How does Merc aka Horrorswap sans end up integrating his determination?
Well see, the problem Merc (HorrorswapSans) has boils down to just too much DT.
It's a very powerful substance, too strong and too foreign to his monster body to vibe with his magic correctly. It's like oil and water, with the DT just...sitting on top of his magic, separate from it, but creating interference--his soul tries to communicate normally with his body, but the DT is gunking up the signal, garbling it and making things go haywire (re: the melting problem).
The ideal situation, where this isn't really a problem, would be if there were a much smaller amount of DT in the equation, like Ell was given. Not too much to overpower his normal magic and functioning, but still enough to bolster his body and soul in a harmonious ratio.
I mean...Merc can't undo that part, unfortunately. He'd have considered it, but the DT extractors haven't worked in years, and even then they were designed to work with.........considerably less...alive... subjects. By the time he could maybe get it working and reconfigure it, the DT's already been in him too long, attached. It won't mix, it won't blend properly with the rest of him, but it's part of him and trying to get rid of it altogether would probably just kill him.
...But maybe there's an idea in there after all.
The ratio's off. It won't blend.
But what if it wasn't? What if it could?
If Merc can alter his side of the equation--his magic--expand the pool into which the DT is trying to integrate...maybe it could mix, finally, instead of just sitting on top and suffocating him his magic beneath it.
In theory, it works.
If he had enough, if he could produce enough magic for the DT to become soluble, it would fix the problem. He wouldn't have to maintain it indefinitely, he'd just need to do it once and his body could adapt, his levels would stabilize and excess DT would burn off along with excess magic, once they were in sync and part of the same system like they were supposed to be all along.
.........
But no. It's not possible.
He's strong, he has a lot of magic, especially with the DT involved, but the numbers...
No.
Not even he could generate that much, as much as the numbers suggest he might need to do this.
Kicking himself in hindsight again, if he only knew how much he overdosed himself by before he did it, if only he hadn't done it in the first place...!
...Well.
Maybe...
I mean, if he had help...
If...there was another strong monster, willing to give him a graft of their magic, to break that impossibly high threshold...
But it would have to be someone close to him, of a similar monster type, very strong and...
It would be...asking so much.
It would be a risk to his--...the donor too, and to ask for such a thing, from someone he's already hurt so much--
"don't be stupid," says Ell. "you don't have to ask."
So...Merc gets a magic graft from his brother, making enough room in him for DT red and sky blue to finally mix.
And in the end, he's left a very happy skeleton with soft pink eyes that reflect every bit of the mile-wide grin on his face when the nightmare is finally, finally over.
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Merc and Ell, @popatochisssp 's horrorswap sans and papyrus
He had to inject himself with DT to survive the situation they were in, but, uh... it was a bit too much. Many issues have arisen from all the trauma and whatnot
Abt the top gif: he clenches and unclenches his hands to try and regulate his emotions and keep himself from literally losing composure and turning into a melty puddle like the amalgamates
Background lore, excellent narrative writing and character work:
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thing is, and again take this with a grain of salt if you'd rather take the fiction for what it is (fiction), but the childhoods of dean and sam can be such a compelling parallel for real-world childhood abuse that it does make for a wildly interesting analysis.
you've got this perfectly crafted scenario in which these children, dean particularly, are faced with a knowledge much greater than them - weight of the world type inappropriate for their age groups - but they can't tell anyone. they are fundamentally cut off from their peers in this knowledge. of course, the knowledge in question largely stands for the world of hunting and the monsters therein, but it's very much the abuse wrapped up within that, as well. dean's going to school, trudging through because he's a keeper of that information, and boy doesn't the world and the knowledge of your peers take on a scary triviality when you know that vampires exist, that demons make deals that take lives. it's a loss of innocence and the disconnect that stems from it. when you have to steal to better provide for your baby brother, sitting through algebra feels laughable.
and again, john's got this perfect narrative going for him in that save for bobby (perhaps best regarded as a healthier father figure, certainly not peer-level) and a few others, the boys cannot share their knowledge of monsters and thus they cannot likewise share the extent of their abuse or neglect. take it further, it's wrapped up in a bow of 'it's a greater good - this is why your mother died.' and you'd listen and you'd take it because why on earth wouldn't you? you love your dad, he loves you, and yeah, everything's gone to shit since mum died. when that's what's on the line, what else is there to do
it's an extraordinary compiling of trauma but despite its supernatural origins it does a shockingly interesting job as a parallel (though again, this is fiction, grain of salt) to real-world abuse
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