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jecroisenmoi · 2 years
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Daily Log 8/6/22
So based from my posts, you could tell today was a blast. And I love every second of it.
Today was an unexpected day. So we went to Santiago Cove as planned. We stopped by the drive through for some food/lunch before heading there, because we headed out at like past 10:30 and so close to lunch. We had Jollibee. When we arrived there, of course the beach was beautiful, it had white sand, and we normally don't have white sand on our beaches here. So, it was beautiful. We took some photos before we went and ate lunch at the view deck. It was a very happy simple lunch. After the lunch, we head back to the beach and took some more photos and enjoyed the water a little bit before leaving.
While on our way, we actually made plans on where to go next. I am too sheltered and my father actually complains how I always go out these days. Well, I've been sheltered my who life, father. Anyways, Kyla mentioned Luna and Bahay na Bato, I have never went there, so I was very supportive of the idea. We actually joked Ivy about how it was actually far away even if it is actually not. She has a curfew of 5 pm as always. But yep she agreed, so yeaaah we went too. We actually made a few jokes about dropping her off their house because it is far away even though it is not. It was a little joke we would tell. Haha.
So arriving there, we actually thought it is not open turns out the vehicle up front just took it's time. The entrance fee is 50 pesos. Of course the place is beautiful too. There are a lot of carved stones and a house filled with stones. I mean you can guess from the name, Bahay na Bato. There are a lot of interesting things there. I love it. Now, I can also tell that I have went there.
We also took a little side trip at the Man-made Forest. Many people take photos there and it has been all over my news feed. So thank you Kyla, for the patience of driving us there. Yey, I went places today! Of Course, we took some photos as always. Photo or it never happened.
Our last destination, is the Baluarte Watch Tower. Yep, bikers and people also take photos there. So we took a side swing. Took photos too. It's weird how I went to a lot of places I only see in photos today. I am thankful to Kyla of course.
There was also rain in some places.
Anyways today, was a very great day. I am very happy. I enjoyed it. Thank God for this day. I hope I could go to places more.
I even joked that now I am ready for school because I had actually spent my vacation. Lol.
That's it, I guess. I didn't care about my grammar today. I am just so happy maybe even ecstatic.
XOXO
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empressofkalumina · 3 years
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TRESE - Netflix Anime series based on the Philippine graphic novel created by Budjette Tan and KaJO Baldisimo.
The six-episode horror-thriller series follows Alexandra Trese, Manila’s lakan babaylan, or guardian and healer. She acts as the bridge between the worlds of humanity and the supernatural, enforcing the accords that were set to keep balance between the two worlds. It’s a violent and gritty show that modernizes Filipino bedtime stories, and puts a fantasy gloss over the socioeconomic, political, and ultimately moral complexities of Manila, and the Philippines as a whole.
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purplesurveys · 3 years
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survey by -egocentricity-
On Myspace, what was in the last bulletin you posted? I haven’t been on Myspace for well over a decade; and even when I was there I didn’t have any friends added nor did I remember ever posting anything. Friendster and Multiply were a lot more popular.
When and where was the last time you took a picture of yourself? I took a selfie last Saturday in the dining room. It’s of me holding up the vape pen that Andi lent me for the meantime to show Angela, since she wanted to see what it looked like.
Have you ever been scolded by a mall cop? I remember being lightly chided once when I was like, 7 – I was leaning on a glass wall of a store in the mall, so the guard from that store nicely told me to get back up to be safe. Overall, I don’t think I’ve ever exhibited behavior in public that should’ve gotten me into trouble.
How often do you catch yourself daydreaming? Definitely not so much these days. I need to keep being preoccupied with work or other things to do/accomplish since my daydreaming always seems to end with thinking of scenarios that now upset me, like, idk, happier times with my ex. I’m tired of letting that happen and always being upset in the end, so I try to avoid getting lost in my thoughts anymore.
What's your favorite thing to think about as you're falling asleep? Idk about you but thinking in general keeps my mind up and racing lol, so when I’m trying to sleep I do my best to black out my mind so that I can doze off.
Is there anything that you want to do, but won't because you're too afraid? So I went to college with this girl - I believe she’s several batches older - who, as soon as she graduated, set out on a hitchhiking journey across the world. She’s been doing it for four years, and I believe she has finally made it to Europe after being stuck in Kazakhstan for a year due to Covid. She’s amazing and her spirit is so fucking beautiful. She has a Facebook page that I actively follow detailing her experiences; but as great as her journey has been, I don’t know and I highly doubt that I can set out for such a demanding, commitment-heavy challenge myself.
Who was the last person to yell at you? My mom is the only person who does that, but she hasn’t done so in a while.
Who gets up the earliest in your household? The latest? My dad, since his work starts the earliest. I will sometimes hear the car engine purring by 5:45 AM. The latest would be my sister, since she stays up the latest as well. I think she’s up by 8 AM, but she doesn’t show up outside of her bedroom until 10 or 11.
Have you ever had a pet walk across your keyboard while you were typing? No, and I am glad that’s the case because both of my dogs are too big and I fear that they could actually snap my laptop in half.
What political issues do you think deserve less attention/worry? No political issue deserves any less attention than others. Political issues always mean that someone is on the losing end and I don’t think it’s fair to compare and decide which ones can be put on the backseat. 
Anyway, I do believe it’s not so much the issues that should be compared, but the people in politics who are given the spotlight. Here in the Philippines especially, a lot of celebrities want to have their own political careers (and usually win a seat) despite their zero experience and the media gobbles that shit up all the time, which is disgusting. Related to this, I hope the media makes a consicous effort to wipe Trump out of the headlines once he’s out of office.
Which political issues are you most passionate about? I dunno if I can measure that since I’m pretty vocal about a lot of things. What I can tell you is that in the political issues I have a say in, I always side with the marginalized and the oppressed. IPs, POC, LGBTQ+, immigrants, factory workers, jeepney drivers, contractualized employees, activists, student-activists...my heart has always been with them and their cause.
You're going to your favorite foreign country; what landmarks do you go see? I’m not sure if I have a favorite country, but I’m very picky about landmarks in general anyway. I’d rather experience the local life and eat at smaller local places and go to lesser-known beaches and stuff.
What is the longest amount of time that you have spent away from your home? A little longer than a week, and this was usually when I traveled abroad.
Did the last movie you watched have any emotional effect on you? Yeah, so much so that I was unable to finish it and I had to show up at dinner while still fresh from crying.
What motivates you to go to school? Not applicable to me anymore, but I suppose this can be easily rephrased to mean work. Honestly, my main motivation is the desire to have a perfect record at work lol. I’m super neurotic about this and I hate the idea of being absent or late. Money comes second; I rarely buy stuff for myself so I mostly don’t even realize the money coming in to my account every two weeks. Then third is the desire to be good at my job because I do want to get promoted and rack up more positions as I go along.
How much caffeine have you consumed in one day? The most cups of coffee I’ve had in one day is 3, and that was not an enjoyable experience ha. Right now, I’m on my first cup of coffee.
Are you more hyper and up-tight, or laid back and relaxed? I guess it depends on the situation. I can definitely exhibit either, but my behavior will vary based on the people I’m with and/or how comfortable I am in a certain situation.
When was the last time you heard someone talking about you? Around a week ago. My parents were having dinner separately and I heard my name being mentioned in a few sentences.
How did you pick out your last outfit? I wanted an outfit that was chill and easy to carry around, but would still make me look like I put some effort into picking it out.
When buying shoes, what do you look for in the product? I admittedly like brand names, so that’s the first thing I look at. I also like to keep up with what’s trending, so I look at items in a brand’s catalog that I see more and more people wearing. If it matches with my own personal style, then I keep an eye on it/purchase it altogether.
What happened to cause the last mess you made? The last and current mess I have on me is my work desk, which I’ve since abandoned in favor of my bed + portable desk as my new workspace. Idk, over the Christmas break I just ended up stacking up so much shit on the desk until it became a little too cluttered. I’ve cleaned it up here and there to make the space look neater, but there’s still a lot of stuff.
Are you embarrassed to bring people into your bedroom? Not embarrassed; I just find it unnecessary. My bedroom is too small to host guests and the only times I’ve let someone in there is when I had a significant other. I prefer people to stay in the living room.
When was the last children's birthday party you attended? It was my third cousin Isabella’s 7th birthday party at a Jollibee. Her family has been living in Australia for a while, but I guess they wanted to host a party with their Filipino family so they flew back here to stay for a few days. Because she is my third cousin and because she’s been living in Australia all her life, I don’t actually have any sort of relationship with her lmao but I still made an effort to greet her and stuff.
Are you good at reading other people's body language? Yes, to the point that it contributes to my overall anxiety.
If you're sick, do you go to school or do you stay home [usually]? I rarely get a fever so when I do it feels like actual death. For that reason, I usually have to skip the day and focus on feeling better.
Does chicken noodle soup really make you feel any better? I never had it whenever I’ve felt like crap in the past. I don’t really like soup though, so on a personal level I doubt it would have any effect on me.
What is one meal that you like to eat whilst sick? I don’t have a go-to meal because again, I rarely get sick.
Think of the last survey you filled out; did you enjoy it? Sure, it was easy to digest and it’s the kind that you can take over and over again.
Have you ever fed bread to ducks or geese? I’ve fed bread, but to fish in the sea; not ducks or geese since idk if we have either here other than in zoos. In our trip to Mactan in 2010, I remember how we were allowed to pay a certain small amount to get bread from the resort and proceed to feed the fish swimming around in the beach.
Is it hard to imagine you were ever as small as a 1-2 year old? Yeah, I definitely feel that way sometimes.
What set the tone for your mood today? Eh, I wouldn’t say I had an overall mood today, honestly. It was a normal day at work, maybe a little more uneventful than other days; and I was on top of my tasks so there wasn’t anything to dread or worry about. I was just concentrated on getting the day over with and wasn’t strongly attached to any emotion.
Have you ever set out to ruin someone else's day? I don’t think so.
Have you ever felt like the whole world was against you? It happens sometimes.
The name of the last video game you played? Mario Kart 8 probably? It’s been a while but it’s all I play if I do play a video game, so it’s a safe guess.
The name of the last board game that you played? We whipped out my old box of Trivial Pursuit last November when we didn’t have electricity and internet because of the typhoon.
What was the last thing that you told yourself? I don’t remember the last time I talked to myself, but like two minutes ago I was starting to feel sad so I silently reminded myself to think of positive things.
How many times a day do you wash your face? At least once, in the morning before I start work. I’ve learned that cleaning myself up, even if it’s just splashing water on my face, super helps if I want to start working in a good mood.
Do you remember your D.A.R.E. officer's name? I didn’t have one of those, anddd I’m sure we didn’t have that program here.
Someone throws hot coffee on you; how do you react? It’s taken me a whole goddamn week to finish this survey, lels. Anywho... I think out of instinct I would scream out in extreme agony first? And I’d probably spend the first immediate seconds to try and process what just happened. I don’t know if I would fight back because I’m pretty sure the burns would be hurting too badly for me to focus on revenge.
Is there a high school or college that you would rather be attending? I attended one school from kindergarten to college, and I can’t imagine having attended anywhere else. I had one dream university and I ended up attending it.
Have you ever lived in an apartment or duplex home? Yes, both. My parents lived in an apartment for a few months when I was a newborn. From ages 2-10 I lived in my childhood home, which is actually a duplex. The other house belongs to my grandpa’s late sister and her family.
Has anyone ever commented on your weight? Sure, but I care so little about my weight that they don’t really have an effect on me. The most common one I get is to “eat more.”
Where do you stand when it comes to sexual intercourse? Erm not really lmao. Just do it?? Idk. And just make sure consent is mutual and that you aren’t doing it out of pressure.
Name a show from the 90's that you miss? I guess ‘miss’ is the wrong word since I never watched it while it was ongoing, but I do love Friends. I’m excited to see what they have planned for the reunion episode.
Who provokes your sarcastic side the most? Bad co-workers, but luckily I haven’t had to pull that side of me in a while.
Have you ever thought about joining the military? Never.
When you were little, did you ever stare at disabled or "different" people? Being a kid, I probably did but never thought anything of it during those times. My mom certainly would’ve whooped my ass if I tried to comment anything mean or be a smartass.
Could the contents of your bedroom get you in any trouble? The one thing that would piss my mom off are my vape pens. I still have Gab-related stuff in my room that I’m too lazy to throw out, but I doubt I will get into trouble from those anymore because there has been no relationship to speak of in the last four months.
Do weather patterns sometimes have an effect on your health? Not on my health, but on my mood.
If it snows a lot where you live, do you experience cabin fever? It doesn’t, so idk what this would feel like.
When was the last time someone disapproved of something you were doing? Not entirely sure; this hasn’t happened in a while. Admittedly, as a people pleaser, I thrive on doing what people would want me to do lol.
How good are you at getting along with other people? On a scale of 1 to 10, probably a 9? I’m super nice to everyone and in the end it only really boils down to whether I have chemistry with them or not. If I fail to feel comfortable around someone I’m more likely to stay formal, but I do try to be lively and crack jokes with everyone as much as I can.
Do you consider yourself to be approachable? I want to be and I always try to come off as such, but my resting bitchface hurts that chance sometimes haha.
Do you know anyone that's a little emotionally unstable? Uhm, no one comes to mind.
Have you ever felt like you were going out of your mind? Yes.
Has anyone ever suggested that you might need "help"? I don’t recall being told this by anyone before. But with the way I broadcast my anxiety and sadness from time to time, I’m sure people have thought of it.
Do you take offense to things easily? Yeah you can say that. I’ve always been more sensitive than most.
How do you respond to cheesy pick-up lines? As with any pick-up line, I inwardly roll my eyes and move on.
Do you like to give people a taste of their own medicine? It’s such a waste of time and energy for the most part, so no. But if I feel petty, I have no problem doing it.
How was the service at the last restaurant you visited? It was...fine. Nothing to write home about. It was unlimited Korean barbecue and they actually had a system in place where they gave us a link to some internal website they kept, and we could simply order from there to minimize contact with the servers. I will say that I never got the kimchi jjigae I had ordered, but it was fine because I was full by then lmao.
Are you ever jealous of happy couples? No. I mean, I guess I’m reminded of my loneliness when I see couples in public, but I don’t get jealous or angry. I just shake it off and try to focus on myself.
Describe a thought that is sticking with you today? That I can’t wait for Friday.
Lately, who has spent the most time on your mind? I’ve been thinking more of my anxieties than certain people, tbh.
In a car: air conditioning, or roll the windows down? Air conditioning. Though sometimes it’s nice to have the windows down, especially when I’m driving within my village or up a mountain.
When was the last time you did anything to your playlist? I made an angst-themed playlist over the weekend.
Is there a new song or band you've discovered? Massive Attack. Hayley Williams did a super great cover of their song Teardrop, so I checked out the original version which I also ended up enjoying. Olivia Rodrigo too, who I found out is part Filipino yay!
Which teacher gives you the most homework? My Journalism Ethics professor will probably rank the highest on this list.
What type of personality do you find most annoying? Idk, condescending ones maybe? There are a million kinds of personalities lol, but yeah I hate those who make you feel dumb, and feel good about doing so.
How did you hear about Bzoink? If my memory serves me correctly, my 10 year old self just wanted empty about me surveys to answer. Bzoink was always one of the first websites to come out if I searched for surveys on Google.
How long did it take you to sign up for an account - if you have one? I don’t think I ever made an account on there since I was too shy to share my answers.
Are you punctual? Yes, very.
Have you ever howled at the full moon? No.
Have you ever seen yourself on camera? Like if I’ve seen photos of myself??? I would be very surprised if anyone can say they haven’t.
Do you give any consideration to what's said in your horoscope? No.
When was the last time you felt like you were being followed? This has never happened before, thankfully.
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tsukkinode · 6 years
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Cosmania 2018: Ino Hiroki and Asuma Kousuke Fan Meet Report
Hello! I’m back with a new fan report, and it’s from the recent Cosmania 2018 in the Philippines where Hiroki and Kousuke came as special guests! It was a pretty fun and wild(?) fan meeting, so I hope you enjoy my report!
Note: I know that a lot of fan reports have emerged from Twitter, but I would appreciate it if you would link back to this post if you ever decide to share any parts from this post. This is ging to be as detailed as possible esp the talk part. Thank you!
I also have a Ko-fi account, so if you ever want to give me some coffee, I’ll be grateful!
The MC introduced both of them with their respectful 2.5D roles, and the screams were really loud without them appearing yet. They entered from the center of the stage, as the backdrop display splits into two. Hiroki is wearing a dark navy suit with a black shirt underneath, while Kousuke is wearing a light brown suit with a white shirt underneath. They both look so handsome in person! We were lucky to be seated on the fourth row near the stage!
Hiroki and Kousuke greeted the fans to the front! Hiroki greeted everyone in English along with a “Mabuhay!” Kousuke mentioned how he’s finally in the Philippines. (Fun fact: I got a Hiroki calendar from a friend, and the friend with me used it as a signage. We decided to use the July page bc it’s a very sexy one. Hiroki couldn’t help but laugh to himself bc there were at least 3 Hiroki calendars in those pages waving at him lol I love my friends. He was looking at us when he laughed, it’s so precious XD)
The first part is a talk event where the MC asks questions, and they basically have to answer them. (Stylistic note: Anything that’s italicized is spoken in English.)
Q: How did you start as an actor?
Hiroki: Oh. Alright, I’m gonna start talking (Fans started screaming when he started talking in English, and he said that we’ll probably like it if he does speak in English)... So, when I was 15, I worked in Harajuku and I was scouted by a manager. But at first, I was not interested in being an actor... Oh, sorry! Okay, in Japanese!
Everyone was laughing because he really did his best but he gave up midway. He wanted to probably answer it properly.
Hiroki: In my very first stage play, during the curtain call, I could properly see everyone’s face. From then on, that’s when I started getting interested in acting so I decided to become an actor.
When it was Kousuke’s turn and he started talking, fans were so loud. He really has a lot of fans here in the Philippines.
Kousuke: As for me, I was introduced into the entertainment scene by my friend.
MC: I think it’s fate that they have met several people into becoming actors, and now they’re here with us!
Hiroki: Right! That’s it!
(Please stop Hiroki, he’s too cool and funny in this panel.)
Q: We understand acting is not easy. What are the challenges you faced as an actor?
Hiroki: It actually varies on the characters you get as an actor like you could be required to know sword fighting. And there, we actually have to study those skills.
Kousuke: For me... Well, as I’ve been into different 2.5D production, with every single character that differs, you have to keep studying the (original) work and so every day there’s a challenge you face. But right now! It’s (the character) Jollibee.
Right after he mentioned Jollibee, everybody just lost it. I did too because that’s too extra of him to say tbh.
Hiroki: Do you want to try (acting it)?
Kousuke: Jollibee?
HIS FACE WHEN HIROKI SUGGESTED THAT. Seriously, Hiroki is so good with this adlib thing, Kousuke looked like he wasn’t prepared for it. But anyway, Kousuke went in front to try doing Jollibee. What he did is he’s like doing this holding a tray thing and serving it in a cute way. XD
MC: Is that Jollibee?
Fans were screaming, “Noooo!” and were disagreeing.
Hiroki: Where’s Jollibee? XD
Kousuke turned to Hiroki while laughing bc he got so shy and embarrassed. Suddenly, the fans were asking for Hiroki’s turn to show his Jollibee. Fan went, “Hiroki! Hiroki!” along with Kousuke. So when Hiroki went in front, he just did this cute pose and went, “This is! Jollibee Spaghetti!” And the whole audience went wild and cheering for him!
Hiroki: Is this Jollibee? (The fans said yes!)
Hiroki, looking/pointing at Kousuke: I’m Jollibee, you’re not. XD
Kousuke looked so dejected though. Both of them are so cute in that segment.
Q: Which character you portrayed is your favorite?
Hiroki: I know you want to, you want, ehh... (He gets flustered here bc of his pause and the fans were just cheering him on XD) Okay, okay! What you want to is... Koushi Sugawara? (Fans: Yesssss!) I know, I know. But the question is difficult for me because it’s like, “Hey, who’s your favorite, your mother or father?” So yeah, it’s hard because I can’t choose.
(My friend and I were like, “Awww that’s so sweet” lol)
MC: Everyone is your favorite.
Hiroki: Yeah! Hmm yeah!
(This is just me, but it’s weird for the MC to ask the audience if we accept that... Of course, we do lol what are you saying)
Kousuke: Uhm, well... it’s Haikyuu’s Oikawa Tooru.
The fans just went screaming (seriously though, Oikawa’s a fan favorite, and a lot of PH fans became his fans bc of Oikawa). The MC asked if we can hear his “Yaho!”
Kousuke went to the front and went, “Yaho, Tobio-chan!” The screams were louder than usual, and then some started chanting, “Iwa-chan!” Kousuke didn’t understand it at first, until Hiroki told him (without the mic) to say Iwa-chan too. And so he did that too!
Q: What was your happiest moment as an actor?
Hiroki: It makes me the happiest when I get to see everyone laughing or crying because of stage plays. (Hiroki does these crying motions too, and he was just so adorable).
Kousuke: Well, I feel just the same as Hiroki, but also from getting into Haisute, I get to be in different amazing stage plays. And the fact that I am here in the Philippines. How do you say this... I’m very grateful for everything.
Q: What advice do you have for people aiming to be an actor?
Hiroki: So... Actors cannot be alone. You’re here, and we’re here.
Tbh, I got what he meant by this. He said this in English and I went, “Awwww. Holy crap, I want to cry.” Hiroki said it in Japanese to his interpreter which she basically said the same thing, “If not for you, they won’t be here.” With an addition of “Never forget that feeling of gratitude towards your fans.”
Kousuke: For me... Well, I know everyone’s aiming for it, but we won’t know when we would be debuting exactly. Until then, I think it’s important that we keep studying and improving ourselves so we can be much more prepared for it. That’s what I want to share.
From here, questions are asked from the audience.
Q: What future roles would you want to be in?
Hiroki: I wanna be a prime minister! President! Or Spider-Man!
Kousuke: I’ve said this earlier, but it’s Jollibee! A 2.5D version of Jollibee!
Good heavens, you don’t know how much we laughed at this part bc it ended up as Hiroki and Kosuke arguing about Jollibee. XD
Hiroki: Hey, you said Jollibee is me?!
Kousuke: I’m gonna steal it from you!
Q: For Asuma-san, have you every adlibed on stage? If so, how did you execute it?
Kousuke: Adlib... a little. I’m bad at it.
The audience went silent, and Kousuke got so confused with the reaction, so he went, “Eh? Eh??” Hiroki saved him by saying, “They’re saying ‘ooooh’”
Kousuke: Well, so not to forget my character’s lines, I always make sure to really study them very well so I can tell them properly.
Q: For Ino-san, out of all the characters you have portrayed, whom do you relate the most, and why?
Hiroki: Uhm, Koushi Sugawara. He’s the most normal human out of all the characters I’ve played, which is like me who’s pretty much normal and doesn’t want the kouhais to steal the position from me. I think that’s how much I relate to him.
Q: What is your reaction when you were invited for an overseas event for the first time?
Hiroki: Yesterday, I was really nervous because this is my first time to be with you. But now! I am so excited to see you! Thanks to you!
Kousuke: Uhm... I was really worried that there wouldn’t be a lot of people who would come, but now, if we could make each and every one of you even a little bit happier, then... Until the end, let’s have fun with what we have today!
Second half is more of the fun stuff! The first challenge is making them speak Tagalog. Sentences were flashed on the screen and they basically have to pronounce them.
The first one is “Ako si __. Ako ay ipinaganak sa __. (I am __. I was born in __.)”
MC: Can you do it, Hiroki-san?
Hiroki: Of course!
Hiroki was actually good in pronouncing words so he was able to speak the sentences well.
Hiroki: Ako ay si... Hiroki! Ako ay ipinanganak sa... Japan! (Fans were cheering him on!) Masarap... Jolly Spaghetti!
He also asked if it was good, so the fans were satisfied and gave him an okay sign. Kousuke went up next.
Kousuke: Ako ey si... Kousuke Asuma. Ako ey pen? pen?... (Fans were teaching him by this time, shouting “ipinanganak/pinanganak) pinanganak! Sa... Japanese!
Kousuke was so cute, but because of that little mistake, fans were giving him an NG sign and telling him to try it again. He also cannot pronounce ‘ipinanganak’ well so he fumbles his words too. He did it again and he said that he was born in ‘Japanese’ until Hiroki taught him the proper word and said that Japanese is a person, Japan is the place. When Kousuke did it again, he said, “Ako ay si Kosuuke Asuma. Ako ay pinanganak sa... in Gifu!”
Second sentence is “Ang paborito kong pagkain Pinoy ay __ (My favorite Filipino food is __).” A lot of fans are actually chanting Jollibee here, but I kinda shouted adobo lol
Hiroki: Alright. Paborito kong... pagkaing Pinoy ay... adobo!... Perfect?
When it was Kousuke’s turn, I had to cheer him with ganbare!
Kousuke: Paborito kong... pegkein? Pagkain? Pinoy? Pinyoy? ay... Philippine meat! Philippine meat... Chicken, chicken.
The fans were not so convinced so he went, “I like lapu-lapu!” Which is a kind of fish in the Philippines.
The last sentence is, “Mahal ko kayo” and omg the fans were losing it lol.
Hiroki went to start, and he turned his back to us. He started this countdown, 3, 2, 1, then he went to turn to us and say, “Mahal ko kayo” in quite a sexy voice lol
Kousuke also did the same, and his countdown is in Japanese, san, ni, ichi. AND GAHD KOUSUKE WAS SO SOFT but his voice is deeper. It was so good! Both of them were so good! Thank you for the food lol
The next challenge is an improvisation game/acting challenge. They have to pick a noun they have to portray and an adjective to describe their character. Now, this is also a contest so there would be voting at the end of the challenge. The loser would have to dance. I told my friend that I hope Hiroki loses so he would have to dance.
For the first round, Hiroki picked up a cheerful gay person (it’s actually okama, but it doesn’t have a good connatation imo) while Kousuke picked up a dog that is surprised easily. Hiroki actually laughed when he first picked his paper. Funny thing is when Kousuke picked up ‘dog’, he went back to the bowl to try to change it, but he was stopped. 
They have to act together too, and all I can say is... Hiroki went too all out XD Kousuke was on all-fours because he was a dog, while Hiroki started as “Oh no. It’s so hot!” And he suddenly screamed and ran after dog!Kousuke! Hiroki went, “Come on, dog!! Come on!” There was a part that he was grabbing dog!Kousuke by the pants lmao just to call him towards him. 
Kousuke looked so scared of how gay!Hiroki was acting obviously. He was doing this gesture with his hands in front of him to make gay!Hiroki calm down too (he’s being too friendly with this dog lmao). 
Gay!Hiroki kept trying to get dog!Kousuke’s attention and asked for his name, to which Kousuke answered, “Jollibee” lmao. Dog!Kousuke kept walking around the stage (in all-four), but Hiroki kept grabbing him (by his leg/feet). And then Hiroki called him while bringing a bottled water, “Do you want this?” Kousuke is just looking at him even though he’s scared.
Hiroki: Do you want this from my mouth?
istg I think the venue went a bit hotter during this segment. Kousuke couldn’t understand him tbh, so Hiroki told him in Japanese, and KOUSUKE’S SHOCKED FACE LMAO. So they continued with the segment, with Kousuke saying he’ll drink it. HAHA Even Hiroki didn’t expect that hah.
They were actually sitting on the floor, the bottled water placed in between them, and Hiroki suddenly went, “Do it yourself! Do it yourself!” and shoved it to Kousuke XD And then Kousuke walked away looking sad HAHAHA PLEASE STOP THIS.
Hiroki: Oh, sorry, sorry, my puppy! Puppy!
Kousuke went back to him, and then Hiroki asked him to stand up (tbh whyyyy). Kousuke did, and they were just looking at each other’s eyes, and suddenly Kousuke fell to his knees, and GOOD HEAVENS THE POSITION THEY WERE IN. Kousuke looked up to Hiroki and just akslgalkgjalkg. And then Hiroki put his hand on Kousuke’s shoulder and went, “Finished!”
Note that there were two screens on the side of the stage so we can see their faces close up. And istg it was that good, just from seeing Kousuke’s face lmao. From our seat, we can vividly see their faces, but thanks to the screen, we can see their expressions bigger lmao
Voting was done and the screams were just so loud for both of them. It was decided that they would do one more. They will have to pick another character, but there will be a change.
Hiroki: I picked a dog! Well it’s okay because I like dogs.
Kousuke: I got a drunk! (and he acted this for a bit lmao)
The setting would be in a school.
Kousuke: Going drunk in school is bad though!
Which is true lmao, but they have to act in this setting. Hiroki was also in all-four but he’s towards the back of the stage, while Kousuke was in front. And then Kousuke went moving around the stage, he even went down towards the left side almost near the audience, looking for “San Miguel”
When he went back to the stage, he saw dog!Hiroki and asked for San Miguel. “San Miguel please? San Miguel!”
Hiroki: What!? San Miguel?
Kousuke: San Miguel. Uh.. San Miguel, San Miguel! (does a drinking motion lmao)
Hiroki: What you saying?!... Hey, don’t touch the puppy! What are you talking about? DON’T TOUCH ME! Don’t touch the puppy! You don’t touch the puppy! Holy shit!
Kousuke was actually touching Hiroki the entire time on his back lmao. So when Hiroki said not to touch him, he was trying to walk away (in all-fours) but he was so cute being grumpy like that lmao 
Kousuke: I... I don’t speak in English a little. Okay? Koko (here)
Hiroki: Annyeong.
Kousuke: Japanese.
Hiroki: Ni hao.
Kousuke: Japanese. I speak Japanese.
Hiroki: You speak Japanese... Ohhh. Annyeong.
Kousuke seemed to give up because Hiroki won’t speak to him in Japanese, so he kept looking for San Miguel. They have a table full of bottled water and Kousuke acted as if he found beer (San Miguel), and then he brought one to Hiroki. 
Hiroki was so cute because he was just sitting there and just being such a diva puppy tbh. XD And then he put the bottled water on the floor, and then he just drank from the straw. 
Hiroki: I’m a dog.
Kousuke: Dog?
Hiroki: No, a puppy. That is so cutie puppy!
Kousuke: Want to drink? Want to drink?
Hiroki: I want to drink.
And then Kousuke took the bottle and he drank from it. Of course everyone exclaimed and just lost it (bc indirect kiss lol)
Kousuke: Oh this is water! Water! No San Miguel, water!
Hiroki: IT’S MINE! PUPPY’S! THIS IS PUPPY’S!
Kousuke: Puppy’s?
Hiroki: Yeah!
Kousuke: Oh, sorry. Sorry... I didn’t know. My house? You want to come my house?
Hiroki: Your house is big?
Kousuke couldn’t understand it, so Hiroki repeated if his bag is big XD
Kousuke: Oh! Big! Yes, big!
Hiroki: Ooooh okay, I go your house!
And that’s when they end the skit. LOL. Of course, there’s also the voting. Voting started with Hiroki, and he was like “More!!” When voting started for Kousuke, Hiroki went, “booo!” In the end, Hiroki won, and Kousuke like, “No, no!!”
The punishment is dancing to MOMOLAND’S Boom Boom because it’s trending here in the Philippines. They showed the video on the screen and Kousuke was trying to follow it. He was so cute as he tried to do it. Hiroki was actually dancing along with it. Kousuke was so unprepared because they only showed the video once, and he had to dance to it already.
In the end, Hiroki also danced to it together with Kousuke. We even danced with them too. It was so nice! So it ended up as the audience are their teachers while dancing haha. Also there was this part that Hiroki is doing the Gangnam Style dance steps instead haha.
After that, we took a photo together! After the official photographer, Hiroki asked to take one from his phone too (he actually brought it with him on stage haha).
And then onto the last messages:
Hiroki: Thank you for coming today. It’s my very first time to come here so... How do you say it. I was really nervous. Just like what Kousuke said earlier, I worried if people would come. For the sake of people who came and those who have fun, I will keep doing my best as an actor. I love you all.
Kousuke: Thank you to everyone who came here today. When I get home, we’ll start with Haikyuu, so I’ll be doing my best for that. Also, with everyone’s continuous support, maybe we can return to the Philippines.... I will come back Philippines!
Hiroki: Which you like... Me and Jolly Pasta? I mean Jolly Spaghetti?
At this part, he has acctually looking at our side, and because I was motioning that I like him more than Jollibee, he saw me and went, “Me?”
I thought his question was like that, until Kousuke reacted with, “No! Me Jollibee!” And both of them were just a laughing mess.
Before they actually went off the stage, they actually went down towards the audience so we were able to see them closer! Hiroki touched some fans from the other side haha. But aah, they were really handsome and funny! Such nice people too!
I was able to meet and talk to Kousuke too because of the high touch event!  He was so fun to talk to, and he got excited when I told him I will see him again for Haisute~ He also remembered me talking to him on his very first even in 2016. My request of telling him to go to the Philippines because he has a lot of fans here has come true. That time, he told he that he wants to. ;A; (Yep, I lined up more than once for the high touch event, thanks to some people! You know who you are! <3 No regrets lining up for 3 hours for the goods and getting so hungry just before the talk panel.)
I hope you enjoy this fan report! I tried to be as detailed as possible, so please direct people here instead of lifting/reposting them. 
Again, my ko-fi account is also open for coffee donations! Thank you! 
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Hey guys! It’s been what? 3 years since the last time I wrote here on my blog and I just want to say that there’s a lot of things that changed.
And I am happy to announce here that I am now a MOM! Yaaaay! (Well this is no longer a secret lol.) So yes, you read it right. I am officially a mom of a soon to be 3 year old boy.
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It’s been a three year tough battles for me. I’ve been challenged, been through a lot of breakdowns, and heart breaks, but I think I’ve done quite a good job for staying alive. LOL. I’ve always questioned why the world is punishing me for having this kind of situation. And I actually read on my last blog here which is the Life Sentiment and its funny because I mentioned there that I’ve been worrying a lot of things from my family to my career.. and unfortunately for me it all happened one by one. Like my world collapsed slowly and torturing me until these days.
Surprisingly, I remember this one topic that our Pastor preaches on us, that WORRY is a sin. That time, I didn’t really attentively listen to the preaching but that phrase “worry is a sin” remained on my mind. And every time that I worry that phrase always pops on my head. And so, I tried to search about why is worrying or anxiety is a sin. It says on the internet that it is a sin because it’s a sign of our failure to trust God and His goodness or to believe what He told us, and that is actually true.
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Since I’ve been such a worrier.. like what I said on my last blog about my career, that I don’t really know what I want and that I feel like my parents aren’t proud of me. I end up getting pregnant which is unplanned obviously, then I quit my job basically because I don’t want my co-workers to know that I am pregnant since I’m new to the company and they know that I’m single that time, so I don’t want to be the talk of the town. My career life on that company was getting better and they even told me that they see some potential in me and that they’re sad that I’m leaving. I wanted to stay but my tummy is getting bigger and the environment that I’m living is not really healthy for the baby. I live nearby my workplace which is walking distance. I just have to climb up the overpass every freaking day! I think its 20 steps up, and 20 steps down which is very tiring for a pregnant woman like me. Plus the overpass has no cover or roof so every day you have to bring umbrella for my sun protection, and it gets worse when it’s raining. The area is okay if you’re not very sensitive with the noise of the cars and jeeps and air pollution, and then the townhouse which is owned by the company that I’m working is rent free but we have to pay the electric and water bills dividing it with all the employees who live there. And since there’s different people live in one house everything is pretty dirty especially the kitchen part. Like there’s a lot of crawling cockroaches everywhere and I hate them so much. That’s why I can’t really cook so I end up buying food outside and I don’t want to eat Jollibee, Chowking, Mcdo or KFC every day! That’s why I had to quit my job because I’m not gonna take good care of myself and my baby if I stayed there.
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And so I stopped working and stayed at home and grow my belly. Then I gave birth and became a mom (I’m going to make another blog for this topic.) I only went back to work last year but its only a sub-contract so I only work for 2 months at a construction site, in charge with the performance of the laborers. Basically monitoring to see what they’ve done for the day and its pretty boring and not very challenging, although it’s a good pay haha. 
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Then after that I started freelancing, doing plans and designs with random clients. But the downside of this is you gotta have a lot of connection to grow your business and I don’t have that. I don’t really sell out my work stuff, although I post it on my facebook but I’m really not saying that they should hire or something. I just post it for my friends to know that I can design houses haha but not really confident if my design is good. That’s why I posted it online in essence of validation I guess haha because I’ve always doubted myself, my capability, my skills. Like sometimes I feel like everything I do is not good enough unless I hear it on someone that I did great or a good job and that’s the only time that I am going to feel relieved. So after my last project, that’s when I tried selling out my works but I had a hard time getting another client so I started looking for a job from here and there. 
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I did a few job interviews in Makati but sad to say I didn’t hear anything from them and I feel like I’m such a failure for not fitting the qualification that they’re looking for. I even tried applying in an airline since that’s what I really want to do, to travel the world, and I still didn’t get it.
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I am completely losing my patience and hope of finding a job by the end of this year. And then after 5 months of searching, I think I’m finally getting back on my feet and I’m gonna reveal that to you guys soon when it’s really sure haha.
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I’m happy with what’s going on with my life now. Its not that stable yet but its getting there. I don’t want to expect too much but I always have my hopes up and faith to God. This time, I will always entrust everything to God. I am going to stop worrying now, instead I will pray and just think positive. If something fails I will just think that it happens for a reason, that its not for me, and that God has bigger plans for me. I always say that to myself to keep me motivated to be the best person possibly for my family and my son. Time will come that I’m going to be able to give back to my parents, and to provide a good life for my son.
For the past 3 years that passed, all that struggles and challenges that I’ve been through just made me a strong person today and shape me into something better. Being in the midst of it is pretty painful but looking back at it taught me an important lesson that struggles in life doesn’t have to be my downfall. I just got to accept it and let if become my strength. No matter how hard life is, don’t lose hope.
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p0cketdiary-blog · 4 years
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My concert experience! [Pt. 2]
Oh hi there~!! 🤓
Now that the previous post on how I reacted when I found out about the tour dates announcement, is out of the way!! We will now very quickly fast forward >> to the whole ticketing shebang!! The ticketing day was announced to be on the 27th of October, a Saturday at 10AM. Thankfully (and surprisingly!!) my tutorial class was cancelled that day - hence I got to stay home to try and make sure I SNATCH those tickets. In all honesty, I can’t imagine being stuck in class, attempting to load the ticketing site with UBD’s amazing WiFi speed. That would’ve been a nightmare, I’m sure. Right?
I was already camping out on the site 24 hours prior to the ticket sales (although it made no difference, honestly), as there were no pre-sale benefits this time around unlike 4 years ago (the first time ever, for BTS to hold a solo concert in Singapore - when I wasn’t a fan then). It was such a bummer without pre-sale benefits, because we had to compete with 55k ARMYs all across the globe (with better WiFi connection than I do) trying to get their tickets.
And not to mention, the Singaporean local ARMYs who were very, VERY, V E R Y! competitive, as many were already lining up (overnight) physically at the box office - which was normal, for them. Some even had their maids to help them queue to act as a placeholder, so they did not have to be there overnight or simply because they are in school. These are all really mind-blowing tactics (to me), considering that I would be too lazy to do the same (lol).
I had also kept in mind a few tips and tricks to help with ticketing based on my previous experience in purchasing tickets for shows in Singapore. One being, having more than 1 device ready - if possible and another would be to patiently wait while in the virtual queuing/waiting room. And to, NEVER EVER refresh the site if it appears to be frozen. Those were really great tips, but everything still depended on my luck - honestly.
The greatest tip of all is to get your family and friends (they come in handy, at times like these!) to be on the ticketing site using their own devices alongside you, so that whoever leaves the waiting room first and enter the “choose your ticket” page can get your choice of tickets instantly. I have summoned both my sister and my cousin who would also be attending the concert with me, to be on their devices too. In short, the more devices, the safer!
With that said, my sister and I was up the entire night or morning rather. We did not sleep a wink and got into the virtual queue since 2AM, just slowly waiting for the time to roll past (it did not matter at all, that we were early). My cousin on the other hand, only managed to get to my place at 8:30AM. We were “lowkey” panicking when she arrived later than what we planned for. But, everything worked out in the end, eventually! The clock finally strikes 10, and we were sweating cold sweat. The whole waiting process was nerve-wrecking! Minutes went by, and we were already seeing our mutual friends getting their tickets from queuing physically. As well as, friends who got into the ticketing page after being in the virtual room for only 5-10 minutes. At that moment, I was feeling a bit sad - considering that BTS is the K-Pop group that can sell out in a matter of minutes!! But, we knew that the Singapore National Stadium has a capacity of over 50k people. Hence, we had (the slightest) hope that it will surely take longer for all 50k-ish tickets to sell out - completely. Then again, the ticket base that we are aiming for are the most popular among the other ARMYs. So, we were praying really HARD. And had to decide on a backup in case we do not get what we initially planned on getting.
Almost an hour has passed and we none of our devices were out of the waiting room. At this point, our parents were asking if we got tickets already (they asked twice) - sadly, both times we were still with no tickets. And, I was already announcing to the world at 11:45AM (a.k.a on my Twitter page) that, I will not be seeing them - and I feel sorry, period. I honestly lost all hope as all 5 of my devices were stuck in the waiting room. What’s worst was that my other cousin had already purchased hers, and it loaded within 45 minutes.
I thought to myself that, we shouldn't have any more high hopes and we saw that the category that we wanted to go for were sold out already. Thankfully we heard from our friends who just checked out that our backup category were still on-sale. And so, the waiting game, CONTINUES. I was losing my patience and I was not that hyped about it anymore (lol).
Until FINALLY (11:50AM, only 5 minutes after my devastating tweet)!! My cousin’s page on her laptop started to refresh. We were not paying attention or thinking much of it, at that point. We thought it could be the waiting room moving us up the queue. But to our surprise, we are finally out of the hell room and managed to get to the seat plan - in which we get to choose what category to get. 
Our initial choice was the highest category (CAT 1, Yellow 2, standing), but indeed, it was sold out by the time the site wanted to cooperate. So, we opted for CAT 2, Red 2 (shown in the picture below) also standing. We were over the moon when the transaction finally went through, and quickly decided to get to the nearest Jollibee to feast! As we had not eaten since before the ticketing war begun. 2 hours of stress and panic, just to see our boys.
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Photo: oneproductionsg (Twitter) // One Production.
Another thing to note was, every standing ticket will be assigned a random queue number. And, our luck really gave queue number 5337 to 5339. It was also a shock to me, considering we will be queuing with 5336 other ARMYs ahead of us. I also saw that the earliest queue numbers were given to those who physically queued for tickets at the box office. So, it was impossible for us to get them, buying through online.
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And that, my friends, was how ticketing went for me. I honestly have never experienced that much stress and anxiety in 20 years of my life - until that day. That was also when I realized that: BTS and ARMYs do not come to play!
Look forward to read the more exciting bit of my concert experience, in the next post!! See you~
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heathenical · 4 years
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archive: moving on update diary...?
10-7-18
dear ana,
i’m pretty sure you don’t open this blog anymore. maybe you even forgot about it. and so, i decided to make this my personal moving on update diary? you get the point. this is where i’ll rant because i’m hoping maybe, just maybe, you still care. like you know, the way you did before. the way we were before.
today, i cut classes. believe it or not. but before you judge me, don’t worry, i’ve done this before. i figured that i need these alone times sometimes. i don’t go to school which means i’m free from stress (for now, i’ll probably regret it later when i need to pass all the shit i’ve missed), and i’m also not home which means i’m disconnected from the internet. my daily allowance is P150, going here (in this computer shop in jordan) takes P40 away from me, then i need to go to jollibee to change clothes but also, i need to buy some food there before i start barging inside their comfort room, in this case i bought coffee float for P55, which leaves me with P55 in my pocket for the next… 7-8 hours inside 7/11. i always come back here for no reason, which is weird. maybe my mind felt like there’s some unfinished business here, or maybe i just have an indestructible bond with this place.
also, catastrophe has no freaking idea that i’m here today so there’s that. with no phone, i simply am… alone. and yes, that’s fine.
to officially start this entry, i want to say that i am so fucking regretful. deep inside, i really hate that i even transferred to this school. i mean, yes, this school. if i studied at mapua, i know i’d be happy. if i stayed, maybe i’ll never be contented but hey, at least my friends are going to be by my side. although it also meant i’d have to see you and your boyfriend everyday. which at first will be a nightmare, lol no, it will always be a nightmare.
there is one thing that’s starting to change. i have a girl. i told you that already right? but here’s the thing, i’m so scared that i’m being too naive or desperate or shit. i don’t want to lose or hurt her, but look at me, i’m writing a letter for you. it seems like even if i try to forget about you, i can’t. and i hate that i’m only giving her half the attention she deserves, because i’m distracted.
is this my fault? all of the people i loved, all these relationships i’m trying to have are failing, always failing. first kenneth, which i totally just didn’t even give a single fuck about. second’s lance, which i gave all my fucks to but was left hanging. erl, who i thought i loved but i actually didn’t and i was being delusional thinking i was over you. and you, the most hopeless one because you’re straight. everything failed. i always end up with half my heart broken and the other half completely hollow.
i’ve been in this 7/11 for an hour. keep track.
i haven’t talked to you personally so i have no idea if i have any progress with this moving on shit. but if you’re ever wondering how i am, i’m most definitely not fine.
an update with my vices!
i don’t drink anymore, for like 4 months! that is a record. i do smoke, like a lot, since it’s easier to buy and consume. i have been addicted to LoL and i went back to (drum roll, please) cutting myself! that’s right. i also don’t visit my psychiatrist anymore because i’ve fully convinced my mom that i am a-okay. so there you have it, folks! a smoking gamer with wounded hands.
i miss you, and honestly, i regret that i even had feelings for you. maybe deep inside, i really just want my friend back. and it hurts. i lost you, and not only you, but erl, my friends’ company, even the teachers i cared for. i feel so done in this journey. i feel so fucking sad. and i’m slowly forgetting my dreams and goals, my purpose.
i think that my life shouldn’t be like this. it’s not like me to cut classes, or not to care about my studies. i used to have dreams. maybe my mistake has that all the people i mentioned here were a part of my dreams, leaving you all means i also left my purpose.
so tell me, how do i retrieve myself from the darkness around me?
your old friend,
hannah
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the-ana-phase · 6 years
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moving on update diary...?
dear ana,
i’m pretty sure you don’t open this blog anymore. maybe you even forgot about it. and so, i decided to make this my personal moving on update diary? you get the point. this is where i’ll rant because i’m hoping maybe, just maybe, you still care. like you know, the way you did before. the way we were before.
today, i cut classes. believe it or not. but before you judge me, don’t worry, i’ve done this before. i figured that i need these alone times sometimes. i don’t go to school which means i’m free from stress (for now, i’ll probably regret it later when i need to pass all the shit i’ve missed), and i’m also not home which means i’m disconnected from the internet. my daily allowance is P150, going here (in this computer shop in jordan) takes P40 away from me, then i need to go to jollibee to change clothes but also, i need to buy some food there before i start barging inside their comfort room, in this case i bought coffee float for P55, which leaves me with P55 in my pocket for the next... 7-8 hours inside 7/11. i always come back here for no reason, which is weird. maybe my mind felt like there’s some unfinished business here, or maybe i just have an indestructible bond with this place.
also, catastrophe has no freaking idea that i’m here today so there’s that. with no phone, i simply am... alone. and yes, that’s fine.
to officially start this entry, i want to say that i am so fucking regretful. deep inside, i really hate that i even transferred to this school. i mean, yes, this school. if i studied at mapua, i know i’d be happy. if i stayed, maybe i’ll never be contented but hey, at least my friends are going to be by my side. although it also meant i’d have to see you and your boyfriend everyday. which at first will be a nightmare, lol no, it will always be a nightmare.
there is one thing that’s starting to change. i have a girl. i told you that already right? but here’s the thing, i’m so scared that i’m being too naive or desperate or shit. i don’t want to lose or hurt her, but look at me, i’m writing a letter for you. it seems like even if i try to forget about you, i can’t. and i hate that i’m only giving her half the attention she deserves, because i’m distracted.
is this my fault? all of the people i loved, all these relationships i’m trying to have are failing, always failing. first kenneth, which i totally just didn’t even give a single fuck about. second’s lance, which i gave all my fucks to but was left hanging. erl, who i thought i loved but i actually didn’t and i was being delusional thinking i was over you. and you, the most hopeless one because you’re straight. everything failed. i always end up with half my heart broken and the other half completely hollow.
i’ve been in this 7/11 for an hour. keep track.
i haven’t talked to you personally so i have no idea if i have any progress with this moving on shit. but if you’re ever wondering how i am, i’m most definitely not fine.
an update with my vices!
i don’t drink anymore, for like 4 months! that is a record. i do smoke, like a lot, since it’s easier to buy and consume. i have been addicted to LoL and i went back to (drum roll, please) cutting myself! that’s right. i also don’t visit my psychiatrist anymore because i’ve fully convinced my mom that i am a-okay. so there you have it, folks! a smoking gamer with wounded hands.
i miss you, and honestly, i regret that i even had feelings for you. maybe deep inside, i really just want my friend back. and it hurts. i lost you, and not only you, but erl, my friends’ company, even the teachers i cared for. i feel so done in this journey. i feel so fucking sad. and i’m slowly forgetting my dreams and goals, my purpose.
i think that my life shouldn’t be like this. it’s not like me to cut classes, or not to care about my studies. i used to have dreams. maybe my mistake has that all the people i mentioned here were a part of my dreams, leaving you all means i also left my purpose.
so tell me, how do i retrieve myself from the darkness around me?
your old friend,
hannah
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