#hhhh fuck why did I suddenly start missing my wings so much...

[deepseastars]

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#alice talks #vent // #missing wings // #(I don't mention anything gorey like mutilation so...) #hhhh fuck why did I suddenly start missing my wings so much... #I haven't thought about missing them in months now... #hell I barely even miss them in general;; #god I just... I know I'm a demon so I can't have my wings (even though I did as Crowley) #and usually I'm okay not having them anymore... I don't mind being a demon #but I... I guess I don't feel like I'm good enough or deserve the things I have... #I've gotten so much better at not feeling that way #but when I think about my wings I can't help but think that... #I know what I am or how I look will never matter to my partners... #and I know that I'll be okay if I never have my wings again... #but fuck... when I get like this I feel like the universe doesn't see any good in me or something...