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Jake walked beside you as you exited the gas station. Your turned to see what he was smiling at, staring down at his phone while texted Ryujin. You laughed a little, looking at the the people passing by. “What are you laughing at?” He asked, playfully shoving your shoulder. You turned back to him with a smile. “Oh nothing, but tell her I said hi.” Jake laughed at your comment, shaking his head as he typed away on his phone.

Your mind settled on the silence, hearing the click of Jake’s phone and hearing him shove it in his pocket. He took in a deep breath, looking up at the sky. You chewed on your bottom lip, deciding it was now or never. “We met when we were kids, I was 7 and he was 8.” Jake hummed, “Heeseung?” To which you nodded. “He was friends with the guy I had a crush on in class and when I wanted to tell my crush I liked him, Heeseung caught me.” The words fell out of your mouth like a waterfall, you weren’t even comprehending how much you were saying.

“Since that day, we used to be inseparable. We ate lunch together, spend breaks together, he would walk me home and we became so close with each other’s family.” Jake listened, he was giving you small nods to let you know he was still listening. “When we were about to enter high school, I realized I was falling for him. He was about to be in high school and I was going to have to spend a year without him. I thought that maybe I was sad because he’s my best friend, but really I was sad because there were older girls he could look at.”

You scoffed, shaking your head at the memories. “So what happened then?” He asked, brining you back to reality. Taking in a deep breath, you smiled softly. “When I got to high school, he had changed so much. He was so much more mature in school, he seemed older than he was and he was so popular amongst everyone.” As you approached your dorms, you walked to a bench near the hall you stayed in and Jake sat beside you.

“He didn’t stay in contact while you were a year behind him?” He asked. You nodded, “He would brush me off a lot, as painful as it was, I held onto hope.” Jake sighed, disappointed in the actions of Heeseung in his youth. “I kept trying to keep the contact, I would sit near him at lunch and only get a side glance. I would walk by him on our way home, I stayed after school and watched him practice. I did everything I could to try to stay in his life, but to him I was just a joke.”

Your heart was clenching, feeling the pain as if it happened just yesterday. Jake seems to notice your sadness, gently placing his hand on your shoulder. “I’m so sorry y/n, I wish I could’ve been there to knock some sense into him.” You felt tears starting to form in your eyes, staring down at your hands. “Eventually, I gave up. I made my own friends, found myself and began to move on. I thought it was going to be okay, he had his own friends and I met Yeji and Jungwon. They introduced me to Karina and Ryujin.”

Through glassy eyes, you turned to Jake with a soft smile. The memories of your friends brought a warmth to your aching heart. “They made all the pain go away, they healed my heart and brought back my smile. Loosing Heeseung was the hardest thing I had to do, not only did I love him, but he was my best friend.” Jake was sympathetic for you, he could feel your pain and see just how much of a hold Heeseung held on you. “We don’t have to continue y/n, I don’t want you to have to talk about all of this.” He said in a soft whisper, yet you continued on.

“It was my sophomore year, I watched as he played around with other girls in my year. I felt bad for them, they didn’t know he would lead them on before discarding of them. He ran through girls like the hoops he would shoot at his games. He was eye candy and he knew it, he used that.” You clenched your fists, feeling tears fall down your cheeks. “He used that on me, trying to sway me to fall for his charms, but I had moved on. I didn’t let him have the hold over me since he dropped me, but that wasn’t good enough for him.”

“He told all his friends about how I was so in love with him, he told them that he could have his way with me if he wanted and I would give into him because I was weak. He played it off as if I was obsessed with him and the rumor spread around the entire school. I was humiliated, people would whisper about me and point whenever I was in the hallway near him. He brought me down because I wasn’t falling for him anymore.” Your voice cracked just a little at the end.

The pain in your tone struck Jake, he felt so bad for the way you were treated and began to question his friendship with Heeseung. “He tried to apologize, like it was nothing. He didn’t see how bad it hurt me, he didn’t see the damage he had done.” “But I did.” A voice behind the bench had spoke out. Jake turned, his face showing how very obvious he was angry. Your heart shattered at the sound of Heeseung, you couldn’t turn to see him even though you wanted to so bad. “I did see how I messed up y/n, I’m so sorry and I wanted to fix it-“

“You don’t get to speak to her, asshole.” Jake stood up, staring directly at his friend. “She is the best thing that ever happened to you and you treated her like shit? Do you know how many guys she probably could’ve had yet she wanted you?” Heeseung was now fuming, walking towards the two of you. “Oh yea? Like who Jake, you? If you weren’t wrapped around her best friend, I’m sure you would’ve made a move.” His words were cutting through you, each one hurting more than the last. You stood up, angry at how he sees you, but sad at how he lets his emotions get the best of him.

“Tell her.”

You looked to Jake, confusion written all over your face. Blinking away your tears, you saw Heeseung stop in his tracks and turn white. “Tell me what?” You asked, hoping one of them would grab the question. Heeseung wouldn’t meet your eyes, his were stuck on Jake’s clenched jaw. “Go ahead, hyung. Tell her, unless you want her to hear it from me. Maybe Jungwon?” The boy in front of you was holding back, his knuckles turning white with how tightly he held his hands.

“Heeseung, tell me what?” Your voice desperate for an answer. You had hope it was nothing, hope that it would be something stupid and you guys could all laugh it off, but the tension told you otherwise. “Y/n, listen, it’s so stupid. You don’t have to kno-“

“A bet.” Jake said, making Heeseung’s stomach drop. His words bounced around in your mind, telling you this was going to end badly. “A bet? What bet? What’s he talking about hee?” You asked, tears streaming down your cheeks. It hurt him to watch you cry, knowing he was going to break your heart all over again. “Please y/n, I can’t loose you again.” He said, voice sounding strained. You stepped back with every step he took toward you. Jake stepping forward to keep him away, “Y/n, it was something stupid with Jay okay? He bet that I would fall in love with you at the end of the semester and-and I bet I wouldn’t.”

Silence, the whole world had went silent. Your eyes fell to the ground as your mind tried to comprehend what he was saying. Was he serious? Did he seriously bet his feelings on you, against you? You didn’t think you could ever feel pain like you were feeling now, yet it felt worse than before. “Y/n, listen to me. That’s not me though, I’ve changed. I don’t think I would’ve w-“

“I think you should go.” Jake spoke up, staring at Heeseung’s desperate face. He had tears falling down his cheeks and Jake couldn’t watch him crumble from his own mistakes. He didn’t deserve the pity. You were hearing white noise as you felt sick to your stomach. You had let him in, you let him come close to your fragile heart only for him to bet on it and break it. Your thoughts were broken when you felt Jake’s arms wrap around you. “C’mon, let’s get you inside.” He said in a whisper. You were thankful Jake was there, not sure how you would’ve taken it or have known if he didn’t walk you home.

You held your somewhat together, silently sobbing as Jake walked you to your dorm. Heeseung watched you walk away, feeling his heart long for you. He knew he had lost you for good, he knew you were gone forever and he only had himself to blame. When your door opened, you heard the soft gasps of your friends. Yeji was asking Jake what happened as he gave a sympathetic look. Ryujin was pulling you in and Karina was comforting you with soft rubs on your back. As Jake bid his goodbye to the girls and yourself, you lifted your head.

They all looked at you, watching you fall to the ground. Sobbing as loud as you needed to, you let the pain wash over you. You were thankful for them, thankful they put on your favorite movie and brought out your favorite snacks. They let you cry in their arms, thankful you came back to them. There wasn’t anything they could say to take away your pain, so they let you feel all you needed to feel and do their best to ease your sorrows. They knew you’d have to heal again and they were by your side for the ride.

Start the year off with a bang, they said. It’ll be fun, they said. When y/n decided to sign up for a partner dance for her end of the year competition with her dance team, little did she know she’d be paired up with the one person she couldn’t stand most..Lee Heeseung.

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