#holy shit my heart

[intheholler]

Little note about being queer in the south (and how sometimes you mess up, but life sorts if self out anyways)

I remember her hands. Clammy and soft, like sourdough left out too long, she took mine in hers, and I think drinking sour milk woulda’ turned my stomach less. God, I loved her. I loved her the way all 13 year olds with hearts too torn up for their age love somebody. That tender, living thing that aches and gapes. That jagged, bloody wound. My shakin’ hands made still, y’all when I say she took my hands, I mean I don’t think she ever gave them back. I went to my therapists office, beaming. And god, did my Bible-beating therapist beat that beaming outta me. You know, at thirteen I didn’t know what I know now, but hear me on this if nothin’ else: Love ain’t a sin. Ever. It is not dirty, or wrong, or ugly- by its very nature it can’t be. It is guiltless and joyous, true and sacred. Holy, even, if you believe in such things. But I was thirteen and scared, so I broke it off shortly after. I regret it, sure. And I’m angry about the injustice of it all. And I look back at that moment more often than I care to admit. And, god, how I envy Orpheus. He looked back too, but at least Eurydice knew she was loved before the end. I guess she knows it even after the end, too. So, because I never got to say it, Lauren, honey, you were loved by me. Even if it was a clumsy, stumbling love. I loved you with all my heart, and it wasn’t the best, but it was mine. It was ours. The fact that I got to love you at all has spoiled me beyond what I deserve. And If I love any better now, it’s because I loved you then. So, Lauren, honey, thank you. Thank you for taking my hand.

- Bird

(i want to publish this without comment as not to distract from this poignant and heart-wrenching telling, because holy shit. but i can't help myself but to at least tell you i sat here with my mouth open and real life tears in my eyes for a long minute after reading this, stunned and deeply, deeply moved. i bet she knew. i bet she did. thank you so so much for sharing this, bird)

#asks #holy shit my heart #fav #queer in the south

[limlightdaydreams]

bloodbound??? is??? back???

LOOKS LIKE I'M PLAYING CHOICES AGAIN HOLY SHIT

HELP

#pixelberry #playchoices #bloodbound #holy shit my heart #i've waited so long #I'M SCREAMING

[death-in-shift]

Wesker chokeslammed me twice- Then he stood close- and did it again- my aroace ass is acting up in confusion.

#dbd #dead by daylight #yoichi asakawa #albert wesker #holy shit my heart #damn my soul

[arvandus]

I spent my entire day off binging Fruits Basket and I regret nothing.

#arvandus rambles #I’m on season 2 ep 20 #holy shit my heart #who wants to guess who my fav is?? #I mean #they’re all great for different reasons #but y’all know I have a fav

[salamencerobot]

AND LIME TAKES THE WIN!!! FUCK YEAH!!!

#holy shit my heart #i was watching the admin stream and rooting fir kime #hooo #im absolutely rewatching that vid #idk who from

[benevolenterrancy]

I absolutely love just how many time-travel fix-it fics there are in this fandom

#mdzs #wangxian #wei wuxian #wei ying #wwx #lan wangji #lan zhan #lwj #mdzs juniors #jin ling #lan sizhui #lan jingyi #ouyang zizhen #currently reading tragedy is not the end by hobbsy3 on ao3 and holy shit guys #anyway any sort of fic that messes with time to alter canon events hold a special place in my heart and the number in this fandom delights #we're all watching every dumb decision made by. everyone. in this series and screaming desperately for them to Be Better #my art

[bepoprotectionsquad]

Fucking love it when all the pieces fit together and shit starts to go well

#denjiro my beloved #holy shit I’m gay #holy shit my heart #sobbing and rocking in joy

[exoid-the-locomotive-monarch]

>be a webcomic

>decent popularity and critical support from the fans at the start

>immediate drop in quality over next bunch of updates

>fans hate it

>gets so bad writers and artists are harassed to the point of leaving the team

>endless controversies between writers acting shitty on their personal Twitter account to fans to accusing discord mods of being 4Chan nazis

>comic loses half its funding 8 months in

>bimonthly updates 4 months in return to the sluggish once a month updates from the start

>pause 14 months into the comic’s intended 5 year run.

>announce a month later indefinite hiatus

>radio Silence for THREE YEARS AND NINE MONTHS

>be almost 4 year anniversary of the webcomic’s start, 17 days away to be exact

>drop 4 DOZEN pages

>new director

>new writers union

>new EVERYTHING even the title of the comic changed

>the “it’s so over” from the fandom supercharges back into “we are so fucking back”

>its name is enough to scare half this website into shock

>look at tags

#homestuck #homestuck^2 #homestuck beyond canon #james roach #we are so fucking back bros #this might actually be good #upd8 #holy shit #my heart rate doubled #just seeing homestuck tweet #dont dissapoint me james #is john okay #i love you john #i hope nothing bad ever happens to you again

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

best friendisms

bonus <3

#do you think they have heart-shaped bff locket necklaces #barnaby has a picture of wally in his. wally's has a picture of an apple #no one told him he was supposed to put a pic of barnaby in it </3 tragic </3 #now if you all will excuse me im gonna go eat tylenol cereal and also shove my head through the wall #they make me Unwell <3 #Supremely Unwell <3 #theyre!!! theyre besties!!! they are best friends!!! holy shit!!! #sniffling sobbing wailing crawling on the ceiling etc etc #what a time to be alive... to be able to Appreciate them.... #big guy & his lil buddy.... OUAAWOOOOOOOOOOO AGHHHHH OUGHHHHHHHH #i think about barnaby and wally. i take minecraft damage #my healthbar has been dangerously low lately <3 #scribble garnish #welcome home #barnaby b beagle #wally darling #welcome home puppet show #sobbing vfx. glass breaking vfx. car crash vfx. banshee wailing vfx- #if anything happens to them i will #Enjoy It Greatly!!! #i will! it would hurt So Fucking Much but id have a great time! #anyway drawing this took ten years off my life. at first i scribbled barnaby's paw Backwards #so i had to completely change half of it #and just. sigh. i Was gonna color it but it took more energy than i thought it would #and really! who has the Energy these days!!! certainly not me! #there are still Mistakes but yk.... whatever... its fine perfection is an impossible achievement anyway <3

[the-loved-anomaly]

so me and my friend have been talking abt putting our f/o's in makeup, specifically eyeshadow and even though i haven't drawn in 85 years i couldn't help myself

#woe curse my inconsistent art style #undertale #sans #my heart man he's so pretty- #husbone.exe #holy shit??? hi guys??? thanks for enjoying my gay???

[joja-co-official]

I need a moment

#sdv #stardew valley #TO THE PERSON WHO SENT THAT. AND WHO DID THAT. I HOPE YOU SEE THIS. I HOPE YOU REALISE HOW MUCH I FREAKED OUT #i'm turning 20 in a few days my old man heart cannot take things like this #It happened. It. it happened holy Shit man

[melomelod111]

So… any kingdom hearts enjoyers in the crowd tonight? /lh

#kingdom hearts #Kh ventus #my art #digital art #birth by sleep #just a little bit of headcanons sprinkled into the way I draw him #No biggie #I like ventus a normal amount #This has been going on for seven years now help /j #I fucking love kingdom hearts guys holy shit #This is post kh3 btw! #ventus kingdom hearts

[bananamosity]

This line right here. I was fine until this one.

#ofmd #ofmd season 2 #ofmd s2 #ofmd spoilers #stede bonnet #izzy hands #and holy shit can we talk about the insane acting chops on con? his face nearly ripped my heart out in every scene. just so much emotion

[cringefail-clown]

thinking bout hal and jake and how their interactions went in homestuck again. god, imagine having a best friend (who you also have a wild crush on) that youve known for years, talked to him about everything, from dumb shit to the deepest desires and insecurities youve ever had. then you decide to create an ai out of your own brain and suddenly its you whose got the short end of the stick and youre stuck, without a body, in a pair of glasses. and youd think, this fucking sucks, but at least i have my friends, right? but your friends dont think about you as "you" anymore. now you're just a program, ai created by the real deal to talk to them when he doesnt have time to do it.

and your best friend? he cant fucking stand you. he sees you only as an obstacle in his way to talk to the real you, but youre YOU too, right? all the parts are the same, the memories are the same, your feelings are the same, but youre not REAL YOU anymore. now youre just an annoyance they have to get through if they want to talk to the guy you were before and you still are.

god. id go fucking apeshit too.

#homestuck #lil hal #hal strider #dirk strider #jake english #hal and davesprite got such a short end of the fucking stick in homestuck they break my heart #its so unfair holy shit #i have an entire convo written for turnabout between jake and hal bout this exact thing #they beat the shit outta each other while theyre at it its glorious

[tequiilasunriise]

Possible nicknames Lenore called Annabel in life go:

"Anniebell": Sometimes the smallest changes are the cutest, okay? Anniebell Lee sounds adorable as hell and I'll stick by it. Imagine Annabel trying to admonish Lenore for saying some wild shit at a Rich Persons Gala™️ or smth but she keeps breaking out into giggles like, "You- you can't just say that pet!" and Lenore playfully replying, "Oh whatever do you mean, Anniebell Lee?" like UGH I hate them somebody throw hammers at em already 💥💥🔨🔨🔨

“My moon”: in relation to the Annabel Lee poem (‘for the moon never beams/Without bringing me dreams/Of the wonderful Annabel Lee’) and also there’s smth so flavorful of the character with a color palette more akin to the Sun (long shiny blonde hair, warm colored eyes, seemingly more outwardly personality, etc) being called the moon like I loveee contrasting design choices‼️‼️

“Angel”: Also a reference to the poem (but like, worse because it was the angels that separated em) and can be easily pulled from Annabel’s name

“Petal”: Or some other variation of a flower based nickname because imma sad, sad bisexual who loves ✨flower motifs✨ just a bit too much

Anything in Dutch: This can be like common ones like “liefje” (darling) or the previous entries but in Dutch idk go crazy go stupid

“Locket”: An unconventional pick pulled from Annabel’s last name Whitlock + lockets containing pieces of hair from your other half being T H E romantic gesture of the century back then, so, like. Idk. Hear me out like okay I think Lenore could be the unconventional route (I mean girly already faked her death via arson and pulled a Mulan to get the girl soooo you see what I’m putting down?) and like like LIKKEEE⁉️⁉️⁉️ Imagine with me Lenore telling her girl, “You’re the locket I keep nearest to my heart” (many necklaces back then had a chain just long enough for the locket to rest above the wearer’s heart) and it evolves to Lenore calling Annabel smth like “my dearest, my locket” LIKE YOU HAVE TO IMAGINE WITH ME!!! GUYS MY VISION IS VISIONING!!! 🦅🗣️🌈🗣️🗣️🦅🦅🌈🗣️🦅🦅

@incorrect-nevermore cmere and witness my madness

#some of the emojis only show up in mobile format sigh this is my cross to bear #yes its a running joke of mine to measure things on a scale of 'in relation to how much so and so suffered compared to jesus h christ-' #for example penny poldenina died painfully TWICE like girly defo suffered more than mister holy spirit but thats neither here nor there #jesus still suffered more than me but like. damn bro. my aesthetic #my old wenclair followers if ur still around do NOT come fer me and the 'my moon' suggestion okay I knowwww #i remember my oldass yet decently popular 'my moon' wenclair posts from last year do not recite the ancient magic to me #anything in dutch one tho like cmon Lenore woulldd she would call her sweetie anniebell shit like 'my heart' and shit in Dutch ugh dorknore #tho obviously the locket one is my fave like u have to rlly and truly ENVISION THE VIBES u know? #unconventional pet names fer unconventional couples guys cmon hear me outttt #ugh man these two gayasses are so awful i hope they DOUBLE PERISH bc yeah they already died once whoooppssiesss #nevermore webtoon #white raven #lenore nevermore #lenore vandernacht #annabel lee nevermore #annabel lee whitlock

[speeshularts]

A little bit of Hajime in my life

#hajime hinata #nagito komaeda #komahina #danganronpa #You can get lost in Nagito's mane holy shit #also im gay and saw them kiss in game it was crazy #trust me source: my heart #hinakoma #komaeda nagito #sdr2