#how come I’m this lonely

[sciderman]

You said that if you dated Peter or Wade it would make you miserable. Which– Okay fair, Wade does have a history of purposely hurting the people he loves.

But what about Peter? Why do you think dating him would make you miserable?

because I’ll always know I had the option to climb a 6’8 cyborg and I passed that up for a sweaty little twunk that I perpetually have to remind to bathe (sorry peter)

#I don’t know. I don’t think peter is good boyfriend material. I think his insecurities would get exhausting. #Wade has bottomless patience. me… I don’t know. I don’t think I could. I’ve got my own stuff going on. I don’t want a Project. #peter is definitely a project. and he needs someone with shed loads of patience and perseverance. #me I just. I wanna have a good time. so. come to me my big beautiful time traveller. whisk me away. #take me to the beach. you can disappear after I don’t mind I’m not needy. just spend a beautiful romantic week with me. #sci speaks #I don’t really know what kind of person I’m compatible with really actually. #all my relationships have been. pretty short. #and I don’t think it’s any fault of my own really. and I don’t feel any loss over them at all. like at all. I wish I did. but I don’t. #a sci has so very thankfully never felt heartbreak. #but it makes me kind of question what kind of person I am when it comes to this sort of thing. #because I really don’t know. #I don’t know if I want commitment. I don’t even know if I want sex these days. #I … weirdly… am so devoid of yearning these days. like I feel content right now on my own. I don’t even feel lonely. #I used to yearn but I think I’ve moved past it. and I kind of just want to have a good time. #and that doesn’t even . involve a relationship or anything anymore. like I don’t think I want one actually. it feels like I’m Over it. #it’s kind of great because I’ve never felt so calm in a long time. all because I decided that I don’t. actually Need anything. #I don’t need anything more than what I have. and that’s brought me rest after So Long being restless. #but if a massive time traveller came and whisked me away on sexy adventures how could I say no

[mochiwrites]

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#delete later #hi I need to scream into the void again #that ask couldn’t have come at a worse time jfc #I am. tired man #socialization is hard #burnout is kicking my ass #I can’t connect with people #at this point I just want to waddle around to different friend groups and ask to be adopted /srs #but I would feel guilty if I did so I just don’t #but I really want to #would anyone even want to drag me into their group #;-; #between the month I’ve had and the day today has been #and that ask I’m just #*lays on the floor* #I want to stop existing thanks #I’m sad and lonely and no matter how hard I try to fix that nothing works #I’m so close to just giving up man #2024 has been pure shit so far #and I hate it

[tadpolebobatea]

I haven’t drawn a mermaid since like…2020. This was delightful.

Why does this drawing exist? Well because I thought mermaid tella would be cute and I thought “I should write a fic”. Then I remembered I can’t write, so I made this instead

As mentioned I can’t write so I’ll just dump the headcanon things I had here

Tella can’t talk, he whistles and clicks like a dolphin but billy is teaching him morse code as a means of communication.

Billy is an ex-pirate who lives by the beach with Tatiana. I had the silly concept of billy wearing two eye patches as a pirate, just to screw with people and hopefully throw them off with the “ he definitely can’t see me” thing (which tbf he can’t )

I had 2 separate first meeting things, one is Tella singing and billy getting distracted and falling off a boat and tella dragging him out of the water to stop him drowning and the other is Billy coming across an injured mermaid and going from there. I like to think wound treating is a big deal to merfolk since being injured is basically a death sentence as a fish so having someone help with that is … important.

Tella isn’t a name, I like to think it’s a translation thing, mer don’t have conventional names epithets are more common. Tella doesn’t sing due to… tragic reasons I haven’t fleshed out yet… so they refer to him as “one who speaks “ or something like that, which billy interprets as teller (Tella).

Like

Billy : you got a name ?

Tella : * incomprehensible chirping noises *

Billy : I don’t have the equipment to pronounce that, got anything else?

Tella: <it more or less means speaker >

Billy : tella then B)

#uu tella #uu billy #billytella #undead unluck spoilers #I’m not sure how well it comes across but tellas ear fins are meant to look like unders logo #all mermaids need sharp teeth. if you eat live fish you need that sort of thing #I might still write the fic. ao3 is so small and lonely #my art <3 #undead unluck

[heir-of-the-chair]

You know, when they said “you never stop learning things about yourself” I don’t think they meant five consecutive years of having a new identity crisis.

#sophomore year of high school: am I queer/aroace? yes #junior year of high school: am I trans? yes #senior year: am I autistic? almost certainly yes (that’s just me having imposter syndrome it’s definitely a yes) #last year: not questioning anything just coming to terms with being physically disabled #and now my friends are saying I have hpd and I’m like hey just because I maybe (the wording is vague and I’m autistic and I hate it) fit the #diagnostic criteria doesn’t mean I HAVE IT #it’s vague and idk how much I relate to it but I relate to a decent amount of it very strongly #but like I wasn’t even neglected as a child (that sentence really says volumes abt my friend group) I have other family issues but idk how #that would be related to attention seeking like is it really just all bc I was just a really lonely child? #like I was an only child with autism and adhd and I didn’t have a friend group I felt truly secure until fifth grade after which we all went #to different middle schools and then it wasn’t until like sophomore year of high school okay maybe this is worse than I thought saying it #out loud… #I know I have anxious attachment #I know I very much have that #but like. #I’m just a theater kid it’s fi- *sounds of me being hit with a pillow by my friends* #yeah #this is kind of a vent atp #autism #neurodivergent #disability #yeh #the heir speaks

[sakura-code]

Brainrot 2

Imagine if in-game, Yuma didn’t lose his memories and was rather pretending to be just another Master Detective among the WDO under his real name.

#master detective archives: rain code #rain code #master detective archives spoilers #rain code spoilers #yuma kokohead #imagine seeing apathetic and lone wolf Number One among the Detective Agency #trying to be cool and dependable #only to be anxious and awkward when it comes to actual social interactions #no matter how much trouble his attitude cause #the Agency isn’t going to leave him behind #they stick together like glue and pull him right back to their group #it be the first time in a long time he experience such love and kindness and be treated as a person rather than just a master detective #nocturnal detective agency #nocturnal detective family #I’m in a nocturnal detective family mood #sorry Shinigami #but this is an idea I have to explore without you #oh to explain the Number One identity thing #the WDO detectives would know Number One is someone among their ranks but they don’t know who it is #basically they are hiding their ranking with a different one #sakura code brainrot #brainrot

[poirot]

anyone here read agatha christie and wants to let me know what they thought about ‚a haunting in venice‘ (or any of the other kenneth branagh christie adaptions)

#because like #i don’t really like them #but I feel like I’m on a lonely island with this opinion LOL #especially when it comes to haunting in Venice #but maybe I just feel like this because.. #.. I literally know no one who reads christie #and I feel like the movies can be quiet entertaining when you did not read christie #i just hate branaghs version of poirot tbh ahsjd #i feel like he had a deep misunderstanding of the character #same with ariadne oliver in a haunting in Venice #which is a shame because she is such a fun character #but then I mostly see positive opinions about the movie #and then I ask myself if I’m being nitpicky ahsjd #especially because complaining about bad christie adaptions is one of my favorite things LOL #i watched all the new bbc christie adaptions #which should tell you how much I like to suffer ahsjd #shut up sabrina #Agatha christie

[et-in-arkadia]

to everyone suggesting i write the dreamling scene hinted at in my last fic where hob gets to meet all 8 of the different dreams from across the centuries at once and they all want him, i see you and i love you and you’re incredibly valid and i’m thinking about it

#it’s just like #we have posh prince 1389 dream #curious growing more interested 1489 dream #‘i’m going to pick up this twink william shakespeare because hob had the audacity to get married’ 1589 dream #surpringly emo teary-eyed soft 1689 dream #‘you need not have come to my defense but now i absolutely want to eat you alive’ 1789 dream #sad lonely goth boy who is slowly unbending until he panics and defaults into prickly pissy bitch mode 1889 dream #trapped naked in a fishbowl mournfully missing their meeting and thinking about how hob will think he’s been stood up 1989 dream #‘it’s called character development sweetie’ evolved in touch with his emotions and ready to fuck present day dream #just so many possibilities #the sandman #dreamling

[zenmom]

Made a joke about that my drawing’s quality is awful without the ipencil. Made a funnier short story in the @thebackupdetectives’ world where my ipencil is stolen from my house in this town where the story takes place and everything went from well drawn to looking like everything was drawn from a kid’s finger lol.

Sad part is that I used to work as some sort of secretary, maybeeee? Or a detective like them till it feels like I don’t belong in the group anymore (I feel soooo excluded that they seem to make their adventures and cases work most of the time without me) that I decided to quit and work with my sis at a restaurant. This information in this paragraph was from my side of this wonderful au by skullse-mi and I loved their little idea. Wonder if the main four felt bad for my departure from this job.

Imagine the ipencil somehow had magic got put in by a villian who then proceeds to mess with its power which they took from my secret magic stash.

#zenmom #the backup detectives #oswald the lucky rabbit #mickey mouse #donald duck #no matter how hard I try to make friends. it’s often that they already had friends on their plate or something. #I guess I’m doomed to be lonely 🥲💀 #of course I won’t right their world if that ipencil somehow had magic put in and be messed with by a villian who got my magic stash #cuz sometimes I’m sick of being the hero or nice person as not much rewards come out of it #that would be a while till I want to put their world right how it should be #I’m joking to myself about my art quality with finger vs ipencil🥲 #it’s actually 6 months

[foofygoldfish]

hi this is idk me being vulnerable or whatever

but uh if anyone ever wants to chat or like… discord or whatever? I’d like that?

#mariahs rambles #I’m lonely as shit #I don’t want to talk about bg3 I think that game is shit for reasons I won’t get into lmao #but like. I’m still here. just at the “rewatch the entirety of greys anatomy” level of white girl depressdd #my contact stuff is all in my pinned post #I just can’t come back here it’s still the bad place #too many shitty toxic people #but idk how to make friends anymore so #idk #if someone wants to pity me #I know this will get ignored like always but #yeah #idk why I’m making this oh my god #fuck I’d even take a ‘here’s why everyone started ignoring you’ at this point #because I really do feel like I pissed someone off #…. this went for way longer than I thought it would apologies #tldr lonely as shit feel like I pissed someone off idk what’s going on

[astral-catastrophe]

Loosing my marbles and my mind and my shit and I am so done

#I’m being very normal #Aka the point in the depressive episode where death is preferable above all and I just can’t function unless in a specific situation #And I hate how as I get older the episodes get worse #Only reason I haven’t killed myself off yet is bc crush would be absolutely. Well. Crushed. #Just based off of how sad she was when I said I wouldn’t mind not wasting the money to go to the actual dance #“Nooo bc you have to come with meeee we gotta be gayyy. I’ll be so lonely without youuuu”/lh #I love her #so no death. Not for a while. Love her enough to not kill myself. Lovely. #Tw suicide

[workwort]

went for a walk by the river went to the bakery went to the library

#I feel like a ghost have I simply found a new place to be lonely? #I have this desire to be either totally alone or to be recognized warmly everywhere. I feel like I act awkwardly when it comes to #sharing physical space with strangers. how should I cross someone’s path to get by? how close is too close and not close enough? #I end up spending a lot of time on theoreticals. what if someone reacts in anger to my being in space? #just. a little full a little empty. is there love here or anywhere for me? surely I’m bad at seeking and finding it anyway. #thinking about all the social interactions I’ve fucked up. my inability to form or inhabit social circles. #my inability to be interconnected and maintain it. my inability to either be held or to hold. my blind ignorant heart. #I wish I could be the river #I want to have hope I want to belong I guess. my eggs are in this basket now I’ll give it at least a year #I financially don’t have a choice but to be here and I won’t think about that for now #lysposting

[dutybcrne]

Kaveh definitely wants at least one child of his own. Partially to continue his family line, partially bc he himself loves the idea of having a family of his own. He would however like to move out of Alhaitham’s place before he even dares consider getting a partner to begin with. And the longer he stays there, the more stress he feels thinking about it. He even has sketched out nursery ideas and plans on how to raise them all set to go, if only he'd get out of debt fast enough-

Furina also really wants to have a child of her own. She adores seeing the families around Fontaine, and has dreamed a great deal what parenthood would be like. Nothing brings her joy than when children about Fontaine invite her to join in on the little games they are playing, leaving her giddy and smiling bright as sunshine on her way home. Of course she knows that to be a parent, she really has to get her shit together. One can't just rear a child on macaroni and residual payments, after all.

#hc; kaveh #//Mans is stressing #//He’s like ‘I’m damn near pushing 30; I should have my life together by now aaAAAA’ #//Do like the idea of Haitham & Kaveh coparenting though #//Them raising a kid together; be it romantically/qp involved or just like #//Some Full House situation type beat lol #//Haitham does like helping kiddos learn after all. And it would make SO much a lot easier for Kav #//Kaveh would preferably want an even number of kids if he has a partner; so they don't ever feel lonely #//If it's just him & his kiddo; then yeah; he's a little more fine w only one. But he really wants them to have someone to fall back on jic #hc; furina #//She's had thoughts of having children of her own for damn near 500 years #//Which she knew would be Impossible; her role came first and foremost #//But now that she's free from that obligation; the thoughts came welling back up #//It's not entirely why she wants to stand on her own right and get better at so many things; but it is part of it #//She'd love the idea of having her own little family at last #//Though her Salon Solitaire buddies will have to do djbhgjfd #//She doesn't actually know how many she wants tho; maybe one if she's single; but whatever her partner is down for; she would be too #//She would be such a doting mom hjcbffg #//She genuinely wouldn't even mind not having a partner if it came down to it. She will most certainly be able to handle a kiddo on her own #//She thinks that; yet she also most certainly get overwhelmed Real quick at first #//Esp since she'd be such a sympathetic crier when it comes to her babu. & bc she already feels the urge to cry when frustrated #//But she would try her best #//Would absolutely consult with The Gals each and every time she needs anything #//Deffo would be the type to get matching outfits for her and her kid jffghh

[haunt4haunt]

matt murdock is like the one character i don’t want to see happy. i’m sorry. he’s so much funnier when he’s wallowing in misery

#everything about everything he does boils down to the fact that he’s an intensely sad rage filled lonely person #that’s how daredevil was born. that’s where his compassion for other people comes from #he got so angry that the system failed a little girl that he stalked her abuser and beat the shit out of him #he thrives off of anger. i’m sorry. i’m not sorry actually though #like is he also filled with so so much love and hope that it hurts. of course #but idk. idk. #dd #moss talks

[herawell]

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#negativity cw #24 hours ago my mom asked me to come home and wfh on Friday #to be there for my dad since since his dad/my grandfather just passed away #And he’s flying to India next week for the funeral #she said on the phone that it’s just the two of them at home with my younger sibs away at college and it’s lonely #And they keep bickering #And she said that with me there I bring light into the house #And I was basking in the glow of that compliment since yesterday evening #I drove up today from my city after work #And I’ve not even been home for two hours before a fight breaks out #And she’s yelling at me how nothing ja changed and I’m still irresponsible/uncommunicative/etc. and I’m sitting at the dinner table #With tears in my eyes #I miss my parents so much when I’m in my city where I live now #But every time I come home I am so so so so glad I don’t live here anymore #family cw

[goldenhypen]

whenever i see blogs in my notifs w a jake pfp, winwin, bang chan, mark, beomgyu pfp (the list could go on but i’m unloyal enough as it is T-T),, THE WAY IT FEELS LIKE JAKE WINWIN BANG CHAN ETC ARE ACTUALLY IN MY NOTIFS AND I GET SUPER EXCITED FOR A SEC or is that just me DJDND

#y’all jake winwin bang chan mark beomgyu ricky doyoung (treasure) jaemin haechan yunho sunwoo stans pls interact w me more #i need more friends who stan the same boys i like dkdndk #CUZ ACCORDING TO THE POLL I MADE TODAY THERE ARE SOOOO MANY JAKE STANS #but how come only like two ppl ik on here are jake stans 😭 #y’all i’ve been living a lonely life this whole time for no reason 😭 #em speaks #the way half the guys i named aren’t even my biases in those groups 😭 #i’m loyal i swEAR

[whimsycore]

I really hate making promises to kids that I can’t keep

#I visited some family yesterday and all the kids flocked to me and wouldn’t let me leave #because my mom told them we’d be back tonight one of them looked me in the eyes and said ‘please come tomorrow’ #and I’m gonna tear up because I know how lonely that kid feels #I hate not being able to be there more for these kids #I fucking hate thier parents and they live out of state #but I’d visit just to take care of them #one of them literally apparently always asks for me anywhere he goes