#honestly I don’t even fuckin remember I was an emotional mess during that convo

[orcelito]

SAFE TO SAY if I’m ever in love with you I’ll probably always be a little bit in love with you

That said, my current Situation has filled me with Much Bitterness And is very much choking that out!!!

#speculation nation #at least with the last breakup it was obvious shit was going downhill #this one it just kinda blindsided me. #doesn’t help that it uh happened in the way that it did!!!! #it’s NOT PLEASANT AT ALL to be left for someone else who’s basically like you but ‘better’ #listing traits that match mine but he’s better Bc uhh *checks hand* He Understands Me #honestly I don’t even fuckin remember I was an emotional mess during that convo #at least my last ex didn’t fuckin Fall In Love behind my back #sure it hurt like hell to be left Bc of my flaws. but hey. like. it’s still better!!! #god I’m still so angry about this all. but apparently it’s unreasonable for me to be angry about it!!! #Bc I APPRENTLY never took his feelings into consideration while he APPARENTLY was aaaalways thinking about mine #utter bullshit. I tried to be everything he needed but he never fucking told me what he needed #he never trusted me with it. and then had the gall to say it was my fault. #but whatever. whatever! doesn’t even matter anymore! #Bc like fuck I’d be taking him back #ya for like a week or two I wanted things to go back to how they were #but now I’m just angry. and I know I deserve better than that. #no I’m not perfect!!!!! while I can b a manipulative & self absorbed little shit at times #I’m also compassionate and forgiving and kind and witty and whatever the fuck else #manic pixie dream girl minus the girl part. honestly I think that’s how the guys who’ve been interested in me have seen me #see someone who looks like a girl & likes video games and they’re just like ‘oh my GOD I’m in LOVE’ #this post is all over the place. again. I’m blaming the monster. #caffeine rushes always have a tendency to make me talkative #don’t worry I’m gonna go back to leveling my flying snake’s stats again