#heather havrilesky

[sicknessinmotion]

IT'S ALL ABOUT THE DIFFERENCE; BETWEEN BEING LONELY & BEING ALONE.

jennifer s. cheng // @camojacketfag // heather havrilesky // @camojacketfag // carol lee // @twinsfawn // jenny slate.

#poetry #quotes #web weaving #webweaving #.w #words #excerpts #on loneliness #jennifer s. cheng #heather havrilesky #carol lee #jenny slate

[slowlikehoney1996]

‘i have no close friends!’ - ask polly

#heather havrilesky #ask polly

[lovely-abeille]

a questionnaire, noor unnahar // haunted womanhood, heather havrilesky // lamb's head on a plate, viggo johansen // citizen illegal, josé olivarez // grief lessons: four plays by euripides; tr., anne carson

#sorry for the hiatus guys #i took a break to let myself breathe for a bit #web weaving #web weave #fragments #parallels #comparatives #poetry compilation #lit #literature #on growing up #noor unnahar #heather havrilesky #viggo johansen #jose olivarez #euripides #anne carson

[fairydrowning]

"Stop cringing – at your future, at your failure, at yourself in the mirror – and stand up and look directly at who you are. Not who you should've been, but who you are now. Let that person in. Let her be as mediocre and wrong and shameful and sad and miserable and brilliant and hilarious as she wants to be, because she knows exactly what you need to feel good. She has plans for you. She wants to show you what comes next. She wants to take you into the future you're dreading and say, "See? You never would've imagined this."

– Heather Havrilesky

#i hope y'all are doing great and if not then remember after every sunset theres always sunrise #also not posting or replying much because my finals are on next week #books and literature #literature quotes #quotations #heather havrilesky #book #excerpts #fragments #romanticism #positivity

[prairienina]

'I'm Sixty And I Wasted My Whole Life!'

#🥴 #heather havrilesky #ask polly

[asoftepiloguemylove]

Heyy, I love ur content and can I request a Web weaving of being alone or loneliness? Thankyou <3

i hope you're doing well <33

Alice Oseman Radio Silence / The Perks of Being a Wallflower (2012) dir. Stephen Chbosky / Gail Honeyman Eleanor Oliphant is Completely Fine / Susan Sontag As Consciousness is Harnessed to Flesh: Journals and Notebooks, 1964-1980 / The Double (2013) dir. Richard Ayoade / Heather Havrilesky Ask Polly: Help, I'm The Loneliest Person In The World! / Taylor Steele Shocker / Amy Dunne

#on loneliness #on growing up #on sadness #web weave #web weaving #poetry compilation #poetry parallels #alice oseman #radio silence #the perks of being a wallflower #stephen chbosky #gail honeyman #eleanor oliphant is completely fine #susan sontag #as consciousness is harnessed to flesh #the double #richard ayoade #heather havrilesky #ask polly #taylor steele #shocker #amy dunne #poem #spilled poetry #spilled thoughts #writing #spilled ink #dark academia #dark academia poetry #dark academia quote

[sinligh]

In the name of healing I bite chunks of myself daily, spit them out in my hand with the intention to wash it away later

Eventually, i end up over analyzing them, like everything else in my life

grafts of all the causes I’m still here, glued together by my mother’s fears

be the Alpha female, she said. “feed on your most beloved, a cup of the moon’s blood every night before bed for you to run alone forever, run wild, never slip”

I Shower myself with self-loathing, lick my own wounds close Keep me sane, keep me safe

loneliness to me is just another insecurity that is dangling from my prefrontal cortex, dangling right in front of my eyes… for me to see the world through it.

I spend hours looking at the bloody chunks in my hand, thinking where did i go wrong ? how much can I hold on to this heartache ?

I've been running around it all my life, running around red lines, red lines circle me, i run in circles around myself I’m all that I’ve ever knew, yet, I only know myself in fading

A distant memory, a deja vu…

All I really know, is that the only stable in my life is the fact that I exist, and that it’s a temporary state.

jamais vu.

will the lines fade if i eat what i bit off of myself again ? if i chew and chew and chew… If i teach myself to stomach it will i be whole again?

is holding on to those pieces enough to satisfy my desire to be held ?

Or does it make me a feral rogue ?

Schizophrenic delusions ticking in my head…

Sometimes I wonder if it’s my fault that I’m this alone…

then again I wasn’t the one feeding myself all the insecurities as a young child.

I wasn’t the one playing pretend.

It was never my fault, my mother thought faking happiness is the way to protect me, it was never my fault father wasn’t interested in the details, as long as I was his perfect girl…

Now, I can’t hold on to anything the way i hold on to the lunatic turmoil that makes me sway and laugh on my own personal misery.

Call it history.

Hide behind defensive humor, get my inner demons drunk on caffeine, mistake that high for happiness cause mama did too…

And wait for caffeine withdrawal to wake us up, both of us…

I’ve never been hangover, but I imagine this is how it’ll feel

The aura ? The migraine?

The urge to throw myself up to be reborn clean.

•••

•Quotes: Olivia Laing/Heather Havrilesky/ Olivia Laing/ Marya Hornbacher/Anaïs Nin/Camille Norton/ Alice Oseman/ eduardo C. Corral/anne carson/ Joanne Harris/ Hannah Green/Hannah Green/Lisel Mueller

•Original context: sinligh

•Art reference:

1. Sasha Hartslief, Late Night Shower, 2021. 2. Getting Up by Vincent Giarrano. 3.illustration by Owen Gent. 4. The Lovers on the Bridge, 1991. 5. "Beverly Edmier 1967' Keith Edmier, 1998

•song recommendation:

P.s: the whole album is a masterpiece ! Give it a try, thank me later.

#sinligh poem #personal writing #quotes #olivia laing #heather havrilesky #marya hornbacher #anaïs nin #camille norton #alice oseman #Eduardo C. Corral #anne carson #joanne harris #hannah green #lisel mueller #web weaving #word weaving #blotched words #compilation #parallels #art parallels #paintings #feminsm #feminine rage #feminist #fuck the patriarchy #dark academia #poetry #louis tomlinson #faith in the future #Spotify

[liefst]

this most recent ask polly is articulating everything i ever aspire to be

#i love her substack!!!!! #ask polly #heather havrilesky #how to live

[texasinnersmile]

a small pastiche about shyness 

Secretary (2002) / Ask Polly: I’m So Shy And It’s Ruining My Life! / Ask by The Smiths / ‘Morning Sun’ by Edward Hopper (1952) / Jason by Perfume Genius 

#secretary 2002 #secretary #the smiths #edward hopper #ask polly #heather havrilesky #perfume genius #quote

[360iris]

#text #life advice #heather havrilesky #ask polly

[cybernarcissus]

#writing #ask polly #heather havrilesky #literature

[daffolou]

holding onto heartache - louis tomlinson

john steinbeck, east of eden / charles bukowski, come on in! / heather havrilesky, ask polly: help, i’m the loneliest person in the world! / adolph green and betty comden, the party’s over / samuel beckett, waiting for godot / alanis morissette, sorry to myself

#holding onto heartache #louis tomlinson #lyric #lyric comparisons #john steinbeck #charles bukowski #heather havrilesky #adolph green #betty comden #samuel beckett #alanis morissette #car.txt #louis #words #web weaving

[slowlikehoney1996]

why do all of my friendships with women end in tears? - ask polly

#heather havrilesky #ask polly

[b0ydyke]

succession // heather havrilesky

#me on trend not including connor #words #succession #heather havrilesky #ask Polly #the cage is open #web weaving #succession web weaving #Kendall Roy #shiv roy #roman Roy #mine

[femaleavoidant]

Shame is the opposite of art. When you live inside of your shame, everything you see is inadequate and embarrassing. A lifetime of traveling and having adventures and not being tethered to long-term commitments looks empty and pathetic and foolish, through the lens of shame. … Shame turns every emotion into the manifestation of some personality flaw, every casual choice into a giant mistake, every small blunder into a moral failure. Shame means that you’re damned and you’ve accomplished nothing and it’s all downhill from here.

You need to discard some of this shame you’re carrying around all the time. But even if you can’t cast off your shame that quickly, through the lens of art, shame becomes valuable. When you’re curious about your shame instead of afraid of it, you can see the true texture of the day and the richness of the moment, with all of its flaws. You can run your hands along your own self-defeating edges until you get a splinter, and you can pull the splinter out and stare at it and consider it. When you face your shame with an open heart, you’re on a path to art, on a path to finding joy and misery and fear and hope in the folds of your day.

Heather Havrilesky (Ask Polly - “I’m Broke and Mostly Friendless, and I’ve Wasted My Whole Life”)

#shame #overcoming shame #avpd #avpd mood #actually avpd #avoidant personality disorder #female avoidant #heather havrilesky

[asoftepiloguemylove]

Hello! If it's not too much trouble, can I request a web for when you feel like everyone around you is getting better and moving on and doing well, but you're making no progress, or even getting worse?

i hope you're doing okay <33

Miranda July It Chooses You / 藍月 Blue Moon (1997) dir. Ko I-Chen / pinterest / Franz Kafka Diaries, 1910-1923 / 青い春 Blue Spring (2002) dir. 豊田利晃 Toshiaki Toyoda / Heather Havrilesky Ask Polly: My Life Is Pathetic!

#trying to add more movie scenes into these #on self #on loneliness #on emotion #on sadness #web weave #web weaving #poetry compilation #poetry parallels #miranda july #it chooses you #blue moon movie #ko ichen #franz kafka #blue spring movie #toshiaki toyoda #heather havrilesky #ask polly #japanese movie #taiwanese movie #words #poem #spilled poetry #spilled thoughts #spilled ink #dark academia #writing #dark academia poetry #poetry #dark academia quote