#how the fuck does one explain this shit

[fujii-draws]

OKAY! Chatot rant in tags below! Read at your own discretion.

#okay starting from the beginning of where ppl usually dislike him. apple woods chapter. #he doesn’t give hero/partner the CHANCE to explain themselves despite them being relatively good recruits up until that point. #and that legit might be my only gripe with that chapter bc!!! stories need conflict! I LIKE the conflict in apple woods!!! #hero and partner being punished so something they didn’t do! #the misunderstanding! how team skull (Skuntank) actually outplays the main duo with a clever yet rotten trick. I LOVE that it segways into- #one of the more sweeter scenes of guild members looking out for eachother. I LIKE APPLE WOODS CONFLICT. #but chatot just. not giving them a chance. is so dumb. #I’d personally fix this by having a lil montage of hero/partner fucking up on jobs. A LOT. and chatot giving them a pass every time. #and let the perfect apple incident BE the one where he puts his foot down and doesn’t listen to them. bc he’d given them loads of chances. #and doesn’t want to hear any excuse. #but yeah. I legit dont mind him during that chapter except for that really stupid and frustrating moment. #NOW. CHAPTER 17. #UGGGGHHH WHERE DO I BEGIN #Him not believing hero and Partner about Grovyle and the future being in ruin? FINE. ACTUALLY GOOD. BC CHATOT WOULD BE SKEPTIC. #IT FITS HIS CHARACTER!! #BUT WHAT DOES SUCK. IS HIM GOING ‘Dusknoir isn’t the bad guy. he didn’t do anything wrong’ #WHEN HE LITERALLY KIDNAPPED HERO AND PARTNER RIGHT I N F R O N T OF HIM. #(​NO LITERALLY. HIS CHARACTER IS IN THE FRONT ROW WHEN IT HAPPENED.) #and him. having the GALL to tell hero and partner they must’ve been ‘seeing things’ and downplaying the HELL they went through. #despite them being missing for hours/days. his own guild recruits. and his angry sprite showing up. #like. I think that’s when I genuinely despised him. #that and him going ‘OH I BELIEVED YOU THE WHOLE TIME HEEHOO :)’ shit was so fucking annoying. #just playing it off as a joke the second the guild started to believe hero and partner. #IMAGINE IF HE W A S ACTUALLY TESTING THE GUILD’S TRUST. SHOWCASING HIM AS THE MORE RESPONSIBLE AND RESPECTFUL RIGHT HAND OF THE GUILD. #and yes. Brine cave he saves hero and partner. but at that point I just didn’t care anymore. #he fucked those two over so much. that I didn’t care what ‘valiant’ sacrifice he had. #and he grills Team Skull for what they did OFF SCREEN. they couldn’t even give us THAT. #<<< THAT or him outright saying sorry would’ve been nice. IKIK his ‘actions’ or whatever but. #eughh again this is all imo. I’m not trying to make people hate him or change their mind. #I’ll get into positives in the second post cause I’m running out of tags

[starlooove]

Those mfs that made that “lets taco bout blue beetle” vid need to count your fucking days

#I hope all of you DIE #‘we know he’s Latino he doesn’t need to eat mexican food all the time’ #have you considered that what’s ‘mexican food’ to you is just fucking food for us #‘he’s wearing a three piece suit and she thought he did laundry that would never happen’ TO YOU #IT HAPPENS TO US QUITE OFTEN ACTUALLY #‘how do so many ppl live in one house and not have money’ were you born yesterday? #and then it’s just stupid shit that the movie explained?? #‘how does Rudy have all those add ons if they’re poor’ Rudy is a genius that’s like a major thing in the movie #like a major theme is Rudy being so smart but not in a position to utilize it because of his social status due to racism and xenophobia #ur so racist it’s clouded ur actual basic comprehension skills #I’m so serious when I say I hope they die #AND VIOLENTLY #TODAY #blue beetle spoilers #sorry I forgot that 💀💀💀

[graciousdragon]

I FUCKING DID SOMETHING FOR ONCE LET'S GO!!!

ok so i was listening to this song like a week ago and i saw this animation clear as day in my mind and i knew i had to try and storyboard it out while i was thinking of it. i wanna do the full song at some point because it is So Very Them-coded but i do not have the time rn and will not for a while (i barely had the time to make this) so for now i just made sure i got the really complicated part out of the way. figured i'd post it because. why not lol

anyway. this is for my Darkest Desire AU story!! it's called Glitching Fates!! i am so normal about it and i have been for years now. it is. so far removed from the source material but i do not care it is very special to me :]

as a sort of summary for what's going on here, the night guard and Will used to be really good friends but they both ended up getting busy with their own lives so they couldn't interact as much, and then the whole Glitchtrap possession thing happens which reunites them but also drives a wedge between them since Will is blindly following Glitchtrap while the night guard is trying to find a way to stop Glitchtrap.

i am so not fucking normal about these characters you all have no idea. oh my god. they have permanent residence in my mind rn. i need people to ask me about them or else I Will Become Violent (/j)

hope y'all liked this, or at least i hope y'all found my passive-agressive notes to myself funny lol. under the cut i typed up all the handwritten ones in case y'all want to read them but can't make out my handwriting

a fuckin uh.. pillar or somethin idk

ooh cool scene transition

how do i convey that he's walking onto a train

dismissive wave

hair is longer to indicate passage of time

pretend this shot doesn't look like total dogshit ok?

hey how did my anatomy manage to get That Much Fucking Worse this far in

there is Something wrong here. i just cannot tell What

that is. so much better what the fuck

ok that's all thank you for looking at my post :]

#rys.txt #rys draws #WAVING MY ARMS AROUND WILDLY LIKE ONE OF THOSE WACKY WAVING INFLATABLE TUBE MEN COME HERE AND LOOK AT MY POST PLEASE!!! #I FINALLY COOKED SOMETHING!!! #i finally figured out how to draw decent side profiles that don't look like i'm totally ripping off jamie hewlett's art style i'm so happy #on the topic of my au being super different from the source material. let's be real for a second #does anyone out there have a darkest desire au that isn't totally different from the source material? do those exist? #i don't think i've ever seen one everyone's always taking a ton of liberty with it. and that's okay! :D #anyway. these two are everything to me you don't understand #please. if anyone seeing this wants to know more about my story PLEASE ask me about it (no pressure) #my ask box is open you can ask me anything about this and i will answer happily (or in the notes here is good too) #even if you have no clue what the fuck is going on here. if you don't know shit about fnaf or darkest desire i will explain it for you #glitching fates #glitching fates au #dawko #dagames #night guard dawko

[hecksupremechips]

Minor thing that really irks me is when people treat the femc route in p3 portable as like the lesser story or like it’s a fanfic where nothing that happens in it is the “true” canon like. Bitch. The femc and everything that happens in her version of the story is just as canon as the male protagonist and everything that happens in his story. And there’s literally been so many fucking versions of p3 at this point like the base game, fes, portable, the movies, stage plays, reload, as well as spinoffs and manga and they all do things differently. I don’t see anyone acting like the base game is more canon than, say, reload so why do they do this with portable? Why can’t the (infinitely superior) version with the female protagonist just be respected for five fucking minutes goddamn

#persona #persona 3 #kotone shiomi #its the misogyny yay #but god i am so tired of her game being treated as not actually canon like it literally is #theres multiple canons dipshit there is no true version of this game #and also people saying she doesnt fit the theme or some shit like. she literally does??? and honestly she does it better #like you can really feel the love she brings to the group and how she gives everything life and helps everyone #but also just how it all comes with pain she smiles and befriends everyone but shes always been so deeply alone and she doesnt want anyone #to feel the pain shes felt and so she carries all those burdens on her own and when everyone goes to reach out for her #its too late far too late shed sacrifice herself over and over for these people and theyll never once see her cry #she also you know. actually has good social links and gets to know everyone not just people she wants fuck #so you get to see just infinitely better versions of every character with her she really does bring out the best in them #and another thing in particular with the disrespect of her story is the way shinji living is treated again just like #some kinda fanfic au by someone who didnt wanna cope with their blorbo dying like ughh #shinji surviving is just as canon as him dying there is an entire canon where he gets a happy ending and it is once again #much better than versions where he dies like ive. exhausted myself with explaining it but its just better #so yeah basically out of spite i like acting like kotones story is actually the one true canon #and when people mention stuff that isnt in her story im like ‘huh? what? that didnt happen’ #cuz whos gonna stop me

[secondbutonenothird]

i think y'all would be blown away by how much i think about numbers and how much more i am aware about than most or all of the people that i know

#ocd: #there are two words before the word y'all which is separted by the ' creating a barrer like in sentences that are five words and are #separted by commas like hello (comma) are you okay (comma) (name) #this is three lines and too many words for it to count #sentences that look like they are seven are probably eight unless they are seem like hello are you okay and you (name) that is seven and no #eight nine can be divided into sentences like are you okay are you okay are you okay with it making sense because it is divided by 3 into 3 #which means that it is nine but even though are you okay are you okay is 3s divided it is six which is two and six and not three and nine #when you see signs twelve does not work because six cannot be divied into three and can be divided into one but that is too many words on #one line for it to be socially accpectable eight does not work on more than one line expect if you make it eight lines #nine works and three works and one works obviously #that sentence right there is ten words but 2 2 3 so sort of not working but since it is counts it is probably okay #i have figured out a lot of this and i have a ton of examples because i am working with numbers constantly #following three people having an even or odd amount of followers #five is an accpectable nummber becauuse it go like 10 15 20 and so on which are good numbers #11 and 10 look surpisingly similar and are easy to notice #watching tv shows is interesting #you can usually fix a lot of sentences with the words as but and #like if a sentence was hi how are you period i am okay you could hi as i am okay but how are you #i know that sounds like shit and does not make sense but it works for me in those kind fo situations #because i read it and edit it at the same time #books are worse because you can look at the paragraph for a while trying to figure out what makes sense #sometimes i just read them over and over again trying to figure out how to make it so the amount of lines is the right number #is the right number and the amount of sentences is the right numbeer and the words is a right number #i can explain more examples because you know i have a lot because i do this for more than like 3 hours a day for almost a year i am doing i #right now if you have not noticed that everything is following it #i swear it was there but now it is not there so i am just going to say it #sometimes i wonder if i am overexgratting how hard it is to have ocd or if it is just something simple and i should not be so fucking #dramatic #shitposting #mental illness ocd

[nintendont2502]

It's actually so so important that Alpha Dave Strider is kinda weird and pathetic. To me, anyway.

#he isnt some cool famous movie director hes just a freak. hes a weirdo. hes making weird as fuck movies and having the time of his life #he does the weirdest shit and then years later dirk is pulling the hardest reaches trying to justify it #'when he walked into that interview wearing a full fursuit and didnt explain it that was actually subtle commentary on how the batterwitch #was dehumanising everyone in plain sight and no one ever brought it up because they were brainwashed to think otherwise. like cattle. #and the only reason that suit was never seen again was because he was symbolically rejecting the dehumanisation and reclaiming his humanity' #and in reality dave just thought it looked fun #wore it to the interview 'ironically' #and then one (1) person said something mildly bad about it and he destroyed it #all canon btw im literally andrew hussie #me.txt

[hyp3rfixation-h3ll]

i have been Considering. watching sgt frog again. bc i stopped at around 119 . and it is a very fun show. but The Horrors

#sgt frog #keroro gunso #i cannot explain to you the amount of mental shit i have to brace myself for when watching this show #its good! dont fucking watch it. please god #its like home//stuck . like im dead serious it has the same effect #everyone who ive asked about hs to. has told me Never to read it #and im going to repeat that same sentiment for sgt frog. Never fucking watch this show /lh #they GET YOU with the first episode it's CAPTIVATING it's UNIQUE its like CANDY #and the rest of the show is one Long #Long #terrible horrible no good Very Bad trip . that IS GOOD. in some parts #but sometimes it leaves you wondering what the FUCK they were smoking in the writer's office #this isnt accounting for how unwelcome in the fandom i feel being a keroro fictive btw. which is its whole OTHER POST that nobody'll read #my point is . fucking . sgt frog sucks (affectionately derogatory) #it aged like the finest Milk left out on a Hot summer day in arizona #and by god we are all consuming the absolutely rotten curds #sorry for that analogy it was trhe best i got #btw i put this in the main tags . bc everyone Knows sgt frog sucks. we;ve all agreed this show sucks Butt and Ass and Balls #i should hope so anyways #because it does. its GOOD dont get me wrong. but Oh My God is it Bad

[xxcherrycherixx]

i just think cupid and blondie should get wasted in their dorm room.

cupid ends up an emotional mess and cries while blondie sits trying to comfort her even though she is currently struggling to stay up and keeps spacing out every 10 seconds

five minutes later blondie is desperately trying to stop cupid from calling her ex for a booty call.

after an awkward call where abbey reminds cupid she has a boyfriend which leads to the cherub drunkenly yelling and eventually crying into blondies shoulder, the two girls somehow end up making out on the floor.

blondie wakes up on the front lawn of a school called monster high with the worse hangover ever and heart shaped lipstick marks everywhere and decides maybe the idea of never drinking again (or at least not with cupid) sounds just right.

#ever after high #c.a cupid #blondie lockes #i like to think this is just a regular saturday night for cupid #homegirls raised by greek gods im sure she knows how to party #blondie gets stuck at monster high for like a fucking week and when she comes back theres a full on search party for her going on #blondie has no idea how to explain where she was to everyone #no one knows where cupid disappeared to and she doesn't come back for like a month but when she does she just goes on like nothing happened #i just want to say: yes my mind is a fucking disaster zone full of smut and crack scenarios and yes i will write more of this shit (。_。)

[hella1975]

yes im trying not to be so mean yes im working on my temper but under no section of my Healing Contract does it mention that these things must apply to my sister. in fact if you read the fine print it says im actively allowed to make her miserable. for my mental health

#she's so mean all the time like constantly telling me im stupid and shit #which probably didn't hit as hard before this econ degree but now every time she does it im just kinda like :/ #and i laugh it off obvs bc am i fuck about to look put out by it #so she genuinely doesnt have any reason to stop bc ive not set any boundaries or communicated or yk. done anything correctly #i instead just let it frustrate the fuck out of me until one day im in a bad enough mood that i'll give as bad as she does #which i HATE bc as tough shit as she thinks she is i always think being mean - specifically the primary school way she does it - #is SO embarassing as a conflict method like girl 'you're stupid' is really the best you can come up with? bffr 😭 #like when i say IM mean and SHE'S mean im talking about very different things #im mean less often than her but when i do it it's effective bc i literally catalogue people's insecurities and use them against them #like some fucking anime villian like it's actually uncomfortable to watch and i hate myself every time #whereas her way is effective bc it's all dumb comments ANYONE could make but she says them repeatedly until she wears you down #and of the two methods they're both shit but at least my way isn't cringe LMAO #so if i ever get so frustrated i revert to her method i just get v annoyed with myself like IM better than this she might not be but i am #and we've just been moving things in the garden with mum which is a flashpoint anyway #and me and my sister were just GOING at each other and it was all jokes until i said something she didn't like #and she was like 'what's your problem? it's fine when we're joking but you always take it too far' girl. #like i cannot accurately explain on here how ridiculous that statement is coming from HER #and if id said something actually horrible id get it but the convo was literally just #her: mum can i wear your watch for the chem ball coming up? #me: why do you need a watch for that? #her: ive got a dumb tan line on my wrist that i want to cover #me: i really dont think anyone is going to be looking at your wrists #THAT WAS IT LMFAO??? YOU HYPOCRITICAL LITTLE BITCH #ironically i had a field day with it like her saying that was the worst thing she could have done #latched onto it like a bloodhound fr my eyes must have lit up #i was like 'dont be such a baby' which is basically a fucking trigger word in our house #thought she was gonna hit me with a spade <3 peace and love on planet earth #godddddd i cant wait for her to go back to uni i HATE sharing a room i cannot escape her she's literally here as i type #i hope she knows im slagging her off to my niche online micro-community #hella goes home

[oc-cinematic-universe]

i LOOOVE thinking about fantasy disabilities!!!! i love figuring out what people would have to do to accommodate them! it's literally awesome!

#fun after-comic joe facts time yayyy so joe's soul got a little bit fucked up #its just this small crack. which makes him entirely unresponsive to anything for like 5 minutes max #at seemingly random intervals. it slows down and doesnt last as long as it heals but its still like #not good lol #and its just gonna keep happening the rest of his life because souls fuckin heal weird #its one of many problems disorders he has to deal with this ones just special because doctors have #NO clue what to do with him so he and his friends just gotta figure out how to cope with it themselves #after a while he can kinda tell when its about to happen a few seconds before it does #so because he's rarely left alone anyways because he. cant take care of himself much anymore #he can give them a warning and they will make sure nothing dangerous will come from it and just wait for him to come to #as it heals and becomes less of a problem it kinda becomes more of a problem ironically #he does reach a point where he can mostly handle himself. but he cant do shit when that happens #except try to sit down asap. so while it happens less often it causes More Incidents. alas #i think kiara's way of dealing with it happening in particular is so silly #cause she just. grew up with him like this. this is just normal to her she's never questioned it #like oh ok dad's blanked out again i will just wait so patiently for it to be done so i can keep showing him #my mlp toys and explaining mlp lore to him #it happens and she just stops what she's doing and waits for him then continues as if nothing happened #everyone else gets so fussy about him when it happens but kiaras just #are you done? ok so pinkie pie is the laughter pony #he thinks its awesome he loves her so much

[keelanrosa]

terfs when a study shows literally anything positive about trans people/transitioning: 'hm i think this requires some fact-checking. Were those researchers REALLY unbiased? Because if they were biased this doesn't count and if they weren't knowingly biased they probably were unconsciously biased, woke media affects so much these days. Have there been any other studies on this? Because if there haven't been this could be an outlier and if there have been and they all agree that's a bit odd, why aren't there any outliers, and if there have been and any disagree we really won't know the truth until we very thoroughly analyze them all, will we? Were there enough subjects for a good sample size? Did every single subject involved stay involved through the whole study because if they didn't we should be sure nothing shady was going on resulting in people dropping out. Are we 110% sure all the subjects were fully honest and at no point were embarrassed or afraid to admit they didn't love transitioning to the people in charge of their transition? Are we 110% sure none of the subjects were manipulated into thinking they were happy with their transition? In fact we should double-check what they think with their parents, because if the subjects and their parents disagree it's probably because they've been manipulated but their cis parents have not and are very unbiased. How many autistic subjects were there because if there weren't enough then this doesn't really study the overlap between autistic and trans and if there were too many then we just don't know enough about what causes that overlap to be sure this study really explains being trans and isn't just about being autistic. How many AFAB subjects were there because if there weren't enough this is just another example of prioritizing AMAB people and ignoring the different struggles of girls and women and if there were too many how do we know sexism didn't affect the results. Was the study double-blinded? We all know double-blinded is the most reliable so if this one wasn't that's a point against it even if the thesis literally physically could not be double-blinded. Look i'm not being transphobic, i want what's best for trans people! Really! But as a person who is not trans and therefore objective in a way they cannot possibly be, i just think we should only take into account Good Science here. You want to be following science and not being manipulated or experimented upon by something unscientific, right?'

terfs when they see a study of 45 subjects so old it predates modern criteria for gender dysphoria and basically uses 'idk her parents think she's too butch', run by a guy who practiced conversion therapy, 'confirmed' by a guy who treated the significant portion of subjects who didn't follow up as all desisting, definitely in the category of 'physically cannot double-blind this', completely contradicted by multiple other studies done on actual transgender subjects, but can be kinda cited as evidence against transitioning if you ignore everything else about it: 'oOOH SEE THIS IS WHAT WE'RE TALKIN BOUT. SCIENCE. Just good ol' unbiased thorough analysis. I see absolutely no reason to dig any deeper on this and if you think it's wrong you're the one being unscientific. It's really a shame you've been so thoroughly brainwashed by the trans agenda and can't even accept science when you see it. Maybe now that someone has finally uncovered this long-lost study from 1985, we can make some actual progress on the whole trans problem.'

#science #transphobia #cass review #less 'cass review' generally more 'zucker specifically' because this same problem exists outside cass #have lost count of the number of times i've seen 'well THAT study may have said most trans kids persist but it MUST be wrong' #'there's another study says the exact opposite. that one's right. obviously.' #but cass is why i'm annoyed by it now #normally i don't have a problem with critical observations and questions. yeah check your science! that's good! #there have been some bullshit studies and some bullshit interpretations of good studies! scientific literacy is important! #and normally also am willing to pretend the people pulling reaction 1 on some studies and reaction 2 on others are. not the same group. #but now there's a ton of cass supporters tryna say 'oh the cass review didn't reject or downplay anything for being pro-trans!' #'some studies just weren't given much weight for being poor evidence! not our fault those were all studies with results trans people like!' #…….………….aight explain why zucker's findings are used for the 'percentage of trans kids who don't stay trans' stat instead of anyone else's. #would've been more scientifically accurate to say 'yeah we just don't know.' #'studies have been done but none of them fit our crack criteria sooooo *shrug*' #like COME ON at least PRETEND you're genuinely checking scientific correctness and not looking for excuses to weed out undesirable results #am also mad about zucker in particular because his is possibly the most famous bullshit study #quite bluntly if you're doing trans research and think 'yeah this one seems reasonable' you. are maybe not well-informed enough for the job #there's just no way you genuinely look at the research with an eye toward accurate science regardless of personal bias #and walk away thinking 'hm that zucker fellow seems reasonable. competent scientists will respect that citation.' #that's one or two steps above doing a review of vaccine science and seriously citing wakefield's mmr-causes-autism study #it doesn't matter what the rest of your review says people are gonna have OPINIONS on that bit #and outside anti-vaxxers most of those opinions will be 'are you actually the most qualified for this because ummmm.' #people who agree with everything else will still think someone more competent could've done a much better job #people who disagree with everything else will point to that as proof you don't know shit and why should we listen to you #anyway i'd love a hugeass trans science review with actual fucking standards hmu if you know of one cause this ain't it #……does tumblr still put a limit on how many tags you can include guess me and my tag essay are about to find out.

[the-everqueen]

the thing is, i can't afford an adult assessment/diagnosis and there's no guarantee i would meet the requirements. but also...what accommodation could i feasibly get? i'm good at course design, at curating assignments, at one-on-one interactions with students. i'm a good writer and a good presenter. but i need at least one hour of recovery for every hour of interaction with people i don't know. i need to be allowed to not make eye contact or smile All The Time. i have a maximum of time i can be "engaged" in planned interactions and after that i need either a buffer (another person, stimulant, non-conversational activity) or the grace to not be socially performative. i need people to be honest with me. i need people to understand how *i* work and work with me, not against me. i need clearly articulated expectations. i need things in writing, because my hearing/memory sometimes glitch. on paper i'm an excellent option for a department, but in person i'm "weird" or "not engaged" or "not a good fit." there is no accommodation that doesn't involve academics questioning their racist, cissexist, classist, ableist biases, and remodeling their whole approach to the job market. which they're not gonna do! so i just have to hope that i can garner enough other things in my favor (an article published, an intervention that seems useful, glowing student evals) so that a department will overlook my "quirkiness" and give me some kind of chance.

#welcome to academia #this is your brain on autism #like so much of the academic process is reliant on shit like networking that no one teaches you how to do #and so many neurotypicals find...if not second nature at least not something that needs explaining. #also there's nothing preventing a dept from refusing to hire me bc they think me being autistic is Too Much #(yeah yeah anti-discrimination laws but. ''you're not a good fit'' does a LOT of heavy lifting.) #either i charm people with my personality or they profoundly dislike it #and...i mean. luckily my grad dept leaned more toward liking it. a dept of other ppl on the spectrum tbh. #[institution redacted] REALLY does not like it lmao #yesterday my ''mentor'' kept trying to catch my eye or see what i was looking at #when i looked away from her in order to gather my thoughts/words #fucking hate that

[lyxchen]

"Explain it to me like I'm stupid.. but I am actually stupid I don't get it please I do need you to explain this like I am a 6 year old child that has to learn how to write the letter A for the first time"

#seriously #this is about uni rn #because i have to take a course about chemistry and my goodness i am not smart enough for chemistry #please i am begging for somebody to explain this shit to me as if i don't even know what a molecule is (i seriously don't) #these are all just words to me #they don't make any sense #i've always had this with physics and biology too #i'm just not good at that #i don't understand how things work and how they are connected and i need to visualize shit to learn it and I Can't #it makes no sense!! #this #it's too small for me #and i mean physically #an atom is physically too small for me to understand how it works #i can't even see one in real life because they are too damn small #how am i supposed to know how an atom works when i can't even see it??? #how am i supposed to get this from only a drawing #you put three lines in zigzag shape infront of me and call it butane and how the fuck is that Anything????? #those are Lines #and what even is butane?? #what is it for? how does ut work? why do i need to know this????? #my brain #my brain can't #it can not for the love of anything understand this in any way that makes sense #because in chemistry and biology and physics thing just Are #like #there's only rules and they are there and you can't change them and that's just how it is #and then you want me to remember all of those rules when i don't even know Why They Make Sense??? #Explain It To Me #I Don't Get It

[thethingything]

every so often Lucy just casually mentions an experience we've had and it's like "excuse me, what the actual fuck???" because it's always the kind of thing that's like, deeply fucked up and obviously traumatic and that our brain has respressed up to this point but they mention it like it's just any random event and the rest of us end up sat there like "hey are you fucking alright?" at which point I think they realise that this was probably actually a big deal

#personal #thoughts #🍬 post #this post was prompted by Lucy casually mentioning something to explain a line in one of our old poems #and the other 3 alters present being like ''hey uhh that sounds really traumatic are you fucking okay???'' #and while we're not distressed after talking about this I can tell ur brain was probably repressing that for a reason #because now we're getting a migraine and our brain's starting to feel kind of fuzzy #but the thing they mentioned does probably explain some shit so that's something #I can also feel the denial about how bad it was kicking in so yeah that's an incident that fucked us up more than we realised

[strwbrymlkshake]

Why can't I be satisfied with everything? It needs to be perfect to me and I can't accept anything otherwise :(

#mine #oh boy here we go. guy last post was about has been pretty cool and i got flustered around him a few times #but i feel bad bc. i need m o r e he isnt insane enough he isnt making me go absolutely crazy i want to be satisfied but im NOT im sorry #like its quite honestly the most attention acceptance etc ive gotten but its not ENOUGH he doesnt die whenever i send a selfie #im never satisfied WHY i have unrealistic expectations !!!! i hate my brain killing and violence and death etc #i get crushes on guys who want nothing to do with me but then when one actually wants me its not enough? what is wrong with me #thrill of the chase? i cant accept being loved? what is it brain. christ almighty. im not doing anything like deliberately yandere related #anymore im just being generally incomprehensibly mentally ill 🙄 still trying to find a therapist but idk how on earth ill explain that #ill update this post tomorrow with more insanity but for now i am the sleepy tired #// ok its now 3 days later i dont feel like making another post. i think i was just having a mental illness moment as always #because he does make me insane. hashtag girl. im trying to be the smartest and calculated i have ever been with a relationship in my life #like im thinkin about it so hard bro. the future n shit. how would this relationship go. im so scared ill do something wrong its preventing #me from doing things RIGHT. im sad becaude i flipped out today over even imagining him being upset with me a little #so i was really embarrassed and it put me in a weird mood for the rest of the night but he reassured me he doesnt hate me or want me to die #every one aaalways says theyre different. i can only hope this one is telling the truth. i dont know what ill do if he isnt. #well i need to stop whining about fictional scenarios and focus on the good stuff in reality. i get along with him very well and he #is very niceys to me :3 he doesnt think im fucking insane or stupid for overreacting. i feel very comfortable gossiping and talking w him #every long time blog viewer of mine reading this like ah shit here we go again #but thats what im here for. i guess. just have to keep doing this shit until something good finally happens to me romantically hngh #i feel so strange because i have wanted and yearned for a relationship but now that i actually could have one im like WAIT #I DIDNT THINK ID GET THIS FAR 💀💀💀 bruh. and he doesnt even think im stupid hes respectful to me he checks in on me all the time #like perhaps the only person to ever actually almost match my energy in a romantic sense. there was [redacted] i guess but he didnt love me #he listens to me talk about my problems he doesnt think i complain or overreact too much. all the ridiculous cringe shit i do #he doesnt mind it. its nice to be able to be myself. and im really proud of myself for not rushing into a relationship right away

[charlemane]

it feels kind of dumb to complain about something as niche as bad prosopagnosia representation? but also every time i see this condition depicted in fiction they do it so, so stupidly

#shout out to the short horror story about the prosopagnostic man who murdered his own daughter bc she got a haircut #and he thought she was a stranger impersonating his daughter. bc that's how prosopagnosia works (wrong) #shoutout to horror podcast The Black Tapes for using prosopagnosia to ''explain'' non-prosopagnostic ppl not recognizing their own faces #(also not how it works. if you do not have prosopagnosia you do not have prosopagnosia) #shoutout to horror podcast Archive 81 for interpreting ''faceblindness'' to mean we literally don't see faces? ? ? #like? we just perceive the fronts of people's heads as featureless expanses? ? ? i shouldn't have to explain that that isn't how it works #''oh but clearly they're using it as a horror thing-'' yeah and they tied that horror thing to a real live condition had by real live ppl #and i GENUINELY met someone who believed that! in real life! #shoutout to that one episode of Rizzoli and Isles that is genuinely not bad compared to some of the other things on this list but #still portrayed their prosopagnostic character as a tragic case whose life was deeply limited by his prosopagnosia #ok now i'll admit that the reason this list is skewed towards horror might be bc i as the curator of this list consume a lot of horror #but i also feel like. there's a tendency among non-prosopagnostic ppl to perceive this condition as inherently ''creepy'' #and run off writing horror stories about it after skimming one (1) google result of research #and that's dumb as fuck from a writing perspective but also... #genuinely kinda alienating from the perspective of someone who does live with this shit irl #anyways if i wrote a horror story about prosopagnosia it would be GOOD.