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cookinguptales · 2 years

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And now here’s the hard one... *sighs* Nandor and Freddie.

Nandor’s always been a tough nut to crack, but even for him, 4.09 was a lot.

I think we can all agree that he has some reasons for going after Freddie that he does not care to examine (and likely never will) but... yeah, pinning those down is harder. I don’t believe he would have given Freddie a second thought if he had not currently been dating Guillermo, but beyond that...

I wanna start with that game of charades they were playing and the way that Nandor was using Guillermo’s watch to time the Freddies. Or rather... he used Guillermo’s wrist, which was wearing the watch. He could have removed the watch or used Guillermo’s phone or something, but he instead chose to take possession of Guillermo’s actual physical body during a game that involved reading each other’s body language. (And Guillermo, of course, was so distracted and so used to Nandor manhandling him that he didn’t really react much to this.)

The most obvious (and fun) reading of this was Nandor subconsciously staking a claim on Guillermo’s physical body. I think you actually see this several times throughout the episode, but it’s definitely at its most obvious here. Nandor was practically peeing on him with that casual use of Guillermo’s arm.

What I think is more interesting, though, was how little Nandor thought of what he was doing, and how little Guillermo reacted. It was almost as if he were looking at a watch on his own arm. And I think that’s really the key to understanding what was going on in this episode. Nandor, to some degree, has come to see Guillermo as an extension of himself. A part of him that is his to use and manipulate just like he might his own limbs. He really has come to see Guillermo as his literal right hand.

And then Guillermo shows up with this man whom Nandor has never met. The annoying British embodiment of the life that Guillermo still insists on having outside of Nandor’s purview. The life that Nandor has been shown to be getting more and more resentful of throughout the season.

He immediately tries to put himself between the two of them, both physically and through his words, and like... of course he misreads his jealousy as wanting Freddie. Of course he does.

But in other ways, it’s not really a misreading at all. Guillermo is a part of him that Nandor feels entitled to and Nandor is greedy for all the things in Guillermo’s life. He hates the lines that still divide the two of them. Nandor is frustrated that Guillermo won’t tell him about his family or the things that he does. Nandor tries to monopolize all of Guillermo’s time so he can sort of take that life from him. And then he takes Freddie, too.

I think the truth here is that Nandor wanted Freddie because Guillermo wanted Freddie. Some of it was a power thing, wanting to prove that he was “better” than Guillermo and could steal this person away from him, and some of it was that... well, Nandor values what Guillermo values. Guillermo likes this person, therefore he must be great, therefore Nandor wants him as well. It was literally the act of Guillermo loving him that made him valuable to Nandor. (And I noticed that as soon as Guillermo rejected Freddie 2, Nandor ditched him.) It was literally the act of Guillermo having him that made Nandor want to have him as well. And it was Guillermo loving something else at all that made Nandor want to steal him.

Nandor didn’t ask for the Djinn to give him a version of Freddie that wasn’t dating Guillermo because he needed to prove to himself that he could steal him. He needed to prove that in this, he and Guillermo were the same. Were equal. That he could make Freddie love him, too. He could make this man a part of his life, too. He could take away this embodiment of the life that Guillermo lived outside of him and make it his own.

I think that Guillermo realized this immediately, actually. I’m not sure if he picked up on the jealousy, exactly, but he definitely realized that Nandor was being invasive here. He wanted to force Guillermo to share all aspects of his life with him, including his new boyfriend. Nandor very literally was not allowing Guillermo to have “one thing of [his] own”.

Like... Guillermo did not come at this from the angle of “you wanted to hurt me” or “you wanted to steal someone’s boyfriend” or “you actually like Freddie”. He realized that this was about Nandor wanting to have everything that Guillermo has, every single part of his life, as a way of claiming him. Weirdly, Nandor dating Guillermo’s boyfriend was another way of him showing possession of Guillermo.

I think that Guillermo is consciously registering this as Nandor’s ego, as needing to be the center of attention at all times, and that’s probably true, too! But... yeah, Guillermo, Nandor is doing this because he wants to crawl inside your fucking skin.

What’s most fascinating to me, though, is that Guillermo and Nandor react to Freddie the same way. Like, Freddie is not a fucking catch. He’s narcissistic, he’s self-involved, and his niceness is not the same thing as kindness or genuine interest in others’ feelings. But that bland sort of niceness that he has about him is something that both Guillermo and Nandor latch onto because it’s something they’re so unused to receiving themselves. Sure, they both love each other and exchange kindnesses, but... It’s not the same as someone just straight-up telling you you’re a good boy, if you get me.

And Freddie, he doesn’t care. Those compliments mean nothing to him. But they mean everything to both Guillermo and Nandor. There’s an easiness to being with Freddie that doesn’t force either of them to confront their own issues. It’s not a thorny, obsessive love like what they share for each other. He’s pablum, but there’s a reason why pablum’s always been easy to digest.

So I think... the worst part, perhaps, of Nandor’s behavior in this episode is that, y’know, okay. He’s obsessive, he’s egocentric, he’s prone to a lil bit of pillaging, either of ancestral villages or his best friend’s boyfriend. But he’s also lonely. Like really, desperately lonely, and for something that he can’t quite seem to articulate. (It’s Guillermo, you fucking dumbass, it’s always been Guillermo.)

And he keeps trying to fill that loneliness with increasingly fucked-up relationships (like genuinely, every single one gets worse) but it never works because he’s approaching it from the wrong angle and then... he sees Guillermo. And Guillermo seems so happy. And that hurts, but he can’t figure out why. All he knows is that he wants that. He wants to feel the way this relationship makes Guillermo feel. He wants to have that normal, easy, simple love. He wants someone to laugh with him and compliment him and bring him flowers.

And... he thinks that Freddie is the key. That Freddie is the part of this equation he’s been needing. That Freddie is some magical loneliness cure. And again, he gives up all the good things he has in the service of something he’s convinced will be better. (Nandor, as always, is the type to think the grass is greener on the other side without bothering to water his own lawn.) He gives up Marwa, and that’s easy for him. But he sacrifices his relationship with Guillermo, too, and he realizes immediately that’s not something he’s willing to trade.

I think the actual key point to Nandor’s actions in this episode is when he offers Freddie to Guillermo. It’s... a little unclear if he wanted Guillermo to have him or if he wanted to share him, but I think that’s what makes it really obvious here that this was never about Freddie. He doesn’t really seem to care about giving Freddie up here or how Freddie might care about the situation. He only cares about making Guillermo stop being so damn sad.

(And, moreover, he wants Guillermo to stop making him feel so guilty. “Stop saying things I have done!” indeed, Nandor.)

And in the end, he gives Freddie up so Guillermo will stop being upset with him. Not because he really has come to true realizations about Marwa or Freddie or why he’s doing any of this. But because Guillermo made him feel bad and he doesn’t want to feel bad and he doesn’t want to make Guillermo feel bad, either. He gave up his Freddie with the intention that Guillermo would keep his own Freddie and only one of them would have a Freddie. He was surrendering that part of Guillermo’s life back to him.

Of course, it didn’t turn out that way, but... Nandor was willing to sacrifice a little bit of his own possessiveness so Guillermo could actually be happy. He was willing to give up at least one of his dumbass happiness schemes, even though it kind of was making him happy, because his happiness was coming at the expense of Guillermo’s own. And when Guillermo was unhappy, so was he.

It’s... not exactly real emotional fluency, but it’s getting closer. It was an oddly kind thing for him to do, even if he still doesn’t fully understand his own motivations and in the end it just made things worse. It felt, at least to him, like he was doing something selfless. We know that it was largely for selfish reasons, but there was kernel of truth to that. Nandor was willing to give up some of his own happiness so Guillermo could be happy, too, and while that was partially because Nandor’s happiness is inextricably tied to Guillermo’s now, it’s also because he genuinely wanted to make him feel better.

I think to the very end he still didn’t understand how he fucked up or why, but he did get that he hurt Guillermo... and he didn’t like that. He fixed it poorly, but he did try to fix it. And even that much of an admission is more than we got when he destroyed Nadja’s village or let Guillermo go serve Celeste. Both of those times, he obviously kind of got that he fucked up but either never admitted it or did so only under duress. This time he made the direct choice to go back on a decision because it hurt someone he loved, and he did it without his hand being forced.

It’s... a step, I suppose. I don’t know if Guillermo will see it that way. But it’s a step.

(*kneads temples* someone save me from stupid fucking vampires.)

#wwdits #wwdits s4 spoilers #wwdits meta #nandermo #it's odd because #I have so many problems with the writing in this episode and I do at times feel like I'm trying to make sense of a mess #but I actually feel like Nandor was fairly on-brand #his head is fucking stupid here but it does kind of feel like a natural progression for him #it just feels like regression for us because we are normal and understand normal human boundaries #whereas Nandor clearly does not #but if you approach it FROM HIS VERY STUPID PERSPECTIVE #I think it lines up with his overall motivations and how they've changed #now the Marwa thing and the choice to even make this an episode at all #THAT I still have problems with #and honestly just so many plot devices and so much messy writing god 4.09 was diffciult #but.... Nandor does kind of make sense even as I want to shake him

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my-current-obsession · 10 months

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My hyper-specific type when it comes to otome guys:

- Absolutely pathetic - Cannot speak to a girl normally to save his life - Tries to be calm/aloof, but turns tsundere when flustered enough - A good and pure man at heart, yet does some questionable things - ...Little Red Riding Hood???

#heart fragment #taisho x alice #otome #doofenshmirtz voice: if i had a nickel for every time i fell in love with a video game guy heavily associated to little red riding hood...#..i'd have two nickels. which isn't a lot but it's weird that it happened twice!#i made this post basically as a way to announce i played heart fragment recently. and uh. it's REALLY GOOD #i probably do love clive the most (and i was immediately interested/biased considering his similarities to Red) but...#the rest of the cast is great too! I ADORE shannon and i am beyond ready to figure out what jasper's deal is #and honestly i'm into the mystery and the strained family relationship aspects too. just great writing all around even beyond the romances #this is one of Those Games that messes with you and the more you play it the more it sneaks new creepy stuff in #whatever the hell is going on with inigo in the dreams is unsettling. and i love it.#but seriously i'd recommend this to any otome fan and ESPECIALLY taiali fans considering the similarities go far beyond just this #you like fairy tales? you like exploring psychological issues and trauma? this is the game for you #also you can date guys AND girls which is a rare treat! again - i LOVE shannon. i just... love clive even more #but to be fair i think the hangup is that no matter what you're very close and friendly with shannon #so even if you don't romance her you still have a great relationship with her regardless #meanwhile with clive he's starting as a stranger and you basically have to be a jerk to him or blow him off which hurts my heart #and also clive seems to fall kind of fast and hard for you so the relationship developing in a romantic direction just feels. right IMO #i can accept being just besties with shannon (even though I definitely still love her romance outcomes)#but it pains me to spurn clive's affections #on an unrelated note i do intend to post my thoughts (basically a review) of winter's wish: spirits of edo #but i want to finish getting the sorrow endings for CGs and lore which means a second run through several routes

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eddis-not-eeddis · 6 days

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Dealing with newcomer's embarrassment gets easier if you are surrounded by people you have no respect for.

#oh this other professional saw me do something stupid that messed up my paperwork?#but she does shady things worse than the mistake i just made on purpose to make a buck #oh i just said something dumb to my boss #give him a few hours and he'll say something even dumber to me #oh no the guy who has been working at this job for twenty years just saw me make a rookie mistake #agony abounds but he just did six other things a lot worse than I did all in one day so i'll live with it #oh no the manager is a little disappointed with my performance?#so what he's a pushover and he won't say or do anything about it anyway i'll do better next time #oh no my one coworker hates my guts #she hate's everyone else's guts too and literally never shuts up about it #i'm not special #it sounds kind of depressing--and it can be #but i have a lot of affection for these people regardless of their issues #i just don't really let my failures around them bother me too much anymore because i honestly don't care what these people think of me #i'm not going to make the same mistakes ever again #but i don't have to let this stuff keep me up at night because i did something wrong #if i'm not going to go to them for advice why do i care what they think about me?#it was something that i realized a few months ago and ever since it's made things a LOT easier to deal with #plus #these people aren't dwelling on my failures either #they all have their own stuff going on #yeah they might harp on it for a while bit new things will come up and eventually they forget #they aren't thinking about me that much anyway #XD

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kurokotori · 5 months

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Pants have been crapped.

#my hero academia #izuku midoriya #bakugo katsuki #honestly just got bored and started messing with sfm #I'm a complete dummy when it comes to these kinds of things #just for fun #mha #bnha

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valeriefauxnom · 4 months

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Very Very Far Shot But...

I stumbled upon the concept of this today, and it, uh, struck me and my Dragalia-attuned (among other games) brain.

The word?

Eudaimonia (well, or 'eudaemonia' or even 'eudemonia'). As you might be able to surmise, it is Grecian.

Since it's a bit of a more complicated word in concept, here's snippets of both the good old Wikipedia and Encyclopaedia Britannica regarding it:

Closely following this is the more modern concept of eudaemonism, which is the school of thought that evaluates the worthiness of actions based on their capacity to produce happiness.

But wait, there's more!

There also was a concept of eudaimonias as actual spirits, a sort of guardian angel figure.

And, well. This all sounds vaguely familiar to Euden. He himself in Dragalia lore is something of a symbol of dragalia itself made manifest, creating the ultimate har-har in the game's title after the last chapter. Replace "Euden's dead" everytime you see "Dragalia Lost" and it's darkly amusing. What do you mean, in the game "Euden's dead, in the chapter "Euden's dead" Euden dies? Impossible!- But just as he reforms bridges between people and dragons, so too is Euden very concerned and involved with the flourishing of humanity in all stripes. As leader to New Alberia, he also serves something as a guiding figure for the people who chose to follow him, on both a literal 'big-picture, what do we even do' scale as well as a more personal one, as he pays attention to most every individual he meets.

There's also this snippet regarding the actual 'figure' of the eudaimon:

With dragons in Dragalia being essentially nature personified, 'mother nature bites back' champions of higher, more intangible powers and occasionally all but killable gods themselves with their might, it forms a neat sort of comparison with Euden, the intermediary between them and the 'lesser races' of humanity. Euden himself is already something of an intermediary between the divine and mortal, with the whole Xenos-Morsayati-Nedrick trifecta involved in his creation even if he is himself largely the same as most other human.

Of course, with the whole notion of Greek deified heroes entering the mix and their many ends in mythos, it adds another potential tie in, since, yeah. He dead (after performing supernatural feats).

Dragalia also possibly drew on Greek/Roman inspiration for others in his family so it might not be completely impossible. There's Leonidas, who was most notably a king of Sparta and has a few other little tidbits to him that make me wonder if they drew on him for inspiration, and Marcus Aurelius, who was noted as part of the "Last of the Five Good Emperors" in Ancient Rome, a noted militaristic society like Alberia's. That almost reminds me of Aurelius' status in the main campaign, where he ruled as King for very long and further helped Alberia prosper before it all started going downhill.

So...yeah. Euden as a possible literal manifestation of a eudaemon, eudaemonia and/or eudaemonist himself, anyone?

#dragalia lost #dragalia #dragalia analysis #like I said: farfetched but look it just lines up a bit too well #...accidentally or not!#Honestly though #...If I were to ignore canon and pretend everyone remembers everything before Euden pressed the unwind button on the universe remote #I would probably claim that this is the origin of the word in the future in the way that names sometimes get integrated into language!#He's just kinda got that ripe combination of weird 'was that dude even real' kind of vibe that could lend itself to a sort of deification #especially now that a lot of people would be shaken up in the Ilian faith regarding the Satan Incident and everything in Grams.#I'm rambling now but darn the Ilian Faith is not messing around in Dragalia. They scary. More on that later (maybe) but I'll shut up for no

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rawliverandgoronspice · 2 months

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kind of following a lot of reaction to a bunch of recent and less recent events, but I feel like semi-regularly there's a kind of situation where someone online does something massively fucked up, and that at some point we begin to tip past genuine outrage and immediate jokes and begin to slip into the reign of casual cruelty and cynical pettiness, where it becomes not only okay but encouraged to be the worst version of yourself when interacting with the particular Villain of the Day, and while I feel like it's inevitable, I feel like that's kind of a repeating pattern that might not foster the best emotional reflexes around ideas of punitive justice and perception of the guilty party etc etc

#thoughts #this is kind of about somerton but not only #where I've seen people slipping from funny joke that are honestly well deserved and don't go past the realm of reasonable public shaming #especially given the situation #into shit that I feel should be off limits and are just wound-picking instead of actually relevant #also thinking about that time where a known public figure in gamedev (a queer woman) had been caught doing an Oopsie #like not a small one it was pretty bad #but she was eviscerated with a vitriol and glee I never saw applied to like #actual known rapists in the industry that we KNOW are rapists and still massively in positions of power #I don't know #thinking of Patterns #thinking about the theory of the Sacrificial Trash #like again not at all defending somerton this guy is a Mess on wheels #but I still feel like we should be careful of that moment when fighting back a malicious narrative becomes #“dehumanizing the guilty person is now what's fun about this"#and it upstages the need of taking the appropriate measures to defend the community #even when I don't feel particular sympathy for the guilty party I'm not sure it's a very healthy instinct to foster past a certain degree

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archergray · 1 year

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So. Consider this.

We all know that Dream is pretty much touch-starved after sitting in a snow globe since 1916 and I'm definitely on board with this hc, but what if. What if he was touch-starved even earlier, by his own "making"? Like, what if his touch makes people sleepy if he doesn't try to reign it in? Like, you're holding his hand and your eyes are getting heavier and heavier, because he forgot he kind of does that?

Enter Hob Gadling.

Hob Gadling, who's a teacher and therefore he's swimming in tests and essays and other things because nobody in this damn country care about teachers being overworked and underpaid. But it's alright, he doesn't mind, he likes the responsibility and quiet pride that comes with teaching, with helping to shape young minds into something clever, something beautiful, something brilliant. And he really likes the kids he's teaching.

But he has so much paperwork and not enough hours in the day. So, Hob drinks way too much caffeinated beverages and pushes himself to make it done (he can't let his kids down, right?). He sips on a long cold earl grey and pushes himself past the point of tiredness and now, when he finally decided that some sleep might be good, he. can't. fucking. sleep. It doesn't seem like Dream being grumpy, it's his body that's suddenly not tired enough even if his mind is, and his thoughts can't stop racing, so he finds himself turning and turning and only getting more and more frustrated.

Dream finally notices. He enters the bedroom quietly, like a hundred other times and crawls into bed, because he's been tired too. And Hob's arms welcome him, like they always do, tenderly, with endless love. His body already relaxes, maybe from Dream's proximity or him not being as fully in control as he'd like to be. But Hob never cared about waves of drowsiness when they cuddled – there was nothing more pleasant than to take a nap in the arms of his lover.

Neither of them say anything, but when Dream lays a tender kiss on Hob's forehead, he knows, he'd meet him in The Dreaming soon.

#hob gadling #morpheus of the endless #the sandman #the sandman netflix #dream of the endless #dreamling #hob really could use a hug #so does dream #honestly this post is kind of a mess i just had one chaotic thought and went with it #all because i couldn't sleep and bed was getting terribly uncomfortable #headcanon #touch-starved dream #anyway I'm going to do a sensible thing and go to sleep while I'm actually sleepy #because pushing past your body's limitations is not nice at all and I'm doing it a lot because uni sucks #clean your sleep schedules darlings I'm begging you

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sayakxmi · 11 months

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Did we ever actually acknowledge that Rufioh started cheating on Damara before the game. They started playing Sgrub at the same age as the Beta Trolls. Which is somewhere around 13 years old. So they were, like, 12-14 when it started.

It was still awful of him, but also, he was literally a kid, so it’s possible he really didn’t know better.

#homestuck #rufioh nitram #the problem with rufioh is not that he cheated on Damara #the problem is that he's unwilling to confront the pain he's caused her #honestly with how often he refers to her as his crazy ex i like to think hes actually trying to convince HIMSELF its weird how she reacted #in a typical breath-avoidant fashion #but at the same time does understand it on some level #but as he's said it himself - he's a coward #and admitting to your mistake is scary #that could explain why Damara still hangs out with him and while she can be (justifiably) cruel to him she still keeps doing that #and is actually willing to listen to his dumb relationship troubles or doing him small favors #all of that being said i'm actually giving him a pass for flirting with ppl while being with horuss #bc we've seen what happens when he tries to break up with him and it's likely not the first time it happened #so by then he's probably trying to make horuss want to break up with him #which - honestly? - kind of fair #rufioh wanted to end things cleanly but horuss played deaf #eh dancestors and their mess #dancestors #damara megido #cheating mention

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braisedhoney · 8 months

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So you said a while ago underfell was your favorite au before. Is that still true or?

Also who’s your favorite character from whatever au you like?

damn, you were around for that? :'D

yeah, underfell used to be my favorite! i think it was smth about being really edgy as a kid, or maybe it was because red was my favorite color. idk man, even now i gotta admit those designs slap really hard.

i'm not really sure if i have a favorite au now though. i do have some ideas for underfell that i like, but i think i see the appeal of most aus bc i just like making new scenarios.

i like the big three a lot (classic, fell, swap). sans is my favorite in classic (predictable i know) if you're not counting gaster, since he isn't technically a canon character. i like both fell paps and fell sans equally, and swap paps is cool. i'd be buddies with that guy.

(i also really like asgore in undertale. the tragedy of the grief-stricken ruler who kills even though it's against his nature for the freedom of his people but also because he's long past convinced he's in too deep is really compelling to me, and by proxy i'm interested in the theoretical stories of all the fallen humans including frisk. also the whole thing with their broken family and chara and—

—whoops the ask is about aus not canon lmao, sorry!)

#ney's chatter (ask answers)#captain talks about undertale #i have trouble putting my thoughts about characters into words sometimes but #i really do just enjoy delving into ideas and character motivations #so any version of a character i end up liking might end up with a kind of interpretative spin #i do like to stick closer to canon stuff because i like working off something that has solid bones #(pun not intended)#but with aus it gets more flexible so there's room for messing around ig #i think part of why a version of the skelebros ends up being a fan favorite is because of how they tend to get the focus in content though!#which isn't necessarily a bad thing—just a personal observation #i've always liked sans though because it kind of felt like he was the only Real character. the one who saw you.#that's probably why a lot of people liked him actually #we all know i'm a sucker for media that really includes the player on a meta or emotional level #and some of that honestly might have started with undertale #it holds you accountable in a way; you know? through sans’ judgement and flowey’s color commentary #i think flowey stuck with me in a different way though—him being alone in the underground maybe forever not by force but by choice is...#kinda haunting still.#so maybe add him onto that list. poor kid.#... wow there's a whole other post in the tags here isn't there #my bad lol

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softgrungeprophet · 7 days

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how many fairytale retellings have i done...

i did a beauty and the beast one back in the day for spn

did the peterflash 17th century genderbending cinderella one

did a spideytorch glass coffin fic

did the peterflash beauty and the beast/eros and psyche 1920s time-traveling (sort of) one

#if i do rapunzel/petrosinella that will make four spider-man ones XD #i just like.... messing around with pseudo-historical fantasy and fairy tales and myths #i do mean genderbendING not genderbent btw there is literal gender transformation in the cinderella fic #arghwrites #arghfic #nadia rambles #i orphaned all my supernatural fics years ago so i'm not gonna try digging for a link to that but if you really must find it #it's sabriel and it's titled something uncreative like le beau et le bete or some shit #honestly i bet there's a link post to it somewhere on my blog if you dig in my fic tags #a rose garden w/ bushes tall has the glowing endorsement of ''i don't usually like fairytales but i liked this'' and also #''girl get out of here'' wrt peter being kind of um. intense.

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mybedroomceilingsbored · 15 days

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i need to make an actual list of my moots. and maybe an actual cohesive tag system.

#i'm kind of a mess lmao #both here and irl #i'd honestly forget my head someplace if it weren't attatched-i'm always losing stuff #important stuff too #organization is NOT my strong suit

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twpsyn-who · 3 months

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Soulmates AU in which when your soulmate is in a situation that can result in their death you get to see through their eyes. Like, I don't know how to explain this- it kind of flashes between what you see and what your soulmate sees. You know those edits where there's a scene going on and there's another one faded in the background happening at the same time? Similar to that. The idea is that you get to see what your soulmate sees too, on top of what you're seeing.

Now, this AU but JeanMarco. With Marco asking the others where's Jean, just for him to start seeing a corpse right in front of his eyes not even a second after asking. Seeing through Jean's eyes as he's trying to get hold of that gear and stuff. And once Jean's safe, once it clicks that you know his best friend is his soulmate Marco can't wait for them to graduate so he can you know tell him that.

Then, you know. That happens. And Jean is so fucking confused because he keeps seeing Annie crying, looking down on him. Only when Annie starts getting off the gear, when his soulmate starts moving around trying to get away he starts panicking, starts moving around faster than before. And maybe he's too late. Or maybe he shows up in time and kills the titan. I don't know. That's not where I'm trying to get, but to the second option AKA Marco pulling an UNO reverse on Annie because he's a smart sneaky bastard like that and being like 'Hey you can't kill me, my soulmate will know it was you' which makes her stop trying to take off his gear. Reiner keeps telling her to do it, Bertholdt keeps yelling about that titan coming closer, but Annie... she has seen things, at some point. Flashes of moments that weren't hers, happening right in Trost- right in that moment. And she didn't give them too much thought until that moment, until it got confirmed that it has nothing to do with her titan powers.

'What do you mean by that?' she asks, because she needs to know more. Because she wants to know more. And Marco starts explaining how it works. Tells them that he has found his soulmate, that they will put all the blame on them for his death. Reiner doesn't believe him, keeps insisting that he's playing them around - he, and anyone born and raised on Marley, has never heard of something like that before, it doesn't exist - but Annie tells him to shut up and to let Marco go. Cue to the plot of any fic in which Marco doesn't straight up die after finding up their secret.

Anyway I don't know man, just,,, We need more soulmate aus for JeanMarco. That's an order.

#When I wrote this my mind was to Mina x Annie like straight up I was like 'Yeah Mina's Annie's soulmate and she saw her dying' but my brain #liked to remind me that you know Armin has a nerd death experience too. So it can go either way guys the idea is that Annie's soulmate l #either died in Trost or was close to dying #Some little things I daydreamed about while waiting to get home to finish this post (more like little details for the au than anything #else) : Only Eldians can have a soulmate aka only subjects of Ymir. Marley being the racist motherfucker they are aren't aware of the whole #soulmate thing. That's why Reiner Berthold and Annie has no clue something like that exists they didn't get taught about that. Meanwhile #everyone on Paradis knows about soulmates kind of hard not to when many SC die on a basic lol. Is something normalized for them #Also another little detail would be that a Titan Shifter can't see during their shift. Aka Eren didn't see through Mikasa's eyes during #Trost despite her being near death at some point(s) (I'm thinking about when Titan Eren punched that Titan coming for Mikasa but honestly?#She was in danger when Eren lost control too). So yeah that's all I have for now #I think it also make sense a little for some soulmate thing to occur on top of the titan powers given the whole 'love story' between Ymir #and King Friz (or whatever his name fuck that guy- in a nonsexual way). So yeah we should totally play around with the concept of soulmates #more #This post is a mess but I started it at like 11 pm and finished it at 6 pm let me be man. My sleep deprived mind came out with this one #I make no promises to actually write something with this - I'll have to re-watch the first two season and kind of update as I watch the #other seasons so yk. Low chances. But feel free to use this as you please haha. Go wild guys. It doesn't even need to be JeanMarco yk #Like Annie seeing Mina die with her own eyes??? And her thoughts process for the whole time once she finds out she was her soulmate #Or ykyk Historia Witnessing Ymir's death??? Nicolo losing his shit over seeing that little girl shoot his soulmate??? LEVI SEEING FLASHES #OF BIG ASS STONES THROWN AROUND #Man actually you can play around with Levi so much like we have Petra too and Hange and-#Regardless #aot jean #aot marco #aot #jeanmarco #Aot JeanMarco #jean kirstein #jean kirschstein #marco bodt #marco bott

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