#honest love

[b-e-l-l-a--l-u-n-a]

Free me, my sunlight 💙

#healthy love #healthy sex #lovers #love #my one weakness #my one #justify my love #passion #romance #desire #couples #embrace #i love you #honest love #unconditional love #unconventional love #yinyang #vulnerable #s #with you #your love sets me free #free me #adoration #persephone #photography #wishes

[absenceisaformofwinter]

உண்மை காதல்

உன்னை அறிந்துதான் உண்மை பார்க்கின்றேன், உன் கண்கள் உண்மையை உருக்கின்றன.

உன் செவிகள் உன் உயிரைக் காப்பாற்றுகின்றன், உன் உள்ளம் உண்மையை அறிந்து உள்ளமாகுகின்றது.

பொய்யை காட்டினால் விழும் புதுசார், உண்மையே எங்கேயும் பொருந்தும் ஒரு அழகு.

Honest Love

I perceive the truth in you, Your eyes reflect sincerity.

Your ears guard your soul, Your heart resonates with authenticity.

When falsehood unveils, emerges the pure, True beauty prevails wherever honesty endures.

#poetry #tamil poetry #honest love

[emotopunkpipeline]

*me realizing that acts of service was not an accessible love language to me because I was too preoccupied sacrificing myself for my partner*

#just cptsd things #wtf bro #acts of service #trauma #self love #radical vulnerability #honest love #partnerships only from now on #living with cptsd #cptsd problems #actually cptsd #cptsd recovery #attachment wounds #parentification #jesus christ it connects all of my theories #i love being integrated #i learn so many things #love languages #who is she

[bonsega]

Cigars & Status - Honest Love

#youtube #night #honest love #love #night chill #deep house #chill vibes #chill mix #relaxing #lofi #night ride #house #house mix #summer mix #summer #dance #hiphop #cozy #deep mind #deep music #retro #dream #music #car music

[inkskinned]

i love finding out how big this world is. my girlfriend has only visited boston a handful of times, but i grew up here. i told her we'd be going to do the tourist traps in salem, and she said - which salem?

to be fair to her, there are a lot of other states that have a town named "salem." and i think there's some evidence that the witch trials actually happened in what is now called Danvers. but the thing is - she thought "salem" was like, a made-up thing. there wasn't actually a salem, massachusetts - like there isn't a gotham city.

they don't talk about it that much where she grew up, is the thing! and this made me laugh. a week ago she was talking about her hometown and said something akin to "well the museum's kinda like the one in richmond," and i had to explain i still had no frame of reference for what the hell this museum was like.

i love finding out what knowledge i take for granted. i used to live with 5 other women. 3 of them were from south korea. they had to take, like, a solid fifteen minutes to explain their birthday system to my gay math-blind ass, laughing as they did.

that same month, our roommate from denmark taught me the danish word for wreath by accident - she'd been talking about decorations, used krans, and i'd been able to figure it out through context. i just picked it up and kept talking. our entire house used krans as the word. she came home and slammed the door one evening, mock-angry, shouting: you motherfuckers! it's a - a wreath!

and how often do you use certain words, anyway! i am cuban, so i was raised with certain spanish words sort of sprinkled in there; but never how you'd think. in middle school i asked someone to pass me the recogedor - in a completely american accent, like i was speaking english. i hadn't registered it as a spanish word. i mean, how often in school do you actually use the word "dustpan" - i'd only ever heard it in the context of cleaning my house.

there are places that you grew up that you, just, like, know. that you assume everyone knows. there are things and people and "common knowledge" that you have that, just, like. doesn't exist for me. i don't know what you call your public transportation system, but in boston we call it "the T". our train cards are called charlie cards because of a song where a father accidentally abandons his family, which was written because our system of transportation. in boston, most people would snort and say everyone knows that, kid.

i think you and i should go on a long walk - it's getting dark early these days and we need any sun we can manage. tell me about the first time you saw snow. tell me about the stuff everyone knows about your home. tell me about the cities "everyone's been to," about the food "everyone's already tried." who knows. maybe it will feel nice to you - watching someone learn about it for the very first time.

#spilled ink #warm up #4/10 #loved this interaction with them tho i have to be honest.

[spiderversegf]

one important thing that Must be understood about interpersonal relationships is that you have to stop interacting with people who love you like they’re one slip-up away from leaving you. you have to trust that the ppl you love mean what they say. you have to believe that when they say “this hurt my feelings,” that they’re also saying, “can you please love me this other way next time?” and you have to wrap your head around the fact that even if you don’t understand Why someone loves you, you can accept that that they do. true, honest, & open love does not function like hp in a video game !!!!!!

#🍜 #wish i could remember this more. trying to rmr that when ppl are honest w ways they are hurt it’s bc they love me enough to be honest ab it #i am not perfect. but i can do my best to love people well and to apologize when i mess up #i do not have to punish myself! i can apologize and do better in the future #the love i feel increases when people tell me how to love them. the love i feel increases when people tell me how to love them. the love i- #sueñito tag

[lotus-pear]

HAPPY 114‼️‼️ take these silly doodles i did

#watching dazai have an aneurysm while chuuya yelled at him to stop bitching was so funny #also not him just sitting there while dazai used his broken bloody arms and legs to pull fyodor out😭 #bitch you have gravity manipulation USE IT. #i'm gonna be so honest i don't think meursault arc is over #sigh....ada reunion in 2025....manifesting #anyway i loved skk this chp they were stupid asf as usual #bungou stray dogs #bungo stray dogs #bsd #osamu dazai #dazai osamu #nakahara chuuya #chuuya nakahara #soukoku #skk #lotus draws

[kiisaes]

momma's boy

#got emotional over how katsuki was loved from the start by everyone #and in my honest opinion i think mitsuki would be super crazy proud of her stupid son #and also would think it's so funny he looks just like her #bnha #mha #bakugou katsuki #bakugou mitsuki #fan art #becki draws stuff n stuff

[wormsdyke]

listening to music literally fucks so hard. you mean i can just put in headphones and experience incredibly profound emotions felt throughout my entire body

#to be entirely honest. i am listening to car seat headrest #i just love listening to music it’s fucking spectacular #and i live in a time where i can take my entire music library with me anywhere #that’s amazing #orating! #car seat headrest #tunes posting #csh

[satansleftnutcheek]

Bitches will create the MOST DEVASTATING STORIES KNOWN TO MAN out of 2 besties playing Minecraft together what the FUCK did they put in the water why are people making work about GoodTimesWithScar and Grian as if they’re Penelope and Odysseus the boys really saw a silly comedy and said no not sad enough we MUST fix this

#I love you bitches honest to god youre doing the lords work here #granted opening any website is like playing emotional russain roulette but ya know what that's par for the course #sometimes you gotta play dangerous games to see art that fucks like no other #hermitcraft #grian #goodtimeswithscar #life series

[lazylittledragon]

i refuse to believe that boycotting is hard. my favourite thing in the world is ordering maccies after a late night at work/a concert/getting drunk. yes i do miss it sometimes. but the other night i ordered from a small place near my house instead and it was the most orgasmic burger i've ever had in my life. i very rarely say this but fucking suck it up people are DEAD

#ramble #also only 0.29 delivery instead of 3.99 #and chilli cheese bites #i swear to god the best food you'll ever eat while drunk is from the tiny shithole that's open until 4am #if you're refusing to do literally the smallest thing you can do to help then i have questions #it's FOOD. you'll survive #it's not even NECESSARY food #if it was like a chain grocery place and you don't have access to anything else then i would understand #but it's just NOT #make your own coffee for the love of god #when there is NOTHING you can do to stop this fucking tragedy. and let's be honest there isn't a lot normal people can do #and people say to you 'do this insignificant thing just to show that you even CARE' #and you DON'T do that???? what is actually wrong with you #also i've been worried about this since my last post about sbucks but this is Not an attack on the people who WORK at the boycotted places #because it is an absolute privilege to be able to leave your job and immediately find a new one

[yaoyaobae]

From now on 💛

#twisted wonderland #twst fanart #protect them thank you #i love fellow and gidel #fellow honest #twst gidel #stage in playful land

[sketchy-tour]

Blame eechytooru for Beta Wally taking up so much free real estate in my mind. And blame work for as to why I am posting...MORE sketches. But! These were some Wally practice cause I'm never happy with how I draw him but also just...ya know. *Gestures to the art

Anyway. Beta Wally am I right? Yea??? Yea....

....Yea

#welcome home #welcome home puppet show #wally darling #welcome home arg #wally darling fanart #welcome home fanart #welcome home wally #beta wally darling #wh wally #beta wally #I really wanted to color some of these if I'm very honest #but work is...destroying my motivation #Like I have so much I WANNA finish and draw but my schedule has been all thrown off and augh #*laying in the floor #so many sketches...so little time #Beta Wally's colors are so lovely to me though I NEED to color him someday please work please let me go #*shaking the bars of my cage while crying

[kyurochurro]

troubles that come with tribbles...

(aka a good excuse to draw one of my fav episodes and fav crew members while coming back from a heavy week at uni ;D)

#churro art #my art #digital art #illustration #fanart #star trek #star trek tos #star trek the original series #james kirk #james t kirk #jim kirk #spock #s'chn t'gai spock #nyota uhura #tribbles #AHHH I LOVE HOW THIS ONE CAME OUTTTT #IT CAME OUT SO SMOOTH AND CLEAN AND IDK I JUST LOVE HOW THESE 3 LOOK HERE!!! :d #okay quick honest moment: uni has been HEAVY this past... jeez 2 weeks? #so ive been a bit burnt out and riddled with headaches #not to mention barely any time to indulge in star trek SOBS T_T #but its okay!! im really enjoying my time in class and with my peers; i have some real awesome professors!! just... so much homework LMAO #anyways this past week ive barely drawn its kinda killing me... #but i started this yesterday as a sketch and just took the first half of today to draw this out and gosh im so in love with how it looks!! #helped a lot as a warmup AND a brain break LOL #u know me if i have the chance to draw uhura im GONNA TAKE ITTTT shes such a cutie #also can i just say that the green uniform shirt LOOKS SO GOOD ON KIRK I LOVEEE ITTT i cant believe ive barely drawn him in it ...

[steelscorner]

A Shadowed Memory

#Rolan #bg3 Rolan #bg3 Lia #bg3 cal #bg3 ide #bg3 umi #bg3 fanart #bg3 fan comic #the tiefling siblings #rolan’s moral compass is his siblings and I love that to be honest #my art

[inkskinned]

so while i was writing the book, i became violently suicidal.

this was mostly due to the fact that i had a very bad reaction to some meds and my brain stopped producing any serotonin. also i was in the last semester of grad school where it's actually illegal to feel anything but dread. so it wasn't going well.

somewhere in the fog of it i became aware i needed help. nobody was taking clients or my insurance. i didn't want to do inpatient care - it wasn't right for my needs. there's not really an "in between" stage between "inpatient" and "no care," but i was trying to do the right thing. i was trying to activate the chain of command that was my emergency plan. i knew i needed help now.

i used betterhelp.

i know, i know. i'm a straight-A student and so smart and so clever, how could i ever use something so blatantly bad. to be honest with you, i didn't feel particularly keen on it from the getgo - things that seem too good to be true usually are. also, if something online is free, the price is usually your privacy.

the thing is that there was kind of a global pandemic happening at the time and i worked 5 jobs alongside of being a fulltime student and also like writing a book on the side. it is a miracle that i even thought about getting help. i would love to tell you i had the mental wherewithal to like, process whether this was the right choice for me. mostly i was desperate. i was so suicidal that i was trying to find a reason to stay inside of fortune cookies. i was the kind of suicidal that looks like splatterpaint. i hadn't been that bad in an entire decade.

they took my data. i gave them it freely. somewhere out there, they have a dossier on me. on everything i survived. my story in little datapoints, scattergraphed beautifully.

the first woman told me that really i should be grateful, because (and this is a direct quote): "at least you're not anne frank." i said that i felt that statement was antisemitic, as anne frank's life and experience shouldn't be compared to like, a nonbinary lesbian in western massachusetts. the therapist said that i should try to use lucid dreaming to try to picture myself in an actually scary situation, like running from nazis.

i applied for another therapist. i was willing to accept the possibility that there was a bad apple in the bunch. the next therapist and i even laughed about how inappropriate that statement was. and then, in our next session: the new therapist said if i was struggling with body image issues, i should just work harder on my appearance. she spent 3 sessions in a row talking about how she was grieving, and made me memorize facts about her grandmother so "she can live on through my clients."

i am a three's-a-charm kind of person. okay, so what if the last person made me uncomfortable. i figured it was just a misunderstanding of priorities - she had felt she was sharing with me, i had felt like i had to take care of her. i applied for another therapist.

the last woman asked me to help her pray. she bowed her head. i stared at her, frozen, while she said: lord, i beg you: cure her. take the pain of being gay away from her.

i spent somewhere between 2.5 and 3 months on betterhelp. in that whole time, i was not getting the professional help i so desperately needed, even though i was fucking trying.

in the end, i survived this because i finally could get off the meds that were literally killing me. a request for a real therapist finally went through. i survived because my friends saved my life. because nick let me sob myself dry in his arms. because maddie took the razors out of my room when i asked them to. because grace slept over in my bed for like 3 weeks in a row since nobody trusted me not to hurt myself when i was alone. i survived because i got fucking lucky. because even when i was desperately suicidal, i was too old and too self-aware to take "you need to be prettier" as good advice.

the thing is that there's a 19 year old me who isn't like that. who would have heard "just think about how grateful you should be" and said - oh, i see. i would have assumed that is what it means to be in therapy: the same thing my abusers used to tell me. that i am just pretending and lazy. that i am ugly and unworthy.

betterhelp positioned itself to take advantage of an incredibly vulnerable community. it preys on desperation. it knows it is serving people who are not doing well mentally. it saw that there is a huge need for real, immediate, compassionate mental health care: and then it fucking takes your money and privacy.

i still get their ads on instagram. last night i watched as a woman in a pool pretends to talk to a different woman. they discuss her anxiety.

there's a 19 year old version of me, and she didn't survive this. she was too tired, and drowning. i almost fucking died. this thing almost fucking killed me.

in the ad, the woman playing the therapist takes a note on a clipboard and then nods once, sagely.

i have to admit it's a pretty scene. the steam and light coming off the pool water lands on the actresses. like this, it almost looks baptismal, holy.

#writeblr #the book.... #coming soon #hey so if ur someone who has ever said “you need to write a book” #i wrote the book #it's ... probably the best thing ive ever written #this is maybe too honest lol #okay to reblog thank you for asking i love u i am in love with u our wedding will be in may