Alright so I'm currently questioning my gender, let's just review
I'm going to pretend for a minute that I'm absolutely confident and know everything about my gender, because it will be far easier for me to later look at a post saying "I am definitely X!" And then think either "This is absolutely true" or "That's utter bullshit", than to write some waffly post about "Mmmm I think I may be X but maybe I'm Y? I dunno" and just think "......something in there is partially correct I think", so here goes I guess
Brief version - I'm questioning my gender and have no idea what's going on, but am going to write this post as though I know my gender in order to later help me identify it
This isn't really necessary for me to include but I will anyway for context and for the sakebof being thorough - I'm AFAB
I am definitely absolutely NOT male. That is the first thing I confirmed for definite.
However, I hate it when situations or people bring even the slightest bit of attention to the fact that I am, ya know, AFAB. Some days it's mildly uncomfortable, others it makes me want to cry. Also my first name looks WRONG when written down to me, so I may end up going by a new name
I considered they/them pronouns but they...don't feel right. I am definitely nonbinary in that I'm not male or female, but if the hypothetical three boxes I have are "he/him", "she/her", and "they/them"...I am not in any of them.
I do not want to be in a fourth metaphorical box though. I am not really into the idea of gender AT ALL - it was a big realisation for me when I realised that I think of gender in the same way as I think of sexuality. In a more objective or theoretical way, I understand that sexuality is when someone is sexually (and romantically, sometimes) attracted to ______, but on a more personal level I don't really understand it at all, because I'm both ace and sex repulsed - I have never experienced sexual attraction myself, have no real frame of reference and frankly just don't quite get it. So it was a bit of an epiphany to realise that I viewed gender in more or less the same way - ie hypothetically I understand what it is and why it's important to people, more realistically and personally, I haven't a fucking clue
I have no idea what sort of label this would count as - I saw the term genderless which sounds kind of right but not entirely. I think I might just, not use a label other than nonbinary
The pronouns I've come across that I like most are xe/xem, where the full list of how to use it would be something like
"Don't touch that, it's xyrs! Xe is going to love being able to cycle on xyr new bike with xyr friends - or maybe all by xemself!"
(Yes that's a condescending sentence it's the easiest one I could think of to stuff as many subject, possessive, etc forms of the pronoun in as possible)
If/when I pick a new name or nickname (? Not sure how official I want to be with names) I obviously don't want one that's explicitly male or female, but I don't really want one I heavily associate as being a "them/their" name either. For example, I think of Alex as a "them/their" name because for some reason the majority of characters I've come across that use them/their pronouns seem to have been called Alex
I like the idea of Ash, maybe, or Hazel, or maybe I'll just try looking up unisex names and pick one that's fairly rare but doesn't sound absolutely ridiculous and unpronouncable
Additional bonus besides not feeling extreme discomfort upon seeing my own name - my birthname is stupidly common. If I go by a new name, I will no longer look around when I hear it only to discover that nine times out of ten whoever's calling it did not actually mean me
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“HOW COULD YOU NOT TELL ME?” - Kondou to Souji //Cause hkjhd I can't help myself ihopethisisalright
MY MUSE HAS BEEN REALLY SICK FOR OVER A WEEK AND HAS BEEN HIDING IT, SEND “HOW COULD YOU NOT TELL ME?” FOR MY MUSES REACTION TO YOURS FINALLY FINDING OUT
@kazenofuji
I’m not sure if this was meant to be a Drabble or not but I didn’t know how else to answer so I did a Drabble.
I prefer to post all drabbles in one place so I’ll just link to it.
https://byakushisakura-writing.tumblr.com/post/182453700970/comfort
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Do you and the others from the group chat still talk
After reaching peak content and bringing out the flying super strip we obviously decided it was time to quit talking because it can’t get any better than this.
No jk, of course we do! Idk what I would’ve done without them during the off-season or even more the pre-season! We’re here to create more shit posts, living memes and peak content and obviously, to cheer on chicken strip, delicious country gravy, applesauce, big head and all our other babes!!
(I just automatically assumed you mean the Canucks gc, if that wasn’t the case: I do still talk with some others from the Canes gc and of course my German hockey gc too!! I love my friends!)
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"What, come on chat, he's a nice guy! I mean sure he's a little weird, but Dracula's not gonna hurt me, we're just doing business! It's a business trip! You know--" *re-adjusts seat, starts pointing at the camera* "you guys made me check every. single. door in this castle and we didn't find anything, so what's the big deal?
"...Yes I know like half of them are locked, did you just want me to barge in like 'oh er uh sorry Count, I see you're taking a dump in here, I just had to make sure you weren't hiding the murder basement behind door # 87'
"...'fucking blind streamer he had no reflection'. Wait shit are you for real?" *laughs* "Am I getting one-guy'd or did that actually happen? If that's not real I want that guy banned for at least...15-20 minutes"
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