#hope y’all like it because I’m having doubts 🧍🏻‍♀️

[kyxworld]

https://www.tumblr.com/kyxworld/744684586514169856/idk-im-scared-maybe-not-me-just-aware-but-what

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Yes I know it’s already peaceful but my identification with thoughts cloud the peacefulness and I know I’m the silence behind it all but that’s it ? I know it’s not something big because I’ve always been THAT so when I remember it’s normal because well.. it has always been here but what I mean it’s here you say nothing appearing as something, for me I don’t get it, maybe intellectually ok but I don’t KNOW like oh yeah right it’s nothing and I appear as something

I know it’s not a method to get or experience something but isn’t my existence an experience ? I’ve always experienced everything but it was not consciously but know can’t I experience what I want consciously ?? I’ve read RW Instagram posts and he said when you know who you are you can mold reality like you want

And maybe you’re right I’m limiting myself, I know when we don’t rely on senses when we want something like from the moment we think about it we experience it but why it doesn’t feel like it ? It feels like oh yeah I experienced it but later I’m like why it’s not here but I can’t say that because it’s an unfolding moment not hoping it’ll happen.. maybe there’s still misidentification but how to collapse the duality ? To not take one experience as more real than the other ? But like TO KNOW both are the same ?

Oof. hold on, there’s a lot to unpack here, but a lot of contradictions as well. there’s no point in intellectual knowing. intellectual knowing is more or less trying to verbalize, understand in human terms what “ ”, you’re technically trying to see another illusion, through another illusion. you know it’s not a test here, you’re trying to intellectually understand, is someone here trying to test you? 🥹

also the myriad of contradictions is crazy here, i think most of y’all, say you understand it? then come here with questions. if you “know” you wouldn’t ask a question. you’re the absolute authority, and come here ask “oh why can’t i see? oh why isn’t it here?” if you know, you know.

using senses as a form of validation ❌

thinking if you don’t see it with your “eyes” it’s not here ❌

contradicting heavily, i know i’m “ ” but…. ❌

letting baseless thoughts and doubts and taking the mind’s narratives too seriously ❌

how do you collapse duality? you just do 🧍🏻‍♀️. just by realizing that. okay let’s see, imagination -> something in your head -> something? -> nothing -> “ ”

reality -> very real -> through senses -> what are senses though? -> illusory -> ultimately “ ”

the common foundation, denominator for everything is “ ”. something cannot exist in your visual field without you being aware of it.

ex: you want cake. now it’s all in your head yeah? you imagine a cake, you literally think of/visualize eating it. you can taste it almost. very real but you get sidetracked by thinking “oh i’m craving it now” you’ve choices either go out and buy it or don’t do anything abt it. BUT WHAT TAKES PRECEDENCE OVER ALL THIS? before you even intellectually, before even your neurons connected to send a signal “i want cake” it’s “ ”

lastly, please stop thinking too much 😃. the recipe to drink water is take a cup, fill it w water, drink it. y’all do it like, take the water from a well or sea, reverse osmosis it, UV filter, carbon filter it, pour it, drink it. when you can simply just drink water you have at home.

(again, please feel free to chime in 🧍🏻)

#guys been where you are #so just calm down #it’s okay 😭 #awareness #non dualism #asks!