going over old fic notes and outlines and character talks with friends and it's always really funny when i get to the stuff i was developing early-mid 2019 where bill just literally kept kryptos around to rag on, and he genuinely just. did not like the man. like was just completely annoyed with his general existence. boy have things changed
life is so crazy sometimes you meet a couple that you love so much and its clear they love each other so much and then you come home and have a dream how all 3 of you are in a relationship and its been a year and you still think about it. you know
i hate my brain so much. like i don’t want to waste so much emotional energy on hating myself, this entirely self-absorbed way of being, but it is so fucking hard when i only ever do or say the wrong fucking thing