#hopelessly-me

[indigo6f00ff]

need to share an experience i had 30 minutes ago

(edit: thanks to @walks-the-ages for providing and reminding me to put alt text, sorry it slips my mind alot lol)

#my hands are still shaking to be quite honest i could not put a lot of effort into this. #but like. brain. why did you do that #literally i have been like hopelessly obsessed with de nonstop thinking abt it for the past couple of days it is Scaring me #it is terminal its soooo fucking chronic #disco elysium #kim kitsuragi #for anyone who wants to know i bumped into some guys car that was stopped for a school bus. i think my brain errored and thought #my foot was fully pressing down on the brake pedal but it wasnt. #i am like 99.99 percent sure neither of us had any major damage to our cars but we still filed a police report just in case #because insurance do be a bitch. dudes back bumper was scratched lightly and my front license plate has a dent now #also literally my first ever car accident that ive had ever yippee yay

[hairmetal666]

Steve doesn't date, not anymore. He goes to bars, clubs, picks people up and makes it clear it's just for the night; that it can't, won't, be for anything more.

He falls too fast and too hard; wants so badly to be loved that he loses himself to it. So, he doesn't date and he's fine. More than fine, actually. Not worrying about finding someone, about falling in love, lets him truly enjoy his life; maybe for the first time since childhood.

He goes with Robin to visit her parents in Hawkins, wakes up at the ass crack of dawn to go for a run. With the sun barely up, he doesn't expect to come face-to-face with Eddie Munson, smoking on a park bench.

They startle each other in the early Hawkins quiet, Eddie jumping hard enough that he drops his cigarette into the dirt at his feet.

"Christ, Harrington!" He snarls a little.

"Fuck, Eddie." Steve fights to catch his breath. "What are you doing out this early?"

He glances up, finds Eddie's eyes raking over this body in a way that makes him go hot all over.

"Haven't been home yet." Eddie smirks. And he can see that's true, Eddie is fully dressed, faint lines of mascara trail across his cheeks.

"Had a show?"

"Something like that." Eddie's cheeks pink, and he pulls a chunk of hair over his face.

Understanding dawns, and Steve points at him, delighted laugh bubbling in his throat.

"Don't--"

"You had an all night Hellfire meeting?" Steve cackles.

"Shut--Harrington, shut-up." But he's smiling too. "I'm in town this weekend. Dustin insisted!"

"You can tell him no, you know?" Steve giggles.

"Like you ever could."

Eddie stands then, and they hug, quick and tight. He practically crumbles into his friend's body, but then, that's nothing new. Steve breathes him in, immediately comforted by the familiarity of tobacco and leather and sweat and weed.

"I'm at Rob's. Come say hi?"

Eddie nods and they trek back together. They kept in touch, after Vecna, and their chatting is easy, like it's not been six months since the last time.

Eddie stays for breakfast tells them with a smile, "I was gonna call but--I'm moving to Chicago. That's why I'm crashing at Wayne's for now, stopped on the way--"

The rest of his words are smothered by the force of Steve and Robin's hug, Steve's heart beating an elated rhythm he doesn't bother investigating.

--

When Eddie makes it to town, they hang out as constantly as an adult with a day job and a touring musician can. It's nice, good, to see Eddie sitting on their couch. To watch him smoke a joint on the balcony. To hangout in his bed as he works on new music. It's just like the summer of '86, before they all went off to find their futures.

They're closer than they've ever been. Crashing at each other's apartments, sharing clothes, meeting for coffee and drinks and meals. There's not a day or night when they're free that they don't spend together.

Steve knows he's falling for Eddie; was halfway there already, and now--well, Eddie's beautiful and funny and smart and talented. He doesn't make a move, though. Because Eddie'll leave, like they all do, and losing Eddie will crush him more than anyone else ever has.

--

In June, Eddie's gone for a month, touring across the midwest. The day he's expected back, Steve's in the kitchen, rolling up fresh pasta, simmering sauce on the stove.

Robin stomps in, eyes flashing. "What are you doing?"

"Making dinner?" Steve raises an eyebrow.

"Steve."

"Robin."

They glare at each other across the kitchen. Steve breaks first. "What's wrong with making our friend dinner?"

"I don't want either of you to get hurt."

Steve freezes, swallows. "I'm not--I'm--I wouldn't."

"Just. Promise you'll be careful?"

He nods, squeezes his hands into fists. "Course, Rob."

And he means it, he really does, but when Eddie lets himself in, Steve runs to the doorway to pull his friend into a tight hug.

Eddie huffs out a burst of air on impact, laughing lightly. "Miss me, sweetheart?"

"So much," Steve whispers. He presses his nose into Eddie's neck, breathing him in, and he doesn't miss the way a kiss is pressed into his hair, the way Eddie's breathing him in too.

They fall into their natural rhythm immediately, Eddie following him to the kitchen, cooing and posturing that Steve made him dinner.

As Steve serves up the food, Eddie wraps his arms around his waist, leaning against his back. God help him, but Steve can't help relax into the hold, turning his head until their eyes meet.

Desire bleeds from Eddie's gaze, and Steve's breath hitches. He wants this so badly, knows he shouldn't, but he lets himself lean in until they share air.

But--he can't lose Eddie. He can't.

He turns away, lets the moment die. Eddie doesn't stay over that night, and Steve pretends like it doesn't make his stomach hurt.

--

They aren't as close after that.

Steve keeps telling himself it's because they're busy. The school year's starting up, Steve's got lesson plans to write; Eddie made an EP, it got interest, he's taking meetings in New York and LA. It's okay that they're spending less time together.

Until Eddie stops returning his calls.

He tries not to worry. But one call becomes two, becomes three, and he can't help it. He goes over, dread a knot in his stomach. Eddie opens the door, and he's shirtless with sweatpants slung low on his hips, hair loose and streaming around his shoulders. He looks happy.

"Steve? What are you--"

"You weren't answering my calls, and--can I come in?"

Eddie winces. "It's not a good time, Harrington."

He stands there for a second, stung, not sure what to say.

"Eddie, I--"

"Babe?" A voice calls from inside the apartment. "Who's at the door?"

Steve freezes. Can't think, can't move. He hopes it isn't obvious that his heart is shattering, but Eddie's blinking at him, panic written in the lines gathering on his forehead.

"Steve, Stevie, please," Eddie is saying, but he can't do this. He can't do this.

He walks away, all the way home, numb to everything around him.

The phone's ringing when he gets to the apartment. He ignores it. Goes to his room, locks himself in, crawls into bed.

The phone keeps ringing. He keeps ignoring it.

It isn't supposed to be like this. They weren't dating, weren't trying for a relationship; Eddie's supposed to be his. He curls into himself, sobs until his ribs hurt, until his eyes are as heavy as his heart, and he falls asleep.

--

Steve startles awake, disoriented, to someone knocking on his bedroom door. He has no idea what time it is, how long he slept, but he expects Robin to be waiting in the hall.

It's Eddie. Hair in a messy bun, face flushed, eyes too bright.

"I'm sorry," falls out of Steve's mouth before he can think of anything else.

"Steve, I--I don't--" Eddie shakes his head. "Do you want to be in a relationship with me?"

"Yes," Steve whispers. "But I can't lose you, Eddie."

Eddie reaches out, slender hand, cupping Steve's jaw. "I need you to really listen when I say this, sweetheart. You will never, ever lose me. Not a chance."

"You can't know that," Steve says. Tears break free, cascade down his cheeks. "I used to think who could ever leave me? You know, back before Nancy. But I realized that actually no one would stay. And I can't--with you I can't--"

"Sweetheart," Eddie chokes on a sob. "I'm yours. Have been for years. I will never, ever leave you, no matter what we are to each other. But I can't be in some of a relationship with you. You have me wrapped around your finger, and I--I need it all, Steve."

"I want you to have it, Eddie." He presses his hand to his heart. "This belongs to you, but I--I couldn't survive you leaving."

"I would stay, Steve. I will. I promise on everything I have, everything I am, that you would never, ever lose me."

Steve stumbles into Eddie's arms, totally gone, and their mouths meet in a clumsy kiss. It wrecks Steve, tears him apart, renders him down to his smallest parts only to build him back together. He knows now for certain that there is no one else in the world for him.

They break apart, but don't move out of each other's orbit. "I love you," Steve whispers.

"Stevie, sweetheart, I love you more than anything." His fingers wind their way into Steve's hair, gentle, holding him. "I promise you'll have me for forever--fuck, longer than forever. My soul will find yours wherever we end up. I swear it."

#steddie #steve x eddie #steve harrington #eddie munson #ficlet #fluff #angst #fluff and angst #angst with a happy ending #friends to lovers #musician eddie munson #teacher steve harrington #situationship #mutual pining #steve swears off dating #eddie is hopelessly in love with him #what if steve is the archer #who could ever leave me darling but who could stay #what if eddie is linger #you know i'm such a fool for you #the archer #linger #eddie will stay

[royalarchivist]

Foolish: So- wait, what do we all need to do then? Do we just- do we just enjoy?

Roier: Uhh just um, just-

Maxo: Enjoy! Enjoy it!

Roier: Yes, enjoy, enjoy, because we are going to do, um-

Foolish: [looking at Vegetta] Oh, I'm gonna enjoy...

Vegetta: Foolish… *takes off his clothes* enjoy.

Foolish:

#Foolish #Foolish Gamers #Vegetta777 #Fooligetta #QSMP #Vegetta #Literally what was that stream even LMFAO #Anyways Foolish was one of the best additions to QSMP solely because of how he frickin reacted to Vegetta stripping like this #frickin me 2 dude #everyone was quick to accept Foolish into the Spanish community for a variety of reasons #but also because he's just as insane about Vegetta as the rest of us #Good taste king #Fooligetta isn't my thing personally but Foolish's enthusiasm is hopelessly charming I'll give him that lol #It's a very fun unhinged ship #Roier #Maximus #April 26 2023 #I know a lot of people have already seen this clip probably but nobody frickin included the part where Foolish turns to Leo like #''oh right you should probably cover your eyes'' #that killed me #Also his ''wtf'' at seeing Roier LMAO poor Roier it's ok bud #*I* personally liked the skin Vegetta chose before going with this one but alas

[awaitinganorphanera]

My favorite relationship dynamic

I love them sm

#one piece fanart #opfanart #opla fanart #opla #coby #koby #luffy #monkey d luffy #helmeppo #cobymeppo #cobylu #kobymeppo #kobylu #unrequited love #unrequited feelings #I love mutual pining but to completely different people #being hopelessly in love with a man who sees you as a close friend must be fun 🤩🤩 #‘wow they’re just a great friend’ vs ‘I’ll literally die for you please marry me Ilysm’ #the lovelies #😍😍

[l-e-i-k-o]

☁︎

#shes hopelessly in love with a girl on campus #(wish it was me) #i love women #i love when they love women even more #the sims 4 #sims 4 #ts4 #create a sim #ts4 cas #show us your sims #my sims #simblr

[graveyard-society]

hi chat guess who's back

#THIS HYPERFIXATION ISNT FUNNY #IVE BEEN HYPERFIXATING SO HARD ON DANGANRONPA TO THE POINT THAT I CAN HEAR CHARACTERS SPEAK TO ME #IN MY EAR #I CAN HEAR MONOKUMA'S STUPID FUCKING PUHUHUHUHU LAUGH EVERY SO OFTEN AND ITS DRIVING ME INSANE #I DONT DREAM #BUT I DREAMT OF PLAYING DANGANRONPA #AND NAGITO'S HOPELESSLY STUCK IN MY HEAD I HATE HIM #this is it this is my return to tumblr #all because a friend of mine rambled to me about danganronpa until 5 in the fucking morning #i hate this twink #nagito komaeda #danganronpa nagito #danganronpa #danganronpa 2 #danganronpa: goodbye despair #aiden.png

[skitskatdacat63]

He's like when you teach your parent new slang and they keep trying to work it into sentences

#.....and i am hopelessly endeared by it #CUTE OLD MANNNNN #every tiktok makes me cringe eo bad(affectionate) #but im also so grrrrr bark bark #hes so silly i hate him #also the audio on that vid is so odd hahaha #f1 #formula 1 #fernando alonso #we do a little bit of f1

[babulekbabayaga]

I did him (I have to redesign his face).

#hazbin hotel critical #hazbin hotel critical adam #he had so much character and angst potential for being the first man created and seeing all his descendants crawl to sin hopelessly #And being the one in charged to executing them #I wish that was explored while still mainting that harsh and jerk side of his personality #However instead of being crude he more witty and subtle #You know what i mean #Ugh #Love you the Adam in my headcanon #also gave him some wrinkles and mature features since well he is literally a dad who had his son murder his other son #made me think why did the show never ever mention his children?!??? #WHERES CAIN WHAT ARE CAINS FEELINGS ABOUT ALL THIS??? #hazbin hotel redesign #hazbin hotel adam

[blue-jos10]

i wonder how kevin's fitness-obsessed mind justifies his alcohol addiction

#kevin day #aftg #all for the game #like does he think as long as his hangovers don't effect his court time its ok? #that doesn't really fit with the idea that he's a health freak outside court too #like you're telling me he doesn't see the irony of counting calories in decimals then downing a litre of straight vodka? #or is he just so addicted he cant stop? #i feel like he'd go for rehab if he thought it would influence his long term playing but that doesn't seem to be on his bucket list #like i get he'd be hopelessly addicted at the nest but now that his future seems to have some light i'm not sure why he still lets his #addiction destroy him slowly when he's thankfully now adamant on achieving a livable life #idk if this makes sense or if its been addressed somewhere else before but yeah i was just wondering #also sorry if this is inconsiderate or ignorant as to how addictions work i don't know the best

[armageddidnt]

I love this scene because it’s like the softest Aziraphale has ever been to Crowley and all Crowley is trying to do is yell at him about the demons that are about to break down his front door askjasdaflal

Bonus:

#good omens #aziraphale #crowley #ineffable husbands #angel #good omens season 2 #aziraphale and crowley #a/c #dancing #these idiots are so hopelessly in love God help me #armageddidnt-blog

[reidfaulkner]

R E M E M B E R O U R P R O M I S E

Less effect and no effect version

#signalis #elster #ariane yeong #lstr 512 #crt #fanart #reidfdraws #fun fact #Got the CRT filter version by using a cool blender effect node I found online #people who make free tools are saints #this game has me by the throat #I'm hopelessly addicted to this narrative

[omegalomania]

the way mania haters talk about mania is so funny they're like "this album almost KILLED fall out boy's CAREER this album lost them SO MUCH MONEY mania FLOPPED everyone HATED it" they talk about it like fob had to sell their kidneys to keep touring on the thing. like. mania? the album that debuted at number one? the album with last of the real ones on it, the song that fans loved so much that they got it certified gold despite the label doing absolutely nothing to support it or push it for radio in the slightest? the album that got fall out boy a grammy nomination? that album? you can call it polarizing if you want but you can't say it didn't do a hell of a lot for an album that had a first single with such an eclectic reception

#*making poasts #one day people will like. learn that personally disliking something does not automatically make it unsuccessful #i mean sometimes i wish it did but if that were true david cage would be languishing in obscurity after omikron nomad soul #and had never gotten put in the limelight with heavy rain and proceeded to make some of the worst games ive ever seen #god i wish that me hating that man made him unsuccessful #these tags are hopelessly off topic but the point is. not liking something doesnt make it unsuccessful lol

[royalarchivist]

Fit: Just keep me updated, you know, you– you've got my number, you've got my DMs, you know, they're always open Pac.

Pac: Yeah! Oh, sure sure sure sure sure. I'm gonna hit– how do you guys say? I'm gonna hit you.

Fit: [Laughs] Yes. That's right.

Pac: I'm gonna hit you up.

Fit: That sounds great. Well, Ramon, are you about ready to go, my boy? Alright, make sure to say goodbye to Richarlyson and Pac. [Notices Richarlyson placed a sign] Oh, what is it?

Pac: Bye, Ramon! Thank you for joining us on the hide and seek.

Richarlyson: WHAATTT? 0_0 and my dad still says he is single that is just losing opportunitie dad

Fit: [Laughs] Oh, Richarlyson, you're funny, you're a funny kid.

Pac: [Laughs] Wait, Richarlyson, you're going to make me shy!

#Hideduo #FitPac #FitMC #Pactw #QSMP #Richarlyson #Ramon #June 16 2023 #Posting a little lighthearted stuff to contrast the Agonizing Roier lore we just got lmao #I've got another clip to post from this same stream but I might post that tomorrow instead #''I'm gonna hit you'' makes me laugh every time #Pac you are so hopelessly charming #Edited

[shivroy]

spare crumb of hibs and shiv ?

hey look its all of them because im really nice (but actually its YOU ALL who are really nice. you guys are being enormously kind about fandom baby ily)

important 2 me that hibs was formula-fed by tom or primarily a rotating staff of nannies but every time tom fed hibs he would anxiously, rapidly murmur about how formula feeding has observable adverse effects on a child's development and health. if shiv is there she gets on her phone because she just cannot listen to that

here's a shiv diary section that makes me want to scream

#art #succession #fanart #succession oc #shiv roy #tom wambsgans #siobhan roy #hibernian #tomshiv baby #tomshiv #the momos thing. What If We All Died What If Everyone Died #god i adore them im sorry i DO #i love them all. my horrible creation and these beautiful characters #tomshiv warrior...... forever............... #hibs #Hopelessly Addicted To Nipple #also look at shivs fuck ass bob its so important to me that it becomes asymmetrical again #ok. #the nation

[middleschoolfursona]

i miss you tomorrow today

#im on a haitus but decided to post this #art has been beyond hard for me lately #i cant bear to draw lately. but i was overcome with so much pain in the form of some kind of concept of unavoidable loss #which ambushes me sometimes. and i almost cried in the dining room over it #late in a dark winter i had fast food for the first time in years when my dad came home from hospital testing #with my birthday coming up it just feels so hopelessly #such a perfect scene to remember a decade from now #will i be thinking #'when you were here?'

[by-ilmater]

piggy-backing off of this post by @galedekarios and because i have been suffering through a chronic pain flare up of my own for the past week or so (thanks, genetics), i've been having a lot of thoughts about gale post orb, in a lifetime where mystra removes it.

because i firmly believe, regardless of how powerful mystra's magic may be, there's no way gale had that kind of destructive, consuming power in his body for that long and didn't suffer some lasting effects from it. at a base level, the visible scar it left on his body feels more or less permanent. it may fade with time, but it will never fully disappear. more than that, it hurts. when it's cold or rainy out, it aches, and he has to apply a soothing balm to help with the dull throbbing in his chest.

but the orb's power wasn't neatly contained to the area under that scar. it was in his blood, throughout his whole body. this is what causes the full body aches and stiffness and pain. gale will go for weeks feeling relatively fine, maybe a short tired spell here and there, or a sore spot or two in his neck from spending too much time reading. and then he wakes up one day and getting out of bed feels like a herculean task. he feels like he'd been trampled by a deep rothe the day before, or like he ran the border of waterdeep without stopping. his body aches, his joints are stiff and sore, and his skin feels like it's on fire, like the inside of his robe is covered in tiny spines. and he has no way to predict this, no way to feel it coming on.

I like to hope that tav and tara are there to take care of him during these times. he absolutely fights them, tells them to stop fussing, he's a grown man, dammit, an archwizard! but tav just gently tells him to shut up, draws him a hot bath, and washes his hair while he drifts off in the lightly scented warmth.

#i know this is a common headcanon but i had feelings i needed to put into words #not me projecting hopelessly onto this fuckin wizard jfc #gale dekarios #gale of waterdeep