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yandere--stuck · 1 year

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Yandere!Joker x Hypochondriac!Reader Headcanons

💜 Admittedly, Joker doesn't understand your fears, at first. For one, Joker has been victim to (and occasional creator of) so many conditions, illnesses, and maladies that he can hardly remember them all. And being in a constant state of being sick in the head takes a bit of the novelty away from being ill. Joker's met his fair share of germaphobes in his time, too. Usually he finds such fear of germs funny, but seeing it concern you so greatly takes the humor out of the situation. But hey, easy fix, right? He'll just ask his boys to fetch some hand sanitizer and it'll be all good.

💚 After witnessing you begin to spiral and break down over your worries after he had failed to take your fears as seriously as they should, Joker realizes that his initial assumption had been horribly wrong. This was far from normal germaphobia. This was serious! And serious problems required serious solutions - unfortunately. So, sorry, sweetheart, but you've been permanently barred from access to any medical texts. This is for the best, he promises! C'mon, the more you know, the more you'll worry. Take your mind off it by watching some cartoons with him!

💜 May use your requests for reassurance as a means for manipulation. And by may, he means absolutely will. You're just so cute clinging to him and begging him to tell him you're alright! In those moments, it feels like the whole world could be falling apart, and as long as he reassured you that it wasn't and that everything was okay, you'd believe it. It was a little bit addicting if he were being honest. He'd hold you in his arms and caress your face, assuring you that you were fine, you were normal, you were the furthest thing from I'll and he'd protect you from anything that could hurt you - and if you don't think he'd try to wipe out an illness just for you, then you're sorely mistaken!

💚 If you're concerned that you're already under the effects of an illness and are in extreme panic, Joker doesn't think twice about kidnapping Gotham's finest doctors in order to look you over and do a check up to make sure everything's okay. Joker will hold your hand and stick by your side the entire time to make sure you're as comfortable and at ease as you can be… All the while, the doctors are being held up by his men and Joker's hissing out threats if they do anything to upset or scare you.

💜 Joker's never been one to forgo cleanliness, but that's not to see he's always had his hideouts squeaky-clean. This, however, is completely changed around in order to quell your fears. Joker now has stocks of sanitizers, gloves, masks, and all sorts of cleaning products. Unfortunately for his goons, though, he's rather lazy, and the job of cleaning and keeping things sanitized is usually offloaded onto them. If they fail to keep things clean enough, the Clown will go into a rage and make them dance as he fires a gun at their feet and then force them to clean up the mess 'they' made. Honestly, getting good help these day was so hard.

💚 If there's one thing Joker knows, it's that laughter is the best medicine. If he finds you ruminating, he'll immediately go into a routine he'd been thinking up that he's sure will leave you breathless with laughter until you've forgotten all about your worries. He loves you laugh and he loves when you're carefree and happy. And after he'll talk to you for hours and hours, absolutely smitten and grateful that he could help you through, even if only a little bit.

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compassionatereminders · 2 months

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I'm in my mid 20's and I noticed last year and a half I started being very forgetful... I'm afraid it's health related. Sometimes I feel like I have dementia. I know we all forget things but I forget things multiple times per day. It's not just small things like forgetting where your keys are. Example: I could wash the dishes, go to my room and 20 minutes later I would go to the kitchen because I can't remember if I washed it or not.

I'm worried what is happening with me. I tried to keep track of how many times I forget something and I always forget more than 5, 6, 7, 8 things every day (depends).

A lot of times I would do something and in the next 5-10 minutes I would forget if I did that thing or not.

Some people say they have blackouts because it's stress related. Idk... it wasn't so bad a year and a half ago... keeps getting worse. My memory truly sucks. But I don't want to go to the doctor yet.

The thing is, there are A LOT of different conditions which can trigger or worsen memory issues, and dementia is not among the most likely. At your age especially, the culprit is far more likely to be named stress, or depression, or trauma, or ADHD, or a chronic illness that causes brainfog, or- Like we're not exactly lacking potential answers. That being said, I do recommend that you get it checked out when you can in order to rule out stuff like dementia, especially if you're really scared

#chat with kat #health anxiety tw

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onlyhams · 2 months

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unfortunately I suspect that the one sure fire way to make one’s health anxiety prophecies come true is to not get something checked out 💕

#I’m lucky enough to have insurance through my work and I have yet to get some issues checked out or get a PCP #but I’m so anxious #waking up every day feeling like you’re gonna die soon isn’t slay #health tw #anxiety tw #health anxiety #health anxiety tw

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a-chilleus · 3 months

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email from my gp today saying btw these test results from october suggest you could have pcos. no need to do anything good luck do you have any questions

what the fuck, what do i do, how the fuck do i handle this

#i have some of the symptoms but they're stuff like acne and weight gain and whatever #i literally had an ultrasound last week and the results for that were normal #but apparently my hormones are weird? and i have super irregular periods #and my gp was like well you could go on contraceptives if you're worried about the irregular periods #thanks but no? i don't need to make my periods more regular #i'm actually fine with not having as many periods they suck #so long as i have enough to not get cancer but that's just 3+ in a year and you're fine #like i'm not worried about acne and irregular periods and being a bit hairy #i'm worried about am i gonna get type 2 diabetes and does this mean i'm never going to be able to lose weight and what the fuck do i do #with this random new information!!!#she didn't even suggest any further tests to actually confirm it #so like #i may or may not have pcos #fucking hell #esme.txt #health anxiety tw #weight mention tw #uhhh #menstruation tw #oh yeah all the info is like “women with pcos experience this” so funnnn dysphoria times

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siberian-xanadu · 4 months

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Not me watching interviews of my faves again to take my mind off my health anxiety lol

On a completely unrelated note, if anyone has good Rush or Yes interviews, PLEASE send them to me!

#storytime with violet #health anxiety tw #health anxiety

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ungalobrando · 1 year

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Why you should quit purging not tomorrow, not now, but yesterday.

CW - Some hard truths about living with this kind of ED/addiction. Forcing yourself to throw up, medical issues and dental problems included.

I never see anyone talking about this ED very openly, so I figured it's time to change that. From the viewpoint of someone who's trying their best to recover, but sucks at it.

My resolution for 2023 is to stop purging entirely, and this most was mostly made for myself, but feel free to use it for your own recovery if it helps you.

° It's highly addictive. I mean it, you'll be addicted to it before you know it. At the beginning you might say how? It's gross, and painful, and you hate it, but take it from me. I'm almost 5 years into it, trying to get myself to stop, and I struggle after every meal, even if it wasn't high in calories or whatsoever. There's always that thought in the back of my head, telling me that I simply could purge and I'd feel better. It's a struggle to force myself to stay near my family or friends after eating, or at least go for a walk until the urge passes.

° You will not lose weight. Your body is smart. If what you ate doesn't actually make you sick because it's bad or poisonous, your stomach will try to hold onto your food if possible. You will have to bring up great effort to expel it, it will be painful, you could bleed, you could get horribly dizzy, you will most likely cry, and even then? You usually only bring up only half of what you ate. Maximum. Regularly forcing yourself to throw up after meals slows down your metabolism. Your body desperately clings to everything it can get, like it's afraid to lose nutrients because of your habit. There's a good chance you will GAIN weight. And your cheeks become puffy from it.

° It ruins your throat and stomach. I developed Barrett Syndrome and GERD. I get stomach cramps and heartburn after almost every meal. There aren't many things that I can eat without experiencing pain for hours afterwards. Liquids hardly stay down which makes drinking water pure torture. If I have soup before bed, there's a good chance I could suffocate on it in my sleep because my esophagus simply doesn't close properly. I don't dare to leave the house without my hot bottle and my heartburn meds. It's NOT a fun life, AND it makes me want to purge EVEN MORE to cope with the pain.

° It ruins your teeth. The risks to your stomach and esophagus aren't enough to turn you off? What about your teeth, then? Do you like cavities? Do you like chipped teeth? Do you like painful, exposed roots? Inflamed roots without cavities? Inflames gums and sores? Root canals? Getting your teeth pulled? High dentist bills? Potential cancer? Your stomach acid isn't supposed to come out of your mouth unless it's an emergency for your body. Eating a few too many calories is NOT an emergency. After you purged, you should rinse your mouth with plenty of water, wait for half an hour, and then brush your teeth and use mouthwash if you can. Brushing your teeth immediately rubs in the stomach acids.

° It ruins your hands and nails. Well, it depends if you use your hands or prefer to shove objects down your throat. I usually want it fast, and I don't care about consequences in the moment, so my hands have to suffer. My knuckles are often sore from how hard I'm biting them, two of my fingernails are short and brittle, and the skin between those two fingers is extremely dry, no matter what I do. I often get inflamed nail beds. Oh, and even if you don't use your fingers, you can watch the object you use suffer from the consequences, too. Until one day, it falls apart in your hands.

° People smell it. No matter how much you wash your hands, no matter how well you rinse your mouth, food and stomach acid have a distinct smell and the people around you WILL smell it. The scent of vomit clings to your clothes and hair. It lingers in the air, and the next person who comes into the bathroom will KNOW. Do you want to carry the delicious smell of throw up with you? Do you want everyone to know that you shove your fingers down your throat? Your ED probably says YES, but ask yourself, do you really, REALLY want to be the person who always smells like vomit?

° You deserve better. A bit of a cheesy way to end this, but... would you want to KNOW, every time your best friend goes to the bathroom after eating? Would you want to know that your child throws up your lovingly prepared meals because they feel unworthy of them? Would you want to hear your parent throwing up every day and wondering when you'll have to start doing that, too? Do you want to count calories in the elder's home? Or ask your nurse how many calories are in your hospital food? Don't you think your life has so much more to offer than this?

#long post #ed recovery #recovery #pro recovery #emeto tw #emeto cw #emetophobia tw #hypochondria tw #health anxiety tw #this is the only time i will openly talk about my ed here #i refuse to go into detail about it #so please don't follow me for ed content

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heimonas · 2 years

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hi wtf do u mean about the thyroid thing

hi! i have now started thinking i shouldn't have said that bc it might just be a sensory thing for some people but the way op and some other people in the notes described it made me think of my own experience with thyroiditis

basically that feeling of either nausea or being choked when something even slightly touches or nears your throat. sometimes i feel like throwing up (although it's mild), sometimes it's just uncomfortable and sometimes i feel like a noose or a hand is choking me.

I have no experience with this kind of sensory problem outside this medical condition so I don't know how or if it differs and I really have to alarm someone or triger some anxiety in them

that being said, if you've never checked your thyroid and you have other symptoms too, maybe it's worth a check-up

#angel answers #anon #ask #health #health anxiety tw #thyroid #thyroiditis

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ramblingvents · 6 months

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You know how in trauma work they tell you that your current self is built off of every version of you that's come before? How that's why you sometimes get emotions randomly, because a recent event reminds you of a traumatic one and your brain feels like it recognizes the pattern so it reacts the same way? I wish it wouldn't.

#being quarantined for Covid is bringing back a lot of the hypochondria I had when the pandemic started when I was 16 #except it's real this time. everything I was most afraid of is real and could kill me and everyone I care about.#health anxiety tw #hypochondria tw

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themindofmine · 3 months

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I just have this overflowing feeling of hopelessness about my future

#mental health #tw depression #i feel empty #kinda depressing #dead inside #emotionally exhausted #mentally tired #why am i like this #i hate it here #tw vent #deep thoughts #own thoughts #mentally exhausted #life #tw depressive thoughts #i cant do it anymore #emotionally drained #tw anxiety

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compassionatereminders · 2 months

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Are you absolutely positive it's the flu and not one of these new COVID strains? Some of them aren't picked up by the at-home tests. I know you've been in the hospital, so hopefully you were tested with one of the better tests, but I also have heard a lot of people say doctors aren't even considering it as a possibility anymore. Either way, long COVID spaces might have useful advice for recovery since symptoms can be so similar.

Sorry if this is isn't useful. I just found out someone I love has a very bad case of COVID and I'm very worried, so it's more on my mind than normal, even as a high risk person myself. I hope you start gaining your strength back soon.

Yes. I went to the ER. They did a lot of testing, including the proper COVID tests, where I tested positive for Type A Influenza. But they specifically tested for COVID when I was in the emergency room. I'm sorry about your loved one. I hope they recover soon ❤️

#chat with kat #coronavirus tw #health risk tw #health anxiety tw #hospital tw

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silence-ofdeath · 1 year

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“I am alone with my own thoughts and it’s dangerous.”

-cress

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ef-1 · 1 month

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Hi! I noticed in your tags on a post (the one where Daniel is aiming the full force of his big brown cow eyes at Simon) that you mentioned a time where Daniel helped a reporter through a panic attack. I’m v intrigued about the full story. Do you happen to have a link or recall the details? Thanks!

Daniel was an ambassador for the inner ninja, a mental wellness and suicide prevention charity since 2016. The founder, Stef, was with Daniel on stage and she got overwhelmed and Daniel talked her down from it :((

(thanks to meg💚)

#I'll put this in the tag for the uninitiated :((#f1 #daniel ricciardo #tw anxiety #tw suicide mention #tw mental health

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honeyhhearted · 9 months

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Sweet Dreams

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Warnings: Health Anxiety, Depression, Mentions of Illness (No one is sick, reader just suffers from severe anxiety)

Relationship: Loki/Reader

Summary:

You can't sleep (again).

You're afraid of burdening Loki, so you try to face it alone, when he catches you on one of your sleepless nights.

A/N:

Another fluff short for you <3

I personally really struggle with health anxiety/mild hypochondria, so this one is partially for me too.

You couldn’t sleep again.

When you got out of bed, eyes stinging, neck aching, you sighed to yourself. You hadn’t been able to get any sleep for the last few weeks. Nights spent staring into your phone until 3AM, watching the sun rise and dragging yourself out of bed every day were starting to wear you down. You were sluggish, shoulders drooping, dark circles beneath your eyes.

The sounds of the night kept you company.

You padded quietly down the hallway, doing your best not to wake Loki. You didn’t want to worry him. Part of you knew that you should tell him. He could probably help you, you thought. But something in you tightened at the thought of inconveniencing him. He had a difficult enough time sleeping as it is, without you waking him in the dead of night. You didn’t want to become a burden more than you already were.

Night time was when anxiety plagued you the worst. Its spindly tendrils wrapped themselves around your chest, squeezing every time you dared to close your eyes. What if someone broke in, and you couldn’t stop them? What if they hurt you? What if they hurt him?

Every ache and pain in your body scared you. Sometimes it felt like you were afraid of yourself. You couldn’t let yourself sleep out of fear that you just…wouldn’t wake up. You couldn’t sleep beside Loki without worrying that the usually comforting sound of his even breaths would stop in the middle of the night.

During the day, he would catch you staring too long at a bruise, a scratch. Logically you knew where it would come from. You were incredibly clumsy, prone to bumping into things constantly. But when you could see it, when you stared at the lumps and bumps on your body long enough, you could convince yourself otherwise. Those were the moments he would comfort you, waving a hand over you before telling you, for the eighth time that day, that you were fine.

“Sweetling,” He would say, gently every time, “I promise that you are in good health. What is worrying you so much?”

You always felt a rush of shame. He was so patient, so kind to you, even on the days where he’d have to tell you ten, twelve, times, and his brow would furrow and lips would purse at your fear.

“I’m sorry,” You whispered back. “I don’t know what’s wrong with me.”

So, you stayed awake. Tossing and turning in bed until he drifted off to sleep beside you, pressing a kiss to your shoulder. Scrolling, scrolling, scrolling until your eyes burned and your battery drained. Then you’d get up at 3AM, like clockwork. You’d walk through your home, listening to the soft sounds of crickets outside. You’d sit in the kitchen, coffee prepared in the fridge in advance so the sounds of you rustling around wouldn’t wake Loki.

You sighed. Your head throbbed constantly from exhaustion, and your hands shook. As you sat, sipping your coffee, you felt your eyes begin to water. You were so tired.

It was beginning to take a mental toll on you, the lack of sleep. You were more irritable, snapping at Loki over what you used to laugh about. You knew he deserved better, and you hated yourself when you saw the confusion in his eyes at your poor moods. You just felt so terrible, all the time, and you didn’t know what to do anymore.

Some days, you considered just leaving. It felt like you couldn’t breathe, and you didn’t want to keep dragging him down with you. But the thought of doing so made your stomach clench. So, selfishly, you stayed.

Thor had recommended you see someone. You knew you should. But you just…couldn’t. He approached you hesitantly, some weeks ago, the way someone would a feral animal. He looked so uncomfortable it almost made you laugh to think about, as it was such an out of place look on him.

“I don’t mean to overstep,” he said, awkwardly, “But, sister, are you well? You have been looking…I apologize for my bluntness, overtired. You do not seem physically ill. Has something happened?”

You smiled at him, heart warming at his care for you. The two of you had always been close, but had grown even closer when you started dating his brother. He treated you like a sister, protective and sweet. Your smile faded quickly, though, at his question. You didn’t want to get into it, not when you knew he’d likely tell Loki. You didn’t want to make either of them worry about you - at least not more than they clearly already were.

“I’m okay, Thor, it’s just…I’m just in my own head, I think. That’s all.” Was what you came up with.

He didn’t seem to believe you, but didn’t push it. You were thankful for that. “If you say so. Might I recommend those Midgardian mind healers? Jane regularly attends one.” He looked sheepish. “Don’t tell her I told you. But, I believe it is for moments when you are ‘in your own head’, as you put it.”

You sighed. “I know. I’ll think about it.”

That was weeks ago. You had a tab open to Google, the search “therapists near me” opened on it. It taunted you, most nights. You couldn’t bring yourself to do it.

“Darling?” A raspy, sleep-filled voice came from behind you. You whipped around, trying to blink away your tears. Loki stood in the entryway to the kitchen, eyes bleary as he looked at you. He was paler than normal, a frown firmly pasted on his face. Your heart thumped. Even half awake, you still found him so beautiful.

“I’m sorry, did I wake you?” You asked, making your way over to him.

He wrapped his arms around you, breathing you in. You felt your shoulders relax. He always made you feel better, the familiar scent of spice and pine surrounding you as you listened to the strong sound of his heart.

“I woke, and you were not there.” He said. “I dreamt you were gone, and when I woke, you were.”

Guilt squeezed your stomach. Loki’s nightmares were not frequent, but when he had them they would typically revolve around you. You hurt, missing, dead…those nights were the ones he woke, a horrified noise ripping its way out of his throat, his hands shaking, skin pale. He always reached for you, hugging you to him like a lifeline. You felt terrible that you were not there for him.

“I’m so sorry, honey,” You said, your voice muffled into his chest.

“Why are you out here? It is late.” He pressed a kiss to your head before leaning back to look at you.

You hesitated. “I just couldn’t sleep.”

“Why didn’t you wake me?”

“I…didn’t want to bother you.” You bit your lip, looking down.

“My love.” His voice was stern, yet gentle. “You are never bothering me. Do you hear me? If you need me, I am here. Always.” He paused, taking in your haggard appearance. “How long has this been happening?”

Tears welled in your eyes. Guilt and shame stabbed through your throat as a sob burst out of you. “I’m sorry, I’m sorry,” You sobbed, fisting his shirt in your hands. “I didn’t want to worry you, or burden you, or make you take care of me-” You inhaled sharply, the pain in your head worsening as you cried. “I just don’t feel good and I’m scared, please don’t be mad at me I’m sorry I didn’t mean to lie to you -” Loki shushed you, cradling your head to his chest as your whole body quivered.

“My love, my love,” He said to you, rocking slightly. “I am so sorry you have dealt with this alone. I am sorry I did not notice sooner. I am not mad, I could never be mad at you for doing what you thought was a good thing. You are not a burden, darling, you never have been a burden. It is an honor and a privilege to take care of you every day. Every day I spend making you happy is the greatest thing I can do.”

You sobbed harder, squeezing him. “I just - I didn’t want to become a chore, I didn’t want you to resent me. I don’t know what’s wrong with me. I’m just so tired.”

He shushed you again, softly, before lifting you in his arms. He pressed a kiss to your forehead as he walked you both back to your bedroom.

He laid you in bed gently before summoning a glass of water for you, placing it on your bedside table, and crawling under the covers. He held you as you calmed yourself, pressing kisses all over your face and whispering gentle affirmations to you. He wiped your tears with a sweet softness, massaged your scalp in a way you’d always found comforting, kissed your fingertips. When you caught your breath, you looked up at him through wet eyelashes.

“I think I need to talk to someone.” You said.

He smiled sadly at you. “Thor told me that he recommended a mind healer for you. They are called therapists on Midgard, yes?”

You nodded. “I was too scared to go.”

He kissed the tip of your nose. “I will be with you every step of the way, my sweet love. There is nothing to be afraid of, and if there is, I will be with you.”

You pressed yourself close to him, burying your head into his cool neck as his arms circled you.

“I love you, Loki,” you said quietly.

“And I love you, so much,” He replied.

He began to sing to you, an Asgardian lullaby you had heard many times, but never deciphered. The rhythmic motion of his hands running up and down your back soothed you, as your eyes drooped and you finally drifted off to sleep.

It was the sweetest sleep you’d had in weeks.

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