#how are we supposed to root for anyone besides Eddie when you write scenarios like this

[ktinastrikesback]

In "Buck Begins," young Buck takes note of how his parents give him attention only when he's hurt and they're worried. He's the "daredevil that he is" because Evan sees that putting himself in danger equals being seen and getting the affection he craves. Adult Buck is aware of how toxic this is and supposedly is working on it in therapy and through talking with his parents.

But then....in "Survivors," Buck puts himself in danger once again, and it's only after taking this risk that Taylor gives him the (romantic) attention he's been seeking from her. Taylor only pursues Buck and takes him out of the friend zone after he's put his life at risk and caused her to worry. And despite whatever progress he's made in therapy, this action must reaffirm his old belief that hurt = affection. (I just know Dr. Copeland is cringing.) It's a terrible way to begin a relationship in general, but for Buck? It's especially not good.

And yet....in the same episode, you have Eddie hear Buck vocalize that he wishes he'd been the one to get shot, and Eddie makes the decision to share with Buck about the change of his will. The important difference here is that Eddie made this change a year ago. Putting Buck in his will as the sole person to be responsible for his son, his heart, his entire world is a huge display of affection, regardless of what their relationship is to each other at this point (platonic or romantic). Eddie made this decision a year ago, on his own, never said anything. To receive this gift, this huge display of trust and love, Buck didn't have to do anything except be himself. Eddie didn't make this choice because Buck got hurt. In fact, it emphasizes that he wishes the complete opposite of Buck getting hurt. Isn't the difference so clear? The contrast of Taylor kissing Buck after his stunt versus Eddie's confession of how important Buck is (and has been) to him? Eddie's love for Buck is everything Buck wants and deserves; it's proof that someone can love him for who he is, that he is enough and that putting himself in danger does not have to be the prerequisite for receiving love and affection.

#911 on fox #evan buckley #evan buck buckley #eddie diaz #buddie #911onfox #911 #no hate on Taylor #the writers just really made a choice here #they keep writing themselves into a corner #i just want to sit down and ask them several questions bc really? #how are we supposed to root for anyone besides Eddie when you write scenarios like this #buddie canon s5 idc