#how selfish of you

[paper-lilypie]

love language

#fnaf #post fire au #lots to give yet still can’t help but want #crazy how no matter how much you seek it you end up yearning for more #how selfish of you #love langauges #touch starved #sun x reader #moon x reader #mute!moon #mute!sun #art: copper cogs rusted through

[fairuzfan]

Palestinians are blamed for not being kind enough to their occupiers again and again. For not using the right words to describe them. And then they turn around and try to preach politics to us, how we're "oversimplifying" things. I promise you — we know how the system works better than you do. That is why it is all of our dreams to change it. To continue to play in this system is acceptance of the occupier's logic and practices. We will not accept such a thing because their goals are antithetical to our lives. Do not fall for their propaganda — their goal is to obfuscate the truth with half truths and incomparable circumstances.

#40+ days of my peoples genocide being broadcasted on live tv. #palestine #gaza #i am so exhausted #and yet they make it about themselves #i cannot understand how selfish you have to be to make it about yourself #when 75+ years of occupation have occurred #these same people will not spare a breath to share palestinian voices #unless you can unequivocally can say 'land back' then you are not an ally

[jay-wasstuff]

Miguel when a literal 15 year old wanted his dad to live

#no because what did he expect of Miles??? 😭 #man said “how dare you still want your father present in your life!? like u had him for 15 get over it u selfish bitch” #across the spiderverse #spiderverse #spiderman #spiderman 2099 #spiderman across the spiderverse #miles morales #miguel o'hara #across the spider verse spoilers #spiderman atsv #atsv spoilers #atsv #oscar issac #into the spiderverse #into the spider verse

[nellasbookplanet]

In the wake of FCG' fate I've been thinking about death in ttrpgs, and how it kind of exists on three levels:

There’s the gameplay level, where it only makes sense for a combat-heavy, pc-based game to have a tool for resurrection because the characters are going to die a lot and players get attached to them and their plotlines.

Then there’s the narrative level, where you sort of need permanent death on occasion so as not to lose all tension and realism. On this level, sometimes the player will let their character remain dead because they find it more interesting despite there being options of resurrection, or maybe the dice simply won’t allow the resurrection to succeed.

Then, of course, there’s the in-universe level, which is the one that really twists my mind. This is a world where actual resurrection of the actual dead is entirely obtainable, often without any ill effects (I mean, they'll be traumatized, but unless you ask a necromancer to do the resurrection they won’t come back as a zombie or vampire or otherwise wrong). It’s so normal that many adventurers will have gone through it multiple times. Like, imagine actually living in a world where all that keeps you from getting a missing loved one back is the funds to buy a diamond and hire a cleric. As viewers we felt that of course Pike should bring Laudna, a complete stranger, back when asked, but how often does she get this question? How many parents have come and begged her to return their child to them? How many lovers lost but still within reach? When and how does she decide who she saves and who she doesn’t?

From this perspective, I feel like every other adventurer should have the motive/backstory of 'I lost a loved one and am working to obtain the level of power/wealth to get them back'. But of course this is a game, and resurrection is just a game mechanic meant to be practically useful.

Anyway. A story-based actual play kind of has to find a way to balance these three levels. From a narrative perspective letting FCG remain dead makes sense, respects their sacrifice, and ends their arc on a highlight. From a gameplay level it is possible to bring them back but a lot more complicated than a simple revivify. But on an in-universe level, when do you decide if you should let someone remain dead or not? Is the party selfish if they don’t choose to pursue his resurrection the way they did for Laudna? Do they even know, as characters, that it’s technically possible to save someone who's been blown to smithereens? Back in campaign 2, the moment the m9 gained access to higher level resurrection they went to get Molly back (and only failed because his body had been taken back by Lucien). At the end of c1, half the party were in denial about Vax and still looking for ways to save him, because they had always been able to before (and had the game continued longer it wouldn’t have surprised me had they found a way). Deanna was brought back decades after her death (and was kind of fucked up because of it). Bringing someone back could be saving them, showing them just how loved and appreciated they are. Or it could be saving you, forcing someone back from rest and peace into a world that's kept moving without them because you can’t handle the guilt of knowing you let them stay gone when you didn’t have to. How do you know? How would you ever know?

#cr spoilers #sometimes i think about how oryms backstory has it baked in that will was magically impossible to bring back #while yasha was simply not powerful enough in either magic or connections to bring zuala back #and by the time she was years had gone by and yasha had moved on and bringing zuala back would've been cruel and selfish #similar to how deanna was brought back but now she was left behind and alone #speaking of could you ever truly move on from grief in a world like that? #how do you accept the inevitability of death when it isn’t necessarily permanent? #no wonder delilah and sylas went evil to keep each other alive #no wonder laerryn accidentally caused the calamity in trying to break through the planes #the hubris of a world like this would be UNREAL #as would the bitter feelings from everyone who knows this power exists but can’t access it bc they’re like. a farmer #critical role #long post #nella talks cr #cr3 spoilers

[miwtual]

im so fucking tired of the disrespect gifmakers get on the gifmaker website

#kai.txt #negativity tw #(sorry these are gonna be a lot of tags. i have a lot of feelings and i dont know where else to put them) #we make gifs and nobody reblogs them #when they do get reblogged all people want to tell you is that your gifs arent good enough to them and rip it to shreds #'you're missing x' 'why didnt you do y' 'if i made this i would have abc' 'hey op ur wrong and this is why' 'i dont like this op' #reposters dont even reblog your fucking gifset but they'll save your gifs to repost later asking for how to do something #that they could have asked you how to do in the fucking first place #we reblog ourselves constantly because nobody else will and maybe to make our work look like it has more notes than it does #to make ourselves feel better about the lack of interaction we're getting #and then when we TALK about this frustration we have. people who are too afraid to say it to our faces #go on anon in our askboxes and tell us how we're somehow selfish for wanting people to interact with the sets #that we spent time on. hours. days. WEEKS in some cases #or we get anons who tell us the reason we dont have notes are because we arent good at gifmaking in the first place #but this is all on anon. because they're too scared to tell it to our faces #they're too scared for us to see that they ARENT a gifmaker and that they dont know how to do it any better either #they dont see us as people doing something we love as a hobby. they see us as content machines that dance like court jesters #im just so fucking tired of the disrespect #and this sentiment goes for more than just gifmakers. graphicmakers. artists. literally any creative hobby shared on this site #we get treated like shit and for what? literally for fucking what.

[crowlore]

TriMax Volume 10 Chapter 7 and a request left behind

#posts left behind by deactivated blogs my beloved and bittersweet #trigun #trigun maximum #trigun spoilers #nicholas d. wolfwood #vash the stampede #vashwood #i love when my fav dies but gets to live on through his wishes and the memory carried by the people he loved and who loved him in return #re: my post on how trigun is all about inheritance and personhood forged by all the little ways others have touched your life #to be human is to be selfish and that isn't always bad. i am selfish. i teach you to make coffee. years later you still make it the same wa #i am selfish. i live on through you in this even if we never speak again. you have inherited me.

[lovehours]

i don’t even fucking care

#house md #house spoilers #hilson #the fact that house is consistently selfish. that he’s an addict. he’s always in pain #but he gave up his vicodin for wilson. mind you the pain in his thigh must have been excruciating #bc consistently whenever he’s extremely stressed or worried the pain gets worse #but wilson is still his priority. he put wilson above the burning pain god man😭 #him giving up his freedom HIS LIFE for someone who has less than half a year to live like oh my god #the love house has for wilson actually makes me sick bc even outside of the cancer arc house has done things for wilsons sake #like almost killing himself just to help him and amber. drugging him at that one conference from s6 #he’s an asshole often times but he truly is the only constant in his life. they both are for each other #i actually feel sick. im not on everybody dies yet (im on the c word rn) but god idk how im gonna get thru this😭 #5x13 big baby #8x19 the c word #1x01 everybody lies #8x22 everybody dies #7x15 bombshells #8x21 holding on #where the quotes are from btw #sorry for the essay in tags

[bruhstation]

you never change, do you

#thomas the tank engine #thomas and friends #casa tidmouth #ttte henry #ttte gordon #3x4 #senjart #I DONT CARE. #I DONT CAAAARRRREEEEEE!!!!!!! #<— he did in fact care. #thinking too hard about this pic makes my head hurt #its okay if you hate me. its okay if you think Im not the same man that you know. its okay if you refuse to change. #I’ll change for you. because thats how things are always like from the very start #Ill listen to all your stories even though you wont listen to mine #maybe thats how you always are gordon. its okay #youre so selfish. so greedy. so childish! but its okay. thats okay. thats why I’m here to take care of you #you dont want to hug me back? hold me? thats fine by me. anything for you gordon #…… #………. WELL #WELLLLLLLL #GOODNIGHT ALL. I NEED TO BE SEDATED

[doverstar]

to be clear, I think Rose Tyler being an often-selfish character is great. I think it's great because real women are selfish. Real women get petty. Real women hear their ex boyfriend say he's going out with a mutual acquaintance and get unfairly jealous and real women then say things like "she's a bit big" when they shouldn't and they have no right. Real women can be monsters, and Rose Tyler is relatable and I love how she is written and I love her, thanks for listening

#Rose Tyler is so imperfect #she is SO FLAWED and sometimes you get mad at her and that's exactly how all characters should be written #she is compassionate and she is loyal and she is SELF*LESS* to a FAULT sometimes #but she is ALSO selfish #gloriously human #she's SUPPOSED to be the most ordinary girl in the world and you know what? ordinary girls are jerks #I would know. I AM one #write more ordinary girls Doctor Who writers #write them please I'll be your best friend #dw #doctor who #rose tyler #rose marion tyler #whovian #text post #doverstar's thoughts #listen this is not to say that I think being jealous and angry and petty and rude and selfish is GOOD #I'm saying it's good writing to portray FLAWS #because those are FLAWS and people should not be content to be that way #this is not Turning Red

[lambmotifz]

thinking about how dean making the deal was out of love for sam and of selfishness. he did it for sam as much as for himself. i think they pretty much blatantly said it in the crossroad blues where he and sam were once again paralleled to a married couple (dean chewing out the guy that made the deal to save his dying wife by saying “did you ever think about her in all this?” and “i think you did it for yourself so you wouldn’t have to live without her” and “guess what, she’s gonna have to live without you now”. and then he did the same thing to sam). he wanted his little brother back so bad he didn’t care about the consequences and how it’d affect sam (remember mystery spot and how dean’s death was driving sam insane?), or how sam would feel knowing his resurrection costed such a price. he just did it. because sam was always the centre of his world and he wanted him all to himself and to keep him forever. he couldn’t imagine or even handle living without sam and he didn’t care or didn’t think about sam having to live without him. and i love him for that. yes, it was selfish, but also beautiful and tragic and sexy

#“because i couldn’t live with you dead couldn’t do it.” “what you did was selfish” oh i’m gonna go insane #they really said dean is the only one who decides if sam lives or dies. because sam belongs to him #btw it’s not a dean hate post on the contrary i love how unhinged he is about sam #and i love the unhinged choices he makes to keep his baby brother with him forever #wincest #samdean #sam winchester #dean winchester #spn

[ministarfruit]

having normal thoughts about the demon king today

#long post #vtuber #holostars #holotempus #regis altare #doppelgänger gave me flour and I made bread #I love writing villains that don't have a choice but to be a villain #do you understand me #the demon king was created to be evil. he doesn't have a choice #and he knows he's going to lose it all because that's how he's been written #and yet he's an evil version... of a hero? #I think he envies altare personally #because altare gets to choose whether to be good or evil #but the demon king doesn't get that choice #he was born evil and he will die evil too #yet he sees altare having fun with the guild and getting the recognition a hero gets #and he's like... why was I born this way? #why wasn't I born in a world where I could be happy? #yes the demon king is selfish and cruel and violent #and he probably wouldn't change if given the choice #but he was robbed of any other option #he is well and truly alone. while altare lives surrounded by people who love him #and the demon king has to WATCH THAT #he has to WATCH his mirror self enjoy life while he rots in his castle #with nameless servants that don't care about him #then the fire prince destroys everything he owns #AND he knows his entire universe is going to vanish after the season ends. because their world is disposable. including him. #ugh. villains who have no choice but to be villains <3

[mishacakes]

‘cause my love is mine, all mine,

#misha arts #alice and the nightmare #been thinking about loving things lately and how easily joy can be stripped away and it SUCKS #and im so viciously selfish about keeping what i love for me and not letting random people i wouldn’t take advice from ruin it for me #like you cannot take loved away #you cant. i wont let you.

[biblicalhorror]

Girl help they're calling the guy who blackmailed his wife and her teammates over their trauma to save his furniture store a "himbo who just loves his wife and wants her to be happy"

#im being a hater sorry #im just so annoyed with jeff stans lately #listen. its fine if you like him! but hes a bad selfish person just like every other character on this show #i know its easy to forget that in season 2 when the writers keep playing into the whole 'bumbling lovable idiot husband' schtick for laughs #but remember how all of this started #yellowjackets #anti jeff sadecki

[fantasygerard2000]

What are Wish takes you heard that just makes you wanna

#like everytime i hear someone say maginifico is the noble hero and asha is a selfish bad person #my brain just shuts off by how dead their media literacy is #no disrespecting to people having a take you don't like #i understand the criticisms this movie has #i flat out dislike the ones that judged it for what it isn't #disney wish #wish 2023 #wish movie #wish

[forestofsprites]

LOVING MUTUALS MONDAY (*not limited to mondays at all)

#this will never negate the ridiculous levels of stress present in our lives. it won't ever come close to the full reality of our existences #i don't want to be selfish in my proclamation of joy that you are alive and here and i get to know you and love you #but i love you all #i hope that june has moments of joy for you. i hope you get to feel how loved you are! #old fucking planet yet here we are being all conscious on tumblr.com #thoughts

[thepoisonroom]

'I flirted with the idea that instead of being trans that I was just a cross-dresser (a quirk, I thought, that could be quietly folded into an otherwise average life) and that my dysphoria was sexual in nature, and sexual only. And if my feelings were only sexual, then, I wondered, perhaps I wasn’t actually trans.

I had read about a book called The Man Who Would Be Queen, by a Northwestern University professor who believed that transwomen who were attracted to women were really confused fetishists, they wanted to be women to satisfy an autogynephilia. And though I first read about this book in the context of its debunkment and disparagement, I thought about the electricity of slipping on those tights, zipping up those boots, and a stream of guilt followed. Maybe this professor was right, and maybe I was only a fetishist. Not trans, just a misguided boy.

About a year later, on the Internet, I come across a transwoman who added a unique message to the crowd refuting this professor. Oh, I wish I remember who this woman was, and I wish even more that I could do better than paraphrase her, but I remember her saying something like this: “Well, of course I feel sexy putting on women’s clothing and having a woman’s body. If you feel comfortable in your body for the first time, won’t that probably mean it’ll be the first time you feel comfortable, too, with delighting in your body as a sexual thing?”'

-Casey Plett, Consciousness

#this quote always moves me almost to tears when i remember it #i'm not a trans woman and i don't share the author's specific experiences with transition #but it really moves me that she frame transition as joyfully giving yourself permission to approach your body #not as something that has to be disciplined and deprived and made small in all these various ways #but as a means for experiencing pleasure and joy and delight and for insisting that our feelings and desires are worth #valuing and exploring and treasuring #i always used to think of prioritizing those things for myself as selfish and irresponsible #but who does it harm to want to experience pleasure in your own body? #it's such a beautifully simple and powerful switch to have flip in your head #and equally why are we forced to deny our own pleasure in transition and anything else related to our bodies in the name of moral rectitude #this is why i get so confused and pissed off when other trans people are fatphobic for example #like why are you so invested in politics of shame and disgust that never had any purpose other than #violently disciplining people as if they've violated moral codes by existing in a body #to say nothing of white people being racist in gay and trans communities #like again this system of violence is foundational to homophobia and transphobia #so why are you acting like it has nothing to do with you #even if you are unmoved by the urgency of other people's suffering which btw you should be moved by #what do you hope to gain by acting a collaborator and handmaiden to those systems #Casey Plett #she really is one of my favorite authors i wish more non-canadians read her #this quote is from a series of columns she did ont transition and every single one is a banger #i love when she talks about the people-pleasing elements of dysphoria and transition denial #she's so sharp about noting how many of us deny our own dysphoria on the grounds that others like and validate our bodies #that's how i always felt during my cis conventionally feminine era #it pleased other people so much and also that reception felt so hollow and joyless to me because i hated it #i get less of that positive feedback but that feels so unimportant next to the joy and pleasure i get to experience #said with the understanding that i'm very privileged in being able to prioritize those things without fear. but it was a switch flip #personal nonsense