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For What It's Worth - Chapter 1

Chapter 1: You, Max, a bouquet of flowers and a missing name. 

Max Verstappen x Reader

Chapter Summary: You receive a bouquet of flowers and it turns Max’s life upside down. 

Warnings: Swearing, having a drink. 

Word Count: 4193

Author's note: So this is the first legit long series I have ever written. Chapters will go up when they go up but I will try and make them as regular as possible. I really hope you like it and yeah, it’s meant to just be a fun read. Hopefully you enjoy the boys antics as the story progresses and I am super excited to hear what you guys think :D Thank you so so so much to @0-atmilk-latte for all of your help and listening to me talking about this for too long <3 

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“Yes, that’s correct, perfect. First thing tomorrow morning. Please, please don’t forget the note. Oh, I think you’d need to drop it off by 7am? Is that okay? Can you do that? To the hotel room? You guys are life savers, thank you so much. Have a good one.” Max hung up the phone after the florist had said their final goodbyes and began closing every tab he had opened on google immediately after. He swiped through too many, showing either florists or the meanings of flowers. One he closed faster than the rest, even in his isolation, embarrassed by his need to look up some passionate words to put on a note, but in his defence it wasn’t like you were confessing your feelings to the love of your life every day. 

No, this was a once in a lifetime moment. One that some don’t ever even get to experience. 

Max was about to experience his moment and soon. 

In just less than 24 hours, the woman he considered his one true love would know exactly how he felt about her. 

He knew he would experience some nerves, but for reasons beyond what he understood, they were minimal. No, what Max was feeling was an overwhelming sense of calm. It was as if he knew that after this moment, everything in his life would somehow be better, he’d be truly content and at peace. 

For the first time, everything in Max’s life made sense. 

With Google finally closed, only the time was left glaring back at him and for once, he didn’t care about the fact that he was going to have to sit through media duties for the day. What he did care about though was that he was definitely going to be late and if he was late again, you might actually just kill him. At the very least, give him that stern look you think is scary which somehow makes him feel giddy. The cock of your head, eyebrows lifted, eyes daring him to challenge you, the small smile on your lips giving you away, it all left him making a deal with whatever god existed that even if that was the only look you’d ever give him again, he’d take it, as long as he could still have your eyes on him. 

As if it was like you could feel him thinking about you, a notification bearing your name popped up, just below the time, both warning him that he was about to be late. He quickly grabbed his bag, it felt lighter, everything felt lighter, Max was lighter. He slammed the door, the sound jarring him, a quick apology was whispered to it, more out of habit than anything else and then he was running down the hallway passage. He could see the elevator doors closing and before he could shout out a request to keep the doors open, he watched your hand curl around the edges of the door, the elevator opening back up and as the doors parted, there you stood, with his favourite look on your face. God he loved that smile. You could never be mad at him. 

He slid through the doors and came to halt next to you, shrugging the strap of his bag back onto his shoulder from where it had fallen. 

“You’re late Mr. Verstappen.” you reached forward to push the button for the ground floor, the elevator doors closing for the second time for you now. 

“Good Morning to you too.” He glanced towards you out of the corner of his eye, before staring back straight ahead. He didn’t miss the smile you were attempting to hide. He was doing a poor job of hiding his own. 

“Are you going to give me an explanation or?” You’d turned to look at him this time, faux stern look still directed at him, your attempt at keeping things professional. So unlike Max. 

“Would you believe me if I said it was because I hated media duties?” You rolled your eyes and Max crinkled his own as his smile grew wide. 

“It’s the only reason I’d believe. It’s not like you had a raucous night where you’re sneaking a woman out the next morning.” The elevator doors slid open and you seamlessly slid out, quickly making your way towards the hotel entrance with Max following after you, significantly less grateful than yourself. 

“How do you know I wasn’t having a raucous night that required me to sneak a lady out this morning?” He hooked his thumbs under the straps of his bag as he fell in step with you. Only increasing his steps slightly to get to the main door before you, swinging it open to allow you through first. 

You stopped in the doorway, the softest smile shining at Max. He couldn’t help but notice how the apples of your cheeks got just that much more plump as you did. He couldn’t stop the thought of finally being able to kiss your cheeks the second you were his floating into his mind. From tomorrow he’d be able to. 

“Well, if you were, I feel sorry for her, because it couldn’t have been that raucous if you were messaging your assistant at 10pm asking what movie we’re watching for movie night.” Your hand came up to pat his chest as you continued through the doorway, Max hot on your heels ready to defend himself. 

“Firstly, I wasn’t messaging you as my assistant, I was messaging you as my best friend,” Max’s arm swiftly moved past your body to reach the car door before you could. Your small step backwards to move for the opening door pushed your body further into his. Max didn’t move. The feeling of you in his space was always welcomed. It had been a growing constant in your friendship. Almost as if the two of you needed to share the same space to physically exist. “Secondly, it’s an important question.”

“Movie night is next week Max, let’s first get through this race weekend before you start stressing that pretty little head of yours about what movie we’re going to be watching for movie night.” You shifted across the seat to make room for Max as he began climbing in. It is as if your bodies worked in tandem. 

“Listen, it's important.” He’d never tell you it was so important because it would be your first movie night as an official couple. The car merged into traffic and made its way towards the track, the hum of the car engine now filling the space as both you and Max got into the race weekend mindset. An unspoken need for both of you that the other always seemed to understand without an explanation 

“How to lose a guy in 10 days.” You continued to stare out the window as Max pulled out his phone, opening up the note app labelled with your name. He scrolled past all the lists of your favourites - food, restaurants, colours, flowers, baked treats - and at the bottom he wrote:

1st Couple Movie Night Movie - How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days. 

He’d chat to Daniel at the track about what may be too much for it, because in his need to make it the best couple night for the two of you, he’d already been looking up where to rent a slush puppie machine just so you could indulge in your favourite drink, the rum slushie, it was one of the first things he had put on his list of your favourites. 

He couldn’t find where to rent one, but as of monday at around 2pm he would own one. 

He debated making a comment about you wanting to watch a rom-com with him, but he kept it to himself, a small chuckle leaving him instead as he pictured you huddled under a blanket on his couch, his arm slung around your shoulders, as he definitely ends up watching you more than he could ever watch the movie. 

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“What’s got you in such a good mood?” Daniel whispered as he sat next to Max in the drivers conference, both content to ignore the journalists until the absolute last moment they could. 

“I’m finally making my move.” Max whispered back, expressing a mixture of excitement and approval. Not approval of you, no, he knew Daniel adored you and had been pressing Max to make a move now for months, approval of the fact that he was actually finally doing it. 

“Glad to see you finally grew a pair.” Daniel clapped Max on the shoulder before discreetly covering his mouth, “What’s the plan?” 

Max mimicked this move, eyes darting to the media before continuing the conversation with Daniel, “Got her a little gift, cute note and everything.” Max sounded giddy with excitement. 

Daniel laughed at his friend's enthusiasm. “Wow, you really are aiming to win everything this weekend aren't you?”

“Only one thing worth winning,” he was then interrupted as the conference was signalled to start, the onslaught of cameras and people now solely focused on them, and normally he would have hated it, a fake smile present, if he could muster it, but today, everything was genuine, 

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“A quick drink.” A comment you knew held no weight when directed at the australian landed on deaf ears as you sat down at the table, Max taking the seat beside you, his usual and rightful place, before casually draping his arm over the back of your chair after greeting had been made around the table. 

“It’s the start of the season, we have to have a drink to celebrate,” Daniel attempted to defend the invitation he had sent out shortly after their work obligations had concluded, a nodding Max beside him agreeing that it was something worth celebrating. 

“And what’s got you so excited about the start of the season? We already know you’re set to win the WDC?” You laughed as the table was filled with complaints and groans. 

“Awfully confident about your boy winning there.” Alex shouted down the table.

“The Williams are about to give those Redbulls a run for their money.” Lily piped up alongside him, laughter once again taking over the table, Lily herself even unable to suppress her own giggles. 

“The only reason that Williams would ever look even close to good is because Alex is the one driving the car.” Charles had elicited a round of  “Awwww’s” interspersed with more laughter with the comment of his good friends skill, always the one to make sure everyone was feeling good, even if his own nerves for the season were boarding on unhealthy at this point.

As the laughter died down, you turned slightly in your seat to redirect your gaze to Max, only to find him already looking at you, almost as if he could read your mind, still wanting to know what had him so excited for the new year ahead. 

“This year feels different,” all eyes were now on you two, listening to what could be so special to the driver about this year, “I just have a good feeling that this year is going to be the start of something amazing.” Max mimicked you as you tilted your head in confusion, while every other person at the table simply nodded in acknowledgement of Max’s statement. You had assumed it was because they agreed he was going to be breaking records and changing the world of Formula One, but they were acknowledging something else instead. Something that you had completely missed. Instead, they were all acknowledging the inevitability of you and him. Not as best friends. Not as you as his assistant and him as your boss. No, they were acknowledging the inevitability of you together, as a couple. As the two people who were so desperately in love, always only moments away from admitting it to each other. How it had not happened yet was beyond anyone sitting at the table, beyond anyone in the world of F1 itself, but it existed as one of the great mysteries of life. What no one else but two people at that table knew though was that tomorrow, the inevitable was going to happen. Tomorrow, you and Max would walk into that Paddock as assistant and boss, as best friends and as a couple. Max was sure the second the crowds found out, they’d be cheering for you two more than anything else the entire weekend. 

He’d once heard in a movie you’d made him watch, another one of your rom-coms, that when you were in love, it felt like the whole world was on your side and Max was sure, considering who he was, that there was no way he could ever feel like that and then came the day that he realised he was in love with you. 

The whole world truly was on his side when it came to loving you. 

It was the natural order of things. Max didn’t really believe in fate or destiny or much like that, except when it came to you. Max was sure, without a shadow of a doubt he was destined to fall in love with you. His fate was always and ever only you. 

Suddenly Max was broken from his trance and pulled back into the conversation as the waiter's arm passed between the two of you, placing your drink in front of you, a Malibu sunset if he recalls, his beer shortly following. And so the evening continued, conversation flowed, laughter poured out of you all and Max could not be more thankful that this was his life. He was constantly drifting in and out of the different conversations, but always drawn back to you. Always utterly distracted by you and the second you distracted him, well then his mind began to wonder and it was filled with nothing but thoughts of you, and him, and tomorrow morning and how his entire life was about to change in the greatest way he could ever imagine. 

Until everything he was so sure of came crashing down around him. 

“Sorry, what was that?” he leaned forward, closer to you, inserting himself in the conversation between you and Lily. He had briefly taken note that you were discussing something about dating, it was another one of those moments where he got distracted, daydreaming about finally dating you, when his brain had caught on to what you had just said. 

“Oh, we’re just talking about which situations are creepy or not when you’re being hit on, because there are very distinct differences.” Lily caught him up on what exactly you two were discussing, you nod along before turning back to Lily to continue. 

“No, no I got that, sorry, I just, what did you say?” he gently tapped your shoulder, indicating that he wanted you to repeat what you had just said. 

“Oh, no I was just saying that the creepiest situation is when your boss hits on you. Like, there is nothing worse,” your face scrunched up in disgust as Lily laughed along with you and a few others that had now joined in the conversation. 

Fuck.

Max let out a forced laugh before dropping his arm from around your chair and abruptly standing and grabbing his phone off of the table, all eyes being drawn to him. “Sorry, sorry, I just remembered, I have to go sort something out, sorry.” He stumbled over the leg of his chair as he quickly tried to get as far away from the table as possible. 

Fuck. 

Fuck.

Fuck. 

The second he was out of sight of the table he was frantically searching for the florist's number, still moving towards the exit of the restaurant. All it did was ring. Again and again and again. And when it stopped ringing, Max simply dialled the number again. And with each new ring, his breath grew more ragged. 

And this is how Daniel found him, back against the wall, eyes closed, phone to his ear, breathing so shallow he was sure he was going to pass out any minute and a slew of curses streaming from him in between the aforementioned breaths. 

“Mate, you okay? What’s going on?” Max snapped his eyes open and swung his head round to Daniel, clearly searching behind him for someone that was clearly not Daniel. 

“I fucked up, oh my god I fucked up so bad.” The panic seeped off of him as he began dialling the number again. 

“Okay, calm down, we can fix it, it’s okay, just, what’s happening?” The phone only ever left Max’s ear so he could redial before it went straight back. 

“She said it was creepy when a boss hit on their employee!” Redial. 

“Mate, I’m sure she didn’t mean like, your guy's situation?” Daniel was almost 100% sure you hadn’t meant you and Max. You two were meant to be. There was no way you meant you two, “I mean, we all know how you guys feel about each other.”

“Has she said anything to you?” Redial. “Because I know I haven't shut up about her, but has anyone heard anything about how she feels about me?”

“No, she has not.” All that could be heard between either Max or Daniel was that stupid ringing that Max was sure would haunt his dreams for all eternity. 

“Who the FUCK does a romantic gesture without knowing how she feels about him?” Daniel took the phone from Max before it landed in the middle of the road, screen smashed. 

“Listen just because she hasn’t said anything doesn’t mean we can’t all see it.” Max was now slumped back against the wall, hands in his hair, nearly ripping it out by the root he was so stressed, “What did you get her anyway?”

“Flowers, and a note.” It had all been so perfect and then he had to ruin it all by making an assumption. 

“Oh, that’s not too bad?” 

“The note pretty much told her I am in love with her. Like, I want to marry her one day, called her my soul mate kind of note.” 

“This is slightly less good.” Max looked like he was on the verge of tears, “but again, you guys are best friends and I am sure she is just as in love with you as you are with her.”

“And I am her boss. I am her boss and I am about to lose my best friend and the love of my love. Oh I am so fucked.” During the lament of his life, Max had ended up face first, plastered to the wall, cheek squished up against it as it left indentations in his skin. 

“Hey, what's going on? You okay?” Both boys swung round to face you, as only two children who had been caught doing something they definitely shouldn’t would react. 

“Yeah, no, we’re good.” 

“It's all fine.”

It was all too fast and the deep indentations in Max’s face were leaving you more concerned, but you barely had any time to respond before both boys were making their way towards you. Daniel placing his hand on your lower back to guide you back inside. Not Max. Your chair was pulled out for you again. Not Max again. And there was an arm missing from the back of your chair for the rest of the evening. 

Most importantly though, there was a pair of eyes on you for the rest of the night too, not Max though. He could barely look at you for the remainder of the time there. Eyes avoided. Physical touch avoided. Conversation avoided. 

It was far too noticeable for you to let go and you turned to Daniel, his eyes already on you, and you gave him a questioning look. The shake of Daniels head doing nothing to placate your concerns. 

“You can talk to me if you need? It’s my job as your assistant to deal with you 24/7 you know?” It was your attempt at a light hearted joke, but as you whispered to him, it did nothing but break his heart. This had solidified it for him. He was your boss and he was about to become your creepy boss. 

“No, I’m just, social battery ran out, I think I’m going to head out.” He got up before you could protest anymore, and bid his farewells, “I’ll see you tomorrow.” You missed the ‘hopefully’ he whispered after he was out of earshot. 

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Max had the first free practice of the season tomorrow and here he was, 2am, wide awake, doing everything he can to avoid looking at his phone, well aware of the messages you’d sent him. 

He was such a fucking coward. 

It was meant to be perfect. It was all meant to be perfect. You were meant to get the flowers and read the note and run down to breakfast and hug him and be his girlfriend and you two were meant to live happily ever after.And he had made an assumption. He had just assumed you’d felt the same. 

Now all he’d be was your creepy boss. 

This is what he drifted off to sleep to. Thoughts of you quitting and him never seeing you again. 

He felt that this year was going to be different, that it was going to be great. He didn’t realise it was the year of the great fuck up that as his life. 

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“Has she said anything?” Daniel stood next to Max as he dished up from the buffet in front of them. God Max hated buffets. You’d once mentioned off hand the amount of bacteria that they had, open food and all. He couldn’t look at them the same after. 

“Nope, but she’s definitely received them. Got the message from the florist this morning.” The second his phone pinged with the notification he felt sick. It was his own personal warning that his life was now ruined.  

He was thankful Daniel hadn’t followed him to the table, clearly realising he needed to be alone. Throughout breakfast all Max could do was pick at the measly amount of food on his plate and glance up at the entrance to the dining room. Waiting for the moment you walked through the door and he’d have to face his failures. 

He tried to get a mouthful in, but as he glanced up, there you were, standing at the buffet, same look he was sure he had on his own as he stood there. He couldn't take his eyes off of you and suddenly you were looking directly at him. 

Scratch that, you were making your way directly over to him. 

Shit, this was going to happen. Right now. In a dining room full of people. 

He could feel Daniels eyes on the two of you as you pulled your chair out to take a seat next to him. 

“Hey, are you feeling better today?” God that was like you, always, always making sure that everyone around you was okay, it was one of the first things that made him fall for you, how deeply you cared and god, he really needed to stop talking about this. 

“Yeah, uhm, listen, I really am so sorry.” You cut him off with a wave of your hand, yoghurt covered spoon waving in his direction.

“For what? For having an off night? There’s nothing to be sorry for. Everyones allowed.” You placed the next spoonful of your breakfast in your mouth. You were carrying on eating and Max could barely breathe. 

“And you? Are you doing okay?” It was a tentative question, both preparing himself for the inevitable conversation and shying away from it. 

“Yeah, well, I mean, something weird happened this morning, but I’m good.” There was a blush. There was a blush and a small smile. This may be good. Max could feel air slightly enter his lungs again. 

“Weird how?” An attempt to sound nonchalant. A poor one, but clearly you hadn’t picked up on it. 

“Well, I got flowers and a note delivered to my room this morning,” you played with the food in your bowl, the blush deepening, “my favourite flowers and the cutest note.”

“And why is that weird?” Here it comes. 

“Well, there was no name on the note, so I have no idea who sent it.” 

“There was no name?” 

“Nope, but I’m pretty sure he’s from the grid, just like, there were some references that makes me think it’s a driver,” Max’s wide eyes surprised you, “Do you know who sent them? Did any of them talk to you?” 

“Wait, there was no name?” You only nodded in return, curious to see where this was headed. 

He forgot. Holy shit. He had forgotten to sign his name on the note. He wasn’t your creepy boss. He was still your best friend. In his excitement, he had forgotten the most important part of the entire thing, his name, and it had indirectly saved him. 

“Do you think you could help me figure out who it was?”

Well, it had saved him until that. 

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#f1 fanfic #f1 x reader #max verstappen #x reader #max verstappen x reader #max verstappen x you #ForWhatItsWorth

[seehowsupplethespineis]

The Decepticon House of Frights! (Part 1)

(Hey, long time no posting! In honor of the Halloween season, here's a spooky themed G1 fanfic. As this is in the G1 universe, I tried to write this like a legit episode, so expect nothing to make sense. Hopefully I'll finish this up by Halloween, but if not, oh well. We of Tumblr celebrate Halloween year-round anyway.)

(Warnings: None)

(AO3)

“I still don’t see the point of all this,” Ironhide grumbled.

Glancing his way, Bumblebee couldn’t help laughing as he watched the red Autobot struggle to remove spider webbing from his servos. Spike’s laughter mingled with his own and he felt the boy grip one of his horns so he wouldn’t topple off his shoulder.

“C’mon, Ironhide!” Spike teased, “How many times do I have to explain it?”

With a grunt of frustration, the pickup truck attempted to wipe his hands on the nearby control panel for Teletraan 1. Wheeljack’s not gonna like that, Bumblebee mused quietly. Carefully reaching down, the yellow Autobot grabbed the last handful of fake webbing and handed it to Spike. Ironhide glared at how easily he managed the task.

“I just think this whole Hallo-watchacallit is a waste of fuel,” he griped, “ ‘Specially when there’s Decepticons that need a poundin’.”

“Prime and the others have it covered,” Bumblebee reminded him for the umpteenth time, “We have our own mission to complete here.”

“Decoratin’ for some human holiday we know nothin’ about?”

“Precisely!” Bumblebee replied with a smile. Not waiting to receive the glare he knew Ironhide would throw at him, he turned back to Spike and watched as the boy pinned the last of the webs to the wall.

“That should do it!” 

Stepping back, the two friends surveyed their handiwork, nodding to themselves.

“Spooky,” Bumblebee concluded, even though he didn’t understand why strands of thread were considered scary. If Spike wanted scary, they could hang a picture of Megatron.

“Yeah!” Spike enthused as Bumblebee set him down, “A regular haunted house!”

“Haunted what?” Ironhide glanced up from his ongoing struggle with the webs.

“Haunted house,” Spike repeated, “It’s a place where ghosts and scary monsters jump out at you. It’s a load of fun!”

Bumblebee felt a tinge of alarm at Spike’s enthusiasm, “That doesn’t sound fun.”

“I wouldn’t go in there,” Ironhide agreed, “Not without a good blaster.”

Spike shook his head emphatically, “It’s all pretend. They just give you a good scare, is all. No danger. “

This did not relieve Bumblebee’s confusion. Glancing at Ironhide, he could see the same expression reflected back at him. Humans were strange creatures. Why on earth would they want to be scared?

He voiced his thoughts aloud, to which Spike struggled to respond.

“Well, uh…I don’t know. I guess we just like the thrill or something.” Something lit up in his gaze and he gestured to Ironhide, “Like how Ironhide likes fighting Decepticons even though it's dangerous.”

“For them!” Ironhide added with a grin.

Spike ignored him as another thought struck him, “And you get to test yourself- see how long you can last without running scared.”

Bumblebee considered, “So…it tests your bravery?”

“Yeah, more or less.”

“Well, shoot,” Ironhide broke in, “Why didn’tcha say so? Half the Autobots’ll dig that, myself included!”

Bumblebee frowned, “I don’t know…”

A mischievous grin split Ironhide’s face, “What, ya roboto-chicken?”

The accusation rang true, though Bumblebee was loath to admit it, especially in front of a senior Autobot. So, bristling with mock disdain, the yellow car shook his head.

“Of course not! I just…think we have better things to do with our time, is all.”

He realized too late that he’d echoed Ironhide’s sentiment of before. The older Autobot gave a knowing smile but thankfully didn’t call out his bluff.

“Aw, c’mon Bumblebee!” Spike grinned up at his friend, “It’ll be fun! What d’ya say?”

Facing an attack on two fronts, Bumblebee at last let out a sigh.

“Fine, I guess it could be fun.”

His voice stuttered at the end as Ironhide slapped a servo on his back.

“That’s the spirit! ‘Sides, what’s the worst that could happen?”

~

Ironhide’s enthusiastic words echoed in the vast control room of the Decepticon base. With a click, the recording stopped and the small cassette player at Megatron’s feet transformed back into his trusted communications officer, Soundwave.

“Excellent work, Laserbeak,” he praised, though he had no idea whether the minicon could hear him within Soundwave’s chest.

“Excellent? What’s so excellent about some stupid human custom?” Starscream scoffed. As always, the mere sound of his second-in-command’s voice had Megatron clenching his fists.

“As always, Starscream, your shortsighted stupidity knows no bounds.”

Starscream opened his mouth to argue. A fierce glare had him shutting it again. Satisfied, Megatron continued, knowing both Starscream and Soundwave were listening attentively.

“This ‘haunted house’ will prove the perfect trap for those cursed Autobots. All we need do is set it.”

“How do we do that?” As always, Starscream couldn’t go more than five astroseconds without speaking.

“You will be in charge of that, Starscream,” Megatron growled, “Fail me and I will have your spark.”

With Starscream suitably cowed once more, Megatron leaned in to divulge the plan.

Foolish Autobots, he thought to himself, Your connection with those insignificant life forms will prove your undoing!

#Transformers #Transformers G1 #TF G1 #Ironhide #Bumblebee #Spike Witwicky #Megatron #Soundwave #Starscream #Writing Entity

[my-castles-crumbling]

hey!

i need advice (i think?).

how to get it inside my family's unbelievably thick head that I CAN NOT CONTROL THE FACT THAT MY JOINTS ACHE.

sorry for the yelling but legit i have two (TWO!!) doctor diagnosises, as in two different conditions BOTH which make my joints hurt. to the point where when im taking my exams (mind you i have my GCSEs in a MONTH) i have to take a break after every 20-30 minutes to massage my joints or else I'm literally unable to hold the pen.

which causes me to lose time.

moreover, my right hip hurts?? like all the time?? cz i sleep on my right side. (sometimes im limping cz i cant move it)

by the end of the day i cant even hold my phone (im making beaded gifts for my friends for a holiday). like its not like i have like an iphone 15 pro max or smthnf that its heavy. nope my phone is the lightest in the family (its older than my younger brother).

and also sometimes i just get random flares? like yesterday i was going to make brownies and suddenly i couldnt even pick up a bowl🚹. this happened once on my way to a debate competition too where i literally couldn't even lift a paper anymore 😃

when i tell my parents they tell me to drink milk??? like i try but it makes me want to vomit and gives me a stomach ache?? idk why they're even trying to deny it tbh LIKE THEYRE HEREDITARY DISEASES!!!

how to communicate with my parents. pls send help.

(oh yeah btw i found these rings which help with my finger thing so that theres not too much presshre on my joints when im writing and my mother said that it doesnt hurt me enough for me to deserve them. (IM SORRY I FORGOT THE LART WHERE YOU COULD FEEL MY PAIN))

Hi! <3

This sounds absolutely awful, I am so sorry.

I have two main thoughts that might help.

Have you talked to your doctor about talking to your parents? It sounds like you're at the age now where you might be able to call your doctor and request that. It might be that unfortunately, your parents aren't taking you seriously because they still consider you a 'kid,' so a professional might make them see sense.

To go along with that, when it comes to school stuff, since you have an official doctor diagnosis (two of them), you are legally entitled to accommodations. For example, you could get extra time on your tests. I'm not sure how it works in your country, but if the school is given the diagnosis, then a meeting can be requested to give you those accommodations, and you should definitely ask for that meeting!

This is a medical condition and you deserve to be taken seriously. So, (politely) demand that. Talk to your doctor. Talk to your school. It absolutely sucks that you have to do that, but hopefully if you do, you can get the help you deserve.

Let me know if I can do anything to help!

<3

(Also I am naming all the anons who write to me in case they want to write in the future, and I am using a random positive affirmation generator to do so. So I dub thee: incredible anon. Enjoy your free tag!)

#ask #asks #ask cas #incredible anon

[marshallpupfan]

There's something I've been wanting to talk about for some time now, and due to the fact it's been crossing my mind more and more, I'm just going to get it out of my head. It involves Marshall, his role during season 9, the upcoming spinoff "Rubble & Crew", and why the franchises lately has been leaving me... frustrated.

This will be lengthy, so hit "Keep reading" if you want to see more.

It goes without being said that I am absolutely crazy about Marshall. It's why I created my Marshall Pup Fanatic accounts, why I continue buying his merchandise, and why I even purchased my own mascot costume to wear in parades and such (which hasn't worked out yet, but hopefully in due time). As I've said many times, Marshall is legit my #1 favorite character, and due to just how much I love him, I enjoyed giving back to the franchise by supporting it.

I just wish the cartoon, itself would do the same for Marshall. Nowadays... it really doesn't anymore.

I don't know why, but ever since season 7, it feels like things just got a lot worse for the Dalmatian. Dino Rescue and Moto Pups barely gave him anything, the first half of season 8 ignored him way too much (eight missions in a row... twice), and even the theatrical film stripped him of most of his personality and gave his wipeout, his biggest running gag, to someone else.

Understandably, I found all of this to be frustrating. It's always been my impression that Marshall's one of the more popular characters in PAW Patrol, due to how much he's featured on advertisements, the numerous amounts of merchandise he gets, and the fact that most fans, both young and old, really seem to love him. And yet, his treatment in the cartoon has been so poor. I really don't get it.

And for a while there, I thought there might've been a silver lining to it all; the spinoff. When we first learned about it and nobody had any idea who it'd focus on, I really thought it was going to be Marshall. No other pup was experiencing what I mentioned above, as even Zuma was appearing more during missions for a while there. I figured they were using Marshall less because they were saving up ideas to use for him in the spinoff! Why else restrict him so much? To me, it made sense! It HAD to be him!

Well, you know what happened with that. Rubble was chosen for the spinoff, and Marshall's treatment in the cartoon got worse and worse... just because.

I so badly wanted him to be the star of the spinoff. I felt he deserved it, especially after how the cartoon began treating him. It would've been a fine way to make up for it. As a fan who became a big supporter of both Marshall and PAW Patrol, I felt an odd sense of betrayal, as silly as that may sound.

I guess, if anything, I'm glad later portions of season 8 got better for Marshall after a while. The first Rescue Knights episode gave him so much focus, and I was happy to see him co-star in that Cat Pack short with Leo! Unfortunately, it was short-lived, as things quickly went back downhill for Marshall after that. Arguably, he's at his lowest point yet.

We're currently fifteen episodes into season 9, and his usage during missions has been so unimpressive. Typically, he's only called in to handle small tasks, he's often restricted to backup, he disappears quickly no matter what he's doing, and he's yet to receive much focus, such as Big Truck Pups refusing to call him in as a first responder. I fear Aqua Pups might do the same.

Furthermore, Marshall has yet to appear on a single season 9 title card. The only one of the main six, in fact. You'd think, out of the twenty-six we've seen so far, he'd appear on at least ONE...

I really don't understand why this is happening. It's almost as if Spin Master has turned their backs on Marshall... and as a result, I no longer enjoy the franchise like I once used to. Maybe it's wrong of me to watch PAW Patrol for just one character, but Marshall really did become that special to me. And to see Spin Master treat him like this... it frustrate me, and I'm starting to wonder just how much longer I want to continue supporting the franchise.

Seriously, why stay loyal at this point? Just so I can keep tuning in to see my favorite pup get the same poor treatment? It's clear that Spin Master is shifting their focus, their priorities on Chase, Skye and Rubble, and whatever plans they have up their sleeves doesn't seem to have much room for Marshall (Rocky and Zuma also fit into that, sadly). Do I really need to keep subjecting myself to constant disappointment, new episode after new episode after new episode?

To be fair, it wouldn't be so bad if missions actually gave Marshall something that allowed him to make a difference. Sadly, that's not happening, either. As I said, Marshall keeps getting restricted to small tasks, such as wrapping legs, parking his vehicle in front of sand sculptures, and harmlessly spraying robot cats. Compare that to Chase and Skye, who continuously get tasks that save lives. The difference is like night and day! And I know the cynical answer might be "well, maybe it's because he's clumsy", but that was never an issue in the earlier seasons. Pups Leave Marshall Home Alone, the Pup-Fu episodes, the Ultimate Fire Rescues, Ready Race Rescue... all fine examples of Marshall being quite skilled and competent.

And there's a reason I said later portions of season 8 got better for him. Remember the first Rescue Knights mission, where Marshall was the only pup to stay outside of the castle to stop Sparks the Dragon from attacking it, and then he later bravely leaped up on the beast's back to retrieve the stolen Dragon's Tooth from Claw? It was such a great episode, and a wonderful showing of the skills I've come to expect from Marshall! It was something I was so happy to see, and for a little while, it renewed my faith in the franchise! I was so desperately hoping it'd last... but then season 9 came along and flushed all of that right back down the drain.

It's as if we went from "Marshall is clumsy yet highly skilled" to "just let Marshall do something small, then get him out of there as fast as we can". Just what happened... and again, why?

I hate to say it, but I really don't know if any of this will ever get any better. Again, their priority seems to have shifted to Chase, Skye and Rubble, and I fear this is just how it's going to be for Marshall from now on. I don't know that for a fact, but it's a bad feeling I'm getting. And when I look at the upcoming season 9 episodes we know about so far, none of them seem like they'll change any of this for Marshall one bit.

Is this just how it's going to be for the rest of season 9? Is Season 10 going to continue this poor treatment for Marshall? And will the theatrical film sequel even attempt to restore his personality and give him his elevator wipeout? Truth be told, I'm just not optimistic...

I apologize for making this post so lengthy. For better or worse, it's clear I'm very passionate about Marshall, and all of this is something that frustrates me, especially since I can't seem to find a logical reason as to WHY it's happening. All I know is that, if this continues for too much longer, I may stop watching PAW Patrol. Hey, I still maintain that I'm just as crazy about Marshall as ever... but the franchise, itself? Not so much anymore.

If I do stop watching new episodes, that doesn't mean I'm going to abandon my accounts or anything. I honestly love posting daily pics of Marshall every day, and I plan on keeping that tradition up for as long as I can! Unfortunately, I can't promise I'll be as active as I used to be, such as posting updates on new episodes and talking about what goes on with the franchise and whatnot. I'll probably stop posting Weekly Wipeouts, too. I'm not at that point yet, however, and if I do decide on anything, I'll probably wait until the end of season 9.

For now, I'll continue watching, though only in the hope that things will finally get better for Marshall. I don't expect much, but... who knows, maybe they'll find a way to surprise me and renew my faith in the franchise once again? I hope so, anyway...

[bklynmusicnerd]

My fear is based off the fact that Trina and Spencer literally almost died once before in Greenland by Victor and the show had them come back and go about their daily lives like all that shit didn’t just happen to them. No traumatic PTSD, no therapy, no nothing. So I’m preparing them to act the same way in regards to Trina’s grief. They probably will give her a few days-2/3 weeks max of grieving episodes and be like okay that’s enough.

Interesting, I'm actually a little concerned in the opposite direction, that Trina's ooc behavior in regards to her depression will take away some of the stuff we love most about her.

Again, it's so hard to get into the post-Greenland stuff because that is the stockpile of shit that blew everything up because they were so focused on trying to sell us on Amnesia Esme, that it overrode everything. The weirdest case of creative tunnel vision I've seen in a minute, especially heading into a strike.

I mean, Spencer never really got legit pov on being forced to "kill" his Uncle Victor, who he loved and trusted. I will say, I don't think that's going to be the case this time for Trina. She's dropping the semester (aka making major life decisions) in immediate reaction to Spencer's "death".

It sounds like they're setting up a survivor's guilt arc for Trina which means we're going to see her feel like she doesn't deserve to live or "move on". It's very much sounding like a culmination of the worst parts of her savior complex. Everything that I've read from TA's interviews suggests that this won't be a phase that Trina just gets over but something that "alters" her.

But in regards to your concerns, I don't want a whitewashing of her grief but I would like her grief to be fluid if that makes sense? I don't want an entire month of Trina just bursting into tears over the mere mention of Spencer. I don't think that's really true to her in the long run, and I think it would get stale quickly.

There are a lot of different ways to write grief and depression (Spencer was a depression coded character from the moment he showed up in his ninja costume) and hopefully whatever way they write Trina's dark era is still grounded in who she is and not just a generic template for a grieving soap heroine.

Let her have moments where she lashes out, let her have moments where she's completely impolite, let her have moments where she loses control. It'd be frustrating (and tbh very telling) if the only atypical to her character writing we see for Trina during her depression this month is just her giving up her ambition.

#general hospital #trina robinson #trina having a depression era is interesting to me #im coming around to it #trina going through a type of spiritual death in accordance with spencer's fake death is interesting #especially because that would absolutely factor into their reunion #but it all depends on how it's written #as we know lol

[ecargmura]

Dog Signal Episode 1 Review - Dog Lovers Should Watch This!

I feel bad for this anime. It’s debut was really late this month (October 22) and before that, the trailer was released super late as well. I feel like there’s very little hype for this anime because of the late premiere. However, I’m so glad it’s finally available with subtitles because I want to see cute dogs! As a dog owner, I might be able to relate or even learn new things with this show!

The story is about Miyu Samura who got forced to raise a mini poodle after his ex-girlfriend dropped him off at his place three days ago. He has no desire to raise the dog, but since he cannot find an owner, the dog is just chilling at his place for the time being. With the way he keeps barking, Miyu decides to train him by walking, but does a disastrous job and almost got it killed before Shinichiro Niwa, a dog trainer, saved the day. After some ups and downs, Miyu decides to become a dog trainer in hopes to bond with his dog more.

First off, the ex-girlfriend really pissed me off. If you’re not going to raise the dog, then don’t drop him off onto someone else! The reason why the dog is so rowdy is because he senses Miyu’s discomfort towards him! Like, Miyu doesn’t want the dog either, yet he’s putting in some effort to raise it even if it’s terrible.

Second, seeing Miyu try to walk the dog really hurts me on the inside because I have two poodles that I adopted eight years ago and I wouldn’t want to walk my dogs like this either! Instead of a collar, a harness would be preferable because the dog won’t choke—that’s why I changed from collar to harness for my dogs. Seeing Miyu pull the dog so hard that he flew hurt me too. I know that this story is about Miyu changing from not wanting the dog to loving it, but it really hurts to see all of this.

Third, the part where Niwa “trains” Miyu by making him wear a collar and having experience what his dog felt during the walk made me laugh and also gave me second-hand embarrassment. It feels like a smart way to train first-time dog owners on how their dog feels when going on walks incorrectly, but the way these two did it in public was the reason for my second-hand embarrassment. I’d probably lock myself in the house for the rest of the year if that had happened to me. The fact that Miyu legit quit his job at the bar and decides to work for Niwa…and then learns that Niwa hadn’t had business for two months also feels like a hasty decision. I’d feel like I got scammed if I were in his situation.

I feel like the only sensible person in this anime, so far, is the pet groomer, Ritsuka Izumi. She’s the best character so far. Hopefully, she will be the voice of reason for the cast as they seriously need one. I also hope that through her, I can see cute animated dogs as well. Also, Woolson is adorable and I need more of him! I don’t think Miyu’s dog has been named yet. I do wonder what name he’ll give it.

The voice cast is top-notch for such an obscure anime. Miyu is voiced by Kensho Ono and Niwa is voiced by Kenichi Suzumura; I think I saw a video of his radio show where he and his wife Maaya Sakamoto mentioned they had dogs. This would mean Suzumura has experience raising dogs, which could be a great fit for him. Yuko Kaida voices Izumi. The last character, the vet, has yet to be seen. The dogs have their own voice actors too, and I think they did a great job sounding like dogs but also being distinct.

Overall, I do think this can be a very educational anime! The show even provides dog training tips! I read somewhere that the author used to be a dog groomer before changing jobs to a manga artist. I think having prior knowledge about a subject really enhances it a lot.  I am resisting the urge to spam pictures of my dogs, which are coincidentally poodles as well! I have mini poodles and they’re the cutest things ever! They’re smart and loving creatures, but they can be such brats and gluttons. What are your thoughts on this anime’s premiere?

#dog signal #Miyu Samura #Shinichiro Niwa #Ritsuka Izumi #woolson #dogs #review #anime #anime review #ecargmura #arum journal

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i was tagged by @jinx-you-owe-me again, thank you <3

Are you named after anyone?

no, my parents just liked the name

When was the last time you cried?

a month ago when i had to say goodbye to everyone in edinburgh

Do you have kids?

nope

Do you use sarcasm a lot?

i'd say like a regular amount if that makes sense ?

What sports do you play / have you played?

i used to do dancing, judo, and gymnastics, but don't really do anything regularly atm, just some yoga sometimes

What's the first thing you notice about other people?

don't really know tbh? just what they look like in general

What's your eye colour?

something between grey, blue, and green

Scary movies or happy endings?

happy endings all the way!

Any special talents?

i'm really good at googling stuff. i know that doesn't sound impressive but i can legit find almost anything with a bit of time and patience

Where were you born?

in the middle of a storm flood

What are your hobbies?

crocheting, sewing, drawing, reading sometimes

Do you have any pets?

not yet but one day hopefully

How tall are you?

170cm

Favourite subject in school?

english and art

Dream job?

realistically teacher, but my dream job was always to do costumes and props in a theatre

no pressure tags: @courfee @chucklepea-hotpot @iceprinceofbelair @zweizimtsterne

#tagged

[hoonvrs]

We fr like this babes🤞

I CANNOT live a day with the worry of an argument it stresses me out so much

Alr not to vent but ive seen most ppl have this friend that they just cant say no to. Like its IMPOSSIBLE.

I have a friend like that, shes legit my closest friend. I have this trauma from like 3 years ago, she randomly just some day went "i dont wanna be friends with you anymore, r***a gives you too much attention." The girl i just metioned, my closest friend and i are a trio (theyre literally my closest friends). Back on topic HOW TF IS IT MY FAULT SHE GIVES ME TOO MUCH ATTENTION. But i was too distracted by the fact she didnt wanna be friends anymore that I didnt even realize how logicless it was. We had been friends for about 4 years back then (7 now) and i was DEVASTATED. No thats an understatement.

I was so sad that I went to my mum and cried to her for an hour straight.

After that she lowkey became controlling. Whenever i did something she didnt like, shed block me unannounced and wouldnt even tell me what pissed her off. Her anger issues are off the boundaries till today. She gets mad at the littlest of things. When i dont do something she wants she goes on to persuade me by telling me shed tell a certain someone my secrets or block me everywhere etc.

But till this day i cant unfriend her because first of all, im too scared to. Shed get all annoyed and talk behind my back shit. Secondly, forget the first one I just CANT. Whenever i wanna think of unfriending her i just get reminded of all the fun times we had all these years and end up with tears.

Besides all that, youd be surprised to believe she has been one of my best friends ever. Nobody would believe me. But in reality i love her too much to let go if

(IM SO SORRY FOR THE RANT I WAS FEELIN A LIL EMOSH TODAY 😭😭😭)

-🌜

DW ABOUT THE RANT BAE IDM

i can’t relate in the sense that my bsfs and me are a trio too but honestly ur friend sounds so toxic

i get you guys have had good times that makes u hesitate but if she’s able to get prissy and block you over her own problems and insecurities it’s really not worth it bae. no one who loves you would put you in a position where you question theyre friendship and contemplate unfriending them

and if she chats shit let her😭 people are gonna talk behind ur back regardless and i don’t wanna be the instigator here but do u really think she’s quiet whenever she gets upset or jealous and blocks you? i just think the cons outfight the pros cause no amount of good times can cover the fact that she’s genuinely stressed you out over ur friendship js cause she doesn’t wanna grow up

PEOPLE WHO CAN TAKE NO ARE THE WORRSSTTT the amount of arguments and growth i’ve had to go through with my friends rn over the last 8 years i’ve known them is crazy🫠 but sometime people need to be confronted and if ANYBODYY can’t take criticism from their best friend trust me they’ll nvr change🫥

BUT you never know, idk how old you are but friend groups and bsfs either grown into each other or out of it, it’s just life and part of it. js trust that you will grow and learn from it just try and protect ur peace

anyways i hope i don’t come off aggressive or sumn😭 im an argumentative bitch who will start an argument with anyone so ik not everyone is like me but hopefully it all ends well for u bae🫂 u deserve better

#inbox — new msg! #im v passionate about this topic #if u coudlnt alr tell #🌜anon #( anons! )

[ask-edd]

((So Friendsgiving Day (weekend) is over which means it's time for me to be sappy

The top of this post is for y'all to know the event over, but under the cut is for my friends who participated ♡))

(Also am gonna be using the character names cause idk if yall want your names used but ye)

AJ, you're an extremely unique person, your art, expressions, words, everything you do is so interesting and unique, you have such little brother vibes and I just wanna hold you and listen to you talk about your favorite napkin

Beau, I know we joke about how much you like Corey, but I do genuinely appreciate how much you like when I draw him for you, especially those times when you come into my DMs and keep talking about him, its warms my heart and I appreciate you greatly

Bonnie, you're such an endearing person with boundless energy and ideas, and you're always fun to talk to, plus getting to share music with you is one of my favorite things; I will hold For Evigt close to me until I die

CL, god where do I even start, what do I say to the person I tell everything to already? You're so cool and creative and awesome and I can legit just spend all day talking about god knows what with you n you'll make it sound cool, plus you always know how to cheer me up ♡

Christi, you're eclectic and energetic and always working on something, it's amazing how much you manage to do and how much you've already done, be it in or out of the fandom, you're just always on the go and I admire that

HZ, you're kinda out there like Abs is, but in a different vibe, if that makes sense. Like you drink vinegar but then go on and create the goodest and sweetest little zombie man in history, how do you do that, you're amazing

Mia, you're really kind and considerate to others and I just wanna give you headpats. You're very supportive too, especially when other people face the same struggles you do, it's really sweet. Hopefully you get the same support you give everyone else

Pink, you're a chaotic lesbian and I love you for it; your art is gummy and cute and you're so full of energy, I just wanna hang out with you irl and just vibe and have fun, you're the kind of person I wanna have fun with

Pluto, you're so full of good ideas and always has something interesting to say, you're a ton of fun to listen to, and I really love how far your creativity goes in your art. You and your sona are super cool and I wish to pat you both

I love you all so much ♡

#mod note #friendsgiving day

[threadsun]

\(//∇//)\Oh you little rascal you! Got me swinging my legs over here giggling and crap 😂 Dude, with me being a libra and all, I freaking LIVE for exchanges like that. I’ll gently push here and there (respectfully, of course) until BAM! I’M ON THE GROUND! I don’t do it in a mean way because it’s not in my blood, but it’s just so much fun to tease a bit! Shoot, am I brat? •.• But legit, I know the feeling, well, in a subby way at least. I’m just like, am I going too far? Was it too much? As you can clearly tell I’m a VERY descriptive writer so I’m just sweatin bullets over here being like, “Did I cross the line there?” Lol. But ahhh that makes sense with Joesph and Jack. Got that good old balancing act once they have healthier relationships with themselves. I can totally see them being service based! But UGH can you just imagine how amazing it’d be to finally have the conversation with them where they feel comfortable enough to share their sexual preferences because they feel safe and comfortable enough with you? Just all that healthy communication and then blowing their minds by just hitting all the right places, having them feel fulfilled and loved while they finally love themselves enough to enjoy it? That they think they’re WORTHY of receiving that love and attention and DESERVE IT? That they can be themselves and receive unconditional love? UGH, freaking love it man! Of course, I also love my Yandere spicy men, but like, healthy bonding and healing is so hot too! But that makes sense with Jack willingly pushes all of his precious desires down he had as Joesph. I know Jack is doing it personally to himself and is being shady af, but poor baby boi putting his life on difficult mode when he could just be loved as Joesph. I know the reasonings and that he’s a fully grown man completely aware of his actions, but my freaking heart man! I’m more emotionally driven than logic based so I keep those rose tinted super glued to my face 😂 Real people? Those bad boys be flying off from the moment they say hi. Fictional characters? What do you mean he’s not good for me? He’s only killed 4 guys and locked me in the house for 18 days so it’s not THAT bad!

-🎃

Sounds like someone might be a little bit of a brat, yeah ;3c but hey, that's okay! Just keep pushing and being bratty until someone puts you in your place and reminds you why you love to submit~

lmao yeah my default mode is flirting. I flirt with all of my friends and for my job, so I struggle to turn it off sometimes. But I don't wanna make people uncomfortable either? Then again, if people are coming onto the Kinky Smut Blog, they're probably expecting at least a lil flirting if they talk to me, hopefully?

Yes, exactly!! They're both service oriented, they want to please their partner first and foremost!! But when they finally get comfortable and can embrace the idea of being served, and having their needs and wants prioritised... oh boy does it blow their minds! As soon as they can get comfortable enough to open up with their partners about what they want, rather than just constantly catering to their partner's desires, it opens up a whole world of possibilities! Especially if their partner happens to have the same wants, and just hasn't expressed them yet. Healthy and honest sexual communication is so good!!! I love seeing it so much.

Oh relatable, like yes Jack did it to himself, but also 🥺 he's like this for a reason!! He's like this because of all the trauma Joseph went through!! Sure, irl I'd be like "dude it's on you to fix this shit" but like in fiction... I just wanna wrap him up and tell him its okay and hold his hand while we work through his issues together. I wanna give broken characters who do bad things because of their experiences the same love and care and understanding that I want given to me when I do bad things because of my experiences (though, the bad things I do are like being a lil bitchy not kidnapping). If they're worthy of love and care and help, then I am too! It's character therapy!

#sunshine #asks #🎃 anon

[rubykgrant]

Hi! Anon from the other time. Thank you for your response!! I was just curious cause it was kinda worrying that it was being used on posts about active genocides? Not trying to start anything!! but regardless of anxiety or not.. it's still a bit odd? considering that people not living in the active genocide are trying their best to have their voices heard but they're getting limited because its uncomfortable for the people not having to go through those struggles..

I hope this makes sense? I just wanted you to know it feels a bit insensitive.. Again not trying to start anything I just felt off seeing such a tag given the situation.. I thought it might be good to know that it can come off that way

I appreciate what you are saying anon, and thank you again for the kindness in your concern, but the tag isn't so somebody can filter posts regarding current (or previous) "genocides". I re-blog plenty of posts that talk about Palestine, or other issues in the world, and I DON'T use that tag for them. Again, I'm hesitant to explain this in a way that won't make sense, because it isn't MY personal issue, but the tag is more for any kind of post that has text similar to "You better reblog this" or "You have to share this right now", and this includes those posts that are just games- "If you see this post, you HAVE to reblog with your favorite movie!" or art posts that imply "Don't just like this, I want reblogs!" and so-on. Some people use the tag "reblog bait" for the silly posts, but they will also use it for legit donation posts... and I personally don't like calling a donation post "bait". So, for the one person who requested it, I use a tag they can filter only when it applies, but I still share important posts, and use tags that makes sense.

To be clear, I think it is VERY important to share news about what is going on in the world, and to ignore it all just because it sounds "uncomfortable" isn't fair. The tragedy is intense, and it should be acknowledged. Still, if I shared a post about a genocide that included pictures of people who have been harmed, I would still use tags that apply- "blood" or "death mention", for example. Some people filter tags like that because they've lived through violence themselves, and there are even people who are personally connected to the genocides happening right now who at least want a little warning/consideration before they see something especially harsh. I'm not going to fault somebody who isn't white for filtering the tags for "racism", or a Jewish person for filtering tags about "antisemitism", or a survivor of sexual assault for filtering tags about "rape". However, it is still important to learn about these things and share them (I make the choice to get over whatever might make me uncomfortable and still share important posts, because HOPEFULLY it can help somehow, and it isn't all about ME. I can't control what other people care about, but I can still share things that either have information about a tragedy, advice on how to give donations, or positivity and hope).

Once more, that particular tag is NOT for Palestine in general, any "genocides", or even violence/bigotry; it is for a specific person who has expressed to me an issue with text like "This post must be reblogged", even jokingly. I can't tag for EVERY issue or potential trigger that exists (because that's literally everything; I don't mean that in a mocking way, triggers are serious, even if it sounds like something "silly"- and they can be anything, for a multitude of reasons), but this was something that was shared and discussed with me, so I try to be understanding. I also try to tag for well-known and intense issues. Sometimes I over-correct myself and add a tag to certain posts, just in case it applies... but I wouldn't want to ignore donation/helpful posts altogether, or anything that shares important information. The world is full of horrible things that shouldn't be ignored, but also wonderful things that deserve to be known.

I know you aren't trying to be confrontational, and I understand why you were worried. I definitely agree with your intentions; painful subjects should still be shared. I'm sorry for replying with so much text, I didn't want to sound like I didn't take this seriously, or miss something... and I don't want to over-step by explaining and issue another person has, or make them feel guilty for not "defending" themselves (and I'll say again; the tag in question isn't for genocides, just certain text/tone in various posts). Thank you for checking anon, I think you are genuinely very conscientious~

#anon #ask #answer

[casliveblog]

Custom Toonami Block Week 116 Rundown

Kaguya-sama: Love is War: This episode’s a cute little trilogy about Kaguya getting sick trying to give Miyuki a ride in the rain, I mean she kinda fucked up his phone, she deserved it a little. Second bit the show briefly becomes Higurashi again but this time it’s not the murder side of Higurashi but the insane level of Machiavellian cheating in a normal game with a weird punishment game prize to getting to go to Kaguya’s house while she’s sick since apparently when she’s sick she basically becomes Chika because no thoughts head empty. And last but not least we have the trip over where Miyuki brings Kaguya her shit and shenanigans ensue where they sleep in the same bed. Considering how cagey the two of them are to each other this should change their whole dynamic but I’m guess it probably won’t.

Inuyasha: Renkotsu’s on his shit again, Koga wakes up and Renkotsu’s ready to steal his jewel shards again to hopefully get enough jewel shards to fight Bankotsu so he won’t kill him for hoarding Ginkotsu’s shard. There’s really two problems with this, 1: Renkotsu legit could not move after Koga’s attack and had to juse Ginkotsu’s shard to get out of there so I don’t think Bankotsu would be super mad if you were like ‘hey I had to use the shard for a bit to make my escape but I can give it to you now if you want’ but Renkotsu’s just like ‘no, gotta get more shards and kill him before he kills me’ and 2. Renkotsu buddy I don’t think you could beat Bankotsu even if you had a dozen more jewel shards than him, like he’s able to facetank the Wind Scar and you breathe fire and shoot bazookas, not sure how jewel shards are gonna help even that gap any. Anyway he leads Inuyasha away and the fight and shit but Renkotsu just fucking has dynamite and is hoping to use his zombie status to kamikaze everyone in the cave but Koga and Inuyasha get him out of the cave so he has to throw away the dynamite and yeets himself down the river while Koga and Inuyasha see who is the more immature. Miroku and Sango’s sidequest gets them to Naraku’s lair in the mountain core so Kagura and the reject demons are ready to intercept, honestly that sounds like a good fight since Sango/Miroku and Kagura are both characters that haven’t been relevant power-level wise after their introduction.

Yu Yu Hakusho: Yusuke vs Toguro is still in full swing and Toguro is stomping ass, like legit the only reason Yusuke’s still alive is because Toguro is actively trying to pull the Super Saiyan out of him for entertainment purposes. He just kind of… grows vents and starts sucking the souls out of all the mook demons in the crowd to fuel his 100% form which will eventually grab Keiko through Puu’s barrier and Koto almost gets it but Chu helps her out (I still ship it). Toguro barely misses Keiko in order to piss of Yusuke enough to go but it’s not enough so Genkai possesses Puu to tell Toguro to kill one of Yusuke’s friends to get him to go Super Saiyan. That should feel like a lot more of an asspull than it does but since it’s something Yusuke did as a ghost it makes sense that Genkai could too and it does kinda turn the whole fighting for Genkai thing on its head since now she’s being a bitch and encouraging Toguro to kill someone despite him kinda heading in that direction anyway. Also Sakyo put up iron walls around the arena so… yeah guess he just installed those in case this exact sort of thing happened so now it’s funny watching the audience cheer for Yusuke because if he doesn’t win they literally die. So long story short Toguro kills Kuwabara and Yusuke goes Super Saiyan but in a neat little twist he doesn’t look pissed off, he looks epically sad, like that’s kinda neat that the area just turned really blue and he’s just so broken and depressed with grief that he can’t hold anything back anymore.

Fate/Apocrypha: The battle’s still going full force and we get a lot of little skirmishes that don’t add up to much, Semiramis vs Astolfo, Mordred vs Astolfo, Chiron vs Achilles, Spartacus vs Atalante, Shirou vs Fran, most of them are the standard ‘Ha, so this is your hero thingy you hero’ that early Fate fights are so they can have some light shows without putting anyone in mortal danger before season 2. Sieg is evacuating the Homunculi because he… asked nicely I guess? Like I get why the ones fresh out of the tubes are following him but the normal guards and shit apparently have NO loyalty to Team Yggy and are just ready to dip out with him as soon as he says anything despite the main Homunculus girl being pissed at him for saving her last episode. Fran gets a vision of Dr. Frankenstein from Shakespeare and it… takes some liberties to say the least. Like it kinda takes the hackneyed ‘the doctor was the real monster’ approach that most middle school professors will give you when if you actually read the book the doctor was a dude that didn’t deal with shit well but also the monster murdered five people then demanded to claim a woman that hadn’t even be made yet as property because someone of equal physical unattractiveness wouldn’t reject him which is kind of a huge dick move, but that would be weird to put in Fate so in this case Fran is just a sweetheart that got confused and pushed around so she murders the Frankenstein doll and has to be Command Seal’d out of her rage. Last but not least Sieg comes to save his boyfriend Astolfo from Mordred and bro is gonna get his ass fucking punted because Mordred’s just way stronger.  

Nisemonogatari: So we’re halfway through Tsukihi’s arc and we’re still on Karen… like Karen’s arc took up two thirds of the season to begin with but we’ve mentioned Tsukihi like once so far in her own damn arc. Anyway at least we keep the incest shit to a minimum this time and there’s weird linguistic shit and bets that result in Karen cutting off her ponytail and letting Kiyomi ride her… shoulders. Also a sexy girl is looking for Oshino’s old hideout so after implying Hanekawa is spying on Kiyomi they get here there and drop Karen off at Suruga’s so they can go be best girls together. Meanwhile we resume Sexual Harrassment with Kiyomi Araragi as he goes on for WAY too long about molesting Mayoi before they get jumped by a girl who narrates her life like a book except she only has one line and can both she and the other girl can read the past apparitions of the girls he’s with while looking for Oshino’s place and they just kinda make a play on the fact the same thing just happened twice.

Speed Grapher: This episode is basically a character study of Kagura’s mom which is odd because she’s barely in it. Basically Mrs. Tennouzu was a model who married a super rich businessman but almost eloped with this doctor dude she liked before they got separated and he got murdered either by people trying to keep her from marrying him or BY her for making her think he jilted her. Also we find out that her mom, Kagura’s grandma basically has Alzheimer’s and thinks her daughter Shinsen is still a teenager which makes her point out how old she looks whenever she sees her which can’t be doing much for her age complex that makes her abuse Kagura even harder out of jealousy of her youth and make herself feel desirable by blackmailing people into fucking her brains out with money. Kagura and Saiga let go of their doctor buddy who says he’ll have DNA results for Kagura in a week that may help analyze the whole giving people superpowers thing and may help with the tumor that’s killing Kagura. So they’ve got a week to bum around with and go to the hot spring where they find out the whole story about her mom’s affair and Kagura starts to take great solace in the fact she may be the product of an unmarried but loving affair instead of a cold business arranged marriage which whether she is or isn’t explains why her mom hates her so much in addition to the youth stuff either she’s a reminder of her late husband that she hated or a reminder of the guy she almost eloped with but jilted her/was murdered. Also Hibari is still on Saiga’s trail and is leading around a CSI dude having him be her Watson despite him being way out of his depth and she gets laughed out of the room when she tries to blackmail/bribe Suitengu despite him being worth the net worth of a country. Suitengu then resolves to go to the hot spring himself to crash Kagura’s party right after fingering her mom into unconsciousness. (Also for some reason he’s still faking injury to her despite being up and about a few episodes ago so idk why he has to pretend to have bad legs for her) meanwhile Tsujido and the team rocket gang are on the trail literally following Kagura’s scent and contemplate the idea that the 30ish old photographer may be banging the fifteen year old girl which Tsujido dismisses because apparently Euphorics need some kinky shit to actually get off I don’t think I wanna know what he’s talking about and then Saiga refrains from taking a picture of a half-naked sleeping Kagura which… good, I don’t know why that was a dilemma but I’m glad that’s not a thing that happened.

Durararax2: Shit’s really starting to go down now, Kasane infects Shinra with Saika and Celty goes BERSERK and chases her while she spider-man’s her way through the city, basically becoming a ball of shadows and bees while chasing her down before she hands Shinra and a box presumably containing Celty’s head to Varona to drive off with because apparently Kasane’s goal is to just push all of Celty’s buttons at the same time for some reason. Masaomi and Chikage escape Izumii who says he’s hunting down Masaomi on Mikado’s orders which may or may not be the whole story but they’re good for now. Meanwhile Celty’s horse comes up to Shizuo and takes the form of a children’s bicycle so we get the hilarious image of a grown man wearing a bartender suit riding a bicycle half his size that’s actually a horse belonging to a rampaging dullahan embodied as a dust cloud chasing a woman that grows swords out of her fingers. Shizuo’s just like ‘idk what’s going on but I’m sure it’s Izaya’s fault’ which… kinda? I guess? Like Kasane seems to be pulling more stings here and Celty’s head getting out seems to not be against his plan but not directly in line with it either so who the fuck knows.

#ooc #Toonami #Custom Toonami Block #Kaguya-sama: Love is War #Inuyasha #Yu Yu Hakusho #Fate Apocrypha #Bakemonogatari #Speed Grapher #Durarara!!

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THE GIRL WHO FLEW DOWN THE STAIRS _

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‘ the story of akashi meeting you and all the events after that made him realize he was falling for you ’

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character .. akashi seijuurou

word count .. 1.3k

tags .. fem!reader who is energetic but also thoughtful and likes to learn (as requested) , lowkey pining? , s h o g i , written from akashi pov , requested by the lovely bean anon <3 

Akashi’s first impression of you wasn’t anything bad. It wasn’t exactly good either. It was certainly memorable though. ‘The girl who flew down the stairs, knocking him onto the ground, and landing on top of him with a thump’ is how he remembers you. 

The moment was almost cliche. If your eyes had met and lingered on each other, both aware of the position you were in but not moving away, then it possibly would’ve been a scene straight out of some cheesy romance novel. 

Instead, you seemingly bounced straight up upon impact, not even bothering to spare Akashi a second glance. You proceeded to give him a quick apology, running down the next flight of stairs immediately after.

It was definitely one of the odder interactions Akashi had with his fellow students at Rakuzan High, but it amused him nonetheless and made him notice you much more often around campus. Even though you weren’t in any apparent rush anymore, you still radiated this energy that was all bubbly and seemingly ready to burst. 

It brought a small smile on his face every time he saw you, bouncing along hallways without a care in the world, chattering away with your friends. Sure you seemed like the typical happy-go-lucky person, but Akashi couldn’t help but see you as a bit more unique.

Your second interaction with Akashi was an interesting one too, in Akashi’s opinion at least. 

The basketball team had just won a tournament the other day, so Akashi was free this afternoon. He had decided to go challenge some shogi club members to a few games. 

In the middle of one of those games, you walked into the club room.

Akashi didn’t think you were part of the club, and his suspicions were confirmed when another member of the club went to ask if you needed anything. Akashi was definitely not eavesdropping, no he was paying attention to his game (the one he knew he would easily win anyway) when you pulled out an envelope and he happened to overhear you telling the club member that someone asked to meet you. 

Nobody in the room came forward to claim they were the one who sent the letter though. 

After a few awkward, silent moments, you moved to take a seat with some of the other club members. It was an action that surprised Akashi. He figured you would’ve just left because the whole did seem like a waste of time. However, you just sat there asking some club members to teach you how to play. 

Akashi could sense genuine curiosity in you and, needless to say, it intrigued him. It seems like there’s more to the “girl made of energy” than he originally thought.

The clock ticked, and a few rounds later, Akashi decided it was time to head home. Saying his formal goodbyes, he walked out of the clubroom. 

He didn’t expect you to come running after him, almost slamming into him again in the process. 

“You shouldn’t run around school so much, you know. You could end up bumping into people and maybe even hurting them.” The words left Akashi’s lips sounding a lot more teasing and flirtatious than he intended.

You blushed and started rambling out apologies. ‘Cute’ Akashi thought. 

His brain froze. 

Wait. Cute? How-

“Anyway um.. you left your notebook back there…” you said, holding out what was indeed his notebook out towards him.

“Oh…” was all he could say. He rarely forgot his things, especially things as important as his notebook. It seems his mind must’ve been too distracted by... other things. “Thank you L/n-san.”

He saw a slight shock on your face. “You know my name?” 

His brain froze yet again. How was he supposed to answer this question without seeming like a stalker?

“Well yes…” he started before you cut him.

“Didn’t expect the Akashi Seijuurou to know my name.”

He scoffed at that. “I think I’d know the name of the girl who jumped down the stairs and knocked me to the ground.”

“Again, I’m really sorry about that…” you said with a smile, although Akashi could see the guilt that lingered behind your eyes.

“Don’t worry about it,” he quickly said. “I was just…”

He was just what? Flirting? Was he actually flirting? Him. Akashi Seijuurou. Flirting??

“…you know,” he finished quietly.

You didn’t say anything in response but instead looked at him with a peculiar sort of gaze. 

“Um.. hate to make things awkward by asking this but… were you the one who sent me this?” You held up the envelope Akashi saw earlier.

“No, I didn’t.”

“Oh… okay then.” Was it just Akashi’s imagination or did he hear a sliver of disappointment in your tone? “I suppose you don’t know who it is either right?”

He shook his head.

A lot of thoughts rushed through his mind. Did you actually expect him to send you a love letter? Did you hope it was him? 

He sensed you were about to leave though, so before he could regret it, he asked you, “Why do you want to know who sent it anyway?”

Your eyes widened slightly at the question.

“I understand the curiosity and wanting to know who it is but… if they didn’t show up, why are you still waiting?” He clarified.

“Akashi-san, you’ve never confessed to someone have you?”

He gave a slight nod.

“Well, I don’t see why you’d need to,” you mumbled more to yourself than him. Clearing your throat, you continued, “The thing is, confessing takes a lot of courage. And writing this letter asking me to meet them here would’ve taken a whole lot of that courage already. I think that, if they were able to go that far, then I should at least hear them out right?”

That… surprised Akashi. 

“But then again, there’s always a possibility this is just a prank,” you added as an afterthought. 

Unsure of what to say, he just nodded. “It is possible, considering how long you had to wait.”

You smiled, “The wait was fine though. I had fun learning shogi.” 

You actually had fun learning how to play? Looking back, it did seem like you were enjoying yourself… 

It’s strange. Akashi realized just how much his view of you changed in one afternoon. Earlier, you were that bubbly, energetic girl bouncing through the halls. Now, you were this thoughtful and kind person who liked to learn. You also said you had fun playing shogi, which nearly made Akashi’s heart skip a beat.

Oh. 

Oh.

He gets it now. The reason his brain was acting all slow was you. With that thought, everything became clearer. 

Now he wishes that love letter really was a prank.

“Ah Akashi-san, I think I have to go home soon,” you said, holding up your phone. “You’re heading out too right? Wanna walk with me?”

He blinked in surprise but quickly agreed.

“Great, just let me get my things first-” And with that you rushed back into the club room.

Akashi stood staring at the empty hallway, still caught up in his thoughts and trying to process what just happened between you two just a few seconds ago.

When you came back out with your things, he couldn’t help but smile softly. The two of you fell into conversation easily, and by the time you walked out of the school gates, you were still in a talk that showed no signs of nearing an end.

He wanted to continue walking and talking like this, but there was a car and a driver waiting for him in the exact opposite direction of where you were headed.

“Well, goodbye then L/n-san,” he said, hoping the reluctance wasn’t obvious.

You smiled in response. “Goodbye Akashi-san. It was nice talking to you.”

With that the two of you went your separate ways. Throughout the car ride home, Akashi could think of nothing but you. It would seem… he has taken quite the liking to you.

He isn’t sure what’ll happen next, but he’s looking forward to seeing you again and hopefully, talking more with you too.

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note .. THIS CAME OUT LONGER THAN ORIGINALLY INTENDED but anyway i actually enjoyed writing this,,, yk all the stuff potentially going thru akashi’s mind when he has a crush intrigues me and uhh i hope u guys liked this and if u do PLS LMK WHAT U THINK !! it would legit mean the world if u guys did <3

#knb x reader #akashi x reader #akashi x you #akashi seijuurou x reader #akashi seijuro x reader #akashi fluff #knb fluff #knb imagines #kuroko no basuke #kuroko no basket #akashi seijurou #and again idk how to tag sht #signed.. koko

[emperor-kumquat]

Idw influences for Sunder

I’ll share the panels that inspired me to up the cannibalism factor.

Sunder didn’t eat the brains and spines in Lost Light, but he started chewing them and talking about the taste of memories. That was getting close to cannibalism except he wasn’t swallowing anything. That certainly captured my attention though...

Then, no matter who drew him, Sunder had some freaky teeth Cybertronians don’t normally have. 

And for some reason he has a tongue?! Check out what Froid says and the second panel, and you can see why I couldn’t resist making Sunder full blown cannibalistic. 

“Well fed” shoves Rung’s face near Sunder’s

We made so many jokes about Sunder eating spines, so now he really does. Not for the memories, but for all of the bot. But I incorporated “eating sin” in a more legit sense: Sunder targeted bad, sinful people in society. He would do his research, stalk them, and eventually kill and devour them out of sight. An anti-hero? Maybe!

Now your normal Cybertronian isn’t able to eat anything but energon. Sunder will be a supernatural creature in Mercy, Cybertron’s own babadook. You will see he has a dark spark; he’s basically a bastard child of Unicron with the instinctual urge to end life. His body is adapted to kill; it will rot unless he consumes the parts of other people to replace his own. His existence is feeding on the sinful, and with his outlier ability to sense emotions and change them, he truly is a terrifying creature!

So how did Froid get involved in this? Sounds like risky business...! Hopefully Sunder won’t consider him sinful as well...

#sunder #froid #rung #tf mercy

[nyxpolarlicht]

❗️❌MHA SPOILERS❌🚫💙💀❤️‍🔥🔥

So the fact tht we’re gnna be learning about(hopefully)dabis life till now from 14-24 is so exciting but terrifying at the same time??!

Like up to now we’ve all essentially been trynna read into all of dabis dialogue to see what hes rlly like but nobody ACTUALLY knows!Everyones made different points where either “oh hes just a daddy obsessed boy””He was abused””He overreacted””he misunderstood their actions as not caring/loving!”hes sad over killing ppl!””he loves killing ppl!!””he doesnt care about the LOV””he cares about the LOV”

Like theres straight up so many different views on how dabi is its actually pretty wild,even more with the fact tht hes pretty much the only other main important character tht hasnt gotten a pov and is considered a mystery that honestly we should all be super scared of whats in his past.

Think about it right?

So many things that ppl dnt think about could actually be right and/or be wrong.Horikoshi could legit make him a real villain and make alot of ppl hate him based on what he’ll show and im so scared for tht??!Ill forever love my lil murder meow meow cause i love him no matter what and idgaf(biased af dnt @ me 😩)

I hope he has his reasons and i hope we get more than (no offense) some shitty 15-19 pages of dabis life speedrun cause at this point he deserves it and so do us all,like i want actual 4-9 chapters explaining everything tht happened in 10 years but kinda summarized.If not this is just a plot where no matter what the power of friendship and “heroes” wins.And thts just bs.

Up till now theres barely any heroes tht can be considered pure and honest,and the fact tht Endeavor and (dnt kill me fandom) Hawks are STILL working is absurd.AND they dint get any heavy hatred from the public after their dirty laundry was throw out there???Fkg Endeavor cried and he was essentially forgiven and told aight dnt do it again and then accepted???This was a legit abused and thrown to the side child tht did/went through god knows what till he became a villain,and he gets to keep his tittle as if nothing?!

The only thing tht could fix this is if he or both of them retire after the war cause right now they are the strongest so the heroes woulf need them,but aside from tht this story has essentially gone from a weak lil kid wanting to be a hero and provr himself to him realizing the fault in the hero society and saying “fine ill do it myself” and then being brought back by his shitty childhood friend?(idc to call him his bestfriend cause with everything he did to him bakugo shouldav been expelled but thts another post 👩🏽‍🦯).To then fight a war against ppl that hv been abused/neglected/ignored etc. by the sayd hero society and is actively being distracted so he jumps in and fights bigger enemies(aka tsu and uraraka legit telling him to leave toga to them cause he was trying to reason and understand her).

This is the first time ive ever read/watched something and i fully supported the villains and it wasnt just cause they was hot 😂.Only true hero in mha is deku 😭.

DABI TOPIC AGAIN💙❌💀

I dnt see the point of dabi dying honestly,like yea i get it sounds biased cause dabi simp but hear me out.The whole todoroki bs is about acceptance,moving on and fixing bs(theres bigger words tht were used once but idr).Dabi wont be killed and im 99% sure of tht,but BUT he might end up killing himself which i am in fear of.BUT IT WOULD MAKE ZERO SENSE!!!!

Dabi is one of the strongest villains so i get why he’d need to be taken care off in some way.But dying/killed??Its useless,stupid,no point in his story,no point in the todoroki story,not fair to the character and what would the message be from tht?”Aight so now that everyone knows his past lets make him burn himself to ash like hes done to all his victims and he’ll die like his jaw or or make him look more angelic so burn himself so much he’ll fall on a bed of ashes while looking at the sky covering his eyes slightly with the back of his hand and you’ll see his skin full black and then fade to nothing ye YE LETS DO THT FOR THE CHARACTER THAT WAS SUPPOSED TO REPRESENT SOMETHING LETS JUST OFF HIM CAUSE HE AINT ON DEKUS THE MCS SIDE!!!”

Y’all see why it would be stupid?

It would make no sense to me in anyway other than just hori killing one more villain/victim off to…to do what?Honestly it hurts to even think about it and hurts even more thinking that it would prolly happen in prolly 2-3 chapters. I want his past to be fleshed out completely in a couple chapters,i wanna know what he went through wether good or bad i wanna know what his thoughts and actions were for every step.I dnt want him to just get 1-2 small shitty chapters with his whole life summarized and then go back to the present and him lose to shoto(shoto would win this if he went all out with both sides and not just fire ngl)and the 3 endeavor sidekicks tht are essentially endeavor apologist🙄.I wanna see dabi just either pass out or get knocked out by shoto and then shoved into an ambulance and sent to an er then healing center or villain rehab,fkg anything at this point just dnt kill him off like hes some kinda side character.

🦋Anyways tht was my rant/vent post.I wanna know ppls thoughts about the mha manga atm for those who are in the current chapters,thoughts about any character in particular and or how would you all think this would all end?Also sorry for the long ass post i put spaces cause its easier to read and write it and if my english is bad its cause its not my main language so srry bout tht to.💙

#dabi #bnha #mha #touya todoroki #bnha dabi #mentally tired #dabi x reader #my hero academia dabi #league of villains #war arc #mha spoilers #sad but true #kohei horikoshi #anime boy #manga boy #deku #hero society #bedtime thoughts #i should be asleep rn #i made myself sad

[btsandvmin]

Answering asks in regards to my recent post about shipping

Ok, so I got a few asks which I think are all responses to my recent post How much do we really know?

I got a few others but these are the ones I am choosing to reply to.

If you follow me and have done so for a while you probably understood my post already, and thus most of these replies might not be that interesting to my general readers. This for the most part just a reply to explain the points I felt got completely misunderstood by these particular anons. But I also go through some others that asks as well. Those will be at the bottom of the post if you want to skip the explenations.

Here goes. So the first ask I got was this:

Anonymous asked:

You mentioned in a post that during the billboard Vlive V suggested that him and Jimin “sleep together casually.” But the very next day Jimin said in a press conference that he was with JK all night and cried with him over the #1 spot. Do you think you ignore things JM says or does to fit your Vmin narrative? There just seems to be a big confirmation bias. A lot of your evidence seems to come from V’s songs but that’s entirely your analysis based off your perception of their relationship. (Not that I don’t agree with you on some of it.) How do you step back and look at things unbiasedly or rationally?

First of all, yes I did mention this but I didn't say that Jimin and Taehyung slept together that particular time/day. I am not 100% sure the post you read was the "How much do we really know?" but if it was, I said this:

"....or that Vmin seem to casually sleep together in private (if we take Tae’s words for it in the Billboard vlive)..."

Meanwhile in that vlive this is what Taehyung said.

"I told him to sleep next to me" followed by "...as he's too lazy to come to my place" it makes it sound like they normally would have gone to either place to sleep together, but both were too lazy to do so this time. Thus they didn't sleep together this instance, but the way Tae talks makes it sound like they casually ask each other to sleep together at times and like it almost was a given that one of them go to the other.

Worth noting is also that the way Taehyung says it (though there is always room for error since I don't speak Korean) it seems he was asking Jimin to come over first, and he wasn't even aware of the Billboard result. He also asked Jimin to do this on JK's birthday, so clrealy it didn't seem like a big deal at least from Tae's side to ask Jimin to come over to him on this particular day.

What I said in my post applies even if they didn't do it that day. Because it doesn't matter if Jimin went in the end or not, Tae still "casually" asked Jimin to come to his place to sleep.

You can look at the whole vlive (1st in BILLBOARD! Gather ARMY!) from September 1st 2020 and get your own understanding, it's not that long and it's full of cute moments.

But if we get into Ji/kook a little bit, the way I understood the situation from what they said is that of course yes, Jimin did tell JK about it. He said as much and of course I will believe him when he says it.

I never said that Jimin didn't say this, so I don't understand how my post would in any way imply that I ignore what Jimin says or does to fit a Vmin narrative. I didn't even mention Jimin, because it wasn't what I was talking about. Jimin's situation didn't matter in that context, just that Tae asked Jimin to come sleep with him.

Sadly I can't include all pictures because there is a photo limit, but Jimin also says he wasn't prepared for the news, and he was talking with Taehyung, and then he started to cry as he got the news. To me it seems he might have told Tae first (and that they already were on the phone when Jimin got the news?), and that JK likely wasn’t with Jimin when he got the news himself, but that he told JK at a later point.

But aren't you ignoring how they told the story a bit as well if you see this as a pure ji/kook moment?

The thing is that to me, no matter what ji/kook did that night doesn't even matter for what Tae said. It still indicates Vmin sleep together casually in their private time even if they didn't end up doing it that particular day. And if Tae could say that and ask that on the night leading into JK's birthday then how does that make Ji/kook seem like likely lovers even if they were together? Of course it doesn't mean that Vmin automatically becomes real, but I never said that either. Maybe the two ships cancel each other out, but in the end the fact that Taehyung said this, said it like it was normal, and suggested it the night before JK's birthday says something to me.

It's fine if Ji/kookers love the fact that JM told JK, I don't blame them, but they in turn need to take Tae's words into account as well. The whole point of my original post was to say I don't understand how shippers can feel confident in their ship being real, and this is a perfect example of why focusing in on one thing and ignoring or not noticing another makes these beliefs based on too little information.

You also seemed to ignore the rest of the post (if that was indeed what you were reading) where I state that I do have a bias and where ALL shippers use narratives that fit their ship to tell a certain story.

You also mention me ignoring moments and having confirmation bias, and sure I can't truly get rid of that, but again... I didn't ignore Ji/kook. I never said those things didn't happen. If anything I keep saying all ships have moments and shippers focus on them so much they don't see others have similar moments. Likewise I won't deny ji/kook moments when they clearly exist, that was a big part of the post, if you actually read it and didn't just get stuck on the small details. But it's good you are curious about and know confirmation bias. I have brought it up as a problem many times as well, and I will surely talk about it more in the future too.

Then, moving on to your point about "evidence" I would once again like to say (like in the post) that there is no such thing as proof or evidence for ANY ship. Just moments that shippers put together with their interpretations into a narrative. So you saying "A lot of your evidence seems to come from V’s songs but that’s entirely your analysis based off your perception of their relationship. (Not that I don’t agree with you on some of it.)" is why I felt you somehow misunderstood my whole post.

Of course it’s all my analysis based on my perception of their relationship. That’s the WHOLE POINT about how all shipping analyses work. Not just mine, but all.

Also, yes Taehyung's songs is a big part of why Vmin is suspicious, but it's far from the only reasons I have to question them. I simply used Tae's actions as an example in my post because they are quite many and out there. Many facts tied together, but of course what they mean is always a guess. Which I also stated clearly. I literally brought up a lot of examples of Vmin and said they make a lot of sense, but that doesn't mean we can be sure or "know" Vmin is real.

So, yes, I do feel you misunderstood me on several points, and it seemed you didn't read properly at all but rather got stuck on the details and then used Ji/kook moments to "refute" me even though it in my opinion wasn't relevant to the post at all. Which is why I in turn posted this reply:

It didn’t take long for someone to misunderstand my posts and get caught up on the details and examples instead of the general message. While they were at it they decide to throw in a good “accusation” of something I legit have said I am many times and no one can avoid. Good to know some people just don’t want to understand. 😗👍

Not only you but less interesting/good asks as well might have made me feel a bit annoyed, so I replied like this, I suppose I misunderstood your intentions too.

You also asked "How do you step back and look at things unbiasedly or rationally?" and my personal belief is that I can't. I am biased towards Vmin, and I do try to see things from many ways and to get content in its full context. But simply by consuming and remembering more about Vmin than other dynamics I will still remain biased. I don't think any shipper can truly remain neutral.

Then I got a a second ask (Edit; I now know this is by another person than the first ask).

This isn’t me trying to misunderstand you, I’m just genuinely curious how you ship vmin while also questioning Tae’s honesty (your BB night comment) and thus also Jimin’s, and also hand over the best tools to anti-vminnie who can use your words as proof that “well even vminnie don’t believe vmin so why should we?” And if all ships are basically equal, why ship at all, or why ship vmin? They have the most conclusive things and yet the more we get the more you question and doubt them.Why?

And suddenly there came a whole new additional set of problems.

I suggest reading my post Shipping vs Believing because if you knew my stance you would understand that I think there is a huge difference between shipping and believing and that you can ship whatever you like and it doesn't have to be tied to reality at all.

In general this ask makes you sound like a delusional and defensive believer, so I perhaps suggest reading my post Can shipping turn into conspiracy theories? as well. This additional ask is why I replied with this second short post:

You say I question the honesty of Tae or Jimin's words, but hopefully you understand this is not at all true since I explained what I actually meant in my original post. Tae asking Jimin to sleep with him is just as true as Jimin telling JK about the win. These two things don't contradict each other and I trust both of the statments to be real.

Also, how am I "handing over tools" to anti-vminies? These things are all out there, and I wasn't even talking about anything negative? Just because I have a more healthy approach than "Vmin is obviously real" that doesn't mean my words should be interpreted as "shipping Vmiin is pointless". However, you did get it right that I don't believe in Vmin, but you seem to have the wrong idea of why I have that stance to begin with. Which again, was part of the message in the original post which you here continue to not understand in other ways.

Me not talking as if Vmin is 100% real doesn't mean I hand out tools to antis. Personally I think that's a weird interpretation of my text, but I can't do anything but try to explain my view on shipping, which I feel that I have many times.

I also don't personally think all ships are equal, but I do think many ships have similar moments and that those moments either get ignored or hyper focused on in a way that makes shipping analysis less trustworhty and always biased and not based purely on facts and the full context. Basically yes, a lot of ships seem to cancel each other out, but that shouldn't stop anyone from shipping. BUT it should make people careful about calling moments "proof" and be sure their narrative is the only possible truth.

I also don't think it's fair to say "They have the most conclusive things and yet the more we get the more you question and doubt them.Why?". I've always tried to keep a distance between shipping and analysis and while we do get more and more for Vmin it's not that I start doubting them more... It's just that I remain open to other things despite more things happening that fits in a Vmin narrative.

I honestly can't tell if you have read a lot of my posts before or not, but it doesn't seem like it, and thus it feels even more unfair for you to lay this judgement on me as well.

Then I got a third ask (edit: which was a second one from the first anon):

Anonymous asked:

I think I’m the anon you responded to. I did read more of your posts where you question things a bit. It’s nice to see you still have a healthy view point on things. I wasn’t really disagreeing with your posts, just wondering if you felt everything was being considered when coming to conclusions. Have a good one !

All this drama, and for what? :P But have a good one too I guess. Thanks for taking the time to read more and trying to understand my point of view.

I also got this ask from another person, and I hope you might understand what I meant after reading my reply to the first anon.

Hi I am sorry I am confused. Can you tell me why specifically you think Vmin alluded to sleeping together during the Billboard Vlive? Didn't Tae say he was talking to Jimin on the phone and told him to come over? Then at the press conference Jimin said "I was with Jungkook" and they were sitting stroking their phones. I am not a shipper or an anti shipper or anything like that. I just would love to see the receipts on this if you have them?

Again, I didn't mean Vmin slept together that day. But the fact that he asked and it seemed like a very normal (even perhaps expected) thing that one of them would go to the other, I can still express it as Tae alluding to Vmin sleeping together at least sometimes during their private time.

Now onto another anon, with a very different take. :)

Anonymous asked:

Spot on. Shipping is one thing but how can some people "believe" in a ship, I'll never understand. People need to realize that even with all the content we get (from concerts to DVDs to Run to BV to interviews), we only see them for maybe like 2-3 days (total) out of 365 days. Like? They visit a country for 7 days and we only get 10 hours of content from it. Do we have any idea what any of them is doing right at this moment? "Supporting" a ship is stupid even if you're right at the end.

Thank you anon. I don't fully agree that we get as little as 2-3 days total out of a year, but we definitely don't see the majority of their lives. And while you are a bit crude, I agree... Even if a ship is real, supporting and believing and being convinced of only one ship is at least in my opinion not the right way to go about it. Which is why I say let's speculate but also support them all whatever the truth might turn out to be.

There we go... It ended up being a lot of drama made out of nothing else than a small misunderstanding. Anyways, I hope I made myself clear. Thanks for the asks, sorry for the somewhat annoyed attitude and I hope you understood what I tried to say.

Thanks for reading. If any of you had the patience to do so all the way through I salute you. <3

#vmin #vmin analysis #bts shipping #btsandvmin answer #btsandvmin ask #btsandvmin #my post #this felt a bit like a waste of time #i hope someone reads it #but at least it will give me some peace of mind #rant