#honestly its a hard place to be in

[puppyeared]

is this your card? ♦️♣️♥️♠️ it isnt but you dont wanna hurt his feelings

#this was supposed to be a warmup but i got carried away.... i havent drawn in so long that its been hard to focus orz #im testing a new brush for fun. again.. i think i can use this for clean lineart..?? im surprised i went as long as i did with the #narinder brush honestly... but i wanna try something new so here we are again #if i could get my shit together id love to draw a model of his van because i have smth really cool in mind..i was looking at pictures #of old wooden caravans like the horse drawn ones and i wonder if i could combine that with the shape of an RV #i like the ones with a door at the rear bc it kinda lookslike a train caboose.. maybe he'd get someone to weld him a custom ride!! #idk how intricate and detailed i can design it without making it a pain in the ass to draw every time BUT i have a general idea #it would probably have a door on the side but idk if itd flip down to make a stage or upwards to make a roof?? and then theres a #curtain behind it where he would come out and do his show methinks.. ive been looking at pictures of camping vans on pinterest for ideas #i dont think he LIVES in the van since i mentioned his home is an old run down theatre when he isnt on the road. i wanna draw that too #but the RV should have enough for long travels like a bed and cabinets..? maybe a net hanging on the ceiling where all his props go #id like to think of ideas for a hometown.. toronto has a huge entertainment district so it would make sense for him to live there #although id also love to base parts of it from vancouver since id love to go back and visit </3 #..would there be furth names for those places?? nyancouver... clawronto... whinnypeg (like a horse whinny)... #pawson creek.... purrlington... otterwa.. i love coming up with names lol #my art #myart #my oc #oc #sleight #laikas comet oc #fan character #fur #furry art

[hylianane]

Do you think. That after Sanji asked Zoro to kill him. He took a moment wonder if, had Kuina lived to adulthood, at the end of their journey, would whoever killed Mihawk would’ve have to fight to protect their title from the other? Do you think the next time they fought after Sanji’s request, Kitetsu would cut just a little too close to Sanji’s throat, because her master was too preoccupied thinking, would I have been able to do it? Kill her, if it came to that? For my dream? and later when he’s carefully wiping Sanji’s blood off his blade, do you think, that maybe he would think- the dream was hers before it was mine. Would I have felt betrayed, then, if she killed me? Or proud? Pleased? Happy?

When Sanji interrupts his thoughts to say, what the hell has got you so distracted? Or what, am I too boring for you to take seriously, do you think Zoro would glare at him in silence cause there’s no way for him to articulate that he’s never taken anything more seriously in his life.

#Sanji and Kuina taking up the same space in Zoro’s brain my absolute beloved. #Like yeah there’s also a parallel you can make between Kuina and Luffy in how they represent Zoro’s dreams but #Their dynamic as friends is different #Zoro is able to communicate rather freely with Luffy #With Sanji its more of the same thrown insults and play fights and secret admiration and inability to say the word ‘friend’ #and now I’m thinking about how Kuina died the same night her and Zoro spoke honestly for the first time #and I wonder if Zoro regrets that #I WONDER if he didnt realize he has a second chance at fixing it until Sanji’s life was placed in real danger #This is all so hard for me to articulate does anyone get it. Hello. Hello? #one piece #roronoa zoro #blackleg sanji #shimotsuki kuina #zosan #cause a death pact is always romantic #my post

[gibbearish]

i will say tho as someone with memory issues we can like. talk abt this situation without calling that part into question. if i write something and can't remember/find the source, i Tell people that, i don't act like i came up with it myself. and as he says himself, there is plenty he could have been doing to mitigate those issues, and he didn't. and we can question if he's telling the truth about specific parts without questioning if he actually Has Memory Issues or epilepsy or head trauma, he can have those things and still use it as a convenient excuse to explain away active choices. similar to the suicide attempt i don't feel like this is the kind of thing it's the public's place to stick our noses in when we can criticize him just fine without it

#james somerton #and honestly this is less from a place of 'you shouldnt because its ableist overall' although that is part of it #its mostly coming from 'memory issues are so fucking hard to have because no matter how hard you try people will always #doubt your honesty because of things you forget‚ and that Really Fucking Sucks if you really are telling the truth' #like when you were a kid did you ever get in trouble for something your sibling did and then get in more trouble for 'lying'? #or 'making excuses' when ur like !!!! theyre not excuses its just an explanation #and like. to be clear. that shit was almost 100% excuses. like i said he can have these things for real and Also use it as an excuse #and he was still lying about Many Things #but idk on the off chance that part was true i dont want to be part of turning that around on someone else no matter how much they suck #origibberish

[dailykugisaki]

Day 158 | id in alt

The hater streak returns, your honor.

#dailykugisaki #jjk #kugisaki nobara #fushiguro megumi #inumaki toge #NO BEAR KUGISAKI RN BECAUSE I WAS THINKING TOO HARD AND THE BRAIN WASN'T BRAINING #but yeah like Kugisaki will always hold that fuckass grudge and she should!!! #She will purposely say shit and look absolutely disgusted or pissed at the mention of yuta and i think it's fun #i am slowly giving Inumaki more lore like a freak you cant even stop me #i watched some insane wordplay and was like “omg Kugisaki would.” #(Kugisaki voice) Top ten smelliest smellers to unfortunately inhabit this planet with: First place is Okkotsu Yuta #oomf does not know that sometimes i draw entire things of Kugisaki in different poses in expressions that i never post #ITS ABSOLUTELY FUNNY #because sometimes i just finish something and just start doodlin nothin but Kugisaki #shes very fun to draw honestly idk how at the beginning i thought she was gonna be awful to draw(I thought her hair was gonna kill me)

[majorshatterandhare]

Today I, an aromantic, was getting ready to attend a wedding… with Stranger on repeat.

#the mechanisms #stranger #ttbt2 #i knew what i was doing when i put it on but also i am working on an addtion to my brian-jonny foils post so i was thinking about brian #its always sad brian hours #i cant really read that song separate from him anymore. honestly not sure i ever could but. its just so unconnected from anything else.- #actaea and lyssa is pretty disconnected. but its still almost certainly on the city. alice is pretty disconnected but its a result of- #king cole’s war. the most disconnected songs are redeath. the ignominious demise of dr pilchard. drop dead. hereward the wake. and stranger- #(and frankenstein but i consider that its own thing). and redeath and drop dead are my least favorite mechs songs.dr pilchard i didnt- #really care for for quite a while. stranger has so few words in it. it’s my favorite song. but the story is minimal fron the song (ie w/o- #knowing the crane wife story) so making a story around it sort of makes sense? im having a hard time with the words here. like we expect a- #story. cause that’s what the mechs do. and stranger has a story. it just doesnt have context and so creatong that context for ourselves is- #understandable. to be expected even. hope that makes sense #side note: i think it would make sense for hereward to have been from the same place (system I guess) as the people that made- #fort galfridian. i mean hereward was more of a real person than arthur (since there was no one person arthur was based on. like thats a- #whole thing) and hereward was anglo-dutch. so it makes sense hed be related to that story somehow #its just a theory. obviously. theres nothing in the songs connecting the too as far as im aware. #OH also achilles pointed out to me the anti-amatonormative/aromantic reading of stranger and i liked that a lot #hereward was anglo-danish. not anglo-dutch. sorry danish and dutch people

[institute-of-dolls]

hi, same “prospective doll” from last time! i wanted to ask, how many members of the institute (researchers, dolls, and so on) operate this account? just out of curiosity!

(ps, as a “candidate”, i figure it would be best to keep an anon signature, so i’ll be 🪶! thx for considering the message!)

So this is a slightly more complicated question to answer then it first seems, but the simplest answer is that theirs one really active member of the blog at the moment, which is the Institute's director. We have one body actively working on it, though Director does often take input from some of her closest people and her dolls to make content and answer stuff.

The Overall staff that use this blog at all are

The Director: who youll see the most here

The Engineer: (nickname pending) who is occasionally here for posts and reads it a lot, and who has her own blog she is probably willing to share.

The Dollmaker: who keeps up with the stuff and consults by chatting with the other two but who isnt really all that active on the blog.

There is some staff that have their own blogs too like our resident expert in handling, who's free to share if they want. There's Engineers research aid who i think has their own blog as well. Dollmaker's personal doll interacts with the blog sometimes from their personal blog.

There is also the lovely @strings-of-fate, our resident Doll Superior, a doll specialized in taking care of and managing its fellow dolls

Finally Directors combat doll, who tends to use the screen name Pyra or Pyra-032, very occasional posts on here when it wants to share something with other dolls. That said its been in discussions a while to start its own blog, its just been unsure it wants to yet and has been a bit tentative. I suspect it will soon.

I guess the TLDR; theres one active member atm, though the exacts are a bit complex.

(also brilliant idea, good doll. I have genuinely been considering suggesting something like that to help me keep track of who I am chatting with)

#dollposting #The staff answers #the institute's research #the institute's director #the complexity has been alluded to in places on the blog itself #and its honestly not that hard to figure out or straight up just find the reason for with a little digging #its just not technically my place to decide if its shared or expanded on yet

[dekarios]

the most popular thread on the dd2 steam discussions right now is talking about capcom going woke and "falling for The MessageTM" gamers are so insane

#fray.txt #steam is a true hellscape #its honestly so hard to find “forum” type places for games i swear #that arent full of people. Like This. #cuz for some reason they cant just talk about games anymore . they really gotta let everyone know they hate minorities

[mimi-jumping-through-topics]

When you just want to listen to some music while showering and the shuffle gives you these songs

This hurt so bad and mended my soul in nearly equal measures

#free palestine #ukraine war #free congo #free sudan #and so many more places where there is war and people are killed #honestly just every place with violence and terror #why cant we just be civilised and respect each other as humans? #its so hard to be hopeful in such times #but ill try #hopepunk #solarpunk #Spotify

[betasuppe]

#guess who finally gave their dr a call & told them how mentally unwell theyve been doing? #its me the idiots me #im getting a new dosage mix of meds tomorrow to try to unfuck me up #im hoping this helps #ive been going to too many dark places way too fast #& its so fucking hard asking for help you know? #any ways... #sorry all #im such a fuck up honestly hah ha

[carcinized]

people in the tags hating on the finale bro. that was beautiful and so well crafted i felt like. they had callbacks to like every important scene, tied up all the characters lives and dreams (or set them on the paths to doing so). and yeah like, its sad that ted left. but he was never going to stay forever. the show made that clear from the beginning. i thought the finale was beautiful

#tobin talks #ted lasso #like yeah it was sad. thats the point. when your family lives in one place and your loved ones another its fuckin hard!!! #goodbyes are hard!!! ted lasso has said this over and over!!! #i liked the finale and i wont let discourse ruin it. i thought it was beautiful. #ted calling the offsides call honestly did it in for me. he gets it now. each scene was set up & was beautiful

[arkstray]

i need to make more online friends

EDIT: WHY DID THIS SHOW UP IN THE MH TAG. MH FANS DONT LOOK AT THIS COVERS IT WITH MY HANDS

#its just really hard bc i left my main area for making friends n joining more discord servers is really scary haha #i love my current online friends btw even if i only rlly have just. the Two i talk to. #but i need to make more friends and idk where to start im really bad at talking to new people now #do i make a twitter account???? how do you even use twitter???? #do i join random discord servers and just hope i click with someone???? #i usually always made friends through rp but even that hasnt been motivating to sift through servers to find a place #and honestly rp friends end up not working because we end up ooonly talking abt rp bc its the only thing we have in common #honestly just considering going under new accounts altogether...... #ghhhh

[sk3l3t0n444]

this is fine im not hyperfixating on fnaf...and its totally not turning into a special interest...anyways everybodys opinion on the timeline of fnaf is dumb and im the only right one/hj

#like im sorry but sweet baby evan is not the boy who snuck out in the midnight motorist #at this point hes like 5 #hes not sneaking out and breaking windows and shit #the timeline is so fucking confusingggggggg #because in the books it says that charlie died in 1982 before the bite but why would william kill her back then he has no motive #unless he had a rivalry with henry or something #but the books are a different canon but they also arent? #i have been trying to figure this out like with how i piece together things and what i know but holy shit this is hard #like why in the world would you make a timeline this complicatedddddddddd #also when the fuck did elizabeth die?! #and where does sister location take place? ive heard theories that its under the afton house but that doesnt fully make sense to me #like its heavily implied that william hid in some sort of basement/room a lot to work on his shit but the entire thing of sister location? #im in so many fandoms that have the self proclaimed title of “most complex lore” but fnaf honestly takes the cake #anyways im very autistic about shit and i realize i have been typing for a while now and anyways #if you are also autism about fnaf i would love to hear your theories

[shepherdenjoyer]

Kind of a rhetorical question and more of a vent but how do you get over having an "all or nothing" attitude because it's making it hard for me to not get upset and discouraged when I have to admit to myself that there's no guarantee we'll be able to live with the kind of dogs I'd like to have, mainly because of allergy issues. One notable thing about this is I'm pretty sure shepherds and herding dogs are like a special interest to me, on top of the "normal" interest I have in them if that makes sense, and that's why I struggle with the thought of potentially never having one so much. I know it's a good thing to expand your options and keep an open mind and research different breeds but part of me just doesn't want to because that means accepting that there's no guarantee of anything really, and that's what makes me want to give up the whole thing and stop caring entirely 🥲 even though that makes no sense.

#mine #i know this might sounds silly and immature but if you think so please keep that to yourself especially if you're not autistic yourself #because its hard to explain in the first place #i hate dealing with uncertainty and there's so much of it in this it's so fucking difficult sometimes #i like all dogs but some a lot more. and i dont really find it comparable #and i myself feel kind of stupid for being like this but i guess beating myself up won't help #expanding my options feels like giving up on what i want. but that's just life. but it feels like shit #and another thing is i honestly don't like the feeling of the coat poodles and other non shedding breeds have #so that's fun #im trying to get over all this but every time i try to and try to reason with myself i get upset #talking about it w my wife helps but it doesnt really change how i feel overall #bleh.

[kyistell]

This was just a random idea I had. In my brain Central Jersey is the Jersey that shows the most, problem is is since CJ is so...let's go with disconnected, with the rest of the country he gets overwhelmed, and sure North could just switch in and South could do the same if they all wanted to scare the others with a southern accent that has the slang of the California coast, but watching a place that doesn't exist (it totally does btw) is way funnier.

Besides, by now all the other states that aren't the OG13 think that New Jersey has brown-looks red in certain light-eyes and it would scare the devil out of 'em if they see the red eyes that North actually has (and considering it's HIS body, it is far to tempting).

Also is it obvious that I love the idea that it's the Jersey's and not just Jersey, like I live here, if it's one singular state then I'm from Pennsylvania (I may have been born there but I sure as heaven ain't from there). Jersey would be three different states if we wanted to be associated with the rest of the country more than we already are, that and we may not agree on things but we don't HATE each other, we leave that for the rest of the country (plus let's be real, central wouldn't exist and then what would north and south argue about?)

Anyway as a proud Centralian looking at the news of the rest of the country is overwhelming, I just want to go skating, to the arcade, and continue lovin our favorite Devil, and down the shore when it's nice (and no, down don't mean literally down, though normally we are going down).

#welcome to the table #wttt #wttt new jersey #wttsh new jersey #wttt south jersey #wttt central jersey #wttt fanart #wttt headcanons #technically #gosh i love my state #we stay out of the way #generally #we're pretty simple #well to those who live here #and only sometimes #but we are consistently north #except we aren't #at all whatso ever #honestly we are more inconsistent than the whole country #and lets face it jersey could be its own country and be pretty much the same #hell maybe even better #anyway #jersey is probably the southern state of the north #its real northern in some places #but the rest #well it gets more southern the more your in...different places #honestly its hard to tell when your north or south if there aren't mountains or swamps or the ocean #like incredibly hard #it really shouldnt be #the south of the state should be southern

[cinnamontoads]

i think if i get far enough in my rewatch of one piece to actually hit the timeskip im just gonna read the manga from there to lessen the secondhand embarrassment i get from post timeskip sanji

#its so hard having sanji as your favorite character knowing how badly they butcher his ass #i mean all the characters got pretty butchered in the timeskip but sanji especially #one of the reasons i quit watching while i was ahead in the first place honestly

[evilundead]

do any disabled people have tips for keeping a living space clean... im abt to just break down and see if i can scrape together enough money to hire someone to help with upkeep at this point

#i just dunno how tf we're supposed to do this when we're two disabled people and one of us works 46 hours a week #i honestly would have hired someone at this point but our place is a wreck and itd be hard for a stranger to tell whats trash or not #we'll get the living space decent and then inevitability Something happens (usually one or both of us are sick or have a flare up) #and then its a wreck again #i just dunno how tf we're supposed to do thiiiiiis #book of the undead