#hmmmm idk what i'm doing

[imwritesometimes]

Chestnut Ridge 🐎🐐🐑❤️ (feat. Bitsy & Maximus)

#sims 4 #sims 4 screenshots #as always I'm like hmmmm maybe I should just make another sims side-blog again omg #like lol I won't. but I do kinda hate just randomly dumping #sims stuff #on this blog so 🤷‍♀️idk #but it's such a pretty world! and I'm LOVING the sheep & goats #they are adorable! haven't played with any horses yet tbh idk if I will cause that was not what made me want the pack #I am 1000000000% here for the sheep & goats lmao

[blujayonthewing]

seeing posts about pantone's color of the year (peach fuzz) lowkey makes me wanna do nyssa art about it-- her skin is actually a little darker than that, but it's evocative of her whole vibe-- BUT the color also makes me think of vellus hair so I kinda also wanna do art about that but I don't think my rendering skills are up to it oTL

#also actually I forgot vellus hair is called peach fuzz gkfdhdgf that's just the color it is on caucasians #also also don't google vellus hair you will very predictably get a lot of results about removing it and it'll bum you out #get rid of that peach fuzz! [close up of a cheek that looks lovely and soft on one side and red irritated and greasy on the other] #hmmmm I don't think I will!! #do whatever you want forever etc but are we really demonizing women's body hair that Just Looks Better than not having it #are you gonna try and convince me eyebrows are gross next #what are we even doing here. are you nuts #ANYWAY. nyssa. of course she also Has A (small) Beard but that doesn't mean she doesn't have nice soft cheeks as well 😌💕 #idk if I'm gonna actually do any art about it though. please feel free to picture her perfect little face in your mind's eye #about me #my OCs #nyssa

[loverboybrightsideghost]

2022 the year of good fucking movies. the batman. everything everywhere all at once. nope. wendell and wild. pinocchio. this year all those directors and filmmakers and writers and animators and composers just gave us MASTERPIECES.

#and across the spiderverse coming soon!!!! #im so excited!!! and I JUST REMEMEBRED HOW GOOD THE MUSIC WAS IN THE FIRST ONE I CANT WAIT TO SEE WHAT THEY DO FOR ATSV #i actually haven't seen wendell and wild yet but ik it's GOOD good #bluebird.txt #dude the music in all these movies? fucking. my jaw is on the fucking floor #ALL WOOD INSTRUMENTS FOR PINOCCHIO #THE HORROR/COWBOY SOUND OF NOPE #EEAAO'S PIANO MOTIF FOR WAYMOND AND JUST FOR LOVE AND CHOOSING KINDNESS. AUAGSGSHSVZ. #BATMAN. to quote ladel bc since they posted this i quote it in my head regularly MICHEAL GIACCHINO PUT HIS ENTIRE GIACHUSSY INTO THAT SCORE #this year movies were fucking GOOD #am i missing anything. any movies. hmmmm. idk #havent seen wendell and wild yet so idk about the music in that one but i'm assuming it's also fucking great

[musical-chick-13]

ALSO now that I'm on the Complaint Train, I would love it if I could say, "This thing might be artistically good on other levels and if you like it, good for you have fun, but the gross way it talks about/handles mental illness is too much for me, to the point where I have to avoid watching/reading it for my own well-being" and people would go, "Yeah, that makes sense, you do you" instead of "Omg, you're so sensitive, lmao just get over it."

#am I too close to this issue? maybe! but I think I've earned the right to be close to this issue by having it be the single most formative #experience in my life. I'm close to this issue because THE ISSUE LITERALLY RESIDES IN MY FUCKING BODY #'you care too much' SO WHAT! WHY IS IT BAD TO CARE! WHY IS IT BAD TO BE PASSIONATE ABOUT SOMETHING! FUCK YOU!!! #ALSO this is ONCE AGAIN not to say that there is One Right Way to tackle mental illness in fiction. there isn't. and also not all depiction #is Representation™ and that's ok! but there are some things that...idk I'm not going to say any idea is automatically inherently unworkable #but there are some things that make me go 'hmmmm...do we really need to keep doing this? did no one consider the optics? can #we evaluate this in accordance with general trends and a wider context?' #like idk it might be nice if I said 'hey this is important to me and it affects me' that people would. acknowledge that. could be neat. #the real horror was the ableism we found along the way #ALSO I am past the point of apologizing for this these comments are just what y'all get now

[yuridovewing]

ok so the hollyleaf idea i got from last post... what if instead of being jaypoppy or ashwhite kits like ive been debating with myself over the past few weeks... dovewing and ivypool were hollywillow kits.

the PEAK of hypocrisy.

#i'm just. my rule is that each tunnel cat has to be an illegal baby and OOOOO thats really illegal cause holly is a medic here #so double medic babies... even worse than her mom according to the code #currently... not sure how im gonna handle it though. like i want them in thunderclan but idk why willow wouldnt take them #would they all know that hollyleaf is their mom? i can see holly revealing she had secret kittens herself #maybe they do know and willow was pressured to not take them bc riverclan isolationism or whatever (but she wanted to) #also jesus christ can you imagine hollyleaf being pregnant during the last two po3 books . what the fuck #im thinking whitewing nurses them and becomes their adoptive mom like canon... but that begs the question of why does she have milk #ig she could have found a way to produce it but im thinking i coulddd move her moms second litter to her? #that or ivykit is hers biologically while dovekit is adopted and theyre raised as twins. but hmmmm... idk #i know im like. clearly coming across as liking dovewing more LMAO and like. i dont wanna be like ''wow ivy doesnt have it nearly as bad'' #''look how much worse she is now that she knows her sisters heritage while shes clanborn and good.'' like idk. i like it but im worried ig #but if i do make ivykit biologically whitewings... i could still have ashwhite drama. i could still have tbc family tragedy... #i can still have ivykit look exactly like brightheart but gray... #razorverse

[kakashihasibs]

I think i want a tattoo of an acorn weevil. I'm terrified of bugs so i should get a tattoo of one bc i don't wanna be afraid of them and weevil are cool. And if i saw one outside I'd panic

#hmmmm #i feel like i cant articulate what I'm trying to say well #it's like idk #fuck do #i really like bugs but they scare me #idk why 🥺

[witchwhaat]

anyway. whatever. time to watch prison playbook

#it seems like the only thing i do nowadays is watch things but i swear i don't alsjfhakkfke #and hmmmm i'm not sure about prison playbook yet #we're on episode 3 now and idk #it's hard to get invested?? but i'm also curious about what will happen #and it's hilarious sometimes i gotta give them that alskfhjsjsksl #agnes talking #agna watches prison playbook

[todayisafridaynight]

Sorry for ruining your posting kfjdj I also didn't know such a person existed but I ended up finding the post where they defended him because it was the same one in which they said they hated Park cos she was abusive and manipulative to Haruka 😭😭 like. The dissonance between what they can't accept and what they CAN just cos they find a guy hot really gets me

OH NO YOU'RE GOOD THE TIMING WAS JUST REALLY FUNNY the halo effect and misogyny can hold grimy ugly hands unfortunately

oh damn i aint readin all that. i skimmed it just for you but if i read it any more i was gonna feel my eyebrows merge as i pinched them together perplexed

#snap chats #i always feel weird jumping straight to misogyny for hating a character or person but. but i have eyes. Sometimes #also edelgard was my favorite lord in 3H ok so i. i understand. #the halo effect is one of my favorite phenomena tho because of how true it is sorry i quote it every other post #like im not gonna lie i'm not the biggest park fan either but that's just cause she reminds me of my mom but even then shes less shitty #she's still compelling as a morally-grey character tho. also she's hot #ALSO WHAT PARK DOES ISN'T NEARLY AS BAD AS ODA??? #like. threatening to shut down a kid's orphanage so she pursues your dream and becomes an idol ? p shitty but like #compared to sex trafficking that led to a physical ailment- nonetheless everlasting mental scars- yeah idk #the scale is SURE hard to measure on that one golly gee i just don't know which is worse #also i wanna try to clear the other anon's name cause i haven't seen this person in my notifs #i generally keep track who visits my blog or i recognize frequent visitors #tho i did just get notif spam from two people but still i'd recognize a name like that #unless fam's lurkin... i dont mind lurkers tho but this do be a crazy take #man all this bonkers shit makin me kinda hungry but i dont wanna eat any more meat or rice that's all i got #actual scurvy moment #they got mango juice for two bucks next door.... hmmmm mango juice.....

[itzmematthias]

Hmm... my crush was acting more suspiciously today... he grabbed my shoulder twice (never did that before, we only brushed against each other accidentally) and while he was talking to someone about all the (interesting) trips he's done his body was mostly pointing towards me and he stood so close...

#hmmmm #a little suspicious isn't it #I'm curious #what does this all mean #we do like each other #Idk in which way tho

[forecast-rain]

hmmm... maybe I should start heading to bed

#cloud posts #I think I feel kinda tired #but hmm #oh wait tomorrow is gonna be a Day #cause some non-school activities were cancelled #so idk what I should do because I was kinda skipping a lesson in order to attend them #(everyone is aware why and technically I can skip 2 lessons of this subject so it's fine <3) #I think I'm still gonna skip the lesson and just go home for a bit lmao #hmmmm #still tho do I go to sleep? #hmmmmmm..... #I'd like to at least see if Reaper responds haha #I'm half convinced they sent that ask as a mistake lmao

[shadow0-1]

ayo what if I ship jax with graves

#immmmmmm hmmmm :^) honk honk #I thought about it for a whole two seconds #i also actually considered making jax's nickname graves KJSGDBJDBSG #cause I'm ✨edgy✨ #I still do like kamarov but I also don't wanna 100% commit to it because I wanna be able to make content with them :') #and there's a higher chance that I'd be able to get Graves' model #(unless kamarov is in the campaign and not just in a cutscene but then if that's the case I'll just go perish then kjbsdgk) #idk what to doooooo #cambles

[pollen]

oh no :( i'm enjoying work again. this isn't good. i'm supposed to want to leave this place

#i just loooove that i'm being given more authority and freedom it feels so good #idk. i can do this part time for sure. no problem #i've been talking to my boyfriend about like. what i'd rather do instead and i so so want to get certified as a personal trainer #and also go to grad school for my msw and get my lcsw and use both certifications together to work with clients #to overcome body trauma and eating disorder stuff and exercise addiction etc etc #like i really truly feel like i could be doing so much more good in the world. i can't do good like that in marketing #however the money would be virtually identical and i'm doing considerably less work in marketing hmmmm #idk. i just think about it is all

[astrxealis]

its weird how i feel bcs i dont actually really /hate/ genshin now but. the stuff that surrounds it pisses me off, i def don't /love/ it anymore, and ?? but ?? idk man

#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚ #skdhwkjd ask to tag! idk if anyone doesnt want to see posts like this & what tag works D': #its weird bcs i like the characters still! i just say & think that i dont like them anymore but tbh i still do #but theres sm surrounding the game i dont like ... in & out of the game. idk even how to explain #and i dont really need to ik but i want to qwq hmm... #i dislike g/enshin. but. i don't hate it (kind of do but i think its more on the Frustrated than Hate side?) #hmmmm hmmmmm i want to understand how i feel but its difficult. thats how it really is fr tho! #it's confusinf bcs it gives me a bad taste in my mouth (not like. literally. but yeah) but. hey i still like it! but also no. #and its really complex bcs . there are really a lot of stuff that surround how i feel abt it negatively and positively #trying to just not be bothered w all of it but w the kind of person i am (someone who feels a lot) its pretty hard #itll get better as i grow older and my brain matures more so the best i can do now is just try to keep it in moderation :O #confusion!! but i'm doing well rn so i'll focus on stuff better to put my attention on rn >_<

[strawberry-seal77]

THIS BUT AMPHIBIA (S1 methinks) T H I N K   A B O U T   I T Anne on the farm, hanging out with sprig, t a x e s Marcy doing missions, hanging out in newtopia Sasha training with the toads, bonding, slight smile GFDHAGFDH

#*about to go to sleep* Brain: ANIMATIC IDEA HMMMM???? #help idk what t do #do I #Do I sacrifice sleep for a Maybe idea???? #I'm going crazy #idea #fuck fuck I'll #I'll do it when I wake up

[sweetearthandnorthernsky]

hmm i really am just impulse starting projects today aren’t i. let’s see how this turns out

#apparently i'm doing artfight now i guess #idk i didn't really intend to start it and i was like #hmmmm #how about i just make an account for next year #and then i was like '.... you know what what the heck' #and ye

[mrs-khanacademy]

i really want to make dice...... but the materials are very expensive and im not even sure i want to make to sell....i just like to make....but i want to make well so i need the more expensive things.......

#idk what to do #i genuinely have wanted to make dice for years #the noise they make??? incredible #the way they look??? incredible #but like to make 3d resin art it's so much easier using a pressure pot #but what else would i use a fucking pressure pot for???? #idk it just seems frivolous to spend money on that unless i could sell them?? #but even then #i'm afraid to make a business out of a hobby #hmmmm