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densitywell · 6 months

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also since i've already seen people try to turn this into a thing i will just say now, as someone who loves Ashrym and doesn't particularly care for Callowmoore, that my feelings about the two aren't really connected. i love Fearne as a character and i don't see her as "getting in the way of my ship," and honestly i don't think of Ashrym and Callowmoore as being in competition at all! i would be just as happy with some sort of Fearne/Ashton/Orym polycule becoming canon as i would simply Ashrym.

ultimately what i care about is doing right by the characters; making choices that are both honest to who they are and compelling for their story. i love Ashrym because i think their dynamic has done a great job of developing both Orym and Ashton, and i'm far more interested in what they actually say to each other than whether they end up becoming romantic or not. I actually think both Orym and Ashton have a considerable amount of work to do before they're ready for a serious relationship! and if they were to get together i'd want it to be a much slower burn than, for example, Imodna, who were already so close and so intimate that it made sense for their romance to be like that right out the gate.

and the same sentiment applies to Callowmoore; i'm actually quite interested to see how Fearne and Ashton's dynamic could develop, and i think there's a lot of potential there. but it hasn't reached a place where a romance between the two would really feel earned. so yeah, I'm glad Ashton pushed the brakes on that, regardless of their reasons, both because its absolutely what he would do and because it gives them and Fearne the chance to develop a dynamic outside of just whether they're in love with each other.

#critical role #cr spoilers #callowmoore #ashrym #ashton greymoore #hopefully this doesn't come off the wrong way! i just saw a handful of people starting to push this ashrym vs callowmoore thing #and hoped to nip that shit in the bud because it promises to be exhausting. and i wld like to share my honest opinions on callowmoore #without people assuming i only feel that way because i'm all in on some other ship. and i would like to love callowmoore some day #bc i already love ashrym and fearne and orym's friendship.#crposting #it's good pain

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lucalicatteart · 1 year

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Poll adventure (paventure? lol) Day 11: read the small story tidbit below the poll for more details, OR just vote based on initial impression

(✦ see past poll results + further information HERE (link) ✦)

Yesterday's poll decided that The Adventurer should curiously socialize with a few of the boat travelers ...

"The Adventurer grabs one of the ornate glass bowls near the buffet table, meekly gathering some cheese and vegetables as he scans the crowd. For the first 15 minutes of the lunch, he mostly crouches in a corner seat, nibbling on his food and nervously fielding the occasional drunken question from a passing party guest..

Knowing he should.. probably... actually socialize at some point, he begrudgingly chooses conversational partners, squeezing his eyes shut and pointing around randomly until he lands on someone.....

The first is a scrawny man in a flashy suit, wobbly from wine but still keeping a vaguely charming demeanor about him. He proudly introduces himself as a "legal expert", then goes on to ramble for a while about the laws in the area, how drastically they vary from city to city (plus a few veiled hints on how to safely break them), and that if you travel a lot it can be hard to keep up with it all.

He mentions, quite conveniently, that he's recently published a book on the topic, a legal guide for local explorers, and offers to give The Adventurer a copy for a special discounted price... but... then soon recalls that the crate of books he'd planned to sell on the boat sadly ended up falling into the river earlier during a "silly little mishap"..

In place of a book, he simply slides The Adventurer a glossy mint colored paper swirled with golden floral motifs, supposedly serving as some sort of business card, though the actual contact information seems obscured beneath the cluttered design. The Lawyer also pulls off his scarf as he rises to leave, wrapping it around The Adventurer's shoulders with a little waving flourish (not the first time someone has confused his anxious shaking for cold shivers). The Adventurer stutters out a confused thank you, then watches as the Lawyer stumbles off, mumbling to himself that he's been drinking too much and "truly must find somewhere to piss"......

The second person he approaches is an older woman, hunched over a table fidgeting with a handful of colorful glass dice, spinning and stacking and arranging them into patterns whilst her thoughts drift elsewhere. Initially, she gives evasive answers when asked personal questions, but soon grows more talkative once the topic of local flora and fauna arises. She apparently used to adventure as well, roaming the lands to document various elements of nature relevant to her mysterious "private research" - though, at her age, she's now resigned to casual boat rides rather than riskily hiking alone through uncharted wilderness. Gently laying a worn leather journal of watercolor paintings out onto the tabletop, she points at various berries, leaves, and animals, eagerly describing their significance...

After chatting for a while, she abruptly changes topics, mentioning that sometimes she can "sense things which she should not" (whatever the hell that means), then asks him to pick one of her dice. He hesitates, but she just stares, refusing to elaborate further.. Finding even 30 seconds of awkward silent eye contact physically impossible to bear, he hurriedly plops a finger down in front of an iridescent yellow die. She chuckles..

Scooping up all of the dice from the table, she rattles them in her clasped hands, then brings them up to her ear as if to listen... to something?? A few moments later, she turns back to him, speaking in a raspy whisper: "There are others, melding your footprints with their own, seeking a gift you do not yet know - this is what I see."

Before he can ask her for any elaboration, the Captain returns, grumbling that The Adventurer has already stayed 5 minutes past the time limit and swatting at him with a broom to shoo him off of the boat. Apparently an hour can go by fast....

After climbing back into his dinky raft, he sails mostly successfully down the river, finally making it to a point that, at least based on his map, SHOULD be where the main road picks back up past the detour. He crashes into a small grouping of rocks whilst trying to navigate back to the shore, but he was planning on disassembling the raft to get his rope and supplies back anyway, so.. aside from a scraped knee and possibly broken pinky toe, he decides it's actually fine. The cat is okay, which is all that really matters, anyhow.

By the time he's taken apart his boat, eaten a quick meal, and bandaged his leg, the sun seems to have nearly set. It's later in the night than he'd usually like to travel, but, where he's going is a pretty commonly used road, so maybe it's safe? He's exhausted from socializing, but could probably muster enough energy to walk for at least a while. Or perhaps he should just call it a night and find a place to sleep.. But.. where??? What should he do?

Additional information

acquired a long, warm, expensive scarf

acquired slightly increased knowledge of local plants

acquired vague information from the 'dice based fortune teller', or whatever that was meant to be

acquired a business card (+ ability to get away with one minor crime free of legal consequence)

acquired mild nausea for the next 5hrs from weird buffet cheese

acquired badly scraped knee and sprained toe (will walk slightly slower for the next 2 days)

the adventurer's current main goal: follow his map to reach the abandoned castle ruins and see the rare animal specialist about the mysterious egg he has

#paventure posting #polls #choose your own adventure #okay yeahgh this one took like a week instead of a few days lol #I've went back to physical therapy for my chronic chest muscle issue and I think one of the new excercises they gave me in the #appointment ended up really irritating something instead of helping it because I was having way worse and sharper #chest pain for a few days. I went to the doctor and got an ekg just to rule out anything bad like that because I seriously #thought something was wrong but.. apparently it's just the same thing as always. It feels a bit better now #and hopefully wont get bad again if I ease into the excercises more. but for a few days I really didn't want to use my arms at all #so that means like.. not drawing or typing. also when I feel bad I kind of stray away from social media? I know for some peopls #social media is a good distraction when they're sick or whatever but I just find it stressful. I usually just lay on the floor #for a few days with silly cooking shows or Carefully Curated Youtube Videos That Specifically Contain Absolutley Zero Possibility #Of Stressful content Whatsoever on in the background lol.. ANYWAY.#I am at the moment able to use the computer again so I could draw things. hopefully will get on better schedules again one day #anyway!!... HE!!! adventure man... Again I hate trying to shorten things by just describing the conversations without dialogue #like saying “they talked about trees” rather than literally writing out a transcript of the entire conversation they had about trees #etc. I think because most of the time when I write it's in a very dialogue heavy context (like script type things. or visual novels/games #where lots of characters are talking and it's mostly that. etc.) So it feels awkward and bad to just skip over things #But also these would take days and days and days to do if I wrote out pages of conversation so I'm just doing vaguely rushed shortcut writi #writing trying to include only details that are necessary or etc. but ggbhjbhj... it's just so opposite to what I usually like #I always walk away like 'FINE.. i GUESS.. that will have to do >:T' lol #Kind of like how I hate literally every bit of digital art I have ever done because I'm so used to traditional art - specifically pencil #and pen stuff that's very sketchy and messy - and then digital art is all about clean even neat lines with a line tool and very polished #clean coloring - so it's super super opposite to my usual sketchy things and just Feels Wrong. I kind of like ms paint because it feels #like a middle ground like. it's somehow also sketchy even though it's digital. multiple pixelly lines over each other give it a 'sketch'#type feel. BUt anyway. It's supposed to be casual and quick and fun! I will choose to ignore all art and writing errors because #it is all about having a little advenchure! :3 As long as the main idea is clear enough for the voting to make sense . who cares #Remember to keep him safe! the dice lady is trying to help him. Regardless of where he sleeps though he can probably use the scarf #as a new warm blanket addition to his existing meager bedding situation lol. soft. fluffy. the cat will love it probably #Also again. whenever he talks to people the text will be longer. Sorry. Still trying for most of them to be short blurbs lol

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actual-changeling · 9 months

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see fictional father daughter relationships are all fun and games until you reach a point in therapy where you actually have PROCESS your childhood trauma and can't just dissociate it away because now instead of providing catharsis it is [incoherent screaming] and [indescribable pain]

#alex yells at the void #i have been having trauma nightmares every single night and like #boy i wish i could just keep suppressing everything #but i finally have the time and space to process it and feel like shit safely #and i know if i dont do it now i never will #and hopefully everyone is telling the truth and all the work is worth it and the other side is nicer #two decades of pain my guys this is gonna take a hot second #all i want is to be able to get through my day without feeling like im past my limits the second i wake up #do you know how much self control it takes to be like #yeah i will be in pain on purpose for the greater good tm #a fucking lot #therapy is WORK work y'all

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glimpseofsanity · 1 year

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Got a huge wave of this very overwhelming feeling of solitude and something bigger that I cannot express with words. Makes me want to pour my heart through my eyes and every single pore in my body craves to be held by someone who understands.

#personal #I was okay but overthinking certainly isn't any good for me these days #pains me to feel this broken without a reason #hopefully it'll go away soon

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camptw1nk · 5 months

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the most handsome boy in the world has a limp so we have scheduled a vet appointment for wednesday

#if he can get thru another day and a half. or just over half. without too much pain hopefully the vet can help #we're very much hoping its not too serious and i think he might be okay? he ate a bit and tried to play a little so #hoping for goodness hoping he feels better after a good long nap

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kordbot · 7 months

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officially started lanks' route today ! good lird lanks is now everything to me

#not that the other two aren't. all three are everything to me #lanks just kind of. hits close to home HFGSDHJFLS #i love him so much ok. also DAMN he is NOT fucking around all the battles take. so short jesus christ #go whiteboy go i guess? but SPARE ME. FUCK #honestly good for him he SO deserves it. he so deserves to go completely feral #liam can have a little bit of killing and violence. as a treat <3 #also apparently i didnt get the camo shawl which im guessing was in the cave segment before the sportsdome that i accidentally skipped. fuc #WELL i can do without it. maybe. hopefully. child's blanket shouuuld be good enough maybe #tbh i think i had more fun during cyclops' route?? idk i just love playing tanks ig #lanks is great but he's not fully my style of gameplay. cyclops' fighting style is a lot more satisfying to me #but i gotta admit that taking out grunts in 1 turn is incredible #but still.#wow i cant believe i missed lanks so much in cyclops' route and now i miss cyclops in lanks' route..#I GOT USED TO FIGHTING WITHOUT LANKS OK #NOW I NEED TO GET USED TO FIGHTING WITHOUT CYCLOPS #this is gonna be haaard but im very close to the endgame now. just crashed the caravan so its gonna be like. 1 or 2 h until the ending or s #overall ! lanks' route is fun and i guess it IS easier but its less satisfying and takes. so much shorter. tbh HGFSDHJFLS #then im gonna do beltboy's !!! and then. im gonna try doing rod's route in pain mode </3 #im gonna die so much but i think i got pretty good at this game. so

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roylustang · 8 months

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Y’all don’t know how happy I am to come home to big juicy pizza and the best ranch in the world after a long run

#IM SO READY #also I ran the whole time yay #which means I’m back in the game #which sounds weird to say considering I just hiked 60 miles with Evan in the span of 3 days #but that was mostly hiking and not as much running #and that MATTERS as I continue to find out #my legs were v sore this week and also it was hot af so like Thursday I walked a bit on my 7 mile run #but we did all 14 runnin today #but slow af bc I didn’t wanna die and it’s still as humid as Japan so #but I’m not dead and I’m ready 4 pizza #and hopefully I’ll be ready to run 63 miles next week fjfjfjdhejzkzloz #running #also I love how like when I fall off the PT boat #I can’t run 4 miles without knee pain #but two 30 min sessions of PT will fix me entirely #physical therapists are witches #in a good way

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isaksbestpillow · 1 year

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I was gone for a few days and meanwhile a lady with a sword has taken my dash hostage

#hello!!!#these past few weeks have been some of the worst times in my life #i've been prescribed everything from antibiotics to laxatives to valium and i'm still not sure what's wrong with me #but hopefully i'm slowly getting a bit better now!!!#if we're gonna look at the positives this experience has changed my outlook on life #a day without crippling pain or anxiety is a good day on earth

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moinsbienquekaworu · 10 months

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I thought I'd keep my Emotional Support Fic Yearly Reread for september/october when I'll be stressed out of my mind living alone with paperwork and schoolwork to do but actually I think right now is a good time

#the first time i read it was what. two and a half years ago?#i was in a very different (worse) place but i still need my cloth fanfic y'know #because i'm already stressed out about paperwork and living arrangements and mental & physical health #the fic is pacify btw. it's good to focus on someone else's struggles and pain and recovery #especially when those other someones are not real people and i don't have to really feel bad they're going through atrocious shit #also the songs i associate with the fic (which are many) are songs i don't want to listen to too much outside of pacify rereads #they're really good i just try not to listen to them without pacify because i don't want to stop associating them with the fic #they're - i've already said it but they're split in three parts #one that runs from the start to that moment in the tower during the battle #then from there til the evil is vainquished in the coolest way possible #and then til the end of part 7 since the author is still still working on part 8 #so part one is handmade heaven - fear and loathing - karma‚ all by marina #part two is nobody and washing machine heart by mitski #and part three is the 7 minute version of plastic love by mariya takeuchi and happy by mitski #the songs don't actually fit the fic that much but they fit it in my head by association so whatever #hopefully i'll manage to finish my diptych project thing this summee #summer* ugh #anyway back to reading #i've reached the bit where Someone is made aware that some people have an expiration date and go fuck it we ball #not giving names because last time i did that i had to defend myself before a jury of my mutuals and i don't need that right now #it's just. it's a good part. well no it sucks for everyone it's the part that hurts (half of the fic) but like. it's good #wow i have a ramble tag now

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bestial4ngel · 1 year

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Wow, what the actual hell.

Just watched my (white passing asf, dirty blonde, blue eyed) younger brother go from hating it when kids at school would call him Mexican because he’s half Guatemalan -> to enjoying the “is it because I’m *insert non-white race*?” jokes that his cousins and friends would say -> to jokingly calling his friends racist about little things and enjoying (and repeating) jokes his jewish friend would say about gas chambers and constantly cracking 9/11 jokes because his friends have been doing it -> to making edgy jokes about 9/11 and race and nazis and jewish people being inferior and watching lowkey questionable joke clips from South Park and SNL -> FUCKING DOING THE NAZI SALUTE AND LAUGHING ??? I hate it here man. If it was a one-off, okay whatever but it was very much not, and it was paired with multiple other nazi jokes after

I had a terrible feeling he was sliding down the alt right pipeline via edgy comedy, and ngl some of the south park clips seriously had me thinking I should keep an eye on that and intervene if it starts getting worse, but my god did it escalate fast. I don’t think he genuinely hates anyone yet or actually believes any of that shit and the whole thing is that he thinks it’s all a big funny joke, but it still just concerns the fuck out of me.

I literally started making half jokes that I’m worried about my status/safety in the house because he’s literally making nazi salutes (I’m visibly half black) to try to give some perspective and maybe bring him back to earth a bit but I can already tell I’m gonna need to be more direct very soon.

#ask to tag #he’s almost 14 and hes trans so he’s trying to fit in with The Boys™️ and trying to seem as straight and cis as possible which like…#I think we all know where that can lead and how it can be toxic and painful and shit. and ofc that kids that age tend to have an edgy phase-#but DAMN #what the actual fuck seriously #I seriously hope he tones it down at school and with friends like it would be extremely uncomfortable to be around that as a minority #unless they also viewed it as a joke??#and I’d imagine cuz hes trans it probably opens up a world of transphobic jokes as well which will probably worsen the internallized—#transphobia :/ like he showed me a fuckin dave chappelle clip of a joke about him not believing a masc lesbian when she said she was a woman #I get its comedy or whatever but man. idk dude I worry that it will effect his view of things a lot #hes a good kid and (usually 💀) empathetic so I dont think he’d wish harm on anyone but ig thats how it goes. always without bad intention #tw racism #tw antisemitism #tw vent #/antisemitism #/racism #/vent #me talking #gave him my tumblr by accident. hopefully this post doesn’t backfire on me. i dont think he uses tumblr much tho

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