#help I'm being called out

[sunwisecircle]

Me, a worshipper of Dionysos, struggling with the desire to get top surgery and go on T: *draws Death, Reversed*

#dyllan speaks #help i'm being called out

[inkskinned]

the thing is there's like, a point of oversaturation for everything, and it's why so many things get dropped after a few minutes. and we act like millennials or gen z kids "have short attention spans" but... that's not quite it. it's more like - we did like it. you just ruined it.

capitalism sees product A having moderate success, and then everything has to come out with their "own version" of product A (which is often exactly the same). and they dump extreme amounts of money and environmental waste into each horrible simulacrum they trot out each season.

now it's not just tiktokkers making videos; it's that instagram and even fucking tumblr both think you want live feeds and video-first programming. and it helps them, because videos are easier to sneak native ads into. the books coming out all have to have 78 buzzwords in them for SEO, or otherwise they don't get published. they are making a live-action remake of moana. i haven't googled it, but there's probably another marvel or starwars something coming out, no matter when you're reading this post.

and we are like "hi, this clone of project A completely misses the point of the original. it is soulless and colorless and miserable." and the company nods and says "yes totally. here is a different clone, but special." and we look at clone 2 and we say "nope, this one is still flat and bad, y'all" and they're like "no, totally, we hear you," and then they make another clone but this time it's, like, a joyless prequel. and by the time they've successfully rolled out "clone 89", the market is incredibly oversaturated, and the consumer is blamed because the company isn't turning a profit.

and like - take even something digital like the tumblr "live streaming" function i just mentioned. that has to take up server space and some amount of carbon footprint; just so this brokenass blue hellsite can roll out a feature that literally none of its userbase actually wants. the thing that's the kicker here: even something that doesn't have a physical production plant still impacts the environment.

and it all just feels like it's rolling out of control because like, you watch companies pour hundreds of thousands of dollars into a remake of a remake of something nobody wants anymore and you're like, not able to afford eggs anymore. and you tell the company that really what you want is a good story about survival and they say "okay so you mean a YA white protagonist has some kind of 'spicy' love triangle" and you're like - hey man i think you're misunderstanding the point of storytelling but they've already printed 76 versions of "city of blood and magic" and "queen of diamond rule" and spent literally millions of dollars on the movie "Candy Crush Killer: Coming to Eat You".

it's like being stuck in a room with a clown that keeps telling the same joke over and over but it's worse every time. and that would be fine but he keeps fucking charging you 6.99. and you keep being like "no, i know it made me laugh the first time, but that's because it was different and new" and the clown is just aggressively sitting there saying "well! plenty of people like my jokes! the reason you're bored of this is because maybe there's something wrong with you!"

#this was much longer i had to cut it down for legibility #but i do want to say i am aware this post doesnt touch on human rights violations as a result of fast fashion #that is because it deserves its own post with a completely different tone #i am an environmental educator #so that's what i know the most about. it wouldn't be appropriate of me to mention off-hand the real and legitimate suffering #that people are going through #without doing my research and providing real ways to help #this is a vent post about a thing i'm watching happen; not a call to action. it would be INCREDIBLY demeaning #to all those affected by the fast fashion industry to pretend that a post like this could speak to their suffering #unfortunately one of the horrible things about latestage capitalism as an activist is that SO many things are linked to this #and i WANT to talk about all of them but it would be a book in its own right. in fact there ARE books about each level of this #and i encourage you to seek them out and read them!!! i am not an expert on that i am just a person on tumblr doing my favorite activity #(complaining) #and it's like - this is the individual versus the industry problem again right because im blaming myself #for being an expert on environmental disaster (which is fucking important) but not knowing EVERYTHING about fast fashion #i'm blaming myself for not covering the many layers of this incredibly complicated problem im pointing out #rather than being like. yeah so actually the fault here lies with the billion dollar industries actually. #my failure to be able to condense an incredibly immense problem that is BOOK-LENGTH into a single text post that i post for free #is not in ANY fucking way the same amount of harm as. you know. the ACTUAL COMPANIES doing this ACTUAL THING for ACTUAL MONEY. #anyway im gonna go donate money while i'm thinking about it. maybe you can too. we can both just agree - well i fuckin tried didn't i #which is more than their CEOs can say

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Happy Valentine's Day! (and this blog's first post anniversary!)

#poorly drawn mdzs #better drawn mdzs #mdzs #wei wuxian #lan wangji #Woah...it's been a whole *year* since I took the leap and uploaded my 'first attempt' art. #It's outdated now but it holds a special place in my heart for the fact it started all of this off. #Calling this 'poorly-drawn' was always about accepting that my art was going to be imperfect and messy - and doing it anyways! #There has been a staggering number of times I have drawn something I almost didn't upload because I didn't think it was 'good enough' #only for someone to say they liked it - or that it made them laugh. And it has helped me realize - #-The worst critic for my work has always been myself. If I listened to it all the time...well we would not be here now B'*) #And now that I have dabbled in other fandoms I can truly see how lucky was to start out with the MXTX fans. #The supportive messages and tags have truly been a guiding force toward my artistic and self improvement. #I really can't describe how grateful I am. #Thank you for seeing something worth rooting for when I was just figuring things out. #Thank you for being sweeter than the candy I have strategically hidden in the nooks and crannies of this house. #But watch out! If you forget to find them we will get ants. #I remembered to not hide chocolate in the bed this year. Yes I know it melted last time. Yes it did stain. I'm still sorry. #Thank you for loving me regardless <3 Even if it looked like I shit the bed real bad.

[puppetmaster13u]

Prompt 115

“Seriously old man?” the rumbling voice nearly caused Tim to jump, his eyes darting away from where Ras was sitting, the Al Ghul almost seeming to perk. It was kind of hard to miss the man… teen… being? It was kind of hard to miss the owner of the voice what with how their hair looked like it was on fire. 

They motioned around at well, everything, crimson eyes looking exasperated. “Really?” They were definitely motioning towards him, interrupting Ras when he opened his mouth to talk. “No, I don’t want to hear it, I swear- Did he kidnap you?” That was definitely aimed at him. 

“N-no?” Tim was feeling slightly unbalanced and may be on hour sixty without sleep at this point, if the hour long nap was counted. “I need help finding my not-dad who's lost in time.” 

The being let out a strangled noise that Tim could nearly swear was almost another one, but couldn’t vocalize his slurred thoughts as the dude muttered something, motioning around as though he was tempted to strangle something or someone. 

Ras cleared his throat, looking almost awkward which was how Tim knew he had to be dreaming or drugged. Probably drugged. “Jordan, how good to see you, it’s been so long-”

“Can it Pops,” the being-named-Jordan scoffed, finger pointing towards the Demon’s Head. “Moms still pissed and isn’t coming back any time soon with you still pulling this shit.” 

Tim felt his brain stall, process for a moment, then process some more over what he just heard before his mouth ran before it could catch up. “Ras is married???” 

#dcxdp #dpxdc #league of assassins #Are Danny and Ras married? Who knows #They did raise their kids together #Well technically Dan & Ellie got de-aged but still #They met during time shenanigans for Danny #Trained together for a bit and became a tiny bit of rivals #Ras missing his platonic or romantic partner: If I adopt-steal these teens/children I can pspspspsps them back #Jordan looking down at Talia: Hello demon child #Talia: Brother Damian isn't talking to me anymore and I don't know what to do T-T #Ellie: Would he like more siblings?? That made us feel better??? #Talia: Of course I can make clones to send to him he shall surely call me back then! #Dusan: Sister I don't think that is what they were saying- #Talia: I have things to do out of my way Ghost! #Tim is so tired and has no clue what's going on #Jordan: Whelp I'm going to help you out because I'm always one to take Mom's side against pops #Tim: What #Jordan: Let's go bother the primordial being of Time he happens to find us amusing anyway #Tim: W h a t #deadly decisions

[abovetherainandroses]

“A lot of it is trying to impress each other,” Wentz admits. “I'll write something and think, ‘Oh, wait ‘til he sees this.’ Or I'll get a call at 1 o’clock in the morning and it's Patrick playing a riff into the phone while I'm half asleep.” -- Alternative Press #193 (August 2004)

#pete wentz #patrick stump #fall out boy #peterick #interview #help i read this weeks ago and i'm still thinking about it #just them being so excited to share what they've done and to create together #patrick calling pete in the middle of the night because he literally can't wait to share what he just wrote?? HELP #storm talks #guess i'll tag that

[foap-enjoyer]

MWII Rodolfo refusing to help during the tank fight: I was far too scared to hit him... MWIII Rodolfo, mauling Graves at first sight: BUT I WOULD HIT HIM IN A HEART BEAT NOWWW

#Sam fender - Seventeen going under #Slight dig at how Rudy refuses to help you during the tank fight #Fuck you Rudy (I love you) you made me die so many times (It doesn't matter) #RUDY SHOULD'VE BEEN IN MWIII (I haven't played it but I haven't seen anything about him being in it yet so I'm assuming its a hard no. #Him mauling Graves after finding out he's alive fr #modern warfare 2 #incorrect quotes #cod incorrect quotes #incorrect cod quotes #call of duty #modern warfare ii #rudy cod #rudy parra #rodolfo cod #rodolfo parra #alejandro x rudy #alerudy #alejandro x rodolfo #mw2 #cod

[fadedrainbowbookshelves]

Frank Frankly: Resident Bug Relocator.

#welcome home #welcome home fanart #gif #frank frankly #eddie dear #eddie x frank #frank x eddie #howdy pillar #wally darling #there's no sound it's just a little collection of a story really #Frank being called out to every residence with an extra friend no one wants #Eddie gets skeeved out by some of these critters good thing he's married the right person to help #Frank is both loving and judging #Bow didn't you already draw something about this canon piece of lore you say #Yes I did but I'm not tired of it yet take a second helping #Everybody's getting seconds at dinner tonight #Also I want an adorable little ladybug with heart spots #Unaffiliated with the incredible Welcome Home creation I'm just a fan having fun!

[earlgodwin]

"Prince to you, not a brother."

#i'm going insaneeeee #cesare at first corrected alfonso when he called him 'brother' by clapping back with 'brother-in-law' #but when alfonso revealed that he's aware that cesare killed his //real// brother juan... he suddenly went all 'brother!!' at alfonso lol #the deliberate use of brother to manipulate him hoping to dissuade him from exposing the truth about juan's death. the strategy though!! #it's so funny help the borgia is truly a sitcom #that being said. i never liked how they juxtaposed juan with alfonso because alfonso lacked juan's charm wit and charisma #at least juan and cesare had great chemisty and dynamic thanks to david and francois! #like if anything...they both loved lucrezia in different ways and met their ends at the hands of cesare #alfonso loved lucrezia purely innocently and genuinely cared for her but he was too weak to be involved in the family's business #juan loved lu in his own twisted ways as he deeply loved her yet acted out of jealousy and pettiness she ended up hating him #juan borgia #cesare borgia #alfonso of aragon #the borgias #theborgiasedit #perioddramaedit #francois arnaud #periodedits #tvedit #by jen

[anxietywasright]

somtimes you think you want to disappear but all you really want is to be found

#sadgirl #i'm sad #im sad and tired #im screaming inside my head #sad boy #sad but true #sad thoughts #sewerslidal #depressing shit #sorry for being depressing #this is a call for help #ignore this #my thoughts #drown in my mind #help my sanity #im gonna go cry now #its to late #& ㅤ * ㅤ maybe i’m not ; all that you thought ㅤ ╰ ㅤ ☀ ㅤ out. #but maybe #i should kms #i should stop #my dms are always open #dms open #sighs loudly #i love yall #lo siento #losing control #its too hard #im sorry #i wanna die

[nguyenfinity]

She’d stay with them while visiting I think

Bonus:

#enstars #mamagi #rinne amagi #niki shiina #rinniki #i think despite him being raised to be served she'd have taught him how to at least do basic things #basic cleaning and cooking #even if he's technically serving as chief he's not living in the village as one so like. go pick up the broom son #number 1 niki defender is rinne #number 2 is rinne's mother #also she's the type of lady to call you 'hon' and 'dear' and 'sweetheart' and stuff like that #i don't know if i'm writing her right but i really would like to think she's a kind lady. #if she's like everyone else at the amagi village i'm gonna be so sad. #also i love how every time i'm like 'this is gonna be my last drawing for a while' i come right back because i am an impulsive fool #also i think rinne d o e s help out around the house it's just that niki's significantly faster and more efficient when no one's in his way- #-in the kitchen--

[bonefall]

wait, why can’t a decent amount of the members in proto-thunderclan not hunt?

A lot of them have serious physical disabilities! It's enough that it poses a logistical problem, which they are committed to overcoming together.

Thunder Storm's three legs makes him slower than his companions. He's ferociously powerful, but like a male lion, he has to rely on his "lionesses" to slow a large animal.

Bright Storm has asthma from her heroics trying to save SkyClan cats from a fire. She's taking that from Gray Wing, who is famously the first major death now. Like her son, she has a difficult time with chasing prey.

Bumble is dyspraxic. She's a terrible hunter and fighter and struggles with self-worth because OTHERS used it to dehumanize her, and continues to, even after an entire society forms out of love of her.

Sunlit Frost has permanent nerve damage in his arm from the fire, and ends up working so hard that it makes his disability worse. A bite on the good paw from Snake becomes infected after he refuses to sit out from digging graves after the First Battle; I am planning a chunky B-plot about Sunlit coming to terms with the fact he has to retire early.

That's FOUR major members of a small group with physical disabilities that make hunting hard or impossible. They have a lot of logistical problems that I will actually be exploring solutions to.

#One of the solutions will probably be a hog hunt which I'm excited for #As there's a bunch of things each person can do to help with that #It's really such a shame that canon is so hyperfixated on disabled cats feeling like they 'need to be useful' in a very well established-- #Society where they CAN just be comfortably cared for #It frustrates me that the series keeps portraying that as a Good Thing and not either a tragedy of self-worth OR an exploration of-- #SOCIAL ableism. #So for BB!DOTC I'm going to try and take aim at both #Ok then; let's TALK about a small underdog group who needs its members to contribute #And let's talk about how even THIS little group INNATELY values its members. How that is good and natural #And how there's NO excuse for the bigger group to be so cruel. It's not neccesity. It never was. It was spite. #Thunder Storm says 'The point of having a group at all is to care for each other. NOT to have it serve you.' #Man really comes out here like FROM EACH ACCORDING TO HIS ABILITY. TO EACH ACCORDING TO HIS NEED #And I am trying to think of how to stress how MUCH food SkyClan has. Like how I'll show that... #I'll definitely need to make sure to set up a lot during the time Thunder Storm is Clear Sky's acolyte. #Btw does that sound like a good word? Trying to figure out what Tribe cats call their apprentices #Because fuuuuck no I'm not calling them To-bes

[crehador]

the huge cast in dead mount death play occasionally makes for such hilarious moments, like there are so many different teams and factions that when two people fight for the first time they often have no idea why they're fighting or have the completely wrong idea of why they're fighting

and they'll say seemingly clever things like "so you can turn parts of your body into a bat... ah, i know... you must be solitaire's apprentice" with complete certainty but like no babygirl. there are 50 other unaffiliated people in shinjuku who could've taught her to do that

#crab watches #dead mount death play #ok i'm overestimating it at 50 but point being #it's just SO funny #when there are moments of like characters going ''i know EXACTLY what's going on here now'' but bro knows nothing #bro is just wrong #when they're half-wrong half-right is hilarious too #''this child fortune teller has something to do with my missing mentor'' well yes and no #your mentor is dead but he is a sentient pen in the child fortune teller's possession so you almost got it i guess #in all fairness it's hard to realize your mentor is dead when the child fortune teller is helping him possess a dead pigeon #to call you on the phone #eta: LMAOOO HOSOROGI JUST SAID IT BUT IN A WAY EASILY MISTAKEN AS FIGURATIVE #TSUBAKI-CHAN I HOPE YOU REMEMBER THIS MOMENT FOREVER AND FEEL LIKE A FOOL WHEN YOU FIND OUT

[zerodaryls]

it's so funny (read: sad) that if bigoted fuckheads didn't insist i was a woman simply by virtue of my body at birth, i'd probably be chill with she/her pronouns in addition to he/they. if my mom didn't insist i was her daughter, i'd probably let her call me that, and we could still have a relationship.

i'm nonbinary and 'gendered' words are hypothetically meaningless, but because there are so many people who are more interested in telling me who i am rather than lovingly and curiously letting me express my own sense of self, those words carry trauma.

there's no reason a nonbinary person like myself can't be a son and a child and a daughter. there's no reason a nonbinary person like me can't go by he, they, and she.

'she' is not a slur. 'daughter' is not derogatory. 'beautiful' 'pretty' 'gorgeous' 'feminine' are not insults.

to the contrary, they're parts of language that express certain facets of a multi-faceted human existence, like mine.

and i have this sad, mournful feeling that if it weren't for unloving, condescending people, i'd probably be down to be called any of those things alongside my usual masculine/neutral terminology.

but i'd rather die than let anyone tell me what i have to be called.

#i try to reclaim 'feminine' words for myself in private #calling myself 'babygirl' when i need to chill out. or saying i feel pretty. or going 'she needs help' when i'm struggling lmao. #but there's still so much fucking trauma in those words from the people who've forced them on me #who've snarled in my face that GOD made me ONE THING and ONE THING ONLY and that's a WOMAN (stepdad) #who've guilted me for taking their precious perfect daughter away as if i'm fucking dead (mother) #who've mocked me and everyone like me as if we're not the experts on our own sense of self (general transphobic public) #like. i'm not a fucking man. i'm not a fucking woman. i'm nonbinary. gender is absurdity as a concept. i'm done with it. #but being called a man or a son or a guy or 'he' or WHATEVER in that vein is fine and dandy because i've never had anyone say #'that is all you can EVER be'. or worse: 'that is what GOD made you to be and you have a ROLE to fill' #(christianity pls die approximately yesterday thanku 💖) #so yeah. idk. ranting yet again about Cis Audacity. #the complete lack of empathy. the lack of curiosity even. #the condescending bullshit. the 'i understand you better than you do'. the fucking AUDACITY. #i am the expert on myself. i am the ONLY expert on myself. period. no contest. not a debate. #i understand myself better than anyone else is CAPABLE of understanding me. #i could call myself 'she' and understand that i meant it in a nonbinary way. #in fact i could even see myself letting other trans people call me feminine terms at some point in the future. when i've healed more. #but cis people? probably not. they can call me 'he' or 'they' or they can fuck off & never get to know me because they don't wanna know ME #/end rant #any terfs/bigots that try to touch this post will be swiftly blocked and quite possibly cursed. have the day you deserve <3

[nonuggetshere]

Miscalenous content, mostly fankids because I have no chill

Made an AU where the sealing didn't go as planned, PV is found out not to be hollow and later when they mop around the ancient basin they hear that at least one of their siblings is still stuck in the abyss. They were the very last to hatch and after PV steals the king's brand for themself and goes down they find them injured and raises them back to health in the palace. They keep their existence a secret, of course.

A lil doodle of what if the five great knights survived and Hollow gets to reunite with them (my attempt at the perspective on their head Did Not Work Out, they just look like a squished banana)

Babies content! Mostly Tally, two concepts for their siblings (triplets babyyyy) and a singular Sting

I found a One Singular Quirrel x Hollow shipper and their art has infected my brain. It's terminal and I will be passing away shortly

#spooky arts #Tally's sibs are called Till and Morningdew. Yeah that lil note about PV sucking at naming things is not a joke. They legitimately do #The few times they're good at it is when they name them after somebody else. Otherwise...its a disaster #The triplets are from an AU where I just looked at Norel and went '...I can make him worse' #AND BOY DID I EVER #The lil Tally drawings are from a mini AU variant of FaaF where they end hp having a kid before the whole disaster of being outed and #Secretly raise them in the palace with Hornet's help. It absolutely does not go well and after they're found out and PK tries to pick up #Tally (non-malicious) he ends up looking like he's been put through a meat grinder. The knights also get their asses handed to them when #they try to step in. I'm a tries to talk to the baby and IMMEDIATELY gets tackled #I made wyrms very aggressive when it comes to protecting their offspring which gives me plenty of opportunity to make PV go fucking feral #Not the first time they almost turned their father from an Is to a Was in my aus tbh #ISMA* My phone keeps connecting her name to I'm a jfc

[disdaidal]

I wanna thank my irl friends who follow me here and also my beloved mutuals as well as followers who still send me kind messages and try to interact with me and my stuff even if I'm bad at doing it myself.

Honestly, things haven't been that great with me lately, so... it means a lot to me. Honestly. <3

#personal #i had to make the tough decision to drop out of school last week #i didn't exactly want it if i'm being completely honest here #but certain stuff was preventing me from getting further so i knew the teachers are gonna ask me to quit over at our teams meeting #i instantly contacted my nurse about my situation. and she got me a doctor's appointment which was yesterday #where i kind of broke down a little. not because she didn't grant me the sick leave i thought i was going to get #after feeling down and sleeping terribly for weeks #but because she actually *got me*. like. she actually listened to me and figured out some stuff and told me that #what i'm going through and what i've been going through for years would make anyone depressed #so i couldn't help but cry a little because yeah. i'm so tired of never being enough no matter how hard i try #because my brain's wired a certain way and it makes me slow and kinda clumsy and inattentive at times #which. you might guess is not ideal at today's work environment. or studying-wise even #so instead of granting me sick leave (she did say we can change that at anytime though) she told me to wait for that phone call #from the unemployment office. which i should be getting tomorrow. or well. later today #and talk to them about this. to see if they can offer some solutions. or if we can figure something out #'cause i'm getting closer to my 40s and not getting anywhere and it's wearing me out and tiring me out #because i clearly can't help myself or change my ways on my own #i managed to get some work last week though. at the local youth house. one shift though but money still #but i haven't been getting those offers a lot during the past few months so it's not enough to support me obviously #so i definitely need something else. and i hope i can get help. that someone could help me #i should finally get tested for adhd next month too. i don't know if i even have it or if it's gonna change anything but #at least i'd know #anyway i needed to get this off my chest. cause i'm kinda crying a little bit even now just thinking about this whole thing #sorry

[peribytes]

THE BITCH IS BACK, BABES !!

#NEVER AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #THE ANIMAL IS OUT OF HIS CAGE. THE ANIMAL IS FREE. #FUCK THAT PLACE. SHITHOLE OF A PLACE #i have a word or two for my doctor and it starts with F and Y #i got no help. zero. whatever they said i have already learned from the internet. lol. #also my anxiety was so bad in there i lost 4 pounds from a poor appetite. #and they gave me fuckin. lithium #my parents were SO MAD when i told them over the phone #anyway #i'm home and i couldn't be happier about it #just the thought of being trapped in that place makes me wanna vom <3 #oh yeah i was put in the detox unit instead of the one for mental disorders or whatever it is #my dad was very mad i was put in with the alcoholics and drug addicts but they were very nice people #i was able to come out of my shell and have conversations with them pretty easily #that is the ONLY positive thing i can say about my entrapment #i missed you guys so much. i really missed my family #god and now they're gonna call me tomorrow morning to talk about whateverthefuck #and i gotta call my doctor in a week #god i don't wanna talk to these people anymore. LEAVE ME ALONE