I was hoping to have more information before I made this post, so apologies for that. The news is starting to seep onto the platform though, as people share tributes as a way to process their own grief, so I think it’s time.
@siriussly-serious (he/they), mostly known here as Jay but also as Blu, Royale (in drag) and Jaxon, has passed away. Little is known at this point, other than that he was missing since Monday (10th May), reported as missing to the police on Wednesday (12th May) and found yesterday (15th May). This isn’t the right place for speculation, so I will have more to say when I have more information.
Although he hasn’t been active on the platform for a long time, Jay was a much loved member of the HP RP community. He was particularly an inspiration for LGBTQ+ creators and POC, going out of his way to encourage and promote anyone who felt they weren’t good enough or didn’t belong. He had so much love, which he handed out freely and sincerely to anyone and everyone who needed it. He created Found, a ridiculously ambitious project which I was privileged enough to be a part of, and which he was unfortunately unable to see through the way he desperately wanted to.
Jay would want me to tell you he was 6ft7, everyone was welcome to the gun show and the cheaper and higher percentage your rose wine is, the better. He wouldn’t want me to gush about what an amazing singer, performer, drag artist, RPer, artist, writer, Muddy, creative and friend he was, but tough shit mate, come and stop me. He loved cheap rose, gin, rum, milkshakes, white chocolate, Beyonce, drag kings, queers being queer, people living their best life, Hamilton, cuddles, sandalwood incense and salt lamps (but not when he wasn’t allowed to lick them). So if you want to celebrate him in your own way, there’s some ideas for you. Just stay away from whisky and any other kind of chocolate. No thank you, ma’am.
I was lucky enough to spend a lot of time in person with Jay over the last 3 years, but to those who never met him, your grief is just as valid. Your friendship was real, your love and loss is real. He loved you, he was proud of you every day you went out into a world that tries to tell you you’re broken or not enough. You are enough, and Dad is watching over you.
Jay had a large online presence, particularly in the drag king community, so I’m sure there will be some online tributes and possibly events. I will reblog this post adding information as I get it, including any tributes and donation information for those who can and would like to.
Rest in Power, Jay. It won’t be the same without you.
This is a question that is repeated over and over again in my tumblr inbox, something I haven’t looked at in more than three months.
Hi, it’s me. I haven’t been around in a while.
If you happen to follow me on my other social platforms, you’ll know that there’s been a huge amount going on in my life for the past 3-4 months, things that don’t even involve a global pandemic or crippling social crises.
Me and TT announced a short while ago that we are in a relationship, something I’m sure most of you have heard by now! Unfortunately I also had some pretty serious health problems ( thankfully now on the mend ) that I was dealing with. I’ve been going to therapy and spending more time with friends and navigating a long distance relationship in a time where most international borders are closed.
Also, my disgust at the author of Harry Potter has made me very reluctant to make content that furthers her legacy and the world she created.
All of these things have contributed to my absence on here, but most of all, I’m making different content now.
The past year TT and I have written, filmed and produced three original series for our TikTok channels, two of which are more than 30 parts long, definitely the biggest and most ambitious projects we’ve done so far! My audience has expanded and all of my time is currently spent managing my Patreon and wider content, a job that is both stressful and one that I am immensely grateful for.
So, have I stopped doing HPRP? For now, I think so. The content I make now is primarily video-based and allows me much more creative freedom than gif threads do. Have I stopped making Harry Potter content completely? I’m currently undecided on that one.
I do hope there will be a point in the future where our love of the Harry Potter universe is preserved and it feels like a safe space for the people the author has caused so much pain and hurt towards. But I also feel like that is a hard thing to do currently. I definitely have had much of the joy I felt towards Harry Potter replaced with a lot of sadness. And I’ve always said, I will never make content that doesn’t make me happy.
I hope to make Harry Potter content again, I really do. I’m sure me and TT will return here once in a while to do an online ask session, and perhaps I’ll post any threads on a platform like Patreon where people who really want to see it can do so, but people who don’t feel comforted by it any more aren’t subjected to it. I’ll have a think on that one.
This isn’t a goodbye at all. Feel free to continue to send me asks, I’ll answer them whenever I pop back on here. I am still very active on platforms such as Twitter, Instagram, and TikTok. If you want to follow my content, that’s where you should go.
I am so incredibly proud of the HPRP community and the stories it has produced for the past 5 years. The content I’ve created for it will always be here for you to look back on and enjoy if you wish. I hope it continues to live on for those who still wish to be a part of it.
Thank you for all of the support you’ve given me in the past and continue to give me. This platform truly changed my life and provided me with the best friends and partner I could ask for. Whatever happens, for me it has left a beautiful mark with wonderful memories on the world.
He wakes with a sob, as if from some horrific dream. But he doesn’t recognize himself. These hands are not his hands, this face is not his face, and the panic begins to swell in him. Desperate he grasps at the last shreds of his lost personhood.
The loving feel of maternal arms wrapped in a tight embrace, the shared laughter on the faces of friends closer than brothers, a secret smile and a sigh and the graze of soft, pink lips. Are these memories? The images sear into his skin like the tip of a hot knife, but the pain is so acute he can’t make out the details.
“ I am still human, I am still human,” he breathes into the darkness. And as he lies in the fugue of his own existence, he hears a bitter whisper.
Is this real or is this the dream?
(OOC: A bit nervous to post this since it’s been so long, but I took these pictures of Remus before lockdown and was just too overwhelmed to do much with them at the time.
I based the photos on THIS amazing artwork from @atalienart. I fell in love with it the first time I saw and wanted to replicate it. I didn’t quite pin down the exact pose and emotions, but it is what it is! Feedback is much loved and appreciated!)
There is a wider archive being collected for @siriussly-serious (which you can read about here) but because of the nature of gif RP and Tumblr, I’ve also created a way for us to share our favourite posts and memories of Jay in one place.
So the idea is that I’ve made a Google Doc which contains links to a number of Jay’s posts. The title of each post has a comment thread attached to it. You can click the title or click the comment thread on the right to add your own comment about that particular post. You can copy in your original tags, write a story about the impact it had on you, or just share how it made you feel. No thought is too big or too small, but do bare in mind that anyone can see this. Also please note that when you comment, it will display the full name of the account you are logged in as. Due to this, if you wish to comment under a different name or anonymously, you can dm me or drop in my ask box.
This Google Doc is a work in progress, but that’s because I need you guys to help me complete it. If Jay’s blog has a tagging system, I don’t understand it so it’s hard to find what I’m looking for. I’ve started going through the blog systematically, but that’s going to take a while so I’m hoping that enough of us can search our own tags for reblogs to find what we want. There’s not many posts on there at the moment, so if you have one you want added, please send me the link and I’ll put it in.
So here’s the link to the Memories and Stuff Google Doc:
[ID: A cartoonised photo of Jay cosplaying as Remus Lupin with wig, hat and facial hair, holding up a suitcase with text overlayed reading: ‘ @siriussly-serious Memories and Stuff, a tribute collaboration.’]