hey friend, can I vent out something? Yur honestly one of the bloggers I trust.
There are like six people I dislike in the fandom but I have reasons
6. Flamy. I have the theory that she's the one who was harassing YJ about Puppylove, but even if she isn't, her attitude doesn't settle well for me
5. Quattro. I'm sorry but his Gacha looks like those Gacha cringe from tiktok and his artwork needs more work in own opinion. His AU is also cringe overall.
4. Alex. He's just not nice. He has a bad personality and very rude. I heard from penguin that he was rude to the fact that he disrespected Penguin's own personal experience. Idk if that's true but his past attitudes have always been a dislike to me.
3. Hottakes. I severely hate their rants. Because it's not just rants, but a) they don't think before they write, and that gets people hurt. B) they act like the fandom needs to change for their sake. And c) they act like they know everyone and judges them for it. She apologized but the damage has been done already
2. Cxtton. For acting like a police at one time. I will never forgive her for that. She deleted the post but it will never be forgivable. She will have my disrespect all the way because of that.
And 1. Gato. I have grown to hate Gato. No, not because she's black, I'm not racist, but her attitude. The way she agrees with hottakes without even realizing how hurtful those words can be for others. She claims to be a friend but she agrees the shit stuff behind people's backs, and it made me grow to hate her the most among all of the people I've seen.
YJ is cool, she's respectful at least. Deadcat is cool too. And darklandblood. And Gia. And Weird. And Jahzeel. And you too, you guys are cool, but I wanted to let something off my chest for a while.
Thanks for listening :)
Thank you for feeling like you could trust me for you to vent in my ask box.
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The Sound of a Drip
There are thoughts that are tenants in my head,
waiting to be transmuted into words
waiting to break out and use my lips as a springboard
so, they can leap into those ears for your mind to decipher
and be more than just transmitted vibrations but a feeling.
If left unattended,
they bedevil my peace
and pilfer me of a good sleep—
they drip
out of a leaky yearning
in the silence
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Today my therapist introduced me to a concept surrounding disability that she called "hLep".
Which is when you - in this case, you are a disabled person - ask someone for help ("I can't drink almond milk so can you get me some whole milk?", or "Please call Donna and ask her to pick up the car for me."), and they say yes, and then they do something that is not what you asked for but is what they think you should have asked for ("I know you said you wanted whole, but I got you skim milk because it's better for you!", "I didn't want to ruin Donna's day by asking her that, so I spent your money on an expensive towing service!") And then if you get annoyed at them for ignoring what you actually asked for - and often it has already happened repeatedly - they get angry because they "were just helping you! You should be grateful!!"
And my therapist pointed out that this is not "help", it's "hLep".
Sure, it looks like help; it kind of sounds like help too; and if it was adjusted just a little bit, it could be help. But it's not help. It's hLep.
At its best, it is patronizing and makes a person feel unvalued and un-listened-to. Always, it reinforces the false idea that disabled people can't be trusted with our own care. And at its worst, it results in disabled people losing our freedom and control over our lives, and also being unable to actually access what we need to survive.
So please, when a disabled person asks you for help on something, don't be a hLeper, be a helper! In other words: they know better than you what they need, and the best way you can honor the trust they've put in you is to believe that!
Also, I want to be very clear that the "getting angry at a disabled person's attempts to point out harmful behavior" part of this makes the whole thing WAY worse. Like it'd be one thing if my roommate bought me some passive-aggressive skim milk, but then they heard what I had to say, and they apologized and did better in the future - our relationship could bounce back from that. But it is very much another thing to have a crying shouting match with someone who is furious at you for saying something they did was ableist. Like, Christ, Jessica, remind me to never ask for your support ever again! You make me feel like if I asked you to call 911, you'd order a pizza because you know I'll feel better once I eat something!!
Edit: crediting my therapist by name with her permission - this term was coined by Nahime Aguirre Mtanous!
Edit again: I made an optional follow-up to this post after seeing the responses. Might help somebody. CW for me frankly talking about how dangerous hLep really is.
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The don't open your eyes creature is so cute someone give him love asap
I AGREE EVERYONE SHOULD
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It's about Crowley bearing witness to Aziraphale's desire, about the way that desire is animal and visceral and enormous and terrifying*. And about how Crowley sees that and wants it. Crowley offers the ox rib and watches Aziraphale eat because eating provides them no sustenance, it's purely for pleasure, sensual, selfish. And Crowley introduces Aziraphale to this, and thousands of years later still takes obvious pleasure in feeding Aziraphale, in watching him eat. In watching Aziraphale's pleasure.
And I think it's significant the things we see Crowley put into his body in s2, and why: six shots of espresso, as something bracing before seeing what it is that made Aziraphale call him in his "something's wrong" tone; whiskey, because he has to give Aziraphale some bad news; wine, because they "might as well get comfortable" during the storm coming down on Job, after Aziraphale learns that Crowley is actually pretty unhappy with Job's suffering; and poison, to dispose of it so Elspeth (or Wee Morag, I've fogotten which is which) doesn't die. Crowley doesn't take Aziraphale's "something that calms you down", only consumes things that not only don't bring him pleasure but are an attempt to prevent pain. Crowley, who introduced Aziraphale to this important physical, sensual, selfish pleasure, denies it to himself. He denies himself the eccles cakes, he denies himself partaking in food, and he denies himself Aziraphale.
And we see throughout the rest of the season other things he's denying himself: the comfort and safety of a home in the bookshop in favor of the mobility and ready-made escape of living in the Bentley, the surety of saying what he really means during the confession. He cannot bring himself to admit what he wants, that he wants. Gabriel and Beelzebub "going off together" is not what he wants. He wants Aziraphale, but he doesn't say that, because he's never, in the years and years and years we've seen this season, let himself want or be seen wanting. "Going off together" is as close as he can get to speaking it. "A group of the two of us" is as close as he can get. So he has to watch as Aziraphale leaves and takes his pleasure in the world with him.
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part 2 of Zoro in WCI
01 02
I tried to write something to sum up my thoughts on this, but then it got longer and longer and tbh I'm itching to write a fic set in this AU djjdkf I think I could develop on their inner feelings more than in the comic form
Before posting the first part I didn't realize people had such strong opinions on how this would play out lmaooo
imo, of course Zoro wants to fight Sanji, not with actual intent to harm (they threaten each other on the daily, come on), but because that's how they are together, how they communicate. He respects Luffy's decisions and their goal here, which is to learn what's really going on with Sanji, but he's gonna be pissy about it all he wants. They both have so many intense and conflicted feelings about this and neither has any idea how to resolve them. So they fight.
ofc yall are free to headcanon this interaction any other way you want <333
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