#heart reacts only

[haunted-xander]

Do you ever think about how Alisaie's biggest fear is losing the people she cares about? How the very first conversation you have with her alone, a deeply personal one, is about her confiding in you about those fears? Telling you that she hated the state of the world Louisoix died for because, to her, it wasn't worth the sacrifice? She tells you about all the allies she made and lost, who she watched die and could do nothing to save them.

Do you ever think about how Alisaie was consistently one of the first to act, to recklessly throw herself at danger throughout stb? She didn't care (as much) about herself getting hurt, but she'd be damned if she let her friends suffer without doing anything. She has to be fast and proactive, because if she can't protect them even when striking first, how would she be able to when acting after the fact?

Do you ever think about how every time her loved ones are in peril/are in risk of being in peril her heart just breaks? How whenever someone's safety is unsure she panics and immediately tries to contact them/rush to their aid? When Castrum Abania's cannon shot the tower that, for all she knew, Alphinaud was still in, she immediately stops what she's doing and runs to it in panic because her brother was in there and he might be dead.

Do you ever think about how when the Scions start getting their souls yanked to the First, Alisaie reacts the strongest? How, when Urianger and Y'shtola got taken, she fell to her knees shaking Uriangers body, screaming for him to wake up? And when Gaius appears with Alphinaud in the Burn, she immediately goes to fight him (before being stopped by Hien) because this man, who has been her enemy, is holding her brother's lifeless body. She doesn't care that she can't possibily beat him, he has her brother and she's already lost so much in such a short amount of time. She's lost Thancred, Y'shtola and Urianger already, she can't lose Alphinaud too.

Do you ever think about how you are the only one she can fully rely on at that time, but who is also at risk of being taken away? Of how she's so desperate for you to stay, to not be taken away, that Alisaie, who, for all her bluntness, prefers to rely on herself first and foremost, begs you not to leave her? She begs you. Alisaie does not beg. She yells at you to not do something, and she'll scold you to hell and back if you do it anyway, but she does not beg. But this time she did.

And then she ends up being taken away right in front of you. She cries out for help and uses her very last energy to reach out for you. And then she falls limp.

Do you ever think about how, when Alphinaud turns to tell her his plans at the end of Ultima Thule, she immediately rejects it without even letting him say it? She's lost so much and experienced so much grief, not only overall but also just in Ultima Thule. And she loathes to bring that grief onto another. Especially to one who has already lost so much, like you. She hates it. She ends up doing it, yes, but she hates it still.

DO YOU EVER THINK ABOUT-

#AND THIS ISNT EVEN TOUCHING ON COILS OR GA BU OR LITERALLY ALL OF SHB OR LIKE 90% OF EW EITHER #SHE GOES THROUGH SO SO MUCH AND SHE LOSES SO MANY PEOPLE. HER LITERAL GREATEST FEAR IS REPEATEDLY SHOVED IN HER FACE SO MANY TIMES #I THINK ABOUT HER AN UNHEALTHY AMOUNT. I THINK ABOUT EVERYTHING SHES BEEN THROUGH ALL THE TIME #THE END OF POST-STB BROKE ME OKAY. HAVING TO NOT ONLY WATCH ALL THE SCIONS GET TAKEN AWAY #BUT ALSO HOW ALISAIE REACTS TO AND GETS INCREASINGLY MORE DESPERATE WITH EACH ONE #JUST. JUST BREAKS MY HEART #I LOVE HER SO SO MUCH OKAY I WANT HER TO AHVE ALL THE HAPINESS IN THE WORLD #ALISAIE :'(((((((((( #alisaie leveilleur #final fantasy #final fantasy 14 #final fantasy xiv #ff14 #ffxiv #xander rambles

[maomango-doodle]

(13 pages) Forlorn

#trigun #trigun stampede #millions knives #on an episode of “how much can i woobify knives :D” #his character is interesting to explore. so much loneliness mixed with strong emotions repressed behind a cold facade #i wondered how he would react to the realization that he misses vash #if he brings his plans to fruition then they'll be reunited -- that's what he tells himself #maybe to keep the loneliness at bay but sometimes it catches up to him #i thought maybe this cold and perfect facade knives parades would shatter and the “ugly” emotions hidden behind would spill out #which would be smth out of his control. and knives hates it. or deep down is terrified of it #smth smth knives seeing vash in his reflection on a stolen red plant #and oh #oh he's PISSED #he let a part of himself break. he showed weakness. and over what? over vash?? but hes doing everything for HIM #he thinks -- so it's vash's fault he's losing his composure right? #it's vash's fault he's distracted from what could reunite them. his fault knives is doing all of this. feeling all of this #using vash as a scape goat for his own emotional turmoil #and that piano be damned. it's a monolith of his loneliness #if only it could all disappear-- the piano-- the cold-- the memories-- the weight on his heart-- the FEAR #there's smth about his rage being rooted in fear that intrigues me #fear of remaining alone-- fear of the hurricane of his own emotions-- fear of time passing and loss of control #then his hood falls off and he's left vulnerable and exposed #also i like the idea of knives looking pretty when he's composed but when he shows strong emotions he turns ugly and wrinkly #comic #i forgot it was in my drafts lol also not kv btw ^^ #Thank you for reading! :3 #shinxo art #shinxo comic

[rui-drawsbox]

Hello yes im a malleyuu angst enjoyer :)

sometimes you just don't want to have a partner that will outlive you for more than a few centuries

#rui draw smth #in my mind is 🌸🦁>🌸🐲 only bc malmal is gonna be a king (and is a fae) #ironically the thing that makes leona 'inferior' is the thing that makes him more dateable than malleus here lmao #im taking about my oc here i love malmal with all my heart #twisted wonderland #twst #twst oc #twst silver #twst malleus #malleus draconia #you see how he took lilia's notices. i don't even want to see how he would react to his human partner jxjskxns

[dayurno]

what gets me re: kevin with jean is that kevin is seriously the worst. like we see in-text specifically that kevin used to lean into jean’s space to whisper to him and it seems it was common enough to him that he didn’t think much of it (he did it once for asking jean to teach him french then again to make jean promise not to off himself), he said horrible things like ‘it could be our secret’ and ‘i don’t want to lose you’, he wrote jean memories and notes in postcards, he bought jean silly little magnets, even up to the point of tsc canon he was cradling jean’s face and gently touching his hand. so flirty! no wonder jean was down so horribly. no wonder nora sakavic said kevin was always the problem child

#hhey stop kevin stop stop giving me a reason to live if you dont like me back im serious #i know it wasnt on purpose and that only makes it worse to me like he wasnt trying at all #he wasnt actively making an effort to get jean to fall for him. that’s sick and twisted #hes so earnest 😭 ‘you’re worth it’ ‘every night’ ‘i don’t want to lose you’ LOOKING ASS #kevin’s girlish and vulnerable heart mon dieu #its sick its seriously sick #jean didnt stand a chance. literal hydrogen bomb vs coughing baby ship dynamic #unstoppable force vs VERY moveable object #cat and bird locked in a cage together ship dynamic #could any of us truly say that we would react better or more wisely if kevin day treated us like his highschool girlfriend #txt #kevjean

[daylighteclipsed]

killing mnyseld

#oh the forbidden expressions !!!! I’m gonna puke !!!! #‘riku I’m scared ! what if a shooting star hits the islands?’ #’if a shooting star comes this way I’ll knock it right back into outer space ! I’ll protect you i promise’ !!!! #kingdom hearts #soriku #sora’s expression oh my go d oh my god #weakly raising his hand a silent plea that is so loud #he has to be so fu cked up from this #this specifically but also watching all of his friends die in less than five minutes #all the people he was supposed to protect. everybody was counting on him to be their hero #and he couldn’t stop any of them from being killed. rapidly. right in front of him #he barely had time to react like oh. my god what a horrible horrible horrible feeling #andd then the last friend left - riku - dies for him. and sora can only sit there paralyzed #ohhhhh. oh. god. i know this fucked him up good

[night-creeps]

I still think I was onto something when I said that Kim's fixation on the revolutionary air brigades felt kind of like a kid with glasses really wanting to be a firefighter and then learning that you can't be a firefighter if you don't have natural 20/20 visiom because the heat would melt plastic or cause burns from metal frames and contacts weren't a safe choice either. It feels a lot like that. He wanted to work on those aerostatics but couldn't because of his eyesight

#disco elysium #de #kim kitsuragi #also brought to you by the fact that someone from my province is gonna be on the international spacestation #and i got curious #so i looked and was like 'lots of schooling but I could justify it-' #and then seeing that not only do you have to pass physicals you had to have within a certain blood pressure and heart rate range #i still think I could handle the gforces #and i thought about kim feeling the same way #and thats why he drives so fast #he wantd to be in the air brigades but either directly being tolda that there was a 'safety risk' for pilots to have any eye issues #at such high speeds you need to constantly be ready to react and glasses impede that somehow #so he enjoys showing off proof of his driving abilitg

[sanyu-thewitch05]

Me watching the LGBT community who almost never rarely gives black women and girls, asexuals, or aromantics genuine respect, pretend we’re all friends and have always treated us right the minute it’s June 1st and want to use black women(mainly darkskinned) and girls as their little poster girl:

#asexual #aromantic #It’s always coming from the non black people(including other racial minorities) too #and the stuff coming out of the lgbt community towards black women and girls has gotten real nasty #i have seen numerous people(although they’re mainly black) say that black people are inherently queer because we’re unnatural and strange #in the eyes of white supremacy and white people #like are you ok in the head??? why do you want to say that black people are inherently strange and we defy every social standard #as of our existence is a social statement #I personally think the worst thing I’ve personally heard(from yet another black person) #was that black women and girls would get seen as men or trans women because our hair is nappy #what does our natural hair have to do with getting seen as men or trans women?? #and the white lgbt people just applauded them and hearted their tweet #it annoys me how for some weird reason political and social movements will mainly use black women especially darker black women as rep #and It’s almost always by a non black person #like why don’t you use a girl or woman from your own race in your political and social justice artwork #oh wait that’s right #because in general the lgbt community views black women and girls as magical negras who will be their ride or die sista soulja #who will mule and fight for them no matter how badly they outright insult us or sneakily talk badly about us #pride month is basically another black history month when it comes to how everyone reacts to it #every reaction to it is superficial and they’re only celebrating us because they feel like they had to or wanted social points #had it been any other month they would’ve been focusing on the group that they belong to

[found--family]

am i the only one who sensed some jilted lover vibes from jensen? 

#burcon #cockles #thoughts #at the start of the panel and through a few particular interactions he seemed very standoffish #he was giving a little bitter and hurt and perhaps even resentful - maybe he only learned of misha's gf #at this con too! maybe it was news to him. on top of not seeing misha for months i can understand #if he was feeling a bit neglected and out of the loop. there's also the matter of misha's gf not being #in a poly thing with jensen and dee like vicki was ie. what she has with misha is seperate so i'm sure #that's another difficult thing to deal with knowing their time together is strictly separate #i've no doubt he wants misha to have a partner and be happy but there's an adjustment period #letting new people into your life and whoever misha's partner is now or in the future is going to #affect jensen on a personal level and moreover his relationship with misha. it's all very intriguing #and while i like what little i've seen and heard about this woman for misha i just think no matter who #she is it's going to take a toll on jensen's relationship w misha. i thought it was plain to see on jensen's face #during their panel: numerous moments where he was giving a poker face that wasn't covering a laugh #but instead like he was trying to smooth out his bitterness. or so my eyes and brain and heart tell me. #just various moments where things looked uncomfortable and jensen making off-colour jokes that didn't land #and which furthermore were barbed and snarky - not in their usual banter way but like he was lashing out #and using the excuse of chaotic panel convo to explain away his comedic pitfalls. but again maybe i'm #looking to much into it? idk. there are some lovely moments! fun and caring moments - but they #mainly came from misha's direction ngl. it seemed like misha was trying hard to keep the peace #while jensen was just running his mouth on comments and jokes that kept not landing - for me #everyone on my dash is loving their dynamic this panel - and i want to feel that love! it is possible that #learning misha has a gf has skewed my perception a little like i'm putting context onto moments #i otherwise wouldn't. but i also think i would've laughed and generally felt better watching their panel #if that was the case. idk. whatever the reason i do think something was OFF between them on stage #and it was coming from jensen from the start. misha picked up on it partway though but things felt #a little strained throughout. like jensen wasn't looking at misha as much as usual or reaching out for him #misha tried to salvage and not react to things. but both their answers to the last Q were passive aggressive af #and when they left the stage together they weren't close or touching or chatting like they usually are...

[ardentpoop]

you guys really don’t get him tbfh

#I would’ve felt bad drowning this one bc op’s heart is in the right place lol #but dean stans Please stop flattening him as a character. he’s so much more interesting when you accept that he sucks #and it’s always ppl who paid no attention to sam who react to jack as if his arc was brand new to the show #as if the way dean abused jack wasn’t a 1:1 reflection of how he treated sam in s4-s5 #dean doesn’t make ppl feel safe lmfao that isn’t his priority. his priority is keeping them (sam) alive by any means necessary #including means that violate mental and physical boundaries #and dean is only Good With Kids until they’re old enough to start doing things he disagrees with #sam is the one who connects with the troubled teens and the kids who hate their families #dean connects with kids who are young enough to hero-worship him #this sounds super harsh but. you can even take his relationship with ben alone as an example #spn

[the-beatnik-bard]

Tav with the Sussur Tattoo

I imagine my Tav, Husk, has this beautiful floral tattoo that starts from the nape of her neck, follows the shoulder blades, and works its way down her arms, ending at her hands. While I haven't worked out all the details yet, I'm certain that the Sussur flower is on the back of her hands. As a monk, her body is her weapon, and the flower's anti-magic properties make it a good representation of the mage slayer* feat I had her take. My silly thoughts on the matter: Once Husk realized there would be a wizard in her midst, she'd be more contentious about having it openly displayed. It felt wrong, and she would rather not have to deceive anyone, but there is strength in numbers, and she'd rather not enhance the feelings of uncertainty and stress in the moments of the unknown. I can imagine the reveal happening when Gale tells her about his need to consume magic items. When he says something about it being a good choice to trust her and how thankful he is, the 'secret' would feel pretty heavy on her conscience. She'd have her own "Hold that thought." moment as she comes clean and hopes he doesn't hate her entirely. Mistrust, absolutely she'd expect nothing less, but she'd secretly hope that he would still keep an open mind about it given how she wasn't pushing the topic of why he needed the items. It would also be about this time that she acknowledges that she quite enjoys this wizard man's company and figured it would only be harder to tell him as time passed. Husk would definitely be leaning into the "Just rip the band-aid off now and get it over with" mentality. Husk would feel 100 times lighter having said this out loud, and her hands would thank her for not having them in a set of gloves at all waking times. *Mage Slayer was taken for backstory purposes, but by the gods, it's a great feat! I would have slept on it if it weren't so relevant, and I recommend trying it out at least once in a run through. <3

#Still not 100% sure how Gale would react #No matter what #the rizzard has a magic hold on Husk's heart #The only time a sussur flower would have gotten close to helping out a magic user #Despite the feat #she really does love magic #and grew up with two wizards #Taking care of/aiding Gale is nothing more than the practiced steps of a waltz she's done 100 times. #I'm sorry I just love my Tav and I love this fucking wizard #I just want to smash them together like barbie dolls #Tav #gale dekarios #Wizard of Waterdeep #Gale of Waterdeep #BG3 Tav #rizzard of waterdeep #dwarf tav

[loveinsomesacredplace]

the disregard for Belly’s happiness is something I expect from the other side, but is so disappointing when it’s your own fandom

the fear/expectation that Jere’s character is going to be dismantled and denying that because you know the show has a narrative to push but not saying a word about the potential destruction of Belly’s character to further said narrative and expecting of it of her because she broke Jere’s heart in season 1 - and not considering, oh this is fucking bad writing too

The DISCONNECT

Show Belly, I’ll always love you, and that C endgame is not it for you

#every fucking time!!! #love it when girl characters get judged harsher and reduced into being just a love interest and not a character with her own purpose #LOVE IT #“I don’t trust her because she hurt my precious darling boo boo” #Let’s just stitch a scarlet A on her and call it a day #WHY DO YOU SHIP IF YOU ONLY CARE ABOUT ONE HALF OF THE SHIP THEN #I am tired #say you actually do want to punish her and go #am i over reacting and too emotional invested in a silly summer show? #1000% #I gotta breathe and respect people’s opinions #but oof it is so — i’m an adult i’m an adult i have my own head and heart canon and that is enough #Thank god for fanfic

[lizasweetling]

I didn't know the Winslow had a church- I wonder if they are or were upset that the Corbetites have (had?) it locked up under Saint Szpac?

(or maybe there's more than one? in either case undying creature of little immanent harm- I can see how that could be interpreted as a god, especially on the local scale)

#girl genius #page react #glad Othar didn't actually appear: he only delivered a plot hook #didn't actually pop up on screen #come to think of it- might he have returned with the Geisters to the remains of their world? #His great mission is nominally an experiment about how the world would be without sparks #and since geisters don't seem to have any sparks (unconfirmed) maybe he was persuaded to go examine their home? For Science? #[and maybe in my heart it's also for wifey but that's just me really]

[obfontri]

after yondu’s funeral, kraglin made it a point to borrow a ship and return to the location of the eclector’s wreckage. from there, he retraced their flight path and began picking up the bodies of the loyal crewmen ( the bodies of his friends ) who had been spaced during the mutiny ( the mutiny he’d sparked ). he brought them back to the quadrant and made sure they each got the proper ravager funeral they were owed ( because he knows, better than anyone, what being denied the horns of freedom does to you ). he will always regret not doing enough to save them in this life so he made sure that when his card finally gets punched, he can reunite with them all in the next.

#・ﾟ✩ ➶ use your heart‚ boy. ⸻ study. #anyway im never not emo abt vol 2 krags #the ravager theology is so fascinating to me and im sad they never delved more into #because the way stakar spoke and how krags reacted at the funeral…. it’s more than just a faction of pirates. #they have a belief system. #maybe some only see it as a job but to those loyalists like kraglin and yondu… it’s a genuine religion. #and it’s interesting!!!

[wherela]

they should invent a friend for me who doesn't randomly stop talking to me for no reason

#my best friend. MY. BEST. FRIEND. #has been ignoring me since yesterday #and i just.... honestly i feel like giving up at this point #this is about the 5th time this has happened to me in my life AND I AM SO SICK OF IT #am i doing sth wrong???? #are all the people around me just assholes???? #i know that this won't go on forever and that she will get back to me at some point and explain (hopefully) #but oh gosh i am not okay #like maybe i wouldn't be reacting this way if this wasn't the X time I'm re-living this whole situation #in primary school i had an entire friend group just decide to hate me IN ONE DAY #and then in high school one of my closest friends also just started treating me like she hates me #so then all my friends just followed her lead #then last year a friend (whom i only saw every couple of months) avoided me at our mutual friends wedding #and then didn't invite me to her own wedding a few months later (she too was one of my closest and longest friends) #and then there's S #but then again at least he explained so I know this situation was not really my fault #and now this?????? #i swear i have been fighting tooth and nail to continue to be caring and wear my heart on my sleeve #and BY THE GRACE OF GOD i am still able to be so #but oh gosh oh goodness this is hard #mine #personal

[flashhwing]

i had. oh my god i had a bug where Wyll just. wouldn't do anything. could not make him move or use or interact with objects. tried sending him back to camp but that just removed him from the party but kept him standing there not doing anything. Did not appear in camp. so i. thinking about this in character is insane but fjdkls i killed him and used a scroll of revivify on him and now he's fine he's back with us but what the fuck happened and why did killing him fix it

#like when ur computer freezes so you do a manual restart #fucking. holding down the power button #only in thsi case the computer is your friend and holding down the power button is shoving a sword through his heart #but it's fine. he's fine. we're all fine #nobody even like reacted ajksfl they account for so much in this game but not pvp huh #ash plays bg3 #bg3 #this has been a post