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Hello! I'm rewatching supernatural starting at season 4, I realized that we often point to Destiel based on Cas' POV. Comments said to Cas (humanity etc.), Cas' motivation and loyalty to Dean. While I'm rewatching the show, browsing blogs, I can't shake off this feeling. Destiel is supposed to be mutual. Dean griefs Cas' death + "I need you", but it still feels onesided in comparison to Cas' scenes. Feels like Cas' is in love while Dean 'loves' as friend. Could you help me see Deans love plz :(

Hi :)

Hmm this is interesting and I had to think about it for a minute, because honestly I don’t think I’ve ever seen it that way. I mean even during the Mark of Cain arc when Dean was at his most emotionally closed off from Cas, there were moments like him grinning like an idiot at the sound of Cas’ voice on the phone or Cain reiterating how important Cas was to Dean.

Well I guess can list the ones that jumped out at me on a first watch, that I never thought anyone would even think to question showed that there were low/mid key romantic elements to Dean’s feelings about Cas. Be warned this is a wall of text so feel free to skip to the TLDR at the end.

6x20: That episode was framed as an angsty break up - it just was. From Dean refusing to believe Cas would betray him, to his heart breaking when he found out he did, all the way to Dean and Cas sharing that final look when Cas is in the fire circle and Dean’s running away.

7x17: Dean talking about not being able to get over Cas

“You know, I used to be able to just shake this stuff off. You know, whatever it was. It might take me some time, but… I always could. What Cas did… I just can’t – I don’t know why.”

Cas is different for some reason he can’t understand. Why? That question has never been explicitly answered beyond “It’s Cas.” Every time. It’s just different because it’s Cas.

Dean keeping Cas’ trenchcoat and carrying it around with him, even though they didn’t have the impala at the time and were using different cars. He moved the coat from car to car. Even Jensen and Misha couldn’t come up with a hetero explanation for that no matter how hard they tried (though to be fair I doubt Misha tried very hard :L )

Dean staying in purgatory for a whole year, praying to Cas every night and not willing to leave without him.

8x07: Dean seeing Cas everywhere and him and Sam both just assuming they were grief induced love hallucinations. You know, the kind Sam had of Jess after she died.

9x06: There’s a lot in there, but my personal favourite moment is Dean just standing outside staring at Cas through the Gas n’ Sip window, for god knows how long, with a wistful look on his face.

9x18: Dean’s messed up af, the Mark of Cain has its hooks in him and yet he hears Cas say something quintessentially Cas (What’s honourable about a miniature bar in a motel room?) and he just lights up with the most genuine smile (sorry I’m too lazy to make a gif for it!)

11x18: This one is definitely one of the ones that makes me scratch my head over how people can still watch it and say there are no romantic elements to Dean’s feelings for Cas. He’s just falling apart begging Cas to cast Lucifer out of his body. Then Amara shows up, Dean’s supposed weakness and all he can do is call out for Cas over and over again in a broken voice. She and Lucifer both notice and are surprised by it. Seriously just go watch that scene.

There are a bunch in s12 but honestly I have a hard time even focusing on the smaller ones because

a) Dean’s out-of-his-mind worry for where Cas is and why he’s not answering his calls. If you even just watch the “previously on” for 12x19, it’s just a montage of him trying to contact Cas. Not to mention how “spun out”, he is after Cas leaves with Kelly.

b) Sam having to physically drag Dean away from the portal to stop him from going after Cas. His scream when Lucifer stabs Cas. Falling to his knees beside Cas’ body, staring at the charred impression of his wings.

c) He made Cas a mixtape.

d) He talked earlier in the season about how the reason Mary fell for John was because he knew the words to every Zeppelin song.

e) He made Cas a Zeppelin mixtape.

f) He made Cas a Zeppelin mixtape.

Look I was actually going to go on and talk about more moments from season 13 and 14, because there are more, but I really don’t think I need to. Because if there was any plausible deniability that there was anything romantic there, and tbh there was very little left even by that point, 12x19 killed it. Everything about that episode, from how Dean was reacting to Cas, the way the mixtape scene was shot to the fact that he made him mixtape to begin with, was presented in a romantic way.

So yeah. Cas having feelings for Dean and Dean not, is not something I think the show has ever presented. There are a ton of moments I haven’t mentioned from before season 12 too, and more after, but if you have any doubt about Dean’s feelings and only have 40 odd minutes, just watch 12x19.

I mean to be honest, if it wasn’t a mutual thing it never would have really caught my interest or pinged my radar. I’m not usually a shipper so it’s not something I’d have been actively looking for - it was just really obvious to me, and I thought the fact that their relationship had this romantic vibe to it was just the way they were presenting it. I didn’t think there were going to be doubts about it.

Personally, I have less than zero interest in watching a story where a dude pines after his bff who shows no romantic interest in him because he’s a totes straight bro. The only time I’ve ever found that kind of thing done somewhat well was on Shadowhunters (yeah yeah I know), and there were extenuating circumstances and more going on with it there too. However you see Dean and Cas’ relationship, I really don’t think it’s one sided in any way, and if I’m being honest, I always thought they presented Dean’s side of it more than they did Cas’, again maybe with the exception of Dean’s Mark of Cain arc. But again that’s just my opinion. You may feel differently.

TLDR: Dean made Cas a mixtape.

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