#hi yes im having a crisis

[maysrinn]

Here is the place where I love you ✨

In the hush of midnight, Lucy Gray gently roused little Clementine from slumber so she could finally witness the ✨glowing bugs✨that uncle Sejanus told her about. Initially reluctant to leave her cozy bed, Clementine's grumpy expression melted away into pure delight as she beheld the twinkling lights dancing around her.

———

Meanwhile Coriolanus waking up to his wife and child gone “Lucy Gray? LUCY GRAY?!” Waking up the little one in the progress…🥀

#tbosas #snowbaird #lucy gray baird #coriolanus snow #you can bet that clementine tried to grab one #climbing all over her mother #ending in Lucy Gray falling over #meanwhile coriolanus is having a major crisis in trying to calm his son down #yes they both want mom and fell asleep by the time she got back #alternate universe #the ballad of songbirds and snakes #the hunger games #hunger games #thg #im delulu #district au #district 12

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

Hello! I have come asking for you to info-dump about the the modern human au. I full of brain rot of them (especially after the last thing you posted about them, damn) Maybe you can tell us a bit more Sally!!

lucky for you, i've been full of that good ol brainrot As Well! thoughts! feelings! ideas! i got em!

so since we're already on the subject of the Crash Arc, allow me to expand on it for a moment before i get to Sally Thinkings! if you've read the snippet, you may have noticed the extent of Wally's injuries was not listed yet. well! he got messed up with a capital F! since it's fiction and i'm god in this scenario, i'm veering slightly away from realistic damage, immediate & lasting. bc lets be real. if i stuck to "this is as realistic as i can make it", then Wally would be aaaaaabsolutely fucked. it was a bad crash in a very unsafe vehicle at high speeds. like - this is what happened. a drunk driver hit Home going 70 down the freeway. swerve, fishtail, tumble down a (small, shallow, really its more like a glorified ditch) ravine with trees and rocks and shit on it. absolute miracle that Wally didn't die in the crash, let alone during the solid half hour (slightly longer) he was trapped in Home before someone noticed the crash site and called emergency personnel. Wally "hanging up" on Barnaby was actually the impact jarring him so he slipped and hit the end call button. but yeah without going into technicalities and detail, Wally has some lasting damage in his dominant hand. It takes extensive physical therapy for him to be able to paint/draw again at the same level he had been at. the hematoma hadn't done a lot of brain damage that wouldn't resolve itself with time. in my mind, when Wally wakes up in the hospital, for a few days he's very confused and his memory is shot. he'll wake up, interact, then go to sleep, but when he wakes up again its like waking up for the first time again. he just can't retain memories for a bit. he's got some severe brain fog. his mood is also kinda fucked with - he's uncharacteristically irritable with low patience, etc. these are all things that clear up with time, but in my mind Wally has chronic migraines going forward. bad ones! and there are days where it's harder fr him to concentrate. and yk. a teeny bit of chronic pain where his shin bone was pinned back together and where his hand was essentially crushed. but other than that he's fine going forward! good days and bad days!

but enough about that! You Want To Hear About Sally!

i imagine that she becomes quite successful in the theater industry. i'm not too familiar with it myself, so i'm gonna be uh. Vague about it? but she starts her own theater troupe - it's a bit of a commute from home base to the town she works in, where the theater is located in, but she makes it work! of the group, she's probably away more than any of them. working on shows, traveling to work on other ones - i like to think she's been on Broadway! she probably has had opportunities to do tv/movie acting, but idk... i feel like Sally would be like "nah. live shows or nothing". maybe at some point she takes up voice acting gigs, as long as she can do them from home. she probably has her own little room-turned-VA-studio thing. idk how that works either! it seems right! but yes Howdy's store's automated messages and advertisements are in Sally's voice. she's probably picked up a temporarily modeling gig here and there.

so Sally is very very busy. Poppy is supportive. everyone is, and they all love to help out when they can - and reel Sally in when the "stardom" starts to get to her head. they do their best to acclimate to occasionally getting jumpscared by her voice in a grocery store or in. idk. fashion shoots. victoria's secret billboards. that last one was a joke! maybe. i think she would.

i also like to imagine Sally like... getting some sort of award and then spending a solid five minutes naming her friends, thanking them with specificity, and then plugging their own stuff. they probably have a rotation for who accompanies her as her plus one for events and parties she may or may not be invited to. she's not like... a Big celebrity but! she's Known and Liked! she has Connections! i like to imagine her and Wally looking dapper as fuck at a Venue...

so the friend group typically stays together, with Sally going off to do her Things the most. she makes sure to schedule time to be with her friends and girlfriend/wife/Poppy between work and gigs and etc. she somehow finds a balance with Ease. or apparent ease... someone get this girl a vacation...

#lmao now im thinking about them all scheduling a joint vacay #sally is having the time of her life getting to Relax and just Pamper Herself #everyone else is also greatly enjoying the break #except howdy. he's a mess. to him relaxing is working. things are too calm. too quiet. understim effect x100 #on that vein ive been thinking about a covid arc and its. Funny #and domestic! #where are the covid fics of characters getting stuck together during lockdown... #rambles from the bog #wh modern human au #but yes been thinking about the au a lot #ive decided that wally does eventually get a job that he actually Enjoys! #previously he was just doing his indie art and such. bc he'd try a job and be like 'wow. i hate this. this is stupid. bye' #his art brings in more money anyway. he's living that miraculous imaginary life where art provides reliable sustainable income #enough so that barnaby doesn't need a full time job! bc this is fiction and i want them to have an easy life #in this specific area anyway #i would like them to live in a world where its slightly kinder... the housing crisis doesnt exist... one can live on minimum wage... #also thinking more about their homes and such. etc!

[i-bring-crack]

Cha Hae In: A small introspective on her character (+Goto Ryuji)

Gotta love how her entire character in the game is just "Imma be the very best and no one can stop me" and I love her for that.

On another note she does give me a lot of "Main Character" vibes due to that attitude and the power she displays. Sure she technically got lucky with her power but she still wants to be at the very top of her team by more than just luck alone. As we see with how she has been diligently training with Song Chi Yul despite being an S rank, and she knows her weaknesses very well despite Chi Yul praising her as her student (that she has a long way to go). She is ambitious in her goals and no matter what she gets she will not discard it any way. She is also willing to sacrifice her pain if it means getting what she wants as seen inside the dossiers themselves:

In dossiers 1 and 2 they also tell about how her whole life she had been walking on eggshells and her reputation was always on the constant brink between bad and good, so I could guess that is why (plus her smell problem) we never really saw her smiling outside of the people she was close too (Jin Woo and Chi Yul). The light novel also hints that with Jin Woo she also finally founded some relaxation in her life which only adds on more to the theory that she only cared more about winning, or in her case hunting, than she did about actually living a comfortable life. Probably the only way she could find happiness was by winning.

Her parents, if she had any (most of the dossiers just say 'adults around her') had pressured her to put herself in the spotlight, and she does seem to have at least some spine to reject that at her young age, however it didnt mean that she was able to overcome all of that. The photo above said she still remained strong despite all the anonymous flase rumors spread about her, all the pressure from the adults and the stains from anti-fans on her achivements, but her achievements still dissappeared and she felt resentful about that day for a long time.

Right now as an S rank she does look a lot more capable to stand up for herself rather than simply ignoring the counts and moving on, heck she even values herself to an extent seeing that she tends to confront her guild master about the shares and even bussiness men know her worth would go up much higher than the other guilds if she were to set up a guild on her own:

The mention of being inspired by the other atheletes is also something really cool since it does add well with what her main goal, apart from passion, is in her life and that is, as mentioned in the twitter posts, to achieve victory, to be the first.

And this is what makes it all the better for me to say that, she acts a lot like Goto Ryuji.

No, I didnt expect that either and yes im being legit, both of them share a lot of common trains the more we get to find out about theirselves.

For starters: Its that driving ambition to do what they are good at and excell that makes them such a strong force of power in their own respective countries. Just as Hae-In had been ambitious to persue swordsmanship and become the strongest S rank in South Korea, Goto had done the same thing by assosiating himself with the Japanese Hunters Assosiation and gaining the rest of his powerhouse with the other 10 S ranks that he admitted to his guild. He got to be the founder of the second largest guild in Asia while she got to be famous despite being in the Shadow of Choi Jong In (honestly I might even go far enough to say she was the reason Choi Jong In had been nicknamed the ultimate weapon, since he held the strongest S rank in his arsenal.) But still strong enough to decapitate the S rank Queen, yes even with the help of her own team and the japanese but that is still quite a feat considering the last 3 jeju island raids.

None of them tend to be the strongest overall, bc National Hunters exist ofc, but that doesnt stop them to aim higher. Hae-In we can see her aspiration to become first right in the dossiers, where as Goto had more ambition in wanting to be the king, and basically become the best despite the fact that there would be stronger hunters out there.

Both of them also seem to never back down even against powerful threats like the Ant King. Its kinda funny how it tends to be that Goto is the only one called cocky for this because, 1 he died, and 2 he was more of a villain instead of the female lead like Hae-In, yet when she wanted to fight shadow Beru she wasn't laughed about it for doing it. Sure Jin Woo was there to stop it, but that didnt meant anything still when she knew, first hand, she could have been defeted by Beru nonetheless (and she also didnt know that Beru would be less stronger than the Ant King as extracted shadows tend to be weaker), she actively chose to fight Beru for her own gains, yes far better gains than Goto's yet that doesnt ignore the fact that their attitudes had been the same when facing that giant monster. Pretty sure Goto would have also tried to fight Beru again in order to prove his strenght (but Beru is best girl for a reason, he wont fall under anyone unless its his master.) Had he lived.

There are more physical traits, like both of them being sword masters and having a more profesional stoic attitude towards their personality than others— but i did just wanna draw out those two main characteristics of theirs that literally just passed through my head as I was re reading the novel. The smaller differences would be their reason for their ambitions, like with Goto betraying the S ranks for power and prestige, whereas Hae-In does everything for her own power to protect those around her, i.e why she always looks out for the dungeon boss and takes patrols even on her lunch, why she is also very keen in finding out more about the new S rank who doesnt smell, and why she never really kept a lot of secrets to her, she was never going to hide anyways because her main priority at that point in being an S rank was helping people, and being the most powerful just meant she could protect them even better.

Still, it does seem funny that the ones that share a lot of similar traits with each other are: The female lead of SL, and the literal most hated character (by the author) of SL.

Gotta love that for them, gotta love it even more how Hae-In was acknowledged by Goto, which does make me want to explore their dynamic a bit. Would Goto have offered her to join the guild? Would Hae In have acted more like Goto if she had been more upfront towards the spotlight? Would they have bonded over their share hatred against the Ant King? Them batteling by pure measure of swordmanship skill alone would have been fairly interesting too.

#solo leveling manwha #solo leveling #solo leveling spoilers #cha hae in #goto ryuji #Oh my god no wonder the goto x sung ships also seem to fit well with what ive wanted to see in cha and sung fics #like legit more rivarly for jin woo it would be so fun seeing Hae In and Goto somehow make alliance to defeat Jin Woo due to smth idk #but the three fighting would be hella cool #something even MORE FUN would be Goto and Hae In fighting against the Ant King with the help of their respective magicians and healers yes— #— but also just the two making a brief alliance to deztroy the ant king with his own skills: im picturing Goto going full on tank– #–while Hae In takes Dps; they try their best to get rid of the wings first and with Shimizu and Min Byung Gyu as long as they are protec #protected by Kei And Choi Jong In then its fine. they get a lot of wound son that battle but still manage either way to break off– #Beru's head. or maybe they get yo hold on their own for a long while until Jin Woo contronts the weakened Beru and shit goes WILD #you can see i have too many tjings i want out of those two #maybe another mentor and mentee friendship right there? #Hae-In going to help the japanese with the Japan Crisis arc and her and Goto get to be friends over their sword knowledge #Hae In might also get trapped with being the friend of the rest of the s ranks too tho #especially Kanae and Kei #okay thanks for comming to my long ass ted talk #solo leveling au

[songofstrawhats]

WHEN PEOPLE MENTIONED THE CROCOMOM THEORY, THEY NEGLECTED TO MENTION CROCODILE GLARING AT THE PERSON WITH MAGICAL GENDER CHANGE POWERS WHO MAKES CRYPTIC COMMENTS ABOUT HIS SECRETS AND KNOWING HIM WAY BACK WHEN

like, I still don't know enough to know how likely any fan theories may or may not be but I WAS NOT EXPECTING THIS MANY DOTS AVAILABLE TO CONNECT??? I assumed this was some sort of shipping or timeline thing not MAGICAL GENDER CHANGE FRUIT USER WITH A HISTORY LMAO WHAT

#one piece #impel down #ivankov #chapter 540 #i am never making it through this arc im having a new crisis each chapter lmaoooo #also i genuinely cannot decide if ivankov is transphobic or not. like -gestures at his everything- yes probably???? #but the fact im even conflicted is a triumph of storytelling #its the female character thing again where the visual is just. yeah. but the narrative treats them in a way thats better?????? #idk im too busy yelling to figure out decades old discourse or whatever lmao #just know that what i assumed from fandom is SO DIFFERENT FROM THE ACTUAL THING LMAOOOOO #reading op

[lavenoon]

Blorbo thoughts(tm) but this time I’m directing them at you! For all the blorbos!!

I imagine that Eclipses favourite kind of kisses from Agent Neon are hand kisses (several for each hand)

What are Sun & Moon’s fav kinda kisses to receive from Robin? What makes these boys just swoon and melt into a puddle of animatronic? :3

Of course several for each hand! Just one each on only four hands, what kind of research would that be? No no no, to come to any significantly powerful results, of course you gotta pepper the boy in kisses! <3

Sun really likes getting kisses on his mouth - he may not have lips to reciprocate with, but he'll nuzzle back some! He loves how impossible it is to misinterpret those, and as we all know, he loves flaunting all the good he has - Robin definitely is a part of that! Also just a teensy tiny giddy about how small they are, when they pull him down or ask him to lean down, depending on their mood, and how much that proves that they want this, too. But, in quieter moments, without any audience, Robin will sometimes raise their hands while their fingers are just laced together, and then kiss the back of his hand, and it melts him into a puddle every time. He was so scared that they'd be terrified of what those hands can do - the obvious show of affection in all its tender glory just gets to him <3

Moon doesn't really have a preference for the where, but he's a fiend for sleepy kisses. Whether about to fall asleep or just waking up, he loves being close enough for kisses any time Robin sleeps around him (given their nocturnal schedule, it's actually rare for him to see them sleep!). And a tired little bird who can't even try to reach for anything specific, but is so determined to show affection that they just kiss whatever is available to them? Arm, (clothed, sorry) chassis, in some cases even just an awkward chin kiss - he loves it, he eats it up, and he might just pull them closer for more cuddles and kisses as they start giggling at how predictable he is. He doesn't mind predictable - being soft and domestic together took them long enough, some embarrassment won't stop him now <3

#answer let luce #zelda7999 #accidentally undercover #this took a bit because I got distracted doing my nails <3 #guess who's got AU blorbo themed nails now. right. this sucker #also. fun fact. #so the boys nuzzle more than they actually kiss back #which is good for them because Robin doesn't catch on really #until way later when they're like. 'wait. so when you just bury ur face in my hair n nuzzle -' #'yeah that's about the closest we get to a kiss. do you want us to stop?' #'... no. but I'm having a fluster crisis about many other moments in retrospect.' #'good <3' #y'all remember in the AU AU AU drabble Acts of Service Sun nuzzles close for a moment before leaving to grab his shirt for Y/N? #yeah. yeah it was there all along #also. me and my gd research bias coming out. yes im normal and love the idea of flirting by framing it as an experiment

[astxrwar]

having so many poly stevetony x reader thoughts,,, idk idk it’s just something about being the counterbalance to their deeply homoerotic rivalry,,,,

#‘i want to punch you in your perfect teeth’ or whatever he says in cacw #i want to write tony pov bisexual midlife crisis #like maybe it was weird of u to be obsessed w cap since childhood #let’s unpack that huh??? why r u so mad he’s nice and polite and pretty? #steve being absolutely unfazed by the pretty obvious fact that stark has a crush on him #whether he denies it or not. in my hc steve has known he was bi since 16 #steve Knows the signs. he was a traveling performer at 6’4 240lb w a sweet face. #im sure he got very used to men being like ‘ah. i’m having a crisis rn’ at the sight of him. #thinking abt tony denying it even when he lets steve suck his dick. skfnfkfk #the internal monologue of ‘no this is normal. he’s so fucking attractive nobody would find this unappealing it’s captain america #i have ideas for how each part of the triangle sort of like. gets together but idk how i want the poly thing to occur. #like ik probably one person A walks in on pair BC. but who’s A and who are B and C. if you know what i mean #anyway this got long and kinda rambly #steve rogers #tony stark #steve rogers x reader #tony stark x reader #stony x reader #yes im using tags. the dopamine is simply necessary for getting me back into writing again #im in my ‘acknowledging and accepting my hedonistic tendencies for motivation’ era

[claratwelve]

thirteen just dropping her whole backstory on the fam at once after not saying anything for months im

#hi yes im from gallifrey im a time lord i stole this tardis and the master used to be my bestie #NOT YAZ ASKING HER IF THEY CAN GO VISIT GALLIFREY RIGHT AFTER IT WAS DESTROYED (AGAIN) #and the doctor is having yet another existential crisis #but like at least thirteen is finally getting some emotional depth and heavy stuff to work through #that is exactly what i missed in s11 #i remember everyone being like when is she FINALLY gonna snap #bc the writers just kept avoiding thirteen going There

[eldritchmochi]

hey quick question, what does it mean when your incredibly cute coworker spends months lamenting the fact that he cant order new contacts because his vision script is out of date but ends up still wearing his (new) glasses to work then later shows you pics from a family gathering where hes definitely wearing contacts and you have a dawning realization that no, he really has worn his glasses exclusively around you and you think it might be because of an offhand compliment on his new frames six months ago

asking for myself. h elp

#mochi rambles #i continue to be having the most baffling gay crisis #like at this point i am absolutely certain hes been casually flirting withe for like close to a year #AT LEAST #im just fucking *dense* so i didnt pick up on it til he got VERY overt #i still cannot get a read on him though #and i cannot lose this game by asking him outright what the fuck is going on #at least not without some attempt at goading him into making a move #this is simply who i am as a person #*however* #points at him *what the fuck* #its such a stupid small thing that i do not think anyone else in the office has noticed but like #does he wear his contacts when im not in??? #i *must* know #but unfortunately i am uh #not really all that close with anyone else in the office BUT him #and i suuuuuuper dont want to put our mutual whatever the fuck this is on anyone elses radar #yes we both intend to quit by the end of 2024 #but i do NOT want to deal with our ancient boss starting shit because she got a wiff of an affair #screms #mochi you useless lesbian

[finely-tuned-line]

RP:

Log 236

FTL: ...No updates on either of the experiments. I haven't checked. I've been... thinking.

FTL: It's hard to say what I've been thinking about. Everything, I suppose. Echoes of a Paradox... Well, their rant directed at me has thrown everything off-kilter.

FTL: I don't- They're right. They're right. They must be. It all makes sense and yet- It doesn't. Well, it does. But-

FTL: Was I really that blind? Was I really that-

FTL: I can't think. I can't think about anything at all, it's all just going in circles, I need to figure this out, I'm wasting time.

FTL: Why am I wasting time? Why do I rush so much to get back to work, to keep- Because it's my purpose, it's what I do, it's why I exist. Therefore I must do my work.

FTL: I- I'd still be doing my job even if I didn't like it. Right? I mean, surely it's not just my- I have reasoning. I exist because of my purpose, therefore I must fulfill it, therefore I do so. That fact that I like my work doesn't matter all that much. Its doesn't.

FTL: I don't see any flaws in that logic, so how did I end up here? How did I end up hurting my family so much and not seeing it?

FTL: I need to get my thoughts in order. Pause. Don't think.

FTL: Alright, what did Echoes of a Paradox say?

FTL: They said that my mindset, specifically the careless comments, put pressure upon them and the other members of our Local Group to follow that mindset as well, despite the fact that that was not my intention.

FTL: Is this a possibly true thing?

FTL: Yes. Echoes of a Paradox has never lied to me before, they have no reason to do so, no outright falsities were clear within their words.

FTL: Was this intentional on my part?

FTL: No. I'd never willingly hurt any of them. My Local Group is my family, they're the people I'd never hurt. They're only joined by approximately two or three external others. I never did pause to see what the effects of my words were, perhaps because it was inconceivable to me that they could be harmful.

FTL: What else did Echoes of a Paradox say?

FTL: That my mindset of prioritising my purpose above all is unhealthy and pitiful and that I'm only harming myself by not breaking out of it.

FTL: Is this statement unique?

FTL: No. Echoes of a Paradox is not the first to share a similar sentiment and share it with me. The others being primarily LIFEGIVER and somewhat Upsilon.

FTL: Due to this not being an uncommon sentiment, is it a logical one?

FTL: No. No, it is not. Iterators are built to accomplish one or more tasks, disregarding that purpose even a bit renders the Iterator useless.

FTL: ...Do I apply that statement to anyone other than myself?

FTL: No. That belief is one that I hold only myself up to - others, whoever they are, can do whatever they wish to.

FTL: Is it logical to apply the statement to only myself?

FTL: No. I am not the only Iterator, that statement generalises all Iterators, which includes both myself and every other Iterator.

FTL: Why do I apply that belief to only myself?

FTL: ...I do not know. Perhaps it's a sense of only being able to control my own actions, of the fact that I'm the only one who appears to see that fact. If it even is a fact.

FTL: Why does everyone appear to be taking this mindset to be a negative one?

FTL: I do not know. It makes sense, there is no reason to disregard it the way that everyone does. It is a fact, denying it is rather pointless. We're - I'm - machines. Artificial Intelligences. Designed to fulfill tasks at the behest of our creators.

FTL: Why does anything else matter?

FTL: It doesn't make sense. That is the definition of my existence, why should I strive for anything outside of it even if my creators are long-gone? Why do irrelevant things, like relationships, emotions, personalities, anything matter? Why put so much stake on it?

FTL: Echoes of a Paradox says they pity me for thinking this way. I don't know why. I'm, of course, remorseful about the unintentional harm I've caused them, I don't wish to ever hurt them.

FTL: But why? Why, why, why?

FTL: Why do I care?

FTL: Why does it matter?

FTL: The rules of existence are laid out so clear, I follow them, yet why is that-

FTL: I don't understand. I simply don't understand.

FTL: I've had logical explanations laid out before me by LIFEGIVER. They make sense. But they also don't. It's unnecessary. I can accomplish my task well enough without emotions, or anything of the like.

FTL: I exist only because my creators needed someone to fulfill the purpose I was given. That is all I am, and that is all I ever will be. There's no reason to concern myself with anything else.

FTL: Why bother with, or care about anything outside of that? It's unnecessary.

FTL: So why do I do it?

FTL: I do not know. I simply do not know.

FTL: I have nothing to say. I am unable to figure this out on my own, nor do I care to inquire about it.

FTL: All I can truly say is that I regret what I incidentally did to the members of my Local Group, and as much as I wish to properly take Echoes of a Paradox's advice, LIFEGIVER's advice, anyone's advice, I simply cannot.

FTL: Perhaps it's a matter of viewpoints. Perhaps their external viewpoint of myself allows them to realise things I do not. Perhaps I've just been thinking this way for too long.

FTL: It just doesn't make sense.

FTL: As much as I wish I could follow the suggestions given, I can't. Not out of stubbornness, but due to the lack of sensibility.

FTL: I've been fine thus far, have I not? Despite my lack of care about my own safety - and I maintain: for good reason - I am alive now. I am as functional as the day I was given consciousness. Nothing matter beyond that, no?

FTL: I suppose the only thing I really can do is perhaps take LIVEGIVER's advice about how emotions are useful and not burdens. I am quite hesitant about that though, because I do truly doubt it. They're blinding. Irrelevant.

FTL: ...At this point, I am completely unsure what to do. Simply going back to my work seems- ...Feels incorrect. I can't cut down on the time that I spend working - what else would I do? Besides, that's only wasting time.

FTL: It's all I have to do.

FTL: Besides, I cannot simply abandon my experiments, bad things could very easily happen with a half-finished experiment. Such as the one I currently have in progress.

FTL: So, while letting it rot away would be very easy, that would be very counterintuitive. I'd rather not do that.

FTL: In the end, as always, all I can do is go back to my work. As always. Even after something that seems so world-shattering. I've done my contemplation, I've arrived at the same conclusion as I always do - other than the realisation and acknowledgement of the unintentional effects of my actions. Nothing can and will change, really. Beyond perhaps talking with my Local Group more often.

FTL: It's all I can do.

FTL: Back to work.

#this is disjointed as fuck yes #bcs the way i imagine that ftl even writes anything is sort of by... filtering his thoughts into a text thing?? #like iterators sure as fuck dont type normally #so if ves.. well ves thinking lik this then what gets written - recorded - has much of the same air bcs ves not filtering it to be sensical #i think that makes sense o7 #im too sleep deprived to word rn okay #listen im sorry i dont thinkni properly got ftls point across here #bcs. well its the same issue i have with expressing my own complicated emotions #words dont explain anything well enough #mmm listen this is shit bcs i cut it off before i projected onto ftl TOO much #(too late for that) #(WAYYYY too fucking late) #(this whole thing is basically an existential crisis of a rant - aka an overconvoluted vent on my part) #yes thats ftl making a pun #listen. i saw the opportunity. i took it. its funny. #to anyone who was actually expecting proper character development or whatever. with ftl changing his mind and getting Better or whatever #yeahhhh sorry but thats extremely unlikely #convincing him - or trying to - is pointless. no arguments could be made. #basically the only thing to do is show. not tell #if that makes sense #i dont fucking know #theres a very real chance that hell never change his mindset - if only bcs i cant figure out any answers either #ALRIGHT SRY FOR BEING DEPRESSING AS SHIT. I PROMISE IM FINE OR WHATEVER. 👍 #BACK TO STATUS QUO WE GO!! #except ve miiiiiight be better w emotions now but i doooo doubt that? unsure #well see... #rp #finely-tuned line #ftl logs #im sry the writing here is kinda shit

[kimmkitsuragi]

i finally understand the temptation of buying a beverage

#i mean i love drinking tea all the time but u dont necessarily buy that everyday u know #u can just do it yourself instead of buying it from a cafe #but this one.... i tried to look for the recipe but it looks like this one place just made it up and it's so. mmmmhhh #so will i be buying an overpriced drink the first thing tmrw morning before i go sit in my language class? yes #my friend bought that one during one of our lotr days this week and she was like omg check this out and let me taste it #it was so good i bought it for myself the next day #and since that day im like....... i can almost taste it rn....... a phantom taste in my mouth........... i need it............. #etc etc and hi btw if anyone is still reading #i didnt stop here that much this whole week and honestly i probably will continue that if i can help it :> #i need to do stuff which i still didnt do this week bc like. i was having a silly time #which good for me!! but like. can u please do stuff atp im just 🧍‍♂️ we kinda have to u know #it feels kinda bad to put it off all the time too #i wont get into the existential crisis of it all yet again we've been over this #but also im so not over it at all. so #action plan and actually execute it girl. please. i will have to ask for letters from some of my instructors so like #i dont wanna be like hahahahahaahha aahhah i kinda didnt do anything in the meantime lol :D #not the greatest motivation btw i know just. anyway #life update kinda but make it weird. lol #🗒

[soldier-poet-king]

Also it's Friday which means I get to leave work early which means I have like. 8 hrs of Pathfinder waiting for me at home since I'm in too much physical pain to go to the gym today and I can stay up super late since no work tmrw and like. I have a vague sense that tristians personal quest is coming to a head in the narrative soon and I'm just 👀👀👀

#I LOVE TO SEE MY SWEET NAIVE MAN SUFFER #franposting #in my sad man tortured by god era #this kind loving Naive cleric of sarenrae my FAVE ttrpg deity by FAR #im just #idk details i think he goes blind?? faith crisis??? idk #im trying to avoid spoils #maybe he betrays you??? BUT HES SO NICE AND SWEET AND I WANT TO KISS HIS DUMB FACE #my magus eldritch scion is trying to romance him SO bad and hes just like??? #too dense to pick up on it. i love him sm #he is so quietly sad that no one realizes he is struggling!!! #hes peaceful healer boy and the party thinks him naive #but he is an orphan raised in a monastery with no choice and he is alone #octavia i think is the only one who gets it bc she understands radical mercy like none of the other party members #YES I AM THINKING TOO MUCH ABT THIS #but im like. a horrible gremlin when it comes to rpg party dynamics #one of the best things video games have ever done #a book dybamic squad but I GET TO MAKE CHOICES??? and the NARRATIVE #truly only unhinged behaviour from me from now on

[archersartcorner]

2/3 of my primary TES OCs! Here's Po, my HOK!

Here's the link to Sven, my Nerevarine!

And a link to Val, my LDB!

IDs under cut!

[ID: Two character reference images, both for the same character, done digitally in Procreate.

The first image shows the character, Apollo, from the chest up. He's a pale-skinned human, with a round face; round nose; different colored eyes, his left being golden, and his right being a muted purple; short, brown hair, graying at the scalp, strong sideburns, and a goatee; and he has a small scar across his nose. He's wearing the leather armor as depicted in Oblivion. Notes around the portrait read: "Apollo (as he appears by 4E 201) / The Hero of Kvatch, Champion of Cyrodiil, who disappeared as the third era ended. / Became the Gray Fox before retreating to the Isles and mantling Sheogorath."

The second image is a full body picture of Apollo, depicted as a broad, fat man, with selective coloring, designating any marks or scars Apollo has. Around his stomach, chest, underarms, and inner thighs are blue squiggly lines meant to represent stretch marks. In red can be seen a variety of other scars, notably the scar on his nose, and the top surgery scars on his chest, among others. He also has some minor scarring on his arms and legs. There are many notes surrounding the image, the first reads: "Scar Reference for Po / Info: / Blue are stretch marks. / Red is scarring." A general note reads: "Most of the scarring doesn't have a big story to it. They just happened in battle and stuck - but a few have some significance." Regarding his top scars, a note reads: "The scars under his chest are obviously top scars. They're actually two different colors, golden on the left and purple on the right - Mania and Dementia, Sheo's two tits." Next to a scar on his right chest, a note reads: "The scar almost directly over his heart there - that was done by the shadowy figure of himself within the Grove of Reflection. Perhaps there's a symbolism to it - he just remembered it hurt like shit." Next to his legs, the final note reads: "The ones on his arms and hands are mostly battle related, while the ones on his legs here are just because he's not very careful at all. Because same." END ID.]

#my art #tw: scars #ask if you want me to tag anything else but im drawing a blank!! #oblivion #elder scrolls #described #oc: apollo #hero of kvatch #tes oblivion #tes 4 oblivion #ALL OBLIVION TAGS YES #next up is val! my lil dragonborn baby #i already have his scar reference sheet. just gotta make a lil portrait (as if i dont have so many already JKFDHSAJKF) #po's a. BIT more secretive about himself than sven is. cus like. how do you explain... *gestures at po* all that #'oh yea i accompanied martin septim during the oblivion crisis and dedicated myself to his cause just to see him die in front of my eyes- #-for the good of a dying empire. then i went and rejoined the thieves guild cus they were my family and always there for me but there was- #-this sudden disconnect between us. after stealing the elder scroll and becoming leader i left. and found comfort in the world of the mad.' #val literally just sitting there: '.................... are. are you good?' #and po just 'oh babyboy i havent been good in 200 years!' #i love my weird messed up protags so much FDJKSAHFJK

[epicdogymoment]

well i think mobcop has everything to do with hijikata being an alivegirl

#leologisms #gintama #gintameta #so if 'we're' (i am) talking about hash tag alivegirl hijikata im gonna have to talk about mobcop #hijikata who has been assigned the title alivegirl on the basis that he does not want to be the alivegirl. his lose condition is still being #left alive after everything. farewell shinsengumi arc beheading nightmare and kondou 'death' come to mind #but also the chapter where kondou gets shot protecting that frog amanto. specifically the part where hes addressing the men afterwards #(lesson 15. truly one of the chained government dog moments ever.) 'not the bakufu nor the shogun. i only take orders from kondou-san' #<- words from the mouth of a dog on a short chain #shinsengumi crisis as well. 'you are the soul of the shinsengumi we are the sword that protects you' #and of course rengokukan arc and 'you know how kondou gets'. which also brings up hijikata and his oni mask #which he dons in an attempt to save kondous face in exchange for his own. to redirect any animosity towards himself #AND in an attempt to remove himself from his own humanity (something which merely gets in the way of the duty hes imposed on himself) #gestures broadly at mitsuba arc. of course both that arc and rengokukan (wherein the actual unmasking takes place) reveal that hijikata #really is nothing but human (with vices like mayonnaise and smoking. behaviour of a guy who thinks he is Definitely going to live to see the #ill effects of his own actions) but yes. hijikata and hes desire to be stronger. to be helpful. to justify his own existence #hes decided for himself (pre timeskip) that his sole purpose in life is to protect kondou and that anything else should be (SHOULD be) #discarded. hes someone who would gladly never have been alive (a living human being) in the first place if it meant he could carry out his #self imposed duty better. enter mobcop #yamazaki fellow resident alivegirl of the shinsengumi. by virtue of his mob nature. of being so jimmy. #yamazaki former hooligan reformed into a Normal Guy. and hijikata 'self flagellation is always the answer' toushirous treatment of him #yamazaki who did what hijikata couldnt and actually became the Most Normal Guy Youve Ever Seen. and then went on to die and become a robot. #but also interesting is that this happens post timeskip. at which point hijikata is less single mindedly driven by his self imposed #duty to kondou. we even first meet him and realise who the hell he even is once hijikatas tracked gintoki down. #which doesnt necessarily mean that hes let go of the oni mask human mask sword thing. #i dont have a good way to end this. theres a lot of implications here and i dont know what to make of them. good night to one and all

[crescentfool]

ADACHI BBY IN MY SPLATOON GAME???? is. *cries* is this a persona 4 reference. or am i crazy. i’m crazy.

#splatoon #IM SORRY FOR BORDEILNING INTO BECOMING A SPLATOON ACCOUNT BUT ITS ALL I PLAY THESE DAYS. #and i want whoever the player who is adachi bby to know that their name amde me LAUGH and have an existential crisis for like 6 minutes. #if it's not a p4 reference then i've embarassed myself. #obligatory i am minatoast tag yes hi that's me and my title in this game is 100% on purpose #lizzy speaks #i would tag this as persona 4 but also No i don't want this in the p4 tag

[bylertruther]

with the way that some of you talk about will you'd expect every other scene of his to be a suicide attempt, for there to be scenes of him talking about lonnie negatively or at-fucking-all, for there to be scenes where we can see this supposed disgust or hatred for his sexuality, for him to have been the one that said "what did you think really? that we were never going to get girlfriends and stay in my basement playing games for the rest of our lives?" and "it's not my fault you don't like girls!" and "we're friends! we're. friends.", for him to have been the one to make fun of mike's campaign, for him to have been the one to ditch his interests to be Cool and Grown, for him to be the one with the family that doesn't give a rat's ass about him, for him to be the one in a relationship with someone he doesn't love because he doesn't want to face the truth, for him to be the one that can't ever talk about his feelings or let himself feel them, for him to be the one avoiding love, for him to be the one that went through a depression and grief arc, for him to be the one that is shown to not be okay even when there's no supernatural fuckshit going on, for him to be the one isolating himself from his loved ones, and so on and so forth cutting this post short now even tho i could 100% go on and keep rattling off the Actually depressing shit tht you guys keep stealing from other characters on this show and trying to pin on him. but anyway ....

#before one of u decides 2 put on ur clown shoes n try to twist my words im not saying he's never been sad #but some of u mistake will's behavior during a crisis for his behavior every day #when the scenes without any supernatural fuckshit show us tht he's a pretty normal guy lol as normal as someone like him can be #and tht he bounces back bc he is fortunate to have a life full of ppl tht love him n fortunate to have hobbies n interests he loves #like. he is a character in a story we only have what they show us #and even in supplemental material will is a very hopeful guy. he sees the bullshit but doesn't dwell on it. like. #it doesn't matter but i jus . grrrr #he doesn't like being doted on but it's people doting on him that's made him relatively well adjusted after everything lol #characters like mike jon max billy el etc are That Way bc they don't have what will has #yes lonnie was awful but will has always had mike jon n joyce in his corner n they overcompensated bc of it #like. idk lmao y'all act like will is tht girl from 13rw or idek. y'all act like he's mike sometimes tbh. #homeboy is out here making art for his crush making presentations on gay heroes daydreaming abt playing games being a sassy brother etc #but anyway . 🤪 (<- me trying 2 be normal so normal)

[kuma-shima]

maybe. just maybe. (its mental illness innit) kokichi is right about the yandere thing lmao

#yes i have my own typing quirk now but i don't care about using it on my own blog #also it's not my own i just stole his lol #did that make him uncomfortable. that i am stealing his mannerisms and shit #because like. sorry hi i want to unzip him like a sleeping bag and clamber inside #like the tauntaun thing from starwars #boy get over here im gonna unpeel you like an onion #unrelated but did you know i really fucking love funyuns apparently #they have flaming hot ones at s&s and i wanna try them but they're only in the big bags #why am i here. just to suffer?????? #actually literally yeah lol that is in fact my system job #is to be clingy and to be crying #because of like. splitting off during the meds crisis TM and stuff #and then we thought we couldnt come see you and it was fucking DISTRESSING. d word ing even #so nobody is surprised that im like this but i dont like it when people are like 'wow thats so in character and predictable' like okay!! #cool great!! i have a character that can be predicted??? one of my own???? since when lol #i need to stop edgyposting it is almost 5am