#house because i'm scared that i have this shit of the virus and infect them

[bunglecryptid]

Fuck a lot has been happening. My 19 month old nephew was in hospital with a virus and secondary infections and his parents were sick as anything too. Before that it was Covid hitting myself, my sister in law and my nephew.

Been working really hard on budgeting and paying off some debt, some was related to my doggo Bella and her cancer scare back in 2020 when I thought I might lose her (she turns 11 this month and is cancer free now 🥺).

Where I live is an acreage property that I grew up on, my parents have owned it since the early 80's and it's looking like they may finally be in talks to sell. And I'm happy for them, they absolutely deserve this and unfortunately the upkeep is too much etc. But of course it brings up all the shit about being the disabled "child" of theirs as an adult and relying on them heavily for emotional and physical support, as well as a place to live. I'm so so grateful that I have my own little house to live in with Bella surrounded by beautiful bushland and nature. It's the house I lived in til I was around 8 years old. My Dad built both houses.

This place is so special to me and has all my childhood memories. Collectively over the years I've lived here for 31 out of 35 years. Moved back here when my relationship fell apart with my ex and I was homeless and heartbroken. Moved into this little house with my ex fiance til we separated. My family dog Jack is buried here too. And my rats Horus, Apophis, Atlas, Nova and Bender. My guinea pigs Benny and Dimitrius. Anyway, that was a rant out of no where...

Oh. Yes. This started because I was rudely awoken at 5am this morning to the worst stomach pain. Fucking bad diarrhoea in 8° C weather is bullshit.

Here's a video of me slowly dying inside at 6am and the puttering sound of my fan heater. "Try again", it says. Look, I've tried a few times now, can I please just get it right for once? Thanks.

Anyway, if you read this far, congratulations and sorry lol.

#personal #rant #feelings

[sarcasticlilkid]

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#i just wish i could hug my friends #i haven't seen them since september and i haven't seen my best friend since july and it is so fucking hard #i go to work and once a week or maybe once in two weeks i visit my grandparents just to see how they are doing and i don't go even in their #house because i'm scared that i have this shit of the virus and infect them #honestly at this point i'm so feed up with everything #i want to go back to uni and i've never thought that something like this will ever happen #personal #i just want life to be normal again #i'm sick of worrying what if i'm asymptomatic and i'll infect my parents ugh

[masonjarsmoments]

I didn't really know who to send this to but I'm really worried about Lando. That boy is all alone in that big house and people have been really shitty to him. I really hope he has some people he can talk to because I just want him to be happy

Believe me anon I am as worried about him as you are. He's alone in this house for month's now, just leaves it for some training. That cannot be good for him. Yes he is also more on the introverted side but even I would go crazy if I would live like that. I think he is talking and video chatting with Jon on a daily basis because of his training and Jon is also the one who manages his groceries (at least I think so because Lando gets his food delivered and premade) so that's already a good thing. And it's also good that he seems to have a lot of contact with Max and the other boys. I assume he talks to some of them when they don't stream together aswell.

The thing I don't understand is why he still stays alone at home even though he was tested negative and it's been weeks already, like why can't Jon move in with him like all the other trainer's do ? And why couldn't he go to his parents after the critical time was over. I can understand that he might be scared to infect someone but there is no chance he got the virus. Yes there is the chance that he is more scared about getting it himself but I don't think being all on his own is the best thing in this situation then..

And then there is also the fact that his streams clearly frustrate him, at least the racing streams because off all the technical issues and mean comment and I just hope he will have a break from that and just for once gives a shit about what others expect of him. Lando is a people pleaser we all know that but he has to look after himself aswell..

I just hope this will be over soon or at least good enough so he can get back to a more normal daily life where he can meet other people, maybe they really can race in July again and he feels better. Maybe we are worried for nothing and he handles everything just well but who knows.

#sorry this got longer as i intended to #i am just worried and think about this a lot #i just want him to be alright and happy #lando Norris #f1

[whimsically-ominously-auspice]

I think often about what the last thing I say to some one before i die.

I don't know when ill die. If i make it home from the store.

So I tell my kid "I love you" every time and usually at our house some nonsense piece of advice so she knows i care

.....

Kelly Ripa decided to stop talking to her kids because they womt hug her. What if she died tomorrow? She wants them to know their mom hated them because they wouldn't hug her? Because she wouldn't compromise. She's being childish. She's the adult. "Okay i realize you're at the age where hugging mom sucks and you're using this opportunity and taking advantage and i know you're exploiting it in a way that is hurtful to my feelings as a mom. And it is unnecessary. So let's find a decent ground. So now er have to have movie nights 3 times a week. Quit your jobs if you have to. But we're all gonna sit in the same room and watch the same tv and be together. No touching. Because i love you. You're my kids and thr most important thing to me" instead she's a childish cunt ass bitch.

Instead she may die tomorrow and purposely leave her children in a gutter of guilt and hate. That's disgusting Kelly Ripa.

Your children are the age where they can say they do not want to be touched. You need to fucking respect that. It took Quarentine for them to tell you? What do you do on Your daily alcoholic binges that makes them feel your touch is undignified?

You beat them? Scream? They are probably the most thankful kids in the world that you finally shut up.

Don't think tree ain't telling on you because he is.

......

Now we Don't know what will happen ever.

What is dying with people? Old and children?

Knowledge. Information. Wisdom.

Old stories. Recipes.

Y'all going to the hospital -- you're missing out on the World's Greatest Gift -- you.

You're taking that from your kids and your great grandkids and your parents

Because you're scared. Because you're scared of the Great Unknown.

Stop.

You know what the best medicine in the world is besides love?

Laughter. Y'all saw my xrays of the cancer in my lungs? Laughing makes me cough and miserable.

But you know what? I wouldn't trade those moments for anything.

And y'all purposely going to ICU. Where no one can hear your voice.

Can't hear you plan your own funeral.

Sing your favorite song. Or at least play it on the phones.

Can't hear you say"no girl i said "corn flour! That is corn starch!!" Watch you look at the can and then put it in anyway and hear you laugh behind them because you dam dumb.

"Oh!!" And watch you luckily be able to scoop it all or most out Or tell you what corn starch is. And why you put it is soup to make it thicker instead of flour. Then realize "dam you didn't do it wrong at all! Girl you are dam smart! Im sorry honey i still love ya! I'd still love you even if yoh ruined dinner!

That is what the world is missing out on.

This Quarentine bull shit. This lock them in the room like cages.

I'll go along with you call them all evil cause some really are.

But there comes a time that changes.

Our world don't stand still. It rotates on its axis every 24 hours we do a full blown spin.

The world don't slow down for nobody.

That's the truth.

Im not saying stop. The world don't stop for nobody either.

What I'm saying is play it smart.

You get a pilot with COVID-19 or someone immune to it. Dam go jump from the plane. Go bungee jumping.

If you're immune you're immune. Period.

The problem is Corona Virus. But if you are happy and having fun and your life is lit up how are you gonna get sick?

I am an immonology expert believe it or not. If you got a build up of happiness you're immunity is higher than others

Mine is not. I am not happy. I'd die on pneumonia in 5 seconds. That is why I already had the Corona Virus. You only get it once. So I am immune to both. And DNA4U will tell me that.

So i can bust all in a room of sick ass mother fuckers and be just fine. I can (slow) dance (for hours if I'm drunk) provided my back and hips don't eject me.

I can press my painful hip against a sick ass mother fucker's leg about to die in 2 hours to help me deal with my pain and let them die dancing in my arms.

Isn't that how you would rather die than hooked up to a machine alone, mute and unable to communicate?

Ventilators. Its a tube that goes in your mouth and down your throat. It can cause an even worse infection. And you can't talk. You can't breathe on your own. And it forces you to sleep because it's so much pressure you can't control your own breathing. Its one of the worst ways to live. And one of the worst ways to die. I've done both.

I'm not from some place higher than the rest of you.

Experience wise i am. Immunity for this particular thing i am.

Right now Marc Antony took all the cancer in my ribs and dropped it down to my hip. And it feels like a femur bone top. And it hurts like Hell. Mostly because I messed with it and i broke half it... Dude... It felt like a bone i didn't think it would. Every time i get up and walk it hurts. I have a fever now.

So y'all I'm not all I'm immune and better than you.

I almost fainted in the store today. I could cracked my head open and died. Dude i didn't expect that. I didn't feel fine but i thought it was stress not a health problem.

I don't know when I'll die. But i am told i will.

I was told in 2 weeks. But who knows. I don't.

So I'm not different than anyone else with COVID-19.

But i sure as Hell ain't going to the hospital to do it.

Not because they will probably kill me faster. And not because i don't respect them.

I really respect and love and treasure my personal doctors.

That's just not where I wanna be. Spending weeks and months in a hospital...

No.

I'm not wrong.

And I'm not wrong about the rest of the world being better together in a community center to die while dancing. Or playing volleyball.

Or anything... Chasing each other with cap guns. Whatever.

Playing chess and checkers or BINGO.

The governments have it wrong.

The rest of us have it right

#WeThePeople