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rosyelement · 21 days
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more microorganisms.... this time it's junepei!
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I found a relic of a website design selling ornate spindle whorls if you even care
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heartpascal · 6 months
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just read through a half written fic from back in APRIL???? made myself kinda sad tbh. and goddamn why did i not finish this!!!!!
one of my fav lines from it: He was terrified, suddenly, that you would die down there, alone, whilst he was upstairs looking for the very thing that might just save your life.
dare i try to continue it? it was a request too oml 😭
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I want to write but idk if Pico should deal with Bf or Darnell... or maybe both 💜💚🩵
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yume-fanfare · 6 months
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also my future masterpiece for when im done with it
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ladyteldra · 3 months
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Tender is the Storm
Alternative Title: The Scum Villain's Very Troublesome Hoard
The world is a dangerous place for a living hoard, but Shen Jiu is a dragon and will always protect what is his.
This might be easier if anyone had decided to inform him of that fact.
Xiao Qi was only a child himself when he came across a pretty rock halfway buried in the mud on the side of the road. 
It wasn’t a road anyone would go down without reason, rather one that led to where he was kept with the other children. He was the second youngest. Qi, number seven. He had a name before he was sold, but remembering it wasn’t worth the beatings, and none of the other kids had names that weren’t numbers. Keeping his wouldn’t be fair. So Xaio Qi was Xiao Qi or A-Qi or Qi-er or even Qi-ge to A-Ba who was the only one younger than he was.
(The adults rarely called them more than the name itself, usually stinking with just Qi and Ba and San and so on, but Er-jie and Yi-ge insisted that at least between them they should be called like family, like people. So he was Xiao Qi, even in his mind because it would make them sad if he was just Qi.)
It was nice being older than someone, it meant he could help them where they struggled. No one else was going to if he didn’t. And Little Eight was so small and delicate. He wasn’t sure how the adults expected her to do all the chores on her own, and begging on the street wasn’t something they allowed her to do. They said she was too delicate to be seen like that.
(Xiao Qi thought A-Ba would be very good at begging. She drew attention the few times she was allowed out with him, and people were kinder to her.)
It didn’t make sense to keep her at the warehouse and doing chores when anyone bigger than her would be a better choice. 
Xiao Qi had gotten lucky today though! Someone had taken pity on him today and given him double -twice!- the amount he usually made in three days! He could go back home early and help A-Ba without the adults knowing he left early and might even get praise for such a good haul. Praise was nice, it made him feel warm where usually there was only a cold numb feeling. Sometimes it even earned them extra food or the rare bit of meat. 
It was still early, and no one else would be on their way back yet, which is likely the only reason Xiao Qi was the one to see the pretty rock and not someone else. He’s even luckier than he thought! If he hadn’t gotten money earlier, he’d not be on the way back, and he’d never have seen the lovely green rock at all! Someone would have taken it and kept it or sold it!
It was stuck rather deep in the disgusting mud and filth off the side of the road, so maybe someone had been by but passed it up because they didn’t want to touch the mud. But it was so pretty, and maybe if he brought it back the adults would be extra happy and all of them would get a full serving of congee like that one time Er-jie brought in the pretty green hair piece! 
Xiao Qi didn’t want to step into the mud, it wasn’t his turn to bathe for another five days! And he knew from experience that being extra dirty wasn’t enough to change the schedule. It would just make him have to sleep away from the others or even outside. He was smart though, and found a stick before returning to the rock and using it to shift the rock closer. 
It was much bigger than he thought it would be. Heavier too!
It was really hard to move it close enough to grab from outside the mud, and when he did, he had to use both hands to lift it to the main part of the road, almost causing him to overbalance and fall in anyways. It was oddly circular, not at all flattened and misshapen like most rocks he sees. The bottom is a bit bigger than the top, tapering into an almost point. Like a much bigger version of the chicken eggs he’s seen the adults cook. And wouldn’t that be funny! For such a pretty rock to actually be a giant egg!
He uses his hands and some leaves to clean it off the best he can, which was surprisingly well. The mud seemed to slide right off the rock!
It felt odd under his hands. 
It was chilly out, the leaves beginning to change color which the older kids said meant it would be too cold to sleep alone soon, but the rock was warm as if it had been sitting in the summer sun or on the floor next to the cooking fire where the oldest and biggest usually claimed before the heat disappeared for the night. It was also a little bumpy, not as smooth as he first thought, textured - he thinks the word is. And it wasn’t just green! It was green and gold! The gold sparkled in the sun and was only where the smooth changed to bumpy. 
It was the prettiest thing he’d ever seen. Prettier than the clothes the nice Jiejies at the building with red lanterns wore or even the men and women in the fancy carriages that pretended they didn’t see him when they decided to walk on the streets and he didn’t think he’d ever hold things as pretty as those.
Xiao Qi picked up the rock and started back to the warehouse. He wanted to show A-Ba before it was taken away by either the older kids or the adults. 
He tried to hurry, he really did, but he kept stopping to readjust his grip and get a better look at the rock. Eventually, he noticed a crack. 
Oh no! Did he cause that when he was moving it with the stick? A stick shouldn’t be enough to break a rock! He’s pretty sure that wasn’t there before, but maybe it was just a new angle. Maybe that’s why the pretty rock was thrown in the mud like trash?
Xiao Qi ducks into one of the smaller alleys to get a closer look, maybe it’s not too bad. The adults say they can buff goods to make them look better, so if it’s just a small crack, maybe he can fix it!
Even as he thinks it, the crack gets bigger. Oh no!
In a panic, Xiao Qi puts it on the ground and holds the rock on both sides as if that will keep the pieces together. 
It does not, the single crack spiderwebs into many and begins to admit a bright gold glow. 
Xiao Qi has to shut his eyes tightly against the bright light, but even then it still shades his eyelids gold. He’s sure that rocks shouldn’t just randomly start to glow. 
When the gold disappears, he carefully cracks open an eye to look at the rock. Except there’s no rock anymore.
Where the green rock sat is now only shards.
In the center of the shards is a baby. 
“Oh,” he says in shock, “it must have been an egg after all.” 
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snowangeldotmp3 · 1 year
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with great power...
(or, the spider-nance au);
Nancy aches. Everywhere, all over, it all aches. There are cuts on her face, her hair is wet from sweat. Dirt and blood—which she’s not a hundred percent sure is hers—streak her cheek, her hair. Her bones ache.
The only thing keeping her from quitting is the rage that burns in her chest. White hot rage that blisters.
Nancy perches in front of the man who tried to kill everyone. Who tried—and nearly succeeded—to kill Robin. Who’s responsible for all of those little girls gone missing, for Eleven. Who’s responsible for nearly tearing the town apart with his ‘scientific genius.’
He stands here in front of her, with a smug smirk tugging at his lips. Nancy clenches her jaw. He thinks he’s won. He thinks she won’t do it. (Nancy has always liked to prove people wrong.)
“Little spider, you’ve lost. You should’ve known better than to come after me.”
Nancy’s stance changes, one leg stretched out, an attack stance. The white-hot rage inside of her speaks, “I know what I got myself into. You should’ve known better, because now all I want to do is kill you myself.”
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unholy-screeching9 · 2 months
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I can't wait for you're new fic!! Ugg the lack of King Dice fic's and headcanons on tumblr should be illegal😩. I just NEED a sneak peak what this fic is about😳
I just wanted to remind you to be sure to take breaks when needed and be sure to drink you're daily dose of water <333
-🃏 Anon
I'm SO glad to hear it!! It's a little over halfway done, and I'm so excited to share it. Hopefully it'll be able to make up for the lack of content in general, as well as my absence for the last couple months :,) Thank you so much for checking in!! You're so sweet, I'm genuinely so lucky to have such wonderful followers.
As for a sneak peek! I'd be happy to set all of you up with a little something special. I've left the summary/synopsis of the story itself down below. 💋
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King Dice has never been a stranger to receiving love and praise, but truly returning that affection is where he lacks. It’s against his nature to be genuine, until you come along and turn his whole life upside down. Now, he has to fight an internal battle between his heart and his mind, struggling to choose between his job and this strange, yet pleasant feeling he hasn't felt in years.
This is a story of a charismatic gangster who struggles to learn how to love again, and a fiery soul who got caught up in the right place at exactly the wrong time.
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I don't wanna give away TOO much to avoid spoiling you all, but I hope the synopsis makes at least a little sense! If not, it'll all play out when the actual story is released. To give a bit more background, you, a newbie to the town, stumble into the Devil’s Casino one night. Exhausted and looking for a way to blow off some steam, you head to the bar. There, you meet King Dice, who watches with interest as you order a drink and watch the patrons silently, judgmentally. Your eyes meet, and immediately, Dice assumes that you’ll fall for his trap, just like all the other pathetic fools who are too lovestruck to realize just what they’re getting into.
However, you prove him wrong. And you teach him how to love — something that he never thought he’d be able to do again.
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egotisticalmachine · 4 months
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sorry to ask you to ‘diagnose’ me, but lately ive been finding that i really really heavily relate to a lot of pwNPDs posts. ive also noticed thought patterns i have with my non-system splitting (thoughts go from ‘i am the most victimized person ever in the world’ to ‘i am the most horrible abuser that ever existed’).
i wanted to ask how you got diagnosed/started seeking information on NPD. i want to perhaps bring these thought patterns up the my therapist, but im unsure how to (esp since she has used the term “narcisstic abuse” in reference to experiences ive had)
any advice?
thank you for your patience, my life is very busy these days and i dont have a whole lot of time for tumblr, but i dont want you to think this is unimportant to me.
to be clear, im self diagnosed, and not planning on seeking a professional diagnosis, so i can only really walk you through doing your own research and self reflection and tips i can imagine would be helpful for seeking a diagnosis if you choose to do so. im aware my choice is somewhat controversial, and i would be happy to list out all my reasoning in a separate post, but i feel like that would be really fucking long (and kind of bitter tbh) and this is already gonna be a doozy. my main point is that if youre going to self diagnose, itll take a lot of research and thought; and if youre going to seek a prof diagnosis, itll take research and thought as well but youll also need to take into account the trustworthiness of whoever you turn to for help. if you go the prof dx route, i wish you nothing but the best of luck.
but onto my own process.
first, the DSM-5. a free PDF of the entire thing can be found here. make sure to read over the first part defining personality disorders as a whole, as well as the section on narcissistic personality disorder ofc, AND the disorders that it can often be mistaken for, which are listed under "Differential Diagnosis". take note of any that it seems you might fit the criteria for instead, or in addition. remember that NPD can be comorbid with many other conditions, as long as it isnt directly negating the diagnosis, such as narcissistic traits only being during episodes of mania.
please note though that the DSM-5 is still written from an outsider perspective. while it is ultimately the outline for a diagnosis, its not exempt from framing us in a negative light. for example - my lack of empathy isnt the result of any "unwillingness", i literally just have a lower capacity to empathize with others than the average person does. i can fake it, most of the time, but i cant force the real thing.
the DSM-5 also focuses mainly on pwNPD who are more outwardly grandiose, while ignoring those of us who dont present that way. for the most part im not a very "arrogant, haughty" person because ive learned thats not how i get my needs met. i may sometimes accidentally sound patronizing without realizing it, or i might unmask in safe environments and let myself be healthily arrogant (like playfully boasting and half-joking about everyone loving me), but on the whole i avoid it because in my experience, people like me better when im humble. even if im often arrogant internally, i filter myself. im not particularly grandiose now, but i used to be even less so - i was more of what gets referred to as a vulnerable narcissist, displaying (very often excessive by the standards of social acceptability, but still usually genuine) emotional vulnerability to others in the hopes of getting comfort and attention, and often placing myself into the "inferior" social rung that i believed everyone else wrongly saw me as because i felt that if i tried to take the "superior" position i "rightfully deserved" i would be hated for it. now i would say im in between grandiose and vulnerable, but still not as grandiose as whats described in the DSM-5.
also, consider the ways the criteria might apply in ways that may differ from whats described, or what immediately comes to mind. the "Diagnostic Features" section describes pretty specific scenarios, and i know i personally sometimes struggle to think beyond the examples im given. are the "special people" you associate with morally or creatively or spiritually special? do you exhibit entitlement by not doing assignments and being surprised by the consequences, or by expecting someone else in the household to handle the chores because youre busy, without considering that theyre busy too, maybe even busier? does your need for admiration apply to art you create, jokes you tell, facts you share?
TLDR for those last four paragraphs: the DSM-5 is absolutely the starting place for research, but doesnt encompass the entirety of the narcissistic experience. which is where the next step comes in -
keep researching. this step is... very, very difficult. the sad truth is youll mostly see articles about how horrible narcissists apparently are. youve probably already seen much of this and im sorry. theres not really any way to avoid it, because even resources that can offer actual help tend to have at least a degree of disdain for us. ive seen some pwNPD recommend the works of dr daniel fox, such as his worksheets available for free online, and if they might be helpful i encourage you to utilize those; however even his youtube channel is incredibly villainizing, at least based on the thumbnails (I Am Not Clicking On That Shit) so i really cant take him seriously and wont be giving him any of my money. please just be cautious wading through everything and remember that, whether you have NPD or just narcissistic traits, you arent the monster these people want to frame you as.
i wish i could remember every article that helped me along the way, but the biggest one i always recommend to ANYONE who wants to learn more about NPD is the one ill link here, Narcissus And The Daffodils. the authors use the checklist linked here to go into detail describing the spectrum of narcissistic experiences. the checklist is built using the DSM-5 criteria, essentially reworded, restructured, and added to in order to offer a more thorough understanding of NPD.* the authors elaborate on the checklist to explain how those criteria tie in with the experiences described.
*while the checklist is described as a potential tool for self diagnosis, i firmly believe it cant be your only resource to do so, and im unsure if that was the intention of the creators, who do openly state that they arent professionals. however, i still consider this a very helpful resource.
as an additional note: NatD touches on three different forms of empathy, emotional, cognitive, and compassionate. after doing a lot of research on the subject, my conclusion is that nobody can fucking agree on how to categorize and label different forms of empathy, but the categorization is still helpful for me and many others. basically, whats being said is helpful, just prepare to be confused if you try to research further because that model of empathy isnt the only one out there.
beyond that, you kind of just have to keep on trucking. sift through the bullshit. use your critical thinking skills, consider what info might actually be helpful and what might just be hateful and able to be disregarded. try to keep seeking out pwNPD, but also be cautious that even some pwNPD arent going to give the best info (r/NPD sucks ass and so does the associated discord holy fuuuuuuuuuck, absolutely toxic community and also not very queer friendly). and you mentioned relating to posts made by pwNPD, so it sounds like youve already been seeking out communities, and hopefully youve been finding good ones! im certain other pwNPD have more resources than what im able to offer as well.
TLDR for the past five paragraphs: research research research, keep your wits about you, think for yourself, seek out healthy communities, and dont let the shitheads get you down.
this will also take a lot of self reflection. you need to consider how your symptoms affect your daily life, your interpersonal relationships, your private moments. can you pinpoint when this started; was it sudden, or have these traits been building up over time? what might have caused all of this, what did your youth look like, what does your life look like now? how have you been praised? how have you been hurt? what were your parents or guardians like?
professionals arent 100% certain of what causes NPD, but there are patterns - genetics, upbringing, trauma. look at your roots just as much as your branches, so to speak. some pwNPD were praised too much as a child, made to feel more important than others. some had their needs neglected. some experienced both. im sure there are other factors im forgetting to list, so again, go listen to other pwNPD and see if anything they say clicks with you. ill use myself as an example below for the sake of explaining one of many many ways NPD can develop, but thatll touch on childhood emotional abuse and trauma, without going into too much detail. if thats still upsetting to read about, feel free to skip the next paragraph.
growing up i was both put on a pedestal for my achievements and talents (like getting good grades or being cute) and devalued for anything that was inconvenient or undesirable (like being easily scared or making mistakes), so i learned subconsciously that i was somehow innately superior to my peers but also that my superiority was conditional and i was innately flawed. i moved houses constantly, so i didnt get to learn how to develop lasting friendships, and my detachment made it far too easy for me to see people as temporary sources of attention and entertainment and not much else, easy to discard without any trouble once our time was up. even once my family settled down in my teen years, they still maintained an idea that i was better than my friends. my mother in particular was manipulative, so i learned to be manipulative too - i became calculated in how i spoke and behaved, tugged at heartstrings, and outright lied countless times, all as a survival mechanism as it became harder and harder to meet the expectations placed on me. i couldnt depend on the same easiness of childhood i had grown up with, especially with other obstacles like schizophrenia in the way of my grades, but i hadnt been taught how to work for success and didnt have the support to succeed, i just felt entitled to it, it felt like something innate to me. and while all these family and school troubles were happening, and eventually work troubles, i had my trust broken many times by many people (often BECAUSE my drive for attention led me to stick around awful people and put up with hurtful behavior), and this reinforced my misanthropic idea that i must be better than other people, but that i have to prove im not below them.
aside from just shamelessly liking to talk about myself - im sure i can be honest with you here lmao - im saying all this to illustrate a very important aspect of my self diagnosis process. i am able to pinpoint a VAST array of experiences from my youth, including plenty that i didnt even mention here, which contributed to the development of my symptoms and influence my current day behavior and psyche.
which means, going back to the tree analogy, i can connect my roots to my branches. i can recognize the symptoms i experience, the branches, and i can trace back down to the experiences that led to those symptoms, the roots. that helped me to better rule out other possible causes for those symptoms - i dont experience low empathy solely because of my autism, even if that is a factor, but specific events in my life further lowered my empathetic ability beyond what it potentially could have been. i dont feel superior as a symptom of mania, both because its a constant feeling and because i can explain how that feeling was instilled in me.
dont feel bad if you cant pinpoint everything like this. like i said, it takes a lot of self reflection, and if theres trauma involved, itll probably be a painful process. its ongoing too, there are still moments that i suddenly make a connection between a branch and a root. and mental illnesses as a whole are complex, because the brain is complex, and life is complex. and, again, genetics are believed to be a factor, so it could be possible that if you have NPD, you may have had a lot fewer developmental experiences that led into it, but experts just really arent 100% sure about all the facts. all i can tell you is my own experience.
and of course, i know ive already said it plenty of times, but focus on those branches too. really really consider how your symptoms impact you and how well they may line up with NPD or potentially something else. i know that i have full certainty in my self diagnosis, but i know that wont be the case for everyone and even with your own personal certainty, you might still want a professional diagnosis. again, if you choose to seek that, i wish you only the best and i hope youre treated with nothing but the highest respect and dignity.
so my tips for that prof dx as someone without one. first and foremost in this section: gonna have to say your current therapist is a no-go. its not impossible to change someones mind about narcissistic abuse, but its also sadly not all that likely on your own, and more importantly it isnt your job when youre just trying to get help for a potential disorder. there are websites where you can search for specialists (dont use psychologytoday), but i know when i tried on a site i sadly forget the name of, i didnt get any results, so i dont know how many options are out there and listed on these sites.
your next option is probably word of mouth. reaching out to NPD communities, asking who can be trusted. but, given how small the community is, and that you dont want to doxx yourself and might not feel safe asking people you know irl, thatll probably be difficult too. there may be listings somewhere by pwNPD, but im unaware of any.
i think the next best option is just to reach out to therapists in your area, or just as far as youre willing/able to travel, or as far as theyll take telehealth appointments - and ask them some questions. do some doctor shopping. this is an important decision and you need to know you can trust the person youll be opening up to. i would start by simply asking if they treat people with narcissistic personality disorder. some therapists may simply not have the expertise to offer such treatment, while others may actively refuse to do so, but either way, you want that yes/no answer. if they do treat pwNPD, you can continue to ask questions about their goals in treating pwNPD, the processes they use, their success rates with these patients.
i would be cautious in asking any questions that might even POSSIBLY come off as accusatory. directly asking a therapists opinions on narcissistic abuse may result in them slotting you into the "victim complex" role, or them feeling like theyre being put on the defense, even if they dont hold those beliefs. even those who dont see us fully as villains can still see us poorly. try to ask questions that are more common to what anyone would ask while researching a therapist, and take note of anything that seems off, or of if they seem particularly safe and affirming.
also!! please consider your insurance, if you have it! all my recent doctors have been referrals from other doctors, but in the past ive had to go on the site for my insurance and find a list of doctors who would take it. alternatively, you could ask upfront if they take your insurance.
beyond all this, i dont think theres any other advice i can give you. so ill give the floor to anyone who might have anything else to add, any resources, articles, websites, therapists, advice, words of encouragement, polite corrections to anything i might have gotten wrong.
if you read this far, thank you for your time, and thank you for trusting me to offer my help. i hope i could steer you in the right direction, because the sea is fucking rough out there. whether its NPD or something else youre struggling with, im happy to help you out, even if it takes me some time to reply. and once more for good measure: i wish you the best of luck, dignity, and care.
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chaoticfoxsworld · 6 months
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I only read the first 70 pages of Babel, yet I feel like I should add every R.F. Kuang to my tbr. The writing is sooo good.
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arsonist-chicken · 2 months
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btw in absolutely unsurprising news I fucked up the exam of that class I'm taking for the third time badly again.
in very surprising news, apparently Something happened, idk if the dean said something to the professor or I looked like a distressed broken down wet rat enough or he just doesn't want to see me in his class again or idk, maybe it's not good for him if someone fails his class three times, but he actually offered that I could do a written exam on friday instead? which. is extremely surprising. good, because it gives me another afternoon to study and I can draw and go back to questions on a written exam, even if I have to shuffle around the other exams and papers now, just. very surprising.
#lol but next semester is the fucking seminar again with also the same professor#idk how you can teach such shitty classes regularly and never think hmmm maybe i should change something#with the amount of people having to take the classes at least twice#anyway good for me i'll keep crying over uni the rest of the week and the weekend too and then i'll do stuff next week#like i need to call my insurance and annoy them in person until they say yes to any therapist who will have me#and call the other thing#and oh i really need to find a different GP because i'm soundly back at the stage of where i can literally not think two sentences#after each other without trailing off or it taking up extremely much energy just to remember which store i wanted to go to#and i'm aware that stress and mental illness causes brain fog or whatever#but i've been stressed before but this only started last autumn and i need a different doctor to look at it#who won't just say oh it's just iron levels#there's something wrong with my brain and i need someone competent who actually cares to look at it and tell me#if therapy will fix this or if it's a physical problem#please let it be just brain fog htat therapy can fix i don't have time for this#i just want to sleep and cry until this bs is over but semester break starts next week but i still have exams then and a whle list of#stuff to do for uni still plus stuff otuside. like a doctor. and sleep a normal amount instead of in weird horu intervals on my desk and in#my clothes on my bed or floor or wherever i am at the moment my brain decides it's over now#also friends. i wanted to catch up. also a job. like. yeah i need a job even if idk how i'll do uni and a job with the way my brain is righ#now#huh. oh i have another exam in half an hour. send help i don't want to go to uni anymore#mine#still don't know what that class or the seminar next semester are about btw but we moce#*move#goddamn it I'm TIRED and not just in the physical sense#i'm so goddamn done with uni and insurances deciding about psychotherapy and the general state of the world and cost of living#and i miss my friends and i want to visit them but nither them nor me have time and travelling is expensive#and ijust want a goddamn fucking break but i don't see one comign anytime soon. not before summer#but probably not even then#and after that i'll start working so like#at least no goddamn seminars anymore but i still absolutely dread having to decide where i want to work a
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aenslem · 4 months
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are you open to particular scene gifset requests from sgu? fighting for my life trying to make one but i lack your skills 😭
I guess... depends ?/
I can make a request, but it depends on the scene, if i have an episode with the said moment, if it's long or short scene, if it includes characters i kinda don't like and don't really wanna gif, etc.
i still have some requests that were sent to me *checks* 6 months ago lol im sorry to those nonnies who sent them to me, and even though i do have episodes i just don't feel like doing them, if it makes any sense ?? so even if i do make it - it may take... forever
so i don't wanna give any promises here, you can send the request and if i don't make it in the nearest future i probably won't make it for the next year or ever
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lilyoffandoms · 3 months
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Whose eye should I do next? 😅
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im-smart-i-swear · 4 months
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one thing about buddy is that theyre so fucking cold
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fivefeetfangirl · 8 months
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What if... what if there was Purcon 8 Baldsen Ackles but make it 91w version
you want this??
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someone put this on a t shirt so i can get it signed by jensen
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imminent-danger-came · 7 months
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"I can't handle the fanon depictions of anyone", this is so true it hurts 😭
I‘ve never been so hyperfixated on a piece of media, without being able to read anything about it. The way every character get‘s flattened like a pancake and forced into a archetype is unreal.
I have like- 5 stories I can read and don‘t really engage with with the fandom in any way.
It‘s all just:
Monkey King is depressed and MK has to mother him and kiss all his boo boo‘s.
Macaque never did anything wrong in his life, it‘s all Wukong‘s fault. He is also secretly a mom.
What is Mei? Do you mean the month? Bitch can‘t even spell right.
Red Son‘s parents are still assholes, because parents changing for the better is impossible and children can‘t have decent parental figures I guess.
-Casually bastardizes everyone into an asshole so my fav has a reason to be sad-
"What is Mei? Do you mean the month? Bitch can‘t even spell right." IS THE FUNNIEST THING. HOLY SHIT. I'M CACKLING.
"I‘ve never been so hyperfixated on a piece of media, without being able to read anything about it" is also so relatable. I've never had my fandom experience be so self-generated before. I'm just kinda stewing over here, having fun, making my own gif sets and analysis posts. Maybe I reblog some fanart from time to time.
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