some thoughts about astarion because i'm tired of the internet reducing him to one thing
when bg3 came out in early access, astarion was always seen as the extremely flirty, confident guy who enjoyed sex (or so we thought) and spoke about it like it was his favourite thing. he was also kinda marketed as the “sexy vampire”, so you can understand why many people saw him that way based on the little amount of content we had. even while playing act 1 and act 2, many players still might think of him like that because he does have a very charismatic personality and he asks to sleep with you very early on, so it just automatically makes you think he’s genuinely happy doing that and being totally serious.
BUT!!!!!!! we end up finding out later on that’s NOT the case and it was all part of a plan to seduce us in order for him to gain protection. he opens up about his past and his trauma and how he was forced to use his body to lure people back to cazador. he struggles with intimacy and relationships in general because of this. that’s why i really hope that people stop reducing him to “hot sexy vampire that loves flirting and having sex with everyone” when that is not who he is, he’s literally traumatised because of sex due to being forced into it and he’s slowly trying to heal. he’s also so much more than just “the hot vampire”, ya know? if you actually put in the effort to get to know him, you will see who he truly is underneath and he has many loveable traits to appreciate.
you may not see the “soft” side of him very often because he hides it, but it’s there!! one thing i noticed that really stood out to me was that when i gave food to an orphan in act 3 and he approved. back when you first met him, he probably would’ve done the opposite or had no reaction at all. i also saw a clip of someone trying to romance karlach and astarion and he literally told tav to choose karlach over him because he can see that karlach loves her. he said normally an arrangement would work for him but after everything karlach has been through, he doesn’t want to get in the way or see her hurt. letting tav go is also hard for him as well but he still thought about someone else. he could’ve whined or been possessive or jealous but he didn’t do that at all. where are all those people who reduce astarion to “the guy that flirts and sleeps with everyone” now? seriously. that’s not what he does, and when he was forced into it by cazador, he was trying to survive, he didn’t do it for his own pleasure. it’s not a “hot” personality trait of his, it’s literally trauma. and because he did it so much, he got used to it, and that resulted in him disassociating and feeling empty.
apparently if you ask him to join you and sleep with the drows at the brothel (something i will never make him do in my playthroughs), he only says yes because he struggles to say no. but he disassociates. and if you’re in a high approval relationship with him and he loves you, he will feel safe enough to express his feelings and say he’s not comfortable. this happens before you fight cazador. i’m not sure if he gives the same response after, but either way, if he joins in, he will always disassociate and it’s not something he wants to do despite what he may say.
that being said, it’s obviously still okay to appreciate his beauty and attractiveness, because he is very beautiful. he appreciates it and even likes being called beautiful. calling him “hot” and “sexy” isn’t a bad thing either, we know he can be and i'm sure he knows it too! it’s just annoying when people act like that’s ALL he is and they don’t even mention anything else about his character. the love scenes are beautifully done too (i personally prefer the second one after you’ve stopped him from doing the ritual, because that’s the one where he decided he truly wanted it and felt safe and comfortable because he genuinely loves you), and i actually would’ve been fine if they didn’t have any scenes like that at all because it’s totally understandable and valid if he didn’t feel comfortable, but i just hope that people don’t take things too far and over-sexualise him just because of how he appeared to be in the first half of the game and the way he’s often marketed on social media. and yes i know he’s fictional and nothing on the internet is going to hurt his feelings!!!! it’s more about the fact that he canonically has sexual trauma and many people still say really disturbing stuff even AFTER they find out about that, and it just makes me uncomfortable to think that people are okay with treating someone like a sexual object especially when they've said they're traumatised and it makes them uncomfortable. idk if this makes sense 😭
but yeah he doesn't want to flirt and sleep with everyone as i've seen people claim. and if in an alternate universe he did, and he did it on his OWN terms, and the other people he had relationships with enjoyed it too, then good for them! absolutely nothing wrong with that if there's consent, respect and honesty. however, that's not the case with what happened with astarion, because 1. he was forced into using his body WHEN HE DID NOT WANT TO and 2. he misled people and lured them to a miserable fate. it's so horrible and devastating for everyone involved. sex was never something fun for him, and it certainly isn't a "personality trait" of his. it was a survival tactic. he was forced to. he didn’t want to.
obviously when he becomes more comfortable, then it's totally understandable to get excited when he flirts and shows physical affection. he can be so charming, funny, sweet and romantic and i love that. it’s so beautiful to see him heal, genuinely find comfort in someone for the first time and experience intimacy that he feels ready and comfortable for. he deserves to love and be loved on his own terms instead of being forced. but again, he is so much more than the guy we were introduced to at the beginning. the internet just sees one thing and sticks with it but i really hope people start to actually appreciate him for who he is and the complexity of his character.
aaaaand i just had to leave this here <3
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hey AleRudy poly anon again!!
your girl is going through it :( So I was wondering if I could request Alejandro and Rudy (together) x a reader who is insecure about their baby face? It’s been hard lately and it doesn’t help with the fact I haven’t had a date before.
thank you!! Your blogs help me so much!!
I wasn't sure if you wanted your blog to be public since you forgot to go anonymous in the second ask, so I cropped your name out, I hope that's alright with you! Besides, anon, you're drop dead gorgeous! You're adorable to no end and I can assure you one day you'll find someone who will go through quicksand just to be able to go on a date with you! Just give it some more time!
AleRudy with a Babyfaced Reader
If I were you, I’d advise to not voice your discomfort with your baby face to these two men, neither of them take too kindly to you beating yourself up over something that is neither your fault, nor something that you can change just like that. However, if you want to be cheered up a bit, reassured that you’re beautiful, regardless of what may be, then go right ahead, tell them that you aren’t satisfied with the way you look. If anyone ever tells you to your face that you aren’t pretty then you have Alejandro and Rodolfo at your side, willing to defend you and your beauty. While Rodolfo may not be as confrontational normally, usually letting some things slide for the sake of being left alone, he will fight whoever dares to make a mean comment about you. You’re the most beautiful person on this planet along with Alejandro, so naturally he will settle for nothing less than the truth. Alejandro will just straight up challenge anyone who’s mean to you to a fight. He’s a heated sort of person, so it’s not too hard to rile him up. It’s usually Alejandro taking it up with whoever said you weren’t pretty while Rodolfo comforts you in the back. Sometimes the two of you watch a colonel beat up some no one, though. It’s fun, I promise, because Alejandro doesn’t hold back when it comes to you. Even if his knuckles end up bloody, he will fight for you.
If you’re just feeling down about your face in general, then the two of them will comfort you to the best of their abilities. Generally speaking, Alejandro sometimes gets cuteness aggression when you or Rodolfo are being especially adorable. This includes, but is not limited to: The both of you focusing on a video game, smiling at some cute animal videos or just existing in general. If he can, then he will squish your face. Don’t worry, he’s gentle with you, but it might hurt ever so slightly nevertheless if he gets carried away. Squeezes you, squishes you, pulls your face, pinches your cheeks. all the while cooing at you about how adorable you are and how lucky he is to have such a cool and awesome and gorgeous partner. He will pepper your face in kisses as well all the while he’s doing so because he just can’t hold back. Why would or should he? It’s you we’re talking about, and you deserve to feel loved and appreciated.
Rodolfo goes about it in a different way: He’ll have you internalize some compliments whenever you’re feeling down. Or on the daily. Doesn’t matter if you believe them just yet, you will eventually. Even if it’s just a simple “I look really cute today”, it suffices for him. Besides, if you’re ever in need of ideas as to what you could be internalizing for the day, just ask him or Alejandro, they have a lot of good things to say about you. You can also expect a sweet little kiss from him for every self compliment you’ve made. Or maybe a hug. Maybe five minutes of cuddles as well. He wants you to associate being confident and loving yourself with good things, so naturally he’s going to reward you somehow. It might be hard at first, but you’ll get there eventually, you will end up loving yourself in your entirety, that’s his and Alejandro’s mission. And throughout it all, the both of them will support you, no matter what.
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Welcome Home x Kaiju Reader Scenarios:
If you're feeling sad
POV: you're feeling down on yourself when you enter the neighborhood.
Home
🏠 He'll give you a sympathetic look, and try to attract Wally or any other neighbors to your location.
🏠 if no one's around or busy, He'll try to offer his best means of comfort, which is his usual onomatopoeia.
"Creeeak... squeak.. creeeek..."
🏠 you understood some of it, but not all of it.
🏠 If you're sitting close enough to his side, he'll try to "pat" your back with his window shutter.
🏠 wishes you were small enough so he could invite you in to wait for Wally.
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Wally
🎨 he can't stand to see you upset. He'll notice your dimmed demeanor and ask you what's wrong.
🍎 He'd be very upset you didn't see your beauty the way he did.
"Oh neighbor. Don't you know that you're the absolute most to me?"
🎨 he'd try to make you feel better by painting your spikes or nails, or just a painting for you in general.
🍎 When none of which work/are denied, he'll reside to sitting beside you, if you're laying on your belly, he'll hug your cheek and reminds you that he "Loves you very much."
👁 will try to track down whomever made you feel this way to "talk" with them.
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Barnaby
🦴 He'll somewhat sense you're feeling off, but if you're visibly saddened he'll ask you outright if you're okay.
🐶 He'll visibly wilt at how you upset you were as he couldn't bare the fact you felt so bad. He'll even take off his hat.
"Aw... s'ok kid... you know you could talk to your ol' blue buddy Barnaby if ya need to."
🦴 He'll try to lighten your mood with a few jokes from his stand-up acts or try to perform a few tricks for you if he had any props on hand.
🐶 if none of those really work, He'll lay his head on your lap. If your laying on your belly, he'll lay his head on your hand.
🦴 He'll either sit there with you and offer words of comfort or just remain silent until you're feeling better. Sometimes he'll even lick your cheek.
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Julie
🪀 She'll notice it right away; she can detect the somber aura in your presence and lack of enthusiasm and ask you what's up.
🧸 Her cheery demeanor would lower almost instantly. Your feelings were very important to her.
"Aw... Don't worry, I'm here to help!"
🪀 seeing that you weren't up for physical games, she'd try games like "I spy" or find shapes in the clouds.
🧸 if you're laying on your belly, she'll sit beside your cheek, and idly trace shapes along your finger while having light-hearted chats with you
🪀 may doze off laying against your cheek, in which you'd also do.
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Poppy
🍪 Poppy can see it almost immediately, and would gently ask if you were feeling well.
🪶 Her heart would break for whatever bad feelings would plague you. Even if you were tall, she considered you to be her "child."
"Oh dear... is there anything I could do to make you feel better?"
🍪 she'll offer you something to eat, whether it be a baked pastry or anything you wanted in general.
🪶 if that is denied, she'll simply sit with you, either in silence or engages in lighthearted conversation, while knitting something.
🍪 sometimes, if she's feeling brave enough she'll perk herself onto her shoulder and preen your hair gently.
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Frank
🦋 he'll notice you aren't your usual bright self, and even if he's apprehensive with you, he'll still approach you and ask if you're okay.
📚 He'll actually be incredibly sympathetic, as he really didn't know what someone through your mind.
"O-oh. I'm sorry to hear that."
🦋 he won't really know what to do, and he'll upright ask if you wanted to talk about it.
📚 when you do open up, he's a very good listener, not missing a single word you say, and is very careful with his responses.
🦋 after a while, it will become a lighthearted conversation about a random subject.
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Sally
☀️ she knows an act when she sees one. She can see right through the "cheery facade" and will ask you upfront what ails you.
🎭 she'll have to keep from bursting into hysterics, as you were a paragon to her and for you to have such negative thoughts broke her spirit.
"Oh no... that simply won't do! Is there anything I can do to aid you?"
☀️ she'll try to keep her exaggerating to a minimum and try to offer you words of comfort.
🎭 If you're laying on your belly, she'll sit against your cheek, periodically doting over you and praising your existence.
☀️ her figurative and literal warmth might cause you to dose off with a smile on your face, to which she'll let herself dose off as well.
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Howdy
🐛 He'll see it in your posture, which was slightly slumped. When he got time to himself, he approached you and asked you if you were okay.
🛍 He felt terrible at how you felt. His inner older brother couldn't bare to hear such negative thoughts come from you.
"Ohh... Well... wait out here. I'm going on my break soon. Maybe we can talk about it."
🐛 true to his word, he did indeed spend his break with you talking with you, and offering words of comfort.
🛍 he sat on your shoulder, listening to you as you vented, while using all four of his hands to rub your hand best he can. [Optional if you have the appropriate hair type: he'll sometimes braid your hair.]
🐛 he'll offer you some of his stocks, and try to remain outside as much as possible to keep you company.
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Eddie
✉️ he'll see it in how you greet him; he knows a sad voice when he hears it. He'll ask you if you're feeling alright.
💌 he'll frown in sympathy, knowing how difficult it must be for one of your stature to deal with such negative feelings.
"Oh my. Don't worry. I'll always be here if you need me."
✉️ Once he's done with his usual routes, he'll notify everyone of your feelings via, you guessed it; mail!
💌 everyone almost immediately makes you letters, crafts and other various gifts, and he incorporated some of his own work into this.
✉️ once he delivers it to you, he'll sit with you and remind you on how much you mean to them, and that everyone's willing to help you.
Hope this brightened up your day, lovelies~ ❤️
This idea is from a commenter from my Wattpad book.
If there’s any ideas you’d like to share, asks are open.~
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What really helped me to stop be so beholden to people’s feelings about my fat body was the realisation that a lot of the people who were overly bothered by my existence had just… really never experienced pure joy.
And that’s sad for them, honestly.
They’ve probably not gone to a restaurant alone and just had a delicious meal where you are just mindfully enjoying the depth of flavour.
They probably haven’t made something from scratch and enjoyed tasting all the way through.
Or had sex without constantly thinking about what they look like and not how it feels.
Or had their flesh gripped in pure abandon.
Or worn an outfit because the colour brings them joy, without even looking in a mirror.
Why would I ever priotise the voice of somebody who cares more for conformity than the beautiful abandon of living?
I don’t care if you think I’m a glutton. I’m hungry for the world and all its beauty!
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