#how fandom says that people don't like 'messy trauma' but then disregard trauma that isn't loud

[simplepotatofarmer]

actually, i have something to say, apologies in advance.

i don't doubt that being killed by c!techno was traumatizing to c!quackity. i don't. there is no 'but' to that statement and i wanted to make that clear before i say what i want to.

what strikes me about that situation is techno was at the theoretical disadvantage. he had iron armor and a pickaxe. quackity had full netherite and an axe. on top of that, it only happened because quackity planned to kill techno, brought him to new l'manberg to be executed, something that techno only survived due to the totem of undying.

in this situation, quackity was the aggressor. techno was the one that had been hunted down.

so the irony of what happened in the prison is this: once again, quackity is in full netherite and this time techno is completely unarmed. quackity is the aggressor - he tricked techno into coming to the prison and trapped him there - once again.

quackity can be traumatized by and want revenge on techno. those feelings are valid.

what's also valid is the fact techno has been the victim of quackity twice. and as someone whose trauma response mirrors the way techno acts - jumpy and paranoid, minimizes situations, tries to deflect or act unbothered - i think it's important to acknowledge that.

#i keep thinking about trauma responses and fandom's reactions to them. #like how silence is apparently a measure of guilt and not someone trying not anger their abuser #how fandom says that people don't like 'messy trauma' but then disregard trauma that isn't loud #trauma can be quiet. trauma can be anger. trauma can be trying to make people laugh because god. #you just want to think about anything else and if people are laughing. if they think you're not hurt. you're safer. #it took me years to have my cptsd diagnosed and months to believe i have it because i never considered myself traumatized. #i was too quiet. too laidback. too quick to smile to be a victim. #and when things got worse i was too angry. too irritable and moody to be a victim. #abuse cw #technoblade #dream smp #fandom critical