where it gripped his waist. Once he was lying down, looking up at the blue sky, Aaron exhaled. Somehow he could breathe better. It had nothing to do with the chair or the grass or the sky. Kevin lay down beside him after a while, turning his face to look at Aaron’s.

“What,” Aaron said without tearing his eyes away from the sky.

“I want you to come back to the dorms.”

“I don’t know if you noticed, but that wheelchair over there isn’t exactly a choice. How do you plan on getting me up the stairs of Fox Tower, huh? I’m not a fucking baby you can put in a chest carrier, Kevin. I have to stay at Abby’s,” Aaron said.

“I know… But it sucks. How am I supposed to stay sober when every time I want to drink, which is always, you’re not there?” Kevin replied.

“You can’t put your whole sobriety into my hands like that, Kevin…”

“I know, I know. But it’s a start, and… If I don’t start now, I won’t ever. This deal holds me accountable. And you know I can’t be seen in AA meetings, even if the whole point of those is the 'anonymity’. I- It’s all I can manage right now, Aaron. And I’m sure I’ll mess up and I know I will drink anyways one day or another, but… I’m tired, Aaron. There must be a way to make this work, to make this easier… Please.”

Aaron turned his face to stare at him, then.

That word.

How foreign it was.

How strange it sounded from the mouth of Kevin Day.

“Fine. Follow a schedule, then. You’re insanely obsessive of those, aren’t you? Then do that. Go to practice. Go to class. Go back to practice. And when you’re done, when you’re free, come back here. Anytime you feel like drinking, come here. Abby can help too. She cares for you, I hope you’ve noticed that. And you can get me out of there, too. That’ll please Abby. And me. So, do that. We’ll do that, okay?”

Kevin closed his eyes and inhaled deeply. The air smelled of the sun, of grass, of leaves, of herbal shampoo, of Aaron…

Kevin sighed and opened his eyes to look back at Aaron.

“Okay.”

(read on Ao3 here !)

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yunsoh · 4 years

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my feelings about yuchi are complicated because, as just characters, they do have a really good chemistry with each other, and they’re good for each other. they understand one another and are capable of being good supports for each other. however.

in a narrative sense, for yuki’s story in particular, their romantic relationship is just.... a little too easy to pick apart. there’s something important about yuki understanding her as someone who needs him in return of him needing her, yes, and that’s something he feels ready to provide for another person (never mind the fact that he does provide this to his best friend and he’s just. wholly unaware of it.). but the big thing that their romantic relationship introduces, in the final chapters of the series, is that there’s this “need” for him to tell someone about his curse.

it’s more or less a close on his story pertaining to the curse -- by this point, he’s had to come to accept himself, and understand himself, outside of his family’s influence; by this point, he has become entirely integrated into a life that seems to be completely untouched by the curse. the student council has offered him a reprieve from his family issues, and has given him the space necessary to really grow away from it and create healthy relationships and a stronger sense of self.

but, this doesn’t mean that his curse isn’t still a part of him -- while it’s a metaphor for cyclical family abuse, it’s also something that has a physical manifestation. the physicality of the curse is something that has more or less been placed on the back burner in his mind, as he instead focuses on the mental trauma it dealt him and trying to move on in a way that allows him to really heal. and he does have this major moment of moving on: during the second new year’s, he accepts that, while he may not have deserved what happened to him in his childhood at the hands of akito and his mother, he’s no longer allowing himself to shift the blame to them when he understands he’s responsible for how he grows past it. this isn’t a moment of him saying he’s “cured” of his traumas, but rather a verbal admittance that he’s going to continue taking his matters into his own hands.

after this point, the majority of his screentime is spent with the student council, particularly building on his relationships with kakeru and machi. during this time, there’s a narrative shift away from him trying to deal with his problems, and instead being a means of support for his friends. there’s a narrative close on the gap between him and ayame during this time as well; for all intents and purposes, he has worked through his issues that the curse caused for him. again, not “cured,” but at a place of acceptance and healing.

which means that, by the time we get to the end of the story, and there’s this need for these narratives surrounding the curse to close, all that there’s left for yuki in the curse narrative is the question of whether or not he’s going to tell his friends about it. he did the most difficult parts of it already, but there still lies the matter of if he’s ready to tell them about it. his storyline involving his learning to be vulnerable, and opening up to people, does bear weight in this.

except, it doesn’t really take that direction at all. the “curse” to him, by the end of the story, is only a concern as far as its physical caveat goes -- his motivation to tell machi about it is purely for the fact that he can’t hug girls. it’s not to do with the devastating toll it’s taken on him and his family, or what exactly he’s been working through and processing the whole time he’s known her and kakeru. the only reason he thinks to bring it up is because it will eventually get in the way of his and machi’s relationship, which has only recently become romantic.

which, to be frank, is kind of bullshit after watching his whole arc unfold.

his arc in part involves him becoming someone who can be open and vulnerable to others in order to grow and heal. his need for growing past his trauma necessitates that he goes beyond the boundaries of his family and confides in someone who listens to and accepts him just as he is, with no expectations or baggage attached. we do watch him finally have an opening up scene with kakeru, not about the curse or his childhood (in full), but about something that’s still incredibly heavy to him, and it’s at this point that he realizes that he’s someone who can be accepted despite these parts of himself that he considers difficult and hard to deal with.

this is step one in his being vulnerable with kakeru. it’s not an easy thing, but it’s not the full weight of the curse, either.

now. for some reason, he feels no need to explain the curse to kakeru. it’s not even something that crosses his mind. for all its baggage, and for everything it stands for, it’s just not something he thinks to tell him. there are two standpoints to consider for this:

a) they’re still fairly early in their friendship by the end of the series (a little less than a year), and it shouldn’t be expected of yuki to discuss the extent of his trauma to him just yet, even if he is his best friend.

b) it doesn’t matter because kakeru’s a boy and isn’t affected by the curse in its physical manifestation.

point a makes sense. it’s a heavy thing to deal with and yuki is still in the process of really handling it on his own terms. choosing when to open up about it comes in its own time.

point b doesn’t make sense. if we recall from the beginning of the series, yuki considers the curse as something that’s fully socially ostracizing -- it’s something that he considered kept him away from all of his peers. and while he does come around to have a better self-esteem and have fulfilling friendships with the student council, i think it’s fully brash to assume that he considers it as something that “doesn’t matter” to his friendships.

and yet, point b is the direction the story decides to take. yuki only takes into consideration the curse’s physical side effect, and thus that’s his motivation to tell machi. machi, who he does not have as close or as vulnerable a relationship with as he does kakeru (yes, machi opens up a lot to him, but yuki does not open up to her in the same caliber that we see him open up to kakeru), who is only just starting to really, really know yuki, even as just a friend.

“but abby, they’re dating, so she has to know!” here’s a question: why are they dating?

yuki’s story is not a romance. it’s not. as nice as yuki and machi are together, there isn’t actually a need for them to be romantically paired; his story is about being able to open up to other people and accept other people into his life, a social skill that other people usually fulfill during childhood. his story is, in large part, about playing catch-up in the social realm. and while there is a romantic element tied into it via his issues with tohru, he ultimately finds peace in his platonic relationships. tohru and kakeru specifically are the people he needs as friends in order to achieve the next step of his journey: first he needs to learn how to rely on others emotionally, after which point he can become a friend that others can emotionally rely on, without him succumbing to placing others before his own needs.

machi becomes the first person he feels adequately prepared to reach out to with the intention of being an emotional support. what kakeru is to him, he is to machi.

so. why are they dating? narratively, for no real reason other than to pair yuki off. they could have had a completely fulfilling relationship as just friends. this isn’t even to mention that machi, by this point in the story, has no friends outside of yuki and her literal brother. they’re the only people who really know her. she doesn’t need a romantic relationship -- she needs friendships. she is literally in the same position that yuki was in the beginning of his journey, and she is not given the same care that he was in her own journey of acceptance and self-discovery. she’s prematurely placed in a romantic relationship because it “made sense” for the end of yuki’s story.

but, moving on. what comes with this is the price of his final confrontation with the curse, and it falling flat because he’s put in a position where he feels forced to tell machi. the fact that it’s something forced brings up two major issues with how it fits in which his characterization: one, that he’s telling her purely because of a technicality. he’s only telling her because of the curse’s physical restrictions. if this wasn’t the case, he would have told, or at the very least considered, telling kakeru about it first instead. two, this insinuates that this isn’t something he feels ready to discuss. for a storyline that is so much about having the choice to be vulnerable, and making that choice in order to move forward, it doesn’t sit well that he felt forced into it because of a romantic relationship that, in the scope of his and machi’s stories, was premature at best.

this isn’t to say that the chapter where he goes to tell her isn’t completely stunning in its own right -- it is, and it’s emotionally provoking. however, there’s a numbness to this end of yuki’s character arc because the decision of who he wants to tell, and why, doesn’t make sense considering what the curse is to him -- something that goes far beyond its physical limitations -- and considering which relationship he has spent the most time strengthening and becoming vulnerable within -- the one he has with kakeru. it doesn’t make sense insofar as him ending his story in a romantic relationship, either, and truthfully, his story would have had an even greater impact if he had ended it single. his story is so, so deeply entwined in the importance of friendships and platonic love, and i think his and machi’s relationship would have fared far, far better as a budding close friendship.

#fruits basket #yuki sohma #machi kuragi #this is ofc not to say that you can't like. enjoy yuchi lmao. i still like them together!#but truly the more i think about them the more i'm just like. this makea no sense.#anyways i'm just gonna sit here and imagine what yuki's coming out part two would have looked like w kakeru instead bye #yunsoh meta #fruits basket spoilers

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korrafitness · 4 years

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(please only read after you finish tlou2 no spoilers but I don't want to influence your opinion.) Would like to hear your opinion on tlou2 once you finish it. The first one is my favorite game in the world and it means so much to me and I looked forward to this game for so many years and I am so so disappointed

they did us dirty with that homophobic ass ending T.T I really thought they'd end up together on that farm for the rest of their days... I guess, we were starting to finally think gay characters will be getting happy endings... I wish Noelle Stevenson wrote the ending instead 😭😭😭 fuck Neil Druckmann. I'll be hunting him down the way we were forced to hunt Abby down. When you were like "this can't be the fucking ending" I felt that. Literally said what the fuck out loud when I played it.

i truly dont believe the ending of the game was homophobic at all... and heres the thing, i want ellie to have a happy ending too i as well as a lot of people have a deep love for these characters but just because it isn’t explicitly stated that ellie “lives on a farm and is happy for the rest of her life” doesnt mean there isnt hope for her... dina is still alive with her baby. the reason why ellie couldnt stay there on that farm with her at that moment was because she was fucked up.. she cant sleep, cant eat, cant have any peace and thats not good and healthy for dina either! of course did i want her to stay?? yes but did i understand her reason to go?? also yes... but when she comes back she finally resolves her issues that shes had and shes able to move on from joel’s death and the VERY LAST SCENE you see her walking away and theres HOPE.. i believe that shes able to heal from that moment and i know that shes gonna find dina and work things out because she loves her.. the ending was ambiguous just like the first game and although surface level it can seem daunting and empty... but i have hope :) and ellie is THE MOST COMPLEX LESBIAN CHARACTER IN VIDEO GAMES EVER and i cant believe people are dismissing that fact because she didnt end the game on that farm...

ALSO: i think its unreasonable to wish that noelle stevenson wrote the ending lmfao.. i love her so much and i wish to see more media from her of course but the last of us part ii is a completely different story... and if you dont understand that you kinda missed the whole message

also about the game in general, yes i had problems with it and there were definitely parts that i hated to play through but by the end of the game everything came together for me, all the feelings i had came rushing out and it truly moved me.. it definitely is not what i expected but i loved it

#also see: none of the lgbtq+ characters had any deaths #tlou2 #tlou2 spoilers #the last of us #the last of us part ii #the last of us part 2 #also sorry i just threw out my thots #its not very coherent lmao #dat ask #Anonymous

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magnumdays · 4 years

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Magnum PI 2x19 “May the Best One Win”review AKA Fangirling over my new favorite episode

Staring off we got the whole Magnum introducing Higgy as his partner...or TC’s fiancee and TC being all “we cool man?” and Magnum saying what us fans were all screaming last week (Magnum: IT MAKES SO MUCH MORE SENSE IF SHE MARRIES ME! I WANT TO BE HER KNIGHT IN SHINING ARMOUR DAMMIT!)

Then Higgy is all “If you are done fighting over me...” - I mean, just, yeah, throw that in there just to torment me some more.

We basically transitions right into Magnum suggesting a divorce lawyer for Higgy in case she and TC ever “hit a rough patch” and her being all “I’m marrying TC to make sure WHAT WE HAVE doesn't get FUCKED UP, can’t you see that?” (I’m paraphrasing but that was the gist of it) I just can’t with this. It’s like 2 minutes in and I’m like in shipper heaven.

Anyways, then we have the case! The let’s work both sides and make double the money and just the whole both spouses think the other is cheating but it’s all just a big misunderstanding and goodness, happiness and love wins in the end? It totally works for me. This is the kind of PI cases I WANT. Like not super serious people dying cases and shoot outs! People just being stupid and Magnum and Higgy helping uncover their secrets and then making everything better!

We also get the “May the Best PI win!” which I’ve been waiting for since we got the spoiler bit for this ages ago.

So we got a side plot with Rick that I really- REALLY - like for once! Want to guess why? BECAUSE IT TIES INTO THE THEME! Like huh? They manged that for the first time since forever?

Yeah, I’m shocked too. But someone really thought about this or they got really lucky by chance because;

First we got the married couple not communicating and about to lose their chance at a love and a happy future because of it. When all their secrets are out they can finally start to fix things and heal.

Secondly we got the woman whose dad dies and she tries not to care because they didn’t have contact for so long but when Rick goes looking he realizes her dad did care and he lost his chance at love because he didn’t communicate. Now she can hopefully heal from both the sadness of her dad leaving as a kid and being dead and be a little happier.

Then we maybe kind of have Higgy who by deciding to actually listing to what she’s feeling for once and deciding not to get married to TC for the wrong reason/ not wanting to live a lie (making it possible for her to find love and happiness with the right person in the future...)

I don’t know, maybe the Higgy one is reaching a bit but the main theme of we don’t know what we or other people are really feeling or thinking and we act anyway, that’s when we get in trouble pretty much work for everything.

Which is a really freaking great + it’s a good theme! It’s true but no so on the nose as something like ‘don’t lie’ or ‘love fixes everything’.

So yeah. Now back to the Miggy godness.

We got:

married-not-married arguing

Kumu’s “The way you two bicker you might as well be married.”

I mean! Come on!

Then fun times with Higgy getting all the guys to do her bidding...and also actually paying for gas! I do hope this comes back in season 3 where Magnum realizes his pals actually deserves praise and compensation/ or them being all “we’re not helping unless you pay us like Higgy does”.

This could be a character growth kind of possibility arch, thingie, episode or whatever for next year.

The other arch for Thomas Magnum I really want to see in season 3 is the I’m FINE (but I’m not) one kind of lead to something (something bad).

I know they’re going for a go-lucky kind of Magnum but fact is Magnum is a solider who spent time in a POW camp, he was betrayed by his ex-fiance, one of best friend got tortured and killed like not super long ago, his ex-fiance came back and shot him then came back again and died in his arms, his partner nearly drowned and he CPR her back to life, he thought he had a future with Abby but she dropped him like a hot potato and most recently he got swapped out of his (fake) wedding last minute, then fake wedding didn’t happen and he though he’d be separated from the love of his life his partner for an unknown amount of time and all he’s been saying is “I’m fine”.

He’s got some baggage and having him always go I’M FINE isn’t really good or healthy because he isn’t fine. He doesn't have to be fine. Except when he acts like he’s not fine (like after Abby) everyone just tries to make him cheer-up when maybe he kind of needs to talk to someone about the kind of wacky stuff he’s been through. This is both something he and Higgy and even the guys need to work on. Basically it was only Gordon who was like, it’s rough, I’m here for you. I mean Higgy was there for him too, she just said “Staycation” a lot to make it not seem like she was because emotions, scary.

Still I need like Magnum having nightmares about something and actually being all “I’m not fine” and for someone to go “okay. that’s fine. you don’t have to be okay all the time” (Oh this just screams at me to fanfic:it, but I just can’t start anymore of them without finishing a few. So bad thought, bad, go away.)

So, um where was I before I got sidetracked? Oh, right the general wonderfulness of the episode?

Gordon making Magnum say: I’m kinda useless without Higgins.

Then having Magnum take hacking lessons from like a 12 year old on Youtube and begging Kumu lie about having seen Higgins computer (how has he not gotten his own laptop yet???)

I mean it’s almost not funny anymore (It is. It’s legit the most I’ve smiled in a while.)

“Maybe I’ll let the wife decide“ when buying pie and then bringing said pie back to Higgins.

“There’s a hug and then there is a hug.”

(I needed this to be foreshadowing and IT WAS NOT! I still can’t hate it because she kind of agree there are different hugs and now I want all the hugs for them...or you know just one! ONE HUG!)

And winner of this round of random things I loved, might be: “You figure out I’d make a better fake husband than TC?”

Can you be more obvious Magnum?

Then Higgins saying “I do still need a maid of honor!” (which we know isn’t true because last week she said she’d asked Kumu but we’re assuming she’s saying it just to tease him). But this made me think of that move Made of Honor movie with Patrick Dempsey where the guy she asks to be her maid of honor is actually the guy she ends up really marrying... at some later point.

Also has anyone sounded more British than Higgy going; “Oh no not the pie.“ after Magnum was all; “I’m taking my pie with me!”

Then we got my babies being sneaky and adorable and working together (because you know, even when they’re not on the same team, they are).

Then we got them kicking ass together (well more like getting their asses kicked) and only Higgy getting the gun saves them. But you know, that’s okay because I love it when she gets to be a bad-ass and knock people out.

I do feel like we need to work a little more on the realism on how bruises work on pale people, especially girls. Because you know, Higgy got slammed into like a table and slapped and seriously has anyone been slammed into a table by a really big guy lately? Well, and let me tell you from experience, even being slammed into a table by a small guy leave a bruise. And no way would she not get a swollen eye or lip from a slap that spun her around and landed her on the floor. Do you know how hard you need to slap someone for that? I mean she’s tiny (she’s what 5′4? 1115 pounds soaking wet?) and the guy was big but, still in real life she wouldn’t even be getting up, she’d be out cold, but it’s TV-land so I’ll forgive it but still, wouldn’t a tiny bit of blood on her lip make sense?

It’s kind of strange because sometimes they seem to really like putting the blood and gooe make-up on both Perdita and Jay and other times it’s like, nope, nothing, we’re invincible vampires this episode.

For today I understand the why of it though. They wanted our babies to look pretty for the wedding. Well, the wedding that doesn't happen which we all knew but still...

Before that though; TC planing on crying at his fake wedding? Adorable.

First of all how does she mange to look both stunning and terrified this whole scene?

Look at her big eyes with the I’m about to cry shininess. Also the flower bits in her hair totally not her yet somehow totally works.

I also love how when he first enters he stops and looks at her for a second, like Higgy in a wedding dress. I think I might have some feels. And come on Thomas, couldn’t you have told her she looks nice? You can clearly see she’s freaking. But no you go straight for the “fake nerves?” which I guess makes sense because maybe someone told you there was only 2.5 minutes left of the episode so there was no time for compliments...

Anyways, then comes the heartbreaking bit. Because she has changed her mind and isn’t going to marry TC (or him). She’s not going to marry anyone and she’ll have to leave him.

Leading us to the “Just fine.” moment I equally hate and love.

Don’t they both kind of look like they’re about to cry here? I feel like that’s the general vibe, or maybe it was the fact that I was tearing up a bit when I first watched it that makes me feel like that...

And as always tumblr stole the stuff I wrote here! I wish I’d learn and could go one week without losing like a chunk of text.

So I was just basically saying I loved this but I’d much rather have had Magnum go “No, I won’t” (when she says he’ll be fine) and then have her be “yes you will” and then he could just be Shrug or go “I guess I’ll have to be” or something else dramatic to show it’s a big deal to him. Then next week we could have him be really trying hard to reach Robin instead of having it all just be fixed with one little phone call. Like maybe Robin is undercover for his new book so Magnum has to make some sort of deal with some shady person who works for Robin to get his undercover contact. Or something and that could come back in season 3 as an episode...

Wow, this got kind of long, but yeah, I just loved this episode and wanted to gush about it and probably I won’t gush (or even complain) as much about 2x20 so it’ll even out in length...

#magnum pi #magnum pi season finale #magnum pi review #magnum pi 2x19 #magnum pi may the best one win #may the best one win #miggy #thomas magnum #juliet higgins #jay hernandez #perdita weeks #miggins #magnum x higgns

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Chapter 2: The Prophet

Shorter than Chapter 1, but let’s fucking goooooo

Prologue

Chapter 1: The Necromancer

Chapter 2: The Prophet

Chapter 3: The Hag

Chapter 4: The Brigand Vvulf

Chapter 5: The Brigand’s Cannon

Chapter 6: The Drowned Crew

Chapter 7: The Siren

Chapter 8: The Swine God

Chapter 9: The Formless Flesh

Chapter 10: The Ancestor

Epilogue

Be weary, there is a violent death here.

Our frontline fighters still needed time to recover as they were just as badly burned as I had feared. I knew Reynauld would be fine. He was a young and healthy man and was capable of recovering quickly, but I had to admit that I was worried if Baldwin would come out the other side of this. Burns on top of his condition was a recipe for disaster, but I should not have doubted him. His will is the strongest I have seen in any man and I had to wonder if he was even human.

Still, I did not feel it was right to send them out to battle just yet. I would rather allow them to rest before I ask them to put their lives on the line again. Besides, it seems that until then, they’ve picked up things to do around the Hamlet to keep their mind off of the stress. Some may be a little less than honorable, such as Dismas and Reynauld’s less than honest gambling, but Julia, Baldwin, and Paracelsus have been seen around the Hamlet either aiding repairs or offering service to the townsfolk to help them. It warmed my heart to see the town starting to recover and heal from the tragedies they have seen.

With them out, however, I have been forced to keep a look out for more heroes to aid our quest. One came to us late in the evening. He said his name is Alhazred and that he is an esteemed professor from a distant University. Further research indicated this to be true, but I was not overly familiar with his studies as I never truly even touched occult studies before I arrived at the Hamlet. After our adventures against the Necromancer, however, how could I turn him down? He would know far more on the topic of the arcane and the supernatural than I ever would. The fact that he was capable of combat despite his frail appearance was just another point in his favor.

Once he was hired, he set upon his work, requesting access to the library that my Ancestor had made. I granted this, but I told him there wasn’t much to see that I was aware of. He was understandably disappointed, but still, he has been there every day I have not called upon him, diligently working away. I also managed to get the old books from the dungeon pulled and brought to him. He seemed more satisfied with those, despite being as damaged as they are.

Alhazred was not the only person to arrive to my Hamlet, however. A brash woman who announced herself as Boudica came in one day and loudly challenged Reynauld. He, thankfully, refused, but an older gentleman that had arrived earlier that day that I had not had the chance to meet with just yet. Reynauld told me that the fight was nothing short of awe-inspiring. The man Boudica had challenged is an old war veteran by the name of Barristan, so it was a battle of old knowledge versus young wit. Boudica came out on top, but just barely. Despite blowing through a table (which they mercifully paid for), I allowed both of them to serve the Hamlet. I admit that I was hesitant with Boudica, being as young and brash as she is, however a conversation with her laid my fears to rest. Despite her behavior, it appears she had nowhere else to go and genuinely wished to help. Perhaps she hoped her earn her keep into the Hamlet, and I found it heartless to say no.

With a new crew assembled of Barristan, Boudica, Julia, and Alhazred, we headed for the dungeons once again with the intent of making sure there was nothing undead left behind within them. As we ventured deeper, we did find some more of the cultists. However, since I did not see anymore moving skeletons, I think it is safe to assume that while they do have some dark arcane powers are their beck and call, they are not capable of Necromancy. The idea brought me some peace.

We traveled beyond the chamber we fought the Necromancer and his minions in and found some undead shambling further within, but with no master they were disorganized and disorientated. I was fooled into thinking this was going to be a simple task as we cut through their ranks. By the time we reached the last door that we left unopened in the dungeons, I had put the prophet out of my mind. What a mistake that was.

I opened the doors to a grimy old man sitting upon the floor. His head and one hand were firmly locked inside a stockade. His other was free and was closed in front of him in a gentle fist. I came to the conclusion that he must have been holding something fragile, but at the same time he did not want the world to see what he was holding. When we entered, he lifted his head. There were old wraps that draped from his head and over his eyes. There was blood over where his eyes were, and I had a sinking feeling about what he was holding.

For a moment, his expression was blank before there was a look of contempt on his face. He asked if I knew what I had done the moment I set foot in the Hamlet. I had to admit, I did not know how to respond to such a question and begged for his pardon. This did not seem to be the answer he wanted as he pushed himself onto his sinewy legs. I asked for him to explain further since I was uncertain as to what he was talking about. This irritated the man and he flew into a tirade about how he tried to warn my Ancestor once, but “look what happened now”. He even claimed that short-sightedness must run in my family for me to arrive here.

Then all of a sudden, his rant was done before he gave a sigh. A smile crept upon his face. He claimed that he “would end the cycle”, though at the time, I had no clue what this meant. All I know is that he held out his free hand and exposed his two gouged eyes to us. He claimed that he could see the ceiling of the dungeon caving in and would cause grievous injury. I was about to speak once more when I suddenly felt Barristan rush and grab me. He pulled me close and held his shield over our heads as a boulder collided. I could hear him cry out in pain from the weight, but we were alive.

Julia, on the other hand, was crushed under the weight as Boudica could do nothing but move out of the way before it got the both of them. The sound of her body breaking is not one I would forget anytime soon.

I admit I did not pay much attention to the battle from there as I was so shaken by the death of Julia to notice much. I had experienced loss prior to this, but never something so sudden and violent. I can’t say I know of anyone who was able to process the first time they saw someone die like this. The idea that perhaps I could have done something to protect her played in my mind on a loop despite the fact that I know it was not something I could have prepared for. How could I have known the Prophet had such terrifying abilities?

What I do know is that eventually there was a hand upon my shoulder. Barristan pulled me away from the side of the boulder, away from what I could see of Julia’s body. I looked over and saw the corpse of the Prophet laid open, wondering when the world had moved on without me. He never took his hand off of me as he helped me out, leading me back towards the Hamlet. No one said much of anything during that trip back.

It took me a few days to truly process what had happened. We eventually sent in Reynauld, Boudica, Dismas, and Barristan in to fetch what they could of Julia’s body. Her grave now is by the Abby that she tried her best to tend to. Reynauld picked up that duty in her stead.

As for me, I attended the service, and then I found Barristan and Reynauld and made a request of them. I do not want to leave the heroes I have employed on their own. I plan to travel with them as often as I can as it is my duty to ensure the corruption here in the Hamlet is driven out. I did not want to be dead weight to them any longer. I asked for them to teach me how to use a blade and how to be a tactician. They seemed to understand why I was asking this of them and agreed to my requests.

In the following weeks, Barristan taught me the basics of planning ahead for these types of battles. He taught me how to think about formations, weighing out our fighter’s strengths and weaknesses, and how to read the enemy. Reynauld drilled me in the ways of a sword and helped me be fitted for some basic armor so I would be less of a liability.

While I know that what happened to Julia was not the result of me being inept as a fighter, it did bring me some comfort to know that no one else would die because I couldn’t even raise a blade to defend myself. I suppose a way, it was me trying to do better for everyone in the Hamlet.

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not like anyone gives a shit about my personal two cents but like??? i need to talk about the tlou 2 ending so

Honestly, I was BEGGING for them to give up by the last hour. Watching Ellie and Abby beat the shit out of each other in the water was just so SAD. And not like, oh, I’m sad they’re fighting because I like them both sad, but just like...pitiful. Really? Ellie saved Abby just to kill her? The only way for them to have a “fair fight” is to starve Abby and stab Ellie, and instead of just giving up and going home this is what they’re doing? They’re beating the shit out of each other and it’s just like...is this worth it? Is this what Joel would have wanted for her? After he spent decades mad at the world that killed Sarah, would he REALLY want her to use up her time and energy and LIFE killing his killer after he killed Abby’s father to save her?

And then Ellie realizes that too. She’s got Abby in the water and Joel on her mind and she realizes it’s not going to do a damn thing to help the trauma she’s experienced. Joel’s memory isn’t going away if Abby dies. It’s not going away if she lives. It’s not going anywhere, the good times or the bad. She’s going to remember his death just as much as she’s going to remember nights on the porch and their favorite movies and going to the museum on her birthday.

They said since the beginning that “It’s about hate.” And all this time I thought it meant exactly what they wanted us to think it meant: Joel’s death will spur Ellie into dark territory and it’s all going to be terrible and sad.

But here’s the truth: It is a story about hate. The way that hate can become all-consuming if you let it. It’s not satisfying. It’s not helpful. It’s not healthy to your relationships. It’s not healing. It just hurts. Holding onto your hatred and grasping for revenge like a dog with a bone isn’t going to do anything productive for anyone involved.

(Just look at Tommy. Injured and on the rocks with Maria AND Dina because he couldn’t let it go. Corroding Ellie with his hatred. He can’t let it go so he’s trying to bring her down too, trying to take away the joy she’s found for herself. I imagine he’ll waste away bitter and alone in Jackson if Ellie doesn’t lie to him and claim she killed Abby, and what a callback to Joel’s actions in the first game that would be, too.)

Abby and Ellie were both killers. And yet when it came time to face their demons and make that call...they both backed down. Abby didn’t kill Dina OR Ellie despite the fact that Ellie killed ALL of her friends. Ellie didn’t kill Abby despite the fact that she killed Joel AND Jesse.

The definition of labelling someone as a monster in a world like this is complex. Bad people can do good things. We know this in the real world too--creators we love turn out to be bad people and we’re stuck examining their art and its place in our lives and questioning its worth and our ability to let it go or keep it around despite that.

So Ellie let Abby go, and that didn’t make her a good person. It didn’t cleanse her of killing Abby’s friends just like saving Ellie didn’t cancel out all of the people Joel killed to do it. Just like Abby isn’t cleansed of killing Joel just because she didn’t kill Ellie and Dina too.

They’re all, objectively, bad people. It’s a bad world with a sliding morality scale. But not taking another life, not furthering an endless cycle of violence and revenge...that’s a good thing. (Because imagine Ellie killing Abby, then Lev killing Ellie, and Dina or Tommy killing Lev, etc. etc.)

That’s why I liked it. Ellie did the good thing. The hard thing. And maybe she’s still a bad person, but she made the world a little better for it. Lev and Abby are going to get to stay together. Ellie is (hopefully) going to go to Jackson and find Dina and JJ.

Maybe I’m just an optimist but like!!! Joel wouldn’t trade the years he got with Ellie for anything. It’s sad he died and I’m going to headcanon an AU where he didn’t for Happy Reasons but like??? We got to see him be sweet and joyful and a good dad figure to Ellie and I loved that. We got to address what happened with the Fireflies and Ellie’s survivor’s guilt and it’s EXACTLY what I wanted to be addressed. Ellie got to be happy with Dina and they can raise JJ and in the end I am SO PROUD that Ellie didn’t kill Abby and that she’s going forward, learning to let Joel go even though it hurts.

Also, catch me writing a fun AU where Ellie and Abby are college roommates who don’t get along at first but then slowly start to realize they’re more alike than they think and become friends thank you and goodnight

#/#//#///#////#/////#don't reblog please i don't want to start shit i'm just emotional at 1 am #anyway! ellie's my daughter and that's that on that!#also awkward dad!joel is my whole world #and ellie and dina are the cutest #the last of us 2 spoilers #the last of us 2

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Samuel and James Fraser Chapter 39 How The Story Ends

A/N Okay guys, the only way I knew to do this was with two different endings. One that has Sam with Mary and one with the poly relationship. You guys are welcome to read one or both. As always thank you for all the reblogs, likes, and comments. Thank you for all who continued with me in this unusual story.

He does return in a week. At first it is the same except for Cait sharing a room only with Jamie. They eat together, watch the telly together. But, after another week has passed, Cait catches Sam quietly weeping into his hands late one night. She has gotten up to get a drink.

“Sam?” He jerks and tries to disguise what he had been doing.

“Oh, hi Cait.”

“What? Oh God, I have been such a fool. I am sorry.”

“For what? You are only doing what I agreed to. What we all did. The fact that I can't handle it is on me, not you.”

“That may be so but.. Sam, could you love Mary, if given the chance? Could you find happiness with her and Abbie?”

“Cait, I love you.”

“I know and I love you. But, I am realizing that love is selfish. That I need to let you go.”

“Cait!”

“Please answer my question.” He stares at her, this other piece of his heart, his brother's wife, and tries to see a future where he can love another. He swallows back the tears that threaten to choke his voice.

“I am already more then halfway there with Abbie and Mary and I have a friendship that can develop into love if given the chance.”

“She loves you.” She states.

“Yes.”

“It is a wonderful start. Go to her Sam. Give your heart to her. Let us be grand friends and in-laws. I can't keep hurting you.” They are both crying so hard. He pulls her to him, holding her close. She clings equally hard.

“I will always love you.” He whispers hoarsly.

“And I you. But, maybe we can find a healthy way to show it.”

Jamie is shocked by what had been decided deep in the night as he slept. He is also relieved. He would have kept the deal but, he can’t feel bad about having his wife to himself.

Mary welcomes him with open arms while allows him time to heal. Abbie is overjoyed. Her sweet presence helps as does her mam's patience.

A few months after moving in, he comes to her bed. That first night they just hold each other. But, he shares it from then on.

A few months later, Claire announces her pregnancy. He is able to be excited about his coming niece or nephew. Ethan James, arrives healthy and with a lusty cry that his Uncle Sam hears out in the waiting room. A few weeks later, Mary tells him they also have one on the way.

Ella Samantha is welcomed with joy by her big sister, parents, and aunt and uncle. They are all happy together.

As time goes on, they find it funny to think that they ever thought about a poly relationship.

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He returns a week later. Cait and Jamie are both happy to have him back. It isn’t easy but he manages to get through the honeymoon month.

The hand fast ceremony is quite sweet. He invites Mary but she refuses to come. He knows he has hurt her but his heart belongs to Cait.

The much anticipated love making is intense. They have discussed it and decided to try for a honeymoon baby.

In the middle of the month, she finds herself sick in the morning and they all wait anxiously to see if she is expecting. She is and they all three celebrate.

They both spoil her throughout.

Early one morning, she wakes up, against Sam, with a contraction running through her body. She wakes her husbands and they begin the process of working through labor.

Twelve hours and an eternity later, she gives birth to her first child, a son who looks just like his daddy's. They bring Henry Brian Fraser home, the next day.

He is a wonderfully brawl lad who is deeply loved by all three of his parents.

When he is three, they decide it is time for a sibling. Jamie and her go off for a week. Two weeks later they discover they were successful.

Harry loves the idea of the coming baby. He is fascinated by the feel of his sibling moving inside her.

Ellen Julia arrives a week early but as healthy and brawl as her brother. She also looks like her da's except for having her mam's eyes.

They make a good life with their children. All accept their unique family with time.

The End

#my writing #modern au #mish mash #samuel and james #the end of the story #two different endings #outlander fanfic #outlander fandom

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The 100 6x09: What You Take With You Personal Narrative

Another two week hiatus that absolutely killed me! Thank goodness for the Beliza pics from the recent con or I would absolutely be drowning! What did you guys think of the sneak peaks we got? I’m excited to see the new dynamic between Octavia and Gabriel! I also want to know if she’s faking not remembering anything or not. Plus, we get so much Bellamy/Jo!Clarke action tonight! I definitely don’t think we’ll get Clarke back this episode, but I’m hoping for 6x10 when the Blake siblings are reunited! :)

Alas, the episode is about to begin, so let’s get started:

It’s coming on! I’m so cool with Eliza introducing all the episodes.

Eliza is such a great actress. She does so well with separating her Josephine voice from her Clarke voice.

Aww... clean and young looking Octavia. Gotta love the glam that the anomaly provides!

Does Octavia really remember nothing? Seems strange....

Gabriel is pissed.....Why does he want to know so much about the anomaly?

Help....? That can’t be good

What’s in the creepy boxxxx

What the hell is Gabriel doing?

He’s going to get her.....high? Ahhh so that’s how she is going to see Bloodreina.

So the anomaly doesn’t heal...but it passes through time possibly....then erases memories? Interesting....

So there could be truth in the time travel theories that have been floating around?

Can we really trust Gabriel, though? I mean....he has been lying about who he is.

Damn....that was quick. Where can I get that stuff? Lol

Nice glowing boxes. Red light. Green light. And she decides to go towards the red? That’s such an Octavia move.

Yes, let’s pick the angry looking box that is obviously going to lead you towards your worst memories.

Marie is such a great actress. What did we do to get such great actors and actresses in this show? Did someone sacrifice a virgin or something?

Echhh.....creepy new Marcus---Marcus Kane II if you will---I do not like it! SO ICKY!

I mean....he’s hot....but....him and Abby possibly being romantic in the future is just a kinda gross concept.

Is anyone else sick of Abby? She has gone way too far.

There love story has never really been healthy in my opinion, but this is too gross and too far.

Ewww don’t kiss! Stop it! Stop it! Stop it!

Yes, everything is wrong, Marcus. People are not meant to switch fucking bodies!

Yay! Bellamy and Jo!Clarke!

Aww Bellamy can’t stand seeing Clarke in pain in any aspect.

You tell her Bellamy!

“I guess you just care about her more.” Well that is dropping some more truth bombs on Bellamy!

Commercial Break #1 Thoughts: WOW! Josephine dropping the truth bombs on Bellamy! Everyone is calling him out on this! This has got to mean something for Bellarke! IT HAS TO! We usually only get like one of these comments per season about the two of them putting each other first but.....now we’re getting this like twice in two episodes? AMAZING!!! If this is anything like what the rest of the episode is going to be like we are going to be served a MEAL! So thrilled! On the opposite side, Kabby 2.0 is creepy and I’m grossed out. Who’s with me?

Ohhh we’re in a cave! And Josephine is such a fucking priss.

Seriously Josephine is going to get herself killed.

Bellamy is such a boss. Though is he going to get them killed? Doubtful. But his heart is definitely leading over his head.

Oh my gosh. He just said Doubtful after I did! It’s fate!

Can she really hear them now? OMG!!!

What is he going to say?

OMG he was always speaking to her! In the trailer he was speaking to her and not just metaphorically or whatever! WHAT A FUCKING TREAT!

Was it worth it? Probably not.

Eeww....the host had a wife....and still willingly sacrificed his body? Wow these people are brainwashed!

Ohhh what is the truth?! Reveal it Kane! Drop some truths!

Kane is our King! Even if he is in a new body.

Woop there it is! This is the only time where Raven’s condescension this season isn’t bothering me.

INDRA IS BACK!!!!

I forgot Indra and Kane were friends! This is awesome! I missed Indra so much! Is she going to ask about Octavia? Is she?

Commercial Break #2 Thoughts: After the first commercial all of the commercials come so quickly. But we seriously got info that Clarke can hear them! And it seems legit! And Bellamy in the trailer was always just talking to her!!! I love this so much! I’m so happy! But what worries me is the fact that Clarke’s brain---according to the episode sneak peaks we got with Jason and this episode’s writer--has only a few hours left. So....hopefully they get her into the anomaly or something soon? If it will heal her...but if it is just a time anomaly will it actually fix her or just kill her brain sooner because of a time jump? I’m concerned, confused, and cautiously hopeful.

And we are back with Octavia and Gabriel! He better hear his call from his people! We need him to save Clarke!

Octavia versus Bloodreina! FINALLY!

Oh....no....Pike. Interesting.....

We are really getting down to the deepest set of what turned Octavia so dark. Intense

Did anyone else miss Pike’s actor like I did. I mean....I didn’t really care for Pike, but I love the actor who plays him!

Ohh...playing the Bellamy card with her. Ouch.

Of course she hates herself. She was forced to do a lot of shitty things and she did a lot of shitty things on her own. She’s a bit fucked up.

Wow! Pike is really laying into her. Her mind is almost as bad as Clarke’s.

There’s Bloodreina!

Pike is Octavia’s good side of her conscious? Interesting.

Lincoln!!! I don’t want to see this again! Don’t show me his death again! NOOOOOO!!!!!!

Hmmm....but Octavia still protects her mind Pike. Good for her!

You kill Bloodreina, Octavia! I know you can do it!

Damn. That kill shot came quick.

Aww Gabriel is wiping her forehead! That’s sweet!

Commercial Break #3 Thoughts: So....that was intense. But we don’t really know what happened in the anomaly still? Or will it come back to her now that she fought against her demons/Bloodreina? I still think the fight was kind of quick. Even if Octavia has been continuously thinking about getting redemption for awhile now, it still seems like a quick internal battle. I’m sure she will have to fight harder on the outside for redemption with Bellamy and the others, but it wouldn’t have killed us to get a longer fight. However, I will be okay with this shorter fight if it means longer scenes with Bellamy trying to save Clarke.

INDRA!!! Because she loves you.....yes drop those truth bombs girlfriend!

Hmmm....Indra....what are you saying. We need you on our side!

Ohhh.....Raven/Indra/Kane II team! Love it!

YAY Bellamy and Jo!Clarke interaction!

At least she knows that bringing her back was a big mistake sorta.

OHHHH what Clarke/Bellamy truths is she about to drop?!!?

Bellamy’s hope is so cute! I hope it continues and he’s right!

Haha continue to be confident if it pisses her off Bellamy!

Bellamy looks so hurt that Clarke’s body is being hurt.

Uhhh....ohhhh....They know!

Is....Clarke back?

Oh!!! How is this possible! This is such a great fanfic....I mean episode. LMAO!

Commercial Break #4 Thoughts: So....now that she gave control back to Clarke....does that mean that she can take it back or does Clarke have to give it back? I mean....Clarke’s brain is obviously still dying, but will this make it better? Worse? I just can’t believe we just got Clarke back so suddenly! I’m so crazed! I’m so much more hopeful now! Is this going to make me a clown in the end? I don’t know....but I refuse to let go of this hope! Clarke is BACK!

Wait...she is running towards motorcycles...is she playing the part of Josephine or....is she actually Clarke? Yup....actually Clarke.

Ohhhh....So Clarke does have to give back control. So cool.

I’m loving Clarke on the motorcycle! SUPER FUCKING HOT!!!

Clarke and Josephine interaction, and Clarke sassing her! I LOVE IT!

Ohhh....Octavia seeking redemption is hot! And....they just heard the radio calls.

Octavia wants to save her people!

“Things are about to get weird...” Lmao....I love Gabriel! Best line of the night, probs!

Commercial Break #5 Thoughts: So confirmed Clarke is back. We get to see Josephine and Clarke interact with each other outside of her brain. So thrilled that Clarke is back though! SO HAPPY! And Octavia actively seeking redemption, and Gabriel pretty much being cool with it despite him wanting info about the anomaly. That is legit wise-old man vibes! I’m digging it, Gabriel. You’re awesome! I take back not trusting you. If you don’t do something stupid...I’m just going to love you.

Indra is such a badass. We should have brought her back sooner.

Ohhh...are we losing Marcus again so soon? That’s sad....but it makes a good point to this whole show. I really think letting him die would be better for all of this. It proves the point that taking over someone else’s body and living forever is never right. Sometimes people just have to die and stay dead.

Ohhh....she is seeing his old face! I love it! Or are we just seeing it? I don’t care! It’s amazing!

This is the perfect way for us to say goodbye to Marcus! I LOVE IT!

I’ll miss you Marcus! But sometimes dying is for a good cause!

“This is how we get our humanity back.”

I’m crying!!! May we meet again, Marcus Kane. Your fight is over.

So....that episode ended abruptly. But at least we only have one week until next episode!

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