#history class failed me

[kaiserouo]

Tired Ghost

#i don't wanna spend too much time on this #(wrote an essay about how i thought vanguard hacking kit was developed) #yep that's not lorem ipsum #i just wanna see ghost complaining don't judge me too much #i didn't take history class in the ishtar collective (TM) those are all ooc don't actually read into that #if you actually know what im saying then you'd know i probably failed my computer security lesson #also the traveller probably gave them similar tech so their physical architecture should be similar #also ur a nerd lol #destiny 2 #destiny hunter #destiny ghost #destiny 2 art #my art

[beggars-opera]

Me: I am not a true historian of the Salem Witch Trials, just a local with a passion and a lot of books. I have read a lot of books though.

Them: I trust you

Me: Here is a very basic, uncontroversial statement

Them: Well, actually

Me: I am stabbing your poppet as we speak

#the real fun starts tomorrow #the people who post blatantly untrue shit with 'citation: I'm a local' congratulations you clearly also failed history class!! #I have at least 3k pages of information in front of me and that's just what I've BOUGHT do you want to DANCE

[hella1975]

ive got an essay due at 3pm tomorrow and ive not even looked at it i am so so unserious about my degree and by the grace of some higher being i somehow keep managing to crawl through it's actually getting a bit funny

#me and an old friend of mine used to have a running joke during a-levels that im just one of those people where shit Works Out #and it started bc we shared two a-levels (english and economics) and in BOTH classes i regularly didn't do the homework #or the reading etc and yet it would ALWAYS work out for me #like we'd walk into a class neither of us having done the homework and they'd get yelled at while i went under the radar somehow #or that one english essay i got the highest score in the class when i literally hadn't even read the fucking book it was on #and when we pointed the theory out it started just becoming really prevalent #like no matter how late i am for things i'll arrive and by some miracle the thing im late for is also late (e.g a train or teacher) #like im just one of those people that has very very mundane luck #and low and behold i am fighting this degree with bloody fists putting the absolute bare minimum in for my own sanity's sake #and i SOMEHOW keep pulling through. literally failed two modules last year and STILL got a 2:1 average #and the last essay i wrote was the worst essay id ever done in my life and i get my standards are higher bc ik im good at essays #but the point still stands and you know what? i got a FIRST #literally was pure waffle i have never blagged it so hard and i got a FIRST #and all this shit just makes me cockier and cockier and go even more by the skin of my teeth and it ALWAYS WORKS OUT #it's soooo silly but im not complaining. anyway ill keep u posted about this essay <3 it's econ history so is actually interesting #but the most ive done for it is ask the sc ai lmao and for context degree-level essays usually require a good few days of graft #live love laziness #hella goes to uni

[bericas]

scott appreciation week (day 4) → i think it’s my fault

― Andrei Tarkovsky, Journal 1970-1986

#twedit #scottmccalledit #scottmccallweek #dont talk to me about the last gif i dont want to hear it #ive taken one art history class and the only redeeming thing about the last gif is that it kind of looks like a painting almost #with like the faded gauziness and how the tarp almost looks like brushstrokes #I TOOK ONE ART HISTORY CLASS PLEASE DONT BULLY ME ABOUT THIS #and i do think it adds to the effect. like its over. theres no fighting it. hes a saint. #the rest are in focus and vibrant and the last one is kind of blurred out. okay maybe i like it now. #anyway its really about how scott doesnt get to be a kid and so rarely are the adults in his life adults #and its not necessarily their faults. like. very many of them are also human. #deaton steps up for him a lot and melissa does her best and imo only ever really fails bc of poor writing choices #and by s6 when chris is trying to be his stepdad i think he's stepped up in a big way too #but. like. melissa raised a good kid. and shes a good mom. but life still happens and no one really talks abt how scott was parentified too #like. you gave a kid with a fixer complex supwerpowers. he is obviously going to feel the need to be a superhero #he barely got to be a kid before that and he certainly doesn't get to now which we see as early as season 1 #when he leaves his friends and girflriend in a room to hide in a room to go fight a monster #he doesnt get to hide. he doesnt get to not fight. by formality he's saying that he has to protect everyone #in fury matt shoots him in front of his mom and makes him leave her and threatens to kill her and he still cant help but show him sympathy #during his Tragic Backstory. like. scott wouldve saved matt if he couldve. i bet he thinks about matt honestly. #WAIT FUCK #FLASHING GIF TW #for the fourth andddddd seventh one #maybe the third one? im not sure but its him breaking thru the mountain ash its all glowy #anyway #scott doesnt get to be a kid and by s5 they forget that he's even a person #and by s6 they try to assert that as a positive #every villain makes him kinder but only because he doesn't have an alternative. it changes him. it can't not change him. #he can't be the same after. so it's kinder or crueler but crueler was never an option. #theyve made him into a saint by robbing him of his personhood

[proto-language]

been thinking about how weird i have been feeling about the king's cancer diagnosis. and i had been wondering, 'am i wrong for feeling strange and sad about this when the family at the heart of it are the centre of this awful system?'

and i think that, actually, this is just another part of what makes the system terrible. of course it is, first and foremost, exploitative of the people - of the united kingdom, of the wider commonwealth, of the many other places which were touched by the british imperial project. but it is exploitative also of the people around whom it is designed. for whom a cancer diagnosis is not a private tragedy, but a public affair. whose actions and appearances are noticed, reported, scrutinised. what does this mean for harry and william's relationship? - where is the king staying during his treatment? - how is he going to meet with the prime minister?

nobody wins, i think, while the royal family remain royal. certainly some are losing more severely than others. charles will have access to the best possible care for his condition while millions languish on nhs waiting lists. but this doesn't feel like any sort of victory to me.

#i very much understand why people hate not just the institution but also the individuals of the royal family #doubly so those whose backgrounds mean that comparatively recent royal history has had a tangible negative impact on their community #(which i don't feel is the case for me as a middle class white scot) #and it is certainly fallacious to claim that 'he's just an old man; he could be your grandad!' or whatever. #but for myself personally i prefer not to lose sight of the fact that they are *people*. #of course they're not 'just like us' - but they could have been. and the fact that they never had that chance or choice is #another failing of the system. not the *primary* problem - but symptomatic of much much deeper and broader issues. #and anyway. on a shallower level. i think i just find it hard to find much glee in cancer regardless of the context. #this post won't even show up on my own dashboard because i have the term blacklisted.

[lynaferns]

School is draining any small motivation I had for art

or creativity in general

(tw: I got pretty much depressive in the tags but I needed to dump this somewhere and this may not be the best place but is where I feel better talking about my problems or insecurities, so feel free to ignore)

#vent in the tags #tw vent #i'm tired #and I hate that I'm tired #everytime I try to finish education is worst than the last time. my head can't take any sort of information from the class #no matter how many times they try to explain me or how many times I read and reread the same text #I can't focus. I can't memorize anything. I'm just sitting there in the classroom waiting for the 4 hours to finish to go back home #and spend the rest of the night just doing nothing. staring at the walls or doomscrolling till I have to go to bed and wake up again #for another day of fighting against an stupid anxiety attack in class because I'm going to fail this again #I hate school. I fucking hate it. the most boring stressing overwhelming way of learning #having the teacher talk for 1-2 hours straight and the student listening the whole time not saying anything is stupid #it's so fucking stupid they only want them to be mindless sheeps that only listen #because if you say anything 'no. you're wrong. I'm the teacher and I know better' fucking bullshit #this system is bullshit #and how am I supposed to study a whole school year of history. biology. math etc in less than 4 months?? #everybody was like #'oh it's just 4 months and you'll be out of school!' 'in 4 months you'll get the education!' 'you can finish this in just 4 months!' #I fucking can't! I can't do this in such short time! I can't. focus. on 6. subjects at the same time. my brain can't! #and it's so fucking depressing. I have 4 opportunities to finish this. the longest it could take me is 2 years #I could just focus on 1 or 2 things each time but if I fail too many times I won't have another opportunity like this ever again #and I won't be able to finish highschool education and I. just. can't. #I'm tired of giving my biggest effort and not being enough. I'm tired of getting no satisfaction from any achievement I get #I hate so many things right now #and I have a lot more things in my head right now but I better shut up #you don't have to comfort me. it's ok. I'm not searching for confort. I just needed a place to dump my frustration or something #idk #you can ignore this #I might delete this later

[gay-jesus-probably]

Will you ever reveal your 911sona to us king (gender neutral)?

Anon, I would LOVE to. Tragically, the only documentation of the life and death of my 9/11sona existed entirely on maybe 3 sheets of paper, written a decade ago for two linked school assignments that at the time I found wildly embarrassing, and honestly kind of offensive; if grade 9 wasn't one of the major milestone years for Canadian education (PAT's, baby!), I would have refused to do the assignment entirely, as inventing fake victims to mourn in a very real and (then) somewhat recent tragedy felt extremely fucked up. And it's still fucked up, it's just also really funny that someone thought that was an appropriate school assignment.

Anyways, my point is, while all this is hilarious in hindsight, at the time I was genuinely ashamed to have done the assignment, and once it was over I wanted to stop thinking about it, because if I acknowledged how much I hated that teacher, I WOULD start shit, and that would tank my grade for the year. Language arts is a wildly subjective subject, and so if you piss off your English teacher, you're absolutely fucked, because that grudge WILL show in how they grade you. So as soon as the 9/11sona assignments were marked and returned, mine went directly into the trash as I tried to scrub the whole nightmare from my memory. The overall situation remains seared into my brain to this day, but the details of my 9/11sona have, unfortunately, been lost to time. It wasn't nearly as interesting as the concept implies though; I sure as hell wasn't feeling any sort of passion for the project, so I'm pretty sure my 9/11sona was literally just some generic guy working some generic office job in one of the towers.

...Though the real punchline to this side of the story is that after a whole miserable year of gritting my teeth and holding back arguments to put up with this awful english teacher to ensure she marked me fairly, all of it became even more infuriating when I wound up getting into the exact situation I had been afraid of, literally on the first day of grade 10 english. As in, it was my first class after lunch, and I got in there about ten minutes early because I was worried about getting lost. Before the bell rang to start class that day, my brand new english teacher had informed me to my face that I specifically would be singled out to be marked on a considerably harsher curve than anyone else in the class. She fucking meant it too, the whole semester, apart from multiple choice tests, every single one of my english assignments had a strict grade ceiling of 79%, I never made it into the 80+ range by her standards, which was the most infuriating possible way to lose what had, until that point, been a perfect record of always ending a school year with my english mark in the 90's. I put up with making a fucking 9/11sona to maintain that record, and then lost it the next year to a snap judgment one teacher made literally less than ten minutes after I walked into her classroom.

...But that's a story for a different time.

#can you tell i'm still bitter about my grade 10 english teacher #BECAUSE I'M VERY FUCKING BITTER THANK YOU #i mean credit to her at least she had arguably the best grade 10 shakespear unit in the country #specifically bcause she thought romeo and juliet had been done to death and made us do Merchant of Venice instead #that was really cool honestly there was some really interesting discussions about the history of antisemitism #and how the plays depiction of shylock compared to other plays portraying jewish characters at the time #very interesting stuff! much more interesting than any discussion i've heard for romeo and juliet lmao #like i loved her class she was a great teacher. BUT SHE WAS ALSO A COMPLETE DICK TO ME SPECIFICALLY #english was always my best subject! i'd literally just failed my first class ever (math) the semester before! #I DID NOT NEED HER TO DESTROY MY CONFIDENCE. IT WAS ALREADY GONE #SHE WAS JUST KICKING ME WHILE I WAS DOWN AT THAT POINT

[dreamwinged]

why is there a demonic energy in my dorm room tonight

#get me OUTTTTTTTTTT!!! #experiencing so many horrors (history essay) #also resentment toward other people who aren’t forced into academia so hard that they’re just watching their lives go by #me when im completely wasting the last few days of my study abroad indoors doing finals #when all my friends are going out having fun :/ #it’s not their fault or my fault. it’s just my family thinks im nothing without grades and im in six damn classes #i had to miss so much just to make decent grades this semester and i feel so empty. and i still might fail my finals #because none of it was worth it #whatever… #what EVERRR #and my dinner was gross. sad day

[purgetrooperfox]

wait are you canadian?

no lmao I just lived there for a bit. wrecked my education fr. miserable experience

#because like. i moved partway through my freshman year so in the us i was taking the usual world g + bio + [state] history + alg 1 #but after i moved i was taking middle school ass classes like ✨️math✨️ and ✨️science✨️ and ✨️social studies✨️ #no specificity in that mf #so as a result i am a certified idiot vis a vis biology and geography in particularly. thanks cow town i hate you #truly among the worst places i've ever lived and i've lived a lot of places #anyway. i'm assuming based on when this came through that you saw me blame canada for my failing grade on that european geo quiz thing #so there you go. lore #asks answered #god dammit. in particular*. although it's possible that i'm just a fool in general

[witchinatree]

i love when i finally feel happy and productive with my schoolwork & im actually getting every assignment done and then i get a really bad cold and carpal tunnel in the same week ??????????????????????????? when did we stop letting gay people be successful

#carpal tunnel #fucking hurts #my wrist brace is so goofy too #good day to be ambi..am.. dickterous #you get the point #let me be happy #and successful #im begging you #watch as i fail history bc of this #my teacher has us write for 90 minutes straight in that class every day im so srs

[iknowwhereyousleepatnight]

i feel like i'm not weird enough about anything anymore i think i need to take that baroque art history class next fall so i can get silly again

#we have like 2 art history professors and the one i always get stuck with does baroque and goddamn do her classes #suck the life out of me but they make me feel something real and whatever it is is just shy of a religious experience #yes every time i do art history i sob and cry in the floor because i hate reading 20 page chapters and writing 50 essays but #i think i actually miss the essays and also nothing gets me shaking in barely restrained excitement like art history #i’ll see if i can fit it into the fall i think i can(?) i’m p sure i’m actually below 12 credit hours for the fall but i’ll have to check #if so then that’s great i hope my other classes don’t tag team with it to Kill Me like they all did last semester #but then again if they do who gives a shit that should be my last semester as long as i don’t fail any classes i’m outta here

[mariemariemaria]

The new channel 4 documentary on the miners strike is fantastic. It covers different points of view, from the striking miners, to working miners, to the women in striking communities, to the police. It also shows how the Battle of Orgreave on 18th June 1984 was planned and initiated by the police, and how the media (BBC and ITV) covered this up and showed only the police's side, while positioning them as being the victims of miners' violence (which was very minimal to non existent in reality), who simply retaliated because the "restrained...traditional British policing way" (I have to laugh) didn't work.

I also didn't know until watching this that Gareth Peirce, who represented the Guildford Four and the Birmingham Six, also defended mineworkers who were victims of police brutality at Orgreave. What a woman!

#british history #working class history #miners strike #acab #im so interested in this period of history + chose this topic specifically as part of a british history module last year #so im really glad that this docuseries was made for the 40th anniversary and i hope it is never forgotten #and i often think about how miscarriages of justice against working class british people are exactly the same as #british miscarriages of justice against irish people. i was thinking this when watching #at one point an interviewee even says something like 'obviously i'd seen this happen in northern ireland but i never expected it to #happen in england!' and the way the police acted obviously made me think of what they did in the north of ireland #and the gareth peirce connection just confirmed it. but how many people saw those connections? #how many of the miners who were beaten by police saw the same things happen to irish people but didnt care? or thought they deserved it? #this isnt to blame them..they were fed lies that the irish were terrorists...but it suggests to me that this oppression is connected #also similar is how RE the post office scandal a lot of people were shocked that british justice had failed #a man in the drama even said that it was britain and he was british and that british justice wouldnt let them down #and you just think like...do you not know what british 'justice' did to innocent irish people? do you think they deserved it? #did you think you were immune because you were british? in ireland we know there is no such thing as british justice. #but british people never seem to learn this history lesson #what a better world it would be if working class british (and irish) people could recognise our similarities and joint sufferings as a #result of the british state. its quite frustrating to watch british people constantly put faith in their gov/justice system #learn from your own history!! they dont care about you!!

[fireandiceland]

9 for the ask game 💖

Answering this by popular demand lol.

I feel like my choice is pretty uncommon, but a while ago my good friend @breitzbachbea showed me a short fic (or the beginning for a fic) she wrote that was set in Ancient Rome/Ancient Greece. It feels like it’s still such an unexplored territory hetalia-wise, despite making for a super interesting setting and the chance to make chibi characters like Italy, Egypt, or Greece interact with their canon ancestors! Yeah, that’s the time period I’ll go with.

#you see I was forced to learn too many numbers and dates and boring stuff in school so I basically stopped listening in history class once #we reached the Middle Ages #but ugh I loved learning about Egypt Greece Rome. that’s where it’s at for me #also you see in a country like Austria you learn so so much about ww1 and ww2. which is important. but I fail to use any knowledges about #these for fics or really enjoy one that’s set during that time #riva.ask

[sparklehoard]

30, 31, 35

30(already answered)

31) also already answered bur 3 facts are repeatable. 1. When I was a a kid my leg faced too far inward. The elementary school had funds for physical therapy but they over-corrected and then the funds ran out so now my right legs faces too far out in my natural stance and walk. 2. When I was 9 I was 5'9ft tall. Looking at my school photos where they made me stand with the teacher in school photos im almost a whole foot taller than the rest of my classmates. 3. I kind of stole one of those Herb growers that use solar light to grow herbs in the kitchen. My mom had it sitting in it's box for 3 years and I took it and zip tied it to my beds headboard. I've been using it to fight the winter depression and I think it's working quite well.

35. Favorite subject was art. I do love art still but looking back I kind of hated text based assignments. Having the teacher tell you yours was the most interesting to read. Having the teach use your essay in an example of a good job. And then getting it back and you got graded a c+ for grammar mistakes. Like I understand for English and language classes but it felt bad that even if you were excelling you couldn't get a decent grade for the little things as a young kid. Art was something I felt didn't hold me back in that way.

#ask #sundrenchedsmilez #my final year of highschool i had a c- in my french class before the end of year provincial testing #it was a spoken test.no writting. i got a 96% that was 8% more than the second highest grade that belonged to the valedictorian of that year #i failed my college history class because they never taught me proper academic essay formats in highscool #and the teacher was always telling me my essays and assignments were amazing but she couldnt grade me properly in anything. #heads up if you think you can learn proper essay format from an English textbook you had to buy for your english class? #youre wrong the textbook could be 100% wrong and the english teacher will tell you you should have known it was wrong before you #& not in the you didnt learn it properly from the textbook way. but in the way you made the teacher read it over and she tells you its wrong #the whole north american education system is a dumpster fire

[magnetic-dogz]

I would say I've always been good at history too because I have History Autism™ but tbh hardly any of my history teachers ever made enough of an impact on me for me to remember if I did good in their classes or not. I do always remember my 11th grade history teacher specifically though because he was awesome

#cookie.txt #i don't remember ever straight up failing a history class that's for sure #the only classes i ever remember getting dangerously close to flunking are math and science classes #and particularly chemistry... which i felt like i could've done better in if i hadn't had so many distractions in class #i will NEVER forget my teacher in that class giving me a project for extra credit #and bumping my grade up to a barely passing D after i turned it in #she was so so nice for that she could've failed my ass so easy

[zouisalmightie]

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#im going to use these tags as a way to beat my soul about my job so if you come at me you’re a bitch and i hope you stub each individual to #i finally realized why im unhappy being a teacher and it’s because i don’t care about the future of these kids more than the cursory #‘I hope theyre ok’ you would feel for any stranger in the world #like i want to harm to come to them but i truly don’t care about them #like the kid that sleeps in class ? my thought is finally he’s fucking quiet the kid that’s got a 2% and doesn’t pay attention im like #whatever like im not motivated to get them motivated and if I wasn’t the kind of person that cared about her work id give them worksheets #for the rest of the year making them silently work while I r ead books all day #like I feel like at the beginning I did the calling home and the tutoring and the flipping over backwards to get as many of the kids to #their reading level and ensure they’re getting a great history lesson that’s going to reach every student and now im like #this is the lesson and if you like it great if you don’t idc you can pay attention or fail it’s on you #and part of me feels bad like I should want to dress up like x figure and get them engaged by doing xyz and like I just don’t want to #it’s like what’s the point im going to engage the same 9 kids in each class while the other 21 pretend to #pay attention while they’re texting under their desk and then they’re going to try to google or use ai the answers #and im like…. whatever i dont care turn it in don’t turn it in whatever #ik too young to feel this apathetic about teaching and it suck but also oof I don’t care #I want to quit at the end of the year before my apathy turns into hatred I’ve seen teachers that hate hate the kids and that can’t be me #like even if I stayed for 30 years it wouldn’t be me but the idea of it scares me #I don’t want this job to change who I am as a person but it’s taking away my care for the younger generation #I don’t hate them or wish them ill but I just genuinely don’t care about them or their progress or anything #it’s scary #anyways im rambling idk im just having a bad day ill see this tomorrow and be like wow girl get a snickers cuz this isn’t you #but rn that’s how im feeling