#history re-telling

[lonelysheepling]

Some fonts I use that I like a lot

✿ Billo ✿ Pixel flag ✿ Bigup ✿ Cute stitch ✿ Hearts ✿ Kawaii ✿ Mamae Que Nos Faz ✿ MilkyWell ✿ School Script Dashed ✿ Scribble ✿ Life lessons ✿ Mastodon ✿ NEON LED light ✿ Retrolight ✿ Rough ✿ Stampwriter-Kit ✿ Stranger things ✿ Through the night ✿ zai Royal Vogue Typewriter 1929 ✿ Lemon Juice ✿ Back to Fishing ✿ Baby doll ✿ Avocado cake ✿ Collection new style ✿ Brittany Signature ✿ Doctor punk ✿ Heavy Rain ✿ Jokerman ✿ Magic Retro ✿ Retro computer ✿ RetroKing ✿ Semi-coder ✿ Surfing Capital ✿ The Owl ✿ Tomatoes ✿ Top Secret Stamp ✿ Typewriter_Condensed ✿ VCR OSD mono ✿ Virtue ✿ WRESTLEMANIA ✿

#fonts #typography #free fonts #cute fonts #typeface #not art related #holy hell it was hard to re-find some of these #hearts and rough were a nightmare #I had to dig through my search history all the way back to September 2022 to find where I got them #Tell me if any of the links break #I have them written out separately so I can fix them if needed

[crimescrimson]

Ada Wong & Leon S. Kennedy: The History [ Resident Evil 4 (2023) ]

#crimson's gifs: resident evil #Resident Evil #RE #Resident Evil 4 #RE4 #Resident Evil 4 Remake #RE4R #RE4MAKE #Ada Wong #Leon S Kennedy #Leon S. Kennedy #Leon Kennedy #Leon Scott Kennedy #Aeon #AdaLeon #LeonAda #Leon x Ada #Ada Wong x Leon S. Kennedy #Pairing: Keeping Score #im ngl to you please look at all the other Aeon footage ive previously edited in its full on youtube #from the 1998 og to fucking re2 remake and tell me you don't see how out of character their interactions in 4r are #Because I swear to god ive been working with their entire history of footage for this series for the past couple DAYS and its just mental #I ranted about Leon last set but its also Ada whos undergone a crazy fucking out of character streak too #Calling Leon a dog and shit is NOT how shes treated him at ALL in any other instance #Like in the og again shes outwardly caring and concerned for him in SW and the base game. She does NOT talk about him like that #Even in their later interactions like re6 shes still outwardly worried for him #The only piece of media that comes even close to that type of characterisation would probs be Damnation and even then #The whole movie segments with them is just dark flirting while on the job and theyre both in kinda bad moods so in there it makes sense mor #In RE4 its a reuniting after 6 years on BOTH sides. I loved Ada's new seperate ways and the bond she had with Luis but they massacred #How she and Leon treated each other and it makes me mad

[darkwood-sleddog]

Unleash your rage, please tell me all about the giant malamutes. Also I love your beasties, they’re so cute and you put a lot of effort into them and it shows!

Ohoho I have spoken about this many times before but since you asked so nicely....

Alaskan Malamutes are a type of Inuit freighting sled dog. Inuit sled dogs still bred and used by Indigenous people who have traditions in dog sledding look a very specific way and this includes size. There's a clear, straight line between the function of the dog (hauling heavy freight in cold climates) and the size of the dog.

Let's examine other Inuit sled dogs:

The Greenland Dog, one of the most isolated land race dogs in the world for example (in that its development was and is currently very isolated from admixture of European dogs). Size is quoted in their standard as: "Height: dogs: 58-68 cms (23-27 ins) at shoulder; bitches: 51-61 cms (20-24 ins) at shoulder.

Weight: dogs: 34-47.5 kgs (75-105 lbs), bitches: 27-41 kgs (60-90 lbs)."

Proportionally the dog should be longer than tall.

The Canadian Eskimo Dog (also known as the Canadian Inuit Dog or Qimmiq), is a rare sled breed due to the dog culls that occurred in the 1970s. Size is quoted in their standard as: "

Height: dogs 58-70 cms (23-27½ ins), bitches 50-60 cms (19½-23½ ins).

Weight: dogs 30-40 kgs (66-88lbs), bitches 18-30 kgs (40-66 lbs)."

The Alaskan Malamute has a complicated history, but can most accurately be described as an Inuit style freighting sled dog bred specifically for work in the Antarctic expeditions. Several things to note is that:

1.) a huge majority if not a majority of dogs that make up the founding of the breed are not from Alaska, but rather Eastern and Central Canada, mostly Labrador Huskies (a type of Canadian Inuit sled dog specifically from the Labrador Region) as well as a known Greenland Dog (Bessie).

Below: Labrador Huskies (yes they're still around!) from Northern Lights Dog Sledding:

2.) The standard for the Alaskan Malamute has been revised twice, most significant is the first revision which occurred after the studbooks were open to allow dogs of the M'Loot strain into registration due to the toll WWII work took on the original dogs (who were quite closely related).

3.) Three strains, or families of dogs, make up the modern Alaskan Malamute (Kotzebue (the original registered strain bred for the Antarctic), M'Loot (who were bigger in size and bred for companionship) and Hinman-Irwin (less a strain, more a handful of dogs owned by arctic explorers). This is significant information to understand because the while slight differences in these strains do exist, the dogs were so close in type they were breeding true during first generation admixture, were close enough in size, shape and overall form to be recognized as the same breed, and there are no pure strain dogs left today.

(Eva Seeley with four dogs from the first registered litter of Alaskan Malamutes including CH Gripp of Yukon. Parents were Yukon Jad and Bessie, a dog from Greenland).

The original Alaskan Malamute Standard has size as:

"Height: Of male dog averaging from 22 to 25 inches; of bitch averaging from 20 to 23 inches.

Weight: Of male dog averaging from 65 to 85 pounds; of bitch averaging from 50 to 70 pounds."

Prior to the M'Loot strain's inclusion into the breed registry the breeder of the strain, Paul Voelker lists his dogs as being: "mature dogs range from 23-26 inches at the shoulder and weigh 70-85 pounds".

(Paul Voelker with three M'Loot dogs above).

We know that many M'Loot dogs were larger than this, often exceeding 100 pounds much like my own dog, Sigurd who is 30" at the shoulder at 105 pounds (despite his Kotzebue heavy pedigree...), so seeing 110 pounds near the top of the LEAN WORKING WEIGHT would be an excessive animal by anybody breeding this dog's standards, but certainly not unachievable. Again, not desirable to Eva Seeley (founder of the Kotzebue strain, nor to Paul Voelker, founder of the M'Loot strain).

Because of this middle ground where both strains liked dogs around 85 pounds and 25 inches at the shoulder the standard was revised in 1960 to accommodate the inclusion of these slightly larger dogs. The standard now states: "There is a natural range in size in the breed. The desirable freighting sizes are: Males—25 inches at the shoulders—85 pounds. Females—23 inches at the shoulders—75 pounds."

Proportionally the dogs are longer than tall.

So while there are several different families of dogs that make up the founding of the breed there is only ONE Alaskan Malamute. There is no secondary "type" that is gigantic (120-140 pounds like people like to claim). There is not "standard" Alaskan Malamutes and "Giant" Alaskan Malamutes because 1.) the standard already allows for and encourages the natural size range in the breed which is quite varied. 2.) nobody breeding these dogs in the historical context was calling their strains "Giant Alaskan Malamutes".

So let's examine WHY people call their dogs "Giant Alaskan Malamutes".

The answer is simple: Marketing. People love giant dogs and often see them as status symbols (if you've ever been in a dog breed group where people are bragging about their dog's weight regardless of what shape that dog is in (often overweight) you know what I mean).

More nuanced is that freighting sled dogs like Malamutes, Qimmiq and Greenland Dogs look absolutely behemoth next to "normal" sled dogs like Alaskan Huskies (where 70 pounds is HUGE and 50 pounds is normal) or Siberians which are of a similar size to Alaskans). They're a large dog breed, but they're not giant in the range of actual giant breeds such as Irish Wolfhounds or Mastiffs etc.

Many people breeding "Giant" Alaskan Malamutes also falsely believe and/or tell their clients that their dogs are "pure M'Loot" and spout the mythology that true Alaskan Malamutes from Alaska way back in the day (which is a breed myth, they're not from Alaska remember) were HUGE. like 120-140 pounds huge and use this to justify the size of the dogs they breed (which are just backyard bred, oversized, sometimes not even oversized but just overweight individuals). This myth is easily proven false because it's not like the weight of Voelker's dogs are an unknown, we have heights and weights on many of them and they are very true to many modern "standard" Alaskan Malamutes today. One cannot even claim that the original indigenous dogs were massive because 1.) they didn't exist as explorers at the time often confirm in their writing that the indigenous dogs in Alaska were much the same as those being used across the arctic and into the east 2.) Inuit still use sled dogs today. Traditional Freighting Sled Dogs and we know what they look like and we know what their size is like. The myth that the Alaskan Malamute is some "lost dog breed" is false and takes agency away from Indigenous traditional mushers.

Additionally a huge majority of "Giant" Alaskan malamutes today can be broken down into two categories: those from North America and those from Asia.

"Giant" Alaskan Malamutes from North America will often come from very similar pedigrees. You will see a lot of Cascade, Wakon (particularly this kennel...claiming the dogs are 35" at the shoulders and nearly 200 pounds) and Kingfisher in these pedigrees. These dogs are often long haired, breeders within these lines will often breed long haired dogs purposely as many buyers want very fluffy dogs. Often the dogs are not any bigger than "standard" Alaskan Malamutes, but some can be very big (there is rumor of non-malamute giant breed admixture occurring in the 1980's). Most people breeding within these pedigrees are not necessarily doing the fullest extend of health testing, but it is thankfully becoming more common (can we please for the love of gods tho get people to test more than just hips please). Some dogs in this pedigree type are often accomplish weight pull dogs (because long miles are not being asked of them....) and may or may not be of showable quality, just from a breeder that prioritizes size and breed mythology bs over everything else:

They range from functional and pretty breed standard looking:

To what the fuck is this:

These above dogs are not a "type" of malamute, just dogs with similar pedigrees no different than any other. There are always going to be dogs within a breed that share close pedigree with each other, it's literally just part of how this works. They are not separate unless you want to talk about hush hush paper hanging.

"Giant" Alaskan Malamutes in Eastern Asia unfortunately bear the brunt of the breed's lack of ethics. These dogs are bred HUGE in size, overly loose, overly flewey and the breeders are not shy about the fact that they've bred Tibetan Mastiff into these dogs to achieve the size and hair level. These dogs are bred as pure status symbols and are not getting proper health testing done. I have never once seen a dog from these types of breeders do anything remotely functional. This is a dog that is bred for looks ONLY:

I'm sure you've all see this video (screen shot shown below) of a dog that is absolutely suffering:

So when it comes to "Giant" Alaskan Malamutes there are some simple truths:

1.) They do not exist historically in Inuit freighting sled dogs

2.) Breeders in the mid-century, regardless of the strain of Malamute they preferred liked dogs around 85 pounds 25 inches at the shoulders.

3.) There are potentially hung papers within the breed histories of "Giant" dogs that may account for their overly large size.

4.) They are not a separate "sub-breed" or a different type of Malamute. They are simply all Alaskan Malamutes as the breed's standard allows for variation in size amongst the dogs.

5.) In my opinion breeding dogs overly large disrespects the purpose and function of the breed.

6.) Larger than average individuals can exist and often are produced from responsible breeders when breeding two ideal size or even smaller than ideal sized parents together. This is because genetics is complicated (Sigurd's mom was 80 pounds and his dad 25.5", 73 pounds. Sigurd is 30" and 105 pounds).

#dogblr #alaskan malamute #greenland dog #dog history #giant alaskan malamute #qimmiq #anyways because of the paper hanging and the NA 'giant' breeders distain for 'standard' dogs #it is unlikely that show/working breeders outside of their circles will associate with them #re: give them puppies or buy from them themselves #also lack of health testing until very recently #so i do suspect eventually they'll become a strain of their own #i can already kind of tell when a dog has certain kennels behind it bc i'm insane #but also even if they're recognizably pet bred 'giant' or whatever #they're still just alaskan malamutes #literally.

[pancakeke]

I made a big report a year ago that compares what components were allocated to orders the previous week vs what are allocated now (accounting for consumption n such). it looks at 100% of inventory in 100% of locations. for the first 9 months I was just logging changes while no one gave a shit cause everyone blew off our weekly inventory meeting so there was no one to review anything. but no one can do that anymore :)

I have all the part numbers, quantities, dollar values, and customer accounts laid out very nicely so no one in sales can accuse supply chain of buying stuff for no reason when really they changed their orders around without telling anyone so they wouldn't have to admit making any mistakes.

this report hasn't made them stop trying to lie/hide things in the first place tho. maybe one day.

#people in sales just enter orders wrong and then after the components re purchased they update the orders without telling supply chain #so then the unwanted stuff ships and no one can easily determine what drew demand cause history isnt seaechable in out system #i can do it thru the sql database tho. so i do and add notes to the report's weekly log

[yngai]

a lot about ada's character in resident evil 6 flies over people's heads but i'm always thinking about ada's line as she's about to provide sniper fire & help jake & sherry, "i suppose i should return the kindness their parents showed to me." a lesser pettier woman might've indulged in letting the children of two people who've separately put her through hell suffer as recompense. while i won't say she goes out of her way to offer aid given the only danger she puts herself in throughout the whole exchange is zipping around to whisk sherry to safety & the only reason the ubivsto is chasing after jake & sherry is because ada failed to kill it previously, it does speak to ada's rather wrapped moral fiber, something always shown & never told

#* file // : OOC — ( 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐏𝐎𝐒𝐓𝐄𝐑'𝐒 𝐂𝐑𝐔𝐒𝐀𝐃𝐄 . ) #for reference on being put through hell annette blew her cover and got in her way throughout raccoon city #and wesker tried and failed to make her subservient to him while she spied on his operations #always finding ways to ensure her missions are way harder than they should be (also blowing her cover in south america for example) #the whole kill order on leon in RE4 which to me always read like a mindgame to test ada's loyalty #as wesker was aware she almost compromised her mission in RC for leon's sake and the organization saw it as a betrayal #which was revealed in death's door released two years later so who knows if it was in the mind of RE4's staff #RE is so inconsistent across each game it's hard to tell #the RE4 guidebook just tells you ada appeared out of thin air with no prior history and while she was mistrusted by the organization #they found her the perfect counter to wesker's activities as a double agent

[unproduciblesmackdown]

billions could only have a gay man, who was married, and died by the end of that season; only deal with taylor's upending of presumed cishettery by having everyone who's not terrible be automatically down without putting some crisis about it on them, as the better approach to trying to have people talk about it (true, certainly in this case); extent of its room for rian's latent nonbinariness being "never wearing skirts/dresses, always wearing makeup though"....all that is to say, even with neither of them allowed to be "truly" cishet, b/c that's the rewarded realm for superior people, billions could never do winstuk. but they could be kissing right now

#winston & tuk: cannot be cishet in a way that matters (billions means this as an insult. i mean it as a testimonial) #sure convincing that winston's own ideals are like ''wow im the straightest in the world'' after One alleged official dating experience #and Two crushes on nonbinary people. and being the One person who's a) supported tuk b) without telling him to Stop Being A Loser #the one way other characters can Elevate(tm) tuk more than winston: not Really support him; just tell him to Become worthier #while winston: does not do this #anyway nobody at all gets to be ''truly'' ''ideally'' cishet; just like other inventions re the Correctest body/mind's look & behavior #tbt yrs & yrs ago some random lady talking abt ''queering'' her marriage by having a cellphone or smthing like ma'am i agree nowadays fr #winston Cannot have a ''correct'' sexuality even if he's supposedly ''at least'' cishet with it #neither can tuk; next most loserest dumped no gf nerd! neither Unglasses'd; neither Thin; winston's autistic; tuk isn't white.... #show goes ''well just look at & listen to him XD'' towards winston on occasion; usually doesn't ''overtly'' do this; doesn't re: tuk.... #meanwhile the idea that well Non Hot(tm) people who have no place in ideals & fantasy of Correctness & what's most desired? #they can get with Each Other :) that doesn't threaten things haha don't know how wrong they are. or have accepted All They Deserve (less) #billions is so proximately capable of letting these two be Involved in this way lmao. but it also Isn't #can barely handle taylor & just avoids addressing as much outright as often; again: one gay man; neatly married; neatly deceased.... #iconic total hc's: supplementary dynamics the ladies who are also friends they hooked up w/in 6x11 having a fourway abt it #no anxious negotiating of what must be done & must not be done to keep it all cishet ''enough'' lol. congrats to them all #winston billions #winstuk #was already thinking winston could be dating someone we don't know abt till billions tried to reassure us oh he hasn't Of Course lol right #same is true for tuk ofc but he gets the same treatment (ft. ben's utter mysteriousness re: Any mention of past dating history....) #riawin could've been great & was completely welcome; issue became how the abusiveness there would just also manifest re: sex / romance #totally won't find resonance / overlap b/w ableism & homophobia in how winston's sexuality is seen as mere sex drive that's also gross btw #tuk's really also framed the same way like Of Course You'd Be Rejected; and Any desires would become repulsively Too Much #b/c the superior parties have to want it for it to be correct! & they'd never want You! you're just completely wrong & outside of it all #winston talking at all? Too Much. he must be talked To; & that is so usually begrudging & nonideal #other ppl being horney like well of course. pretty epic really #like w/e winston's sucking & fucking & [Saluting] if he isn't dating at all. like good for him. he can make out w/tuk one way or another #''winston can go fuck himself'' (like one bg dialogue person straightup says) Okay. He Is. party for one? this too can be Sex

[winter-came]

"I think he felt the need to make a noble gesture, something to prove to us and to himself that it was in fact possible to put those high cold principles which Julian had taught us to use. Duty, piety, loyalty, sacrifice. I remember his reflection in the mirror as he raised the pistol to his head. His expression was one of rapt concentration, of triumph, almost, a high diver rushing to the end of the board; eyes tight, joyous, waiting for the big splash." - the last moments of Henry Marchbanks Winter, The Secret History

#tell me #tell me that's not something richard would say about henry #me and richard romanticizing henry like nobody's bussiness #but...BUT #okay i have no defense #i miss henry winter with my whole heart #and i am fighting the urge to re-read that book every single day #also the fact i completely missed that bitch has two surnames #OF COURSE HE DOES #and he has a limp #you know who else has a limp??? #KAZ BREKKER #i truly TRULY have a type huh #ANYWAYS #henry winter #henry winter sad #henry winter edit #tsh henry winter #ths #the secret history #secret history #henry ths #henry winter the secret history #henry winter ths #donna tartt the secret history #donna tartt #richard papen #camilla macaulay #charles macaulay #francis abernathy

[notmoreflippingelves]

Why is it that my rare pair tendencies are not limited strictly to my hyperfixations of the moment but in like 99% of media that I consume? It's not fair. I just get a tiny little urge for like a day to read a fic or see an art for a specific pairing before returning to my main interest. Only to find that particular pairing that my stewpid brain had convinced itself "must be huge in this fandom because how could it NOT BE?" barely exists--if it even exists at all and I have clowned on myself yet again.

#this post is specifically about gwydion/achren from the chronicles of prydain #do you know how many fics exist for them? three and that includes both ao3 and ff.net #altho tbf there are barely any for the fandom in general #maybe a bit more for the disney black cauldron specifically #and both characters were cut from the adaptation #but still most of the little books content that exists is either gen or taran/eilonwy #which i guess isn't surprising but like my boy prince rhun deserves some love too #this is why it aggravates me that we 're in the era of a lot of high fantasy tv adaptations #yet you're all still sleeping on lloyd alexander #gwydion/achren would do NUMBERS if a big budget; high production value adaptation of the book of three dropped overnight #like imagine it with like richard armitage as gwydion and natalie dormer as achren #or maybe hannah waddingham as achren and iain glen as gwydion #you are telling me that people would not lose their minds #over this broken bird (and hot) evil queen and this jaded but very very heroic (and hot) warrior prince #who are implied to have *history* and have been drawn to each other against their better judgement #even though they are on opposite sides #and the whole part where she imprisons him and tries to get him to be her consort #(which he might even be up for if she switched sides) #like the cersei lannister girlies would be going feral and i wouldn't even blame them #and then later in the series; where the power dynamics have flipped and he's so gentle with her #and there's this beautiful sense of what perhaps once was and could maybe be again #but also can never be because doomed by the narrative and also by arawn #but idk maybe it would just be me; lloyd alexander (r.i.p. king) and like 3 other people #who's to say #ah well; back to my elena of avalor shipping crimes #gwydion x achren #chronicles of prydain

[corbinite]

watched through steven universe future for the first time almost two weeks ago and I still feel kinda messed up about it

#mine #personal #su future spoilers in the tags below #I weirdly saw myself in a lot of what he was going through #don't fully know where that came from #the part where he runs away to jasper and Changed in particular kind of took me out of my body #I mean I can be kind of suggestible and prone to identity disturbance so there's very likely at least an element of that here #but still #there were just some notes there that hit in a weird and uncomfortable way #also the part where he was mad at his dad and all his dad could focus on was how that fit into his own projection of how things should go #and it just made him madder #I can understand why I reacted to that part at least #(my dad turned into the kind of person I can talk to about trauma AFTER the chance to actually process it right had already expired) #(and he tells me whenever it comes up that if I want to just yell at him I can do it I can just yell at him and he'll take it) #(and I already know that wouldn't help me) #(there's certain things that can't really be fixed and there's just nothing to do but move forward) #(especially cause so much of the source of the trauma is a distant memory by now) #(so even if the emotional scars are still there what would I even yell about when I barely remember the events any more) #anyway yeah I understand why steven got so pissed at greg about wanting him to rebel #also I think the arc where steven sought out jasper unearthed some of my self esteem issues re: my history of anger #there's a darkness inside of me sometimes I scare myself yada yada insert shadow hedgehog jpeg #but yeah when I say that arc took me out of my body I mean it KNOCKED me out and I'm still sort of re-sewing my soul back in place #discombobulated as all hell #did more talking in the tags than I expected here

[wanderingrain]

How does life continue to move forward after the Rooftop Scene TM? The way Pran, for one moment, allows himself to take the one thing he wants most in the whole world into his shaking hands. The way their tears fall at the same time right before they move towards each other. The music that feels like everything's about to change but also like coming home. The way Pat just stares at Pran before he even walks up to him and then just keeps staring because he's ready to give in, ready to admit to himself that he's in love with this boy, possibly has been forever but never noticed.

The way Pran tries to put on his Everything's Fine façade but just can't because you can see the pain in his eyes. The way he calls Pat out for sending him mixed signals, the first time he's ever hinted at his feelings for Pat. The way Pat kisses him first and it feels like relief. The way Pran pulls him back in for a second kiss because if this is all he's allowed, he's going to make it count. The way they're so desperate for each other.

The way Pat's hands clench at the back of Pran's head. The way Pran's sweaterpaw hand comes up to hold Pat's neck and cheek. The way you can tell how much Pran loves him from how delicately he holds him. The way the first time the separated, Pran was the first one to open his eyes and the second time Pat is because Pran knows when he opens his eyes it's all over.

The way Pat is so happy and relieved because this is just the beginning for him. The way Pran finally shatters because he's been in love for so long, has had years and years of telling himself that they'll never work out, that his love is a tragedy. The way Pat's whole world pieces itself together just as Pran's breaks apart. The way Pran walks away broken. The way Pat slowly realizes something's wrong. The way his face goes from relief to heartbreak. The way their parents messed them up so much.

How can we move on from this moment? How does the world keep turning?

#re-watching Bad Buddy #in order to write a fic #watched Ep 5 two nights in a row and cried both times #continued crying while writing chapter 5 #probably the single most heart breaking scene in history #But also the most beautiful #I have so many feelings #Bad Buddy #Pran #Pat #PatPran #PranPat #the rooftop scene #also the way Nanon and Ohm give it their everything #no holding back #their eyes tell everything #WanderingRain

[sugar-spice-everything-vice]

i feel like they didnt spend enough time on monicas suicide attempt and how that affected everyone; because that kinda thing isnt just another bad thing that happens like its more than that; like she couldve died right there on their kitchen floor?? idk

#ngl it really fucked me up #like i could tell it was coming but it still fucked me up #and i just didnt feel that same impact from the characters #but maybe im just too sensitive in re: to sucide #because of my own history with suicide #this scene just makes me so sad #and while i hate that monica did it right there where her kids can see #i also can imagine exactly how she was feeling there #like she didnt deserve any of that happiness they were willing to share with her #even if it was only for a day #shameless #thoughts

[libraryfag]

not my dad asking what labels i use 🫥

#exactly what i don't want him to say. he's not homophobic or anything he's trying his best (thesis statement of our relationship) #but my whole thing re: coming out to my parents is i just don't tell them anything and if they know they know. I don't need to make a big #deal of it. the issue with that is queer shit especially queer culture+ history IS a big deal to ME so its hard to find a balance #my posts

[lokh]

hm. i may have just made gods biggest mistake

#please do not @ me to tell me how dumb this possibly is. but i did end up trawling #thru the euthanasia and assisted suicide and suicide pages on wikipedia. on the work computer #it wasnt really relevant i was just bored and wanted to see what wikipedia said about the maid stuff #in the us and how it covered opposition particularly re how euthanasia targets certain populations #the answer is not well lmao there is one paragraph and it is brief #anyways. hope no one bothers checking my history LOL #its grade school all over again #ok took a few minutes. im chill lmao i think im overreacting #i would likr to blame it also on the zoloft. thanks everyone

[tarydarrington]

🔁 for the fic rec game!

🔁 A fic you’ve re-read several times

Two for this one, because I couldn’t choose which to rant about:

the awful daring of a moment’s surrender by TheKnittingJedi/mllekurtz

the other things that make us by saturdaysky

#both of these are E rated and both are very good in that respect and yet. the E rated bits are not at all the first thing i think of #the first is just such a sweet soft look at how they just. Are. with each other #you get the sense of how much they love each other but also how much they just plain like each other and being around each other #and of course of course of Course i love jess's take on essek being the first to call him caleb in that context So much #and what they did with caleb giving something like that back to him. i am clutching my heart #the second one. you know how your ao3 history tells you how many times you've visited a fic. #last visited 3 days ago visited a total of 22 times #i've tried multiple times to put my thoughts together properly re: this fic and still can't come up with anything intelligible #it's just. them. perfectly so #complicated and tentative and difficult and soft with So much love #handled so carefully and expertly #both of these are just constantly floating around in my brain i love them So much #asks #anonymous #ask games #fic rec #thanks for asking!!

[pagesofkenna]

I'm plotting out this book based on my D&D OCs as if I was plotting out a campaign I'd be DMing, and when it comes to writing it I'm very tempted to fully roll dice to see what happens

#this is just the latest shiny writing idea I have but lets see how far this one gets lmao #basically I'm trying to retell the character arc of one of my D&D NPCs but other than that. I don't NEED anything specific to happen? #so if I go in just improvising the whole thing as I write it and then edit for cohesion afterward like. that sounds fine by me #I'm re-setting this character in my homebrew setting which I've been tinkering with literally since I started DMing #bc I'm really fascinated with the cosmology and world history I kinda threw together for this #also this is my Adaka story and if I actually DO finish it I'd wanna go back and re-tell the Halin story and then the Nadya story #without any of the actual PCs that showed up in those games bc I don't wanna use my friends' OCs or retell the story exactly? #so like. the Adaka story retells the arc I came up for that character but is also an excuse to explore outer planes stuff in this setting #the Halin story would be an excuse to explore Shadowfel lore in my setting #and the Nadya story an excuse to explore Feywild lore in my setting #and I have a host of unplayed PCs who'd help facilitate those explorations

[dcptcnx]

not me being happy to finally learn german. 

part of my family on mom’s side were from switzerland, but my nan on dad’s side just really loved richard wagner, and (jokes aside) i am “der Auserwählte” with receiving a last name from wagner’s “Der Ring des Nibelungen”

hint: Sieglinde (Nan’s Middle Name), Siegfried (Uncle; Nan’s first child), Siegmund (Her First husband/Father of my uncle).

#sin speaks 🤍 #i love the history #but i can never re-tell it all the time #i always forget #but the fact tolkien was inspired to write lotr bc of wagner #now im imagining König getting excited