#hhhhhhhhhh im just getting an anxiety

[satansappendix]

These imaginary tigers are fucking me up

#soap speaks #im oof #and i cant tell why #it is either the anxiety of money and not making enough and expenses piling up and stress #or its the autism making me so anxious because giant changes are happening in my life and i cant fucking cope #my ssiter snd her husband are moving in with us #but also hhhhhhhhhh #like this changes basically everything in my life and we are also throwing stuff out and rearranging the house #and i still havent found a therapist to discuss the complex emotions i feel because my dad fucking died #like i need therapy about it lol #especially since i feel the circumstances of my life getting fundamentally better since he died but for some reason that stresses me out?? #like we are throwing trash out and broken things out and fixing things feom years ago no that hes gone #but it still makes me feel bad? #idk im just going through it

[loganscroftersstash]

deceit, joan, logic, glasses (hope you don't mind me sending multiple for the ask game)

I DONT MIND AT ALL!!! THANK U!!!! <3

deceit - least fav pairing is logicality </3 when i first got into the fandom i was a DIEHARD prinxiety/logicality supporter, but then i developed a more broad taste and after dipping and coming back into the fandom, it just doesn't hit like it used to. prinxiety still isn't my cup of tea but i can definitely see where people come from with loving it, i just struggle to see logicality more ig? dont get me wrong, its such a cute concept, just not for me so no shade if u love it!

joan - tbh idk but they should totally discuss unhealthy attachments in relationships/situationships.. cough cough..... elaborating on this bc im thinking abt it as i write and dude i can actually see something like this happening. i feel like if it was roman/patton getting carried away we'd have another moving on type of episode but if it was virgil and one of the two? because at least for me it is a much more adrenaline driven process, that need and want for the rush that person brings and the lows and anxiety that come when they're gone. like, THAT would be sick as hell!!

logic - fucking all of me dude i straight up have. NO idea who i am but its okay we're chillin

glasses - HHHHHHHHHH op was right this is a hard question. i love all of them so much so its hard to peg one out as least fav, especially when they're all so different and real as fuck. i don't have a least fav side (but i do have a fav and its logan but you knew that)

thanks so much for the ask! og post here!

#mitzy answers asks #sanders sides #thomas sanders

[floralbfs]

the deep desire to text ur friends vs the desperate need to not be seen as too much or like you're coming onto them

#i wanna text some of my irls but hhhhhhhhhh #one of the people i wanna text is a relatively new friend so i dont wanna be too much sjfbjsbdjsbf #plus he's a boy and we live in A Cishet World so i fear if i text him too much it'll look like i like him or im flirting with him or sth #i just feel lonely :( #i need to meet my daily quota of like >five friends #plus i havent talked to luz in Days so im sad and worried #i keep thinking she hates me akdnskdnsnbfnd #but like she'd tell me if i did something wrong right????????? #hhhhhhhhhh im just getting an anxiety #attack* lmao #i want to be done eating so i can get busy with school stuff skjfskbfnsbf #i want to do extracurricular things but i feel Guilty and i am going to Fail #i need to finish the programming project 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 #ok im going to go now #🤡🤡🤡 #honey talk

[semercury]

Maybe I wouldn't be so paranoid about people talking shit if I didn't know about how everyone around here talks shit.

#stuff sarah says #her dog is dying!!!!!!! i wanted to be nice!!!!!! its not favoritism!!!!!! #i genuinely cannot focus on my work bc im ghfhfjjfbfhg #i get worked up over nothing and i hate it!!! #i didnt want to forget to give it to her #im so stupid i should have waited until the end of the day #but what if i had to run out and missed her??? #like!!!!!! aaaaaaaa #like i get people cards for things all the time #like if i know theyre going through smth #im just hhhhhhhhhh #im stressed an consuming way too much caffeine so im just hhdhdhd #i hate social anxiety

[plethodontidae]

#rant tw #HHHHHHHHHH #so. college move in day right. this sunday at 5:30 pm #then college soccer preseason next week #Then in two weeks actual college classes start #i’m so nervous i’m so nervousshshdbfjejduhfnfj #im so excited to be in college and on my own and be independent but i’m so scared of it at the same time i don’t know what’s wrong with me #like i am literally terrified of doing something wrong when im on my own like if i make one mistake financially it’s all gonna go down hill #and i want to make a separate savings account just to save some money from each paycheck from a future job but my parents won’t let me #they think it should still be connected to the whole family for now #but how am i supposed to do things on my own when you can still wire money to my account . i just #idk so much of my anxiety is centered around the future and what im gonna do and how im gonna make money it’s so exhausting #because i don’t wanna stay here i wanna go somewhere else in my state but its much more expensive up there and like #i don’t wanna stay at home for an extra year and work bc i just don’t wanna keep living with my parents #like i WANT to be independent and i WANT to live on my own but i’m literally so terrified of it at the same time #i keep hearings stories about family members who are very much grown yet still financially depend on their parents n i Don’t Want To Be That #i wanna be financially independent and able to support myself but getting a job??? getting a job that pays enough to pay rent AND have money #for basic human needs like foot water clothing etc #we live in a Societyyyy and i hate it so much i hate that i worry about this when i graduated high school just 3 months ago #i just want to bury myself under a million blankets and never deal with responsibility ever again

[qasian-tech-support]

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#hhhhhhhhhh #i really need to learn not to stay up so late. i stayed up until 4am and woke up about 9-ish and now i am FILLED with anxiety #but its not like a *bad* anxiety exactly; its like a mix between excitement; nervousness; happiness; dread; etc etc #i just ordered some stuff last night (aka blew a chunck of my money) and im excited for it but also terrified that my dad may see it #(he thinks i waste a lot of money on a regular basis when in reality this is like the only stuff ive bought for myself in months; but it #wont help for him to see a bunch of packages); #and im surprised bc im actually looking forward to something and its got my mind racing; but im also mentally hitting my head on a wall bc #ive been in a shitty place mentally/emotionally lately (for a few months now) where it feels like i cant envision what a future for myself #may look like and its really hard to get out of #..okay maybe it is a little bit of bad anxiety.. #i may be able to catch a little rest before i have to work but like. FUCK #me​ @my heart: could you perhaps not be irratic? all i had was a single mountain dew calm the fuck down #sorry for the infodump i just felt like i was going to burst #vent post #delete later

[void-home]

Mmm...

#Anxiety spike #theyre frustrated with me? time for my mood to drop into hell and my anxiety to strangle me dead #i remember why i dont do group rps or real time ones finally #this always eventually happens and i want death #because im an unreliable sack of shit #and get overwhelmed or bored and just #hhhhhhhhhh #personal #dont reb/log

[jazzyblusnowflake]

Wait, what do you mean honey needed time to love edd as her own child? She didn't love him? Why?

Yall i cant tell if you guys are actually interested in my dumb shit stories or if you're just pretending but okay fair-

so lets see... this section im gonna try and NOT explain too thoroughly because i plan on making a fic about it where it gets explained better but basically in this particular scene, Honey is having to talk to Tord who is having a hard time accepting any sort of responsibility towards 'Rora, in short, he doesn't want to have anything to do with her, and Honey opens up about her own struggles with Edd and her fears of becoming a mother, she stated that she wasn't from a well cared for family herself and she never wanted to subject herself or a child to this kind of life either, she felt like she didn't deserve to be a mother- also she used to have a lot of anxiety and the pregnancy and postpartum depression was heavy on her which made it hard for her to care for Edd at times- but she still did all of it regardless, because of how happy and excited Toby was about everything. But Honey was never really good with expressing herself, and that's where Edd gets the same problem from...

her explanation helps Tord reach his own conclusion of why he wants to take care of Aurora, but for Honey and Edd, she realized everyone needed to "give" love and care as much as they want to "receive" it and that she's not going to "lose" anything or Edd himself by loving him, so she grew to absolutely spoil and smother Edd with all the love she had in her own unique way~ :")

and as for Tord, well yall will probably see soon, hopefully if i manage to finish the fic hhhhhhhhhh-

#eddsworld #ew tord #ew edd #polyworld #tordedd #snowballflo #eddsworld oc #eddsworld au

[berries]

i feel really awful right now i have so much anxiety

#i accidentally skipped work twic e #i know thats really really really bad but i feel like it'll be okay when i explain that im stupid and ill never dothis again #i thought i worked a different time but i got it wromg so i showed up to work and no one was there #and i was supposed to work this morning but i didnt sleep at all and idek #god ik this sounds so stupid i feel like when i tell them itll be okay tho #they're really nice and some other new person also skipped work the other day and he didnt get in much trouble #im a pretty hard worker too so i feel like itll be okay bc its my 1st time #aahhhhh ive been like having an anxiety attack for almost 12 hours now #i didnt get like any sleep last night bc i took Adderall bc again i thot i was working #amd so i feel asleep like 3 times and it wasnt even good sleep #it was panicky and sweaty #so now i just feel so out of it #and my heart rate is like 130 bpm and u kno im just Sitting Here On My Bed #so like that feels AHHHHHHHHHHH #and i keep feeling like i have to shit and then i sit on the toilet for like 20 mins and nothing happens and i keep doinf this #idk why i keep getting up #it feels like i rlly gotta shit!!!! u kno!!! so im like might as wel sit on yhe toilet #god im a fucking mess rn hhhhhhhhhh #p

[dangan-happy]

To Junko, may I have comfort, cuddles or kisses please?

Im scared because I heard rattling coming from the conservatory and it sounded like someone was trying to break in but it was just my cats... Like my mum told me "If you sleep in the front room and someone breaks in, you'll be first to... you know.. Get murdered! Ahaha yeah!"

Thanks mum, very cool. Great for my severe anxiety 👍

I just really need someone to comfort me right now because im near tears and I hhhhhhhhhh

Oh, Anonymous! Seeking true despair at its finest!

LET’S PUT IT THIS WAY, YOUR MOM (CENSORED) BLOWS!

Oh, I can’t say that word on here? So if I just say (CENSORED) (CENSORED) (CENSORED) Man, look at that!

Anyhow, my bad darling, I was getting quite distracted. Do come here, yes? You must be sure to talk to your mother about how that makes you feel, and do not let her words bother you, no matter what. Perhaps you can read the other posts on this blog to distract you or listen to your favorite shows? Do be careful now.

#danganronpa #danganronpa roleplay blog #ask #junko enoshima #mod akane

[starlit-dreaming]

HHHHHHHHHH I HATE EMAILS WHY DO I HAVE TO EMAIL THIS PERSON WHY DO I HAVE TO HAVE SO MANY DUMB AND SIMPLE QUESTIONS

LIKE GUYS IM SUPPOSED TO FILL OUT THIS STUPID FORM ONLINE BEFORE I COME IN FOR FILLING OUT THE PAPERWORK TO GET HIRED. AND AT FIRST IM LIKE “OH OK SO DO I JUST FILL IT OUT AND SUBMIT IT HERE OR???” CAUSE I FOUND THE FORM ON THE GOVERNMENT WEBSITE, AND ITS AVAILABLE FOR PRINTING AND TO BE FILLED OUT SO NBD RIGHT?

BUT THEN IM TOLD “YEAH NO YOU FILL IT OUT AND SUBMIT IT ONLINE BEFORE YOU COME IN”

AND IM CONFUSION. CAUSE I DONT UNDERSTAND??? IS IT SUPPOSED TO POP UP ON THE SITE I APPLIED FOR THE JOB THAT I SPECIFICALLY MADE AN ACCOUNT FOR??? WAS I MEANT TO RECEIVE AN EMAIL ABOUT IT?????????

MY ANXIETY IS SCREECHING AT ME THAT IM BEING A DUMBASS FOR ASKING FOR CLARIFICATION EVEN THOUGH LOGICALLY I KNOW THAT ITS OKAY TO ASK QUESTIONS AND THAT HINDSIGHT IS 20/20 AND IT WILL ALWAYS MAKE YOU FEEL LIKE A DUMB BITCH WHEN YOU FINALLY KNOW IT ALL

ITS BEEN LIKE

4 HOURS, A TOTAL OF 10 EMAILS BETWEEN ME AND THIS PERSON

I FEEL SO BAD FOR SUBJECTING THEM TO THIS BULLSHIT SINCE 8AM LIKE GUYS I GENUINELY HOPE IM NOT THE DUMB ASSHOLE THATS MAKING THEIR DAY FEEL LONG AND TIRESOME. ESPECIALLY CAUSE THEY MIGHT BECOME MY FUTURE CO-WORKER

#starlit rambles #rant #delete later #i fucking hate emails #i hate phone calls more so im glad im not doing That #but fucking hell i hate this #i hate the application process #i dont mind the lack of a formal interview #or at least #im pretty sure this is a fairly informal one

[calliopelovemail]

i have to make a very important decision by monday and i am dying

#cal speaks #like if u read #dont reblog #its about next year #they said i have to let them kno by monday if i am going through w it #and like i want to #but everyone is making me scared #saying i might regret it #and that if i change my mind i cant go back #and just #idk #its giving me anxiety #and also im being vague abt it for a reason #but like #hhhhhhhhhh i cant be trusted to make choices for myself like this #especially one that can hinder my happiness and wellbeing #this is so stressful #(this is related to school btw. just so u dont get confused by my vagueness its a school thing)

[denki-kaminari-anon]

ugh i literally love y’all so much if i wasn’t already crying I’d be crying even more because hhhhhhhhhh i don’t deserve you or the lovely mod akdnksgmkk 🥺

and right?? this why i can’t tell her SHIT cuz it’s alwayyyyys about her and she’s just awful 💀 i absolutely despise when she says shit like she knows me better than anyone else or she knows me better than myself like JDNDKNDJSNFJS

ma’am gtfo 😭🤚🏽 i can’t tell her anything because im selfish and dramatic and it’s because of that phone and stupid shit like that 💀💀

bc of her, ive had very low self esteem ever since I was in elementary school, horrible anxiety, and among other things.

in January of 2020, I was REALLY going through it. Like probably one of the worst times of my life. I had a H U G E argument with her which led me to do something that would’ve prevented me from being here and still typing this as we speak but i failed.

okay it wasn’t JUST because of her but she played a big part. I’m glad I didn’t go through it but that one year mark of it is coming soon and I’m scared as shit because January seems to be such a cursed month for me.

Oh and Not to mention my birthday is in January too so- 😽😽😽😽

~🧁

Because of that phone, I can’t- 💀

I’m so sorry to hear about January, but let me just say, I am so, so glad that you failed, because it means that you’re still here, and you still have a chance to experience so many amazing things now, and once you’re older! Happy early birthday, and I promise to be here for you all throughout January! I get how scary it can be, and I know I can’t do much, but I can be here for you through Tumblr, and I know for a fact you’ll get through it, because you’ve made it this far, and you’re amazing and strong enough to make it through!

And it’s me and mod, who don’t deserve you, cutie 🥺🥺🥺💛💛💛

#🧁 anon #tw suicide mention #tw suicide

[doctorguilty]

slipper drama part 2 electric boogaloo 

like not that anyone is probably in Suspense about it but idk I always feel compelled to follow up, but my sister sent this message in response: 

“the slipper thing is actually 100% not your fault. the only person  who said anything about the slippers to grandma was me because she was putting a package together for you and was like "should is send those [redacted] slippers to seth" and i said "no i dont think so seth is feeling pretty negative about [redacted] themed stuff these days i dont think we should send them without being asked we should just put them with seths other things for now"  and that somehow didnt click i guess. im not sure i cant remember where i put them but i know mom found them over Thanksgiving and was wearing them so she may have left them back in grandmas sightline and when grandma saw them when she got back from florida she maybe only half remembered what i said and was like Unwanted Item Is Clutter”

like this is Immensely frustrating like I was sitting here like, maybe there was a miscommunication with my sister, or maybe I did say to get rid of them and forgot??? but no my sister said like, very clearly what she thought was best to do with them and she at no point said throw them out,, it’s even more harrowing my mom like. was wearing them like maybe not even knowing I didnt want them anymore and just under the assumption they were gonna be sent to me later hhhhhhhhhh like this is why I have such a complicated relationship with Items and Objects and Gifts myself because my grandma (who partially raised me) is  like a compulsive purger and my mom is a compulsive hoarder so I’m like ,,,,,,,, afflicted with this anxiety about accumulating Too Much Clutter but having regrets when I get rid of stuff and then getting like crazy attached to things like, unable to downsize on clothes and stuff I own even if I dont wear them anymore any it’s probably not even NECESSARY especially now like, moving across the country I downsized a lot and I have my own room to like store as much as I want but I have a fucking IMPULSE I like NEED to get rid of stuff  when I don’t have to???? rips my hair out 

#seth speaks #d0 n0t r3bl0g

[tangyss]

do you mayhaps have any,,,, fic recs,,,,,,,,

mayhaps i do.......... this week’s theme is.....:

🔥💪🤩 lance centric fics written better than the actual gd show with a side helping of klance 💪🤩🔥

back with a madness (champion) by mytay

lance gets roped into a weeks worth of illegal underground cage fighting in order to protect some alien kids and their wounded mother, while trying to do this behind his suspcious teammates backsOH MAN OH FUCKIE DUDE...... ive wanted to rec this fic for SO FUCKING LONG bc when i started reading this i genuinely got so hooked...... bamf lance who is written SO WELL??? we STAN??? like idk but the fact that lance’s drive throughout the whole thing is to keep the family safe, like he could totally back out, he could totally get someone else to help, yet he keeps going with pride and determination bc he wants to make sure this lil family of alien gets to the end of this safely makes my heart MELT...... if u like badass lance w the team being supportive as well as extremely concerned for him then u should 10000% read this fic(tw: injuries and fighting, tho if u can watch the rocky movies u’ll be fine w this, pining keith more than actual klance, matt/shiro, tho for the most part it’s somewhat easy to view as platonic)

lance’s guide to picking up hitchhikers by bwyn

modern au where lance gets a new car, and first thing he thinks of doing with it is going on five day long roadtrip while picking up hitchhikers and befriending them

wow i cant believe people online who create fics for fun can write lance and the team as really good, really close friends who care for and genuinely love lance PROPERLY, unlike some “professional” show i know!!!! wild!!!!!! this fic is basically lance becoming friends w the team, it’s super cheerful and heartwarming to read and this fic’ll make u want to take an impromptu roadtrip bc it’s SO FUN!!! everything about it is so good man...... also everyone is GAY and im p sure lance has adhd which made my heart SOAR

(tw: allura/shiro.... like im not 100% but i remember there being more sh/al than there was actual kl and i didnt dig that, but the fic does mainly focus on the friendship elements than the romances..... also (spoiler) the kl is open ended in this fic too but if u want team bonding and fun times u should read this!!)

5 + 1 times: lance and the search for keith’s boyfriend by haikquu

lance and keith are really..... really close friends, yet somehow lance starts finding clues that keith might have a boyfriend, which is weird, bc keith never told him that he had boyfriend, yet everyone else seems to know.... HUH.....

man i was giggling the whole way through this fic just read it please sdiguhsdiugsjguisjgsidugj it’s hhhhhhhhhh HEARTWARMING AND DORKY

+ an extra one if ur feeling a lil angsty......... and by lil i mean this fic feels like a horror action thriller which i read at 1am when only the first chapter was out and ended up not sleeping that night bc i was too busy not crying

echo a spark by usernicole

a s4 rewrite...... and tbh if voltron wasnt a kids show, this is how it SHOULD have gone.... shiro is not his usual supportive and open self around lance and is acting a lot colder to lance than he normally would. after coming to the conclusion that that’s not shiro, lance makes a plan to find the real shiro

also, it’s part 2 of this long distant s4 klance fic but basically if u dont read that one first, the context is that keith and lance are dating, keith’s still w the bom, and shiro is a fucken CLONE.. also broganes yay! and a lil bit of established klance conflict but it’s all good they cuddle uwu

(tw: lance has an anxiety attack in ch1, there’s a FUCK TON of fighting in ch2 and like seriously..... the descriptions for stuff that happens in ch2 shouldnt be read by someone who isnt good w body horror/gore n shit like that... it’s an intense fic, but im a fan of horror thrillers so i enjoyed this when i wasnt on the verge of tears lol)

#SURPRISE!! im actually a really big fan of action thrillers n horror!!! #anyway sorry the descriptions got out of control.... #i like explain the good parts of fics :) #also this theme was hard to stick w bc there's so much langst (nastee) in the world #and also so much keith pov.... but yeh here's some gucci ones #byebye #klance #lance #voltron #fic rec #long post// #anons #asks

[corvidmantis]

Hhhhhhhhhh anxiety!!!! Would love to not worry about every aspect of my social interactions tonight but like i guess thats what we're doing!!!! This happens way way way less than it used to, and isnt usually as intense as it was when i was younger, but sometimes i still get this overwhelming feeling that everyone is pretending to enjoy my company and that theyre really actually annoyed by me and just tolerating it, and it makes me wanna do this super unhealthy lose-lose shit where i dont reach out bc i dont wanna be annoying and "if they really care then theyll reach out" but then beat myself up when no one reaches out immediately bc they dont know anything is w r o n g and why would they when they dont know!!!!! And yeah i just really dont want to be annoying and overbearing and i feel like i have been lately? Like im sending too many messages, talking too much, being too loud and excitable, taking up too much space in peoples inboxes and theyre bound to be annoyed of it and im uhhhhhhhhhh sad i guess

#vent post #will prob delete later